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Journey Into The Heart

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I am well and enjoying the build-up to my trip to be with Amma in India tomorrow 🙂 I will have to make this newsletter very brief and a little speedy I’m afraid.

I will be away from tomorrow 27th Nov – 22nd Dec. Please note that I will have limited digital access while on the ashram, but you can try me on WhatsApp, Messenger and email.

I would love to hear any stories about your experiences of Amma’s recent visit to Surrey if you would like to share them. I had an absolutely wicked time! Just loved it! And through our seva (selfless service) in the massage area, our team made £7000 for Amma’s charity ‘Embracing The World’ 🙂 In case you didn’t know (since it is a unique attribute, as far as I know) Amma’s entire organisation is run without anyone being paid. No money which comes in goes to any person within the organisation. All work is carried out voluntarily and for free, with people donating their valuable attention, effort and time to make all the incredible things which Embracing The World achieves possible. This means that everything generated can go directly to assist people living in poverty, orphaned, hit by natural disasters, homeless, in need of life-saving surgery – the list goes on and on. Particularly impressive is Amma’s work to empower women in India by giving them grants to start their own businesses, after learning that poverty is best alleviated through women generating income.

www.embracingtheworld.org

Some exciting events coming up:-

Bromley ashram will be opening some time in the New Year. We are all working hard to make this possible 🙂 When it is up and running there will be satsangs, talks and all kinds of activities going on there. It feels very special for Amma to have a centre in the UK at last, after decades of trying to find a place 🙂

I advise booking now for Adyashanti in London for a very rare satsang on the 16th Aug next year. See ‘Alternatives’ or ‘EventBrite’ sites. Adya is also doing retreats in both Holland and Woldingham (Surrey) just before this, and you can enter the waiting list for these here: www.adyashanti.org

There is a Foundational training in Vortex Healing® in London in February – see www.vortexhealing.com

Ok, I better finish packing! See you after the 22nd Dec, and enjoy yourselves 🙂

Lots of Love,

xDaisy

Amma Hits London Tomorrow! :-)

Hello 🙂

How are you? I am good 🙂 I have spent the day (like my other days off at the moment) helping to build the new ashram for Amma in Bromley. I love doing seva (selfless service)… 🙂 It honestly makes me happier than anything in the world. I have no idea why – lol! But I really love it. Soon the new place will be ready and will operate as the M.A. Centre for the UK, and as a community centre in between Embracing The World events.

Tomorrow Amma comes in person to Sandown Racecourse in Esher, Surrey. The final night is Friday and it’s the all-nighter. Here is all the information you need:-

www.amma.org.uk

If you haven’t yet met Amma, here is a documentary you may be interested in watching:-

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YsxZI0PBl_A&t=17s

I am still here until the 27th, when I fly to the ashram in India for 3 and a half weeks – so I will return from there on the 22nd December. Please book your sessions accordingly, as I will not be able to give sessions from the ashram this time. I will be available via WhatsApp, Messenger and email there though, but bear in mind it is rural India without Wifi, so contact will be sporadic.

If you come to Amma in Sandown this week, come and find me in the massage area where I should be for most of the 3 days. Much Love to you all 🙂

xDaisy

Amma in London :-) :-) :-)

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I want to share the exciting news that Amma is coming on the 14th – 16th (incl all night 16th) November! She is returning to Sandown Racecourse (Surrey) this year. If you would like a gentle Seva (service job) with good vibes, please come and help us in the massage area. You can either help on reception, or (if you are a qualified and insured masseur) by giving treatments. Even a couple of hours volunteering makes a huge difference to Amma’s program, and to her unique international humanitarian aid charity ‘Embracing The World’. Doing Seva (selfless service) also creates happiness within and fills you with Shakti (Divine Energy) 🙂 Here is the link for information on the venue, transport and how to get a free Darshan (hug) token etc.:-

www.amma.org.uk

People often tell me about ‘seeing signs’, or ask me what I think about this. Spending time with Amma in Holland recently gave me the chance to be in solitude for long periods of time, and in that space some wisdom came to me which I want to share with you. What hit me is that, truly,  when we see a ‘sign’, we are often simply seeing our conditioning reflected – as if in a mirror. What we see, especially the ‘bad’ stuff, is usually not truth, but merely ego playing. It is mind, and that tends to see what it wants to see (no matter how convincing things seem). Many times we are taking things to be truths which are really our own negative (or positive) fantasies. The very origin point of such conclusions about ourselves, life and others is missing the mark completely. True truth, which can come as instinct or intuition, although it doesn’t need to, isn’t like that. It is calm and without doubt, it is clear without being forced, and without forcing. It is usually rarer than all those ‘signs’ and mind-made things.

Amma’s Devi Bhava speech in Holland was very moving and, though I tried to write down a lot of it, I was too moved to be writing during much of it. Absorbing her wisdom ended up being quite consuming. There were a few things I got down, though, which I would like to share with you. Amma said that there is a big difference between our physical and mental health: our physical health depends on how much we move our body, whereas our mental health depends on how still we keep our mind. She also pointed out that when we pour out our sorrows to God, it is actually like a meditation – a quest to reach God. And I love Amma’s version of make-up: she said, “Let us colour our lips with words of truth.”

I will be returning to Amritapuri (Amma’s ashram in India) from the 27th Nov – 22nd Dec, and during that time I will be unavailable for sessions. However, you can contact me on WhatsApp, Messenger and email, where I will be available for any crises. So please get your sessions in before that period, or book for afterwards.

Love,

xDaisy

Devotion

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I am here in London, adjusting to the changes that my life brings, in this case the return from ashram life to city life. I don’t know if anyone remembers that seminal track by Goldie – ’Inner City Life’? That more-or-less encapsulates how it feels.

When sitting down to write about a living master, one faces a dilemma: the sense that the living presence of such a being, and the ‘experience’ (for want of a better word) of that, can never be confined to words or descriptions. It’s very hard to say anything about Amma. She both is and is not, she manifests as both form and formless in a continuous cascade. Perhaps the way in which my friends and I feel her in the most tangible way, is as Supreme Love: a Love that goes completely beyond anything imaginable, and which cuts through every vestige of the human ego, revealing the ultimate secret of this universe. If anyone is asking why I spend so much time with my spiritual teacher, this is why.

I wish I could give some kind of account of my stay with Amma in Amritapuri, but that really would just be words. You see, it’s a living thing with her. You don’t go about your day and then sit down and write your diary, and feel all good about what you’ve understood, and then go to sleep again. It’s not like that. The path with Amma is the path of action, of expression, of interaction and of an outpouring of a selflessness you had no idea was inside you, waiting to come out. This Love moves, this Silence transforms without leaving itself. This true way throws the human being into complete Mystery, not only once, but constantly. And miracles rain down upon everyone in that ashram like the monsoons. I’m aware that I sound like I’ve drunk the Kool-Aid – lol!

Those of you who have visited the ashram will know that one of the ways people deepen in their closeness with Amma and her teachings, is through sharing stories about her. I heard many extraordinary accounts while I was there this time. One never knows whether such stories are true, mythological or a version of a truth. To me, that is not ultimately the most important thing: for me, it is this unknown space…this Mystery, that such stories deepen me into which matters the most. One night, we met a new friend. As we got to know him over the course of our stay on the ashram (in saying ‘we’ and ‘our’, I am referring to Steve and I – yes, we are back together 🙂 🙂 :-)), this friend began to tell us the story of how he met Amma. The story begins before he was born. His father heard about Amma and took my friend’s sister to meet Her in Manchester in 1989. When they went for Darshan the father said to his daughter, “You are in the presence of God, you can ask anything you like.” The daughter told Amma that she wanted a little brother. Amma looked to the father and asked if he and his wife wanted another child. The father replied Yes, but that they could not, because his wife had gone through the menopause. Amma said Ok, and smiled at the daughter. A couple of months later, the mother began her periods again. Soon after this, she was pregnant. My friend was born in due course. Not long after the birth, Amma was due to visit England again. The father stayed at home with his new son (my friend), while the mother – who had never met Amma yet – and her daughter went to the program. As the mother fell into Amma’s arms for Darshan, Amma said to this woman – who she was meeting for the first time and had no information about – “Are you happy now that you have a son?” The mother burst into tears and surrendered. Hearing this story flooded me with energy rushes and goosebumps. I would never want to, or try to, prove whether it is true or not. I don’t know that. All I can say is that the sense of resonance throughout my entire being upon hearing it was overwhelming, and that the feeling of reality, realness, hitting-the-mark – whatever you want to call it – opened up within me in a profound way.

This actually leads me into something else I wanted to share with you. People often ask me about intuition, and feel that I have some expertise in this area. I don’t know about that, but I did discover something more about the whole thing when I was with Amma in the ashram. I hope that including this diary entry might assist you in your own journey with with your sense of intuition / instinct.

