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EarthShift, Podcast, Free Will and Free Online Group Healing

Hello 🙂

Yes, as many of you will be aware, we are in the middle of an EarthShift 🙂 I don’t want to get into too much complexity about what we are doing, since I think it runs the risk of feeling a little distancing. In a nutshell though, every so often a huge group of Vortex Healing practitioners gets together to work on the earth and human species. The group is led by Ric Weinman and Anthony Gorman. This particular EarthShift is about creating two new points of choice from Divinity, within creation, which actually allow all human beings to move into more of a friendliness with one another. What we are moving out of is a type of intense negativity. As a species, we went into that like a trajectory, many thousands of years back in time and it has been influencing life on Earth ever since. 

If you would prefer to book thenext Free Online Group Healing without reading on, then itis this Wed 17th Nov @ 1pm GMT. NB: please attend only if you can remain on Zoom for the duration (1hr). Here is the link you need for booking :-

Please note that you need to pre-book. You can also book as many Groups as you like in advance. 

For Private Sessions, you will receive an email (or text if you requested this when booking) with which you can rearrange or cancel your session if you wish. That email may wind up in your junk box – so please check. 

Here is the link to book Private Sessions:-

I am very happy to say that I was interviewed for a podcast during the summer. The series has been created by Max Buchmann, who you may know from the Group Healings. I have received very humbling and moving feedback about our conversation and I feel it is time to share it with all of you. Please also feel free to explore the other episodes in this series since, like I have, you may learn a great deal from them :-

On a different subject, many of you ask me about free will or free choice. It is indeed a fascinating topic 🙂 and I would like to share more. These insights are from discussions with my friends and experiences on my own path and those of the teachers and practitioners of Vortex Healing. 

The essential thing is that all choice is Divine choice. Contrary to popular belief, the intellect has little involvement in making choices. Every choice – big or small – arises from Mystery. It then moves through the body and system of the individual, giving it the appearance of coming from that individual. The only such thing as free choice or free will is that which comes out of what is already free (ie, Divinity). At any point when a choice is being made, life can actually go in either direction: Divinity can choose to follow egoic consciousness, or it can choose to follow freedom. Also worth noting, is that the power to do any of this is coming from the only source of any power: Divinity. Surprisingly enough, the ego doesn’t have any power. It has no power ‘of its own’. 

A question may then arise, something like, “But why would Divinity choose to follow egoic consciousness?” You may have noticed that, in fact, Divinity mostly does choose the forays of egoic consciousness. I think that this is for the pure play of it all. Remember, Divinity does not have likes nor dislikes. So it’s not in that separation game whatsoever – it’s not condemning anything, it’s not exalting anything, it’s not believing one person to be better than another etc. etc. By moving into egoic consciousness, I think Divinity is exploring 🙂 It’s exploring the experience of separation 🙂  Divinity is absolutely fascinated by the play of that and by the myriad ways in which that expresses. And it seems to me that Divinity is doing this…until it isn’t any more 🙂 

Love,

xDaisy

Free Online Group Healing

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I am well 🙂 I am writing to invite you to the next Free Online Group Healing this Wednesday 26th August at 1pm BST. These will be fortnightly as usual from then on. The group session will be guided by the Divine and intuition. A beautiful opportunity for you to receive, relax and let go. Please sign up here:-

https://wuji-web.as.me/daisy-group-healing

Anyone not present on Zoom for the duration of the session will not be included in the healing.

For individual sessions, a gentle reminder to pay before the session.

Please note that cancellations or rescheduling must be done 24 hrs before the start of a session, or the session is charged in full.

If you would like to contact me at any point about anything, please message or call rather than emailing. Thank you.

As some of you know, I am in a tight spot re: housing. So if you know any good landlords or have any tips, I would greatly appreciate. I am looking for a self-contained flat in central-ish London (a studio, or similar). Thank you.

Love,

xDaisy

Free Online Group Healing: Inner Reconnection

Hello 🙂

I am offering a Free Online Group Healing tomorrow, 29th July, at 1pm BST. We will be focussing on Inner Reconnection: on contacting and relaxing into that inner sanctuary which weathers every storm without diminishing and without resisting. As we come into ourselves as we truly are, all anxiety, stress and strain subsides and we recognise the Love and beauty inside. In this way our eyes are opened to the beauty all around us, in each other, in nature and in all of life. This is the return to innocence that the heart both longs for and is simultaneously – yet which is oftentimes hidden from feeling or view. I welcome you to de-frag, deepen and cast away any doubt in the prevalence of Loving awake presence.

The group session will be 1 hour and will include the highest level of Vortex Healing, guided meditation, mantra chanting and the opportunity to be with other like-hearted souls, connecting together. Sangha!

Please book via this new link:-

http://www.wuji-web.uk/daisy 

With special thanks to Shaun and Kim for their background work and support which optimise these free offerings.

For individual sessions, please pay before the session from now on – thank you.

And when contacting me, please choose messaging or calling, rather than emailing – thank you again.

Love,

xDaisy

Free Online Group Healing: Melt-through in Lockdown

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I am well and revelling in this sunshine 🙂 Now is the time for the next group, which will be on Wednesday at 1pm. Please note this progression: these will then be fortnightly from Wed onwards (same time and day) and remain free. Book via the following link, which is offered by Shaun and Kim, with whom I am collaborating in the fantastic collective Wuji Web 🙂 🙂 🙂

https://wuji-web.as.me/daisy-group-healing

Please note another important change to the groups: anyone not present on Zoom for the duration of the session will not be included in the healing.

Many of you have communicated having meltdowns recently. These are normal, but have also been catalysed by the continuation of lockdown. This is why I would like to assist you in moving from meltdown to melt-through. In many ways, this depends upon the Shakti available within us at a given moment in time. If there is enough Shakti (Divine energy) readily available in our system, every situation is met with non-reaction and simply melts through. It passes through without resistance, even if a truthful action is carried out. If there is not enough available Shakti, a reaction asserts itself – pushing back against Reality – in some type of conditioned reflex, like a battle which can only ever be lost. This group healing will be focused on increasing the Shakti within you and clearing the blocks to that.

The group session will include me channelling particular Mantras to awaken false identifications, and associated areas of conditioning, group prayer and connection, guided channelled healing, a chance to share your feelings with the group if you feel called to do so, and most importantly of all – a deepening in Silence / Being-Light-Love-awakeness, which could reveal these to be your own true nature.

Amma (the ‘hugging Saint’) has said that when we come together as a group in prayer or meditation, the Light increases. She gives the analogy that it is very difficult to read under the light of a very low wattage bulb. But when several such bulbs are connected together in a series, one can easily read a book under that light.

If you would like to gift one of my individual sessions to someone, there is now an easy way to do this:-

https://app.acuityscheduling.com/catalog.php?action=addCart&clear=1&id=797755&owner=18957753

Also, a gentle reminder that it is now essential to pay for individual sessions in advance or on the day of the session itself.

Finally, both rearrangement and cancellation of a session must be done 24 hours in advance of the session time, otherwise full payment of that session is required.

Love,

xDaisy

 

This could be the most crucial message you hear about Coronavirus

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I have just been sent this by a friend in Amritapuri (Amma’s ashram in India). If you have 20 minutes, I believe it harnesses the power to change your life. At the very least, it will touch your attitude and your heart.

Enjoy, and Happy Easter 🙂

https://www.facebook.com/1388125751401423/posts/2629523973928255/?funlid=LmaY6DpgvkkUnA2P&d=w&vh=e 

Love,

xDaisy

Free Online Group Healing: Divine Deepening

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I am well and happy 🙂 This strange period in history is giving me the chance to fully embrace my mantra from Amma, the 1000 Names of the Divine Mother (Archana), Amma’s White Flowers Meditation and all the Vortex Healing work I am doing in groups and individually. Perhaps the highlight of all of this is the EarthWorks IV Divine Door group which Anthony Gorman is hosting daily online. We are working together as a community to dissolve the knock-on effects of coronavirus, including healing specifically for the nurses, doctors, care support workers and hospital cleaners on the front line.

In case you haven’t seen it yet, here is Amma’s beauty-filled message:-

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=62BOvKckpAs

I also found this satsang from (the newly appointed) Swami Shubhamritananda Puri full of heart and wisdom. I hope you enjoy it 🙂

https://youtu.be/IXTK_LAcVkQ 

I have decided to offer Free Online Group Healings regularly 🙂 The next one is on Tuesday 7th April at 10am. Please note that my groups are offered by Zoom only. Message or email me if you are sure you want to participate in this one, and I will send you the link.

Apologies to those who didn’t get into the last group. I have now worked out how to take more people per session 🙂 And apologies to those who were expecting the next group and this email sooner. I have been inundated with requests for healing, therefore the next group became possible only now.

A reminder that I have a powerful tool to assist your immune system, simply called Immune Boost. I channel it as part of a short immune protocol taught to us by Anthony Gorman in the last class. And the Vortex Healing infection protocol is effective against COVID-19, so please bear this in mind if you need help.

I am now offering distance healing only (at the same price as before):-

1 hr 15 mins = £75

My final words about the current world situation are that there is a Divine path here. Humankind is being led into a very deep evolution and that is not hindered by the corona crisis – or by anything else, for that matter. We may be asking, what can we do? One small thing we can all do – and that we do do naturally – is to open our hearts to each other. Every time one person does this, it affects everything in creation in ripples that venture out into the deep, of their own accord. The world is served not by our arguments but by our compassion, love and courage.

Love,

xDaisy

Ps From Mother Meera : “To bless your days with joy is my reason for being on Earth. Aspire for the inevitable happiness and all Grace will be given to you.”

Pps I am now back on Facebook, just so you know 🙂

Free Online Group Healing

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I am well and happy 🙂 I am excited to offer you a Free Online Group Healing on Tuesday 24th March, 10am UK time. Please RSVP if you definitely want to receive this. I will then go about organising it using the Zoom app. The focus will be on alleviating stress.

I will write more fully when the writing flow is abundant. In the meantime, please note that I can offer you (as a normal session) an Immune Boost using a brand new Vortex Healing tool designed for this purpose. I can also use the Infection Protocol which is effective against COVID-19, so please let me know if you need this. I estimate that will take between 1 and 5 sessions, depending on the severity of the case (and the strength or weakness of the underlying immune system).

Much Love,

xDaisy

Radiating Awakeness

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I am well and feeling very grateful indeed to be able to take (and even repeat) so many Vortex Healing classes at the moment. People have asked me why I do this and why I go to see Amma so much each year. Well the bigger reason why became apparent in a class discussion recently. Contemplate if you will, the impact that being awake out here ‘in the world’ is having. Have you ever thought about it? All of us living ordinary lives and daring to be conscious humans with a real sincerity for Truth, is actually its own transformative force. This force is indeed making a difference in the world. With this in mind the term ‘embodiment’ reveals itself to mean, living  from awakeness.

 

The most important thing

Anthony Gorman pointed out during EarthWorks III class, that perhaps the only truly valuable thing is time. Not money and not all the rest of the things we assign value to. But time. Every moment we spend directing ourselves towards Divinity, we are no longer wasting time. As Amma says, even one moment spent in meditation is not a waste of time.

