Since I was a child, I have been fascinated by the sense of something indescribable yet ever-present: a kind of radiant mystery at the heart of life. Through skateboarding, music and the 90s club scene in London, I found myself instantly in touch with this quality, moving into 5Rhythms Dance and Buddhist meditation when I was 18. But it was when I was 23 that this quality manifested itself beyond anything I had ever known before, when I met the ‘hugging saint’ Amma.
I threw myself into Amma’s world, learning from her and volunteering for her global humanitarian charity ‘Embracing The World’. I then began to explore a diverse range of teachers including Adyashanti, Marlies Cocheret and Tony Parsons, and began my training in bodywork, Reiki, Vortex Healing® and other healing modalities. When I was 25, and unprepared for it, the radiant mystery spontaneously took over everything… It happened during a Vortex Healing® class named ‘Heart, Freedom, Presence’. There was suddenly a radical shift in the sense and feel of the whole of life – of other people, objects, nature and myself. To put it simply, there was no longer the experience of myself as an ‘I’ apart from, separate from, life or others. Simultaneously, I perceived that no one else was an individuated ‘I’ either. Oneness, undivided-ness, was perceived as the only reality. The felt-sense, ironically, was ordinary and natural. Yet there was radiant oneness, visceral and profound, without even the slightest room for division or doubt. I didn’t know what had hit me at first, but my Vortex Healing® teacher did.
After a few years living like this, I found that the desire to give, to serve, arose in a fresh way and with more depth than it had before. I left my job and opened a private practice as a bodyworker and healer. Later on, having worked professionally with clients for a few years, I wanted to train as a therapist in order to expand my understanding of human psychology. I qualified as a Counsellor with the BACP and received my BA(Hons) in Counselling in 2015. I worked as a Counsellor in private practice and in 4 voluntary clinical placements, specialising in heroin and crack addiction in deprived areas of London. I also worked as an Equine Assisted Therapist for 3 years, working with horses to assist professional footballers and rugby players in recovery from addiction.
My training with Amma and Marlies Cocheret remain ongoing. My current work focus is in my integrated private practice and in volunteering for ‘Embracing The World’.