12/9/18

The answer came in Darshan today. There was no need to tune-in, check, ‘ask Amma inside’, or anything like that. When I was relaxed and open – simple, and in my being, one could say – I felt during Amma’s long embrace that [X]. It didn’t come mentally. It didn’t come through any kind of asking. It didn’t come in a big bang. It came through the feeling body. This relative truth came as a sort-of feeling, a kind-of sense, which ran like a river through my heart. So, yes, as [Y] reminded me that time: trust the truth that comes naturally, like a gift.”

That’s all for now. If you would like to book a session or talk about anything, please call, message or text me.

Much Love,

xDaisy

“The silent abyss beyond all knowing” ~ Adyashanti

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I am in the midst of a potent time in my life, between the retreat I have just completed with Adyashanti and the time I am about to spend with Amma. I feel such wonderment and gratitude about this. They are the only words I can find in this moment to express how I am feeling. I don’t know why my life is this way – so filled with Divine opportunities – and why it is not another way. I can only bow down before the Grace that brought this all here.

The way I feel from being on the 7 day silent meditation retreat with Adyashanti is that I have now put all my eggs in one basket – that of Silence. There is this abiding trust now in the wisdom of Silence itself. On the level of experience (as it could be called), the Silence has become the foreground. It is hard to give an explanation of what this means for anyone who is struggling to understand (which may be no one of course). But here is an excerpt from my diary on retreat, of a particular day when this started to open fully:-

“Something really beautiful began to happen during the Silent Sittings today. I could, and still can, see all the way through my thoughts. I experience that absolutely everything arising there is conditioning. Previously, I had been assigning Truth to many many things…… Now I see that none of this is Truth. The contraction deep in my belly when something comes up is not Truth – it is conditioning. It’s the same with the things people say to me, and what arises in me in reactivity – conditioning. None of this is Truth. I am finally free.

I don’t say this as a grand statement about enlightenment. I mean simply that I am free from the grip of my mind and my deep emotional conditioning, inasmuch as I see it for what it is. It is no longer fooling me. I see through it all in a clear way. I am free.

In a sense it could be said that in the meditations, I perceived what arose in the Silence and the Silence itself as distinct from one another. And perhaps this is why Silence is often likened to the unknown. Because it is that – Silence is unknown and unknowing everything.”

I have decided to take my upcoming time in India off work for self-care and to volunteer for Amma’s charity ‘Embracing the World’, in their efforts to care for those affected by the flooding in Kerala.

This means I will be unavailable from the 30th August to the 26th September.

I will have limited digital contact, so you are welcome to try me. But please be aware that I cannot give sessions during that time.

Wishing you love and freedom from the heart of Silence,

xDaisy

Manifesting Intention Review

Hello 🙂

How are you? This email is a little late in coming to you, but I have finally had the chance to gather my thoughts from the last Vortex Healing training – Manifesting Intention – which I completed at the end of May.

Before I get started on that, I want to remind you that I am fortunate enough to be attending a silent meditation retreat with Adyashanti from tomorrow until the 18th August. This means absolutely no digital contact during that time.

Another reminder, as not everyone realises yet, I have the venue in Barbican back on Wednesdays, for those of you who cannot (or prefer not to) be treated at home. Distance sessions continue as normal. I have decided to keep my price the same, rather than raising, having looked into it with the support of Amma and Merlin (the Divine Being at the heart of Vortex Healing).

So, what do we mean by ‘Manifesting Intention’? Firstly, it’s important to explain that this has nothing to do with the plethora of techniques about getting what you want. This has to do with alignment and rooting inside Divinity, and then meeting that as it manifests through creation. One way of thinking about it is that it’s the Divine getting what it wants: you being the Divine at the deepest level of what you are, but certainly not on the level of ego or I or mine / me. Manifesting Intention is not about manifesting ‘my will’. As a healer, the difference between this and everything else we have in Vortex Healing is that I am going directly to Divine Intention at the point that it arises in creation, and channelling from there. We now use the term ‘re-manifesting’ instead of ‘transforming’ or ‘clearing’, because to heal what is being healed we are actually helping to re-manifest the Divinity from inside what is off. Now, of course, the manifesting of Divine Intention is happening all the time through all of creation. The transmission I have from this class helps you to align more deeply with that. In this way, it’s a healing and an awakening and an embodiment aid all at the same time. Pretty mind-blowing!

In class, we talked a lot about kidney energy. You will have noticed that I focus a lot there in almost every session, and now I have a way of channelling compressed Jing and Chi energies into the kidneys using MI (Manifesting Intention). I learned more about why this part of the body – and its resonance throughout the rest of the body – is so important. The Chi of the kidneys governs hormones – that’s a huge chunk of your body’s systems – and the kidney energy holds the toned-ness and strength of the whole body.

We also discussed gut health. These days there is a lot of talk about micro-biome and it was interesting to get Ric Weinman’s (teacher of the class and holder of the Vortex Healing lineage) opinion about this. He made the point that it’s not just about what we are eating, even though that is important. He believes that the health of the gut is a reflection of the health of the entire system. It reveals where a person is mentally, emotionally, karmically, genetically etc. Also, certain kinds of probiotics can actually be unhelpful (for example some can even exacerbate candida), so it is a good idea to tune in with your body before buying a probiotic. I tend to do this with all supplements anyway – and yes, you can even do this through the screen when shopping on Amazon 🙂 Simply feel from your body – perhaps with eyes closed to make it easier to see / sense – and experience whether your body wants that particular product or not.

With skin problems, Ric advised examining the liver. Essentially, when the liver is not functioning well, then the body is forced to detox it’s shit through the skin. He said that the toxicity comes from karmic (past life), genetic, emotional and food / environmental / physical factors and lifestyle stress combined.

And we have made a breakthrough in clearing chronic viruses such as Herpes and Epstein-Barr with Manifesting Intention. It is now possible to knock out most of these, even the very tricky Herpes!

See you after the retreat 🙂

Love,

xDaisy

Stillness and Service

Hello,

How are you?

I am well. I wanted to let you know of two upcoming events which I am attending, to give you the chance to plan sessions if you want to:-

I will be on a silent meditation retreat with Adyashanti in England from the 11th – 18th August, and I am going to serve on Amma’s ashram in India from the 30th August – 26th September.

Much Love to you,

xDaisy

Amma: Compassion Visionary

Hello 🙂

How are you? I am very well indeed 🙂 I was hoping to write to you earlier, but it seems now is the time. First of all, just to let you know that I am back in London and working – so please do message or call my phone to book a session. Plus, I have the venue back. So it’s Wednesdays at Barbican. Some of you will appreciate this, as you either cannot have sessions in your home, or prefer not to. House calls, though, and distant sessions remain available.

Being with Amma on her west coast US Tour was phenomenal… If you have not yet had the chance to meet this fascinating visionary of Compassion, please do take the opportunity. Amma tours for around eight months of each year and the rest of the time is in her ashram in Kerala (India). So, if you are ever going abroad, check in with her websites to see if your paths cross. The dates for the London program at the moment look to be the 11th – 12th November at Sandown Race Course in Surrey (with the Devi Bhava all-nighter being on the 12th). Please do check nearer the time for the update on this, as it can change.

Amma is not just another teacher, another guru. We are talking about, without mincing words, the most exact embodiment of Divinity on the planet alive today. The benefits of spending time in Her physical presence simply cannot be quantified. Just a few examples of this are: experiencing the true nature of Unconditional Love, broadening learning on how to give and why it is so important, and awakening and embodiment. Not to mention engaging in the far-reaching humanitarian aid work Amma is doing, through Her global charity ‘Embracing the World’, and all its volunteers. Bear in mind that neither Amma, nor the Swamis or Swamini, nor any of her senior devotees, nor any of us are paid for the work we do. This is why her charity remains uniquely effective in delivering to its millions of recipients in India and all over the world.

Check out her charity:-

www.embracingtheworld.org

Her US Tour (still happening):-

www.amma.org

And her Indian site:-

www.amritapuri.org

Above, you will find all the information you need on meeting Amma and on her charitable activities. If you do not, please don’t hesitate to ask me.

I want to give you a little personal account of just a couple of the amazing things I experienced with Amma this time. The first is a diary entry from my working week in between having just taken the Vortex Healing® Manifesting Intention course and my time with Amma:-

25/5/18

I was in my bedroom contemplating this continuous drive towards God which I feel so pressingly within. All of a sudden, an alarm began to ring very loudly. I had never heard this particular alarm before and didn’t know where it was coming from. I searched the room. Finally, hidden behind furniture, I found this old dusty digital clock; clearly, it had been left untouched for months, maybe even years. Within the displayed time was 108. As I gazed at this in amazement, the numbers turned to 109, and the alarm clock stopped ringing.