Surrender

We, or those around us (particularly in spiritual circles), are frequently trying to surrender. But trying to surrender actually creates a rather nasty inner drama, full of conflict and struggle, self-judgment and the whole shebang – which may in turn block surrender.

True surrender does exist though, and does happen, yet it happens naturally. Perhaps it could be said that surrender happens when the time is right. It could be termed Divine Takeover. Sometimes what happens to facilitate this, is the Divine (in a manner of speaking) ‘sees’ that you aren’t willing to give up a particular thing in your life – so it simply takes it away from you. That movement is utterly different from the aforementioned struggle to surrender. It is rather like an adult taking a sharp object away from a child, which the child was experiencing as a toy.

Acting from Truth

There are many times in our lives when we wonder whether or not we are acting in the best possible way, or we question the truth of a situation. There is help available for this in a simple way.

When facing the situation, align inside (perhaps in the heart or spine) with whatever you see as the source of everything. This may be an avatar, the energy of a teaching, a lineage, a deep sensing of Truth, or something else like that. Then rather than asking, ‘What do I do?’, instead ask, ‘What needs to be done?’.

And wait…

Eventually a movement, or a word, or some other kind of guidance will arise. The idea is to move from a place of what needs to be done as a whole, rather than from what ‘I’ need or want.

Relationships

We often think that we are seeking, or are in, a relationship to find Love. But upon closer scrutiny, what we may find we are really looking for there is connection. This is an important distinction. But also, even that ‘looking’ for connection is really coming from feeling isolated. The consequence is that we tend to create co-dependant relationships, far more times than not.

The good news is, both Love and connection are already here 🙂 They are existing right now, as what you are – or in what you are (depending on the specific way you experience your true nature). When you see this, really truly see it…..wow….it changes everything…..

Imagine for a moment, no more seeking for connection. And then imagine no more seeking, full stop. Can you imagine that? What would it be like to not try to get anything out of relationship? I mean genuinely, naturally – rather than because a spiritual teaching told you to. What would that feel like?

Denial

Never underestimate the power of denial – lol! We all know someone who is in it. Of course, that person could never be us – lol! The position is easy to see from the outside. But how does denial work?

Denial creates a blindspot in a person’s consciousness. So much so that someone in denial can even state outright that they are not doing or feeling what they are in fact doing or feeling. A good example of this is a spiritual teacher who is abusing their students.

At some point the denial position was a choice, of sorts. Usually it would have been a survival choice. There is nothing inherently wrong with that. But harm comes from the consequences of that choice. It may have originally been made a very long time ago (becoming a patterned way of being further down the line, whenever a similar trigger arose). The question for the person in denial is, what am I going to choose now?

Furthermore, if it is Divine Intention for a person to come out of denial (and that certainly is an ‘if’), then it will probably take a sizeable event happening in their life to blow the whole thing up. If it is not in Divine Intention, then perhaps the denial will move in a future lifetime.

Bliss

Mmmmmm…Bliss……. We all love it. But what are we really experiencing?

Ric Weinman was explaining that from his point of view, there are two very different kinds of bliss. The most common kind is actually an egoic state. It is when the ego merges with the energy of bliss, expands and becomes thin – but very much still existing. You can see this a lot around awake teachers – within the sangha. This type of bliss can easily become an addiction. If the addiction continues, ‘bliss’ could actually become a trap which hinders the very thing it is supposed to be creating – i.e., awakening (or embodiment of awakening).

The other kind of bliss, the ‘real thing’ if you like, is hard to put into words. Bliss in this sense, is simply here. Bliss can just be here… Without fanfare. It is not a state. It is more akin to an ongoing expression of Divinity, subtle and beautiful. The only other way I can really describe it is to say that you will know it when you feel it. Some people are in touch with this all the time, although I would say that is rare.

Are you woke?

How awake we are really depends on how attached we are to the Light (Awareness-Being-Light-Love) versus the life ‘things’ (food, TV, sex, and other life attachments and dramas). The weird thing is that, given the choice – even though the Light is freedom and real fulfilment – the vast majority of people still choose the latter, including those who directly experience the difference. This is worth contemplating.

Much later on in the awakening embodiment evolution, there is a sort-of second phase. It is when one becomes unattached to one’s attachments. Then one is free to be the Light itself AND the humanness itself, at the same time.

 

2020 : may it be the year of 2020 internal vision for all of us 🙂

Love,

xDaisy

Ps A reminder that rescheduling or cancellation needs to be done 24 hrs before the start time of your session, otherwise the session will be charged in full.

Earth Magic

Hello there 🙂

I am in the middle of Vortex Healing classes EarthWorks III and IV with Anthony Gorman here in London, and I want to share the magic, light, love and wisdom from this group energy field and learning discussions with you 🙂

Something quite extraordinary happened, which is that we made a Weather Funnel as a group for Australia, and the next day – it began pouring with rain there! Make of that what you will. For me, it cannot be coincidence. The Funnel is a Divine device designed to effect positive transformation in weather systems.

One of the main advantages of these EarthWorks classes is that I can now make all kinds of new upgraded Divine Doors and put them into spaces, objects or body systems etc. – even at a distance. So please do ask for this. A Divine Door is a magical device which permanently brings concentrated Divine Light into whatever it is made in. It takes quite a lot of huffing and puffing to make (because the shakti moves this way).

As a class, we made a :-

Merlin Blessing Divine Door into Tehran, in Iran

Divine Healing Stream Door (which then turned into a Rifting Divine Door) into a focal point of politics in Russia

Quantum Gate Divine Door into Fox News (actually Anthony did this by himself a while ago, but I thought you’d be pleased to hear)

Funnel Divine Door for peaceful existence, for the fall of the Persian Empire (i.e., for the ‘scar’ that this past event left behind)

Merlin Divine Door for the astrological pathway [similar to a body pathway] between the Sun and the Earth

Astrological Divine Door for Gaia

Healing Stream Divine Door into pornography

6 x Stopping Spots for the projections people make onto the English Royal Family

Stopping Spot for animal-based food production (in the whole world)

Rifting Divine Doors into the following stadiums: Wembley Arena, Wembley Stadium, The O2, Tottenham Hotspur (Tottenham), Arsenal (Emirates), Chelsea (Stamford Bridge), Fulham (Craven Cottage), Twickenham, West Ham United (London Stadium)

A Christ Consciousness Crystal to surround the Houses of Lords & Commons [an enormous circle and energetic crystal of healing with Christ energy, around the ruling powers in England]

Divine Clearing Network for the Russia / Europe 2nd World War trauma

Divine Clearing Network for the Japan 2nd World War trauma

Feel free to email me if you would like a more detailed explanation of what these are. I didn’t want to go into a wordy explanation here, for those who are not needing this. Essentially, it’s that as a group we have much more power to effect healing transformation in spaces or situations all over the world, by creating permanent Divine openings to facilitate healing. So that’s what we did, and it’s what these particular classes are really all about.

Something interesting which we discussed in class was capitalism. It really made me feel validated in my everlong scepticism about this modality. We were agreeing that, even though there may not be a viable alternative right now, capitalism only works if you are willing to really abuse nature and this planet. Maximising profit alone is a dysfunctional way to carry on, which has been proven through masses of experience. This led me to thinking about the Divine Feminine, perhaps because Amma has said that awakening the feminine / Divine Mother energy everywhere is the only hope for the world to survive and thrive. I didn’t truly know what the feminine was (on the level of mind) until I sat down to contemplate it. To me, the feminine is connectivity, receptivity, devotion, love, nurture, effulgence and trust.

I hope this newsletter finds you well and enjoying your day, or your process, or deepening ever more into this Truth at the heart of us all.

Love,

xDaisy

Happy New Year! :-)

Hello 🙂

Happy New Year to you 🙂 🙂 🙂 May 2020 bring you real Love, Truth and effulgence on every level.

How are you?

I am well now, but I must be honest in saying that it’s been a wild rollercoaster processing everything in Steve and I’s ending. That is why I haven’t written for a while. What we learn in the break-up of a deep long-term relationship is often just as valuable as what we learn in the relationship itself.

As some of you know, I attended the Vortex Healing classes ‘Sensing III’ and ‘Sensing IV’ with Anthony Gorman in Holland, in late November. I found the classes so powerful in terms of how they changed my life and how embodied I was by the end, that I actually felt all other paths except for Amma and Vortex Healing fall away. It is hard to express the depth of gratitude I feel……and the expertise that I feel Anthony has, in addition to the sheer healing power of this lineage… The experience of catalysed evolution in terms of my path from taking Vortex Healing classes is phenomenal…

Anthony summed up the classes as a deepening in Magic. I agree! The classes are also designed to deepen and improve our sensing (psychic feeling / seeing) as practitioners. I look forward to continuing to share the benefits of these trainings in my sessions with you. I feel so grateful and happy that I can work with you: thank you for showing up to your lives and making this work a part of doing that.

There is a sacred Puja happening on the 5th Jan at the MA Centre in Bromley (Amma’s UK ashram). Please contact me for details if you would like to attend. The cost is £80 which all goes to Amma’s global humanitarian aid charity ‘Embracing The World’.

May I highlight again my cancellation policy? If you need to cancel or rearrange, please do so 24 hours or more before your session time. Otherwise the session will be charged in full. Also to remind you that I am no longer on Facebook (since mid-October), so please don’t feel offended if I don’t respond to your posts there, or if you can’t find me there etc. I am still on the FB Messenger app.

See you in the year 2020 🙂 Love,

xDaisy

Why Breaking Up Is Sometimes Good

Hello 🙂

How are you? I have quite a lot to tell you today. Firstly, who came to Amma? And how was it, if you did? One of you summed up her first experience with Amma in such a beautiful way that I want to share it. She said, “I’m just completely blown away by her. It’s the highest level of love. How lucky are we to be in her presence.” And that’s it.

I found this part of Amma’s speech particularly inspiring. Amma said that anger is the only thing that can truly defeat us; whereas patience is true victory. She pointed out that there are numerous things each day which can cause us to get angry. But when we do, we actually empower that situation or person to control our mind. Amma compared projecting anger at someone with grabbing a burning ember and throwing it at them: we get burned first, before burning the other person.

As you may have guessed from the title of this newsletter, Steve Vieau and I’s awakened relationship has come to its final end. It happened on the 15th October, hence my recent silence and withdrawal. I don’t feel that it is necessarily appropriate to share details about how the break-up happened. But I will say that it was deeply shocking, almost like experiencing trauma or PTSD. After that, it was excruciatingly painful and devastating for me, because he is the love of my life. The pain was beyond words, unbearable loss – almost as if I was losing Amma – which plunged me into literally the deepest darkness of my life. Thank goodness I was then miraculously with Amma in person. After what She transmitted to me, I am now beginning to experience the ending of Steve and I’s relationship as a healthy and powerful hit to my ego: a way for the Divine to completely destroy what is untrue inside, and create transformation. The whole thing is gradually becoming sobering, humbling and liberating. Which is why I chose the title I did for this newsletter today. Thank you to all those who rode the rollercoaster of the past two years with us, supporting us in our journey together. I also want to express how much solace and love I am finding in the Divine, in my friends and in all of you: my work is even more precious to me at this time.

There is an opportunity to learn Amma’s incredible IAM Technique on the 23rd and also to be with Br. Shubamrita (Amma’s senior disciple) on the 30th. Please contact me for further details about these events at MA Centre UK (Amma’s Bromley ashram).

