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Where does happiness lie?

Hello 🙂

How are you?

It is possible to have been on a spiritual path or an awakening path for many years, yet still hold on to secret drives, particularly regarding happiness. Even though all of this can easily be spiritualised of course 😉 So, where does happiness really lie? I would love to receive your feelings and ideas about this, so please do write to me if you feel to.

I suppose the way this question got answered for me, wasn’t so much by asking the question and then analysing: it came in a different way. It was more a case of something which was there before, falling away – and noticing what was gone. One day, I went to Amma’s ashram in London to do seva. Before beginning the seva, there was a satsang (literally meaning, meeting in truth). I don’t know why on that day I had such a profound realisation, since I do many of those satsang practices every day, and have done for years. As I was chanting Archana (the 1000 Names of the Divine Mother), I was staring at Amma’s picture on the altar in front of us all. Suddenly something hit me like a flash : the source of happiness lies within me. It was quite a shock, and yet so evident and in a way, obvious, even though this whole thing was very subtle. Then a cascade of insights followed, such as the fact that happiness is never going to be found in a man, or in a partnership, in having a child, or in anything external. And also, I realised that the words ‘happiness is a choice’ (as Amma has said many times) are actually true. I realised that I am not “going to find it” in a relationship, I am not “going to find it” ‘one day’. Happiness is here, now! Happiness is already here, before I begin looking for it. On the level of thought, it was like, “Wow! Happiness is nowhere outside me.”

A reminder of timing and prices, as some people have not received these:-

All sessions are 1 & 1/4 hrs

In-person (in your home) = £100

Barbican venue (most Wednesdays) = £90

Distance healing (via WhatsApp, Skype etc.) = £75

I’d also like to inform you of some dates I will be away: I have very recently decided to visit Amma in Toronto, 12th – 22nd July. I will take that time off for sadhana (spiritual practices), self-care and seva (selfless service). Therefore please plan your sessions accordingly, and message me if you would like to book.

I hope this email finds you well and enjoying the warmth 🙂

Love,

xDaisy

The Power of Practice

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I am well. I have recently been contemplating the power of regular rooted spiritual practice. I suppose for me I could say that this is the most important part of my day. That is kind-of a hard thing to say, because for me now the whole of life is equally important, in all its apparent parts. Nevertheless, there is something about getting up in the morning and doing an intentional practice that really moves me. What is your experience with this? I would love to hear your feelings and experiences.

In my experience so far, at all ‘stages’ along the awakening embodiment evolution daily sadhana (spiritual practice) is deeply important, precious and so delightful! I often want to sing about it after doing it! Luckily this is welcome in my household, since my housemates are on a level 🙂 What I feel about sadhana is that it has an immense multitude of simultaneous benefits. It both provides a structure for the day and frees one from all ‘imposed’ structures. It brings joy to the heart and radiates joy out to others. It ignites the innate (and often suppressed) longing for Divinity, whilst satisfying it at the same time. It transforms sexual energy. Most of all, sadhana is an expression of rootedness in Divinity (which is within every being). And it aligns one with the Divine, so to speak, in ever deeper and more mysterious ways.

The way I approach the question of which kind of practice to do, is simply to do what I am truly drawn to in a natural and organic way. I think this is important because, first of all, we tend to do what we love. Secondly, we are only likely to continue in the rigorous discipline of a daily sadhana if we actually feel inspired by that practice in the first place. I am not a fan of imposed spiritual practices, or of doing what others do and hoping for the best.

Perhaps it is more about the passion and the open willingness which we bring to the practice, rather than what the practice itself is (within reason). And then that passion and that willingness (which are really the fire of awakeness inside us) eventually lead us to the next appropriate practice for us, or even to no practice at all, or directly into the ocean of Divinity which has always been right on our own doorstep. I would really love to hear of what you do, if you are drawn to a regular sadhana of any kind.

Ultimately, every one of our lives (so-called ‘spiritual’ or otherwise) is shaped by the extent to which we are rooted in reality / love / spirit / truth / divinity / mystery. And that is not confined to anything, or to dependency upon anything. Even upon sadhana. I am simply intending, here, to share my passionate enthusiasm for sadhana, and to illuminate a valuable way of assisting the rootedness in Divinity, which can sometimes seem elusive in daily life.

See you soon,

Love and Peace,

xDaisy

Bank Holiday Goodies :-)

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I am well, and continuing to adore and enjoy my time in my new houseshare in this beautifully green area of London 🙂

I want to let you know that I will be offering sessions this Bank Holiday Monday the 27th May for only £50 (distance healing, 1 hour sessions). Please text, call or message if you would like this 🙂

I read these words from Amma, which a friend had posted on Facebook recently, and they really moved me.

“There are many masters around the world who have attained the ultimate state. If they could do it, you too should be able to do it. Why have doubts? Try. Doubting is learned; you have learned to doubt. You have never learned to believe, to have faith. Doubt is your number one enemy. Faith is your best friend. Have faith and put forth effort. You will see the outcome.” ~  ❤️  Amma (Sri Mata Amritanandamayi Devi)

We have the tendency to think that there are very few masters who have truly realised the Self, and to want to give up easily on this birthright and this path. But, as Amma points out, this is not true; just as it is not true that it is too difficult for us. I think that for women in particular this can be a deep issue, which obscures the inherent awakeness. I really like this quote because of how orienting and opening it is. Read in a certain way, it directs the intent and perhaps the ego itself, even, to the Source.

I hope you enjoyed it and that you enjoy your evening. Looking forward to seeing you soon. Much Love,

xDaisy

Divinity Intended

Hello 🙂

How are you? I am very well and settling into my new home in South East London. Yes, I have moved 🙂 I had no idea what a real home with the most appropriate energies around you could do for a person… It really is amazing how different I feel about everything and how much freer I feel on a human level.

I would like to share with you this piece of writing I did about 3 years ago, which I uncovered during the move. I wrote it on a retreat, held by my friends Chetana and Will. I hope that perhaps it carries you somewhere:-

Divinity Intended

I cannot speak…for talking this out is nothing at all anymore. This Silence bears witness to all of that and is also all of that. No need for words anymore. My silent spoken friend, awareness, finally stayed after his tea was drunk.

I saw what is true for me and accepted the somehow burden of it. This being done, You came in again. Then, the deeper revelation – the surrender……. No holding back this time. You showed me all, You revealed Yourself in the night, in the day, in the detail – all at once. That timeless moment – Now. All my burdens are laid down in You. All my heavy weighty blindness and my deafness to Your song is gone. Now I see it all. The game that I played – You knew my every move. You were always bathing it in that Light, yet only now can I see this.

What needs to happen, needs to happen. Yes, this is true. But what I failed to understand was the pitch perfect way this is all going. The sheerness of a thousand songs called out in Your name. It must be as it is and as it will be. You are the One, I am That. I found You again, and in the finding, I am no longer me. No longer isolated from You, my beautiful Muse, my all, my everything. I didn’t know that this way is the way. This precise way which you are unfolding… Divinity Intended. Not outside anymore, not happening to a me. Divinity Intended. A button unbuttoned and a comb combed. The jeans and the hair of Existence.

What has to happen…it’s unfolding, opening – at Its pace alone. Only Your rhythm exists. You lovemaker… It’s all happening now, and now, and now. There is no other; no other at all. This is Your game, and I feel no distance from You anymore. Somehow, I have not transferred this, not managed to translate this – the incredible depth of what is here.

Upcoming events you may be interested in:-

Monthly Satsangs are now held at the MA Centre UK (Amma’s ashram in Bromley) 🙂 Please email vakeesyam@fastmail.fm 

Marlies Cocheret is offering a websang meditation group (by donation) each Wednesday, at 6pm (UK time): https://www.marliescocheret.com/

Tony Parsons is having his next Open Discussion in Hampstead on the 1st June:-

http://www.theopensecret.com/talks.html#london

My wonderful housemates are offering a concert at Alternatives (in Piccadilly) on the 3rd June. Please contact me re: tickets. They are actually upstairs singing as I write this 🙂 🙂 🙂 Here they are in action:-

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m88nld_V5aA

Rupert Spira is next appearing in London on the 7th June in Marylebone:-

https://non-duality.rupertspira.com/meet

And finally, if you would like to go on retreat with Adyashanti in England this August, you can still get on the waiting list (which many people end up getting onto retreat from, in my experience) : https://www.adyashanti.org/programs/in-person/retreats-detail/england-5-night-retreat-1449

 

I would like to remind you that sessions are now 1 & 1/4 hrs and are priced as so:-

Call-out (in your home) = £100

Barbican venue = £90

Distance healing = £75

Please make a note of these changes if you have not already done so. Please also note that the quickest and easiest way to get hold of me is via a message of some kind, or a phonecall.

Love to you and bye for now,

xDaisy

Earthshift and Deepening in Divinity

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I am well and finally getting the chance to sit down and write to you. At the end of my time with Amma in India, I actually went on an unplanned trip to Boston to do some advanced training in Vortex Healing, as some of you have heard.

The first class I took was the ‘Earthshift’. This type of Vortex class is a fantastic opportunity to work on the earth and on humanity’s consciousness as a whole. Ric (the founder of Vortex Healing and teacher of this class) had perceived a particular point of ‘choice’ in human history where the human race had moved into a type of Maliciousness / negativity / evil. He wanted our help as a group to release this karmic choice point (which had actually happened 200,000 years ago), thereby aligning humanity a little more closely with Love and Truth instead. The angelic realm was very involved in this. Amongst other extras, we also focussed our channelling power into humanity’s psyche and the individual karmic burdens which were part of this Maliciousness at the level of humanity as a whole.

The second class was one in which we melted into embodiment of another class I took a few years ago (you may remember, it was called ‘Awakening to Divinity’). This class was about resting in and as Divinity, utilising powerful group meditations and transmissions to assist this. There really isn’t much to say about that as you can imagine – lol! But what I can speak about are the new skills and insights I have to offer you in sessions, which also came from this training.