As many of you know, 108 is a particularly auspicious number in Indian spirituality and we chant the 108 Names of the Divine Mother as part of Amma’s recommended sadhana (spiritual practices). A week and a half afterwards, it felt like this bolt-from-the-blue came to fruition while I was on Tour with Amma. I was in Seattle and had been up all night on Devi Bhava, being with Amma and doing seva (selfless service) with my friends. Here is an excerpt from what I wrote:-

4/6/18

After Darshan, I was given a seat right in front of Amma. I fell Silent, totally peaceful, content and happy. Eventually I was moved, but I lingered at the back of the stage. I was left untouched standing there for more than an hour – during which time I was totally transfixed by Amma. Watching Her, I deepened more and more into Silence.

Then, the man who plays the guitar beautifully began to play a solo during Swami Dayamrita’s bhajan set. It was so wonderful, it began to carry me… Suddenly, I was overcome and I began to cry. I felt everything and nothing, I felt union. The sense of union (for want of a better word – a word that doesn’t exist) was so deep…in a felt way, in a way that was choiceless and without an exit gate or any room for doubt. I felt relief and completion in a way that was total. I called out in my heart to Amma, “Thank you, thank you, thank you Amma. I can hardly believe that this is my life. Help me to Surrender – I want to Surender all of my life, everything, to You.” I was crying for a long time; every time I would look at Amma, it would start again. It had hit me – really, really hit me – what She is doing here. I felt overwhelmed at seeing the Reality of Her. That she chose this life she is living – that She has come to us to uplift us, in the most profound sense – the whole world, the whole of humanity. It’s hard to get it across in words, what I felt and perceived. I kept crying and silently calling out to Amma in my heart, “Thank you, thank you Amma – thank you Amma, thank you Amma.” The gratitude I felt was completely overwhelming. In between my tears and praying, I would simply watch Her giving Darshan, feeling this one-pointed longing / bridging into Divinity itself – like I was being fast-tracked to God. When my mind would occasionally start up again, Amma would turn and look at me, and my mind was stopped, and I would be returned into the Silence. It was as if She was showing me the utter beyond-ness of Divinity through this whole thing.

I would like to end with a quote directly from Amma. I hope you enjoy it. I recommend reading it out loud to yourself for full effect:-

“Compassion does not see the faults of others. It does not see the weaknesses of people. It makes no distinction between good and bad people. Compassion cannot draw a line between two countries, two faiths or two religions. Compassion has no ego; thus there is no fear, lust or passion. Compassion simply forgives and forgets. Compassion is like a passage. Everything passes through it. Nothing can stay there. Compassion is love expressed in all its fullness.”

❤️ Amma (Sri Mata Amritanandamayi Devi)

Love,

xDaisy

AMMA :-) :-) :-)

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I am happy and well, if tired, and now without the time to write you the email about the wonderful Manifesting Intention course which I had hoped to write. I leave to be with Amma early tomorrow morning. Many more of you wanted sessions than I had anticipated, so my time has been well spent giving these. Please bear with me on that email though; there is so much exciting stuff to share with you once I have the proper time to go through my notes.

I am thrilled about seeing my teacher! I will be with Her in Seattle, San Ramon and Los Angeles. I leave early tomorrow morning and return on the 19th June (morning). I will be engaged in seva (selfless service) while I am there and will have very limited digital access.

www.amma.org

I hope this email finds you well and enjoying life, and I very much look forward to seeing you after the 19th June.

Love,

xDaisy

Manifesting Intention

Hello 🙂

How are you? I am very well indeed, and writing to you from the airport lounge as I begin my epic journey of many parts back to London, from the Vortex Healing course in Virginia Beach which just ended.

I land late on the 24th, and am offering sessions from 25th to 31st May (before Amma for 2 weeks). Please WhatsApp, text or call to book for this period or for when I am back (19th June onwards).

The feeling of bliss and happiness is profound…really profound. If any of you are on the Vortex trajectory and thinking about stepping off, I strongly encourage you to persevere with courses. Awakening to Divinity (last one) and Manifesting Intention (this one) are hard to describe they are so good!! Just Wow……and very few words. I feel so grateful to the Divine, to Amma, to my Vortex family and to Ric, for facilitating this course. The sense of awakeness is ever deeper and deeper. That’s the most amazing thing. And this sense of happiness and bliss arising from within, regardless of situations, amazes me… Everything is so soft…

I could just hug and kiss everyone! Probably not advisable though, in an airport lounge.

I am so looking forward to sharing this new energy of Manifesting Intention with you 🙂 🙂 🙂  Must go for now, but simply wanted to connect with you all and share this…this – whatever this is, in some way. I will write some coherent stuff soon. There’s a lot of new and interesting information with this course.

Much Love,

xDaisy

Bank Holiday Deal :-)

Hello 🙂

This Monday I am offering my Bank Holiday Special : half price (£45) sessions! Please book soon as places are disappearing fast.

I am going to America to train in the next level of Vortex Healing, which is very exciting, and is  also a big jump up in skills. It is called Manifesting Intention 🙂 . I will be away from the:-

10th – 24th May inclusive

then back offering sessions for 1 week. Then I will be with Amma 🙂 🙂 🙂 – even more exciting! – from the:-

1st – 18th June inclusive

Apologies for not letting you know sooner, but I am especially busy with sessions at the moment. In both of these intensive training grounds, I will have very little opportunity for digital contact, except to arrange my trip as it unfolds. Therefore please make use of that week in between, or have sessions now, or alternatively book for after the 18th June.

Love,

xDaisy

Love

Hello 🙂

How are you? 

I want to write a little about my experiences with Mother Meera during her visit to London, happening now. I have been fortunate enough to have been seeing her for around 10 years. Please see this website if you would like to know more:-

https://mothermeera.org.uk/

As soon as I was seated in the hall yesterday, there was this return to the natural state. It’s not that easy to put into words, but suddenly meditation was happening with no meditator and without any effort to meditate. I could feel Silence pouring like liquid gold through my body, and now and then there were rushes of something like energy, as if my cells were coming alive after a deep sleep. This took over, and in that takeover, I returned to innocence. Each thought, story and emotion which arose was unresisted and simply seen for what it was, without indulgence. Again, there was no efforting – it all seemed to happen without me. I sat like this for a long time. 

When it was my turn to join the queue for the staring Darshan, a bhajan from Amma began to ‘play’ in the background of my awareness 🙂 When I was in front of Mother Meera with her hands on my head, my mind came to a complete stop, and even this bhajan stopped. As she looked into my eyes, I experienced total and utter oneness…which seemed to pour itself into infinity. Everything left me – all suffering, all concepts – all things left. As I rose and walked down the steps after this, a different bhajan from Amma began to ‘play’ lightly once again 🙂 I sat for a long time afterwards. When Mother Meera did her group staring Darshan at the end, I noticed such a shift in the energy in the entire room… Did anyone else feel that? It was wonderful to see some of you there 🙂 and hopefully you all got my email detailing this visit a while back?. 

After I left with friends to eat together, several remarkable things happened that day, which I simply cannot see as anything but Divine synchronicity and Grace 🙂 Firstly, on the way home strangers kept talking to me – and this is on the tube in London!! One mother began to talk to me about her son skateboarding – a big part of my history in this life 🙂 On the next leg of my journey, a woman began to offer everyone her chocolate biscuits – literally opening them up to strangers in the carriage. I felt such a love for people radiating from this action and from within this woman…so much so that I commented on it, and she knew that she had this gift. It actually turned out that she used to serve me fish’n’chips in the area where I lived many years ago! This got me thinking of one of my closest friends in the world (whom I had become estranged from) who lived in that area too. Later that evening – and I’m not joking! – that friend called me, completely out of the blue, to apologise and ask if we could be friends again. Incredible… And then that night, my Mum and I started laughing together spontaneously like children – like we used to when we were both younger. We couldn’t stop! And then we hugged and made up about a stupid fight we’d had. I could hardly take in all the Grace… 

It really couldn’t have come at a better time. These last two months have been so painful… First my uncle died suddenly, then I broke up with my fiancé and then there grew this rift (described above) between my close friend and I. The pain of breaking with Steve got so intense that I was crying almost continuously, with bone-crushing emotional agony. In facing this depth of pain and loss without running away from it, I eventually experienced self-effulgence for perhaps the first time on my own. In the end, I was forced into the Light within myself. My heart still overflows with love and passion for Steve… And yet, simultaneously, there is a deep intuitive clarity that we cannot be together at this time. It’s the weirdest thing ever in my life. If I were to go against this, I would be sacrificing my integrity, and I simply cannot do that anymore. Even for the love of my life. 

