Jul 14
Hello 🙂
How are you?
I am well and enjoying life in Rodmell. I wanted to let you know that I am in London giving sessions this Monday – Wednesday (with Wed being at the Barbican venue). Please text or call to book.
Here is a poem I wrote yesterday:-
Re-emergence of Self,
My heart of hearts,
Like a feeling-sensation,
And deeper than a secret.
A coming up from underneath,
Smooth as marble,
My warm-like embers…
I melted away.
And all that is now,
Is Self.
Love,
xDaisy
Hello 🙂
How are you?
I had plans to write you an email of light and delight about my Amma trip, but after every spectacular Amma trip (as you may well know) there is a spectacular Amma comedown. Like everyone does, I thought I’d gotten away with it 😉 But it hit me upon waking this morning. One week isn’t bad though, it has to be said.
For the foreseeable future, I will be in London 3 / 4 days in a row per week (the journey is 3 hours door-to-door from Rodmell). If you reply to this email to let me know which day and time is ideal for you in general, then I will try my best to accommodate. I will next be in London from Sat – Tues. I would also like to encourage you to try distance sessions if you haven’t yet. Aside from there being something uniquely profound about this style of healing, it is also because I cannot come to London every day. Unsurprisingly, I am tired at this point, having lived in 5 different homes over the past 3 months, completed half of Amma’s Tour and continued to process a particularly painful personal life situation. Therefore, being able to be here in the depths of nature as much as possible is helping all of this immensely.
Mother Meera is in London during the coming week, so if you would like to meet / visit her, here is the link. I may be attending on Tues morning:-
http://mothermeera.org.uk/index.shtml
Here is what Wiki says about her, in case it’s your first time. I love her, yet I always like to peruse the non-hyped version:-
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mother_Meera
That’s all for now. Do keep me posted on you (best by message / call at the moment). Love,
xDaisy
Hello 🙂
How are you?
I am very happy here in Lewes. Yes, I have moved for the 4th time (temporarily) in 6 weeks. It’s such an adventure! Not that that was my intention, and of course there have been times of intense challenge. Yet now I feel the wonder and the grace of it all, and the felt sense of Divine Will in it is profound, really profound.
The slight issue I have at the moment is time – I am running out of it before I go to America. Already, most session times are booked this week. I may be able to squeeze in a couple more on Wednesday at Leila’s or on Friday making home visits. Other than that, distance healing is available, though again, this is limited due to current demand. However, I am only away for 3 weeks. As a reminder, that is from 30th May – 21st June.
I would like to share the following passage from Adyashanti’s book ‘Resurrecting Jesus: Embodying the Spirit of a Revolutionary Mystic’, which brought me to tears of inner implosion right there in the launderette.
“This is all about an internal journey, about your capacity to recognise divinity whenever and wherever you encounter it. It requires a certain sort of humility that allows you to peer beyond the world of appearances and touch upon that spark of the timeless radiance. Whether you understand it or can do anything with it doesn’t matter in the slightest; all that matters is your capacity to recognise that spark when you see it and to open yourself in humility to its redeeming Grace. This is the magic of Jesus’ life. This is the miracle that surpasses all the other miracles – the ability that Jesus has to mirror back divinity for those who are in his presence. This miracle is far superior to being able to walk on water or turn water into wine. It is the miracle of redemption, which awakens people to their own true nature.” ~ Adyashanti
Love,
xDaisy
Hello 🙂
How are you?
First of all, I want to let you know that I will be in London on Wednesday this week in the Barbican. I need the rest of the week to sort out my housing situation in Brighton, which needs turning around within literally 7 days. Skype sessions are available though, of course.
I had one of those moments today, where I was between work (equine assisted therapy and a little job I do for a friend in London) and I stepped out into the sun in the garden where I was. I was immediately struck by the ordinary beauty of things. Simply the other buildings, the music from a party somewhere in the background, and the sky. Finally I could stop for a while, and I did. My mind began to chatter and then to fade, melting into my heart as often it does. It felt so good to feel, to be barefoot on the ground and to be able to loaf for an hour, with nothing to do! I felt so free… Silence pervaded completely. Eventually a thought came: What if I spent the rest of my life just being free? Something opened wider within, in this contemplation. I mean, what if any of us simply chose inner freedom, true peace, right now – and for every ‘now’ forever? I am well aware that this makes no sense in a way! But can you feel into what I’m saying? In other words, what if you, reading this right now, never ever left whatever realisation you have had about the true nature of what you are?
The next thought that came was, What would that take? I saw that it would require a willingness to relinquish all future plans. I also saw I would need to never leave what I know and to never believe or follow through on another thought / piece of negativity. It was humbling…to say the least.
Anyway, I wanted to share this exploration with you now, in hindsight, to see if you resonate with it or have perhaps had a similar kind of insight too? 🙂 Please do write with your comments on this.
Love,
xDaisy
Hello,
How are you? A short note to say that for London sessions, today and Sat are now full this week. But there are a couple of spaces left on Friday. Distance sessions are always available of course, via Skype.
I also wanted to share this video with you. I never tire of Amma’s Swami Dayamrita. In particular it is his integrity, authenticity and humility which really touch me. They are rare qualities in people I have found. Let me know your feelings on this interview. Mine are very passionate!
SOULJOURNS – SWAMI DAYAMRITA, AMMA’S SENIOR DISCIPLE
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Much Love,
xDaisy
Hello 🙂
I’m sorry about the short notice of this offer. I only just realised today that it is Easter this weekend. Therefore Good Friday and Easter Monday sessions are half price, £45, and will be done on Skype / phone only. This also applies to pre-booked sessions on those days.
I have a couple of spaces left this Thursday in London, so please let me know if you would like one.
Anyway, how are you?
I must say that I’m enjoying Brighton massively. The things I love the most are the sea, the beach, the South Downs and the people. They seem interested in celebrating life. There is perhaps more emphasis on sangha, friends, family, creativity, seva and sadhana. Then work is done to support lifestyle, rather than the other way round. I wish you were all here! In this sunshine, it is truly idyllic 🙂
Much Love,
xDaisy
Hello,
How are you? I have had to wittle this group down due to technicalities with Yahoo, so I hope no one I’ve knocked off feels left out. I am thinking of you all with a warm and surrendered heart and wondering where life is taking you… Please do write with your stories – they are always welcome 🙂
Thank you to those of you who responded to my last email; I feel your warmth and compassion. I know some of you have been concerned and wondering how I am, so I thought I’d fill you in a little and update you on this process, hopefully in a way that speaks to you and your process too. What I am going through in its deepest essence at the moment is heartbreak. I’m sure many of you have been through this too. So unexpected and so very deep, yet at least I know I have loved fully. I have heard some people say to me that they have never been in love before, even people who are quite a lot older than I am, and (perhaps) that is saddest of all.
The process has been that through fully embracing this heartbreak, as much as I am able in my fragile humanness, there is a continuing kind of breakdown breakthrough and entering into Divinity. I want to credit here my sadhana practice, Amma, Adyashanti and Vortex Healing and the engagement in these. There was also a sudden breakthrough during a group healing I was lucky enough to be part of – many thanks Chetana and Will Thornton. I was amazed at the turnaround and transformation after receiving this healing – almost like night and day – and the subsequent sense of completely withdrawing into the Self. Here is what I wrote about it in an email afterwards:-
“I just want to share that something has completely left me since this healing. Now I feel as if there is only the Self itself, and that’s all. It’s like nothingness, but not that empty feeling of emotional vacuum at all. It’s devoid of noise, there is only Silence. Grounded in Self now.”
In my diary I reflected further:-
“So this is it. It was always here. Right here… No wonder no one could give it to me. What this is could never be bought nor sold. ‘The peace which surpasses all understanding’, now I know You. Now I know You… You are this – are me. It’s not outside, it never was outside.”
When I arose the following morning, I knew I had to move home to Brighton. It’s funny because I have just remembered in writing this, that Eckhart Tolle once said one day he simply knew he had to move to North America. Moving as Self, it’s not a question of working things out. It’s letting go without end.
I will be coming to London every week to see you for sessions, so please don’t worry about that. I expect I will move around the beginning of April. Please do not hesitate to email or call me if you have any questions about this.
With Love in my heart,
xDaisy
Hello,
Happy Shivaratri! Today Shiva’s energy pours into creation, like the sword of Truth cutting through vines of illusion, the perfect day to let go of all remaining attachments the ‘me’ is clinging to. With the addition of the full lunar eclipse coming on Sunday, you may be feeling like doing nothing rather than planning / manifesting. If so, I would really encourage you to trust this instinct, drawing awareness inside into the heart of Life. This is a fantastic time to engage in that inner dive, via sadhana, chanting, bhajans, relaxation, quietness, or whatever you feel truly drawn to.