Ric discovered that the core emotional (karmic + genetic) position of human beings and also other species, is Loneliness. The Core Loneliness we feel deep down exacerbates the false sense of separation from Divinity, and in turn creates hunger for various things : power, status, security, sex, connection, love etc. etc. At the same time, the survival anxiety conditioning we carry fuels that hunger. So this core emotional position is very important to address and can have amazing results, which is why we even worked on Core Loneliness in the class itself.

Whereas before in session, the Divine was transmuting the point of choice (in terms of a particular issue) for you (i.e., the point in childhood where something happened, like a trauma, and you ‘chose’ to align with and continue a particular past-life theme), because of this class several other Choice Points can also now be released – including Genetic and BodyMind Choice Points.

Another amazing tool I have from this class is called Bio-Dynamic Flow. Receiving this work feels a bit like Cranial-Sacral or Jin Shin techniques. A variety of ‘flows’ and ‘tides’ that exist everywhere in creation are activated and directed to melt away places of rigidity and tension in the human body, and system as a whole. This Bio-Dynamic Flow moves in slow waves, akin to there being a ‘very long tide’ in Cranial work, if you like. Please note that this particular tool can only be used in person. The best description I have heard of it so far was from a client, who said, “It’s like relaxing at the level of atoms.”

I am changing the timing and fees of my work. Sessions are now 1 & 1/4 hrs:-

Call-out = £100

Barbican venue = £90

Distance healing = £75

Please make a note of these changes.

There are some upcoming events in London which you might be interested in:-

Mother Meera is giving her ‘staring Darshan’ near Preston Road (almost Wembley but not quite) on the 30th April and 1st May:-

https://mothermeera.org.uk/darshan-uk/

Br. Shubamrita (a senior disciple of Amma) is coming from the ashram in India to give a talk on ‘Overcoming Loneliness’ (no, the synchronicity has not been lost on me – lol!):-

Sat 4th May, 6pm – 9pm, Merton Arts Space, Wimbledon Library, Compton Road, London SW19 7QA

Rupert Spira is giving a talk at the Steiner venue in Marylebone on the 10th May:-

https://non-duality.rupertspira.com/meet

I hope you had a good Easter, and perhaps attended the wonderful Extinction Rebellion 🙂

Love,

xDaisy

India Sun Rising

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I received more replies to my last email than to any other email I have ever written. It is good to discover that authenticity and transparency are so valued in the world. Your responses were wise, insightful and heart-warming, and all that positive energy has done wonders for the healing process I am in. Having said that, this is the process of my lifetime, and I am still so deeply in it that it is too early to share about it just now. As I mentioned in the other email, I will be taking my time with Amma in Amritapuri to heal myself. But please know that I will be giving sessions again from the 10th April onwards.

Events you might like:-

On Saturday 23rd March, there are Bhajans and Satsang (including meditation and chanting) at Amma’s UK ashram in Bromley. Please arrive by 5 30pm: 40A Letchworth Drive, Bromley, BR2 9BE

On Saturday 31st March, there are Bhajans and Satsang (including meditation and chanting) at Amma’s UK ashram in Bromley. Please arrive by 10 30am: same address

On Friday 5th April, Rupert Spira will be giving a talk in Marylebone:-

https://non-duality.rupertspira.com/meet/2019/04/05/evening-meeting-at-rudolf-steiner-house-london

On Saturday the 6th April, Tony Parsons will be giving a talk in Hampstead:-

https://www.theopensecret.com/talks.html#london

I will be flying tomorrow. Take good care of yourselves while I am away, and please meditate 🙂 Amma always reminds us that meditation is more precious than gold, and that even a few moments spent in meditation are not a waste of time.

Much Love to you, I will miss you,

xDaisy

Fierce Grace

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I will get straight to the point today. I’m afraid I have some shocking and sad news which I want to share with you as a matter of transparency and authenticity. Within the last few weeks, Steve has ended our engagement and our relationship. I think we are both still in shock about this. The change is drastic, especially on a human life earth level. Knowing him as well as I do, I know that he would not have done this without good reasons, even though these reasons are only partially clear at the moment.

In facing and working through the extreme emotions and thoughts I am having, I am moving gradually into acceptance. Slowly, I am developing trust in what is happening. And when my intuition visits, it seems to be saying Yes to the ending of my partnership with Steve. I am left in astonishment at how unpredictable the dynamic aspect of Truth is.

As self-care, I have decided to take my upcoming time at the ashram in India with Amma (7th March – 8th April) to focus on healing myself. Before and after this period I am still working, so please don’t be shy about asking for sessions.

Love and best wishes to you,

xDaisy

Happy News :-)

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I would like to begin by sharing a portion of my diary with you, from the time I was recently at the ashram in India with Amma. Even though it is always hard to translate what being there is like, I hope you get a sense of it from this:-

5/12/18

[written retrospectively, after a few days] When Steve and I arrived on this ashram and entered our room, Silence fell deep in my heart. I sat in a chair by the window and watched a palm frond blowing in the wind, seeing the sea in the background. Everything was made of Silence. It was such a penetrating sensation……bodily, and on every other level as well. Then, as I sat down, I began to feel ripples of Silent Energy washing through my brain and body. Everything had come to a still point and the visceral sense of this went on for a few hours. The experience (for want of a better word) was marked by not looking for anything. I was not trying to get anything. Understand that I was not making any effort to be like that, it was just happening – quite without my say-so. Silent Being: this is a way of (perhaps) describing what it was. And I simply did what was natural: sitting down in a chair, gazing, lying down on a bed. After a while, a few insights drifted to me and opened up inside like flowers. ”

I have some very happy news: Steve and I are engaged 🙂 🙂 🙂 Amma talked to Steve about it during his darshan, and we decided soon after that 🙂 🙂 🙂 

I will be returning to the ashram for the month of March, and I will be offering distance sessions from there – so please do book. Alternatively, please arrange your in-person sessions around the India dates (which are 7th March – 8th April) and note that I am indeed currently in London.

If you are looking for things to do in London, here are the next dates for Tony Parsons and for Rupert Spira:-

Tony: Saturday 2nd Feb, 2pm – 5pm (plus social afterwards) at The Friends Meeting House in Hampstead, £15

Rupert: https://non-duality.rupertspira.com/meet/2019/04/05/evening-meeting-at-rudolf-steiner-house-london

Enjoy 🙂 and I hope to see you soon 🙂

xDaisy

Journey Into The Heart

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I am well and enjoying the build-up to my trip to be with Amma in India tomorrow 🙂 I will have to make this newsletter very brief and a little speedy I’m afraid.

I will be away from tomorrow 27th Nov – 22nd Dec. Please note that I will have limited digital access while on the ashram, but you can try me on WhatsApp, Messenger and email.

I would love to hear any stories about your experiences of Amma’s recent visit to Surrey if you would like to share them. I had an absolutely wicked time! Just loved it! And through our seva (selfless service) in the massage area, our team made £7000 for Amma’s charity ‘Embracing The World’ 🙂 In case you didn’t know (since it is a unique attribute, as far as I know) Amma’s entire organisation is run without anyone being paid. No money which comes in goes to any person within the organisation. All work is carried out voluntarily and for free, with people donating their valuable attention, effort and time to make all the incredible things which Embracing The World achieves possible. This means that everything generated can go directly to assist people living in poverty, orphaned, hit by natural disasters, homeless, in need of life-saving surgery – the list goes on and on. Particularly impressive is Amma’s work to empower women in India by giving them grants to start their own businesses, after learning that poverty is best alleviated through women generating income.

www.embracingtheworld.org

Some exciting events coming up:-

Bromley ashram will be opening some time in the New Year. We are all working hard to make this possible 🙂 When it is up and running there will be satsangs, talks and all kinds of activities going on there. It feels very special for Amma to have a centre in the UK at last, after decades of trying to find a place 🙂

I advise booking now for Adyashanti in London for a very rare satsang on the 16th Aug next year. See ‘Alternatives’ or ‘EventBrite’ sites. Adya is also doing retreats in both Holland and Woldingham (Surrey) just before this, and you can enter the waiting list for these here: www.adyashanti.org

There is a Foundational training in Vortex Healing® in London in February – see www.vortexhealing.com

Ok, I better finish packing! See you after the 22nd Dec, and enjoy yourselves 🙂

Lots of Love,

xDaisy

Amma Hits London Tomorrow! :-)

Hello 🙂

How are you? I am good 🙂 I have spent the day (like my other days off at the moment) helping to build the new ashram for Amma in Bromley. I love doing seva (selfless service)… 🙂 It honestly makes me happier than anything in the world. I have no idea why – lol! But I really love it. Soon the new place will be ready and will operate as the M.A. Centre for the UK, and as a community centre in between Embracing The World events.

Tomorrow Amma comes in person to Sandown Racecourse in Esher, Surrey. The final night is Friday and it’s the all-nighter. Here is all the information you need:-

www.amma.org.uk

If you haven’t yet met Amma, here is a documentary you may be interested in watching:-

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YsxZI0PBl_A&t=17s

I am still here until the 27th, when I fly to the ashram in India for 3 and a half weeks – so I will return from there on the 22nd December. Please book your sessions accordingly, as I will not be able to give sessions from the ashram this time. I will be available via WhatsApp, Messenger and email there though, but bear in mind it is rural India without Wifi, so contact will be sporadic.

If you come to Amma in Sandown this week, come and find me in the massage area where I should be for most of the 3 days. Much Love to you all 🙂

xDaisy

Devotion

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I am here in London, adjusting to the changes that my life brings, in this case the return from ashram life to city life. I don’t know if anyone remembers that seminal track by Goldie – ’Inner City Life’? That more-or-less encapsulates how it feels.

When sitting down to write about a living master, one faces a dilemma: the sense that the living presence of such a being, and the ‘experience’ (for want of a better word) of that, can never be confined to words or descriptions. It’s very hard to say anything about Amma. She both is and is not, she manifests as both form and formless in a continuous cascade. Perhaps the way in which my friends and I feel her in the most tangible way, is as Supreme Love: a Love that goes completely beyond anything imaginable, and which cuts through every vestige of the human ego, revealing the ultimate secret of this universe. If anyone is asking why I spend so much time with my spiritual teacher, this is why.