I would love to hear your experiences with or after Mother Meera, so please don’t hesitate to write to me about them. Or about anything else (as I have demonstrated here! I hope you will forgive my indulgence :-). I look forward to seeing you or working with you again soon.

So much Love 🙂 🙂 🙂 

xDaisy

Easter Special: Half-price Sessions :-)

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I am offering you my usual gift this Easter: half-price sessions * £45 * for distance healing via Skype / WhatsApp / phone this Good Friday and Easter Monday!

Looking forward to seeing you,

Much Love,

xDaisy

Foundational Training in Vortex Healing®: 20th March, London

Hello 🙂

 

I wanted to let you know about the upcoming training in Vortex Healing® with Anthony Gorman, here in London on the 20th March. It is a 5 day Foundational Training and open to everyone, also repeaters. I know that a few of you are booked onto the class already, which is exciting 🙂 It is one of the top 3 classes in the lineage in my opinion, along with Core Veil and Awakening to Divinity. Have a look here:-

 

https://vortexhealing.org/basictraining.htm

 

Please contact me by WhatsApp or other method if you have any questions about this class.

 

Love,

xDaisy

Earthshift!

Hello 🙂

How are you? I am well and feeling very inspired after attending the Vortex Healing Earthshift here in London yesterday 🙂 The What?? Ok, let me explain 😉

For more than 15 years now, the Vortex Healing teachers have been getting together privately and also during classes to effect change on the planet by channelling Divinity into aspects of both earth (Gaia) and human consciousness. Essentially what this means is clearing out the rare black magic, demonic and power-based energetic beings which attach themselves to humans with power issues, and then act through them in the world. I know this sounds a little far out! But bear with me. What the Vortex theory is suggesting is that there are forces behind everything we see in the world, influencing human beings, which can be affected in a positive way by Divinity, by prayer, by you and by me. Did you know, for example, that Saddam Hussein used to be controlled by one such being? Makes sense..? He was one of the people who the teachers helped (not to mention helping the rest of humanity) by clearing this being from his field. It feels true to me that there are both Light influences and dark influences at work in our universe: for example, there is Amma transforming the human heart everywhere she goes and then there was Hitler convincing people of preposterous ideas which led to the torture and death of many people. At the same time, it is important to remember that everything is One. Everything is the One. Healing done from this realisation is healing that is truly free and far more effective.

So, what is an Earthshift? An Earthshift is a Vortex Healing class in which 60 – 200 people or so get together to address a particular part of human and / or earth consciousness, to serve Divinity and to assist the awakening embodiment evolution of human consciousness and of this planet. It needs a lot of healers because we become the interfaces through which Divine energy can act and effect change (like a concentrated version of what we humans are every day – the sense organs of the Divine – either knowingly or unknowingly.) Yesterday what we did was to transform the focus of Violence within the human group psyche. It’s a little bit like the principal of a karma knot, as many of you have probably heard me talk about: the root gets removed and that creates an enormous amount of transformation. But it doesn’t mean that what the root created gets cleared immediately, meaning that it’s not the case that suddenly the whole world is at peace. In the vein of this principal, the group of us channelled Divine energy to clear the root of this Violence, and then we did a rubbish clear-up job while we were ‘there’. This included clearing the threads into each individual from the focal point of violence and following through with the teachers’ previous work to transform and clear black magic and demonic beings and energies. It was an incredibly powerful movement! It felt very dense on a physical and on an emotional level, as everything moved through us. The biggest shift I experienced was after the focal point of Violence itself cleared: there was a wonderful sense of clarity in the group field of humanity 🙂

I am currently in London giving sessions, so let me know if you would like to partake.

Love and care,

xDaisy

Joy

Hello 🙂

How are you? I am very well indeed. I feel the happiest I have ever felt in my life. Happiness comes and goes, so I’m not forcing meaning into this, but I must say it is a delight to feel this way 🙂 🙂 🙂

I apologise for not writing sooner. I have been doing a lot of Europe Tour with Amma. I have also been welcoming a new relationship into my life. Some of you have already met Steve 🙂 The deep significance of this relationship to me is hard to put into words accurately. Being single for 4 years beforehand, and fully exploring that, was really important for me. The few lovers I had during that time were meaningful and the wondrous solitude was needed and nourishing. Now to be in this awakening embodiment evolution with someone who wants the same thing, to be in love and to have so much in common on a human level, plus things which compliment in their differences, is a Grace I find hard to fathom.

So, Amma….! How was it for you? It was a huge and exciting joy to see many of you in Surrey and also in the other places I went to with Amma (Switzerland, the Netherlands and Valencia.) Thank you for visiting me in the massage area, those of you who could. I really don’t have words right now for the Amma experience from my point of view….. I think that may partly be because I just did the 108 Names, the 1000 Names and the IAM. No mind 🙂 All I can think of to say about how I feel for Amma is deeply in love, and deeply deeply grateful for what she has given me on this Tour.

The other good news is that I will now be living in London for the foreseeable future, so I will be available for sessions every day. Please text / WhatsApp / call to arrange (NB: I often have the Barbican venue available on Wednesdays).

Love, care and Silence,

xDaisy

Sessions in London :-)

Hello 🙂

How are you? I am well. Integrating the Awakening to Divinity Vortex Healing course I just took in America. Then it was my Birthday, hence why it has taken so long to write. I wanted to let you know that I will now be in London until December. Please make the most of this time to have sessions in person. I will have the venue in Barbican on Wednesdays. After December I will be in London 3 days per week as usual. Distance sessions are available at any time.

Obviously the most important thing to mention is that Amma will soon be with us! Please note that the program is being held in Surrey, so it is advisable to get accommodation.

Amma’s London Visit Dates: Friday 17 & Saturday 18 November

Sandown Park Racecourse, Esher KT10 9AJ

I was contemplating today, the role of self-judgement and judgement of others in locking conditioning more in place – because that’s what it does. In my experience, personally and professionally, everything is karmic – it’s all about cause and effect, actions which create consequences, usually stretching back beyond the place we can even see. This karma has a momentum, which is strong, and it will play out in some way – even if a being like Amma comes in and softens it greatly. So the best we can do is to release the energy of it and reduce it using any tools we have, wake up inside of it, and serve selflessly. There’s no point in getting dark about it and self-criticising, because that doesn’t help, and if anything this actually makes the experience of what’s happening worse. I hope this helps you with your process.

What I want to say initially about this Vortex course is that there is no sense of separation anymore. It’s incredible… For those of you who follow these kinds of things, it is the biggest shift since Core Veil, which for me was 12 years ago. It’s not that nothing has shifted in between, but the enormity of what has changed I could only compare to the Core Veil movement, yet it’s more total. As I was saying to a client today though, it’s not that everything’s perfect, it’s not ego-gratifying – which is what we all secretly continue to hope that awakening will be. At the same time, there is no separation. What a strange life life is living!

I will write properly once I am more integrated. Please do call or text if you would like an appointment – I would love to see you 🙂

Love,

xDaisy

Grace

Hello 🙂

How are you? I am very well. This past week, as I was walking across Victoria station and thanking the universe for orchestrating my journey from East Sussex perfectly, I uttered audibly, “It’s Grace.” Then it hit me – but everything is. Even after awakening there can be this tendency to think of Grace as coming from ‘outside’. As the realisation dawned on me, I saw that it’s not like that at all. There is no outside. Everything is Grace. The intensification of oneness that followed stopped me in my tracks (sorry London commuters!). The truth is, Grace isn’t ‘given to us’ when we’re good, because Grace is the very substance of everything. It’s what we are and what everything is, pre-existing whether we think we are good or bad in any moment.

I will be in London giving sessions Thursday (tomorrow) – Saturday, for the last time before America. Please call or text to book. Otherwise please feel free to book a distance session at any other time. As a reminder, I will be away in America for further training in Vortex Healing from the 11th – 23rd October (that’s next week). NB I will have very limited digital access at that time.

If, like me, you want to see Amma in Europe at a few places and haven’t booked or arranged things yet, do so soon because places are getting booked up and prices are rising. I am only just getting onto it now.

The Adyashanti retreat in Surrey next August is now open for registration. It’s 7 nights – a special treat nowadays 🙂 I highly recommend this silent meditation retreat, which I feel is second only to being with Amma in person. Here is the link (do it now if you want to, because they always get overbooked):-

https://www.adyashanti.org/index.php?file=retreatsdetails1&eventid=1366

I leave you with this from Marlies Myoku Cocheret, whose recent email moved me deeply:-

Please take a moment to realize that everything can drop at any moment. This body, this mind, this or that feeling or sensation – not in your time, but Her time. Where do you want to put your attention when the moment comes…..which is every moment?!”

