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Amma Hits London Tomorrow! :-)

Hello 🙂

How are you? I am good 🙂 I have spent the day (like my other days off at the moment) helping to build the new ashram for Amma in Bromley. I love doing seva (selfless service)… 🙂 It honestly makes me happier than anything in the world. I have no idea why – lol! But I really love it. Soon the new place will be ready and will operate as the M.A. Centre for the UK, and as a community centre in between Embracing The World events.

Tomorrow Amma comes in person to Sandown Racecourse in Esher, Surrey. The final night is Friday and it’s the all-nighter. Here is all the information you need:-

www.amma.org.uk

If you haven’t yet met Amma, here is a documentary you may be interested in watching:-

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YsxZI0PBl_A&t=17s

I am still here until the 27th, when I fly to the ashram in India for 3 and a half weeks – so I will return from there on the 22nd December. Please book your sessions accordingly, as I will not be able to give sessions from the ashram this time. I will be available via WhatsApp, Messenger and email there though, but bear in mind it is rural India without Wifi, so contact will be sporadic.

If you come to Amma in Sandown this week, come and find me in the massage area where I should be for most of the 3 days. Much Love to you all 🙂

xDaisy

Devotion

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I am here in London, adjusting to the changes that my life brings, in this case the return from ashram life to city life. I don’t know if anyone remembers that seminal track by Goldie – ’Inner City Life’? That more-or-less encapsulates how it feels.

When sitting down to write about a living master, one faces a dilemma: the sense that the living presence of such a being, and the ‘experience’ (for want of a better word) of that, can never be confined to words or descriptions. It’s very hard to say anything about Amma. She both is and is not, she manifests as both form and formless in a continuous cascade. Perhaps the way in which my friends and I feel her in the most tangible way, is as Supreme Love: a Love that goes completely beyond anything imaginable, and which cuts through every vestige of the human ego, revealing the ultimate secret of this universe. If anyone is asking why I spend so much time with my spiritual teacher, this is why.

I wish I could give some kind of account of my stay with Amma in Amritapuri, but that really would just be words. You see, it’s a living thing with her. You don’t go about your day and then sit down and write your diary, and feel all good about what you’ve understood, and then go to sleep again. It’s not like that. The path with Amma is the path of action, of expression, of interaction and of an outpouring of a selflessness you had no idea was inside you, waiting to come out. This Love moves, this Silence transforms without leaving itself. This true way throws the human being into complete Mystery, not only once, but constantly. And miracles rain down upon everyone in that ashram like the monsoons. I’m aware that I sound like I’ve drunk the Kool-Aid – lol!

Those of you who have visited the ashram will know that one of the ways people deepen in their closeness with Amma and her teachings, is through sharing stories about her. I heard many extraordinary accounts while I was there this time. One never knows whether such stories are true, mythological or a version of a truth. To me, that is not ultimately the most important thing: for me, it is this unknown space…this Mystery, that such stories deepen me into which matters the most. One night, we met a new friend. As we got to know him over the course of our stay on the ashram (in saying ‘we’ and ‘our’, I am referring to Steve and I – yes, we are back together 🙂 🙂 :-)), this friend began to tell us the story of how he met Amma. The story begins before he was born. His father heard about Amma and took my friend’s sister to meet Her in Manchester in 1989. When they went for Darshan the father said to his daughter, “You are in the presence of God, you can ask anything you like.” The daughter told Amma that she wanted a little brother. Amma looked to the father and asked if he and his wife wanted another child. The father replied Yes, but that they could not, because his wife had gone through the menopause. Amma said Ok, and smiled at the daughter. A couple of months later, the mother began her periods again. Soon after this, she was pregnant. My friend was born in due course. Not long after the birth, Amma was due to visit England again. The father stayed at home with his new son (my friend), while the mother – who had never met Amma yet – and her daughter went to the program. As the mother fell into Amma’s arms for Darshan, Amma said to this woman – who she was meeting for the first time and had no information about – “Are you happy now that you have a son?” The mother burst into tears and surrendered. Hearing this story flooded me with energy rushes and goosebumps. I would never want to, or try to, prove whether it is true or not. I don’t know that. All I can say is that the sense of resonance throughout my entire being upon hearing it was overwhelming, and that the feeling of reality, realness, hitting-the-mark – whatever you want to call it – opened up within me in a profound way.

This actually leads me into something else I wanted to share with you. People often ask me about intuition, and feel that I have some expertise in this area. I don’t know about that, but I did discover something more about the whole thing when I was with Amma in the ashram. I hope that including this diary entry might assist you in your own journey with with your sense of intuition / instinct.

12/9/18

The answer came in Darshan today. There was no need to tune-in, check, ‘ask Amma inside’, or anything like that. When I was relaxed and open – simple, and in my being, one could say – I felt during Amma’s long embrace that [X]. It didn’t come mentally. It didn’t come through any kind of asking. It didn’t come in a big bang. It came through the feeling body. This relative truth came as a sort-of feeling, a kind-of sense, which ran like a river through my heart. So, yes, as [Y] reminded me that time: trust the truth that comes naturally, like a gift.”

That’s all for now. If you would like to book a session or talk about anything, please call, message or text me.

Much Love,

xDaisy

“The silent abyss beyond all knowing” ~ Adyashanti

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I am in the midst of a potent time in my life, between the retreat I have just completed with Adyashanti and the time I am about to spend with Amma. I feel such wonderment and gratitude about this. They are the only words I can find in this moment to express how I am feeling. I don’t know why my life is this way – so filled with Divine opportunities – and why it is not another way. I can only bow down before the Grace that brought this all here.

The way I feel from being on the 7 day silent meditation retreat with Adyashanti is that I have now put all my eggs in one basket – that of Silence. There is this abiding trust now in the wisdom of Silence itself. On the level of experience (as it could be called), the Silence has become the foreground. It is hard to give an explanation of what this means for anyone who is struggling to understand (which may be no one of course). But here is an excerpt from my diary on retreat, of a particular day when this started to open fully:-

“Something really beautiful began to happen during the Silent Sittings today. I could, and still can, see all the way through my thoughts. I experience that absolutely everything arising there is conditioning. Previously, I had been assigning Truth to many many things…… Now I see that none of this is Truth. The contraction deep in my belly when something comes up is not Truth – it is conditioning. It’s the same with the things people say to me, and what arises in me in reactivity – conditioning. None of this is Truth. I am finally free.

I don’t say this as a grand statement about enlightenment. I mean simply that I am free from the grip of my mind and my deep emotional conditioning, inasmuch as I see it for what it is. It is no longer fooling me. I see through it all in a clear way. I am free.

In a sense it could be said that in the meditations, I perceived what arose in the Silence and the Silence itself as distinct from one another. And perhaps this is why Silence is often likened to the unknown. Because it is that – Silence is unknown and unknowing everything.”

I have decided to take my upcoming time in India off work for self-care and to volunteer for Amma’s charity ‘Embracing the World’, in their efforts to care for those affected by the flooding in Kerala.

This means I will be unavailable from the 30th August to the 26th September.

I will have limited digital contact, so you are welcome to try me. But please be aware that I cannot give sessions during that time.

Wishing you love and freedom from the heart of Silence,

xDaisy

Amma: Compassion Visionary

Hello 🙂

How are you? I am very well indeed 🙂 I was hoping to write to you earlier, but it seems now is the time. First of all, just to let you know that I am back in London and working – so please do message or call my phone to book a session. Plus, I have the venue back. So it’s Wednesdays at Barbican. Some of you will appreciate this, as you either cannot have sessions in your home, or prefer not to. House calls, though, and distant sessions remain available.

Being with Amma on her west coast US Tour was phenomenal… If you have not yet had the chance to meet this fascinating visionary of Compassion, please do take the opportunity. Amma tours for around eight months of each year and the rest of the time is in her ashram in Kerala (India). So, if you are ever going abroad, check in with her websites to see if your paths cross. The dates for the London program at the moment look to be the 11th – 12th November at Sandown Race Course in Surrey (with the Devi Bhava all-nighter being on the 12th). Please do check nearer the time for the update on this, as it can change.

Amma is not just another teacher, another guru. We are talking about, without mincing words, the most exact embodiment of Divinity on the planet alive today. The benefits of spending time in Her physical presence simply cannot be quantified. Just a few examples of this are: experiencing the true nature of Unconditional Love, broadening learning on how to give and why it is so important, and awakening and embodiment. Not to mention engaging in the far-reaching humanitarian aid work Amma is doing, through Her global charity ‘Embracing the World’, and all its volunteers. Bear in mind that neither Amma, nor the Swamis or Swamini, nor any of her senior devotees, nor any of us are paid for the work we do. This is why her charity remains uniquely effective in delivering to its millions of recipients in India and all over the world.

Check out her charity:-

www.embracingtheworld.org

Her US Tour (still happening):-

www.amma.org

And her Indian site:-

www.amritapuri.org

Above, you will find all the information you need on meeting Amma and on her charitable activities. If you do not, please don’t hesitate to ask me.

I want to give you a little personal account of just a couple of the amazing things I experienced with Amma this time. The first is a diary entry from my working week in between having just taken the Vortex Healing® Manifesting Intention course and my time with Amma:-

25/5/18

I was in my bedroom contemplating this continuous drive towards God which I feel so pressingly within. All of a sudden, an alarm began to ring very loudly. I had never heard this particular alarm before and didn’t know where it was coming from. I searched the room. Finally, hidden behind furniture, I found this old dusty digital clock; clearly, it had been left untouched for months, maybe even years. Within the displayed time was 108. As I gazed at this in amazement, the numbers turned to 109, and the alarm clock stopped ringing.