 

A note to please correspond with me via WhatsApp, Messenger, phonecall or text for a swift response – i.e., not email. For hopefully obvious reasons, I have deactivated my Facebook account, so please don’t think that I have blocked or de-friended you if we were connected on there. FB Messenger still works fine.

Love,

xDaisy

Divine Doors

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I am rejoicing in learning today 🙂 I learned so much from listening to Anthony Gorman on the Vortex Healing classes I took with him recently, here in London. One thing was a completely new way of looking at bridging (not sensing, but rather the connection from me to you which allows Divine energy to penetrate deeply into your system). The aspect of bridging that I knew most about, is a manner of connecting with you as oneness. And then it’s as if I create rivers through which the Divine energies pour and move themselves into you. But Anthony explained another side of bridging, which I had thought about less. He said that what makes us better bridges (and more “qualified” – to use his word – as healers to address issues in you), is actually what we have survived and worked through ourselves. I find this profound… I always had a slight inkling that my own life experiences were designed in some mysterious way for the service of others, but I hadn’t heard this spoken out loud before.

To follow on from what I wrote about the EarthWorks classes I attended recently, I wanted to mention that I can make a Divine Guidance Door into an object for you, as part of a session. This helps you with your own sensing and seeing from Truth. It takes about 15mins – like a regular Divine Door. You can sit with the object, or ask questions if that is more natural to you. For example, I made one for myself in a small rose quartz crystal. Other possibilities include an Angelic Divine Door. Believe it or not, I have one of those in my trainers! Nature Divine Doors are also available.

Here is the link for Amma’s Europe Tour. She will be in Surrey on the 1st and 2nd Nov. It’s free, it’s a party – what’s not to like? 🙂 Please let me know via message or call if you need any information about the event of the year 🙂 It’s also really cool to see her in another city if you can: you get more space and time to just be with Amma, when it isn’t your home city.

https://amma.org/meeting-amma/europe

I will be at Marlies Cocheret in London on Fri 4th Oct and Sat 5th Oct, so please join me if you can (flyer attached). Booking is important for this.

On the 6th Oct, there is the Official Opening Day of the MA Centre UK (Amma’s ashram), which is in Bromley. It’s free, but advisable to book your place:-

https://www.eventbrite.co.uk/e/ma-centre-opening-celebration-tickets-71802686769

Please note (as some people are not aware) that I need 24hrs notice to change or cancel a session, otherwise the session will be charged at the normal rate.

See you soon,

Much Love,

xDaisy

 

“A bad day for your ego, is a good day for your soul” ~ Amma

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I am well and noticing a flow of Grace into my life recently. Feeling blessed 🙂 I really enjoyed going to see Amma’s close devotee, Brahmachari Shubamrita, when he gave his talk ‘Finding Our True Home’ here in London on Sunday. It was wonderful to be with someone through whom I feel Amma moves so deeply, and to be with my community. It was fantastic that some of you could make it! I was delighted to see you there! Please email me with any further thoughts you have about your experiences at this beautiful event.

What I feel was really conveyed by Br. Shubamrita, is that there is no real home outside our True Self. That, in itself, is radical – if you really take a moment to absorb it. The Brahmachari (a type of monk who has taken vows) went on to tell us a little story about this. Back in the 80s, when the crowds around Amma were very very small, he asked her to come and visit him in his home. At first she seemed not to hear him, so he left it. Then, once he had another opportunity, he again invited Amma to his home. This time Amma laughed and said, “My son, I am always in your home, but you are never there. You are always wandering somewhere else.”

Shubamrita highlighted the crucial importance of regular spiritual practice (sadhana) in bringing us back into the Self, into the space of Silence inside, which is also the only place that true happiness is found. And another, perhaps even more important way of ‘staying at home’ he said, is to spend time with masters like Amma in person; in other words, to be with a being who is permanently rooted in the Self, until we ourselves can really say that we are. I agree that, without the direct physical presence of a Self-Realised Master, the likelihood of true abidance as the Self is vaguely possible, at best.

The highlight of the visit by Amma’s close devotee, from my perspective, was the music. Bhajan bliss 🙂 🙂 🙂 It has been said that music tries to express what language cannot. I think a bhajan – when sung by someone whose heart is truly with God – takes this statement to its ultimate conclusion. The only thing I can relate it to, if you have not experienced this particular thing, is making love. Are we not also trying in this, to express that for each other which language fails to? Furthermore, that is really what the Bhakti path (the path of devotion) is, in a far more profound sense. Perhaps along similar lines, it could be said that Bhakti actually succeeds in expressing what making love comes close to. There is this completion with Bhakti that is utterly total……like a circle being drawn, coming together again, with God as the artist.

Events coming up which you might be interested in:-

Tony Parsons will be giving a talk on the 3rd August in London

https://www.theopensecret.com/meetings

A reminder about this very rare opportunity to be in satsang with Adyashanti in London (16th August)

https://www.alternatives.org.uk/event/satsang-adyashanti

A daylong retreat with his wife, Mukti, 18th August

https://www.muktisource.org/programs/in-person/intensives-detail/london-silent-retreat-day-1488

Anthony Gorman is running a Vortex Healing® Foundational training in London, 2nd – 6th October (please book in advance to avoid disappointment)

https://www.vortexhealing.org/Schedule2019.pdf

I would like to highlight my cancellation policy: it is fine to cancel or rearrange a session 24 hrs or more in advance. If it is after that though, then the session will be charged in full.

I leave you with the title of this newsletter, taken from a different story told to us by Br. Shubamrita: “A bad day for your ego, is a good day for your soul” ~ Amma.

Love,

xDaisy

Bank Holiday Goodies :-)

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I am well, and continuing to adore and enjoy my time in my new houseshare in this beautifully green area of London 🙂

I want to let you know that I will be offering sessions this Bank Holiday Monday the 27th May for only £50 (distance healing, 1 hour sessions). Please text, call or message if you would like this 🙂

I read these words from Amma, which a friend had posted on Facebook recently, and they really moved me.

“There are many masters around the world who have attained the ultimate state. If they could do it, you too should be able to do it. Why have doubts? Try. Doubting is learned; you have learned to doubt. You have never learned to believe, to have faith. Doubt is your number one enemy. Faith is your best friend. Have faith and put forth effort. You will see the outcome.” ~  ❤️  Amma (Sri Mata Amritanandamayi Devi)

We have the tendency to think that there are very few masters who have truly realised the Self, and to want to give up easily on this birthright and this path. But, as Amma points out, this is not true; just as it is not true that it is too difficult for us. I think that for women in particular this can be a deep issue, which obscures the inherent awakeness. I really like this quote because of how orienting and opening it is. Read in a certain way, it directs the intent and perhaps the ego itself, even, to the Source.

I hope you enjoyed it and that you enjoy your evening. Looking forward to seeing you soon. Much Love,

xDaisy

Divinity Intended

Hello 🙂

How are you? I am very well and settling into my new home in South East London. Yes, I have moved 🙂 I had no idea what a real home with the most appropriate energies around you could do for a person… It really is amazing how different I feel about everything and how much freer I feel on a human level.

I would like to share with you this piece of writing I did about 3 years ago, which I uncovered during the move. I wrote it on a retreat, held by my friends Chetana and Will. I hope that perhaps it carries you somewhere:-

Divinity Intended

I cannot speak…for talking this out is nothing at all anymore. This Silence bears witness to all of that and is also all of that. No need for words anymore. My silent spoken friend, awareness, finally stayed after his tea was drunk.

I saw what is true for me and accepted the somehow burden of it. This being done, You came in again. Then, the deeper revelation – the surrender……. No holding back this time. You showed me all, You revealed Yourself in the night, in the day, in the detail – all at once. That timeless moment – Now. All my burdens are laid down in You. All my heavy weighty blindness and my deafness to Your song is gone. Now I see it all. The game that I played – You knew my every move. You were always bathing it in that Light, yet only now can I see this.

What needs to happen, needs to happen. Yes, this is true. But what I failed to understand was the pitch perfect way this is all going. The sheerness of a thousand songs called out in Your name. It must be as it is and as it will be. You are the One, I am That. I found You again, and in the finding, I am no longer me. No longer isolated from You, my beautiful Muse, my all, my everything. I didn’t know that this way is the way. This precise way which you are unfolding… Divinity Intended. Not outside anymore, not happening to a me. Divinity Intended. A button unbuttoned and a comb combed. The jeans and the hair of Existence.

What has to happen…it’s unfolding, opening – at Its pace alone. Only Your rhythm exists. You lovemaker… It’s all happening now, and now, and now. There is no other; no other at all. This is Your game, and I feel no distance from You anymore. Somehow, I have not transferred this, not managed to translate this – the incredible depth of what is here.

Upcoming events you may be interested in:-

Monthly Satsangs are now held at the MA Centre UK (Amma’s ashram in Bromley) 🙂 Please email vakeesyam@fastmail.fm 

Marlies Cocheret is offering a websang meditation group (by donation) each Wednesday, at 6pm (UK time): https://www.marliescocheret.com/

Tony Parsons is having his next Open Discussion in Hampstead on the 1st June:-

http://www.theopensecret.com/talks.html#london

My wonderful housemates are offering a concert at Alternatives (in Piccadilly) on the 3rd June. Please contact me re: tickets. They are actually upstairs singing as I write this 🙂 🙂 🙂 Here they are in action:-

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m88nld_V5aA

Rupert Spira is next appearing in London on the 7th June in Marylebone:-

https://non-duality.rupertspira.com/meet

And finally, if you would like to go on retreat with Adyashanti in England this August, you can still get on the waiting list (which many people end up getting onto retreat from, in my experience) : https://www.adyashanti.org/programs/in-person/retreats-detail/england-5-night-retreat-1449

 

I would like to remind you that sessions are now 1 & 1/4 hrs and are priced as so:-

Call-out (in your home) = £100

Barbican venue = £90

Distance healing = £75

Please make a note of these changes if you have not already done so. Please also note that the quickest and easiest way to get hold of me is via a message of some kind, or a phonecall.

Love to you and bye for now,

xDaisy

Earthshift and Deepening in Divinity

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I am well and finally getting the chance to sit down and write to you. At the end of my time with Amma in India, I actually went on an unplanned trip to Boston to do some advanced training in Vortex Healing, as some of you have heard.

The first class I took was the ‘Earthshift’. This type of Vortex class is a fantastic opportunity to work on the earth and on humanity’s consciousness as a whole. Ric (the founder of Vortex Healing and teacher of this class) had perceived a particular point of ‘choice’ in human history where the human race had moved into a type of Maliciousness / negativity / evil. He wanted our help as a group to release this karmic choice point (which had actually happened 200,000 years ago), thereby aligning humanity a little more closely with Love and Truth instead. The angelic realm was very involved in this. Amongst other extras, we also focussed our channelling power into humanity’s psyche and the individual karmic burdens which were part of this Maliciousness at the level of humanity as a whole.

The second class was one in which we melted into embodiment of another class I took a few years ago (you may remember, it was called ‘Awakening to Divinity’). This class was about resting in and as Divinity, utilising powerful group meditations and transmissions to assist this. There really isn’t much to say about that as you can imagine – lol! But what I can speak about are the new skills and insights I have to offer you in sessions, which also came from this training.