Before I engage in the subject of my email today, I would like to announce two pieces of good news. Firstly, my close friend who I described in earlier emails is now cancer-free! Upon discovering this information from doctors, she said, “This is a miracle”. Considering that her father died suddenly in the middle of her cancer treatment, and that initially the cancer was seen as potentially fatal, I am inclined to agree with this statement. The other news is that my friend Daniel has been made into a Vortex Healing teacher. I can’t think of anybody I would rather be in this position 🙂
Now, aside from these wonderful things, I have been in the midst of deep personal suffering since the beginning of the year, the likes of which I have rarely experienced in this lifetime. The process is a mixture of internal and external, becoming so excruciating that I was basically left with three directions in which to go with it: 1) into the victim, 2) into improving my life in an attempt to fight back against things or 3) into Truth and a total embrace of what is. Once the first two were seen through, I was left with no choice but to take the third option. The way this all looked in real terms by the way, was a bloody mess. Yet I came to realise gradually that the suffering, which I had always managed to bypass in some way in the past without seeing that that was what I was doing, wasn’t going anywhere – if anything it was getting worse. That was the moment at which I was finally, genuinely, willing to lose to Life. It was at once a recognition of which of ‘us’ (though ironically there was no experience of separation) was stronger – that Life itself was simply much more immense than any remaining sense of me, and also a feeling of being crushed into oblivion by my own conditioning, or by God – honestly, I don’t even know which it was – but whatever it was, it worked. What I mean by ‘it worked’ is that suffering itself became the invitation into freedom, Truth, God, Love. I took it, and I continuously now accept that invitation on a moment to moment to moment basis. The felt sense is like a huge weight has been lifted off my body and there is a simple and profound texture of oneness pervading everything in experience. I have had many ‘drops’ into this before, but this time there is a sense of permanence (if I can use that word), of a not-coming-and-going, but a resting of oneness in / as this form.
So to save you time and struggle, I suggest this as a practice for you too. Begin to notice the nature of your suffering now: is it really something which shouldn’t be there? Can you receive it fully right now?
Listen to your gut instinct. From there you will sense your true Yes and your true No, both to these questions and more importantly to the situations, people and choices in your life.
Love,
xDaisy
Hello,
How are you? I am well, feeling fully in the love-stream-flow today.
I have been reflecting recently on what really heals people the most. I have to say it is Love. Sounds obvious, but let me be more specific. When asked what practices we should do when we are not with her, Amma said only one word: “Sangha”. This means community, gathering together in and as what we truly value. In addition to a satsang setting, such as the wonderful Villa Devi offering, this quality of life happens naturally within dharmic friendship. It’s a phrase Adyashanti uses to describe the kind of friendship between two people on an awakening path. Touching this kind of friendship is incredibly transformative… You bounce off one another in your deepest places, encouraging each other to grow and face life with laughter and passion and warmth. Without any effort at all, the world seems to widen and disappear as the oneness you both are when you are together.
So I really encourage this. Yes, have healings, yes, do sadhana (spiritual practices), but often overlooked as an intense spiritual practice is – Call your true friend, get together, open your hearts to one another. No healing can truly take place without this kind of love and depth and intimacy.
The other thing which has been on my mind to share with you, is the way in which shifts move in most people, and the sometimes resulting confusion of this. Let’s say you have a shift or an awakening. Really the description doesn’t matter because when something like this happens to you, it is beyond doubt and needs no external affirmation. Perhaps for a while, there is a deep and overriding felt sense of oneness, Truth, Divinity. And then, it may feel like this goes away. This is the point at which it is very easy for cynicism, doubt or confusion to take control. You may even tell yourself that nothing really happened. In actual fact, often what did happen was a permanent shift: what was there before, never actually returned. Yet the sense of this can feel distant.
In my perception and experience, what has normally happened is that the sense of oneness / transformation has become ‘normal’ – it’s integrated into the background, into the body. But it can feel like you’re back to square one and that you’ve ‘lost it’. The tendency, then, is to give up too easily, listening to cynicism, fear or doubt. The thing at this point, is to keep going, with an attitude of open receptivity. The reality of living awakening / Truth / Love / oneness / transformation / healing is that most people are not going to have an awakening / liberation / enlightenment along the lines of Amma, Ramana Maharshi, Adyashanti, Eckhart Tolle or Tony Parsons. Even though these beings are here inspiring us and showing the way in an absolutely crucial sense, I think it is misleading to believe that ‘my path’ will be the same as theirs. And this belief leads to a great deal of misunderstanding.
Your experience is your experience, and no teaching can get you out of it, no teaching can change what you are going to have to go through to satisfy that yearning for awakening / Divinity / transformation inside you. For most people, awakening embodiment evolution is a life-long thing. It’s really like that. It’s not something with a ‘final ending’, and it’s not something which happens in a flash and stays feeling like that forever. It simply doesn’t work like that, except for a tiny minority of people. And that minority is highly unlikely to be you. Awakening is a blood and guts thing and you have to get your hands dirty. So quit spiritually bypassing, throw yourself into the arms of Divinity, of the private Silence within you, of your friends and of your suffering. I say this equally to myself as I do to you!
Finally, here is a piece of writing I did on a Day Retreat with Chetana and Will in the Sussex countryside. I hope you enjoy it:-
Divinity Intended
I cannot speak…for talking this out is nothing at all anymore. This Silence bears witness to all of that and is also all of that. No need for words anymore. My silent spoken friend, awareness, finally stayed after his tea was drunk.
I saw what is true for me and accepted the somehow burden of it. This being done, You came in again. Then, the deeper revelation – the surrender……. No holding back this time. You showed me all, You revealed Yourself in the night, in the day, in the detail – all at once. That timeless moment – Now. All my burdens are laid down in You. All my heavy weighty blindness and my deafness to Your song is gone. Now I see it all. The game that I played – You knew my every move. You were always bathing it in that Light, yet only now can I see this.
What needs to happen, needs to happen. Yes, this is true. But what I failed to understand was the pitch perfect way this is all going. The sheerness of a thousand songs called out in Your name. It must be as it is and as it will be. You are the One, I am That. I found You again, and in the finding, I am no longer me. No longer isolated from You, my beautiful Muse, my all, my everything. I didn’t know that this way is the way. This precise way which you are unfolding… Divinity Intended. Not outside anymore, not happening to a me. Divinity Intended. A button unbuttoned and a comb combed. The jeans and the hair of Existence.
What has to happen…it’s unfolding, opening – at Its pace alone. Only Your rhythm exists. You lovemaker… It’s all happening now, and now, and now. There is no other; no other at all. This is Your game, and I feel no distance from You anymore. Somehow, I have not transferred this, not managed to translate this – the incredible depth of what is here.
Love,
xDaisy
Hello 🙂
How are you?
As a New Year and Christmas gift to you, I am offering a FREE clinic at the venue in Barbican tomorrow, on a first come first served basis. This also applies to distance sessions tomorrow. As far as I can remember, this is the first time I have offered you this, so please do make use of it if you can.
I wish I had more time to write, but I don’t right now and didn’t have over the holiday season. Soon though – and hopefully see you tomorrow 🙂
Happy New Year 🙂 🙂 🙂
Love,
xDaisy
Hello 🙂
How are you? Friends have been sending me videos to watch on YouTube recently and I thought I would share them with you too. So moving to watch, and relax and be connected 🙂
Here is one with Ric Weinman giving a talk in Watkins spiritual bookshop in London:-
Vortex Healing and Merlin by Ric Weinman
This is amazing, and I won’t spoil it for you!:-
Inside the Superhuman World of the Iceman
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Here is one of my absolute favourite guides, smashing through taboos and pointing to freedom through the physical:-
Awakened lovemaking – Marlies Cocheret
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And here are Adyashanti and Francis Bennett discussing the book I am currently reading, ‘Resurrecting Jesus’. Our local vicar wants a copy of the book, having spoken with me, and I am going to give it to him. That was a good moment 🙂
Adyashanti & Francis Bennett on “Resurrecting Jesus” – Buddha at the Gas Pump Interview
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So, enjoy 🙂
Love,
Daisy
Hello 🙂
How are you? As some of you know, I am recovering from what has turned out to be kidney stones. I am back and available from tomorrow. I can’t believe how long it has been since I have written properly. I have been thinking of you and feeling you in my heart.
At the moment, I am going through something which has really changed my life and I need to share it with you briefly. One of my closest friends has been diagnosed with ovarian cancer, which could also have spread. I only found out very recently and I am still in some shock. This situation is like a bomb which has gone off in my life, and things will be different for me for some time, in various different ways. I can’t say much else on this, because I am still digesting it. My friend is my age, so it is unusual. Though from a Vortex point of view it becomes easier to understand. To recap on that, 95% of cancer is caused by suppressed grief fed by resentment. It is not the grief / loss that is the problem, but the suppression of that, which can kill. So please, do take note, and may this be an inspiration for you to persevere with your inner work.
I wanted to write to you about Amma and my experiences on Europe tour, but that feels wrong tonight. All I want to add is, please don’t stay away. Work is helping me and I look forward to seeing you very soon.
Here is a song which is healing me a lot at this time. It is by my friend Will (Chidanand) and I thought you might enjoy it too. What I like is that you can actually feel the real devotion, which I find unusual on the spiritual music scene:-
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OtECoyQTL8o
Love and best wishes to you all,
xDaisy
Hello,
Just a quick note to say that due to a change of plan, I am available for sessions until Thursday. I will then go to Milan and Munich for the end of Europe tour with Amma. I have use of Leila’s wonderful healing room in Barbican on Wednesday. Other days I can come to you.
Sorry I have had little time to write recently. Between the Amma tour and Vortex Healing training, I have not had enough time to do my experiences justice on paper. I look forward to being with you in person though,
Love,
xDaisy
Hello 🙂
How are you? I feel relieved that Equinox was on Wednesday (they say ‘living in a world of plenty’) and that Mercury retrograde ended on Thursday. Seeing Bjork live at the Royal Albert Hall in conjunction with these events was pure magic 🙂 I also noticed how incredibly deep the satsang went on Thursday evening at Villa Devi, which other people in the group also reported. As a reminder, we chant (amongst other things) the 108 Names the 1000 Names of the Divine Mother (Archana), sing bhajans and meditate – inspired by Amma.