As many of you know, 108 is a particularly auspicious number in Indian spirituality and we chant the 108 Names of the Divine Mother as part of Amma’s recommended sadhana (spiritual practices). A week and a half afterwards, it felt like this bolt-from-the-blue came to fruition while I was on Tour with Amma. I was in Seattle and had been up all night on Devi Bhava, being with Amma and doing seva (selfless service) with my friends. Here is an excerpt from what I wrote:-

4/6/18

After Darshan, I was given a seat right in front of Amma. I fell Silent, totally peaceful, content and happy. Eventually I was moved, but I lingered at the back of the stage. I was left untouched standing there for more than an hour – during which time I was totally transfixed by Amma. Watching Her, I deepened more and more into Silence.

Then, the man who plays the guitar beautifully began to play a solo during Swami Dayamrita’s bhajan set. It was so wonderful, it began to carry me… Suddenly, I was overcome and I began to cry. I felt everything and nothing, I felt union. The sense of union (for want of a better word – a word that doesn’t exist) was so deep…in a felt way, in a way that was choiceless and without an exit gate or any room for doubt. I felt relief and completion in a way that was total. I called out in my heart to Amma, “Thank you, thank you, thank you Amma. I can hardly believe that this is my life. Help me to Surrender – I want to Surender all of my life, everything, to You.” I was crying for a long time; every time I would look at Amma, it would start again. It had hit me – really, really hit me – what She is doing here. I felt overwhelmed at seeing the Reality of Her. That she chose this life she is living – that She has come to us to uplift us, in the most profound sense – the whole world, the whole of humanity. It’s hard to get it across in words, what I felt and perceived. I kept crying and silently calling out to Amma in my heart, “Thank you, thank you Amma – thank you Amma, thank you Amma.” The gratitude I felt was completely overwhelming. In between my tears and praying, I would simply watch Her giving Darshan, feeling this one-pointed longing / bridging into Divinity itself – like I was being fast-tracked to God. When my mind would occasionally start up again, Amma would turn and look at me, and my mind was stopped, and I would be returned into the Silence. It was as if She was showing me the utter beyond-ness of Divinity through this whole thing.

I would like to end with a quote directly from Amma. I hope you enjoy it. I recommend reading it out loud to yourself for full effect:-

“Compassion does not see the faults of others. It does not see the weaknesses of people. It makes no distinction between good and bad people. Compassion cannot draw a line between two countries, two faiths or two religions. Compassion has no ego; thus there is no fear, lust or passion. Compassion simply forgives and forgets. Compassion is like a passage. Everything passes through it. Nothing can stay there. Compassion is love expressed in all its fullness.”

❤️ Amma (Sri Mata Amritanandamayi Devi)

Love,

xDaisy

AMMA :-) :-) :-)

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I am happy and well, if tired, and now without the time to write you the email about the wonderful Manifesting Intention course which I had hoped to write. I leave to be with Amma early tomorrow morning. Many more of you wanted sessions than I had anticipated, so my time has been well spent giving these. Please bear with me on that email though; there is so much exciting stuff to share with you once I have the proper time to go through my notes.

I am thrilled about seeing my teacher! I will be with Her in Seattle, San Ramon and Los Angeles. I leave early tomorrow morning and return on the 19th June (morning). I will be engaged in seva (selfless service) while I am there and will have very limited digital access.

www.amma.org

I hope this email finds you well and enjoying life, and I very much look forward to seeing you after the 19th June.

Love,

xDaisy

Bank Holiday Deal :-)

Hello 🙂

This Monday I am offering my Bank Holiday Special : half price (£45) sessions! Please book soon as places are disappearing fast.

I am going to America to train in the next level of Vortex Healing, which is very exciting, and is  also a big jump up in skills. It is called Manifesting Intention 🙂 . I will be away from the:-

10th – 24th May inclusive

then back offering sessions for 1 week. Then I will be with Amma 🙂 🙂 🙂 – even more exciting! – from the:-

1st – 18th June inclusive

Apologies for not letting you know sooner, but I am especially busy with sessions at the moment. In both of these intensive training grounds, I will have very little opportunity for digital contact, except to arrange my trip as it unfolds. Therefore please make use of that week in between, or have sessions now, or alternatively book for after the 18th June.

Love,

xDaisy

Easter Special: Half-price Sessions :-)

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I am offering you my usual gift this Easter: half-price sessions * £45 * for distance healing via Skype / WhatsApp / phone this Good Friday and Easter Monday!

Looking forward to seeing you,

Much Love,

xDaisy

Sessions in London: Saturday – Tuesday

Hello 🙂

How are you? I am well, and enjoying country life here in East Sussex. Children are playing in the background, out in the sun, and I feel such peace in my heart. I really don’t have much to report or offer in words today, but wanted to let you know that I will be in London Saturday – Tuesday. The sessions I have left are on Monday and Tuesday, at a home in Camberwell where I am house-sitting. Distance sessions are available at any other time.

Please note that I will be continuing training in Vortex Healing® in America from the 11th – 23rd October, at which time I will not be offering sessions and will have limited digital access of any kind.

I leave you with this, which a friend just sent me from Adyashanti:-

You do not need to be perfect to be whole, you do not need to be worthy to be complete…

You are not here to be perfect. No one is perfect. You are here to love, and to love well.  ~ Adyashanti

Love,

xDaisy

Contemplation in the Sun

Hello 🙂

How are you?

First of all, I want to let you know that I will be in London on Wednesday this week in the Barbican. I need the rest of the week to sort out my housing situation in Brighton, which needs turning around within literally 7 days. Skype sessions are available though, of course.

I had one of those moments today, where I was between work (equine assisted therapy and a little job I do for a friend in London) and I stepped out into the sun in the garden where I was. I was immediately struck by the ordinary beauty of things. Simply the other buildings, the music from a party somewhere in the background, and the sky. Finally I could stop for a while, and I did. My mind began to chatter and then to fade, melting into my heart as often it does. It felt so good to feel, to be barefoot on the ground and to be able to loaf for an hour, with nothing to do! I felt so free… Silence pervaded completely. Eventually a thought came: What if I spent the rest of my life just being free? Something opened wider within, in this contemplation. I mean, what if any of us simply chose inner freedom, true peace, right now – and for every ‘now’ forever? I am well aware that this makes no sense in a way! But can you feel into what I’m saying? In other words, what if you, reading this right now, never ever left whatever realisation you have had about the true nature of what you are?

The next thought that came was, What would that take? I saw that it would require a willingness to relinquish all future plans. I also saw I would need to never leave what I know and to never believe or follow through on another thought / piece of negativity. It was humbling…to say the least.

Anyway, I wanted to share this exploration with you now, in hindsight, to see if you resonate with it or have perhaps had a similar kind of insight too? 🙂 Please do write with your comments on this.

Love,

xDaisy

London this week: today, Friday and Saturday

Hello,

How are you? A short note to say that for London sessions, today and Sat are now full this week. But there are a couple of spaces left on Friday. Distance sessions are always available of course, via Skype.

I also wanted to share this video with you. I never tire of Amma’s Swami Dayamrita. In particular it is his integrity, authenticity and humility which really touch me. They are rare qualities in people I have found. Let me know your feelings on this interview. Mine are very passionate!

SOULJOURNS – SWAMI DAYAMRITA, AMMA’S SENIOR DISCIPLE

SOULJOURNS – SWAMI DAYAMRITA, AMMA’S SENIOR DISCIPLE

Welcome to Souljourns and to the amazing story of a former atheist, a well educated man who came to know of Amma…

Much Love,

xDaisy

Vibrational Reality

Hello,

The vibrational quality of reality has come into my life strongly this past week. I am talking about the sense that what we are – expressed as both formless and form – ripples outwards and touches everything. Paradoxically, this ‘vibrational reality’ is both everything and also emerges from everything – like a birth – simultaneously. And it’s not just when we are praying, meditating or having nice thoughts 😉 When we truly get this, deeply feel it, it is kind of shocking. Here it all is, broadcasting out, all the time. I would like to know, what is your sense of this?

I was at the bus stop in Camden late on Friday night, returning home from visiting my 4 year old friend and her mother and another friend. You can imagine the scene: chaotic, teaming with life, gritty, intense. I was engaged in the Adyashanti Fierce Love course I am currently doing, which involved a guided meta meditation (on my iPod). I found this meditation very difficult: to breathe in the sorrow of the world and breathe out loving kindness. Was it too exposing to do it right there, in the middle of a kind of bizarre babylon, I wondered to myself? I decided to do it anyway. Immediately, a man approached me asking for a cigarette. I replied that I was meditating. But I saw my spiritualised ego instantly: there I was, doing meta, and I basically told someone to fuck off in a very ‘nice’ way. Off went the man, and I felt sad. I let it go and continued the meditation. Within moments he was back. Suddenly, he started stroking my arm and holding it. Ordinarily I would have physically pushed him off, but something deeper stopped me. He asked, “Can you help me?” and I said “Yes” without hesitation or thought. Looking directly into his eyes now and taking out my earphones, I began to help him find a street he was looking for. Then he said, “Can I take you with me?”. There was so much longing in his eyes and deeper underneath that, his essence was shining out. “We can cuddle and watch Disney movies”, he continued. I refused and he said, “Can I kiss you?”. Again I refused and pointed him to the street he was trying to reach. He asked to kiss me again and again I said No. It may sound naive to some, but I knew what he really wanted to kiss. I knew what he really wanted to take with him. That’s an example of the movement of vibrational reality, which is a non-personal yet intimate movement. That’s the gift we are really able to give anyone, in any moment of our lives.

The way I felt during this event reminded me of a picture given to me by a client this week. He was using it to illustrate the way he felt during the recent Foundational Vortex Healing training, in which his Amma mantra was running automatically throughout.

~ Alex Grey, ‘Spiritual Energy System’ (1981)

A little reminder that I will be moving to Brighton on the 2nd April and commuting to London to give sessions each week. More on that as it unfolds. To conclude today, I thought I would share this beautiful poem which a friend sent to me having heard Adyashanti read it on the recent silent meditation retreat at Mount Madonna (California):-

There’s a thread you follow.

It goes among things that change,

But it doesn’t change.

People wonder about what you are pursuing,

You have to explain about the thread,

But it is hard for others to see.

While you hold it, you can’t get lost.