I wish I could give some kind of account of my stay with Amma in Amritapuri, but that really would just be words. You see, it’s a living thing with her. You don’t go about your day and then sit down and write your diary, and feel all good about what you’ve understood, and then go to sleep again. It’s not like that. The path with Amma is the path of action, of expression, of interaction and of an outpouring of a selflessness you had no idea was inside you, waiting to come out. This Love moves, this Silence transforms without leaving itself. This true way throws the human being into complete Mystery, not only once, but constantly. And miracles rain down upon everyone in that ashram like the monsoons. I’m aware that I sound like I’ve drunk the Kool-Aid – lol!

Those of you who have visited the ashram will know that one of the ways people deepen in their closeness with Amma and her teachings, is through sharing stories about her. I heard many extraordinary accounts while I was there this time. One never knows whether such stories are true, mythological or a version of a truth. To me, that is not ultimately the most important thing: for me, it is this unknown space…this Mystery, that such stories deepen me into which matters the most. One night, we met a new friend. As we got to know him over the course of our stay on the ashram (in saying ‘we’ and ‘our’, I am referring to Steve and I – yes, we are back together 🙂 🙂 :-)), this friend began to tell us the story of how he met Amma. The story begins before he was born. His father heard about Amma and took my friend’s sister to meet Her in Manchester in 1989. When they went for Darshan the father said to his daughter, “You are in the presence of God, you can ask anything you like.” The daughter told Amma that she wanted a little brother. Amma looked to the father and asked if he and his wife wanted another child. The father replied Yes, but that they could not, because his wife had gone through the menopause. Amma said Ok, and smiled at the daughter. A couple of months later, the mother began her periods again. Soon after this, she was pregnant. My friend was born in due course. Not long after the birth, Amma was due to visit England again. The father stayed at home with his new son (my friend), while the mother – who had never met Amma yet – and her daughter went to the program. As the mother fell into Amma’s arms for Darshan, Amma said to this woman – who she was meeting for the first time and had no information about – “Are you happy now that you have a son?” The mother burst into tears and surrendered. Hearing this story flooded me with energy rushes and goosebumps. I would never want to, or try to, prove whether it is true or not. I don’t know that. All I can say is that the sense of resonance throughout my entire being upon hearing it was overwhelming, and that the feeling of reality, realness, hitting-the-mark – whatever you want to call it – opened up within me in a profound way.

This actually leads me into something else I wanted to share with you. People often ask me about intuition, and feel that I have some expertise in this area. I don’t know about that, but I did discover something more about the whole thing when I was with Amma in the ashram. I hope that including this diary entry might assist you in your own journey with with your sense of intuition / instinct.

12/9/18

The answer came in Darshan today. There was no need to tune-in, check, ‘ask Amma inside’, or anything like that. When I was relaxed and open – simple, and in my being, one could say – I felt during Amma’s long embrace that [X]. It didn’t come mentally. It didn’t come through any kind of asking. It didn’t come in a big bang. It came through the feeling body. This relative truth came as a sort-of feeling, a kind-of sense, which ran like a river through my heart. So, yes, as [Y] reminded me that time: trust the truth that comes naturally, like a gift.”

That’s all for now. If you would like to book a session or talk about anything, please call, message or text me.

Much Love,

xDaisy

Manifesting Intention Review

Hello 🙂

How are you? This email is a little late in coming to you, but I have finally had the chance to gather my thoughts from the last Vortex Healing training – Manifesting Intention – which I completed at the end of May.

Before I get started on that, I want to remind you that I am fortunate enough to be attending a silent meditation retreat with Adyashanti from tomorrow until the 18th August. This means absolutely no digital contact during that time.

Another reminder, as not everyone realises yet, I have the venue in Barbican back on Wednesdays, for those of you who cannot (or prefer not to) be treated at home. Distance sessions continue as normal. I have decided to keep my price the same, rather than raising, having looked into it with the support of Amma and Merlin (the Divine Being at the heart of Vortex Healing).

So, what do we mean by ‘Manifesting Intention’? Firstly, it’s important to explain that this has nothing to do with the plethora of techniques about getting what you want. This has to do with alignment and rooting inside Divinity, and then meeting that as it manifests through creation. One way of thinking about it is that it’s the Divine getting what it wants: you being the Divine at the deepest level of what you are, but certainly not on the level of ego or I or mine / me. Manifesting Intention is not about manifesting ‘my will’. As a healer, the difference between this and everything else we have in Vortex Healing is that I am going directly to Divine Intention at the point that it arises in creation, and channelling from there. We now use the term ‘re-manifesting’ instead of ‘transforming’ or ‘clearing’, because to heal what is being healed we are actually helping to re-manifest the Divinity from inside what is off. Now, of course, the manifesting of Divine Intention is happening all the time through all of creation. The transmission I have from this class helps you to align more deeply with that. In this way, it’s a healing and an awakening and an embodiment aid all at the same time. Pretty mind-blowing!

In class, we talked a lot about kidney energy. You will have noticed that I focus a lot there in almost every session, and now I have a way of channelling compressed Jing and Chi energies into the kidneys using MI (Manifesting Intention). I learned more about why this part of the body – and its resonance throughout the rest of the body – is so important. The Chi of the kidneys governs hormones – that’s a huge chunk of your body’s systems – and the kidney energy holds the toned-ness and strength of the whole body.

We also discussed gut health. These days there is a lot of talk about micro-biome and it was interesting to get Ric Weinman’s (teacher of the class and holder of the Vortex Healing lineage) opinion about this. He made the point that it’s not just about what we are eating, even though that is important. He believes that the health of the gut is a reflection of the health of the entire system. It reveals where a person is mentally, emotionally, karmically, genetically etc. Also, certain kinds of probiotics can actually be unhelpful (for example some can even exacerbate candida), so it is a good idea to tune in with your body before buying a probiotic. I tend to do this with all supplements anyway – and yes, you can even do this through the screen when shopping on Amazon 🙂 Simply feel from your body – perhaps with eyes closed to make it easier to see / sense – and experience whether your body wants that particular product or not.

With skin problems, Ric advised examining the liver. Essentially, when the liver is not functioning well, then the body is forced to detox it’s shit through the skin. He said that the toxicity comes from karmic (past life), genetic, emotional and food / environmental / physical factors and lifestyle stress combined.

And we have made a breakthrough in clearing chronic viruses such as Herpes and Epstein-Barr with Manifesting Intention. It is now possible to knock out most of these, even the very tricky Herpes!

See you after the retreat 🙂

Love,

xDaisy

Amma: Compassion Visionary

Hello 🙂

How are you? I am very well indeed 🙂 I was hoping to write to you earlier, but it seems now is the time. First of all, just to let you know that I am back in London and working – so please do message or call my phone to book a session. Plus, I have the venue back. So it’s Wednesdays at Barbican. Some of you will appreciate this, as you either cannot have sessions in your home, or prefer not to. House calls, though, and distant sessions remain available.

Being with Amma on her west coast US Tour was phenomenal… If you have not yet had the chance to meet this fascinating visionary of Compassion, please do take the opportunity. Amma tours for around eight months of each year and the rest of the time is in her ashram in Kerala (India). So, if you are ever going abroad, check in with her websites to see if your paths cross. The dates for the London program at the moment look to be the 11th – 12th November at Sandown Race Course in Surrey (with the Devi Bhava all-nighter being on the 12th). Please do check nearer the time for the update on this, as it can change.

Amma is not just another teacher, another guru. We are talking about, without mincing words, the most exact embodiment of Divinity on the planet alive today. The benefits of spending time in Her physical presence simply cannot be quantified. Just a few examples of this are: experiencing the true nature of Unconditional Love, broadening learning on how to give and why it is so important, and awakening and embodiment. Not to mention engaging in the far-reaching humanitarian aid work Amma is doing, through Her global charity ‘Embracing the World’, and all its volunteers. Bear in mind that neither Amma, nor the Swamis or Swamini, nor any of her senior devotees, nor any of us are paid for the work we do. This is why her charity remains uniquely effective in delivering to its millions of recipients in India and all over the world.

Check out her charity:-

www.embracingtheworld.org

Her US Tour (still happening):-

www.amma.org

And her Indian site:-

www.amritapuri.org

Above, you will find all the information you need on meeting Amma and on her charitable activities. If you do not, please don’t hesitate to ask me.

I want to give you a little personal account of just a couple of the amazing things I experienced with Amma this time. The first is a diary entry from my working week in between having just taken the Vortex Healing® Manifesting Intention course and my time with Amma:-

25/5/18

I was in my bedroom contemplating this continuous drive towards God which I feel so pressingly within. All of a sudden, an alarm began to ring very loudly. I had never heard this particular alarm before and didn’t know where it was coming from. I searched the room. Finally, hidden behind furniture, I found this old dusty digital clock; clearly, it had been left untouched for months, maybe even years. Within the displayed time was 108. As I gazed at this in amazement, the numbers turned to 109, and the alarm clock stopped ringing.

As many of you know, 108 is a particularly auspicious number in Indian spirituality and we chant the 108 Names of the Divine Mother as part of Amma’s recommended sadhana (spiritual practices). A week and a half afterwards, it felt like this bolt-from-the-blue came to fruition while I was on Tour with Amma. I was in Seattle and had been up all night on Devi Bhava, being with Amma and doing seva (selfless service) with my friends. Here is an excerpt from what I wrote:-

4/6/18

After Darshan, I was given a seat right in front of Amma. I fell Silent, totally peaceful, content and happy. Eventually I was moved, but I lingered at the back of the stage. I was left untouched standing there for more than an hour – during which time I was totally transfixed by Amma. Watching Her, I deepened more and more into Silence.