~ Marlies Myoku Cocheret

Love,

xDaisy

As Deep As Peace

Hello 🙂

You are as deep as peace. Yes, you. I feel I want to share this truth, following the online meditation group I just did with Marlies Myoku Cocheret. If you would like to participate in this opportunity for Silence, check the calendar section of her website. The groups are by donation each Wednesday, at 6pm UK time.

http://www.marliescocheret.com

Something else I learned this week from this wonderful offering is that there is no difference in the Beingness here with eyes open or eyes closed. This may sound obvious, and I ‘knew’ it before, but I actually experienced and perceived it today. That is the difference between truth and fiction. It’s an incredible thing that this Being that we all are, this one thing, is here all the time and never goes anywhere. We run to many places searching for safety, but that is only a relative safety, meanwhile true safety does exist in one place. The discovery of this true safety is the end of fear, so much so that fear can still arise – is allowed to be what it is – within this deep vastness of the One, which could also be called Beingness or truth. And no one has to do anything to get to this recognition. I personally really enjoy meditation and all kinds of spiritual practices, yet no one factually needs to do that to see what they are, right now, in this moment. All that is required is seeing reality as it is, without allowing the Self to be fettered by objects ‘outside’ or ‘inside’ (objects meaning everything you can think of).

I would also like to share how much I am enjoying Rupert Spira, whom I went to see at Alternatives on Monday. Apologies for not telling you sooner, I didn’t remember that I was going until the day. Here is his website for more details (for example, an upcoming retreat on the 3rd December):-

http://www.non-duality.rupertspira.com

This coming week, I will be in London Monday – Wednesday inclusive (i.e., 25th – 27th September). Please call or text to book. At other times distance sessions are available.

A reminder of Amma’s visit on the 17th – 18th November (Devi Bhava – 18th night). Please note that AMMA IS NOT IN LONDON this year. She is in Esher, Surrey, at Sandown Race Course. You will do well to book accommodation, as the venue is not very easily accessible from London. See the following site for details:-

http://www.amma.org.uk

Enjoy your week,

Love,

xDaisy

Sessions in London: Saturday – Tuesday

Hello 🙂

How are you? I am well, and enjoying country life here in East Sussex. Children are playing in the background, out in the sun, and I feel such peace in my heart. I really don’t have much to report or offer in words today, but wanted to let you know that I will be in London Saturday – Tuesday. The sessions I have left are on Monday and Tuesday, at a home in Camberwell where I am house-sitting. Distance sessions are available at any other time.

Please note that I will be continuing training in Vortex Healing® in America from the 11th – 23rd October, at which time I will not be offering sessions and will have limited digital access of any kind.

I leave you with this, which a friend just sent me from Adyashanti:-

You do not need to be perfect to be whole, you do not need to be worthy to be complete…

You are not here to be perfect. No one is perfect. You are here to love, and to love well.  ~ Adyashanti

Love,

xDaisy

Love

Hello 🙂

How are you? I am well 🙂 enjoying swimming in the sea, doing Acro Yoga in the countryside and giving distance sessions 🙂 I will be in London giving sessions Fri – Sun inclusive, so please call / text to book. Otherwise distance healing is always available 🙂

I finally have the time and space to reflect on the US Summer Tour with Amma, which I did half of this year, freestyling from San Ramon (in Northern California) to Dallas, Texas. I must say that this was the best time I have ever had with Amma… I had previously thought that my ‘Amma heydays’ had passed (during my first Summer tour in 2002, and on staff last year), but with Amma life just gets better! I think that’s almost like reflected light bouncing off the reality that the awakening embodiment evolution we are inside of can always go deeper. I want to share with you an excerpt from my diary. This part I wrote in San Ramon, stop 1 of 4:-

‘It’s another day in paradise here. And the Silence is palpable. It sings from the birds, dances across this lake, dawns within, shining outward like a sun.

Last night I had Darshan with Amma. I prayed in the queue several times, and the power of that prayer made me fall asleep, so that the helpers kept needing to wake me up. The unconsciousness in me wanted to drag me down and numb me out. My prayer was this: “I realise now that my longing for ‘x person’ is truly my longing for Divinity. Please remove any and everything within which says otherwise, believes otherwise, feels otherwise and is otherwise.”

When it came to the person in front of me, Amma did something she had never done in the 16 years I have been with her. As that person’s Darshan was ending – before, even – Amma reached out her hand and took mine. She then literally pulled me into her lap. It was as if she was saying, “Take my hand – I will show you how to do this.” And even deeper than that, I felt a direct pulling into Divinity. I let go in her arms. She had heard my silent prayer and answered it.’

This part I wrote after my final stop in Texas, during a layover in Calgary, Canada:-

‘Although what I’ve learned is way beyond words, I’m going to attempt to sum it up.

1) I experience a Love now that is a Love beyond love… It is deeper and clearer than any other love in my life. And everything, everything, can be done through this Love. Through and as this Love. I don’t have to go into analysing, into ‘hard truth’ or into separation of any kind. Those who told me to love someone less (basically) were never right, and deep down I knew that they weren’t. That way was wrong for me – I needed something higher. And that’s what Amma has revealed to me on this tour. From this True Love, everything can be accomplished. All barriers can melt. All pain can be healed, and all fear. Being honest and clear about what I really love, which is also what I really want, allows everything… I’m no longer confused – I see what’s real. And it’s so, so beautiful…

2) Amma is, and has always been, my teacher. She reveals everything to me, in time. It’s a flow…

3) Slow down. Slow down. Slow down.

4) Go beyond. When I get caught in the victim, in misery, in despair – simply go beyond. There is literally no value in wallowing there. Perhaps do some seva, do sadhana, do sports – it could be anything really. But dwelling doesn’t help, and it isn’t loving or valuable.’

It’s interesting to re-read these expressions and to see how differently things have played out back here at home than I thought they would at that time. It’s been way more challenging than I could have expected. The direct presence of a True Master is a precious thing. Back in ‘the world’ I find it harder to live out what I know. On one hand it is happening anyway, because it is the truth. But worldly life is far more messy and gritty than we bargain for when we are with the master. If we don’t follow through on what we know to be true though, on that deep discovery (or perhaps recovery is a better word), then the time on ‘retreat’ was essentially of little value. It is a high challenge to be what we really are in the world rather than in the ashram / monastery. It is not the path for everyone, yet it is my path, and I think for many of you also.

In case you don’t have these, here are the dates for Amma’s Europe Tour:-

http://www.amma-europe.org/ammas-tour.html

Enjoy your week 🙂

Love,

xDaisy

Wed – Fri: Sessions in London

Hello 🙂

 

I will make this quick, since internet problems are persistent and ongoing (hence the seemingly last minute nature of this communication.) Citydwellers cannot imagine! 😉

 

Would you like a session? If so, I will be in London Wed – Fri, or there is the option of distance sessions on other days. Please call or text, due to internet fiasco: 07931 536 700.

 

My friend showed me this just now, and I thought how perfect it is to pass on to you:-

 

“Make no mistake about it – enlightenment is a destructive process. It has nothing to do with becoming better or being happier. Enlightenment is the crumbling away of untruth. It’s seeing through the facade of pretence. It’s the complete eradication of everything we imagined to be true.”

 

  ~ Adyashanti, from ‘The End of Your World’

 

Looking forward to seeing you soon,

Love,

xDaisy

Outside of Mind

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I would like to share a poem I wrote this morning after sadhana, and inspired ever more by this deep practice (of the 1000 Names and the IAM technique from Amma).

What a violent thing

To bring mind in here!

To this sacred place,

This holy Silence.

 

Outside of mind

Lies all things,

And all non-things.

Your cascading lights

Cannot fool me anymore,

For I have found something

Here, exquisite.

 

In these long halls

Of Silence upon Silence,

I meet the innermost –

The maker –

The original Spark.

 

Yet She is so Silent…

So nothing,

And so everything.

 

No song-and-dance fanfare.

Simply Silence gazing,

Just gazing.

She sees it all –

Sips it all in,

And rests.

 

It is some miracle that this poem came out from me, considering that I am still in that heartbreak which I wrote to you about in February. Really it has been going on since January. The blood and the guts of this particular heartbreak are hellish. But I am ever grateful to my friends for their support, and similarly to Amma, Adyashanti, Vortex Healing and my healers. What to do? We are all in the same boat going down the stream, playing out our karma. Yet, paradoxically, this is happening right in the middle of an all-encompassing awakening embodiment evolution.