Tragedies happen, people get hurt or die,

And you suffer and get old.

Nothing you do can stop time’s unfolding.

You don’t ever let go of the thread.

~ William Stafford

Wishing you all well,

Love,

xDaisy

Self No Other

Hello,

How are you? I have had to wittle this group down due to technicalities with Yahoo, so I hope no one I’ve knocked off feels left out. I am thinking of you all with a warm and surrendered heart and wondering where life is taking you… Please do write with your stories – they are always welcome 🙂

Thank you to those of you who responded to my last email; I feel your warmth and compassion. I know some of you have been concerned and wondering how I am, so I thought I’d fill you in a little and update you on this process, hopefully in a way that speaks to you and your process too. What I am going through in its deepest essence at the moment is heartbreak. I’m sure many of you have been through this too. So unexpected and so very deep, yet at least I know I have loved fully. I have heard some people say to me that they have never been in love before, even people who are quite a lot older than I am, and (perhaps) that is saddest of all.

The process has been that through fully embracing this heartbreak, as much as I am able in my fragile humanness, there is a continuing kind of breakdown breakthrough and entering into Divinity. I want to credit here my sadhana practice, Amma, Adyashanti and Vortex Healing and the engagement in these. There was also a sudden breakthrough during a group healing I was lucky enough to be part of – many thanks Chetana and Will Thornton. I was amazed at the turnaround and transformation after receiving this healing – almost like night and day – and the subsequent sense of completely withdrawing into the Self. Here is what I wrote about it in an email afterwards:-

“I just want to share that something has completely left me since this healing. Now I feel as if there is only the Self itself, and that’s all. It’s like nothingness, but not that empty feeling of emotional vacuum at all. It’s devoid of noise, there is only Silence. Grounded in Self now.”

In my diary I reflected further:-

“So this is it. It was always here. Right here… No wonder no one could give it to me. What this is could never be bought nor sold. ‘The peace which surpasses all understanding’, now I know You. Now I know You… You are this – are me. It’s not outside, it never was outside.”

When I arose the following morning, I knew I had to move home to Brighton. It’s funny because I have just remembered in writing this, that Eckhart Tolle once said one day he simply knew he had to move to North America. Moving as Self, it’s not a question of working things out. It’s letting go without end.

I will be coming to London every week to see you for sessions, so please don’t worry about that. I expect I will move around the beginning of April. Please do not hesitate to email or call me if you have any questions about this.

With Love in my heart,

xDaisy

Happy Solstice :-) :-) :-)

Hello 🙂

I simply want to wish you a Happy Solstice 🙂

Here is what Bjork expresses about it (attached). It’s from her album Biophilia. Wish I had more time to write!

I am away 24th – 27th Dec and 31st Dec – 1st Jan, but available apart from that.

Much Love,

xDaisy

Amma in London 11th – 12th October (all-nighter: 12th)

Hello 🙂

I am writing to remind you of the exciting news that Amma will soon be with us here in London 🙂 On Tuesday no less! If you are thinking of coming, it’s really important to allow much more time than you think you need. Either because queuing for a Darshan token takes longer, or because you want to stay in the energy longer, or you bump into that long lost friend etc. Something always happens with Amma. The atmosphere is teeming with life, with shakti, with all good things 🙂 I have been feeling her presence in the last 2 days in particular…there is this alive quietness speaking something…a language I don’t understand but that I knew long ago, and still know somehow – somewhere deep inside.

I will be on the massage area, most likely on the massage chairs, so do come and visit if you are there.

I have got hold of the Q&A I had with Adyashanti this summer during the retreat. It has given me a lot of cause to reflect on this awakening embodiment evolution and what stillness really truly is. If you would like to hear it, let me know and I can arrange it via Dropbox.

I hope this email finds you well and diving the deep inner dive to Truth. Enjoy this evening,

Love,

xDaisy

Underneath All Currents

Hello 🙂

How are you? I feel relieved that Equinox was on Wednesday (they say ‘living in a world of plenty’) and that Mercury retrograde ended on Thursday. Seeing Bjork live at the Royal Albert Hall in conjunction with these events was pure magic 🙂 I also noticed how incredibly deep the satsang went on Thursday evening at Villa Devi, which other people in the group also reported. As a reminder, we chant (amongst other things) the 108 Names the 1000 Names of the Divine Mother (Archana), sing bhajans and meditate – inspired by Amma.

I have been into Bjork’s musical genius since the age of 13, and have now seen her live 5 times over a period of 21 years. Yes – I used to be obsessed! I had a moment before I walked into the auditorium this time, which I wanted to share with you. I was in the loo putting on my lipgloss. Suddenly I felt this Silence deepen and come in through my body from the left, like a liquid. As I looked at myself in the mirror, I realised something which in words would be, “I know who I am now”. I could feel the qualitative difference from when I used to come and see Bjork – now the tangible quality of Beingness, you could say, was here and was seen as what I actually am. The freedom felt immense; the freedom of not-knowing yet knowing, I guess you could call it Realising – I am This, this Silence. And I want to specify, it isn’t knowing who I am the way people usually say that – “She knows who she is” – about someone with charisma or power, for example. Not that. And it isn’t knowing as such, in the way we normally mean that. It is genuinely perceiving my own nature and the nature of all things and beings. Without filtration, without ‘winning’, without ‘losing’, without anything… There is such relief when you know that; a deep alleviation of that nagging separate feeling that dogs you before, which I see in so many people’s eyes. The point of sharing this, apart from simply sharing, is to use myself as an example of the fact that it is true that Silence is our nature and that one can certainly discover that in a genuine way, if one is interested in doing so.

I have been enjoying the sessions with you so much recently… They have taken on a different quality, an other-worldliness, as my sensing unfolds itself into your systems and as Grace makes its mysterious appearance often. I feel honoured that you would share all of your process with me – the laughter, the tears, the cosmic side, the dark side and all the sides of you. Thank you.

To finish I would like to share with you my favourite Bjork song. I have chosen a link without a video, to enhance the listening aspect, in the hope that the song will drop deeper into your ears. When I first discovered this song, I was about 14 and I fell in love with it. I experienced all kinds of deep emotions inside my room listening to it and often crying. Nowadays I perceive it as being a piece about Stillness. Whatever it is doesn’t really matter, it is a work of art in the truest sense: full, empty, meaningful and meaning-free.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=17yWeynOfOI

Love,

xDaisy

Silent Meditation Retreat with Adyashanti

Hello,

I must say I am thrilled to have the opportunity to deepen into this great, deep silence……….who knows what will happen in this great adventure into the unknown? The inner dive, swan dive, into mystery. I will be unavailable in communication – on a silent meditation retreat – from tomorrow until the 22nd Aug, when I will be back in action.

I want to share a few more learnings from the Ammathon (as a friend rightly called it!), which I hope will benefit you. During the program in Toronto, Amma said something which really struck me. She said, “Vasanas have no power of their own. It is we who give them power.” I realised in that moment, how powerless negativity really is. Her statement also cut through, in me, the tendency to become so familiar with something, that I begin to misuse it. What I mean is that I have talked about my ‘vasanas’ (latent negative tendencies) or issues or behaviour so many times, I can forget that it is I myself who permits them to have the power they have and who actually gives that power to them. I thought this could strike a chord for many of you as well. I would add that it is our tendency to identify with such internal arisings, which is the mechanism by which we give them the most power.

The most core life story I had, the one which had most coloured my experience of reality in this lifetime, came up during the last couple of days with Amma. We save the best for last, don’t we? For me, that was the love story – the agony and the ecstasy of romantic love, and underlying that, the nagging feeling that the right relationship would fulfil me and close any remaining ‘gap’. This probably sounds familiar to some of you, perhaps to many of you. I know – it’s a hard one to admit! I am not going to share the private details of that, sorry 😉 But please bear with me anyway. There is something more important than that part of the story. It began on the treadmill, of all places, not somewhere I frequently find myself. But going to the gym occasionally, during the tour, helped me get time by myself (which is almost completely impossible on staff) and helped me move energetics that were stuck. Suddenly on this treadmill, the desire to be free of that core story hit me, like never before. I simply HAD to be free of it; I could carry it all no more. So with this fire, I made a silent cry – a prayer – within, to Amma. With that, I let go, knowing that it could go either way: perhaps I would get free of this pattern, perhaps I would not – it was in the hands of Divinity now.

Shortly after this, Amma did a Q&A with the retreat group outside, in the unseasonably hot evening sun. There were only about 500 of us there. Right from the beginning, I felt a large amount of fear and anxiety coursing through my system, to the point where I could barely sit still. I didn’t know why I was feeling this way, it was like a body thing. I decided to focus more intensely on the question that was happening, and on Amma’s answer. As I looked at Amma, she made a certain movement as she talked with her hands, and with that I was gone. I felt as if I was merging into Amma from where I was – it was part-visual, part-kinesthetic (akin to the way I sense, during a session). As this happened, any remaining sense of separation fell away and I began to cry. In this oneness and tears and the whole un-conveyable experience, I suddenly knew that all my desire, lack and longing for this person – and all women and men who I had ever felt that towards – was really the longing for God. I simply knew it. Not as a concept and not as a philosophy, and not as an excuse. I actually saw it. I saw it in such a way, that it felt like I could never actually un-see it. I also sensed intuitively that all my other desires were also the longing for God. I felt freed at last…….truly, truly free.

(NB God in my perception is also Truth, wholeness, unity, oneness etc.) The next thoughts were, “Why have I been running after men and women all this time?” and “How could I have missed this reality all these years?” Then the strangest thing happened: I experienced depression for the first time in my life. As I sat, purposefully alone, eating dinner, I felt depressed. But there was absolutely no resistance to it. The sense of oneness was so broad and pervasive, that there was absolutely no problem with feeling depressed. In fact, I was pleased to be having the experience, because before that I never understood what depression was. I knew what pain was, deep gruelling emotional pain, but I didn’t know depression until that moment. I then experienced suicidal ideation! But again, there was no problem with this either, because there was zero resistance to it. And it existed in a context of oneness, of Love. After about an hour, both of these so-called negative experiences passed of their own accord, without me doing anything at all about them.

