Simply let everything be as it is…and there Freedom is
How are you?
I have been working with Adyashanti’s book ‘The Way of Liberation’, looking more deeply into what it is that I really value in life. I decided to do one of his guided meditations to help, and in the wake of it a text exchange unfolded between my first girlfriend (who I met in secondary school) and I. She happens to be coming into awakening organically, not through spirituality. Perhaps it has been through suffering, or through her training in psychotherapy. Ultimately, there is no way of knowing. At any rate, she began speaking with me about her experiences about 2 years ago and I identified them immediately as the ‘I’ falling away in some way. I want to share some excerpts from our texts today with you and receive feedback about your own experiences, if you feel like sharing them.
Me: It was really good to see you on Friday…….I just want to reiterate something: I believe there is a way out of this for you. But I don’t think it is through psychotherapy. I’m being blunt because I want you to be helped. If you want Marlies and Claudia’s details, let me know, as that may be a good place to start……
R: …..I just feel very unsettled and desperately want some peace. It’s like I can’t live without deeply thinking about things at the moment and you get to the point where nothing means anything……
Me: Ultimately that no-thing is very true. You are touching upon the ultimate nature of yourself and of life I think. But it may be that your mind is suddenly interpreting that as something which is not true. Does that make sense?
R: Sure it does but then my head goes to whats the point of even getting out of bed then, meeting people, working… To know that but to keep going is what I’m struggling with. I would like to live mindlessly for a bit!
Me: It’s natural to feel like that. Me and all my friends who are interested in this have been through it. Essentially the will you were used to living from is gone, or at least a significant part is gone. Before you settle into your true origin point (which happens organically in its own time) and live from that, there is usually a period where the old ‘place’ is gone and you don’t know what is now motivating you. But there IS something living you. You just can’t taste it so strongly yet. Let everything go that wants to go. Holding on doesn’t work, I can certainly report that. So, may as well surrender 🙂 Just because nothing else functions now but that. Soon you will be lived by what you are, rather than trying to live for what you’re not. True freedom 🙂 xx
Also, I took part in a web satsang from Marlies Cocheret on Sat, which I highly recommend. And don’t worry – it is by donation 🙂 You can sign up at any time through this link for her newsletter: http://marliescocheret.us2.list-manage.com/subscribe?u=ac1ec34ebc0ed84c9abdb0045&id=48523f145f
And Mother Meera will be here in May 🙂 Details: http://mothermeera.org.uk/. Do let me know if you are unsure as to what she is/does.
I hope you are well,
Best wishes 🙂 🙂 🙂