My friend Alexandra Stone was kind enough to interview me for her website, please have a look:-

http://www.alexandrastone.studio/blog/

And finally, I want to thank those of you who have been giving me such rich and powerful feedback on the sessions. When you are self-employed, the only way you really know you are doing a good job is when clients or teachers tell you so. My heartfelt thanks for bringing smiles and tears of joy to me 🙂

I have a couple of spaces left in London Sat & Sun. Also, let me know if Wed – Fri might suit you (as that is possibly when I will next be in London). In the meantime, please contact me for distance healing.

Much Love and gratitude,

xDaisy

Sessions in London: Fri (tomorrow) – Mon

Hello 🙂

I am now living in Ditchling temporarily, in a beautiful healing home full of yoga, Vortex and of course Amma, with friends 🙂 It’s stunning here… I can’t get over how lucky I am to have space, time and fire for embodiment, sadhana, self-healing and all the other things I love in life.

This is a short reminder that I will be in London this Fri – Mon inclusive. The spaces I have left are on Sunday and Monday, so please message me on WhatsApp or FB to book (or call me there / Skype.) Phone reception is terrible here, so internet is best for now. Or feel free to book a distant session on any other day.

Amma’s visit to London has been arranged now, thanks to the hard work of volunteers. She will be with us Friday 17th and Saturday 18th November (that’s the Devi Bhava) at Sandown Park Race Course. I will update you with details as they come in (they are not yet on the site).

I hope to see you in Londinium 🙂

Love,

xDaisy

London Sessions: Fri – Mon inclusive

Hello 🙂

How are you? I am well; missing you all actually, and hoping that you are getting on well. I will be in London offering sessions from Fri – Mon inclusive, so please call or text if you would like one. Internet, and even my T Mobile network (essentially all virtual communication methods) are still poor here in Rodmell village. BT are slowly fixing the problem. Hence why I cannot write as much to you as I would like, nor answer you as promptly as I would prefer. However, when it comes to distance sessions, everything works. Make of that what you will 🙂

I want to share the most beautiful passage from Adyashanti. We read it out loud in our Adyashanti group and it drew tears. I really haven’t ever met another person who can communicate through words what it is truly like to wake up and embody that awakening, in such an open, accurate and rich way. I suggest reading this very slowly:-

       “This inner revolution is the awakening of an intelligence not born of the mind but of an inner silence of mind, which alone has the ability to uproot all of the old structures of one’s consciousness. Unless these structures are uprooted, there will be no creative thought, action, or response. Unless there is an inner revolution, nothing new and fresh can flower. Only the old, the repetitious, the conditioned, will flower in the absence of this revolution. But our potential lies beyond the known, beyond the structures of the past, beyond anything that humanity has established. Our potential is something that can flower only when we are no longer caught within the influence and limitations of the known. Beyond the realm of the mind, beyond the limitations of humanity’s conditioned consciousness, lies that which can be called the sacred. And it is from the sacred that a new and fluid consciousness is born that wipes away the old and brings to life the flowering of a living and undivided expression of being. Such an expression is neither personal nor impersonal, neither spiritual nor worldly, but rather the flow and flowering of existence beyond all notions of self.

         So let us understand that Reality transcends all of our notions about Reality. Reality is neither Christian, Hindu, Jewish, Advaita Vedanta, nor Buddhist. It is neither dualistic nor non-dualistic, neither spiritual nor nonspiritual. We should come to know that there is more Reality and sacredness in a blade of grass than in all of our thoughts and ideas about Reality. When we perceive from an undivided consciousness, we will find the sacred in every expression of life. We will find it in our teacup, in the fall breeze, in the brushing of our teeth, in each and every moment of living and dying. Therefore we must leave the entire collection of conditioned thought behind and let ourselves be led by the inner thread of silence and intuitive awareness, beyond where all paths end, to that place of sacredness where we go innocently or not at all, not once but continually.

         One must be willing to stand alone – in the unknown, with no reference to the known or the past or any of one’s conditioning. One must stand where no one has stood before in complete nakedness, innocence, and humility. One must stand in that dark light, in that groundless embrace, unwavering and true to the Reality beyond all self, not just for a moment but forever without end; for then that which is sacred, undivided, and whole is born within consciousness and begins to express itself. That expression is the salvation of the whole. It is the activity of an inward revolution brought down into time and space.”

~ Adyashanti, The Way of Liberation, pg 37

I will leave you to digest that. I would love your comments, if you have some.

Much Love,

xDaisy

London sessions: Mon – Wed

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I am well and enjoying life in Rodmell. I wanted to let you know that I am in London giving sessions this Monday – Wednesday (with Wed being at the Barbican venue). Please text or call to book.

Here is a poem I wrote yesterday:-

Re-emergence of Self,

My heart of hearts,

Like a feeling-sensation,

And deeper than a secret.

 

A coming up from underneath,

Smooth as marble,

My warm-like embers…

 

I melted away.

And all that is now,

Is Self.

Love,

xDaisy

Walking in the Footprints of the Divine

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I am well, and thoroughly enjoying life in Rodmell. I was reflecting the other day that life here, each step, is like walking in the footprints of the Divine. When I do sadhana, when I walk on the South Downs, when I see my friends…there’s this sense of the One in a very potent way. It actually feels a bit like being high all the time, no matter what is going on inside or outside. I think it must be the way that nature reflects ones own Divinity continuously, right into the bones of the body. Feeling happy, content and easy becomes normal. In a more specific example: whereas normally I see with my eyes closed (as with sessions), when I do the 1000 Names or the IAM in my bedroom, I see with my eyes open: there are bright white lines of energy everywhere – the natural energy of creation.

I had an insight during a session this week, which may help to illuminate how and why Vortex Healing works – a question many of you have asked me. As I was channelling into someone, all of a sudden I perceived that the energy was literally saturated with timeless presence…to the point that it even was that presence, and as I tracked it I could see that this was infusing the conditioned pattern within this person. Then it was that very ’embrace’ itself which dissolved the conditioning. At the time, there were no thoughts or reflections, only a sense of total oneness. But afterwards I began to reflect that (presumably) the reason for this kind of saturation process is that the energies we use in Vortex arise directly from Divinity; I don’t see how anything else could have that depth of effect on patterning. Another way to look at it is that presence takes conditioning out of time. The only way the conditioning seems real is because it is time-based – it is history, it is not presently occurring. So when that aspect of time is released by the presence-suffused energy, then the conditioning has no option but to collapse back into the timeless – into eternity – i.e., absolute presence.

I would also like to share my experience with Mother Meera on Tuesday morning. Did any of you get to see her? I know some of you have written to me about it. Others of you, please do write with your experiences as I’m always interested to read them. Every time I see this being it is very different to the last. What I experienced this time was more in the touch than in the eye gazing itself – i.e., the part where you kneel in front of Mother Meera and she touches your head. When this happened, what I felt was everything within and in my external life align into a single point. Suddenly everything was fulfilled and made sense, but without the mind being involved at all. I suppose that’s one reason why I still go to her: to re-perceive what is taking place through my bodymind as Divinity all the time, yet often going unnoticed. It is without destination or reason, yet it is the only thing that’s truly real.

I am planning to write to you about my sacred time with Amma, but it is still percolating. I would like to highlight one thing, though, which she kept on repeating: her request is that we all plant trees, and especially encourage children to do so. This is in order to preserve nature.

Next week I will be in London giving sessions on Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday. Please message or call me (preferably) if you would like one. Distance sessions are available sooner than that of course.

See you soon I hope,

Love,

xDaisy

Sessions still open in London until Tuesday

Hello 🙂

How are you? I am well, enjoying the flow of life. I am feeling particularly grateful for the shifts that have come with that deep 3 week immersion into Amma’s presence.

I wanted to let you know that I still have some spaces available on Sun afternoon, Mon morning and Tues afternoon in London (house visits). Do make the most of this, since I am not always able to come to London these days. And anyway – I am dying to see you and hear about your developments! Distance sessions are always on offer the rest of the time. Get those countryside vibes via Skype 🙂

Love,

xDaisy

Sessions In London: Saturday – Tuesday

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I had plans to write you an email of light and delight about my Amma trip, but after every spectacular Amma trip (as you may well know) there is a spectacular Amma comedown. Like everyone does, I thought I’d gotten away with it 😉 But it hit me upon waking this morning. One week isn’t bad though, it has to be said.

For the foreseeable future, I will be in London 3 / 4 days in a row per week (the journey is 3 hours door-to-door from Rodmell). If you reply to this email to let me know which day and time is ideal for you in general, then I will try my best to accommodate. I will next be in London from Sat – Tues. I would also like to encourage you to try distance sessions if you haven’t yet. Aside from there being something uniquely profound about this style of healing, it is also because I cannot come to London every day. Unsurprisingly, I am tired at this point, having lived in 5 different homes over the past 3 months, completed half of Amma’s Tour and continued to process a particularly painful personal life situation. Therefore, being able to be here in the depths of nature as much as possible is helping all of this immensely.