In hindsight, I believe they occurred because my ego had just lost its trump card, which was the core love story drama. With that gone, it seems like it had to play the depression and suicide cards to try to regain ‘control’ of my bodymind. But that didn’t work: these feelings and thoughts simply passed through, as I said. So then I was just there: story-less and One, feeling a sense of ordinariness and freedom. Nothing special, yet complete liberation.

I make my newsletters personal because I don’t believe I can help unless I talk from my own direct experience. I hope that by reading this something may have resonated or sparked for you.

See you soon, after the retreat,

Love,

xDaisy

Out of the Blue

Hello,

First off I want to tell you about an upcoming training in the IAM, Amma’s meditation technique, which came to her in a vision while she was taking a nighttime stroll around the ashram many years ago. I highly recommend it to anyone looking for a way to connect with Divinity, a fantastic meditation technique or simply a way to unwind, calm thinking down or relax the nervous system. Whatever intention you bring to it, will gradually manifest in your life. It is being held in Brighton / Lewes on the 17th / 18th September. The cost to cover room hire etc. is £35; please contact me if you are interested.

My next recommendation is the Foundational Vortex Healing course being held here in London, 19th – 23rd September with Anthony Gorman. It is hard to begin to explain what Vortex Healing has brought into my life so far because it is so broad and deep. I was thinking recently about why I practice Vortex Healing more than the other helping modalities I am trained in. I came to the simple conclusion that, in my personal and professional experience, it is more effective at deepening you into the core of what you are and releasing the roots of what you aren’t, than any other modality of help I have trained in or experienced first hand.

Now back to the Amma tour this summer 🙂 It was interesting to hear Amma explain in an aside during one of her talks in L.A., that the external aspect of Kali – the fierce appearance – is designed to bring out the dormant doubt in the devotee. I immediately thought of those of you who have felt that Amma has glared at you or ignored you etc. over the years. If she is indeed an embodiment of Kali (which I personally believe), then this might help you make sense of what she is doing there. From my perspective, no action Amma makes is unconscious, and Yes – she can bestow focus on many many people at once. Anyone who has experienced the ‘staring Darshan’ at the end of Devi Bhava will know about this. When she is ‘Kali with us’, perhaps Amma is indeed purposefully bringing out the poison of doubt in the process of life and Divinity. If this kind of insecurity exists within in a suppressed state – for example, as cynicism – it gives rise to all kinds of distortions and disorders in the experience of living, not to mention in the body. On a similar note, it is not uncommon for people to not want to be with Amma if they have strong issues with their own mother. It is easy to put your birth mother’s face over Amma’s face, subtly and subconsciously projecting onto her. If you had painful childhood experiences, you may then fear that she will hurt you in some way, get angry with you, punish you for something you did or ignore you etc. If this sounds like you, you may even find that when you approach her for Darshan, that you have negative thoughts towards Amma. All of that is part of the process of you healing from things which are sometimes unimaginably deep in your system. It will not hurt Amma in any way. In fact, she has been known to ask us to project anger and negativity onto her using the Amma dolls, in order to release in a harmless way. It is possible to see at some point, that the thoughts you have towards Amma are really thoughts you harbour towards yourself.

On a different note, Amma is really urging us all to plant trees if possible, adding the chilling words that, “when we cut down trees, remember we are building our own coffin.” She is also encouraging anyone who has outside space to plant a small vegetable garden and try to eat the produce from that. This means we will not go hungry when food runs short in the future and we will also avoid consuming the pesticides etc. on supermarket vegetables. Not to mention that we save money and get in touch with the earth at the same time 🙂

Now for a little story 🙂 I had a profound experience of Divine Intention during this tour with Amma. Having something like that really changes your life, because before that the idea that the Divine can reach into your life and move it in a certain direction is often just that – an idea, perhaps a hope, or a dream. Here is what happened to me. Out-of-the-blue, during Devi Bhava in Toronto (the final stop on the tour), my boss told my friend and I to go and sit with Amma on the stage. We were understandably astonished, because this lady is known for wanting people to work very hard. We jumped at the chance and made our way onto the stage. We stood beside the ‘bouncer’, an entertaining yet stern man who always wears a suit, and manages the part of the stage nearest to Amma on all the US tour programs. Again out-of-the-blue, he invited us to sit together directly next to Amma. Let me explain that this never happens! It was really out of character for him. We felt so lucky, and beamed at one another 🙂 As I watched her up-close, each movement Amma made as she gave Darshan would bridge me deeper into presence… Then, she suddenly turned and looked at both of us directly, smiling. It was amazing… That look will never leave me. It was a look of the purest knowing… It was so rich, so full… Both my friend and I reported the same things: it felt like Amma was communicating that she herself had brought us into this tour on staff, and that this exchange with her was a kind of ‘graduation’. We both felt this deep sense of Amma acknowledging all the seva we had done, and of the inner work we had done and also we felt this incredible depth of solidarity between us. We felt as if Amma had given each one to the other to help us complete the tour. Somehow I knew, intuitively, that I had just had a real life experience of Divine Intention. And in the wake of that, doubt vanished. I wish I could put this all into words better. But maybe it isn’t possible to do that. The mystery manifesting into creation, manifesting in all kinds of ways, every moment… You can see why the wise men (and women) say, better to sit as silence.

I hope you enjoyed this email and that you are getting plenty of sun 🙂

Love,

Daisy

Why Amma?

Hello,

How are you Londoners and people of the world? 🙂 I hope if you are in London that you are enjoying this heat wave we are lucky enough to be having 🙂

I want to address a question today which people often ask me, or ask me without words. Why Amma? Why do I do this? Why go and pay a handsome fee to work without pay, under conditions which some would consider harsh?

The answer is simple: it’s love. I look at Amma, and I love her. The depth of that love makes me want to support her work, serve Embracing the World (her global charity), and beyond that, to serve life in its entirety. For me, it’s passion; it’s not a ‘being good’ thing. It’s not even spiritual. Imagine being in love…now times it by 500…that’s nowhere near it. This is bhakti (devotion) in real terms.

Everyone has their own particular relationship with Amma, and certainly Amma devotees are all there for different reasons. Some of my friends, clients and family feel put off by the culty appearance of it all, by some of the devotees (who can be far from loving) and by the pretentious ‘holier than thou’ dynamics. Those of you who know me even a little bit, know I am definitely not the poster girl for holiness 🙂 No; it’s a love thing. Pure and simple.

So, what were the physical realities of being on volunteer tour staff, you may wonder. In my particular seva, we were working around 14 hours per day (every day) and longer on a Devi Bhava (the all-nighter). We got roughly 5 hours sleep per night, on the floor, sharing a room and bathroom with between 6 and 40 women. Then, after the long Devi Bhava, we would get on a coach and travel to the next city. Some of those journeys were over 22 hours long. When we arrived, we would sometimes get only a few hours sleep before set-up and work began. We delivered programs in 10 cities, over a 6-week period.

In between all this, I would squeeze my way onto the stage to spend time with Amma. Occasionally, Amma would call the staff to receive Darshan. I would like to share with you my diary entry about this:-

6/6/16

I don’t know how possible it is to put this into words…

Impossible.

*  *  *  *  *  *  *

But let me try.

Amma called us for Darshan in Seattle on Devi Bhava. As I entered the stage in the queue, I decided to make a prayer within. I said something like, ‘Amma, please assist me in focussing on the goal of this life: on realising God. Please help me to remain focussed even during this tour.’

As I laid my eyes upon her, hugging the person in front, tears welled up. I felt this love for her that was beyond anything I had ever experienced, and yet ordinarily human at the same time. I simply rejoiced within, at the sight of her. She moved my head around quite a bit before finally placing it on her heart, while she answered the questions of some devotees to her right. It always amazes me how one never feels left out in this scenario: Amma’s attention is deeply with each one of us simultaneously, which is testament to the sheer depth of oneness she is living. She then kissed my cheek and embraced me, chanting in my ear with a kind of vehemence in her voice, “My daughter! My daughter! My daughter!”, over and over again. I fell into total oneness…….. At the same time, the human being felt her as my teacher and as my mother – somewhere where those two are one and the same. And the experience of trust was overwhelming. As Amma finished the hug and handed me prasad, we drew back from one another and she looked deeply into my eyes. I cannot adequately express in words what I felt pass between us in that exchange: it was simply beyond the beyond. I then felt deep gratitude and expressed it somehow from oneness. Amma’s expression altered to one of such profound compassion….…something just too immense to convey. She embraced me again and then placed a chocolate in my mouth. That was the moment at which my searching gently stopped. My life’s search ceased in that moment. It was, perhaps, what many teachers have described as the end of seeking. Immediately after this I experienced true happiness: powerful, pure, authentic, unconditional happiness. I felt restored, redeemed – completely. There was total and utter wholeness. I’m not talking conceptually here, but actually. The real thing.

As I walked away, I collapsed on the stage in tears beside Amma. I was crying, and then I was sobbing; there was no way to do anything at all, and I couldn’t stop. But I was actually sobbing with happiness. My heart broke open under a force: that of revelation, unconditional happiness, union…Truth. Simultaneously, I experienced a spontaneous healing of my past, which came from nowhere. Dad’s death, the break-ups, the childhood trauma, the fear, isolation, despair, loss, loneliness, lack and doubt – all of these were consumed by something I cannot describe. I cried and cried, wiping my make-up from my face with my sleeve, only to cry uncontrollably again.

When the crying eventually stopped, I sat for a while. When I left the stage, I felt empty in the true sense of the word. Emptied of separation, of that heavy anxious burden. And the very subtle sense that something is missing, was gone. I could rest…finally, I could rest…… The feeling of resting and oneness were beautiful……profound. Paradoxically, there was an abundant feeling of vitality at the same time. But it was vitality without ownership. I realised that rest and vitality are the same thing. Eventually I went about the day, without saying a word about it to anyone.”