Then, the man who plays the guitar beautifully began to play a solo during Swami Dayamrita’s bhajan set. It was so wonderful, it began to carry me… Suddenly, I was overcome and I began to cry. I felt everything and nothing, I felt union. The sense of union (for want of a better word – a word that doesn’t exist) was so deep…in a felt way, in a way that was choiceless and without an exit gate or any room for doubt. I felt relief and completion in a way that was total. I called out in my heart to Amma, “Thank you, thank you, thank you Amma. I can hardly believe that this is my life. Help me to Surrender – I want to Surender all of my life, everything, to You.” I was crying for a long time; every time I would look at Amma, it would start again. It had hit me – really, really hit me – what She is doing here. I felt overwhelmed at seeing the Reality of Her. That she chose this life she is living – that She has come to us to uplift us, in the most profound sense – the whole world, the whole of humanity. It’s hard to get it across in words, what I felt and perceived. I kept crying and silently calling out to Amma in my heart, “Thank you, thank you Amma – thank you Amma, thank you Amma.” The gratitude I felt was completely overwhelming. In between my tears and praying, I would simply watch Her giving Darshan, feeling this one-pointed longing / bridging into Divinity itself – like I was being fast-tracked to God. When my mind would occasionally start up again, Amma would turn and look at me, and my mind was stopped, and I would be returned into the Silence. It was as if She was showing me the utter beyond-ness of Divinity through this whole thing.

I would like to end with a quote directly from Amma. I hope you enjoy it. I recommend reading it out loud to yourself for full effect:-

“Compassion does not see the faults of others. It does not see the weaknesses of people. It makes no distinction between good and bad people. Compassion cannot draw a line between two countries, two faiths or two religions. Compassion has no ego; thus there is no fear, lust or passion. Compassion simply forgives and forgets. Compassion is like a passage. Everything passes through it. Nothing can stay there. Compassion is love expressed in all its fullness.”

❤️ Amma (Sri Mata Amritanandamayi Devi)

Love,

xDaisy

AMMA :-) :-) :-)

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I am happy and well, if tired, and now without the time to write you the email about the wonderful Manifesting Intention course which I had hoped to write. I leave to be with Amma early tomorrow morning. Many more of you wanted sessions than I had anticipated, so my time has been well spent giving these. Please bear with me on that email though; there is so much exciting stuff to share with you once I have the proper time to go through my notes.

I am thrilled about seeing my teacher! I will be with Her in Seattle, San Ramon and Los Angeles. I leave early tomorrow morning and return on the 19th June (morning). I will be engaged in seva (selfless service) while I am there and will have very limited digital access.

www.amma.org

I hope this email finds you well and enjoying life, and I very much look forward to seeing you after the 19th June.

Love,

xDaisy

Manifesting Intention

Hello 🙂

How are you? I am very well indeed, and writing to you from the airport lounge as I begin my epic journey of many parts back to London, from the Vortex Healing course in Virginia Beach which just ended.

I land late on the 24th, and am offering sessions from 25th to 31st May (before Amma for 2 weeks). Please WhatsApp, text or call to book for this period or for when I am back (19th June onwards).

The feeling of bliss and happiness is profound…really profound. If any of you are on the Vortex trajectory and thinking about stepping off, I strongly encourage you to persevere with courses. Awakening to Divinity (last one) and Manifesting Intention (this one) are hard to describe they are so good!! Just Wow……and very few words. I feel so grateful to the Divine, to Amma, to my Vortex family and to Ric, for facilitating this course. The sense of awakeness is ever deeper and deeper. That’s the most amazing thing. And this sense of happiness and bliss arising from within, regardless of situations, amazes me… Everything is so soft…

I could just hug and kiss everyone! Probably not advisable though, in an airport lounge.

I am so looking forward to sharing this new energy of Manifesting Intention with you 🙂 🙂 🙂  Must go for now, but simply wanted to connect with you all and share this…this – whatever this is, in some way. I will write some coherent stuff soon. There’s a lot of new and interesting information with this course.

Much Love,

xDaisy

Love

Hello 🙂

How are you? 

I want to write a little about my experiences with Mother Meera during her visit to London, happening now. I have been fortunate enough to have been seeing her for around 10 years. Please see this website if you would like to know more:-

https://mothermeera.org.uk/

As soon as I was seated in the hall yesterday, there was this return to the natural state. It’s not that easy to put into words, but suddenly meditation was happening with no meditator and without any effort to meditate. I could feel Silence pouring like liquid gold through my body, and now and then there were rushes of something like energy, as if my cells were coming alive after a deep sleep. This took over, and in that takeover, I returned to innocence. Each thought, story and emotion which arose was unresisted and simply seen for what it was, without indulgence. Again, there was no efforting – it all seemed to happen without me. I sat like this for a long time. 

When it was my turn to join the queue for the staring Darshan, a bhajan from Amma began to ‘play’ in the background of my awareness 🙂 When I was in front of Mother Meera with her hands on my head, my mind came to a complete stop, and even this bhajan stopped. As she looked into my eyes, I experienced total and utter oneness…which seemed to pour itself into infinity. Everything left me – all suffering, all concepts – all things left. As I rose and walked down the steps after this, a different bhajan from Amma began to ‘play’ lightly once again 🙂 I sat for a long time afterwards. When Mother Meera did her group staring Darshan at the end, I noticed such a shift in the energy in the entire room… Did anyone else feel that? It was wonderful to see some of you there 🙂 and hopefully you all got my email detailing this visit a while back?. 

After I left with friends to eat together, several remarkable things happened that day, which I simply cannot see as anything but Divine synchronicity and Grace 🙂 Firstly, on the way home strangers kept talking to me – and this is on the tube in London!! One mother began to talk to me about her son skateboarding – a big part of my history in this life 🙂 On the next leg of my journey, a woman began to offer everyone her chocolate biscuits – literally opening them up to strangers in the carriage. I felt such a love for people radiating from this action and from within this woman…so much so that I commented on it, and she knew that she had this gift. It actually turned out that she used to serve me fish’n’chips in the area where I lived many years ago! This got me thinking of one of my closest friends in the world (whom I had become estranged from) who lived in that area too. Later that evening – and I’m not joking! – that friend called me, completely out of the blue, to apologise and ask if we could be friends again. Incredible… And then that night, my Mum and I started laughing together spontaneously like children – like we used to when we were both younger. We couldn’t stop! And then we hugged and made up about a stupid fight we’d had. I could hardly take in all the Grace… 

It really couldn’t have come at a better time. These last two months have been so painful… First my uncle died suddenly, then I broke up with my fiancé and then there grew this rift (described above) between my close friend and I. The pain of breaking with Steve got so intense that I was crying almost continuously, with bone-crushing emotional agony. In facing this depth of pain and loss without running away from it, I eventually experienced self-effulgence for perhaps the first time on my own. In the end, I was forced into the Light within myself. My heart still overflows with love and passion for Steve… And yet, simultaneously, there is a deep intuitive clarity that we cannot be together at this time. It’s the weirdest thing ever in my life. If I were to go against this, I would be sacrificing my integrity, and I simply cannot do that anymore. Even for the love of my life. 

I would love to hear your experiences with or after Mother Meera, so please don’t hesitate to write to me about them. Or about anything else (as I have demonstrated here! I hope you will forgive my indulgence :-). I look forward to seeing you or working with you again soon.

So much Love 🙂 🙂 🙂 

xDaisy

Joy

Hello 🙂

How are you? I am very well indeed. I feel the happiest I have ever felt in my life. Happiness comes and goes, so I’m not forcing meaning into this, but I must say it is a delight to feel this way 🙂 🙂 🙂

I apologise for not writing sooner. I have been doing a lot of Europe Tour with Amma. I have also been welcoming a new relationship into my life. Some of you have already met Steve 🙂 The deep significance of this relationship to me is hard to put into words accurately. Being single for 4 years beforehand, and fully exploring that, was really important for me. The few lovers I had during that time were meaningful and the wondrous solitude was needed and nourishing. Now to be in this awakening embodiment evolution with someone who wants the same thing, to be in love and to have so much in common on a human level, plus things which compliment in their differences, is a Grace I find hard to fathom.

So, Amma….! How was it for you? It was a huge and exciting joy to see many of you in Surrey and also in the other places I went to with Amma (Switzerland, the Netherlands and Valencia.) Thank you for visiting me in the massage area, those of you who could. I really don’t have words right now for the Amma experience from my point of view….. I think that may partly be because I just did the 108 Names, the 1000 Names and the IAM. No mind 🙂 All I can think of to say about how I feel for Amma is deeply in love, and deeply deeply grateful for what she has given me on this Tour.

The other good news is that I will now be living in London for the foreseeable future, so I will be available for sessions every day. Please text / WhatsApp / call to arrange (NB: I often have the Barbican venue available on Wednesdays).

Love, care and Silence,

xDaisy

Grace

Hello 🙂

How are you? I am very well. This past week, as I was walking across Victoria station and thanking the universe for orchestrating my journey from East Sussex perfectly, I uttered audibly, “It’s Grace.” Then it hit me – but everything is. Even after awakening there can be this tendency to think of Grace as coming from ‘outside’. As the realisation dawned on me, I saw that it’s not like that at all. There is no outside. Everything is Grace. The intensification of oneness that followed stopped me in my tracks (sorry London commuters!). The truth is, Grace isn’t ‘given to us’ when we’re good, because Grace is the very substance of everything. It’s what we are and what everything is, pre-existing whether we think we are good or bad in any moment.

I will be in London giving sessions Thursday (tomorrow) – Saturday, for the last time before America. Please call or text to book. Otherwise please feel free to book a distance session at any other time. As a reminder, I will be away in America for further training in Vortex Healing from the 11th – 23rd October (that’s next week). NB I will have very limited digital access at that time.

If, like me, you want to see Amma in Europe at a few places and haven’t booked or arranged things yet, do so soon because places are getting booked up and prices are rising. I am only just getting onto it now.