Ric discovered that the core emotional (karmic + genetic) position of human beings and also other species, is Loneliness. The Core Loneliness we feel deep down exacerbates the false sense of separation from Divinity, and in turn creates hunger for various things : power, status, security, sex, connection, love etc. etc. At the same time, the survival anxiety conditioning we carry fuels that hunger. So this core emotional position is very important to address and can have amazing results, which is why we even worked on Core Loneliness in the class itself.

Whereas before in session, the Divine was transmuting the point of choice (in terms of a particular issue) for you (i.e., the point in childhood where something happened, like a trauma, and you ‘chose’ to align with and continue a particular past-life theme), because of this class several other Choice Points can also now be released – including Genetic and BodyMind Choice Points.

Another amazing tool I have from this class is called Bio-Dynamic Flow. Receiving this work feels a bit like Cranial-Sacral or Jin Shin techniques. A variety of ‘flows’ and ‘tides’ that exist everywhere in creation are activated and directed to melt away places of rigidity and tension in the human body, and system as a whole. This Bio-Dynamic Flow moves in slow waves, akin to there being a ‘very long tide’ in Cranial work, if you like. Please note that this particular tool can only be used in person. The best description I have heard of it so far was from a client, who said, “It’s like relaxing at the level of atoms.”

I am changing the timing and fees of my work. Sessions are now 1 & 1/4 hrs:-

Call-out = £100

Barbican venue = £90

Distance healing = £75

Please make a note of these changes.

There are some upcoming events in London which you might be interested in:-

Mother Meera is giving her ‘staring Darshan’ near Preston Road (almost Wembley but not quite) on the 30th April and 1st May:-

https://mothermeera.org.uk/darshan-uk/

Br. Shubamrita (a senior disciple of Amma) is coming from the ashram in India to give a talk on ‘Overcoming Loneliness’ (no, the synchronicity has not been lost on me – lol!):-

Sat 4th May, 6pm – 9pm, Merton Arts Space, Wimbledon Library, Compton Road, London SW19 7QA

Rupert Spira is giving a talk at the Steiner venue in Marylebone on the 10th May:-

https://non-duality.rupertspira.com/meet

I hope you had a good Easter, and perhaps attended the wonderful Extinction Rebellion 🙂

Love,

xDaisy

Back in London :-)

Hello 🙂

How are you? I have missed you on my epic trip! I am back in London and giving sessions – so please contact me by text, WhatsApp or Messenger to book.

I think the biggest gift Amma gave me this time was to make me believe in love again. Or perhaps to remind me that I never really stopped believing. And she did this in one single Darshan (the hug). When you consider what I have been through recently, with the breakdown of my engagement to Steve, this is quite something. I had spent two months crying, yet as soon as Amma returned to the ashram from her North India Tour, I received a spontaneous unplanned Darshan (without even a token), and everything changed. It was as if the light-switch of my heart got turned on again. How she does what she does I will never know, but I am so deeply grateful that she does it. And thus my personal healing journey began…

I heard a story at the ashram, from a long-time Amma devotee, which I would like to share with you. It is taken from recorded talks by Swami Paramatmananda (Nealu). Many many years ago, when the ashram was a different place and Amma’s organisation was small, it was nearing bedtime and Amma was brushing her teeth with the Swamis. Suddenly she froze in the middle of brushing and fainted on the floor. When she had come round, Swami Paramatmananda asked, “Amma, what happened – why did you pass out?” Amma told him to go and look in a particular hut on the ashram. There he would find a monk sitting in front of his altar and crying to the Divine. Amma said that this monk’s focus was so one-pointed to the Divine, to realise enlightenment, that she had left her body to go directly to him. That was why she had collapsed. Sure enough, the Swami went to the hut and there was the monk in swathes of devotion, crying his heart out in surrender in front of his altar.

To finish (as I have very limited time for anything but giving sessions at the moment) I want to share an inspiring quote which I heard on the plane, as part of a TED talk on emotional maturity:-

“Courage is not the absence of fear. Courage is fear walking.”

Sending you so much Love and Peace,

xDaisy

India Sun Rising

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I received more replies to my last email than to any other email I have ever written. It is good to discover that authenticity and transparency are so valued in the world. Your responses were wise, insightful and heart-warming, and all that positive energy has done wonders for the healing process I am in. Having said that, this is the process of my lifetime, and I am still so deeply in it that it is too early to share about it just now. As I mentioned in the other email, I will be taking my time with Amma in Amritapuri to heal myself. But please know that I will be giving sessions again from the 10th April onwards.

Events you might like:-

On Saturday 23rd March, there are Bhajans and Satsang (including meditation and chanting) at Amma’s UK ashram in Bromley. Please arrive by 5 30pm: 40A Letchworth Drive, Bromley, BR2 9BE

On Saturday 31st March, there are Bhajans and Satsang (including meditation and chanting) at Amma’s UK ashram in Bromley. Please arrive by 10 30am: same address

On Friday 5th April, Rupert Spira will be giving a talk in Marylebone:-

https://non-duality.rupertspira.com/meet/2019/04/05/evening-meeting-at-rudolf-steiner-house-london

On Saturday the 6th April, Tony Parsons will be giving a talk in Hampstead:-

https://www.theopensecret.com/talks.html#london

I will be flying tomorrow. Take good care of yourselves while I am away, and please meditate 🙂 Amma always reminds us that meditation is more precious than gold, and that even a few moments spent in meditation are not a waste of time.

Much Love to you, I will miss you,

xDaisy

Amma Hits London Tomorrow! :-)

Hello 🙂

How are you? I am good 🙂 I have spent the day (like my other days off at the moment) helping to build the new ashram for Amma in Bromley. I love doing seva (selfless service)… 🙂 It honestly makes me happier than anything in the world. I have no idea why – lol! But I really love it. Soon the new place will be ready and will operate as the M.A. Centre for the UK, and as a community centre in between Embracing The World events.

Tomorrow Amma comes in person to Sandown Racecourse in Esher, Surrey. The final night is Friday and it’s the all-nighter. Here is all the information you need:-

www.amma.org.uk

If you haven’t yet met Amma, here is a documentary you may be interested in watching:-

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YsxZI0PBl_A&t=17s

I am still here until the 27th, when I fly to the ashram in India for 3 and a half weeks – so I will return from there on the 22nd December. Please book your sessions accordingly, as I will not be able to give sessions from the ashram this time. I will be available via WhatsApp, Messenger and email there though, but bear in mind it is rural India without Wifi, so contact will be sporadic.

If you come to Amma in Sandown this week, come and find me in the massage area where I should be for most of the 3 days. Much Love to you all 🙂

xDaisy

Devotion

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I am here in London, adjusting to the changes that my life brings, in this case the return from ashram life to city life. I don’t know if anyone remembers that seminal track by Goldie – ’Inner City Life’? That more-or-less encapsulates how it feels.

When sitting down to write about a living master, one faces a dilemma: the sense that the living presence of such a being, and the ‘experience’ (for want of a better word) of that, can never be confined to words or descriptions. It’s very hard to say anything about Amma. She both is and is not, she manifests as both form and formless in a continuous cascade. Perhaps the way in which my friends and I feel her in the most tangible way, is as Supreme Love: a Love that goes completely beyond anything imaginable, and which cuts through every vestige of the human ego, revealing the ultimate secret of this universe. If anyone is asking why I spend so much time with my spiritual teacher, this is why.

I wish I could give some kind of account of my stay with Amma in Amritapuri, but that really would just be words. You see, it’s a living thing with her. You don’t go about your day and then sit down and write your diary, and feel all good about what you’ve understood, and then go to sleep again. It’s not like that. The path with Amma is the path of action, of expression, of interaction and of an outpouring of a selflessness you had no idea was inside you, waiting to come out. This Love moves, this Silence transforms without leaving itself. This true way throws the human being into complete Mystery, not only once, but constantly. And miracles rain down upon everyone in that ashram like the monsoons. I’m aware that I sound like I’ve drunk the Kool-Aid – lol!

Those of you who have visited the ashram will know that one of the ways people deepen in their closeness with Amma and her teachings, is through sharing stories about her. I heard many extraordinary accounts while I was there this time. One never knows whether such stories are true, mythological or a version of a truth. To me, that is not ultimately the most important thing: for me, it is this unknown space…this Mystery, that such stories deepen me into which matters the most. One night, we met a new friend. As we got to know him over the course of our stay on the ashram (in saying ‘we’ and ‘our’, I am referring to Steve and I – yes, we are back together 🙂 🙂 :-)), this friend began to tell us the story of how he met Amma. The story begins before he was born. His father heard about Amma and took my friend’s sister to meet Her in Manchester in 1989. When they went for Darshan the father said to his daughter, “You are in the presence of God, you can ask anything you like.” The daughter told Amma that she wanted a little brother. Amma looked to the father and asked if he and his wife wanted another child. The father replied Yes, but that they could not, because his wife had gone through the menopause. Amma said Ok, and smiled at the daughter. A couple of months later, the mother began her periods again. Soon after this, she was pregnant. My friend was born in due course. Not long after the birth, Amma was due to visit England again. The father stayed at home with his new son (my friend), while the mother – who had never met Amma yet – and her daughter went to the program. As the mother fell into Amma’s arms for Darshan, Amma said to this woman – who she was meeting for the first time and had no information about – “Are you happy now that you have a son?” The mother burst into tears and surrendered. Hearing this story flooded me with energy rushes and goosebumps. I would never want to, or try to, prove whether it is true or not. I don’t know that. All I can say is that the sense of resonance throughout my entire being upon hearing it was overwhelming, and that the feeling of reality, realness, hitting-the-mark – whatever you want to call it – opened up within me in a profound way.

This actually leads me into something else I wanted to share with you. People often ask me about intuition, and feel that I have some expertise in this area. I don’t know about that, but I did discover something more about the whole thing when I was with Amma in the ashram. I hope that including this diary entry might assist you in your own journey with with your sense of intuition / instinct.

12/9/18

The answer came in Darshan today. There was no need to tune-in, check, ‘ask Amma inside’, or anything like that. When I was relaxed and open – simple, and in my being, one could say – I felt during Amma’s long embrace that [X]. It didn’t come mentally. It didn’t come through any kind of asking. It didn’t come in a big bang. It came through the feeling body. This relative truth came as a sort-of feeling, a kind-of sense, which ran like a river through my heart. So, yes, as [Y] reminded me that time: trust the truth that comes naturally, like a gift.”

That’s all for now. If you would like to book a session or talk about anything, please call, message or text me.

Much Love,

xDaisy

“The silent abyss beyond all knowing” ~ Adyashanti

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I am in the midst of a potent time in my life, between the retreat I have just completed with Adyashanti and the time I am about to spend with Amma. I feel such wonderment and gratitude about this. They are the only words I can find in this moment to express how I am feeling. I don’t know why my life is this way – so filled with Divine opportunities – and why it is not another way. I can only bow down before the Grace that brought this all here.