I hope you enjoy your day and that I get to see you soon 🙂

Love,

xDaisy

Pilgrimage to Paradise

Hello sunshine lovers, energy enthusiasts and helpers of mankind,

My title refers to an old trance tune on Sourmash records, which was helpful in bringing me towards spirit in my teenage years. In a deeper way, I am referring to what I am about to do in June: I am very excited – and honoured – to have been given a staff position on Amma’s US tour! I will be volunteering in the clothing boutique. It’s funny because I was thinking of ways I might get into the feminine and embody that more, and then I got given this position 🙂 Feel free to ask me any questions you may have about what I will be doing or what the tour involves.

Are any of you going to be there, or thinking of going to a couple of stops? Here are the stops in full:-

Seattle, WA

June 4-5 Public Program

San Ramon, CA

June 7-9 Public Program

June 10-12 Retreat

June 12 Evening Public Program

Los Angeles, CA

June 14-16 Public Program

Santa Fe, NM

June 18-19 Public Program

June 20-22 Retreat

June 22 Evening Public Program

Dallas, TX

June 24-25 Public Program

Chicago, IL

June 27-29 Public Program

New York, NY

July 1-3 Public Program

Boston, MA

July 5-6 Public Program

Washington, DC

July 8-9 Public Program

Toronto, ON

July 11 Public Program

July 12-14 Retreat

July 14 Evening Public Program

I will be away from the 3rd June to the 16th July without internet or phone access, so please do get all your sessions in before then.

I have been re-doing the Art of Meditation with Adyashanti this week and wanted to share some of the wisdom with you. Adya discusses the fact that awakening is not just an initial moment in which the I falls away, but it is also an ongoing unfolding. And for that part, meditation is crucial. In this sense, he disagrees with non-dual teachings – and I think rightly so – which tend to discourage practice (albeit covertly). Even if it is not said outright, the implication in many non-dual teachings is that practice is not all that important. Yet I simply haven’t met anyone who is deeply embodied as their true nature who has not engaged deeply in ongoing practices. So from my point of view, I wholeheartedly agree with Adyashanti on this important and often perplexing point. Please do offer your experiences with this, as I would be interested in them.

Bye for now, and do call or contact me before the 3rd June,

Love,

xDaisy

Amma Documentary and other news

Hello 🙂

I hope you are out enjoying the sunshine 🙂 I want to share this documentary about Amma by Shekar Kapur. It’s not often that you get to hear Amma talking for long, so a real treat. It may give you goosebumps!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gRxtKANEfwc&feature=youtu.be

Please do make the most of sessions now, as I will be on tour with her from the 3rd June for 6 weeks, as I mentioned. I will update you with more exact details when they are published. I will not be able to give healing during this time because I will be on staff and without internet connection.

I have felt so inspired by sessions with you recently…I feel I have the best job in the world 🙂 I have come to see that creativity is often channelled, as a result of a session with one of you (an author). Actually Amma talks about this in a deeper way in the documentary! In the session, I saw that this person was channelling her books from the astral realm, where beings there assist her. This is similar to what Ric Weinman has said about J.K. Rowling: that she dreams the Harry Potter stories (influenced by a ‘real’ place in a different realm – see Quinstel below) and then writes them out in her waking state. It was amazing the detail I was able to see with this client in terms of sensing, and I believe that was in part due to her creative openness connecting with mine, because of what creativity gives us all access to. I wanted to take her to Quinstel directly (a kind of Divine university we access via Vortex class transmissions) and it seemed to be going well, but then we got to a door that was locked. I realised it was because she needed the transmission from a Vortex class to gain the key to the lock. Fascinating work 🙂 There have been many other wonderful sessions, but I won’t go on 😉

Here is the link for Mukti’s events (Adyashanti’s wife), in England in August, which it’s best to book in advance:-

http://www.adyashanti.org/index.php?file=mukti_events&eventid=1245

You can still get on the waiting list for the silent retreat in England with Adyashanti here:-

https://www.adyashanti.org/index.php?file=waitlist_reg&eventid=1221

I received the grace to be invited to satsang with Pamela Wilson on Friday, last minute. I found it very powerful. At the end, I couldn’t resist suddenly hugging her and she said a very sweet thing to me: “I enjoyed your presence. Silent and full”. So there you go: when you’re deliberating about sitting in the front row at these things – do it! Here is her site. She is back in London in August:-

http://www.pamelasatsang.com/

See you soon,

Love,

xDaisy

This Love

Hello 🙂

This is a new day,

This is a brand new day!

Your crimson tide washes over my heart,

This Love,

This Love…

I wish I could more accurately translate to you the sense of doing the 1000 Names this morning. It leaves a perfume, a scent, of such depth and bliss…and ultimately pure non-separation, oneness. If you are not doing a regular practice, I highly recommend starting today. Even if you only do a 15 minute meditation in the morning or at night, you will find that over time you begin to see clearly again, the way you used to as a child. To see things AS THEY ARE. What a huge privilege…! In fact, Amma has said:-

I didn’t come to teach anyone anything. I came to remind you of a song you once knew, but have since forgotten  ~ Amma

It’s quite a statement coming from an avatar, the one kind of being who actually can truly teach, directly, and with acute accuracy. So we can see then, that this enlightenment game is really not about teachers or teachings. It’s about something else entirely… I would dearly love to hear your thoughts on what it is about, so please write to me about this 🙂 Also, please do join me on Facebook. Search for Daisy Nokes. I know I went through a privacy period, but that is over now.

How did you fair over Shivaratri on Monday, followed by the solar eclipse and Picses supermoon on Tues and Wed? Yes, that much did happen! The Shiva day, from my point of view, is about stillness manifesting into creation (sometimes in a variety of ways 😉 and the solar eclipse creates a deep purging of old pain, so that new projects can blossom. The supermoon in Picses represents the unconscious of humanity, the collective unconscious, what is being denied, coming out and releasing. I would love to hear any stories you have about Mon, Tues and Wed 🙂

If you feel you would like to join in with weekly coming-togethers of like hearted souls, just to remind you that I am going to Villa Devi in London every week to sing and chant and be with Amma devotees. It is a deeply transformative and amazing way to deepen your practices or path and to gain the sense of community. Let me know if you would like to be put on their mailing list.

Some of the results I have been getting through working with the U-AP level of Vortex Healing are remarkable. A client rang me to say that she “couldn’t feel anything” and she was concerned that she was emotionally disconnected. But when I looked into her system I could see that the work we had done together was so transformative that she had lost an entire ‘place’ or position in consciousness from which she had been living her life up until now. That is the power of this healing art combined with the way I work with Amma. I always wanted something which could actually remove issues, not just make the prison more comfortable, but actually deconstruct the prison piece by piece. Thank goodness I found Amma and Vortex Healing and that I am able to share that deconstruction with you, in you. This is the deepest gift I have ever been given.

I also facilitated a session this week in which I worked on the core position underlying back pain that my client had had for over 8 years, and with which she had been working in a variety of very helpful ways. Yet somehow the pain remained. Immeditately after the session she was able to flex her lower back again and the pain was barely noticeable! She also remarked that her voice had changed. This is something wonderful which can happen after a session, as if the person is speaking from a different place and without something ‘in the way’, that something being the issue worked on.

There was also a beautiful moment when I was doing some awakening coaching with a client and I asked her (because she was feeling a lack of clarity) what clarity meant to her. She replied simply, “Knowing my Truth and moving towards it”. I knew immediately that it was a pivotal moment for this person, because once you speak so authentically out loud the Divine hears (and you yourself hear) that and the transformation of life truly begins anew.

Ok that’s all for now. A bit of a long one – thank you for bearing with me 🙂 I feel very over-excited!

Love to you, beautiful blessed being,

Daisy

Group Vortex Healing

Hello,

How are you this rather cold day? On Sunday I was given the opportunity to facilitate a group healing on Leila Sadeghee’s Yoga Immersion here in London. It went very well indeed and I was thrilled about it! Leila commented that it felt to her like receiving an individual session, which is encouraging considering that there were around 20 people receiving the work. A lot of information came through also for people individually afterwards when they approached me with questions and comments about their experiences. All in all, it was wonderful and something I would like to continue with in the future. It was the first time since Dad died 5 years ago that I have facilitated a group and it feels good to be back in the groove of that. I would like to know if you would be interested in receiving group healing, either at a distance or in person at the venue in London EC1?

I want to share a personal healing miracle which happened last week. As some of you know, my mother and I have a challenging relationship and have had for as long as I can remember. This culminated in an argument one night recently, revolving around her disapproval of my life and my awakening path, including her speaking against Amma, which was the biggest trigger for me. The next day, I attended an Amma satsang and dedicated the sadhanas there to healing this fraught relationship. I did this again during an additional satsang that week. I also wrote a loving email to Mum, apologising for what I had said in the argument. Although Mum did not apologise or engage, something in her email response made my sensing ears prick up. She said she had had a ‘car prang’ that week, nothing serious but she was a little shaken by it. In November last year, I had a clear premonition that she would die in a head on collision with another car. I had had glimpses of this a couple of times before, but had put it down to fear in my own system. However, the premonition in November was so clear that I decided to do healing on it and I also told Mum. She did not react well, she was angry, but I felt it was the right thing to do to warn her so that her awareness might be present should the situation arise. On hearing of the recent car prang, I had the feeling that perhaps it was the dissolution of her karma by the Divine, which I have heard that Amma is capable of doing. I asked my healer this and, as we discussed it, it became clear to both of us that that was indeed the case. Of course we could both be wrong, only time will tell, but if this is true then it is a healing miracle… If this is true, then it puts a whole new light on the deeper reason for the falling out Mum and I had, and on the sheer power of the satsangs, and of Divine intervention. I personally feel blown away by this experience…

Something else which came to me this week and I wanted to share with you is that, if you want awakening in this lifetime you have to really want it, naturally, and you need to truly engage with your life and your path (dharma). None of this hiding out in non-dual getaways will do it – it doesn’t work. I tried it for years, and I see a lot of people trying to do it that way, but what happens is you get stuck and believe you are ‘there’, even if that means ‘nowhere’ (which, if you look at the ego, is actually still trying to get somewhere). Many of the so-called teachers of non-duality etc. in London and around the world are not where they think they are in terms of awakening and embodiment (I am not talking about Tony Parsons here). It is not very difficult to see this if you sense directly into their consciousness. Another way is to look at how they avoid life or their conditioning, or at how they treat others and behave. Often such ‘teachers’ are not really embodying the Truth that they have glimpsed or awoken to. That means that as a student / participant they can’t really help you. Looking at someone like Adyashanti for example, it is clear and evident that the embodiment there is very real and very deep. That is rare, in reality.