Mother Meera is in London during the coming week, so if you would like to meet / visit her, here is the link. I may be attending on Tues morning:-

http://mothermeera.org.uk/index.shtml

Here is what Wiki says about her, in case it’s your first time. I love her, yet I always like to peruse the non-hyped version:-

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mother_Meera

That’s all for now. Do keep me posted on you (best by message / call at the moment). Love,

xDaisy

London this week: Wed and Fri

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I am very happy here in Lewes. Yes, I have moved for the 4th time (temporarily) in 6 weeks. It’s such an adventure! Not that that was my intention, and of course there have been times of intense challenge. Yet now I feel the wonder and the grace of it all, and the felt sense of Divine Will in it is profound, really profound.

The slight issue I have at the moment is time – I am running out of it before I go to America. Already, most session times are booked this week. I may be able to squeeze in a couple more on Wednesday at Leila’s or on Friday making home visits. Other than that, distance healing is available, though again, this is limited due to current demand. However, I am only away for 3 weeks. As a reminder, that is from 30th May – 21st June.

I would like to share the following passage from Adyashanti’s book ‘Resurrecting Jesus: Embodying the Spirit of a Revolutionary Mystic’, which brought me to tears of inner implosion right there in the launderette.

“This is all about an internal journey, about your capacity to recognise divinity whenever and wherever you encounter it. It requires a certain sort of humility that allows you to peer beyond the world of appearances and touch upon that spark of the timeless radiance. Whether you understand it or can do anything with it doesn’t matter in the slightest; all that matters is your capacity to recognise that spark when you see it and to open yourself in humility to its redeeming Grace. This is the magic of Jesus’ life. This is the miracle that surpasses all the other miracles – the ability that Jesus has to mirror back divinity for those who are in his presence. This miracle is far superior to being able to walk on water or turn water into wine. It is the miracle of redemption, which awakens people to their own true nature.”  ~ Adyashanti

Love,

xDaisy

Bank Holiday Deal on Monday! Plus Wed, Fri and Sat in London

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I am well and happy 🙂 I am also facing some very strong challenges indeed in my housing situation here in Brighton. I want to share them, yet feel it is inappropriate to do so, certainly at this stage. But suffice to say that when the spiritual rubber really hits the road in human life, I am left feeling so glad and grateful that I have led the examined (rather than the unexamined) life, not least for all the tools this has given me to face such situations. In particular, Amma’s presence and Grace in my life is proving no less than a Godsend at the moment.

As a result of all this, I have only just fully woken up to the fact that it is Bank Holiday this Monday. The offer is on, of special half-price £45 sessions (via Skype) 🙂 So please call / text / email me if you would like to take advantage of this.

I will also be in the Barbican on Wednesday and doing home visits in London on part of Friday and part of Saturday. The rest of the time distance healing is available via Skype 🙂

Wishing you well,

Much Love,

xDaisy

Contemplation in the Sun

Hello 🙂

How are you?

First of all, I want to let you know that I will be in London on Wednesday this week in the Barbican. I need the rest of the week to sort out my housing situation in Brighton, which needs turning around within literally 7 days. Skype sessions are available though, of course.

I had one of those moments today, where I was between work (equine assisted therapy and a little job I do for a friend in London) and I stepped out into the sun in the garden where I was. I was immediately struck by the ordinary beauty of things. Simply the other buildings, the music from a party somewhere in the background, and the sky. Finally I could stop for a while, and I did. My mind began to chatter and then to fade, melting into my heart as often it does. It felt so good to feel, to be barefoot on the ground and to be able to loaf for an hour, with nothing to do! I felt so free… Silence pervaded completely. Eventually a thought came: What if I spent the rest of my life just being free? Something opened wider within, in this contemplation. I mean, what if any of us simply chose inner freedom, true peace, right now – and for every ‘now’ forever? I am well aware that this makes no sense in a way! But can you feel into what I’m saying? In other words, what if you, reading this right now, never ever left whatever realisation you have had about the true nature of what you are?

The next thought that came was, What would that take? I saw that it would require a willingness to relinquish all future plans. I also saw I would need to never leave what I know and to never believe or follow through on another thought / piece of negativity. It was humbling…to say the least.

Anyway, I wanted to share this exploration with you now, in hindsight, to see if you resonate with it or have perhaps had a similar kind of insight too? 🙂 Please do write with your comments on this.

Love,

xDaisy

London this week: today, Friday and Saturday

Hello,

How are you? A short note to say that for London sessions, today and Sat are now full this week. But there are a couple of spaces left on Friday. Distance sessions are always available of course, via Skype.

I also wanted to share this video with you. I never tire of Amma’s Swami Dayamrita. In particular it is his integrity, authenticity and humility which really touch me. They are rare qualities in people I have found. Let me know your feelings on this interview. Mine are very passionate!

SOULJOURNS – SWAMI DAYAMRITA, AMMA’S SENIOR DISCIPLE

SOULJOURNS – SWAMI DAYAMRITA, AMMA’S SENIOR DISCIPLE

Welcome to Souljourns and to the amazing story of a former atheist, a well educated man who came to know of Amma…

Much Love,

xDaisy

Easter Deal: Half Price on Friday & Monday :-)

Hello 🙂

I’m sorry about the short notice of this offer. I only just realised today that it is Easter this weekend. Therefore Good Friday and Easter Monday sessions are half price, £45, and will be done on Skype / phone only. This also applies to pre-booked sessions on those days.

I have a couple of spaces left this Thursday in London, so please let me know if you would like one.

Anyway, how are you?

I must say that I’m enjoying Brighton massively. The things I love the most are the sea, the beach, the South Downs and the people. They seem interested in celebrating life. There is perhaps more emphasis on sangha, friends, family, creativity, seva and sadhana. Then work is done to support lifestyle, rather than the other way round. I wish you were all here! In this sunshine, it is truly idyllic 🙂

Much Love,

xDaisy

Self No Other

Hello,

How are you? I have had to wittle this group down due to technicalities with Yahoo, so I hope no one I’ve knocked off feels left out. I am thinking of you all with a warm and surrendered heart and wondering where life is taking you… Please do write with your stories – they are always welcome 🙂

Thank you to those of you who responded to my last email; I feel your warmth and compassion. I know some of you have been concerned and wondering how I am, so I thought I’d fill you in a little and update you on this process, hopefully in a way that speaks to you and your process too. What I am going through in its deepest essence at the moment is heartbreak. I’m sure many of you have been through this too. So unexpected and so very deep, yet at least I know I have loved fully. I have heard some people say to me that they have never been in love before, even people who are quite a lot older than I am, and (perhaps) that is saddest of all.

The process has been that through fully embracing this heartbreak, as much as I am able in my fragile humanness, there is a continuing kind of breakdown breakthrough and entering into Divinity. I want to credit here my sadhana practice, Amma, Adyashanti and Vortex Healing and the engagement in these. There was also a sudden breakthrough during a group healing I was lucky enough to be part of – many thanks Chetana and Will Thornton. I was amazed at the turnaround and transformation after receiving this healing – almost like night and day – and the subsequent sense of completely withdrawing into the Self. Here is what I wrote about it in an email afterwards:-

“I just want to share that something has completely left me since this healing. Now I feel as if there is only the Self itself, and that’s all. It’s like nothingness, but not that empty feeling of emotional vacuum at all. It’s devoid of noise, there is only Silence. Grounded in Self now.”

In my diary I reflected further:-

“So this is it. It was always here. Right here… No wonder no one could give it to me. What this is could never be bought nor sold. ‘The peace which surpasses all understanding’, now I know You. Now I know You… You are this – are me. It’s not outside, it never was outside.”

When I arose the following morning, I knew I had to move home to Brighton. It’s funny because I have just remembered in writing this, that Eckhart Tolle once said one day he simply knew he had to move to North America. Moving as Self, it’s not a question of working things out. It’s letting go without end.

I will be coming to London every week to see you for sessions, so please don’t worry about that. I expect I will move around the beginning of April. Please do not hesitate to email or call me if you have any questions about this.

With Love in my heart,

xDaisy

The Invitation Of Suffering

Hello,

Happy Shivaratri! Today Shiva’s energy pours into creation, like the sword of Truth cutting through vines of illusion, the perfect day to let go of all remaining attachments the ‘me’ is clinging to. With the addition of the full lunar eclipse coming on Sunday, you may be feeling like doing nothing rather than planning / manifesting. If so, I would really encourage you to trust this instinct, drawing awareness inside into the heart of Life. This is a fantastic time to engage in that inner dive, via sadhana, chanting, bhajans, relaxation, quietness, or whatever you feel truly drawn to.