I have been into Bjork’s musical genius since the age of 13, and have now seen her live 5 times over a period of 21 years. Yes – I used to be obsessed! I had a moment before I walked into the auditorium this time, which I wanted to share with you. I was in the loo putting on my lipgloss. Suddenly I felt this Silence deepen and come in through my body from the left, like a liquid. As I looked at myself in the mirror, I realised something which in words would be, “I know who I am now”. I could feel the qualitative difference from when I used to come and see Bjork – now the tangible quality of Beingness, you could say, was here and was seen as what I actually am. The freedom felt immense; the freedom of not-knowing yet knowing, I guess you could call it Realising – I am This, this Silence. And I want to specify, it isn’t knowing who I am the way people usually say that – “She knows who she is” – about someone with charisma or power, for example. Not that. And it isn’t knowing as such, in the way we normally mean that. It is genuinely perceiving my own nature and the nature of all things and beings. Without filtration, without ‘winning’, without ‘losing’, without anything… There is such relief when you know that; a deep alleviation of that nagging separate feeling that dogs you before, which I see in so many people’s eyes. The point of sharing this, apart from simply sharing, is to use myself as an example of the fact that it is true that Silence is our nature and that one can certainly discover that in a genuine way, if one is interested in doing so.
I have been enjoying the sessions with you so much recently… They have taken on a different quality, an other-worldliness, as my sensing unfolds itself into your systems and as Grace makes its mysterious appearance often. I feel honoured that you would share all of your process with me – the laughter, the tears, the cosmic side, the dark side and all the sides of you. Thank you.
To finish I would like to share with you my favourite Bjork song. I have chosen a link without a video, to enhance the listening aspect, in the hope that the song will drop deeper into your ears. When I first discovered this song, I was about 14 and I fell in love with it. I experienced all kinds of deep emotions inside my room listening to it and often crying. Nowadays I perceive it as being a piece about Stillness. Whatever it is doesn’t really matter, it is a work of art in the truest sense: full, empty, meaningful and meaning-free.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=17yWeynOfOI
Love,
xDaisy
Hello 🙂
I have heard on the grapevine that today is an excellent day for manifesting….. 🙂 It would be a good idea for you to do something to bridge into your life what you need, want or what is your deepest desire in this lifetime.
Perhaps you could simply sit, allow Silence to prevail, and then call out from your heart to Divinity for what you want, as a deep prayer. Everyone will have their own version of what this looks and feels like. I felt called to do my own version this morning and it felt wonderful 🙂 Very blissful, which actually surprised me 🙂
Here is a little inspiration on your way:-
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lf6TQoQmiPk
Love,
xDaisy
Hello 🙂
How are you? I hope you are engaging in your deepest intention, and that you are well. This weather in London, though greyer today, is a continuous joy to be in…
I want to write a little more about the effects of the silent meditation retreat with Adyashanti. As he says, a spiritual experience is only valuable inasmuch as it has a lasting effect on one’s everyday life. We’ll see about that in time… For now I can say that, since the retreat, something has changed. The Silence is here, in a new way. What also feels different is that my ‘questing’ energy, my chasing after Divinity, has come to an end. That energy was in me for nearly 20 years this year. I think I believed it was necessary to have that in order to find the Divine, but I now question whether that is true. It could be that my ‘questing’ actually masked Divinity from me. Either way, in the end I got far more, and also far less really, than I bargained for. Needless to say, my relationship with Amma, Vortex Healing and Adyashanti have transformed a great deal. That is ongoing and I can’t say much about it at the moment that would make sense. The funny thing is though, even my Mum has remarked on the change in me several times since this retreat. One time she said, “You know who you are now”. That raised a smile 🙂
What I can talk about is how my work with you has changed. My sessions now feel like I am resting and creating from Silence. Then I look to my sensing abilities and begin to see how the healing energy is naturally moving. It’s like painting with Light. One of you commented that, “You are like a conduit now. You don’t even need to channel.”
Adyashanti will not come back to Europe next year due to his health problems, but I highly recommend his retreats in America if you feel drawn:-
http://www.adyashanti.org/index.php?file=retreatsschedule
I would like to close with an excerpt from my diary on the retreat, which now feels almost predictive of the aforementioned stopping:-
“I found a snake by the side of the road today. It was dead. I told it I was sorry it had died, especially since it was so young – a baby, I think. It was charcoal grey on the underbelly and brown and radiant on top. It shone somehow, with brown, like one of those sandstone rings you can get. I wonder what kind of snake it is? I don’t remember seeing a snake in England before. The first three I saw were rattlesnakes, in Arizona, when I was eleven. The only other one I’ve seen was on the Ashram. That one was so beautiful: it was moving in that classic snake dance and it was bright green. Sort-of cascading along a sandy path. Come to think of it, they were all deeply significant times when I saw those snakes… I wonder what is happening here and what wonders are in store after this retreat? 🙂 This snake was so small and thin and beautiful. And it had a tiny, soft face. I saw the beauty in death.”
I look forward to seeing you soon,
Love,
xDaisy
Hello,
I wanted to remind you that I am back in action now and that I will be offering distance sessions via Skype or phone on Monday Bank Holiday, half price: £45. This deal includes pre-booked sessions.
The retreat was sensational… Really something unexpectedly mind-blowing. What I want to say about Adyashanti is that he is possibly the only teacher or guide I know who refuses to take authority away from anyone, even in a subtle way. I have found this to be consistently true over the 14 years that I have known him. The effect of that, is actually immense. Greater than I could have imagined before doing this silent meditation retreat. I will write more as I go. For now, I would like to share with you a poem I wrote in the middle of the retreat (hence the title of this post). However, due to formatting issues here, I am unable to do so. Therefore please contact me on daisynokes22@yahoo.com to receive it.
See you soon,
Love,
Daisy
Hello,
I must say I am thrilled to have the opportunity to deepen into this great, deep silence……….who knows what will happen in this great adventure into the unknown? The inner dive, swan dive, into mystery. I will be unavailable in communication – on a silent meditation retreat – from tomorrow until the 22nd Aug, when I will be back in action.
I want to share a few more learnings from the Ammathon (as a friend rightly called it!), which I hope will benefit you. During the program in Toronto, Amma said something which really struck me. She said, “Vasanas have no power of their own. It is we who give them power.” I realised in that moment, how powerless negativity really is. Her statement also cut through, in me, the tendency to become so familiar with something, that I begin to misuse it. What I mean is that I have talked about my ‘vasanas’ (latent negative tendencies) or issues or behaviour so many times, I can forget that it is I myself who permits them to have the power they have and who actually gives that power to them. I thought this could strike a chord for many of you as well. I would add that it is our tendency to identify with such internal arisings, which is the mechanism by which we give them the most power.
The most core life story I had, the one which had most coloured my experience of reality in this lifetime, came up during the last couple of days with Amma. We save the best for last, don’t we? For me, that was the love story – the agony and the ecstasy of romantic love, and underlying that, the nagging feeling that the right relationship would fulfil me and close any remaining ‘gap’. This probably sounds familiar to some of you, perhaps to many of you. I know – it’s a hard one to admit! I am not going to share the private details of that, sorry 😉 But please bear with me anyway. There is something more important than that part of the story. It began on the treadmill, of all places, not somewhere I frequently find myself. But going to the gym occasionally, during the tour, helped me get time by myself (which is almost completely impossible on staff) and helped me move energetics that were stuck. Suddenly on this treadmill, the desire to be free of that core story hit me, like never before. I simply HAD to be free of it; I could carry it all no more. So with this fire, I made a silent cry – a prayer – within, to Amma. With that, I let go, knowing that it could go either way: perhaps I would get free of this pattern, perhaps I would not – it was in the hands of Divinity now.
Shortly after this, Amma did a Q&A with the retreat group outside, in the unseasonably hot evening sun. There were only about 500 of us there. Right from the beginning, I felt a large amount of fear and anxiety coursing through my system, to the point where I could barely sit still. I didn’t know why I was feeling this way, it was like a body thing. I decided to focus more intensely on the question that was happening, and on Amma’s answer. As I looked at Amma, she made a certain movement as she talked with her hands, and with that I was gone. I felt as if I was merging into Amma from where I was – it was part-visual, part-kinesthetic (akin to the way I sense, during a session). As this happened, any remaining sense of separation fell away and I began to cry. In this oneness and tears and the whole un-conveyable experience, I suddenly knew that all my desire, lack and longing for this person – and all women and men who I had ever felt that towards – was really the longing for God. I simply knew it. Not as a concept and not as a philosophy, and not as an excuse. I actually saw it. I saw it in such a way, that it felt like I could never actually un-see it. I also sensed intuitively that all my other desires were also the longing for God. I felt freed at last…….truly, truly free.
(NB God in my perception is also Truth, wholeness, unity, oneness etc.) The next thoughts were, “Why have I been running after men and women all this time?” and “How could I have missed this reality all these years?” Then the strangest thing happened: I experienced depression for the first time in my life. As I sat, purposefully alone, eating dinner, I felt depressed. But there was absolutely no resistance to it. The sense of oneness was so broad and pervasive, that there was absolutely no problem with feeling depressed. In fact, I was pleased to be having the experience, because before that I never understood what depression was. I knew what pain was, deep gruelling emotional pain, but I didn’t know depression until that moment. I then experienced suicidal ideation! But again, there was no problem with this either, because there was zero resistance to it. And it existed in a context of oneness, of Love. After about an hour, both of these so-called negative experiences passed of their own accord, without me doing anything at all about them.