Just to remind you that, as I explained in my last newsletter, I have received guidance from the Divine on my price per session, which is now £90 for 1 & 1/2 hours.

Wishing you well,

Love,

Daisy

Mother Meera in London + other news

Hello 🙂

Is anyone seeing Mother Meera in London at the moment? I went last night and am still feelings the effects 🙂 One can feel when she is about to enter the hall because a deep silence falls through the consciousness of the room. As I sat with friends there in great silence, the meditation was totally natural…and this is the opportunity presented with this Master. I was not trying to do anything or control anything. I was simply sitting. One realises in this way, what true Stillness is. Because the mind can be talking, or not, one can be feeling, or not, and still awareness is fully present and remaining…simple and complete within itself. Then one knows “I am that”, without words, or ego, or anything at all. During the darshan, I noticed that I did not feel any separation from Mother Meera as I approached her and no sense that she was ‘above’ etc. (a big fixation in my conditioning). When I looked into her eyes there was still some remaining ego consciousness, and as I relaxed that fell away and there was only freedom…

It is easier once one has done the various Veil classes in Vortex Healing or woken up on one’s own / via another tradition or modality. But even if one has had only glimpses of freedom, any glimpse is the entirety. Either way, one sees at a certain point in spiritual maturity, that there is no need to leave that awareness for any reason. I don’t mean cling onto it, I just mean there is no need to go back into business with life after that: ‘I’ Vs the world etc. Because one knows that there is really no self, no I, that is separate from life itself.

Something very interesting which Ric (Vortex founder) wrote to us about, is that issues often come in pairs: for example, the ‘victim’ will also have the ‘victimiser’. One may well only be identified with one of these, but the other ‘silent partner’ will hold the primary position in place. So it is a good idea to work on both. I don’t want to overload you though! Each and every session is a deep deep dip into the freedom that you are, and a radical dissolving of what you are not.

I have received new guidance from the Divine on my price per session: this is now £90 for 1 & 1/2 hours.

As I was sitting in Costa waiting for friends before Mother Meera yesterday, it occurred to me that there is another and equal intuitive way of being to the process I described last week. Sometimes, ‘tuning in’ – especially when it is really checking (which comes from fear) – is not the best way. Intuition is natural, arising without the me getting involved. Upon perceiving this, I began to wonder what intuition was naturally speaking to me, regarding a particular situation in my life without tuning in – simply the natural, nature way…? What I found was, I got the same response as when I did it the other way. Sometimes, it is that one of these ways is better for one person and the other for the next person, and sometimes each way will be helpful for the same person but at different times. The thing about it is, you need to be clear enough in terms of having had some glimpse at least of freedom (awakeness), so that you are not coming entirely from the me sense, the ego, when attempting to follow your intuition. Practise is the best way and simply the living of life. I don’t usually recommend going to psychics because many of them are less clear than you are in their sensing of your situation, and it also tends to create dependency rather than freedom and empowerment. If you really trust a person’s intuition then it may be wise to follow what they recommend, but that trust needs to be really genuine, which could happen if you can naturally sense the integrity and awareness in that person’s system.

That’s all for now. I hope things are deepening for you,

Love,

Daisy

Longing for the Divine

Hello,

How are you? I hope this correspondence finds you well. I want to share with you a poem I wrote some time ago about longing for the Divine. Listening to Adyashanti on the bus just now reminded me of it.

Oh what of this mystery?

I turn in the night,

Towards Love, towards You.

Here without motion,

Bathed in such Light.

You, who I can never have

And who never leaves.

Trails of longing remain,

Like vines

Cut off at the root.

Can I speak to You

Without opposition,

Without two?

Your gentle ears listen

Without existing.

A secret Life

Comes in the night.

I have begun attending satsang every week at Villa Devi in Brockley, South London, on Thursday nights. This is bringing oneness more deeply into my living life and I wanted to invite any of you who would be interested in coming. We sing bhajans, chant the Guru Stotra (like the 1000 Names) and perform other kinds of prayers to Amma. Contact me if you would like the details.

If you have not yet done so but would like to, you can sign up to have Mother Meera’s darshan here in London in February:-

http://mothermeera.org.uk/

Also, if you have not yet signed up but would like to, there is a waiting list for Adyashanti’s retreat this August. I recommend getting onto it asap if you want the chance of a lifetime to be on retreat in silence and with a truly gifted awakened guide:-

https://www.adyashanti.org/index.php?file=retreatsdetails&eventid=1221

Last but not least I would like to share something Amma once said:-

“I haven’t come to teach anyone anything. I have come to remind you of a song you once knew, but have since forgotten” – Amma

She utters such nectar with every breath…I thank the day I met this person. The only person I can call teacher and mean it.

I hope you are enjoying your week,

Love,

Daisy

The Significance of Following Your Intuition

Hello,

Happy New Year 🙂

I want to talk about something while I am in this ‘place’ as it were. Do you know how it is when you follow your intuition, including speaking that, even though it takes so much courage and it goes against your conditioned reflexes?

When I do this, as I did today, it is as if there is an atmosphere which fills the whole room or space…and the truth leaves a wake, waves which carry on. Yet everything is totally still, silent in its essence, and real. It is as if I am touching the depth of life itself, right here in my bedroom. Nothing and everything exists within this, and there is no ‘outside’ or ‘inside’. Simultaneously, my body quivers with the felt sense of oneness – like rushes down my legs and down through my crown. Perhaps this is where the absolute and the humanness meet?

To give the ‘story’ part of this, I would have to share something which I know the person involved would not want me to share. It is not one of you, but it feels wrong to detail this. Sorry to be vague.

On a different note, you will be pleased to hear that I received this from Ric recently:-

“This morning there was an upgrade to the U-AP and a major upgrade to the Protocol. My sense is that you will be able, when working through the Protocol for issues, to move at least twice as much in the same time frame, and deeper. Happy New Year!” (Ric Weinman)

The difference is palpable, so do get in contact if you would like to experience it. That’s all for now, as I can’t write more from this silence at the moment. I look forward to hearing from you though 🙂

Love,

Daisy

Shadows and Light (I think Joni Mitchell had it there)

Hello,

“Every picture has it shadows

And it has some source of light,

Blindness, blindness, and sight…”

                 

                                                 Joni Mitchell

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ty_7d-qwYxs

So, Paris……. What a shock. I never usually watch the news, but when I did on Saturday morning I could only cry and curl up in pain about it all. In the end I had to take action, so I decided to do a healing on the situation, which I mentioned on the Vortex FB group. I felt happy seeing so many fellow healers join in and respond, rather than react, to what had happened. The attacks made me reflect on how much I love this city, London; it’s freedoms, tastes, smells, colours and sexualities, music, dirt and aliveness everywhere. I am in love with the city in which I was born, and to think of it being hit with such a wave of violence as Paris was, is horrifying. What I also want to acknowledge is how much it has brought to the surface fears and pain in me and in everyone I have treated or interacted with this week. If you want to express anything about it, please feel free to write to me or call.

I hope those of you who visited Amma in London enjoyed yourselves 🙂 I know I did. I feel so very fortunate to have been touched in this way by her, in a way that is complete and whole. I especially liked part of her speech, in which she said, “It is what we give, not what we receive, which determines the value of our life”. Why is it that she can say the simplest of things, but it can cut all the way through, like the Truth itself?

I have a healing story to share with you. I treated a man who was in another country a long way away. He is the father of a client, fairly resistant to healing and from a generation where perhaps the idea of healing is less palatable. He had had cataract surgery recently and reached out for help when he was unable to see without double vision at long distances. The next day, less than 24 hours after the session, I received this text from my client quoting her father: “I am 🙂 My vision is now clearer up to 7 or 8 feet compared with yesterday”. I consider this quite something when you think that this was achieved in just one session using the U-AP, and on someone at a distance who was asleep at the time (plus essentially a non-believer).

A little update: the availability of the wonderful new venue I am working from in EC1, is Tues 6pm – 9pm and Wed 10am – 5pm. So please do book for in-person healing.

Finally, some Vortex trivia for you. During the Earthshift class, I asked Ric how many Vortex students there are worldwide. He said about 5000. Our little pot is growing 😉

Ok, goodbye for now. I hope you enjoy your weekend,

Love,

Daisy

Now For Something Completely Different

Hello,

First of all, apologies for the radio silence. I have been unable until now to speak about what I have experienced while away answering the calling of my heart, particularly regarding the Vortex class I just went on. I have been through a complete life-change-shift with the loss of the Original Veil and everything else from that class.

I am blown away by the power of the new Vortex Healing tool, the U-AP (Universal Assemblage Point)…wow… I have been doing around 2 hours of self-healing per day and feel as if something has totally dropped away in my system. I have never felt that an issue can be cleared in such a thorough way, where afterwards you actually feel transformed with a sense of tangible permanence. The only other ‘things’ that have had such an effect on me have been awakenings. Some of you may have heard about the U-AP already. Here is what Vortex Healing teacher Anthony Gorman says about it:-

“I had my first U-AP healing from Keren [his wife] this morning and I am as amazed now, as I was when I got it myself. It really is a paradigm shift in healing. Not something that should be compared to anything else, even to Merlin’s Grace, in terms of percentages deeper etc. This is experientially like Divinity simply unfolding itself. And as an embodiment of That, it is not just about release, the release almost now takes second place to what is really awakening and embodiment. “

I cannot wait to share this with you! Do call with any questions at all you may have about the U-AP, as it is a big leap from Merlin’s Grace: 07931 536 700 (same number as before). The best part is, an issue can be cleared in most cases in about 2 sessions. And I don’t mean cleared in a way that you have ever felt before, but to a completely new depth and breadth. If Merlin decides to work on 2 intertwined threads at once, then it can take longer. But either way, you save money and time because it is faster than was possible before. I am so thrilled about this tool! It is a total shift, and I hope you will find it to be as well.