The way I feel from being on the 7 day silent meditation retreat with Adyashanti is that I have now put all my eggs in one basket – that of Silence. There is this abiding trust now in the wisdom of Silence itself. On the level of experience (as it could be called), the Silence has become the foreground. It is hard to give an explanation of what this means for anyone who is struggling to understand (which may be no one of course). But here is an excerpt from my diary on retreat, of a particular day when this started to open fully:-

“Something really beautiful began to happen during the Silent Sittings today. I could, and still can, see all the way through my thoughts. I experience that absolutely everything arising there is conditioning. Previously, I had been assigning Truth to many many things…… Now I see that none of this is Truth. The contraction deep in my belly when something comes up is not Truth – it is conditioning. It’s the same with the things people say to me, and what arises in me in reactivity – conditioning. None of this is Truth. I am finally free.

I don’t say this as a grand statement about enlightenment. I mean simply that I am free from the grip of my mind and my deep emotional conditioning, inasmuch as I see it for what it is. It is no longer fooling me. I see through it all in a clear way. I am free.

In a sense it could be said that in the meditations, I perceived what arose in the Silence and the Silence itself as distinct from one another. And perhaps this is why Silence is often likened to the unknown. Because it is that – Silence is unknown and unknowing everything.”

I have decided to take my upcoming time in India off work for self-care and to volunteer for Amma’s charity ‘Embracing the World’, in their efforts to care for those affected by the flooding in Kerala.

This means I will be unavailable from the 30th August to the 26th September.

I will have limited digital contact, so you are welcome to try me. But please be aware that I cannot give sessions during that time.

Wishing you love and freedom from the heart of Silence,

xDaisy

Amma: Compassion Visionary

Hello 🙂

How are you? I am very well indeed 🙂 I was hoping to write to you earlier, but it seems now is the time. First of all, just to let you know that I am back in London and working – so please do message or call my phone to book a session. Plus, I have the venue back. So it’s Wednesdays at Barbican. Some of you will appreciate this, as you either cannot have sessions in your home, or prefer not to. House calls, though, and distant sessions remain available.

Being with Amma on her west coast US Tour was phenomenal… If you have not yet had the chance to meet this fascinating visionary of Compassion, please do take the opportunity. Amma tours for around eight months of each year and the rest of the time is in her ashram in Kerala (India). So, if you are ever going abroad, check in with her websites to see if your paths cross. The dates for the London program at the moment look to be the 11th – 12th November at Sandown Race Course in Surrey (with the Devi Bhava all-nighter being on the 12th). Please do check nearer the time for the update on this, as it can change.

Amma is not just another teacher, another guru. We are talking about, without mincing words, the most exact embodiment of Divinity on the planet alive today. The benefits of spending time in Her physical presence simply cannot be quantified. Just a few examples of this are: experiencing the true nature of Unconditional Love, broadening learning on how to give and why it is so important, and awakening and embodiment. Not to mention engaging in the far-reaching humanitarian aid work Amma is doing, through Her global charity ‘Embracing the World’, and all its volunteers. Bear in mind that neither Amma, nor the Swamis or Swamini, nor any of her senior devotees, nor any of us are paid for the work we do. This is why her charity remains uniquely effective in delivering to its millions of recipients in India and all over the world.

Check out her charity:-

www.embracingtheworld.org

Her US Tour (still happening):-

www.amma.org

And her Indian site:-

www.amritapuri.org

Above, you will find all the information you need on meeting Amma and on her charitable activities. If you do not, please don’t hesitate to ask me.

I want to give you a little personal account of just a couple of the amazing things I experienced with Amma this time. The first is a diary entry from my working week in between having just taken the Vortex Healing® Manifesting Intention course and my time with Amma:-

25/5/18

I was in my bedroom contemplating this continuous drive towards God which I feel so pressingly within. All of a sudden, an alarm began to ring very loudly. I had never heard this particular alarm before and didn’t know where it was coming from. I searched the room. Finally, hidden behind furniture, I found this old dusty digital clock; clearly, it had been left untouched for months, maybe even years. Within the displayed time was 108. As I gazed at this in amazement, the numbers turned to 109, and the alarm clock stopped ringing.

As many of you know, 108 is a particularly auspicious number in Indian spirituality and we chant the 108 Names of the Divine Mother as part of Amma’s recommended sadhana (spiritual practices). A week and a half afterwards, it felt like this bolt-from-the-blue came to fruition while I was on Tour with Amma. I was in Seattle and had been up all night on Devi Bhava, being with Amma and doing seva (selfless service) with my friends. Here is an excerpt from what I wrote:-

4/6/18

After Darshan, I was given a seat right in front of Amma. I fell Silent, totally peaceful, content and happy. Eventually I was moved, but I lingered at the back of the stage. I was left untouched standing there for more than an hour – during which time I was totally transfixed by Amma. Watching Her, I deepened more and more into Silence.

Then, the man who plays the guitar beautifully began to play a solo during Swami Dayamrita’s bhajan set. It was so wonderful, it began to carry me… Suddenly, I was overcome and I began to cry. I felt everything and nothing, I felt union. The sense of union (for want of a better word – a word that doesn’t exist) was so deep…in a felt way, in a way that was choiceless and without an exit gate or any room for doubt. I felt relief and completion in a way that was total. I called out in my heart to Amma, “Thank you, thank you, thank you Amma. I can hardly believe that this is my life. Help me to Surrender – I want to Surender all of my life, everything, to You.” I was crying for a long time; every time I would look at Amma, it would start again. It had hit me – really, really hit me – what She is doing here. I felt overwhelmed at seeing the Reality of Her. That she chose this life she is living – that She has come to us to uplift us, in the most profound sense – the whole world, the whole of humanity. It’s hard to get it across in words, what I felt and perceived. I kept crying and silently calling out to Amma in my heart, “Thank you, thank you Amma – thank you Amma, thank you Amma.” The gratitude I felt was completely overwhelming. In between my tears and praying, I would simply watch Her giving Darshan, feeling this one-pointed longing / bridging into Divinity itself – like I was being fast-tracked to God. When my mind would occasionally start up again, Amma would turn and look at me, and my mind was stopped, and I would be returned into the Silence. It was as if She was showing me the utter beyond-ness of Divinity through this whole thing.

I would like to end with a quote directly from Amma. I hope you enjoy it. I recommend reading it out loud to yourself for full effect:-

“Compassion does not see the faults of others. It does not see the weaknesses of people. It makes no distinction between good and bad people. Compassion cannot draw a line between two countries, two faiths or two religions. Compassion has no ego; thus there is no fear, lust or passion. Compassion simply forgives and forgets. Compassion is like a passage. Everything passes through it. Nothing can stay there. Compassion is love expressed in all its fullness.”

❤️ Amma (Sri Mata Amritanandamayi Devi)

Love,

xDaisy

AMMA :-) :-) :-)

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I am happy and well, if tired, and now without the time to write you the email about the wonderful Manifesting Intention course which I had hoped to write. I leave to be with Amma early tomorrow morning. Many more of you wanted sessions than I had anticipated, so my time has been well spent giving these. Please bear with me on that email though; there is so much exciting stuff to share with you once I have the proper time to go through my notes.

I am thrilled about seeing my teacher! I will be with Her in Seattle, San Ramon and Los Angeles. I leave early tomorrow morning and return on the 19th June (morning). I will be engaged in seva (selfless service) while I am there and will have very limited digital access.

www.amma.org

I hope this email finds you well and enjoying life, and I very much look forward to seeing you after the 19th June.

Love,

xDaisy

Bank Holiday Deal :-)

Hello 🙂

This Monday I am offering my Bank Holiday Special : half price (£45) sessions! Please book soon as places are disappearing fast.

I am going to America to train in the next level of Vortex Healing, which is very exciting, and is  also a big jump up in skills. It is called Manifesting Intention 🙂 . I will be away from the:-

10th – 24th May inclusive

then back offering sessions for 1 week. Then I will be with Amma 🙂 🙂 🙂 – even more exciting! – from the:-

1st – 18th June inclusive

Apologies for not letting you know sooner, but I am especially busy with sessions at the moment. In both of these intensive training grounds, I will have very little opportunity for digital contact, except to arrange my trip as it unfolds. Therefore please make use of that week in between, or have sessions now, or alternatively book for after the 18th June.

Love,

xDaisy

Easter Special: Half-price Sessions :-)

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I am offering you my usual gift this Easter: half-price sessions * £45 * for distance healing via Skype / WhatsApp / phone this Good Friday and Easter Monday!

Looking forward to seeing you,

Much Love,

xDaisy

Sessions in London: Saturday – Tuesday

Hello 🙂

How are you? I am well, and enjoying country life here in East Sussex. Children are playing in the background, out in the sun, and I feel such peace in my heart. I really don’t have much to report or offer in words today, but wanted to let you know that I will be in London Saturday – Tuesday. The sessions I have left are on Monday and Tuesday, at a home in Camberwell where I am house-sitting. Distance sessions are available at any other time.

Please note that I will be continuing training in Vortex Healing® in America from the 11th – 23rd October, at which time I will not be offering sessions and will have limited digital access of any kind.

I leave you with this, which a friend just sent me from Adyashanti:-

You do not need to be perfect to be whole, you do not need to be worthy to be complete…

You are not here to be perfect. No one is perfect. You are here to love, and to love well.  ~ Adyashanti

Love,

xDaisy

Contemplation in the Sun

Hello 🙂

How are you?

First of all, I want to let you know that I will be in London on Wednesday this week in the Barbican. I need the rest of the week to sort out my housing situation in Brighton, which needs turning around within literally 7 days. Skype sessions are available though, of course.

I had one of those moments today, where I was between work (equine assisted therapy and a little job I do for a friend in London) and I stepped out into the sun in the garden where I was. I was immediately struck by the ordinary beauty of things. Simply the other buildings, the music from a party somewhere in the background, and the sky. Finally I could stop for a while, and I did. My mind began to chatter and then to fade, melting into my heart as often it does. It felt so good to feel, to be barefoot on the ground and to be able to loaf for an hour, with nothing to do! I felt so free… Silence pervaded completely. Eventually a thought came: What if I spent the rest of my life just being free? Something opened wider within, in this contemplation. I mean, what if any of us simply chose inner freedom, true peace, right now – and for every ‘now’ forever? I am well aware that this makes no sense in a way! But can you feel into what I’m saying? In other words, what if you, reading this right now, never ever left whatever realisation you have had about the true nature of what you are?

The next thought that came was, What would that take? I saw that it would require a willingness to relinquish all future plans. I also saw I would need to never leave what I know and to never believe or follow through on another thought / piece of negativity. It was humbling…to say the least.

Anyway, I wanted to share this exploration with you now, in hindsight, to see if you resonate with it or have perhaps had a similar kind of insight too? 🙂 Please do write with your comments on this.

Love,

xDaisy

London this week: today, Friday and Saturday

Hello,

How are you? A short note to say that for London sessions, today and Sat are now full this week. But there are a couple of spaces left on Friday. Distance sessions are always available of course, via Skype.

I also wanted to share this video with you. I never tire of Amma’s Swami Dayamrita. In particular it is his integrity, authenticity and humility which really touch me. They are rare qualities in people I have found. Let me know your feelings on this interview. Mine are very passionate!