In hindsight, I believe they occurred because my ego had just lost its trump card, which was the core love story drama. With that gone, it seems like it had to play the depression and suicide cards to try to regain ‘control’ of my bodymind. But that didn’t work: these feelings and thoughts simply passed through, as I said. So then I was just there: story-less and One, feeling a sense of ordinariness and freedom. Nothing special, yet complete liberation.
I make my newsletters personal because I don’t believe I can help unless I talk from my own direct experience. I hope that by reading this something may have resonated or sparked for you.
See you soon, after the retreat,
Love,
xDaisy
Hello,
How are you Londoners and people of the world? 🙂 I hope if you are in London that you are enjoying this heat wave we are lucky enough to be having 🙂
I want to address a question today which people often ask me, or ask me without words. Why Amma? Why do I do this? Why go and pay a handsome fee to work without pay, under conditions which some would consider harsh?
The answer is simple: it’s love. I look at Amma, and I love her. The depth of that love makes me want to support her work, serve Embracing the World (her global charity), and beyond that, to serve life in its entirety. For me, it’s passion; it’s not a ‘being good’ thing. It’s not even spiritual. Imagine being in love…now times it by 500…that’s nowhere near it. This is bhakti (devotion) in real terms.
Everyone has their own particular relationship with Amma, and certainly Amma devotees are all there for different reasons. Some of my friends, clients and family feel put off by the culty appearance of it all, by some of the devotees (who can be far from loving) and by the pretentious ‘holier than thou’ dynamics. Those of you who know me even a little bit, know I am definitely not the poster girl for holiness 🙂 No; it’s a love thing. Pure and simple.
So, what were the physical realities of being on volunteer tour staff, you may wonder. In my particular seva, we were working around 14 hours per day (every day) and longer on a Devi Bhava (the all-nighter). We got roughly 5 hours sleep per night, on the floor, sharing a room and bathroom with between 6 and 40 women. Then, after the long Devi Bhava, we would get on a coach and travel to the next city. Some of those journeys were over 22 hours long. When we arrived, we would sometimes get only a few hours sleep before set-up and work began. We delivered programs in 10 cities, over a 6-week period.
In between all this, I would squeeze my way onto the stage to spend time with Amma. Occasionally, Amma would call the staff to receive Darshan. I would like to share with you my diary entry about this:-
” 6/6/16
I don’t know how possible it is to put this into words…
Impossible.
* * * * * * *
But let me try.
Amma called us for Darshan in Seattle on Devi Bhava. As I entered the stage in the queue, I decided to make a prayer within. I said something like, ‘Amma, please assist me in focussing on the goal of this life: on realising God. Please help me to remain focussed even during this tour.’
As I laid my eyes upon her, hugging the person in front, tears welled up. I felt this love for her that was beyond anything I had ever experienced, and yet ordinarily human at the same time. I simply rejoiced within, at the sight of her. She moved my head around quite a bit before finally placing it on her heart, while she answered the questions of some devotees to her right. It always amazes me how one never feels left out in this scenario: Amma’s attention is deeply with each one of us simultaneously, which is testament to the sheer depth of oneness she is living. She then kissed my cheek and embraced me, chanting in my ear with a kind of vehemence in her voice, “My daughter! My daughter! My daughter!”, over and over again. I fell into total oneness…….. At the same time, the human being felt her as my teacher and as my mother – somewhere where those two are one and the same. And the experience of trust was overwhelming. As Amma finished the hug and handed me prasad, we drew back from one another and she looked deeply into my eyes. I cannot adequately express in words what I felt pass between us in that exchange: it was simply beyond the beyond. I then felt deep gratitude and expressed it somehow from oneness. Amma’s expression altered to one of such profound compassion….…something just too immense to convey. She embraced me again and then placed a chocolate in my mouth. That was the moment at which my searching gently stopped. My life’s search ceased in that moment. It was, perhaps, what many teachers have described as the end of seeking. Immediately after this I experienced true happiness: powerful, pure, authentic, unconditional happiness. I felt restored, redeemed – completely. There was total and utter wholeness. I’m not talking conceptually here, but actually. The real thing.
As I walked away, I collapsed on the stage in tears beside Amma. I was crying, and then I was sobbing; there was no way to do anything at all, and I couldn’t stop. But I was actually sobbing with happiness. My heart broke open under a force: that of revelation, unconditional happiness, union…Truth. Simultaneously, I experienced a spontaneous healing of my past, which came from nowhere. Dad’s death, the break-ups, the childhood trauma, the fear, isolation, despair, loss, loneliness, lack and doubt – all of these were consumed by something I cannot describe. I cried and cried, wiping my make-up from my face with my sleeve, only to cry uncontrollably again.
When the crying eventually stopped, I sat for a while. When I left the stage, I felt empty in the true sense of the word. Emptied of separation, of that heavy anxious burden. And the very subtle sense that something is missing, was gone. I could rest…finally, I could rest…… The feeling of resting and oneness were beautiful……profound. Paradoxically, there was an abundant feeling of vitality at the same time. But it was vitality without ownership. I realised that rest and vitality are the same thing. Eventually I went about the day, without saying a word about it to anyone.”
I hope you enjoy your day and that I get to see you soon 🙂
Love,
xDaisy
Hello 🙂
How are you? I hope you are enjoying the Bank Holiday, and not working like my poor flatmate! I have decided to take tomorrow off in order to take proper care of myself before my move and big trip with Amma. My apologies to those of you who were waiting for this opportunity. There will be others once I get back (16th July). Obviously if you are in crisis, or even semi-crisis, do call me. I will be available until Friday, and then contactable sporadically by email while away.
I want to share with you a couple of interesting sessions which happened during the past week. I had the opportunity to work with someone who had not experienced healing before, which was an honour and a joy. She was naturally sensitive to Vortex and I felt the session went very deep, which was confirmed by what she said when she eventually came round. She said she was amazed to be able to “feel something so palpably that is simply energy”. This is something I forget nowadays because I am used to it: how incredible it is that simply channelling Vortex Healing can create this type of tangible effect on a person. She wrote to me the next day: “Thank you for such a magical experience. I felt so held and safe. Like I was truly blessed.”
I was also fortunate enough to do a session on a client who reminded me of me some years ago, which was a sweetness on a personal level 🙂 One of the things that was similar between us, was that she was crying and almost hyper-ventilating with a fear release during most of the session, yet she had the courage and the trust to keep going in anyway. That was me when I got into Vortex – every time I experienced the energy, I would react like this. I was able to see a good amount of detail about what the issue was for this person, and the childhood experiences that had concreted it. Afterwards, I was actually shocked by what she said and the way she said it. She exclaimed, “I was in so much pain! I’ve been in a serious car accident before and I wasn’t in as much pain as that.” Thankfully she had already intuited that this was a good thing in terms of her healing process. Bear in mind I was not using any bodywork, or therapy, in this session: my client’s response was purely due to the density of the underlying root conditioning breaking out from her.
It is sometimes hard for people to believe it could be true that even physical pain is not really rooted in the physical body. Perhaps it is simply too threatening for some to entertain the idea that the wild torrents of the inner landscape with which we are all in touch (to some degree or another), the subtle bodies and the unknown itself, could be the true origin of the suffering we experience on any and every level. But what would such a person conclude if they were actually watching the above session unfold..? It is an interesting question.
I had the pleasure of talking with two friends about awakening yesterday, one at lunchtime and one at nighttime. Lucky me! In the first conversation, my friend and I were talking about what it meant to us to ‘want awakening’ before it happened. For both of us, it wasn’t something that we knew really; it was something much more subtle than that. And yet this subtle unknown curious sense burned and resonated within each of us. And somehow, we both found ourselves waking up young and before almost everyone around us. We shared that awakening is not a game – there’s no game there, no map or gain – there’s no point to it basically. Even the word awakening is misleading in a way. We went on to say that, as human beings, we all do what we love: we are into what we are into, and that’s simply that. In reality, nothing ‘gets you there’ – gets you interested or engaged or involved or awake, if you are not already into it. It’s not a progressive thing – like a hobby, or a career, or a soulmate connection, or climbing the spiritual ladder. It’s nothing like that. It’s so simple…so simple, and so unfrilly.
In the other conversation, I was speaking to a friend and saying that once you have this insight, life is kind of over – and at such a young age. Lol! And yet, some part of the ego can still hold on all over again and think there is something still to get or gain. I said to him, “It’s like if I gave you a DVD and then told you what happens at the end. If you were sensible, you would put the DVD down and walk out of the room. There’s nothing in it for you now you know the ending. But I bet you would watch the film anyway, just for the drama leading up to it?” He laughed in agreement and added, “Yes. It’s like after you really experience what’s real, you know that all desires are really the desire for that. So they seem transparent – fake almost – and it’s pointless to try to fulfil them in a way. Because now you know the ending. Plus that end is here and now – it’s here already.”
I’ll leave you with that. If I don’t get the chance to say it again before I go, then thank you for being such wonderful clients 🙂 I will see you very soon – in July,
Love,
xDaisy
Hello 🙂
As I reminded people on FB – don’t panic, it’s simply Full Moon today! The energies I could feel in the group consciousness during my IAM meditation this morning were intense: dense and sort-of conflicted. That’s when I remembered the moon. It really does have an effect. Actually, the more you dance your natural dance into what you are, the more sensitive you are to these things. And yet the less they actually pull you in. It’s interesting.
I also wanted to remind you of when I will be away. It’s less than 2 weeks now to my departure! It will fly by though, and I will be back with you before you know it 🙂 I will be on tour with Amma in America from the 3rd June – 16th July.