I will write more soon,

Love to you,

Daisy

Distance Healing

Hello 🙂

I am off on my journeys tomorrow, beginning with the silent meditation retreat with Adyashanti.

After that, I am available for distance healing from the ashram with Amma and then from Virginia Beach for the Vortex Healing training, ‘Original Veil’. In all cases this will be by (limited) email arrangement and communication, due to circumstance rather than choice.

The time difference in Amma’s ashram is that I will be 4 & 1/2 hrs ahead of London. That is from the 28th Aug – 14th Sept (allowing for adjustment days). In Virginia Beach, I will be 5 hrs behind London. That is from 20th Sept – 3rd Oct. In the ashram my time is more flexible, in Virginia Beach I will be available after 6pm (or early mornings) local time.

Please do book as soon as possible, because email is limited while I am away. But if you can’t, then email me whenever you can. I am in service to you.

May the force be with you 🙂

Love,

Daisy

Amma’s Vision, Amma’s Action

Hello 🙂

I wanted to share with you a keynote address Amma, and researchers from her Amrita University, were invited to give the United Nations on the subject of sustainable development (NYC, 8th July 2015):-

http://webtv.un.org/search/part-1-amrita-university-event-an-international-conference-on-technology-for-sustainable-development/4346066038001?term=technology%20and%20sustainable%20development

http://webtv.un.org/search/part-2-amrita-university-event-an-international-conference-on-technology-for-sustainable-development/4346071033001?term=technology%20and%20sustainable%20development

The first video features Amma’s address at around minute 26.

The thing which touched me most from the broadcasts was this: a group of PhD researchers from Amma’s Amrita University acquired research funding from the European Commission to research landslides. This was the first of such funding to be provided to a project like this in India by Europe. Amma asked the researchers, “What is your plan?”. They replied that they would do laboratory simulations and then publish a paper (as is normal in this kind of research). Amma then asked, “Please wire the money back to the Commission”. They were aghast, insisting, “Why Amma? This is a prestigious project!”. Amma replied that their project could directly save lives, and that they should go to a landslide-prone area and deploy their system immediately; otherwise it was her wish that they wire the money back. This kind of global thinking, rooted in the greatest true compassion I have ever known, is typical of Amma. Needless to say, the researchers honoured her wisdom and saved many lives in the process.

Amma will be with us in Alexandra Palace from 10th – 11th Nov 2015 (Devi Bhava on the 11th – all night). This is a shorter program than usual. Please ask me if you would like any further information about Amma, or her London visit later this year.

I hope this email finds you well,

Much Love,

Daisy

Dreams and Practicalities

Hello 🙂

How are you? I was wondering if you have been having particularly intense dreams of late? I have, as have my friends. I was staying with a friend in a tent and she dreamt that she was going through some hell realms and terrible places where there were experiments being done on humans, even while they were still alive! Then Amma came into the dream and showed her that, yes, she would find Her [ie, God realisation] through even that place, but that it would be so much easier if she would surrender to Her.

Now for the practicalities.

There are still places on the waiting list for Adyashanti’s retreat in August in Surrey. I HIGHLY recommend this. In addition, almost everyone I know who has been on the waiting list in previous years has got onto the retreat. Here is the link:  http://www.adyashanti.org/index.php?file=retreatsschedule

I have found a beautiful space to do healing from, but it won’t be available until October. I am currently offering to come to your home to do sessions, if you live in London (and not on the outskirts). So, for now, I will be able to offer you in-person healings in this manner. Skype sessions remain as normal if you live outside London, or if you prefer them, as some of you do.

I have decided to take 7 weeks off over the summer to answer the deepest calling within me. I will be away from the 16th Aug – 6th Oct. I will first be with Adyashanti (see above), then Amma in India and then Vortex Healing in America, for the class ‘Original Veil’. It is after this class that the sessions I do will take a huge leap in power and depth, because of what we will receive via transmission in class. The best news is, I will be offering distance healing during most of my time away. Sessions will be conducted via email (using the Global Healing Grid), as Skype will not be available due to very limited and public internet access.

Please do call me if any of this is unclear, or if you have any questions, or even simply want to share 🙂

Best wishes and warm heartfulness,

Daisy

Never Cease to be Amazed…

Hello 🙂

I never ceased to be amazed by the sheer power of Vortex Healing. I woke up early this morning with painful thoughts and feelings, following many endings over the past two weeks. So I decided to sit up and do some healing on myself using Merlin’s Grace, continuing with an issue I had been working through. An hour later, I got up and had breakfast. As I opened the fridge, I realised I had completely changed. The feelings had lifted and I felt lighter, especially in my body. I felt happy, which really was a dramatic turnaround, in just an hour.

Some of you have also reported wonderful experiences of late, for example describing a session as “absolutely amazing” and feeling like you had got to the heart of your suffering during it, in a way that paralleled taking actual Vortex classes. Another person said that, not only was she feeling different, but other people in her life were also responding differently to her. From my point of view, this is a real statement because it shows that the transformation which happened actually came through on a life level, and positively impacted other people.

For practical reasons, I have decided to hand in my notice at my two voluntary clinical placements, which will give me more time. I am working on building a private practice in Counselling, alongside a re-vamp of my Vortex practice.

If anyone knows of an inexpensive space from which I can practice either/both of these and you feel it has a good atmosphere and nice people, please do get in contact.

I hope this email finds you well and listening to that silent voice within which is the guide to your life and to your ultimate transformation,

Love,

Daisy

50% off: Spring Bank Holiday Monday 25th May

Hello,

I want to tell you about my upcoming Bank Holiday Deal 🙂

50% off Spring Bank Holiday Monday 25th May = £40 per session

This applies also to pre-booked sessions.

I will also have more availability after the 15th June, when my degree finally ends 🙂 I hope you are well,

Best wishes,

Daisy

Day off this Bank Holiday Monday

Hello,

How are you? I wanted to say I have been thinking of you although I haven’t written for a long time. I am wondering how you are – how you are with the stillness and what is happening inside you?

I have just done several hours of meditation following a long sleep, both of which I have not made time for recently due to stress. It feels so good to return…

Perhaps I will say a little about what I feel meditation is, as sometimes it seems to be a rather misunderstood term. My experience of meditation is that I come home as what I really truly am in a given moment, or in many apparent moments which seem to be strung together. When I sit to meditate, I often use a guided meditation from Adyashanti (for example, from ‘The Way of Liberating Insight’ online course I am doing), or I may chant the Names to Amma, or I may just sit down, close my eyes and be still. Whatever the practice, to me meditation is what I am – simply that. Meditation is what I am. In a sense, I could say it is the act of being what I am (although that isn’t quite it). And what can happen within meditation is the slicing through, the piercing, of a deep conditioned pattern in a way that completely and radically dissolves that pattern. It may return, wounded, and yet it never can completely return once that kind of insight has taken place. Please do ask me to elaborate on this if you are interested.

What is your experience of meditation? I would love to hear your experiences.

This Monday I am taking the day off. I will not therefore be able to offer the usual Half Price Deal. I suppose I don’t feel it would be ethical to work when I am in the business of facilitating healing and I can feel that my bodymind needs to heal. I am thinking of you and wishing you Love and Truth in whatever you are involved in,

Take care,

Love,

Daisy

Br. Shubamrita in Hornsey, London

Hello,

How are you? I just attended Br. Shubamrita’s (one of Amma’s senior disciples) satsang, bhajans, meditation and chanting etc. here in London and realised I didn’t tell any of you it was on. Sorry about that! You can always sign up for the Amma E-News here, which tells you about all the events that are happening:-

http://www.amma.org.uk/contact-us.htm

The program was glorious, as you would expect 🙂 Amma’s presence was palpable. I feel so lucky, it was incredible to be part of it. I highly recommend any Amma events you can attend. I wanted to share with you some Amma stories we were told.

The one which made everyone roar with laughter was when an expert in Vastu (which apparently is the Indian equivalent of Feng Shui) came to Amma saying, “One of the gates at the back of the ashram is all wrong. If you don’t change it, all the money that comes in here will go straight out again”. Amma smiled at him, replying, “Then I will never change that gate”.

The other story I loved was of Amma giving darshan for 20 hours straight in Malaysia. After this time, Br. Shubamrita asked her to stop because the queue was not going down – more and more people were coming. But Amma paid no attention. Later, Swamiji approached Amma pleading with her to stop. Amma looked at him and said, “The first thing I do when I sit down to give darshan is to have a conversation with the clock (so that we don’t interfere with one another). I say to him, ‘You do your work, I’ll do mine'”. Wow!!!

Ok, that’s all from me for now. I hope this email finds you unfolding into Mystery with no hands on the wheel 🙂

Daisy

Earthshift, Marlies and more

Hello,

How are you? Thank you to those of you who participated in the Bank Holiday Deal on Monday. It was a pleasure to work with you, just after the Earthshift when my system was particularly attuned to giving healing. I enjoyed the shift very much; it was actually very intense for me, which I didn’t expect. I feel like I am still recovering from the huge amount of energy which pumped its way through all of us in service to Gaia and the physical Earth. The highlight for me was feeling the most direct contact with Gaia I have ever felt. A friend put it beautifully when she described this effect of Gaia coming ‘into the room’ as a kind of “elegance” and deep femininity.

