Since I was a child, I have been fascinated by the sense of something indescribable yet ever-present: a kind of radiant mystery at the heart of life. Through skateboarding, music, swimming and the club scene in London, I found myself instantly in touch with this quality, moving into 5Rhythms Dance and Buddhist meditation when I was 18. At 23, this quality manifested itself beyond anything I had ever known before when I met the ‘hugging saint’ Amma.
I began intense study under Amma and a diverse range of other masters and teachers, such as Adyashanti, and I trained in bodywork, Reiki, Vortex Healing® and other healing modalities. When I was 25, and vastly unprepared for it, this radiant mystery spontaneously took over everything… It happened during a Vortex Healing® class called ‘Heart, Freedom, Presence’ – aptly named, as it turned out. There was suddenly a radical shift in the sense and feel of the whole of life – other people, objects, nature and myself. To put it simply, there was no longer the experience of myself as an ‘I’ apart or separate from life or others. Simultaneously, I perceived that no one else was an individuated ‘I’ either. Oneness, undivided-ness, was perceived as the only reality. The felt-sense, ironically, was ordinary and natural. Yet there was radiant oneness – visceral and profound – without even the slightest room for division or doubt. And instead of being experienced for an ‘I’, this was sensed as what is and by what is, at the same time. At first, I didn’t know what had hit me, but my teacher did.
After living this way for a few years, I gave up my job and began to run a private practice as a bodyworker and healer. Later, in 2012, I wanted to train as a therapist in order to expand my understanding of human psychology. I qualified as a Counsellor with the BACP and received my BA(Hons) in Counselling in 2015. I worked as a Counsellor in private practice and in 4 voluntary clinical placements, mainly specialising in heroin and crack addiction in deprived areas of London. I also worked as an Equine Assisted Therapist for 3 years in a sports charity, helping professional sportsmen to recover from addiction.
My training under Amma, Adyashanti and in Vortex Healing® remain ongoing, and my current work focus is in my integrated private practice.