The Adyashanti retreat in Surrey next August is now open for registration. It’s 7 nights – a special treat nowadays 🙂 I highly recommend this silent meditation retreat, which I feel is second only to being with Amma in person. Here is the link (do it now if you want to, because they always get overbooked):-

https://www.adyashanti.org/index.php?file=retreatsdetails1&eventid=1366

I leave you with this from Marlies Myoku Cocheret, whose recent email moved me deeply:-

Please take a moment to realize that everything can drop at any moment. This body, this mind, this or that feeling or sensation – not in your time, but Her time. Where do you want to put your attention when the moment comes…..which is every moment?!”

~ Marlies Myoku Cocheret

Love,

xDaisy

Outside of Mind

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I would like to share a poem I wrote this morning after sadhana, and inspired ever more by this deep practice (of the 1000 Names and the IAM technique from Amma).

What a violent thing

To bring mind in here!

To this sacred place,

This holy Silence.

 

Outside of mind

Lies all things,

And all non-things.

Your cascading lights

Cannot fool me anymore,

For I have found something

Here, exquisite.

 

In these long halls

Of Silence upon Silence,

I meet the innermost –

The maker –

The original Spark.

 

Yet She is so Silent…

So nothing,

And so everything.

 

No song-and-dance fanfare.

Simply Silence gazing,

Just gazing.

She sees it all –

Sips it all in,

And rests.

 

It is some miracle that this poem came out from me, considering that I am still in that heartbreak which I wrote to you about in February. Really it has been going on since January. The blood and the guts of this particular heartbreak are hellish. But I am ever grateful to my friends for their support, and similarly to Amma, Adyashanti, Vortex Healing and my healers. What to do? We are all in the same boat going down the stream, playing out our karma. Yet, paradoxically, this is happening right in the middle of an all-encompassing awakening embodiment evolution.

My friend Alexandra Stone was kind enough to interview me for her website, please have a look:-

http://www.alexandrastone.studio/blog/

And finally, I want to thank those of you who have been giving me such rich and powerful feedback on the sessions. When you are self-employed, the only way you really know you are doing a good job is when clients or teachers tell you so. My heartfelt thanks for bringing smiles and tears of joy to me 🙂

I have a couple of spaces left in London Sat & Sun. Also, let me know if Wed – Fri might suit you (as that is possibly when I will next be in London). In the meantime, please contact me for distance healing.

Much Love and gratitude,

xDaisy

Sessions in London: Fri (tomorrow) – Mon

Hello 🙂

I am now living in Ditchling temporarily, in a beautiful healing home full of yoga, Vortex and of course Amma, with friends 🙂 It’s stunning here… I can’t get over how lucky I am to have space, time and fire for embodiment, sadhana, self-healing and all the other things I love in life.

This is a short reminder that I will be in London this Fri – Mon inclusive. The spaces I have left are on Sunday and Monday, so please message me on WhatsApp or FB to book (or call me there / Skype.) Phone reception is terrible here, so internet is best for now. Or feel free to book a distant session on any other day.

Amma’s visit to London has been arranged now, thanks to the hard work of volunteers. She will be with us Friday 17th and Saturday 18th November (that’s the Devi Bhava) at Sandown Park Race Course. I will update you with details as they come in (they are not yet on the site).

I hope to see you in Londinium 🙂

Love,

xDaisy

London Sessions: Fri – Mon inclusive

Hello 🙂

How are you? I am well; missing you all actually, and hoping that you are getting on well. I will be in London offering sessions from Fri – Mon inclusive, so please call or text if you would like one. Internet, and even my T Mobile network (essentially all virtual communication methods) are still poor here in Rodmell village. BT are slowly fixing the problem. Hence why I cannot write as much to you as I would like, nor answer you as promptly as I would prefer. However, when it comes to distance sessions, everything works. Make of that what you will 🙂

I want to share the most beautiful passage from Adyashanti. We read it out loud in our Adyashanti group and it drew tears. I really haven’t ever met another person who can communicate through words what it is truly like to wake up and embody that awakening, in such an open, accurate and rich way. I suggest reading this very slowly:-

       “This inner revolution is the awakening of an intelligence not born of the mind but of an inner silence of mind, which alone has the ability to uproot all of the old structures of one’s consciousness. Unless these structures are uprooted, there will be no creative thought, action, or response. Unless there is an inner revolution, nothing new and fresh can flower. Only the old, the repetitious, the conditioned, will flower in the absence of this revolution. But our potential lies beyond the known, beyond the structures of the past, beyond anything that humanity has established. Our potential is something that can flower only when we are no longer caught within the influence and limitations of the known. Beyond the realm of the mind, beyond the limitations of humanity’s conditioned consciousness, lies that which can be called the sacred. And it is from the sacred that a new and fluid consciousness is born that wipes away the old and brings to life the flowering of a living and undivided expression of being. Such an expression is neither personal nor impersonal, neither spiritual nor worldly, but rather the flow and flowering of existence beyond all notions of self.

         So let us understand that Reality transcends all of our notions about Reality. Reality is neither Christian, Hindu, Jewish, Advaita Vedanta, nor Buddhist. It is neither dualistic nor non-dualistic, neither spiritual nor nonspiritual. We should come to know that there is more Reality and sacredness in a blade of grass than in all of our thoughts and ideas about Reality. When we perceive from an undivided consciousness, we will find the sacred in every expression of life. We will find it in our teacup, in the fall breeze, in the brushing of our teeth, in each and every moment of living and dying. Therefore we must leave the entire collection of conditioned thought behind and let ourselves be led by the inner thread of silence and intuitive awareness, beyond where all paths end, to that place of sacredness where we go innocently or not at all, not once but continually.

         One must be willing to stand alone – in the unknown, with no reference to the known or the past or any of one’s conditioning. One must stand where no one has stood before in complete nakedness, innocence, and humility. One must stand in that dark light, in that groundless embrace, unwavering and true to the Reality beyond all self, not just for a moment but forever without end; for then that which is sacred, undivided, and whole is born within consciousness and begins to express itself. That expression is the salvation of the whole. It is the activity of an inward revolution brought down into time and space.”

~ Adyashanti, The Way of Liberation, pg 37

I will leave you to digest that. I would love your comments, if you have some.

Much Love,

xDaisy

London sessions: Mon – Wed

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I am well and enjoying life in Rodmell. I wanted to let you know that I am in London giving sessions this Monday – Wednesday (with Wed being at the Barbican venue). Please text or call to book.

Here is a poem I wrote yesterday:-

Re-emergence of Self,

My heart of hearts,

Like a feeling-sensation,

And deeper than a secret.

 

A coming up from underneath,

Smooth as marble,

My warm-like embers…

 

I melted away.

And all that is now,

Is Self.

Love,

xDaisy

London this week: Wed and Fri

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I am very happy here in Lewes. Yes, I have moved for the 4th time (temporarily) in 6 weeks. It’s such an adventure! Not that that was my intention, and of course there have been times of intense challenge. Yet now I feel the wonder and the grace of it all, and the felt sense of Divine Will in it is profound, really profound.

The slight issue I have at the moment is time – I am running out of it before I go to America. Already, most session times are booked this week. I may be able to squeeze in a couple more on Wednesday at Leila’s or on Friday making home visits. Other than that, distance healing is available, though again, this is limited due to current demand. However, I am only away for 3 weeks. As a reminder, that is from 30th May – 21st June.

I would like to share the following passage from Adyashanti’s book ‘Resurrecting Jesus: Embodying the Spirit of a Revolutionary Mystic’, which brought me to tears of inner implosion right there in the launderette.

“This is all about an internal journey, about your capacity to recognise divinity whenever and wherever you encounter it. It requires a certain sort of humility that allows you to peer beyond the world of appearances and touch upon that spark of the timeless radiance. Whether you understand it or can do anything with it doesn’t matter in the slightest; all that matters is your capacity to recognise that spark when you see it and to open yourself in humility to its redeeming Grace. This is the magic of Jesus’ life. This is the miracle that surpasses all the other miracles – the ability that Jesus has to mirror back divinity for those who are in his presence. This miracle is far superior to being able to walk on water or turn water into wine. It is the miracle of redemption, which awakens people to their own true nature.”  ~ Adyashanti

Love,

xDaisy

Bank Holiday Deal on Monday! Plus Wed, Fri and Sat in London

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I am well and happy 🙂 I am also facing some very strong challenges indeed in my housing situation here in Brighton. I want to share them, yet feel it is inappropriate to do so, certainly at this stage. But suffice to say that when the spiritual rubber really hits the road in human life, I am left feeling so glad and grateful that I have led the examined (rather than the unexamined) life, not least for all the tools this has given me to face such situations. In particular, Amma’s presence and Grace in my life is proving no less than a Godsend at the moment.

As a result of all this, I have only just fully woken up to the fact that it is Bank Holiday this Monday. The offer is on, of special half-price £45 sessions (via Skype) 🙂 So please call / text / email me if you would like to take advantage of this.

I will also be in the Barbican on Wednesday and doing home visits in London on part of Friday and part of Saturday. The rest of the time distance healing is available via Skype 🙂

Wishing you well,

Much Love,

xDaisy

Contemplation in the Sun

Hello 🙂

How are you?

First of all, I want to let you know that I will be in London on Wednesday this week in the Barbican. I need the rest of the week to sort out my housing situation in Brighton, which needs turning around within literally 7 days. Skype sessions are available though, of course.

I had one of those moments today, where I was between work (equine assisted therapy and a little job I do for a friend in London) and I stepped out into the sun in the garden where I was. I was immediately struck by the ordinary beauty of things. Simply the other buildings, the music from a party somewhere in the background, and the sky. Finally I could stop for a while, and I did. My mind began to chatter and then to fade, melting into my heart as often it does. It felt so good to feel, to be barefoot on the ground and to be able to loaf for an hour, with nothing to do! I felt so free… Silence pervaded completely. Eventually a thought came: What if I spent the rest of my life just being free? Something opened wider within, in this contemplation. I mean, what if any of us simply chose inner freedom, true peace, right now – and for every ‘now’ forever? I am well aware that this makes no sense in a way! But can you feel into what I’m saying? In other words, what if you, reading this right now, never ever left whatever realisation you have had about the true nature of what you are?

