Amma’s Recent Visit to London
How are you? I know that many of you have taken the recent Vortex Healing classes here in London, or have been with Amma, or Mooji. I would love to hear your stories, so please do write if you have time.
I have an Amma story to share from one of you who met Amma for the first time in London:-
“I remember you saying the experience can be bit like your issues being brought up like iron filings drawn to a magnet and that is a bit like the way it was on the first day. As soon as Amma came in the room I could feel a palpable current of love. I spent most of the day just sitting in the hall taking it all in, until it was my turn for Darshan. I was quite nervous for some reason and felt kinda awkward and conflicted to be honest and the hug seemed to happen quite fast, but I went to sit down behind Amma in a bit of a daze. But then while sitting I started to feel incredibly emotional for a reason I can’t explain, it was intense to the extent that I felt that I was on the verge of completely breaking down crying, everyone else around me seemed completely calm and I was on the verge of completely losing it! It was almost like I was torn in two. It took me a while to recover and take it all in.
I decided to go back a second day during the morning again and was fortunate that it wasn’t so busy that I could have a second Darshan at the end, this time it wasn’t so much about stuff coming up and there wasn’t the intense emotions coming up, but this time as I sat in the seats on the stage my legs turned to jelly, the hug seemed to last a lot longer this time and as I sat down I could feel a lot of releases in my body like warmth coming to my head and rushes of energy which was very pleasant and not at all overwhelming this time.
I am very grateful to you for telling me about Amma and encouraging me to go because it was a very powerful experience for me. I have had a taste now of her power and how she inspires so many people and why so many people are dedicated to her.”
I feel the need to share something with you because it is the reason why some of you may have felt me ‘off the radar’ for a month. Sarah and I have broken up. It happened exactly 1 month ago today (the day before Amma arrived in London). After such a deep, loving and truthful relationship, plus 6 and a half years together and two engagements, it’s a lot to lose. So I am going through a very painful time. Please do not stay away though. I am finding that the state I am in is actually deepening sessions with you, and working is helping me too.
This is what I meant in my last email about the significance of Amma chanting “My Love” (rather than “My Daughter”) in my ear during darshan in Berlin, after London. I don’t mean that I go to Amma for the major decisions in my life, that is not something I tend towards. But I knew when she said that that she was pulling me closer, into Love in its purest form, the true Lover – Divinity itself.
I immersed myself in seva in London as usual, and that helped. We earned £10,221 for Amma’s humanitarian charities this year – in the massage area in London alone! Yes, seriously. At the end of the second evening in London, to everyone’s amazement Amma got up from darshan (at around 4am) and began to dance! Sarah and I were on the stage and our mouths just fell open. We watched in amazement as Amma performed a traditional Keralan dance for everyone around her. Bear in mind, I had only ever seen Amma dance once before this, during the 12 years I have been with her. It was very powerful. She then repeated this wonderful ritual in Berlin and Milan, and I believe in most of the stops on the European tour. Lucky us!
At the end of Devi Bhava in London, Amma showered us with flower petals while Swamiji blasted an absolutely amazing bhajan. If you have not had this experience, I highly recommend it. It was a profound one for me. I got hit by 3 bunches of petals and as they hit me I felt all the tiredness in my muscles from doing massage seva leave my body: just by throwing flower petals, Amma performed a healing. Really everything she does is imbibed with energy and meaning: if you watch her over time I believe you will witness this.