Since I was a child, I have been fascinated by the sense of something indescribable yet ever-present: a kind of radiant mystery at the heart of life. Through skateboarding, music and the 90s rave scene in London, I found myself instantly in touch with that quality, moving into 5Rhythms Dance and Buddhist meditation when I was 18. But it was when I was 23, that this radiant mystery actually manifested itself – beyond anything I could have imagined – in the ‘hugging saint’, Amma.
I moved into Amma’s world, learning from her and volunteering for her global humanitarian aid charity ‘Embracing The World’. I also began to explore a diverse range of spiritual teachers, such as Adyashanti, Marlies Cocheret and Tony Parsons, and began training in bodywork, Reiki and Vortex Healing®. A couple of years later, when I was totally unprepared for it, the radiant mystery spontaneously took over everything……. Suddenly, there was a radical shift in the sense and feel of the whole of life. To put it simply, there was no longer the experience of myself as an ‘I’ apart from, or separate from, life or others. Simultaneously, I perceived that no one else was an individuated ‘I’ either. Undividedness was perceived as the only reality. The felt-sense was natural and ordinary and yet, it was almost shocking to find out that everything is One – not conceptually, but really – viscerally and profoundly, without even the slightest room for division or doubt.
After a few years living like this, my job role ended and I opened a bodywork and healing practice. Later on, having worked professionally with clients for a few years, I wanted to train as a therapist in order to expand my understanding of human psychology. So I qualified as a therapist with the BACP, receiving my BA(Hons) in Counselling & Psychotherapy in 2015. I worked as a therapist in private practice and in voluntary clinical placements, specialising in substance misuse recovery in deprived areas of London. I also worked as an Equine Assisted Therapist, working with horses to assist professional footballers and rugby players in substance misuse recovery.
My training with Amma and Adyashanti remain ongoing. My current work focus is in my group healings, integrated private practice and voluntary work for Amma’s UK ashram.