I was touched this week by a rather beautiful cat, who decided to help me during a healing session with a client. It was towards the end of the healing and I could feel a shift coming within my own solar plexus. Although this is often the manner in which my system senses (sees psychically), I was unsure whether it was my own conditioning or the client’s at that point. But I was guided to begin the catch up phase of the healing. As I placed my hands on the client, she convulsed several times in a release from her solar plexus. That answered my query 🙂 Then the cat jumped up and straight onto her solar plexus. He proceeded to do that ultra-cute thing cats do with their feet – padding them up and down on the client’s stomach, for quite some time. I was mesmerised by the cat’s energy and his care, and by the whole unfolding situation.
I would like to write more, but am wanting my bed after a deep Adyashanti transmission today via video (I am part of an Adya group here in London), followed by a profound healing session I just gave. I am feeling blessed to have this job and this life…
Sweet dreams,
Love,
xDaisy
Hello sunshine lovers, energy enthusiasts and helpers of mankind,
My title refers to an old trance tune on Sourmash records, which was helpful in bringing me towards spirit in my teenage years. In a deeper way, I am referring to what I am about to do in June: I am very excited – and honoured – to have been given a staff position on Amma’s US tour! I will be volunteering in the clothing boutique. It’s funny because I was thinking of ways I might get into the feminine and embody that more, and then I got given this position 🙂 Feel free to ask me any questions you may have about what I will be doing or what the tour involves.
Are any of you going to be there, or thinking of going to a couple of stops? Here are the stops in full:-
Seattle, WA
June 4-5 Public Program
San Ramon, CA
June 7-9 Public Program
June 10-12 Retreat
June 12 Evening Public Program
Los Angeles, CA
June 14-16 Public Program
Santa Fe, NM
June 18-19 Public Program
June 20-22 Retreat
June 22 Evening Public Program
Dallas, TX
June 24-25 Public Program
Chicago, IL
June 27-29 Public Program
New York, NY
July 1-3 Public Program
Boston, MA
July 5-6 Public Program
Washington, DC
July 8-9 Public Program
Toronto, ON
July 11 Public Program
July 12-14 Retreat
July 14 Evening Public Program
I will be away from the 3rd June to the 16th July without internet or phone access, so please do get all your sessions in before then.
I have been re-doing the Art of Meditation with Adyashanti this week and wanted to share some of the wisdom with you. Adya discusses the fact that awakening is not just an initial moment in which the I falls away, but it is also an ongoing unfolding. And for that part, meditation is crucial. In this sense, he disagrees with non-dual teachings – and I think rightly so – which tend to discourage practice (albeit covertly). Even if it is not said outright, the implication in many non-dual teachings is that practice is not all that important. Yet I simply haven’t met anyone who is deeply embodied as their true nature who has not engaged deeply in ongoing practices. So from my point of view, I wholeheartedly agree with Adyashanti on this important and often perplexing point. Please do offer your experiences with this, as I would be interested in them.
Bye for now, and do call or contact me before the 3rd June,
Love,
xDaisy
Hello 🙂
This is a new day,
This is a brand new day!
Your crimson tide washes over my heart,
This Love,
This Love…
I wish I could more accurately translate to you the sense of doing the 1000 Names this morning. It leaves a perfume, a scent, of such depth and bliss…and ultimately pure non-separation, oneness. If you are not doing a regular practice, I highly recommend starting today. Even if you only do a 15 minute meditation in the morning or at night, you will find that over time you begin to see clearly again, the way you used to as a child. To see things AS THEY ARE. What a huge privilege…! In fact, Amma has said:-
I didn’t come to teach anyone anything. I came to remind you of a song you once knew, but have since forgotten ~ Amma
It’s quite a statement coming from an avatar, the one kind of being who actually can truly teach, directly, and with acute accuracy. So we can see then, that this enlightenment game is really not about teachers or teachings. It’s about something else entirely… I would dearly love to hear your thoughts on what it is about, so please write to me about this 🙂 Also, please do join me on Facebook. Search for Daisy Nokes. I know I went through a privacy period, but that is over now.
How did you fair over Shivaratri on Monday, followed by the solar eclipse and Picses supermoon on Tues and Wed? Yes, that much did happen! The Shiva day, from my point of view, is about stillness manifesting into creation (sometimes in a variety of ways 😉 and the solar eclipse creates a deep purging of old pain, so that new projects can blossom. The supermoon in Picses represents the unconscious of humanity, the collective unconscious, what is being denied, coming out and releasing. I would love to hear any stories you have about Mon, Tues and Wed 🙂
If you feel you would like to join in with weekly coming-togethers of like hearted souls, just to remind you that I am going to Villa Devi in London every week to sing and chant and be with Amma devotees. It is a deeply transformative and amazing way to deepen your practices or path and to gain the sense of community. Let me know if you would like to be put on their mailing list.
Some of the results I have been getting through working with the U-AP level of Vortex Healing are remarkable. A client rang me to say that she “couldn’t feel anything” and she was concerned that she was emotionally disconnected. But when I looked into her system I could see that the work we had done together was so transformative that she had lost an entire ‘place’ or position in consciousness from which she had been living her life up until now. That is the power of this healing art combined with the way I work with Amma. I always wanted something which could actually remove issues, not just make the prison more comfortable, but actually deconstruct the prison piece by piece. Thank goodness I found Amma and Vortex Healing and that I am able to share that deconstruction with you, in you. This is the deepest gift I have ever been given.
I also facilitated a session this week in which I worked on the core position underlying back pain that my client had had for over 8 years, and with which she had been working in a variety of very helpful ways. Yet somehow the pain remained. Immeditately after the session she was able to flex her lower back again and the pain was barely noticeable! She also remarked that her voice had changed. This is something wonderful which can happen after a session, as if the person is speaking from a different place and without something ‘in the way’, that something being the issue worked on.
There was also a beautiful moment when I was doing some awakening coaching with a client and I asked her (because she was feeling a lack of clarity) what clarity meant to her. She replied simply, “Knowing my Truth and moving towards it”. I knew immediately that it was a pivotal moment for this person, because once you speak so authentically out loud the Divine hears (and you yourself hear) that and the transformation of life truly begins anew.
Ok that’s all for now. A bit of a long one – thank you for bearing with me 🙂 I feel very over-excited!
Love to you, beautiful blessed being,
Daisy
Hello 🙂
Is anyone seeing Mother Meera in London at the moment? I went last night and am still feelings the effects 🙂 One can feel when she is about to enter the hall because a deep silence falls through the consciousness of the room. As I sat with friends there in great silence, the meditation was totally natural…and this is the opportunity presented with this Master. I was not trying to do anything or control anything. I was simply sitting. One realises in this way, what true Stillness is. Because the mind can be talking, or not, one can be feeling, or not, and still awareness is fully present and remaining…simple and complete within itself. Then one knows “I am that”, without words, or ego, or anything at all. During the darshan, I noticed that I did not feel any separation from Mother Meera as I approached her and no sense that she was ‘above’ etc. (a big fixation in my conditioning). When I looked into her eyes there was still some remaining ego consciousness, and as I relaxed that fell away and there was only freedom…
It is easier once one has done the various Veil classes in Vortex Healing or woken up on one’s own / via another tradition or modality. But even if one has had only glimpses of freedom, any glimpse is the entirety. Either way, one sees at a certain point in spiritual maturity, that there is no need to leave that awareness for any reason. I don’t mean cling onto it, I just mean there is no need to go back into business with life after that: ‘I’ Vs the world etc. Because one knows that there is really no self, no I, that is separate from life itself.
Something very interesting which Ric (Vortex founder) wrote to us about, is that issues often come in pairs: for example, the ‘victim’ will also have the ‘victimiser’. One may well only be identified with one of these, but the other ‘silent partner’ will hold the primary position in place. So it is a good idea to work on both. I don’t want to overload you though! Each and every session is a deep deep dip into the freedom that you are, and a radical dissolving of what you are not.
I have received new guidance from the Divine on my price per session: this is now £90 for 1 & 1/2 hours.
As I was sitting in Costa waiting for friends before Mother Meera yesterday, it occurred to me that there is another and equal intuitive way of being to the process I described last week. Sometimes, ‘tuning in’ – especially when it is really checking (which comes from fear) – is not the best way. Intuition is natural, arising without the me getting involved. Upon perceiving this, I began to wonder what intuition was naturally speaking to me, regarding a particular situation in my life without tuning in – simply the natural, nature way…? What I found was, I got the same response as when I did it the other way. Sometimes, it is that one of these ways is better for one person and the other for the next person, and sometimes each way will be helpful for the same person but at different times. The thing about it is, you need to be clear enough in terms of having had some glimpse at least of freedom (awakeness), so that you are not coming entirely from the me sense, the ego, when attempting to follow your intuition. Practise is the best way and simply the living of life. I don’t usually recommend going to psychics because many of them are less clear than you are in their sensing of your situation, and it also tends to create dependency rather than freedom and empowerment. If you really trust a person’s intuition then it may be wise to follow what they recommend, but that trust needs to be really genuine, which could happen if you can naturally sense the integrity and awareness in that person’s system.
That’s all for now. I hope things are deepening for you,
Love,
Daisy
Hello,
How are you? I hope this email finds you well.
Is anyone doing The Art of Meditation with Adyashanti at the moment? It is going beautifully I must say.
It has taken me a while to write this time due to a deep pull into Embodiment. Part of this draw (which looks human and messy by the way, not a ‘nice’ spiritualised ideal) has revealed the realisation that I will not be continuing with psychotherapy. Although I love the way in which my rigorous training moves now in my healing work with you, and although I will be continuing with Equine Assisted Therapy which is pure joy, working as a therapist is not for me.