The next thought that came was, What would that take? I saw that it would require a willingness to relinquish all future plans. I also saw I would need to never leave what I know and to never believe or follow through on another thought / piece of negativity. It was humbling…to say the least.

Anyway, I wanted to share this exploration with you now, in hindsight, to see if you resonate with it or have perhaps had a similar kind of insight too? 🙂 Please do write with your comments on this.

Love,

xDaisy

London this week: today, Friday and Saturday

Hello,

How are you? A short note to say that for London sessions, today and Sat are now full this week. But there are a couple of spaces left on Friday. Distance sessions are always available of course, via Skype.

I also wanted to share this video with you. I never tire of Amma’s Swami Dayamrita. In particular it is his integrity, authenticity and humility which really touch me. They are rare qualities in people I have found. Let me know your feelings on this interview. Mine are very passionate!

SOULJOURNS – SWAMI DAYAMRITA, AMMA’S SENIOR DISCIPLE

SOULJOURNS – SWAMI DAYAMRITA, AMMA’S SENIOR DISCIPLE

Welcome to Souljourns and to the amazing story of a former atheist, a well educated man who came to know of Amma…

Much Love,

xDaisy

Easter Deal: Half Price on Friday & Monday :-)

Hello 🙂

I’m sorry about the short notice of this offer. I only just realised today that it is Easter this weekend. Therefore Good Friday and Easter Monday sessions are half price, £45, and will be done on Skype / phone only. This also applies to pre-booked sessions on those days.

I have a couple of spaces left this Thursday in London, so please let me know if you would like one.

Anyway, how are you?

I must say that I’m enjoying Brighton massively. The things I love the most are the sea, the beach, the South Downs and the people. They seem interested in celebrating life. There is perhaps more emphasis on sangha, friends, family, creativity, seva and sadhana. Then work is done to support lifestyle, rather than the other way round. I wish you were all here! In this sunshine, it is truly idyllic 🙂

Much Love,

xDaisy

Self No Other

Hello,

How are you? I have had to wittle this group down due to technicalities with Yahoo, so I hope no one I’ve knocked off feels left out. I am thinking of you all with a warm and surrendered heart and wondering where life is taking you… Please do write with your stories – they are always welcome 🙂

Thank you to those of you who responded to my last email; I feel your warmth and compassion. I know some of you have been concerned and wondering how I am, so I thought I’d fill you in a little and update you on this process, hopefully in a way that speaks to you and your process too. What I am going through in its deepest essence at the moment is heartbreak. I’m sure many of you have been through this too. So unexpected and so very deep, yet at least I know I have loved fully. I have heard some people say to me that they have never been in love before, even people who are quite a lot older than I am, and (perhaps) that is saddest of all.

The process has been that through fully embracing this heartbreak, as much as I am able in my fragile humanness, there is a continuing kind of breakdown breakthrough and entering into Divinity. I want to credit here my sadhana practice, Amma, Adyashanti and Vortex Healing and the engagement in these. There was also a sudden breakthrough during a group healing I was lucky enough to be part of – many thanks Chetana and Will Thornton. I was amazed at the turnaround and transformation after receiving this healing – almost like night and day – and the subsequent sense of completely withdrawing into the Self. Here is what I wrote about it in an email afterwards:-

“I just want to share that something has completely left me since this healing. Now I feel as if there is only the Self itself, and that’s all. It’s like nothingness, but not that empty feeling of emotional vacuum at all. It’s devoid of noise, there is only Silence. Grounded in Self now.”

In my diary I reflected further:-

“So this is it. It was always here. Right here… No wonder no one could give it to me. What this is could never be bought nor sold. ‘The peace which surpasses all understanding’, now I know You. Now I know You… You are this – are me. It’s not outside, it never was outside.”

When I arose the following morning, I knew I had to move home to Brighton. It’s funny because I have just remembered in writing this, that Eckhart Tolle once said one day he simply knew he had to move to North America. Moving as Self, it’s not a question of working things out. It’s letting go without end.

I will be coming to London every week to see you for sessions, so please don’t worry about that. I expect I will move around the beginning of April. Please do not hesitate to email or call me if you have any questions about this.

With Love in my heart,

xDaisy

Festive Season Gift: FREE Clinic Tomorrow

Hello 🙂

How are you?

As a New Year and Christmas gift to you, I am offering a FREE clinic at the venue in Barbican tomorrow, on a first come first served basis. This also applies to distance sessions tomorrow. As far as I can remember, this is the first time I have offered you this, so please do make use of it if you can.

I wish I had more time to write, but I don’t right now and didn’t have over the holiday season. Soon though – and hopefully see you tomorrow 🙂

Happy New Year 🙂 🙂 🙂

Love,

xDaisy

Happy Solstice :-) :-) :-)

Hello 🙂

I simply want to wish you a Happy Solstice 🙂

Here is what Bjork expresses about it (attached). It’s from her album Biophilia. Wish I had more time to write!

I am away 24th – 27th Dec and 31st Dec – 1st Jan, but available apart from that.

Much Love,

xDaisy

Videos

Hello 🙂

How are you? Friends have been sending me videos to watch on YouTube recently and I thought I would share them with you too. So moving to watch, and relax and be connected 🙂

Here is one with Ric Weinman giving a talk in Watkins spiritual bookshop in London:-

Vortex Healing and Merlin by Ric Weinman

This is amazing, and I won’t spoil it for you!:-

Inside the Superhuman World of the Iceman

Inside the Superhuman World of the Iceman

Wim Hof first caught the attention of scientists when he proved he was able to use meditation to stay submerged …

Here is one of my absolute favourite guides, smashing through taboos and pointing to freedom through the physical:-

Awakened lovemaking – Marlies Cocheret

Awakened lovemaking – Marlies Cocheret

With love, directness, and humor, Marlies invites our spirituality down from the clouds right into this human bo…

And here are Adyashanti and Francis Bennett discussing the book I am currently reading, ‘Resurrecting Jesus’. Our local vicar wants a copy of the book, having spoken with me,  and I am going to give it to him. That was a good moment 🙂

Adyashanti & Francis Bennett on “Resurrecting Jesus” – Buddha at the Gas Pump Interview

Adyashanti & Francis Bennett on “Resurrecting Jesus” – Buddha…

Also see http://batgap.com/adyashanti-francis-bennett-resurrecting-jesus/ Adyashanti, author of The Way of Liber…

So, enjoy 🙂

Love,

Daisy

Underneath All Currents

Hello 🙂

How are you? I feel relieved that Equinox was on Wednesday (they say ‘living in a world of plenty’) and that Mercury retrograde ended on Thursday. Seeing Bjork live at the Royal Albert Hall in conjunction with these events was pure magic 🙂 I also noticed how incredibly deep the satsang went on Thursday evening at Villa Devi, which other people in the group also reported. As a reminder, we chant (amongst other things) the 108 Names the 1000 Names of the Divine Mother (Archana), sing bhajans and meditate – inspired by Amma.

I have been into Bjork’s musical genius since the age of 13, and have now seen her live 5 times over a period of 21 years. Yes – I used to be obsessed! I had a moment before I walked into the auditorium this time, which I wanted to share with you. I was in the loo putting on my lipgloss. Suddenly I felt this Silence deepen and come in through my body from the left, like a liquid. As I looked at myself in the mirror, I realised something which in words would be, “I know who I am now”. I could feel the qualitative difference from when I used to come and see Bjork – now the tangible quality of Beingness, you could say, was here and was seen as what I actually am. The freedom felt immense; the freedom of not-knowing yet knowing, I guess you could call it Realising – I am This, this Silence. And I want to specify, it isn’t knowing who I am the way people usually say that – “She knows who she is” – about someone with charisma or power, for example. Not that. And it isn’t knowing as such, in the way we normally mean that. It is genuinely perceiving my own nature and the nature of all things and beings. Without filtration, without ‘winning’, without ‘losing’, without anything… There is such relief when you know that; a deep alleviation of that nagging separate feeling that dogs you before, which I see in so many people’s eyes. The point of sharing this, apart from simply sharing, is to use myself as an example of the fact that it is true that Silence is our nature and that one can certainly discover that in a genuine way, if one is interested in doing so.

I have been enjoying the sessions with you so much recently… They have taken on a different quality, an other-worldliness, as my sensing unfolds itself into your systems and as Grace makes its mysterious appearance often. I feel honoured that you would share all of your process with me – the laughter, the tears, the cosmic side, the dark side and all the sides of you. Thank you.

To finish I would like to share with you my favourite Bjork song. I have chosen a link without a video, to enhance the listening aspect, in the hope that the song will drop deeper into your ears. When I first discovered this song, I was about 14 and I fell in love with it. I experienced all kinds of deep emotions inside my room listening to it and often crying. Nowadays I perceive it as being a piece about Stillness. Whatever it is doesn’t really matter, it is a work of art in the truest sense: full, empty, meaningful and meaning-free.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=17yWeynOfOI

Love,

xDaisy

Silent Meditation Retreat with Adyashanti

Hello,

I must say I am thrilled to have the opportunity to deepen into this great, deep silence……….who knows what will happen in this great adventure into the unknown? The inner dive, swan dive, into mystery. I will be unavailable in communication – on a silent meditation retreat – from tomorrow until the 22nd Aug, when I will be back in action.

I want to share a few more learnings from the Ammathon (as a friend rightly called it!), which I hope will benefit you. During the program in Toronto, Amma said something which really struck me. She said, “Vasanas have no power of their own. It is we who give them power.” I realised in that moment, how powerless negativity really is. Her statement also cut through, in me, the tendency to become so familiar with something, that I begin to misuse it. What I mean is that I have talked about my ‘vasanas’ (latent negative tendencies) or issues or behaviour so many times, I can forget that it is I myself who permits them to have the power they have and who actually gives that power to them. I thought this could strike a chord for many of you as well. I would add that it is our tendency to identify with such internal arisings, which is the mechanism by which we give them the most power.