SOULJOURNS – SWAMI DAYAMRITA, AMMA’S SENIOR DISCIPLE

SOULJOURNS – SWAMI DAYAMRITA, AMMA’S SENIOR DISCIPLE

Welcome to Souljourns and to the amazing story of a former atheist, a well educated man who came to know of Amma…

Much Love,

xDaisy

Vibrational Reality

Hello,

The vibrational quality of reality has come into my life strongly this past week. I am talking about the sense that what we are – expressed as both formless and form – ripples outwards and touches everything. Paradoxically, this ‘vibrational reality’ is both everything and also emerges from everything – like a birth – simultaneously. And it’s not just when we are praying, meditating or having nice thoughts 😉 When we truly get this, deeply feel it, it is kind of shocking. Here it all is, broadcasting out, all the time. I would like to know, what is your sense of this?

I was at the bus stop in Camden late on Friday night, returning home from visiting my 4 year old friend and her mother and another friend. You can imagine the scene: chaotic, teaming with life, gritty, intense. I was engaged in the Adyashanti Fierce Love course I am currently doing, which involved a guided meta meditation (on my iPod). I found this meditation very difficult: to breathe in the sorrow of the world and breathe out loving kindness. Was it too exposing to do it right there, in the middle of a kind of bizarre babylon, I wondered to myself? I decided to do it anyway. Immediately, a man approached me asking for a cigarette. I replied that I was meditating. But I saw my spiritualised ego instantly: there I was, doing meta, and I basically told someone to fuck off in a very ‘nice’ way. Off went the man, and I felt sad. I let it go and continued the meditation. Within moments he was back. Suddenly, he started stroking my arm and holding it. Ordinarily I would have physically pushed him off, but something deeper stopped me. He asked, “Can you help me?” and I said “Yes” without hesitation or thought. Looking directly into his eyes now and taking out my earphones, I began to help him find a street he was looking for. Then he said, “Can I take you with me?”. There was so much longing in his eyes and deeper underneath that, his essence was shining out. “We can cuddle and watch Disney movies”, he continued. I refused and he said, “Can I kiss you?”. Again I refused and pointed him to the street he was trying to reach. He asked to kiss me again and again I said No. It may sound naive to some, but I knew what he really wanted to kiss. I knew what he really wanted to take with him. That’s an example of the movement of vibrational reality, which is a non-personal yet intimate movement. That’s the gift we are really able to give anyone, in any moment of our lives.

The way I felt during this event reminded me of a picture given to me by a client this week. He was using it to illustrate the way he felt during the recent Foundational Vortex Healing training, in which his Amma mantra was running automatically throughout.

~ Alex Grey, ‘Spiritual Energy System’ (1981)

A little reminder that I will be moving to Brighton on the 2nd April and commuting to London to give sessions each week. More on that as it unfolds. To conclude today, I thought I would share this beautiful poem which a friend sent to me having heard Adyashanti read it on the recent silent meditation retreat at Mount Madonna (California):-

There’s a thread you follow.

It goes among things that change,

But it doesn’t change.

People wonder about what you are pursuing,

You have to explain about the thread,

But it is hard for others to see.

While you hold it, you can’t get lost.

Tragedies happen, people get hurt or die,

And you suffer and get old.

Nothing you do can stop time’s unfolding.

You don’t ever let go of the thread.

~ William Stafford

Wishing you all well,

Love,

xDaisy

Self No Other

Hello,

How are you? I have had to wittle this group down due to technicalities with Yahoo, so I hope no one I’ve knocked off feels left out. I am thinking of you all with a warm and surrendered heart and wondering where life is taking you… Please do write with your stories – they are always welcome 🙂

Thank you to those of you who responded to my last email; I feel your warmth and compassion. I know some of you have been concerned and wondering how I am, so I thought I’d fill you in a little and update you on this process, hopefully in a way that speaks to you and your process too. What I am going through in its deepest essence at the moment is heartbreak. I’m sure many of you have been through this too. So unexpected and so very deep, yet at least I know I have loved fully. I have heard some people say to me that they have never been in love before, even people who are quite a lot older than I am, and (perhaps) that is saddest of all.

The process has been that through fully embracing this heartbreak, as much as I am able in my fragile humanness, there is a continuing kind of breakdown breakthrough and entering into Divinity. I want to credit here my sadhana practice, Amma, Adyashanti and Vortex Healing and the engagement in these. There was also a sudden breakthrough during a group healing I was lucky enough to be part of – many thanks Chetana and Will Thornton. I was amazed at the turnaround and transformation after receiving this healing – almost like night and day – and the subsequent sense of completely withdrawing into the Self. Here is what I wrote about it in an email afterwards:-

“I just want to share that something has completely left me since this healing. Now I feel as if there is only the Self itself, and that’s all. It’s like nothingness, but not that empty feeling of emotional vacuum at all. It’s devoid of noise, there is only Silence. Grounded in Self now.”

In my diary I reflected further:-

“So this is it. It was always here. Right here… No wonder no one could give it to me. What this is could never be bought nor sold. ‘The peace which surpasses all understanding’, now I know You. Now I know You… You are this – are me. It’s not outside, it never was outside.”

When I arose the following morning, I knew I had to move home to Brighton. It’s funny because I have just remembered in writing this, that Eckhart Tolle once said one day he simply knew he had to move to North America. Moving as Self, it’s not a question of working things out. It’s letting go without end.

I will be coming to London every week to see you for sessions, so please don’t worry about that. I expect I will move around the beginning of April. Please do not hesitate to email or call me if you have any questions about this.

With Love in my heart,

xDaisy

Happy Solstice :-) :-) :-)

Hello 🙂

I simply want to wish you a Happy Solstice 🙂

Here is what Bjork expresses about it (attached). It’s from her album Biophilia. Wish I had more time to write!

I am away 24th – 27th Dec and 31st Dec – 1st Jan, but available apart from that.

Much Love,

xDaisy

Amma in London 11th – 12th October (all-nighter: 12th)

Hello 🙂

I am writing to remind you of the exciting news that Amma will soon be with us here in London 🙂 On Tuesday no less! If you are thinking of coming, it’s really important to allow much more time than you think you need. Either because queuing for a Darshan token takes longer, or because you want to stay in the energy longer, or you bump into that long lost friend etc. Something always happens with Amma. The atmosphere is teeming with life, with shakti, with all good things 🙂 I have been feeling her presence in the last 2 days in particular…there is this alive quietness speaking something…a language I don’t understand but that I knew long ago, and still know somehow – somewhere deep inside.

I will be on the massage area, most likely on the massage chairs, so do come and visit if you are there.

I have got hold of the Q&A I had with Adyashanti this summer during the retreat. It has given me a lot of cause to reflect on this awakening embodiment evolution and what stillness really truly is. If you would like to hear it, let me know and I can arrange it via Dropbox.

I hope this email finds you well and diving the deep inner dive to Truth. Enjoy this evening,

Love,

xDaisy

Underneath All Currents

Hello 🙂

How are you? I feel relieved that Equinox was on Wednesday (they say ‘living in a world of plenty’) and that Mercury retrograde ended on Thursday. Seeing Bjork live at the Royal Albert Hall in conjunction with these events was pure magic 🙂 I also noticed how incredibly deep the satsang went on Thursday evening at Villa Devi, which other people in the group also reported. As a reminder, we chant (amongst other things) the 108 Names the 1000 Names of the Divine Mother (Archana), sing bhajans and meditate – inspired by Amma.

I have been into Bjork’s musical genius since the age of 13, and have now seen her live 5 times over a period of 21 years. Yes – I used to be obsessed! I had a moment before I walked into the auditorium this time, which I wanted to share with you. I was in the loo putting on my lipgloss. Suddenly I felt this Silence deepen and come in through my body from the left, like a liquid. As I looked at myself in the mirror, I realised something which in words would be, “I know who I am now”. I could feel the qualitative difference from when I used to come and see Bjork – now the tangible quality of Beingness, you could say, was here and was seen as what I actually am. The freedom felt immense; the freedom of not-knowing yet knowing, I guess you could call it Realising – I am This, this Silence. And I want to specify, it isn’t knowing who I am the way people usually say that – “She knows who she is” – about someone with charisma or power, for example. Not that. And it isn’t knowing as such, in the way we normally mean that. It is genuinely perceiving my own nature and the nature of all things and beings. Without filtration, without ‘winning’, without ‘losing’, without anything… There is such relief when you know that; a deep alleviation of that nagging separate feeling that dogs you before, which I see in so many people’s eyes. The point of sharing this, apart from simply sharing, is to use myself as an example of the fact that it is true that Silence is our nature and that one can certainly discover that in a genuine way, if one is interested in doing so.

I have been enjoying the sessions with you so much recently… They have taken on a different quality, an other-worldliness, as my sensing unfolds itself into your systems and as Grace makes its mysterious appearance often. I feel honoured that you would share all of your process with me – the laughter, the tears, the cosmic side, the dark side and all the sides of you. Thank you.

To finish I would like to share with you my favourite Bjork song. I have chosen a link without a video, to enhance the listening aspect, in the hope that the song will drop deeper into your ears. When I first discovered this song, I was about 14 and I fell in love with it. I experienced all kinds of deep emotions inside my room listening to it and often crying. Nowadays I perceive it as being a piece about Stillness. Whatever it is doesn’t really matter, it is a work of art in the truest sense: full, empty, meaningful and meaning-free.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=17yWeynOfOI

Love,

xDaisy

Silent Meditation Retreat with Adyashanti

Hello,

I must say I am thrilled to have the opportunity to deepen into this great, deep silence……….who knows what will happen in this great adventure into the unknown? The inner dive, swan dive, into mystery. I will be unavailable in communication – on a silent meditation retreat – from tomorrow until the 22nd Aug, when I will be back in action.

I want to share a few more learnings from the Ammathon (as a friend rightly called it!), which I hope will benefit you. During the program in Toronto, Amma said something which really struck me. She said, “Vasanas have no power of their own. It is we who give them power.” I realised in that moment, how powerless negativity really is. Her statement also cut through, in me, the tendency to become so familiar with something, that I begin to misuse it. What I mean is that I have talked about my ‘vasanas’ (latent negative tendencies) or issues or behaviour so many times, I can forget that it is I myself who permits them to have the power they have and who actually gives that power to them. I thought this could strike a chord for many of you as well. I would add that it is our tendency to identify with such internal arisings, which is the mechanism by which we give them the most power.

The most core life story I had, the one which had most coloured my experience of reality in this lifetime, came up during the last couple of days with Amma. We save the best for last, don’t we? For me, that was the love story – the agony and the ecstasy of romantic love, and underlying that, the nagging feeling that the right relationship would fulfil me and close any remaining ‘gap’. This probably sounds familiar to some of you, perhaps to many of you. I know – it’s a hard one to admit! I am not going to share the private details of that, sorry 😉 But please bear with me anyway. There is something more important than that part of the story. It began on the treadmill, of all places, not somewhere I frequently find myself. But going to the gym occasionally, during the tour, helped me get time by myself (which is almost completely impossible on staff) and helped me move energetics that were stuck. Suddenly on this treadmill, the desire to be free of that core story hit me, like never before. I simply HAD to be free of it; I could carry it all no more. So with this fire, I made a silent cry – a prayer – within, to Amma. With that, I let go, knowing that it could go either way: perhaps I would get free of this pattern, perhaps I would not – it was in the hands of Divinity now.