I went through a natural process to get to this life changing conclusion, which I want to share with you, so that you can be empowered by it in your own choice making processes. As you know, there are conditionings in us which are so powerful that they can take years to work through and which dictate much of our lives as they are now. So, how do we become clear in the midst of all that sticky, forceful and destructive stuff when making an important decision? This is where intuition goes from being a ‘nice-to-have’ add-on that makes life more interesting, to being the place from which you live your life, simply because it is the expressive aspect of Truth itself.
To share some of my process with this: I had become convinced that I had to do an MA in psychotherapy and believed that this movement was coming from Truth itself. So I set about visiting universities and making applications etc. Before sleeping one night, I did the 300 Names (an Amma practice) in bed, as I sometimes do. At 5 30am I woke up bolt upright, with the sudden sense “What am I doing? I am not doing an MA!” At the time I decided to shelve this, thinking I couldn’t be clear in the space I was in at that moment. In the morning, I went to the forest (Highgate Woods) and sat for many hours in deep contemplation and meditation about the MA. I repeated this in my bedroom a couple more times in the proceeding days. Each time, I received the same clear answers. The key was that I had to wait…..
Here is my suggested way:-
First, contact Truth within very deeply and stay there (I suggest meditation for this). Then ask a very specific question towards whatever you sense as that Divine (Truth) within, whether that be Amma, true Self, a deity etc. And then, wait……. Don’t go for that reflex which wants to grab your attention and is pulling at you. The Truth never needs to pull, and doesn’t actually move at all. Listen, sense and be open for what doesn’t move. Let the true answer reveal itself in that place, in it’s own time and by it’s own terms. Adyashanti has called this “the knowing which arises from not knowing”. Patience, humility and courage are important here. In this way, you touch what is you and simultaneously beyond you. It is the impersonal becoming the personal, and is also free from both of these definitive boxes.
Another observation, which may be of use to those of you who experienced trauma of any kind in your infancy and early years, is that what is called dissociation in psychotherapy is on the other levels of us a deep energetic twist in the heart. It is where the child has twisted to get away from something unbearable (abandonment, violence, sexual invasion or any other kind of abuse trauma). This twist then ripples into the pericardium muscle fascia and pulls on the nerves in the neck, sometimes causing burning and pain, and also often interferes with the ears and hearing. So problems can be present in any or all of these areas, though the root is emotional-karmic-genetic. Once I had deepened into the emotional pain behind the dissociative patterning in me one day (triggered by the upcoming ending after 3 years with my therapist), and cried a lot, I could actually hear far more clearly the next day and my neck was totally relaxed and opened. Auspiciously, I happened to have a cranial sacral session booked with a friend that day, which further helped 🙂
Last but not least, do you or anyone you know want to go on a transformational yoga retreat? If so, I can highly recommend one here: http://www.thepracticesoffreedomandwellbeing.com
Bye for now,
Love,
Daisy
Hello 🙂
This weekend and last week I was lucky enough to have the opportunity to re-take the Vortex Healing classes Sensing and Advanced Sensing, with Anthony Gorman. I want to share with you some of what I discovered, in order to illustrate what you may be able to experience through taking classes in this amazing healing art, and also to share some of my journey since I am the person in service to your unfoldment when you have sessions with me.
Here is what I wrote in my notes on day 1 of Advanced Sensing:-
It’s only ever a question of awareness…….. There is no need to leave Truth, ever, full stop. In that sense, it is a choice. Do I want to be what I am, do I want to be as reality is – what reality is? Or do I want to be in illusion, trying to make things better (or worse), trying to get better, become something else, something different, something new? Is there something different, something new, other than this awake alive free fall that remains, despite all our attempts to distort and prevent it (because of our conditioning)?
It gives credence to Anthony’s reminder to us that this new and updated class is really assisting a very deep embodiment of whatever level of awakening has happened in each student. Also, and importantly, the Vortex Healing way of sensing is to sense from and as Awareness itself. This makes it different from most other kinds of healing modalities and sensing methods etc., which are often in reality accessing collected memory, on many different levels. In one way, that common technique is fine because one sees the story of a situation. But in another way, it could be seen as feeding the ego because it is not sensing the Truth of the situation, which would actually create more growth for the receiver.
Put in another way, Vortex Healing sensing is not about improving our ability to have experiences and see more ‘things’ – angels etc. It’s about awakeness waking up to itself in this moment, and from that the truth of the situation has space to arise.
Our looking for Sensing/Divinity/Love etc. makes us blind, because we’re coming from a perspective that is distorted by lack etc. – by deep conditioning. This new way is really about sensing without looking for anything. Sensing is on a need-to-know basis. We don’t sense what we don’t need to know. That’s why we often can’t see/get things we ‘want’, because that want point of view is coming from lack, or some other conditioning. We sense what we need to sense in that moment. As frustrating and sometimes terrifying as that is for the ego, that’s how it is.
To assist your own sensing ability, take what happened to me during lunch on the one-day Sensing class. This is an example of how simple all this really is and how helpful it can be:-
I was sitting in a busy restaurant with friends, trying to decide what to eat from the menu. My mind was telling me to have one dish and my body another. Usually, my story was that I should go with my body. But this time something else happened. When the waiter came, I ordered a different dish entirely, having no idea where this came from. In fact, I thought it was a dish I wouldn’t like, yet something – which wasn’t me – wanted to have it. So I went with that. The dish turned out to be so nourishing for my body and much better than anything the apparent me could have chosen. I also enjoyed it way more than I could have imagined. It was a laksa soup by the way, with chicken and coconut 😉
In this way, when you go with the Truth in any moment, because you have got to a point where you can feel that, the results are so much more deeply satisfying than anything your imagination could conjure up to tempt you with.
Are you aware that there is an Adyashanti online course starting very soon? It is called ‘The Art of Meditation’ and I am taking it, as are some of you I hear. I highly recommend these courses, even if (and perhaps especially if) you have never met Adya in person. Here is the link:-
http://www.adyashanti.org/index.php?file=specialeventsdetails6
Goodbye for now,
Love,
Daisy
Hello,
How are you? I hope this correspondence finds you well. I want to share with you a poem I wrote some time ago about longing for the Divine. Listening to Adyashanti on the bus just now reminded me of it.
Oh what of this mystery?
I turn in the night,
Towards Love, towards You.
Here without motion,
Bathed in such Light.
You, who I can never have
And who never leaves.
Trails of longing remain,
Like vines
Cut off at the root.
Can I speak to You
Without opposition,
Without two?
Your gentle ears listen
Without existing.
A secret Life
Comes in the night.
I have begun attending satsang every week at Villa Devi in Brockley, South London, on Thursday nights. This is bringing oneness more deeply into my living life and I wanted to invite any of you who would be interested in coming. We sing bhajans, chant the Guru Stotra (like the 1000 Names) and perform other kinds of prayers to Amma. Contact me if you would like the details.
If you have not yet done so but would like to, you can sign up to have Mother Meera’s darshan here in London in February:-
Also, if you have not yet signed up but would like to, there is a waiting list for Adyashanti’s retreat this August. I recommend getting onto it asap if you want the chance of a lifetime to be on retreat in silence and with a truly gifted awakened guide:-
https://www.adyashanti.org/index.php?file=retreatsdetails&eventid=1221
Last but not least I would like to share something Amma once said:-
“I haven’t come to teach anyone anything. I have come to remind you of a song you once knew, but have since forgotten” – Amma
She utters such nectar with every breath…I thank the day I met this person. The only person I can call teacher and mean it.
I hope you are enjoying your week,
Love,
Daisy
Hello,
Happy New Year 🙂
I want to talk about something while I am in this ‘place’ as it were. Do you know how it is when you follow your intuition, including speaking that, even though it takes so much courage and it goes against your conditioned reflexes?
When I do this, as I did today, it is as if there is an atmosphere which fills the whole room or space…and the truth leaves a wake, waves which carry on. Yet everything is totally still, silent in its essence, and real. It is as if I am touching the depth of life itself, right here in my bedroom. Nothing and everything exists within this, and there is no ‘outside’ or ‘inside’. Simultaneously, my body quivers with the felt sense of oneness – like rushes down my legs and down through my crown. Perhaps this is where the absolute and the humanness meet?
To give the ‘story’ part of this, I would have to share something which I know the person involved would not want me to share. It is not one of you, but it feels wrong to detail this. Sorry to be vague.
On a different note, you will be pleased to hear that I received this from Ric recently:-
“This morning there was an upgrade to the U-AP and a major upgrade to the Protocol. My sense is that you will be able, when working through the Protocol for issues, to move at least twice as much in the same time frame, and deeper. Happy New Year!” (Ric Weinman)
The difference is palpable, so do get in contact if you would like to experience it. That’s all for now, as I can’t write more from this silence at the moment. I look forward to hearing from you though 🙂
Love,
Daisy
Dec 14
Hello,
I hope you are all well in the run-up to Christmas. Christmas is often a difficult time for people, as well as a time of joy, and I wanted to acknowledge that because I don’t think it gets much press (for obvious reasons). I am available over this period for support. The only days I will not be available are 24th Dec – 26th Dec and the 31st Dec – 1st Jan.
On writing this newsletter, I have just finished my practices: the 1000 Names followed by the IAM Technique (please ask for more details if you wish). The sense of stillness, peace and unconditional Love is immense… I cannot recommend these highly enough. The discipline of any practice, though, done with openness of heart and regularity, brings you back to You. In the wintertime particularly, there exists this opportunity to flow into ourselves, deep within, to the Source, to the Light within darkness – the great deep midnight Light of awakeness.