The most core life story I had, the one which had most coloured my experience of reality in this lifetime, came up during the last couple of days with Amma. We save the best for last, don’t we? For me, that was the love story – the agony and the ecstasy of romantic love, and underlying that, the nagging feeling that the right relationship would fulfil me and close any remaining ‘gap’. This probably sounds familiar to some of you, perhaps to many of you. I know – it’s a hard one to admit! I am not going to share the private details of that, sorry 😉 But please bear with me anyway. There is something more important than that part of the story. It began on the treadmill, of all places, not somewhere I frequently find myself. But going to the gym occasionally, during the tour, helped me get time by myself (which is almost completely impossible on staff) and helped me move energetics that were stuck. Suddenly on this treadmill, the desire to be free of that core story hit me, like never before. I simply HAD to be free of it; I could carry it all no more. So with this fire, I made a silent cry – a prayer – within, to Amma. With that, I let go, knowing that it could go either way: perhaps I would get free of this pattern, perhaps I would not – it was in the hands of Divinity now.

Shortly after this, Amma did a Q&A with the retreat group outside, in the unseasonably hot evening sun. There were only about 500 of us there. Right from the beginning, I felt a large amount of fear and anxiety coursing through my system, to the point where I could barely sit still. I didn’t know why I was feeling this way, it was like a body thing. I decided to focus more intensely on the question that was happening, and on Amma’s answer. As I looked at Amma, she made a certain movement as she talked with her hands, and with that I was gone. I felt as if I was merging into Amma from where I was – it was part-visual, part-kinesthetic (akin to the way I sense, during a session). As this happened, any remaining sense of separation fell away and I began to cry. In this oneness and tears and the whole un-conveyable experience, I suddenly knew that all my desire, lack and longing for this person – and all women and men who I had ever felt that towards – was really the longing for God. I simply knew it. Not as a concept and not as a philosophy, and not as an excuse. I actually saw it. I saw it in such a way, that it felt like I could never actually un-see it. I also sensed intuitively that all my other desires were also the longing for God. I felt freed at last…….truly, truly free.

(NB God in my perception is also Truth, wholeness, unity, oneness etc.) The next thoughts were, “Why have I been running after men and women all this time?” and “How could I have missed this reality all these years?” Then the strangest thing happened: I experienced depression for the first time in my life. As I sat, purposefully alone, eating dinner, I felt depressed. But there was absolutely no resistance to it. The sense of oneness was so broad and pervasive, that there was absolutely no problem with feeling depressed. In fact, I was pleased to be having the experience, because before that I never understood what depression was. I knew what pain was, deep gruelling emotional pain, but I didn’t know depression until that moment. I then experienced suicidal ideation! But again, there was no problem with this either, because there was zero resistance to it. And it existed in a context of oneness, of Love. After about an hour, both of these so-called negative experiences passed of their own accord, without me doing anything at all about them.

In hindsight, I believe they occurred because my ego had just lost its trump card, which was the core love story drama. With that gone, it seems like it had to play the depression and suicide cards to try to regain ‘control’ of my bodymind. But that didn’t work: these feelings and thoughts simply passed through, as I said. So then I was just there: story-less and One, feeling a sense of ordinariness and freedom. Nothing special, yet complete liberation.

I make my newsletters personal because I don’t believe I can help unless I talk from my own direct experience. I hope that by reading this something may have resonated or sparked for you.

See you soon, after the retreat,

Love,

xDaisy

Why Amma?

Hello,

How are you Londoners and people of the world? 🙂 I hope if you are in London that you are enjoying this heat wave we are lucky enough to be having 🙂

I want to address a question today which people often ask me, or ask me without words. Why Amma? Why do I do this? Why go and pay a handsome fee to work without pay, under conditions which some would consider harsh?

The answer is simple: it’s love. I look at Amma, and I love her. The depth of that love makes me want to support her work, serve Embracing the World (her global charity), and beyond that, to serve life in its entirety. For me, it’s passion; it’s not a ‘being good’ thing. It’s not even spiritual. Imagine being in love…now times it by 500…that’s nowhere near it. This is bhakti (devotion) in real terms.

Everyone has their own particular relationship with Amma, and certainly Amma devotees are all there for different reasons. Some of my friends, clients and family feel put off by the culty appearance of it all, by some of the devotees (who can be far from loving) and by the pretentious ‘holier than thou’ dynamics. Those of you who know me even a little bit, know I am definitely not the poster girl for holiness 🙂 No; it’s a love thing. Pure and simple.

So, what were the physical realities of being on volunteer tour staff, you may wonder. In my particular seva, we were working around 14 hours per day (every day) and longer on a Devi Bhava (the all-nighter). We got roughly 5 hours sleep per night, on the floor, sharing a room and bathroom with between 6 and 40 women. Then, after the long Devi Bhava, we would get on a coach and travel to the next city. Some of those journeys were over 22 hours long. When we arrived, we would sometimes get only a few hours sleep before set-up and work began. We delivered programs in 10 cities, over a 6-week period.

In between all this, I would squeeze my way onto the stage to spend time with Amma. Occasionally, Amma would call the staff to receive Darshan. I would like to share with you my diary entry about this:-

6/6/16

I don’t know how possible it is to put this into words…

Impossible.

*  *  *  *  *  *  *

But let me try.

Amma called us for Darshan in Seattle on Devi Bhava. As I entered the stage in the queue, I decided to make a prayer within. I said something like, ‘Amma, please assist me in focussing on the goal of this life: on realising God. Please help me to remain focussed even during this tour.’

As I laid my eyes upon her, hugging the person in front, tears welled up. I felt this love for her that was beyond anything I had ever experienced, and yet ordinarily human at the same time. I simply rejoiced within, at the sight of her. She moved my head around quite a bit before finally placing it on her heart, while she answered the questions of some devotees to her right. It always amazes me how one never feels left out in this scenario: Amma’s attention is deeply with each one of us simultaneously, which is testament to the sheer depth of oneness she is living. She then kissed my cheek and embraced me, chanting in my ear with a kind of vehemence in her voice, “My daughter! My daughter! My daughter!”, over and over again. I fell into total oneness…….. At the same time, the human being felt her as my teacher and as my mother – somewhere where those two are one and the same. And the experience of trust was overwhelming. As Amma finished the hug and handed me prasad, we drew back from one another and she looked deeply into my eyes. I cannot adequately express in words what I felt pass between us in that exchange: it was simply beyond the beyond. I then felt deep gratitude and expressed it somehow from oneness. Amma’s expression altered to one of such profound compassion….…something just too immense to convey. She embraced me again and then placed a chocolate in my mouth. That was the moment at which my searching gently stopped. My life’s search ceased in that moment. It was, perhaps, what many teachers have described as the end of seeking. Immediately after this I experienced true happiness: powerful, pure, authentic, unconditional happiness. I felt restored, redeemed – completely. There was total and utter wholeness. I’m not talking conceptually here, but actually. The real thing.

As I walked away, I collapsed on the stage in tears beside Amma. I was crying, and then I was sobbing; there was no way to do anything at all, and I couldn’t stop. But I was actually sobbing with happiness. My heart broke open under a force: that of revelation, unconditional happiness, union…Truth. Simultaneously, I experienced a spontaneous healing of my past, which came from nowhere. Dad’s death, the break-ups, the childhood trauma, the fear, isolation, despair, loss, loneliness, lack and doubt – all of these were consumed by something I cannot describe. I cried and cried, wiping my make-up from my face with my sleeve, only to cry uncontrollably again.

When the crying eventually stopped, I sat for a while. When I left the stage, I felt empty in the true sense of the word. Emptied of separation, of that heavy anxious burden. And the very subtle sense that something is missing, was gone. I could rest…finally, I could rest…… The feeling of resting and oneness were beautiful……profound. Paradoxically, there was an abundant feeling of vitality at the same time. But it was vitality without ownership. I realised that rest and vitality are the same thing. Eventually I went about the day, without saying a word about it to anyone.”

I hope you enjoy your day and that I get to see you soon 🙂

Love,

xDaisy

This Love

Hello 🙂

This is a new day,

This is a brand new day!

Your crimson tide washes over my heart,

This Love,

This Love…

I wish I could more accurately translate to you the sense of doing the 1000 Names this morning. It leaves a perfume, a scent, of such depth and bliss…and ultimately pure non-separation, oneness. If you are not doing a regular practice, I highly recommend starting today. Even if you only do a 15 minute meditation in the morning or at night, you will find that over time you begin to see clearly again, the way you used to as a child. To see things AS THEY ARE. What a huge privilege…! In fact, Amma has said:-

I didn’t come to teach anyone anything. I came to remind you of a song you once knew, but have since forgotten  ~ Amma

It’s quite a statement coming from an avatar, the one kind of being who actually can truly teach, directly, and with acute accuracy. So we can see then, that this enlightenment game is really not about teachers or teachings. It’s about something else entirely… I would dearly love to hear your thoughts on what it is about, so please write to me about this 🙂 Also, please do join me on Facebook. Search for Daisy Nokes. I know I went through a privacy period, but that is over now.

How did you fair over Shivaratri on Monday, followed by the solar eclipse and Picses supermoon on Tues and Wed? Yes, that much did happen! The Shiva day, from my point of view, is about stillness manifesting into creation (sometimes in a variety of ways 😉 and the solar eclipse creates a deep purging of old pain, so that new projects can blossom. The supermoon in Picses represents the unconscious of humanity, the collective unconscious, what is being denied, coming out and releasing. I would love to hear any stories you have about Mon, Tues and Wed 🙂

If you feel you would like to join in with weekly coming-togethers of like hearted souls, just to remind you that I am going to Villa Devi in London every week to sing and chant and be with Amma devotees. It is a deeply transformative and amazing way to deepen your practices or path and to gain the sense of community. Let me know if you would like to be put on their mailing list.

Some of the results I have been getting through working with the U-AP level of Vortex Healing are remarkable. A client rang me to say that she “couldn’t feel anything” and she was concerned that she was emotionally disconnected. But when I looked into her system I could see that the work we had done together was so transformative that she had lost an entire ‘place’ or position in consciousness from which she had been living her life up until now. That is the power of this healing art combined with the way I work with Amma. I always wanted something which could actually remove issues, not just make the prison more comfortable, but actually deconstruct the prison piece by piece. Thank goodness I found Amma and Vortex Healing and that I am able to share that deconstruction with you, in you. This is the deepest gift I have ever been given.