Shortly after this, Amma did a Q&A with the retreat group outside, in the unseasonably hot evening sun. There were only about 500 of us there. Right from the beginning, I felt a large amount of fear and anxiety coursing through my system, to the point where I could barely sit still. I didn’t know why I was feeling this way, it was like a body thing. I decided to focus more intensely on the question that was happening, and on Amma’s answer. As I looked at Amma, she made a certain movement as she talked with her hands, and with that I was gone. I felt as if I was merging into Amma from where I was – it was part-visual, part-kinesthetic (akin to the way I sense, during a session). As this happened, any remaining sense of separation fell away and I began to cry. In this oneness and tears and the whole un-conveyable experience, I suddenly knew that all my desire, lack and longing for this person – and all women and men who I had ever felt that towards – was really the longing for God. I simply knew it. Not as a concept and not as a philosophy, and not as an excuse. I actually saw it. I saw it in such a way, that it felt like I could never actually un-see it. I also sensed intuitively that all my other desires were also the longing for God. I felt freed at last…….truly, truly free.

(NB God in my perception is also Truth, wholeness, unity, oneness etc.) The next thoughts were, “Why have I been running after men and women all this time?” and “How could I have missed this reality all these years?” Then the strangest thing happened: I experienced depression for the first time in my life. As I sat, purposefully alone, eating dinner, I felt depressed. But there was absolutely no resistance to it. The sense of oneness was so broad and pervasive, that there was absolutely no problem with feeling depressed. In fact, I was pleased to be having the experience, because before that I never understood what depression was. I knew what pain was, deep gruelling emotional pain, but I didn’t know depression until that moment. I then experienced suicidal ideation! But again, there was no problem with this either, because there was zero resistance to it. And it existed in a context of oneness, of Love. After about an hour, both of these so-called negative experiences passed of their own accord, without me doing anything at all about them.

In hindsight, I believe they occurred because my ego had just lost its trump card, which was the core love story drama. With that gone, it seems like it had to play the depression and suicide cards to try to regain ‘control’ of my bodymind. But that didn’t work: these feelings and thoughts simply passed through, as I said. So then I was just there: story-less and One, feeling a sense of ordinariness and freedom. Nothing special, yet complete liberation.

I make my newsletters personal because I don’t believe I can help unless I talk from my own direct experience. I hope that by reading this something may have resonated or sparked for you.

See you soon, after the retreat,

Love,

xDaisy

Out of the Blue

Hello,

First off I want to tell you about an upcoming training in the IAM, Amma’s meditation technique, which came to her in a vision while she was taking a nighttime stroll around the ashram many years ago. I highly recommend it to anyone looking for a way to connect with Divinity, a fantastic meditation technique or simply a way to unwind, calm thinking down or relax the nervous system. Whatever intention you bring to it, will gradually manifest in your life. It is being held in Brighton / Lewes on the 17th / 18th September. The cost to cover room hire etc. is £35; please contact me if you are interested.

My next recommendation is the Foundational Vortex Healing course being held here in London, 19th – 23rd September with Anthony Gorman. It is hard to begin to explain what Vortex Healing has brought into my life so far because it is so broad and deep. I was thinking recently about why I practice Vortex Healing more than the other helping modalities I am trained in. I came to the simple conclusion that, in my personal and professional experience, it is more effective at deepening you into the core of what you are and releasing the roots of what you aren’t, than any other modality of help I have trained in or experienced first hand.

Now back to the Amma tour this summer 🙂 It was interesting to hear Amma explain in an aside during one of her talks in L.A., that the external aspect of Kali – the fierce appearance – is designed to bring out the dormant doubt in the devotee. I immediately thought of those of you who have felt that Amma has glared at you or ignored you etc. over the years. If she is indeed an embodiment of Kali (which I personally believe), then this might help you make sense of what she is doing there. From my perspective, no action Amma makes is unconscious, and Yes – she can bestow focus on many many people at once. Anyone who has experienced the ‘staring Darshan’ at the end of Devi Bhava will know about this. When she is ‘Kali with us’, perhaps Amma is indeed purposefully bringing out the poison of doubt in the process of life and Divinity. If this kind of insecurity exists within in a suppressed state – for example, as cynicism – it gives rise to all kinds of distortions and disorders in the experience of living, not to mention in the body. On a similar note, it is not uncommon for people to not want to be with Amma if they have strong issues with their own mother. It is easy to put your birth mother’s face over Amma’s face, subtly and subconsciously projecting onto her. If you had painful childhood experiences, you may then fear that she will hurt you in some way, get angry with you, punish you for something you did or ignore you etc. If this sounds like you, you may even find that when you approach her for Darshan, that you have negative thoughts towards Amma. All of that is part of the process of you healing from things which are sometimes unimaginably deep in your system. It will not hurt Amma in any way. In fact, she has been known to ask us to project anger and negativity onto her using the Amma dolls, in order to release in a harmless way. It is possible to see at some point, that the thoughts you have towards Amma are really thoughts you harbour towards yourself.

On a different note, Amma is really urging us all to plant trees if possible, adding the chilling words that, “when we cut down trees, remember we are building our own coffin.” She is also encouraging anyone who has outside space to plant a small vegetable garden and try to eat the produce from that. This means we will not go hungry when food runs short in the future and we will also avoid consuming the pesticides etc. on supermarket vegetables. Not to mention that we save money and get in touch with the earth at the same time 🙂

Now for a little story 🙂 I had a profound experience of Divine Intention during this tour with Amma. Having something like that really changes your life, because before that the idea that the Divine can reach into your life and move it in a certain direction is often just that – an idea, perhaps a hope, or a dream. Here is what happened to me. Out-of-the-blue, during Devi Bhava in Toronto (the final stop on the tour), my boss told my friend and I to go and sit with Amma on the stage. We were understandably astonished, because this lady is known for wanting people to work very hard. We jumped at the chance and made our way onto the stage. We stood beside the ‘bouncer’, an entertaining yet stern man who always wears a suit, and manages the part of the stage nearest to Amma on all the US tour programs. Again out-of-the-blue, he invited us to sit together directly next to Amma. Let me explain that this never happens! It was really out of character for him. We felt so lucky, and beamed at one another 🙂 As I watched her up-close, each movement Amma made as she gave Darshan would bridge me deeper into presence… Then, she suddenly turned and looked at both of us directly, smiling. It was amazing… That look will never leave me. It was a look of the purest knowing… It was so rich, so full… Both my friend and I reported the same things: it felt like Amma was communicating that she herself had brought us into this tour on staff, and that this exchange with her was a kind of ‘graduation’. We both felt this deep sense of Amma acknowledging all the seva we had done, and of the inner work we had done and also we felt this incredible depth of solidarity between us. We felt as if Amma had given each one to the other to help us complete the tour. Somehow I knew, intuitively, that I had just had a real life experience of Divine Intention. And in the wake of that, doubt vanished. I wish I could put this all into words better. But maybe it isn’t possible to do that. The mystery manifesting into creation, manifesting in all kinds of ways, every moment… You can see why the wise men (and women) say, better to sit as silence.

I hope you enjoyed this email and that you are getting plenty of sun 🙂

Love,

Daisy

Why Amma?

Hello,

How are you Londoners and people of the world? 🙂 I hope if you are in London that you are enjoying this heat wave we are lucky enough to be having 🙂

I want to address a question today which people often ask me, or ask me without words. Why Amma? Why do I do this? Why go and pay a handsome fee to work without pay, under conditions which some would consider harsh?

The answer is simple: it’s love. I look at Amma, and I love her. The depth of that love makes me want to support her work, serve Embracing the World (her global charity), and beyond that, to serve life in its entirety. For me, it’s passion; it’s not a ‘being good’ thing. It’s not even spiritual. Imagine being in love…now times it by 500…that’s nowhere near it. This is bhakti (devotion) in real terms.

Everyone has their own particular relationship with Amma, and certainly Amma devotees are all there for different reasons. Some of my friends, clients and family feel put off by the culty appearance of it all, by some of the devotees (who can be far from loving) and by the pretentious ‘holier than thou’ dynamics. Those of you who know me even a little bit, know I am definitely not the poster girl for holiness 🙂 No; it’s a love thing. Pure and simple.

So, what were the physical realities of being on volunteer tour staff, you may wonder. In my particular seva, we were working around 14 hours per day (every day) and longer on a Devi Bhava (the all-nighter). We got roughly 5 hours sleep per night, on the floor, sharing a room and bathroom with between 6 and 40 women. Then, after the long Devi Bhava, we would get on a coach and travel to the next city. Some of those journeys were over 22 hours long. When we arrived, we would sometimes get only a few hours sleep before set-up and work began. We delivered programs in 10 cities, over a 6-week period.

In between all this, I would squeeze my way onto the stage to spend time with Amma. Occasionally, Amma would call the staff to receive Darshan. I would like to share with you my diary entry about this:-

6/6/16

I don’t know how possible it is to put this into words…

Impossible.

*  *  *  *  *  *  *

But let me try.

Amma called us for Darshan in Seattle on Devi Bhava. As I entered the stage in the queue, I decided to make a prayer within. I said something like, ‘Amma, please assist me in focussing on the goal of this life: on realising God. Please help me to remain focussed even during this tour.’

As I laid my eyes upon her, hugging the person in front, tears welled up. I felt this love for her that was beyond anything I had ever experienced, and yet ordinarily human at the same time. I simply rejoiced within, at the sight of her. She moved my head around quite a bit before finally placing it on her heart, while she answered the questions of some devotees to her right. It always amazes me how one never feels left out in this scenario: Amma’s attention is deeply with each one of us simultaneously, which is testament to the sheer depth of oneness she is living. She then kissed my cheek and embraced me, chanting in my ear with a kind of vehemence in her voice, “My daughter! My daughter! My daughter!”, over and over again. I fell into total oneness…….. At the same time, the human being felt her as my teacher and as my mother – somewhere where those two are one and the same. And the experience of trust was overwhelming. As Amma finished the hug and handed me prasad, we drew back from one another and she looked deeply into my eyes. I cannot adequately express in words what I felt pass between us in that exchange: it was simply beyond the beyond. I then felt deep gratitude and expressed it somehow from oneness. Amma’s expression altered to one of such profound compassion….…something just too immense to convey. She embraced me again and then placed a chocolate in my mouth. That was the moment at which my searching gently stopped. My life’s search ceased in that moment. It was, perhaps, what many teachers have described as the end of seeking. Immediately after this I experienced true happiness: powerful, pure, authentic, unconditional happiness. I felt restored, redeemed – completely. There was total and utter wholeness. I’m not talking conceptually here, but actually. The real thing.

As I walked away, I collapsed on the stage in tears beside Amma. I was crying, and then I was sobbing; there was no way to do anything at all, and I couldn’t stop. But I was actually sobbing with happiness. My heart broke open under a force: that of revelation, unconditional happiness, union…Truth. Simultaneously, I experienced a spontaneous healing of my past, which came from nowhere. Dad’s death, the break-ups, the childhood trauma, the fear, isolation, despair, loss, loneliness, lack and doubt – all of these were consumed by something I cannot describe. I cried and cried, wiping my make-up from my face with my sleeve, only to cry uncontrollably again.