I am also still resonating with the profound silence which Marlies evoked in us during her trips to Brighton and London. I was fortunate enough to receive a one-on-one session from her, in which the core position I came in with in this life was given space to breathe and release and the silence in and behind it came all the way through. To say that that session was life-changing would not be an understatement. Do any of you have anything to share from your time with Marlies?

I want to talk a little today about the process of engaging in Vortex Healing sessions with me. In my experience, what tends to unfold is like this: you come in with something and we get to the bottom of what the issue is, and then do a session for that. If you already have your awareness deeply in that issue and are meeting it (which is unusual), then you experience something like this afterwards:-

“I just want to say thank you from the bottom of my heart to you, Merlin and Ric.

Clearing the ‘spot of non-existence’ has most definitely been the most profound shift for me in my healing journey…….It was like a shadow in my bones and it was a constant effort on a daily basis to not let it engulf me. It weighed me down and yet I didn’t know what it was…….

Even now it brings tears to my eyes when I realise that I will never feel that dark void again. I never dreamed I would be free of it. I can’t tell you how grateful I am. I feel like now I can really get present to this thing called Life, breath it in and experience it.

Thank you Thank you Thank you.”

Isn’t that beautiful? I can’t tell you what that does to me to hear a person like that…

However, we are not all that dedicated to Truth and may not have done as much inner work as that person has. If awareness hasn’t yet penetrated the core of the issue at hand (through whatever means), then what is most likely going to happen is that in the session we will release the foundations of it and then it will tend to manifest in your life, in some way. This means it appears as if the issue is coming true (remembering that appearances are always deceptive). Although it is tempting to blame life/God/etc. at that point, you are really only experiencing the result of whatever avoidance of this issue was going on beforehand, plus the next layer of it in your system. After this process has passed through, then you will tend to experience freedom within and from that issue. Think of it as like throwing a frisbee: if you do not follow through with your arm, then the frisbee will not land well and the game is no fun.

Vortex is not for the faint-hearted. But, as a friend in his 60s who is an expert in NLP, shamanic healing etc. (as well as a Vortex Healer) recently observed, it is the most effective energy healing he has ever come across.

I look forward to seeing you soon,

Best wishes,

Daisy

Marlies Cocheret in London Tomorrow

Hello,

It has been a while since I last wrote to you, during which time I have been in a personal process and diving deep into silence and meditation. I have been thinking of you, many of you have popped into my meditations and I hope you are well.

I mentioned this a while ago, but realised I hadn’t reminded you – Marlies is coming to London tomorrow and Saturday. I spent last weekend on retreat with her in Brighton and found her work once again to be profoundly embodying and transformational. What I found most helpful was the invitation to rest as silence, with no technique and no conditions.

If you are free tomorrow evening and/or during the day on Saturday, I highly recommend this opportunity to be with an awake teacher who is from Adyashanti. I will be there tomorrow. Here are the details:-

http://www.marliescocheret.com/Flyer/2014-UK-flyer.jpg

Best wishes,

Daisy

Bank Holiday Deal

Hello,

Yes, roll-up, it’s deal time again 🙂 Next Monday the 5th May, sessions will be half price – that’s £40. The perfect way to have some ‘you’ time on Bank Holiday.

If you are wondering what to work on in your next session, one lovely movement happens through clearing the fascia and biochemical pathways of the nervous system. This takes a lot of tension out of you, much of which is built up in the nervous system due to fear and pain conditioning deeper down. This can also be done for the heart, diaphragm and pericardium (the fluid filled sac that surrounds the heart and the proximal ends of the aorta, vena cava, and the pulmonary artery). Again a lot of tension, particularly resulting from pain and grief, gets stored here.

There is something new which can be done using Merlin’s Global Healing Grid. Whereas in the past, I could only put one situation or issue etc. in the grid to be worked on in the background (at 50% effectiveness as continuously intending it), I can now put up to 4 different things in there at once and it will still be as effective for each.

Something interesting which Ric talked about during the BodyMind class, was about avatars (i.e., like Amma). He feels that they are not really beings but appear as beings, using a pseudo-Inner-Veil as a kind of fake ID to get into the human realm, where they then appear as human. Most of what he said resonates with me. Do you have any thoughts on this? I’d love to hear your impressions.

Lastly, I know that many of you have experienced sessions as being particularly powerful recently, so I thought you might be interested to hear what Ric says about why this may be:-

“Another perk of the BodyMind class is that it creates a significant increase in bridging for channeling…In general, the extra bridging from the class makes ALL the transmissions for Merlin’s Grace go 15-20% deeper or faster, whether clearing, transforming or energizing…For instance, for doing a Genetic Modification at a distance, those without the class can get about 80% effectiveness of in-person work. Those with the class can, at a distance, now get the equivalent of what would have been 100% before…Again, an awake body just creates a deeper bridge; there is just no way around that, and yet it is something I didn’t anticipate when I first put the class on the schedule.”

Enjoy yourself and see you soon,

Best wishes,

Daisy

Oneness

Hello,

I am excited to share with you that through processing what I talked about in my last email, my healing sessions have changed. I noticed that in the session I just gave, there was a new kind of  natural bridging as oneness. The client felt this too and said, “It was amazing”. I want to credit Amma, the wonderful healers who have helped me through, my therapist and my friends. I have learned a lot from you.

One thing I did for myself during this time (and I believe would be of huge help to many of you) is disentangling myself from the karmic field of my parents. This is done first for Mum and then for Dad. As children, we merge our karmic field with theirs, causing us to carry a lot of stuff which isn’t really ours. Releasing this creates a deep silence in your energy field and whole system. For me, it was as if lots of voices suddenly stopped talking around me.

There is also a new way to clear conflict in relationships: by using Merlin’s Grace to ‘clear anything that is negatively impacting the relationships, on all dimensions of the astral’. It only takes 5-8 minutes or so.

Hot news on the Vortex scene is the ‘spot of non-existence’. Here is what Ric has to say about these: “these can look like black holes on the outside but a black hole is where the emotional pain has contracted all the vital weblines there into a tight, dense spot that has no movement or light within it. But imagine that pain going even deeper, so that it wants to cease to exist, and that desire literally sucks the life out of the vital weblines. My guess is that about 1 in 17 people has one of these. And if you have one and it has been treated as if it were a black hole, then it is still there. And it is easy enough to find out: channel ReplW [get me to do this for you] for your spot of non-existence and see if anything starts to happen and stays happening.” It would take about one session to clear this. My friends and clients who have had this removed are raving about it.

As regards this Bank Holiday, I will not be able to offer my usual half-price day because I will be spending time with my family to mark my Dad’s death three years ago. However, fear not, because there are two Bank Holidays coming up very soon, the first of which is on the 5th May (I will write with details nearer the time).

Looking forward to seeing you for awakening and healing fun!

Best wishes,

Daisy

Drunk on Vortex

Hello,

So this healing journey post-class gets more and more interesting: on Friday, I had a client who took 20 mins to recover after the healing we did (involving the new Navel AP work) and when I walked her to the door, I could hardly walk! Since I have quit drinking for 6 weeks, I am very pleased to be drunk on Vortex 🙂

It’s also wonderful to be closer friends with Merlin. I am having quite a few experiences now where he takes over a healing session, particularly towards the end. Not only does the receiver feel waves of Divine energy when this happens, but it also connects me to a deep sense of trust and being held. Amazing… I am feeling Amma within in a real way too, which feels like something I have wanted for so long and like it is a kind of embodiment.

Another interesting thing I have noticed since Awakening the BodyMind and the Core Beliefs, is that I can now sometimes hear my thoughts speaking to each other. Like characters in my head communicating, which feels closer to what is really happening. I feel less caught in them and identified as them. Pretty cool, particularly since this followed a healing crisis involving my core issues. That leads me to believe that crises are entirely good things.

Here is some feedback from one of you this week: “That really was a dramatic and inspiring healing… Throughout the session, it felt like there was some physical healing going on, and that was awe inspiring… I had the thought to ‘give myself over’ to non-existence, (only because I was confident it was not possible), then there was a big change, which was enjoyable, but I became anxious I would stay in that state if you stopped. I then surrendered to accepting even that was ok, if it happened and it became powerful and blissful, but also peaceful and not scary, at the same time. Energy flowed in lines down my right leg and I could tell that that was being made stronger, totally unexpectedly, which was inspiring and emotional… Thanks again, I am so blown away by your healing lately, and the physical changes seem to be gradually getting better and better”.

The new kidney essence and Jing energies are going down very well with you all it seems and there is more that can be done in this regard, to energise you. Here is what Ric has to say: “First we use Merlin’s Grace to ‘expand the Pre-natal Jing reservoir network, so as to be able to hold more of it’. And this works. If you first fill up the Pre-natal Jing and then expand its network, you’ll see you can channel in some more. Same with Kidney Essence. Each of these steps (doing the Pre-natal Jing and Kidney Essence separately) only takes a few minutes. All of you should take the little amount of time needed to do this, because it can make a significant long-term difference. – NB Jing is the ‘parent’ of chi”.

“And that’s all the news” (anyone remember ‘The Day Today’? 🙂

Love,

xDaisy

Amazing AP

Hello,

I just wanted to share some of the feedback I have got far from work I have done releasing reality streams from the Navel AP (mainly for physical stuff). As Ric has hinted (and now I can confirm) – this is the most profound tool we have ever had in Vortex for the physical body.

One of you felt a 90% improvement in terms of pain reduction and ability to move after 1 session, having been laid up in bed for a week with a back problem (sciatic nerve). He also said he would have had to miss work for several days had he not received this healing session.

Another person had a chronic physical issue involving energy not flowing properly and therefore causing nerve problems. He reported feeling a subtle yet clear improvement in this chronic condition (which he has had for 12 years). He described this new Vortex work as “really inspiring”, adding that it had clearly had an effect on his body in a way he would not have even hoped for.

On this note, although I usually get permission to share these stories and always do so anonymously, I wanted to ask if anyone minds these being shared with the group?

Much Love to you,

xDaisy