Before I engage in the subject of my email today, I would like to announce two pieces of good news. Firstly, my close friend who I described in earlier emails is now cancer-free! Upon discovering this information from doctors, she said, “This is a miracle”. Considering that her father died suddenly in the middle of her cancer treatment, and that initially the cancer was seen as potentially fatal, I am inclined to agree with this statement. The other news is that my friend Daniel has been made into a Vortex Healing teacher. I can’t think of anybody I would rather be in this position 🙂

Now, aside from these wonderful things, I have been in the midst of deep personal suffering since the beginning of the year, the likes of which I have rarely experienced in this lifetime. The process is a mixture of internal and external, becoming so excruciating that I was basically left with three directions in which to go with it: 1) into the victim, 2) into improving my life in an attempt to fight back against things or 3) into Truth and a total embrace of what is. Once the first two were seen through, I was left with no choice but to take the third option. The way this all looked in real terms by the way, was a bloody mess. Yet I came to realise gradually that the suffering, which I had always managed to bypass in some way in the past without seeing that that was what I was doing, wasn’t going anywhere – if anything it was getting worse. That was the moment at which I was finally, genuinely, willing to lose to Life. It was at once a recognition of which of ‘us’ (though ironically there was no experience of separation) was stronger – that Life itself was simply much more immense than any remaining sense of me, and also a feeling of being crushed into oblivion by my own conditioning, or by God – honestly, I don’t even know which it was – but whatever it was, it worked. What I mean by ‘it worked’ is that suffering itself became the invitation into freedom, Truth, God, Love. I took it, and I continuously now accept that invitation on a moment to moment to moment basis. The felt sense is like a huge weight has been lifted off my body and there is a simple and profound texture of oneness pervading everything in experience. I have had many ‘drops’ into this before, but this time there is a sense of permanence (if I can use that word), of a not-coming-and-going, but a resting of oneness in / as this form.

So to save you time and struggle, I suggest this as a practice for you too. Begin to notice the nature of your suffering now: is it really something which shouldn’t be there? Can you receive it fully right now?

Listen to your gut instinct. From there you will sense your true Yes and your true No, both to these questions and more importantly to the situations, people and choices in your life.

Love,

xDaisy

Dharma Love

Hello,

How are you? I am well, feeling fully in the love-stream-flow today.

I have been reflecting recently on what really heals people the most. I have to say it is Love. Sounds obvious, but let me be more specific. When asked what practices we should do when we are not with her, Amma said only one word: “Sangha”. This means community, gathering together in and as what we truly value. In addition to a satsang setting, such as the wonderful Villa Devi offering, this quality of life happens naturally within dharmic friendship. It’s a phrase Adyashanti uses to describe the kind of friendship between two people on an awakening path. Touching this kind of friendship is incredibly transformative… You bounce off one another in your deepest places, encouraging each other to grow and face life with laughter and passion and warmth. Without any effort at all, the world seems to widen and disappear as the oneness you both are when you are together.

So I really encourage this. Yes, have healings, yes, do sadhana (spiritual practices), but often overlooked as an intense spiritual practice is – Call your true friend, get together, open your hearts to one another. No healing can truly take place without this kind of love and depth and intimacy.

The other thing which has been on my mind to share with you, is the way in which shifts move in most people, and the sometimes resulting confusion of this. Let’s say you have a shift or an awakening. Really the description doesn’t matter because when something like this happens to you, it is beyond doubt and needs no external affirmation. Perhaps for a while, there is a deep and overriding felt sense of oneness, Truth, Divinity. And then, it may feel like this goes away. This is the point at which it is very easy for cynicism, doubt or confusion to take control. You may even tell yourself that nothing really happened. In actual fact, often what did happen was a permanent shift: what was there before, never actually returned. Yet the sense of this can feel distant.

In my perception and experience, what has normally happened is that the sense of oneness / transformation has become ‘normal’ – it’s integrated into the background, into the body. But it can feel like you’re back to square one and that you’ve ‘lost it’. The tendency, then, is to give up too easily, listening to cynicism, fear or doubt. The thing at this point, is to keep going, with an attitude of open receptivity. The reality of living awakening / Truth / Love / oneness / transformation / healing is that most people are not going to have an awakening / liberation / enlightenment along the lines of Amma, Ramana Maharshi, Adyashanti, Eckhart Tolle or Tony Parsons. Even though these beings are here inspiring us and showing the way in an absolutely crucial sense, I think it is misleading to believe that ‘my path’ will be the same as theirs. And this belief leads to a great deal of misunderstanding.

Your experience is your experience, and no teaching can get you out of it, no teaching can change what you are going to have to go through to satisfy that yearning for awakening / Divinity / transformation inside you. For most people, awakening embodiment evolution is a life-long thing. It’s really like that. It’s not something with a ‘final ending’, and it’s not something which happens in a flash and stays feeling like that forever. It simply doesn’t work like that, except for a tiny minority of people. And that minority is highly unlikely to be you. Awakening is a blood and guts thing and you have to get your hands dirty. So quit spiritually bypassing, throw yourself into the arms of Divinity, of the private Silence within you, of your friends and of your suffering. I say this equally to myself as I do to you!

Finally, here is a piece of writing I did on a Day Retreat with Chetana and Will in the Sussex countryside. I hope you enjoy it:-

Divinity Intended

I cannot speak…for talking this out is nothing at all anymore. This Silence bears witness to all of that and is also all of that. No need for words anymore. My silent spoken friend, awareness, finally stayed after his tea was drunk.

I saw what is true for me and accepted the somehow burden of it. This being done, You came in again. Then, the deeper revelation – the surrender……. No holding back this time. You showed me all, You revealed Yourself in the night, in the day, in the detail – all at once. That timeless moment – Now. All my burdens are laid down in You. All my heavy weighty blindness and my deafness to Your song is gone. Now I see it all. The game that I played – You knew my every move. You were always bathing it in that Light, yet only now can I see this.

What needs to happen, needs to happen. Yes, this is true. But what I failed to understand was the pitch perfect way this is all going. The sheerness of a thousand songs called out in Your name. It must be as it is and as it will be. You are the One, I am That. I found You again, and in the finding, I am no longer me. No longer isolated from You, my beautiful Muse, my all, my everything. I didn’t know that this way is the way. This precise way which you are unfolding… Divinity Intended. Not outside anymore, not happening to a me. Divinity Intended. A button unbuttoned and a comb combed. The jeans and the hair of Existence.

What has to happen…it’s unfolding, opening – at Its pace alone. Only Your rhythm exists. You lovemaker… It’s all happening now, and now, and now. There is no other; no other at all. This is Your game, and I feel no distance from You anymore. Somehow, I have not transferred this, not managed to translate this – the incredible depth of what is here.

Love,

xDaisy

Happy Solstice :-) :-) :-)

Hello 🙂

I simply want to wish you a Happy Solstice 🙂

Here is what Bjork expresses about it (attached). It’s from her album Biophilia. Wish I had more time to write!

I am away 24th – 27th Dec and 31st Dec – 1st Jan, but available apart from that.

Much Love,

xDaisy

All The Way Through

Hello 🙂

How are you? As some of you know, I am recovering from what has turned out to be kidney stones. I am back and available from tomorrow. I can’t believe how long it has been since I have written properly. I have been thinking of you and feeling you in my heart.

At the moment, I am going through something which has really changed my life and I need to share it with you briefly. One of my closest friends has been diagnosed with ovarian cancer, which could also have spread. I only found out very recently and I am still in some shock. This situation is like a bomb which has gone off in my life, and things will be different for me for some time, in various different ways. I can’t say much else on this, because I am still digesting it. My friend is my age, so it is unusual. Though from a Vortex point of view it becomes easier to understand. To recap on that, 95% of cancer is caused by suppressed grief fed by resentment. It is not the grief / loss that is the problem, but the suppression of that, which can kill. So please, do take note, and may this be an inspiration for you to persevere with your inner work.

I wanted to write to you about Amma and my experiences on Europe tour, but that feels wrong tonight. All I want to add is, please don’t stay away. Work is helping me and I look forward to seeing you very soon.

Here is a song which is healing me a lot at this time. It is by my friend Will (Chidanand) and I thought you might enjoy it too. What I like is that you can actually feel the real devotion, which I find unusual on the spiritual music scene:-

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OtECoyQTL8o

Love and best wishes to you all,

xDaisy

I am available for sessions

Hello,

Just a quick note to say that due to a change of plan, I am available for sessions until Thursday. I will then go to Milan and Munich for the end of Europe tour with Amma. I have use of Leila’s wonderful healing room in Barbican on Wednesday. Other days I can come to you.

Sorry I have had little time to write recently. Between the Amma tour and Vortex Healing training, I have not had enough time to do my experiences justice on paper. I look forward to being with you in person though,

Love,

xDaisy