When the crying eventually stopped, I sat for a while. When I left the stage, I felt empty in the true sense of the word. Emptied of separation, of that heavy anxious burden. And the very subtle sense that something is missing, was gone. I could rest…finally, I could rest…… The feeling of resting and oneness were beautiful……profound. Paradoxically, there was an abundant feeling of vitality at the same time. But it was vitality without ownership. I realised that rest and vitality are the same thing. Eventually I went about the day, without saying a word about it to anyone.”

I hope you enjoy your day and that I get to see you soon 🙂

Love,

xDaisy

Pilgrimage to Paradise

Hello sunshine lovers, energy enthusiasts and helpers of mankind,

My title refers to an old trance tune on Sourmash records, which was helpful in bringing me towards spirit in my teenage years. In a deeper way, I am referring to what I am about to do in June: I am very excited – and honoured – to have been given a staff position on Amma’s US tour! I will be volunteering in the clothing boutique. It’s funny because I was thinking of ways I might get into the feminine and embody that more, and then I got given this position 🙂 Feel free to ask me any questions you may have about what I will be doing or what the tour involves.

Are any of you going to be there, or thinking of going to a couple of stops? Here are the stops in full:-

Seattle, WA

June 4-5 Public Program

San Ramon, CA

June 7-9 Public Program

June 10-12 Retreat

June 12 Evening Public Program

Los Angeles, CA

June 14-16 Public Program

Santa Fe, NM

June 18-19 Public Program

June 20-22 Retreat

June 22 Evening Public Program

Dallas, TX

June 24-25 Public Program

Chicago, IL

June 27-29 Public Program

New York, NY

July 1-3 Public Program

Boston, MA

July 5-6 Public Program

Washington, DC

July 8-9 Public Program

Toronto, ON

July 11 Public Program

July 12-14 Retreat

July 14 Evening Public Program

I will be away from the 3rd June to the 16th July without internet or phone access, so please do get all your sessions in before then.

I have been re-doing the Art of Meditation with Adyashanti this week and wanted to share some of the wisdom with you. Adya discusses the fact that awakening is not just an initial moment in which the I falls away, but it is also an ongoing unfolding. And for that part, meditation is crucial. In this sense, he disagrees with non-dual teachings – and I think rightly so – which tend to discourage practice (albeit covertly). Even if it is not said outright, the implication in many non-dual teachings is that practice is not all that important. Yet I simply haven’t met anyone who is deeply embodied as their true nature who has not engaged deeply in ongoing practices. So from my point of view, I wholeheartedly agree with Adyashanti on this important and often perplexing point. Please do offer your experiences with this, as I would be interested in them.

Bye for now, and do call or contact me before the 3rd June,

Love,

xDaisy

Amma Documentary and other news

Hello 🙂

I hope you are out enjoying the sunshine 🙂 I want to share this documentary about Amma by Shekar Kapur. It’s not often that you get to hear Amma talking for long, so a real treat. It may give you goosebumps!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gRxtKANEfwc&feature=youtu.be

Please do make the most of sessions now, as I will be on tour with her from the 3rd June for 6 weeks, as I mentioned. I will update you with more exact details when they are published. I will not be able to give healing during this time because I will be on staff and without internet connection.

I have felt so inspired by sessions with you recently…I feel I have the best job in the world 🙂 I have come to see that creativity is often channelled, as a result of a session with one of you (an author). Actually Amma talks about this in a deeper way in the documentary! In the session, I saw that this person was channelling her books from the astral realm, where beings there assist her. This is similar to what Ric Weinman has said about J.K. Rowling: that she dreams the Harry Potter stories (influenced by a ‘real’ place in a different realm – see Quinstel below) and then writes them out in her waking state. It was amazing the detail I was able to see with this client in terms of sensing, and I believe that was in part due to her creative openness connecting with mine, because of what creativity gives us all access to. I wanted to take her to Quinstel directly (a kind of Divine university we access via Vortex class transmissions) and it seemed to be going well, but then we got to a door that was locked. I realised it was because she needed the transmission from a Vortex class to gain the key to the lock. Fascinating work 🙂 There have been many other wonderful sessions, but I won’t go on 😉

Here is the link for Mukti’s events (Adyashanti’s wife), in England in August, which it’s best to book in advance:-

http://www.adyashanti.org/index.php?file=mukti_events&eventid=1245

You can still get on the waiting list for the silent retreat in England with Adyashanti here:-

https://www.adyashanti.org/index.php?file=waitlist_reg&eventid=1221

I received the grace to be invited to satsang with Pamela Wilson on Friday, last minute. I found it very powerful. At the end, I couldn’t resist suddenly hugging her and she said a very sweet thing to me: “I enjoyed your presence. Silent and full”. So there you go: when you’re deliberating about sitting in the front row at these things – do it! Here is her site. She is back in London in August:-

http://www.pamelasatsang.com/

See you soon,

Love,

xDaisy

This Love

Hello 🙂

This is a new day,

This is a brand new day!

Your crimson tide washes over my heart,

This Love,

This Love…

I wish I could more accurately translate to you the sense of doing the 1000 Names this morning. It leaves a perfume, a scent, of such depth and bliss…and ultimately pure non-separation, oneness. If you are not doing a regular practice, I highly recommend starting today. Even if you only do a 15 minute meditation in the morning or at night, you will find that over time you begin to see clearly again, the way you used to as a child. To see things AS THEY ARE. What a huge privilege…! In fact, Amma has said:-

I didn’t come to teach anyone anything. I came to remind you of a song you once knew, but have since forgotten  ~ Amma

It’s quite a statement coming from an avatar, the one kind of being who actually can truly teach, directly, and with acute accuracy. So we can see then, that this enlightenment game is really not about teachers or teachings. It’s about something else entirely… I would dearly love to hear your thoughts on what it is about, so please write to me about this 🙂 Also, please do join me on Facebook. Search for Daisy Nokes. I know I went through a privacy period, but that is over now.

How did you fair over Shivaratri on Monday, followed by the solar eclipse and Picses supermoon on Tues and Wed? Yes, that much did happen! The Shiva day, from my point of view, is about stillness manifesting into creation (sometimes in a variety of ways 😉 and the solar eclipse creates a deep purging of old pain, so that new projects can blossom. The supermoon in Picses represents the unconscious of humanity, the collective unconscious, what is being denied, coming out and releasing. I would love to hear any stories you have about Mon, Tues and Wed 🙂

If you feel you would like to join in with weekly coming-togethers of like hearted souls, just to remind you that I am going to Villa Devi in London every week to sing and chant and be with Amma devotees. It is a deeply transformative and amazing way to deepen your practices or path and to gain the sense of community. Let me know if you would like to be put on their mailing list.

Some of the results I have been getting through working with the U-AP level of Vortex Healing are remarkable. A client rang me to say that she “couldn’t feel anything” and she was concerned that she was emotionally disconnected. But when I looked into her system I could see that the work we had done together was so transformative that she had lost an entire ‘place’ or position in consciousness from which she had been living her life up until now. That is the power of this healing art combined with the way I work with Amma. I always wanted something which could actually remove issues, not just make the prison more comfortable, but actually deconstruct the prison piece by piece. Thank goodness I found Amma and Vortex Healing and that I am able to share that deconstruction with you, in you. This is the deepest gift I have ever been given.

I also facilitated a session this week in which I worked on the core position underlying back pain that my client had had for over 8 years, and with which she had been working in a variety of very helpful ways. Yet somehow the pain remained. Immeditately after the session she was able to flex her lower back again and the pain was barely noticeable! She also remarked that her voice had changed. This is something wonderful which can happen after a session, as if the person is speaking from a different place and without something ‘in the way’, that something being the issue worked on.

There was also a beautiful moment when I was doing some awakening coaching with a client and I asked her (because she was feeling a lack of clarity) what clarity meant to her. She replied simply, “Knowing my Truth and moving towards it”. I knew immediately that it was a pivotal moment for this person, because once you speak so authentically out loud the Divine hears (and you yourself hear) that and the transformation of life truly begins anew.

Ok that’s all for now. A bit of a long one – thank you for bearing with me 🙂 I feel very over-excited!

Love to you, beautiful blessed being,

Daisy

Group Vortex Healing

Hello,

How are you this rather cold day? On Sunday I was given the opportunity to facilitate a group healing on Leila Sadeghee’s Yoga Immersion here in London. It went very well indeed and I was thrilled about it! Leila commented that it felt to her like receiving an individual session, which is encouraging considering that there were around 20 people receiving the work. A lot of information came through also for people individually afterwards when they approached me with questions and comments about their experiences. All in all, it was wonderful and something I would like to continue with in the future. It was the first time since Dad died 5 years ago that I have facilitated a group and it feels good to be back in the groove of that. I would like to know if you would be interested in receiving group healing, either at a distance or in person at the venue in London EC1?

I want to share a personal healing miracle which happened last week. As some of you know, my mother and I have a challenging relationship and have had for as long as I can remember. This culminated in an argument one night recently, revolving around her disapproval of my life and my awakening path, including her speaking against Amma, which was the biggest trigger for me. The next day, I attended an Amma satsang and dedicated the sadhanas there to healing this fraught relationship. I did this again during an additional satsang that week. I also wrote a loving email to Mum, apologising for what I had said in the argument. Although Mum did not apologise or engage, something in her email response made my sensing ears prick up. She said she had had a ‘car prang’ that week, nothing serious but she was a little shaken by it. In November last year, I had a clear premonition that she would die in a head on collision with another car. I had had glimpses of this a couple of times before, but had put it down to fear in my own system. However, the premonition in November was so clear that I decided to do healing on it and I also told Mum. She did not react well, she was angry, but I felt it was the right thing to do to warn her so that her awareness might be present should the situation arise. On hearing of the recent car prang, I had the feeling that perhaps it was the dissolution of her karma by the Divine, which I have heard that Amma is capable of doing. I asked my healer this and, as we discussed it, it became clear to both of us that that was indeed the case. Of course we could both be wrong, only time will tell, but if this is true then it is a healing miracle… If this is true, then it puts a whole new light on the deeper reason for the falling out Mum and I had, and on the sheer power of the satsangs, and of Divine intervention. I personally feel blown away by this experience…

Something else which came to me this week and I wanted to share with you is that, if you want awakening in this lifetime you have to really want it, naturally, and you need to truly engage with your life and your path (dharma). None of this hiding out in non-dual getaways will do it – it doesn’t work. I tried it for years, and I see a lot of people trying to do it that way, but what happens is you get stuck and believe you are ‘there’, even if that means ‘nowhere’ (which, if you look at the ego, is actually still trying to get somewhere). Many of the so-called teachers of non-duality etc. in London and around the world are not where they think they are in terms of awakening and embodiment (I am not talking about Tony Parsons here). It is not very difficult to see this if you sense directly into their consciousness. Another way is to look at how they avoid life or their conditioning, or at how they treat others and behave. Often such ‘teachers’ are not really embodying the Truth that they have glimpsed or awoken to. That means that as a student / participant they can’t really help you. Looking at someone like Adyashanti for example, it is clear and evident that the embodiment there is very real and very deep. That is rare, in reality.

Just to remind you that, as I explained in my last newsletter, I have received guidance from the Divine on my price per session, which is now £90 for 1 & 1/2 hours.

Wishing you well,

Love,

Daisy