I saw the most wonderful film last week, which you can find on Netflix. It is called ‘Awake’ and it documents the life of Paramahamsa Yogananda. The whole film is an amazing journey, and there was one part specifically which made a deep impression on me. It was when Yogananda was giving a speech in New York in the 1920s (around 15mins into the film) and he spoke about the centre of us being the spine; if you go in there, he said, “…you meet the Maker”. On hearing him speak these words, I spontaneously burst into tears and was pulled deep into my spine and into what he was speaking of, through the vehicle of emotional pain. I cried and cried and felt all this conditioning rush up my spine and out through my crown, while my sense-awareness naturally remained within the spine / gut area, expanding all the while, like a dissolution as Oneness. That was my experience of this great piece of filmmaking. If you watch it, I would love to hear about it.
I have been particularly struck by the sessions we have been doing together of late, and would like to share some of what you have said about them. After a session which cleared the issue of sorrow in one go, the receiver reported that she experienced the issue as being completely gone: she said that when she looked inside to find that place which had been there before, “there was nothing there – it was empty”. This is the joy of Vortex Healing®. It is amazing that it is able to get to issues deeply enough as to actually revive this natural experience. This doesn’t often happen in one session, but in this case it did.
In another session, I learned so much from my client. After talking awhile post-treatment, she said these simple yet profound words: “To surrender to the Divine is to not know”. It struck me right to my heart. Not only was it true for her, but it also pertained to current challenges in my own life. I felt these words coming from her real Self – not from something she had heard or rehearsed, but from that genuine place when innocence lives and thrives.
I have also had a few experiences where something takes over during a healing and I am no longer facilitating the healing at all – Divinity is simply pouring through as the natural expression of Life itself, faced with what needs to be transformed. That is something of deep personal significance to me, so I wanted to share it.
I also want to thank you for the deep compliments you have paid me in these past weeks. I won’t share what was said here, because it feels wrong, but you know who you are – thank you 🙂 I am not good at receiving these, but that doesn’t mean I don’t, and it is so very important for me to hear the good stuff, as well as the constructive criticisms you may have.
As always, these are just a few of the stories that have happened, and every single healing session is beautiful and deeply important.
Wishing you Love, Truth, whole-beingness,
Daisy
Hello 🙂
Yes, Amma will be with us shortly 🙂 It is a shorter program than usual, with only 2 days (the Devi Bhava being on that last day). Please call or text me if you have not yet met Amma and want to know more. Here are the practical details:-
http://www.amma.org.uk/ammas-tour.htm
As some of you know, I recently went to be with Amma in Paris (at the very last minute!) and then in Germany at the new M.A. Centre there. I returned late on the 25th Oct, but had caught the flu, which left me in bed or on the sofa for the best part of last week. This is why I have not written to you until now.
I suppose what I want to say about all my experiences up to now that could be helpful, is that all the fantasies I had about spiritual awakening are untrue. Being what I am and letting go into that is not some kind of get-out clause in my life (as much as I would like it to be), or a pinnacle of self-improvement. You may have heard this before, sure. But when you actually realise this experientially…it melts you. Melts you, and then you still have to pay the bills 😉 What I am saying is that if you really want the Truth, and that’s a big ‘if’, then don’t stuff everything there that you don’t want to deal with in your life, even though that is incredibly tempting. This is my experience anyway. If this touches anything in you and you would like to discuss it, please do call me. Otherwise, I hope to see you at Amma’s in London or in a session soon.
Much Love,
Daisy
Hello 🙂
I am off on my journeys tomorrow, beginning with the silent meditation retreat with Adyashanti.
After that, I am available for distance healing from the ashram with Amma and then from Virginia Beach for the Vortex Healing training, ‘Original Veil’. In all cases this will be by (limited) email arrangement and communication, due to circumstance rather than choice.
The time difference in Amma’s ashram is that I will be 4 & 1/2 hrs ahead of London. That is from the 28th Aug – 14th Sept (allowing for adjustment days). In Virginia Beach, I will be 5 hrs behind London. That is from 20th Sept – 3rd Oct. In the ashram my time is more flexible, in Virginia Beach I will be available after 6pm (or early mornings) local time.
Please do book as soon as possible, because email is limited while I am away. But if you can’t, then email me whenever you can. I am in service to you.
May the force be with you 🙂
Love,
Daisy
Hello 🙂
How are you? I hope you are enjoying the opening that the summer can bring. I want to write about something I don’t find easy to write about, but that I often get asked about. I hope you find it useful.
People often ask me about my experience of awakening. Firstly, I want to say that this is a wide term used for a variety of quite different things. From my point of view, I am talking about the ‘I’ in the heart completely dissolving and never coming back, and the subsequent living of life without separation. I am not talking about the full embodiment of that, nor am I describing ascension, the end of suffering or a spiritual vision, experience or insight, or about theories or philosophies of any kind. Many of those are lovely and I am as partial to them as the next person. Awakening, though, is sudden and unlike anything else. It comes in through the back door, as it were…when we are totally unprepared.
In Vortex Healing terminology, we call this the falling away of the Core Veil. In me, that happened in 2005 during a Vortex Healing class called ‘Heart, Freedom, Presence’. I have written about this on my website in the bio page. The interesting thing is that I am observing more and more that people are coming to me with a deep longing for awakening and I seem to be able to (as other practitioners of my level in Vortex are able to) work on that with them using the Grid tool, which you may have experienced me using with you in healing sessions. Last week, this happened in a session with a client who has recently completed the Omega level training in Vortex. The healing began and I was guided to work on her Core Veil using the Grid. Within seconds, I saw a piece of it move, completely falling away. This has happened before in sessions, but it never ceases to thrill and amaze me… I felt so privileged to be there and to be able, via Grace, to help facilitate this. Needless to say, the client felt the shift.
To relate all this to my own felt reality now, I can say that the oneness realised that day in 2005 is always here, but there are times at which it feels ‘brighter’ (for want of a better word) or ‘duller’ than at other times. When suffering has been great, I have lost all sense of oneness and yet it remains and that is realised in a profoundly deep way. As an example of the ‘brightening’, last Saturday, upon returning from facilitating equine assisted therapy in Surrey, I met a woman on the train who turned out to be a Catholic nun (she was in normal clothing). We shared our passion for Divinity in our diverse ways and how it shines at the heart of both of our lives. When this lady got off the train, she held my hand saying, “Daisy you have strengthened me”. For some reason, when I sat down again, I closed my eyes. I was taken into an extraordinarily deep sense of oneness…it was very beautiful indeed. I recognised the absolute permanence of this – that it is always here, but I do not always notice fully. I sat like this for the whole journey and could have done so for a lot longer, but had to get off the train. Some of the side effects were a deep and profound sense of peace and an in-loveness with everything, including the pavement and particularly the hand rail in the tube station! I felt compelled to stop and stroke the rail for some time. It was so full, of life and beauty and ecstasy… The brightening continued and then faded eventually. I realised that this was simply by believing thoughts. That’s really all it takes – just to believe one thought, and the whole conscious experience of awakeness / oneness can disappear, just as suddenly as it appeared before. It was Adyashanti who I first heard describe this part.
I have not heard anything about Adyashanti coming to London during his England trip this August, but his wife Mukti will give satsang. Here is the link:-
http://www.adyashanti.org/index.php?file=mukti_events&eventid=1222
Also, here is Ric’s (Vortex founder) book, which is like a beginners guide to Vortex Healing, but as a Vortex person of 14 years I am absolutely loving it! Really, really worthwhile:-
Finally, I am still here in London and available for healings.
During my time away, I will be available for distance healing. Again, the dates I will be away are: 16th Aug – 6th Oct.
Love and care,
Daisy
Hello 🙂
How are you? I was wondering if you have been having particularly intense dreams of late? I have, as have my friends. I was staying with a friend in a tent and she dreamt that she was going through some hell realms and terrible places where there were experiments being done on humans, even while they were still alive! Then Amma came into the dream and showed her that, yes, she would find Her [ie, God realisation] through even that place, but that it would be so much easier if she would surrender to Her.
Now for the practicalities.
There are still places on the waiting list for Adyashanti’s retreat in August in Surrey. I HIGHLY recommend this. In addition, almost everyone I know who has been on the waiting list in previous years has got onto the retreat. Here is the link: http://www.adyashanti.org/index.php?file=retreatsschedule
I have found a beautiful space to do healing from, but it won’t be available until October. I am currently offering to come to your home to do sessions, if you live in London (and not on the outskirts). So, for now, I will be able to offer you in-person healings in this manner. Skype sessions remain as normal if you live outside London, or if you prefer them, as some of you do.
I have decided to take 7 weeks off over the summer to answer the deepest calling within me. I will be away from the 16th Aug – 6th Oct. I will first be with Adyashanti (see above), then Amma in India and then Vortex Healing in America, for the class ‘Original Veil’. It is after this class that the sessions I do will take a huge leap in power and depth, because of what we will receive via transmission in class. The best news is, I will be offering distance healing during most of my time away. Sessions will be conducted via email (using the Global Healing Grid), as Skype will not be available due to very limited and public internet access.
Please do call me if any of this is unclear, or if you have any questions, or even simply want to share 🙂
Best wishes and warm heartfulness,
Daisy
Hello 🙂
You now have my increased time and attention, you will be pleased to hear. I have spent the past 3 years taken over by the BA(Hons) in Counselling, but now…it is over! I got a 2:1! Very pleased 🙂
My other work remains – the Equine Assisted Therapy, the voluntary clinical placement in Hackney and the voluntary clinical placement in Tower Hamlets – but the end of the degree means I have something like 20 hours per week now available, that was previously consumed (on every level) by it.
