Since I was a child, I have been fascinated by the sense of something indescribable yet ever-present: a kind of radiant mystery at the heart of life. Through skateboarding, music and the 90s club scene in London, I found myself instantly in touch with this quality, moving into 5Rhythms Dance and Buddhist meditation when I was 18. But it was when I was 23 that this quality manifested itself beyond anything I had ever known before, when I met the ‘hugging saint’ Amma.
I threw myself into Amma’s world, learning from her and volunteering for her global humanitarian charity ‘Embracing The World’. I then began to explore a diverse range of teachers such as Adyashanti, and began my training in bodywork, Reiki, Vortex Healing® and other healing modalities. When I was 25, and unprepared for it, the radiant mystery spontaneously took over everything… It happened during a Vortex Healing® class named ‘Heart, Freedom, Presence’. There was suddenly a radical shift in the sense and feel of the whole of life – of other people, objects, nature and myself. To put it simply, there was no longer the experience of myself as an ‘I’ apart from, separate from, life or others. Simultaneously, I perceived that no one else was an individuated ‘I’ either. Oneness, undivided-ness, was perceived as the only reality. The felt-sense, ironically, was ordinary and natural. Yet there was radiant oneness, visceral and profound, without even the slightest room for division or doubt. I didn’t know what had hit me at first, but my Vortex Healing® teacher did.
After a few years living like this, I found that the desire to give, to serve, arose in a fresh way and with more depth than it had before. I left my job and opened a private practice as a bodyworker and healer. Later on, having worked professionally with clients for a few years, I wanted to train as a therapist in order to expand my understanding of human psychology. I qualified as a Counsellor with the BACP and received my BA(Hons) in Counselling in 2015. I worked as a Counsellor in private practice and in 4 voluntary clinical placements, specialising in heroin and crack addiction in deprived areas of London. I also worked as an Equine Assisted Therapist for 3 years in a sports charity, assisting professional footballers in recovery from addiction.
My training under Amma, Adyashanti and in Vortex Healing® remain ongoing. My current work focus is in my integrated private practice and in volunteering for ‘Embracing The World’.