So please do contact me if you would like healing work. I will also be looking for a suitable venue in the Camden area, so that I can do face-to-face sessions once more.
Looking forward, there are rumours that Adyashanti will do an evening in London come August 🙂 This is in addition to the silent retreat he is facilitating in Surrey from the 16th – 20th.
Also, on the 20th of this month there is a Vortex Healing class here in London, for anyone able to take – or repeat – the Omega level.
I hope you are all enjoying, or have enjoyed, some of this beautiful sunshine 🙂
Best wishes to you,
Daisy
Hello,
How are you? I wanted to say I have been thinking of you although I haven’t written for a long time. I am wondering how you are – how you are with the stillness and what is happening inside you?
I have just done several hours of meditation following a long sleep, both of which I have not made time for recently due to stress. It feels so good to return…
Perhaps I will say a little about what I feel meditation is, as sometimes it seems to be a rather misunderstood term. My experience of meditation is that I come home as what I really truly am in a given moment, or in many apparent moments which seem to be strung together. When I sit to meditate, I often use a guided meditation from Adyashanti (for example, from ‘The Way of Liberating Insight’ online course I am doing), or I may chant the Names to Amma, or I may just sit down, close my eyes and be still. Whatever the practice, to me meditation is what I am – simply that. Meditation is what I am. In a sense, I could say it is the act of being what I am (although that isn’t quite it). And what can happen within meditation is the slicing through, the piercing, of a deep conditioned pattern in a way that completely and radically dissolves that pattern. It may return, wounded, and yet it never can completely return once that kind of insight has taken place. Please do ask me to elaborate on this if you are interested.
What is your experience of meditation? I would love to hear your experiences.
This Monday I am taking the day off. I will not therefore be able to offer the usual Half Price Deal. I suppose I don’t feel it would be ethical to work when I am in the business of facilitating healing and I can feel that my bodymind needs to heal. I am thinking of you and wishing you Love and Truth in whatever you are involved in,
Take care,
Love,
Daisy
Hello,
I want to tell you about my upcoming Bank Holiday Deal 🙂
50% off Easter Monday 6th April = £40 per session
This applies also to pre-booked sessions.
Unusually, I am also available for sessions at normal prices the preceding Monday (30th March), as it is part of my Easter break from university,
Best wishes,
Daisy
Hello 🙂
How are you?
I have been working with Adyashanti’s book ‘The Way of Liberation’, looking more deeply into what it is that I really value in life. I decided to do one of his guided meditations to help, and in the wake of it a text exchange unfolded between my first girlfriend (who I met in secondary school) and I. She happens to be coming into awakening organically, not through spirituality. Perhaps it has been through suffering, or through her training in psychotherapy. Ultimately, there is no way of knowing. At any rate, she began speaking with me about her experiences about 2 years ago and I identified them immediately as the ‘I’ falling away in some way. I want to share some excerpts from our texts today with you and receive feedback about your own experiences, if you feel like sharing them.
Me: It was really good to see you on Friday…….I just want to reiterate something: I believe there is a way out of this for you. But I don’t think it is through psychotherapy. I’m being blunt because I want you to be helped. If you want Marlies and Claudia’s details, let me know, as that may be a good place to start……
R: …..I just feel very unsettled and desperately want some peace. It’s like I can’t live without deeply thinking about things at the moment and you get to the point where nothing means anything……
Me: Ultimately that no-thing is very true. You are touching upon the ultimate nature of yourself and of life I think. But it may be that your mind is suddenly interpreting that as something which is not true. Does that make sense?
R: Sure it does but then my head goes to whats the point of even getting out of bed then, meeting people, working… To know that but to keep going is what I’m struggling with. I would like to live mindlessly for a bit!
Me: It’s natural to feel like that. Me and all my friends who are interested in this have been through it. Essentially the will you were used to living from is gone, or at least a significant part is gone. Before you settle into your true origin point (which happens organically in its own time) and live from that, there is usually a period where the old ‘place’ is gone and you don’t know what is now motivating you. But there IS something living you. You just can’t taste it so strongly yet. Let everything go that wants to go. Holding on doesn’t work, I can certainly report that. So, may as well surrender 🙂 Just because nothing else functions now but that. Soon you will be lived by what you are, rather than trying to live for what you’re not. True freedom 🙂 xx
Also, I took part in a web satsang from Marlies Cocheret on Sat, which I highly recommend. And don’t worry – it is by donation 🙂 You can sign up at any time through this link for her newsletter: http://marliescocheret.us2.list-manage.com/subscribe?u=ac1ec34ebc0ed84c9abdb0045&id=48523f145f
And Mother Meera will be here in May 🙂 Details: http://mothermeera.org.uk/. Do let me know if you are unsure as to what she is/does.
I hope you are well,
Best wishes 🙂 🙂 🙂
Daisy
Hello,
Such a cool name for a class, I thought, why not make it the title of this email too? It was wonderful… Such deep embodiment. As I said to Ric, I felt like Amma was coming down and into my body – a thorough sense of stillness… And the words came, “It’s not my will, it’s Divine will”. That seemed to speak volumes for my whole life and all experiences. We are very very lucky to be part of this lineage.
Now, more importantly for you, what will you gain from me having done the class? Well, for one, you have one happier, healthier healer to hand 🙂 More than that, the sense of embodiment is deeper and that necessarily means that my ability to bridge the Vortex energies into you is stronger. We also learned about new techniques which may help you. They are as follows:-
Optimising the immune intelligence field (in the case of frequent infections)
Transforming the nervous system intelligence field (for burnt out/weak nervous system and associated problems)
For jobs with lots of sitting (which impacts the nervous system): optimising the spleen, stomach and nervous system energy pathways
For jobs with lots of mental activity (which locks the energy in the head): optimising the bladder, gall bladder and stomach energy pathways
For allergies: transforming the vibrational, immune and Jin Shin Intelligence fields
A super quick and one-off Chi boost: only 1 minute! – transforming the cellular consciousness of an organ to optimise the Chi there (which is usually being created by the organ itself, when it is fully healthy)
So, do contact me if you want to receive these life-enhancing healings. I am still fully in the after-class glow, so make the most of it if you can. I hope these words find you well and happy in whatever you are doing. My parting words are (well, they are Ric’s really :-): it truly is plenty to drop into stillness… In all and any dramas, you can simply drop into stillness. And I would add that, if only we trusted stillness more than we trust our minds and feelings, this world could be such a very different place.
Warm wishes and Amma excitement,
Daisy
Hello 🙂
Amma is coming to London on the 27th – 29th October. I highly recommend getting involved in seva (selfless service) while you are there. It is Amma’s primary teaching for self realisation and it helps you feel involved in what is going on, grounding you. Here is the link for information: http://www.amma.org.uk/ammas-tour.htm
I will be away doing the next Vortex Healing class – Breaking with the Past – from the 10th – 18th October, so please do call to book a session before that week.
I wanted to recount a story from my time on the ashram, as a way of showing how Amma notices every detail and certainly hears our intention, even when she is multi-tasking like a trojan! It was the day on which Amma feeds us prasad lunch (she blesses the plate of food and gives it to us, one by one). There were four lines going up to where she was handing out the plates and it was the usual ashram mayhem 🙂 I noticed a sign asking us to wait until some phrases of the Bhagavad Gita had been chanted before eating the food we were about to be given. I thought, “Maybe I’ll wait” (which I never usually do) and then I thought about how difficult that might be because I was hungry. So I concluded, “Let’s see what Amma does when I get up there”. A helper started asking us to come quickly to Amma and keep the lines moving. When I was close, I thought, “I wonder what I would do if Amma scolded me?” and then thought, “I would simply open my heart to her”. When I got very close, I could see that she was in a complete flow, handing each plate perfectly to each person, even though there were four lines of us. I reached out my hand, but Amma moved the plates around so I couldn’t take one! She was not looking at me and then she said in English, looking straight ahead, “Wait”. Finally, she handed me my plate. In one word, she had answered all of my thoughts. It didn’t feel like being told off, even though I was being: it felt like oneness flowing towards me, like a blessing, which is how friends have described their experiences of being scolded by Amma. I waited for the chanting of the Gita and for Amma to start eating and then I ate my lunch, in absolute amazement…
I leave you with this translated exerpt from a bhajan that we sang one evening, called ‘Oru Koccu Pulnambin’ (Bhajanamritam Vol III, pg 175):-
When the immeasurable time I seek to measure,
The ‘I’ fades away, ‘You’ and ‘all’ are erased.
If the ‘I’ is not, who is to know whom? A void absolute.
When the unfathomable ocean I seek to fathom,
I dissolve into the vast deep roaring brine together with my rod.
Ah! Then, there is no ‘me’ to swim ashore to tell its depth.
Warm wishes,
Daisy
Hello,
I once watched a film with the same title as this email. Have you seen it? It is about a monastery and is silent all the way through, with only environmental noises etc. happening here and there – a wonderful achievement in the film world I think. I love the name and it perhaps describes what I am about to enter into at Adyashanti’s first silent retreat in England. I know some of you will also be there 🙂 🙂 🙂
I can feel waves of silence almost like rushes through my system and there was a deep profundity during my meditation this morning. I feel so incredibly privileged to have this opportunity and be willing and able to take it.
So, it is goodbye from me for now. As you know, I will be going to be with Amma in India afterwards, where I will have some email access. I return on the 20th September. I will miss you,
With Love,
Daisy
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