I also facilitated a session this week in which I worked on the core position underlying back pain that my client had had for over 8 years, and with which she had been working in a variety of very helpful ways. Yet somehow the pain remained. Immeditately after the session she was able to flex her lower back again and the pain was barely noticeable! She also remarked that her voice had changed. This is something wonderful which can happen after a session, as if the person is speaking from a different place and without something ‘in the way’, that something being the issue worked on.

There was also a beautiful moment when I was doing some awakening coaching with a client and I asked her (because she was feeling a lack of clarity) what clarity meant to her. She replied simply, “Knowing my Truth and moving towards it”. I knew immediately that it was a pivotal moment for this person, because once you speak so authentically out loud the Divine hears (and you yourself hear) that and the transformation of life truly begins anew.

Ok that’s all for now. A bit of a long one – thank you for bearing with me 🙂 I feel very over-excited!

Love to you, beautiful blessed being,

Daisy

Trust YourSelf, Trust the Deeper Intuition

Hello,

How are you? I hope this email finds you well.

Is anyone doing The Art of Meditation with Adyashanti at the moment? It is going beautifully I must say.

It has taken me a while to write this time due to a deep pull into Embodiment. Part of this draw (which looks human and messy by the way, not a ‘nice’ spiritualised ideal) has revealed the realisation that I will not be continuing with psychotherapy. Although I love the way in which my rigorous training moves now in my healing work with you, and although I will be continuing with Equine Assisted Therapy which is pure joy, working as a therapist is not for me.

I went through a natural process to get to this life changing conclusion, which I want to share with you, so that you can be empowered by it in your own choice making processes. As you know, there are conditionings in us which are so powerful that they can take years to work through and which dictate much of our lives as they are now. So, how do we become clear in the midst of all that sticky, forceful and destructive stuff when making an important decision? This is where intuition goes from being a ‘nice-to-have’ add-on that makes life more interesting, to being the place from which you live your life, simply because it is the expressive aspect of Truth itself.

To share some of my process with this: I had become convinced that I had to do an MA in psychotherapy and believed that this movement was coming from Truth itself. So I set about visiting universities and making applications etc. Before sleeping one night, I did the 300 Names (an Amma practice) in bed, as I sometimes do. At 5 30am I woke up bolt upright, with the sudden sense “What am I doing? I am not doing an MA!” At the time I decided to shelve this, thinking I couldn’t be clear in the space I was in at that moment. In the morning, I went to the forest (Highgate Woods) and sat for many hours in deep contemplation and meditation about the MA. I repeated this in my bedroom a couple more times in the proceeding days. Each time, I received the same clear answers. The key was that I had to wait…..

Here is my suggested way:-

First, contact Truth within very deeply and stay there (I suggest meditation for this). Then ask a very specific question towards whatever you sense as that Divine (Truth) within, whether that be Amma, true Self, a deity etc. And then, wait……. Don’t go for that reflex which wants to grab your attention and is pulling at you. The Truth never needs to pull, and doesn’t actually move at all. Listen, sense and be open for what doesn’t move. Let the true answer reveal itself in that place, in it’s own time and by it’s own terms. Adyashanti has called this “the knowing which arises from not knowing”. Patience, humility and courage are important here. In this way, you touch what is you and simultaneously beyond you. It is the impersonal becoming the personal, and is also free from both of these definitive boxes.

Another observation, which may be of use to those of you who experienced trauma of any kind in your infancy and early years, is that what is called dissociation in psychotherapy is on the other levels of us a deep energetic twist in the heart. It is where the child has twisted to get away from something unbearable (abandonment, violence, sexual invasion or any other kind of abuse trauma). This twist then ripples into the pericardium muscle fascia and pulls on the nerves in the neck, sometimes causing burning and pain, and also often interferes with the ears and hearing. So problems can be present in any or all of these areas, though the root is emotional-karmic-genetic. Once I had deepened into the emotional pain behind the dissociative patterning in me one day (triggered by the upcoming ending after 3 years with my therapist), and cried a lot, I could actually hear far more clearly the next day and my neck was totally relaxed and opened. Auspiciously, I happened to have a cranial sacral session booked with a friend that day, which further helped 🙂

Last but not least, do you or anyone you know want to go on a transformational yoga retreat? If so, I can highly recommend one here: http://www.thepracticesoffreedomandwellbeing.com

Bye for now,

Love,

Daisy

The Vortex Healing Way of Sensing / Psychic Perception

Hello 🙂

This weekend and last week I was lucky enough to have the opportunity to re-take the Vortex Healing classes Sensing and Advanced Sensing, with Anthony Gorman. I want to share with you some of what I discovered, in order to illustrate what you may be able to experience through taking classes in this amazing healing art, and also to share some of my journey since I am the person in service to your unfoldment when you have sessions with me.

Here is what I wrote in my notes on day 1 of Advanced Sensing:-

It’s only ever a question of awareness…….. There is no need to leave Truth, ever, full stop. In that sense, it is a choice. Do I want to be what I am, do I want to be as reality is – what reality is? Or do I want to be in illusion, trying to make things better (or worse), trying to get better, become something else, something different, something new? Is there something different, something new, other than this awake alive free fall that remains, despite all our attempts to distort and prevent it (because of our conditioning)?

It gives credence to Anthony’s reminder to us that this new and updated class is really assisting a very deep embodiment of whatever level of awakening has happened in each student. Also, and importantly, the Vortex Healing way of sensing is to sense from and as Awareness itself. This makes it different from most other kinds of healing modalities and sensing methods etc., which are often in reality accessing collected memory, on many different levels. In one way, that common technique is fine because one sees the story of a situation. But in another way, it could be seen as feeding the ego because it is not sensing the Truth of the situation, which would actually create more growth for the receiver.

Put in another way, Vortex Healing sensing is not about improving our ability to have experiences and see more ‘things’ – angels etc. It’s about awakeness waking up to itself in this moment, and from that the truth of the situation has space to arise.

Our looking for Sensing/Divinity/Love etc. makes us blind, because we’re coming from a perspective that is distorted by lack etc. – by deep conditioning. This new way is really about sensing without looking for anything. Sensing is on a need-to-know basis. We don’t sense what we don’t need to know. That’s why we often can’t see/get things we ‘want’, because that want point of view is coming from lack, or some other conditioning. We sense what we need to sense in that moment. As frustrating and sometimes terrifying as that is for the ego, that’s how it is.

To assist your own sensing ability, take what happened to me during lunch on the one-day Sensing class. This is an example of how simple all this really is and how helpful it can be:-

I was sitting in a busy restaurant with friends, trying to decide what to eat from the menu. My mind was telling me to have one dish and my body another. Usually, my story was that I should go with my body. But this time something else happened. When the waiter came, I ordered a different dish entirely, having no idea where this came from. In fact, I thought it was a dish I wouldn’t like, yet something – which wasn’t me – wanted to have it. So I went with that. The dish turned out to be so nourishing for my body and much better than anything the apparent me could have chosen. I also enjoyed it way more than I could have imagined. It was a laksa soup by the way, with chicken and coconut 😉

In this way, when you go with the Truth in any moment, because you have got to a point where you can feel that, the results are so much more deeply satisfying than anything your imagination could conjure up to tempt you with.

Are you aware that there is an Adyashanti online course starting very soon? It is called ‘The Art of Meditation’ and I am taking it, as are some of you I hear. I highly recommend these courses, even if (and perhaps especially if) you have never met Adya in person. Here is the link:-

http://www.adyashanti.org/index.php?file=specialeventsdetails6

Goodbye for now,

Love,

Daisy

Longing for the Divine

Hello,

How are you? I hope this correspondence finds you well. I want to share with you a poem I wrote some time ago about longing for the Divine. Listening to Adyashanti on the bus just now reminded me of it.

Oh what of this mystery?

I turn in the night,

Towards Love, towards You.

Here without motion,

Bathed in such Light.

You, who I can never have

And who never leaves.

Trails of longing remain,

Like vines

Cut off at the root.

Can I speak to You

Without opposition,

Without two?

Your gentle ears listen

Without existing.

A secret Life

Comes in the night.

I have begun attending satsang every week at Villa Devi in Brockley, South London, on Thursday nights. This is bringing oneness more deeply into my living life and I wanted to invite any of you who would be interested in coming. We sing bhajans, chant the Guru Stotra (like the 1000 Names) and perform other kinds of prayers to Amma. Contact me if you would like the details.

If you have not yet done so but would like to, you can sign up to have Mother Meera’s darshan here in London in February:-

http://mothermeera.org.uk/

Also, if you have not yet signed up but would like to, there is a waiting list for Adyashanti’s retreat this August. I recommend getting onto it asap if you want the chance of a lifetime to be on retreat in silence and with a truly gifted awakened guide:-

https://www.adyashanti.org/index.php?file=retreatsdetails&eventid=1221

Last but not least I would like to share something Amma once said:-

“I haven’t come to teach anyone anything. I have come to remind you of a song you once knew, but have since forgotten” – Amma

She utters such nectar with every breath…I thank the day I met this person. The only person I can call teacher and mean it.

I hope you are enjoying your week,

Love,

Daisy

The Significance of Following Your Intuition

Hello,

Happy New Year 🙂

I want to talk about something while I am in this ‘place’ as it were. Do you know how it is when you follow your intuition, including speaking that, even though it takes so much courage and it goes against your conditioned reflexes?

When I do this, as I did today, it is as if there is an atmosphere which fills the whole room or space…and the truth leaves a wake, waves which carry on. Yet everything is totally still, silent in its essence, and real. It is as if I am touching the depth of life itself, right here in my bedroom. Nothing and everything exists within this, and there is no ‘outside’ or ‘inside’. Simultaneously, my body quivers with the felt sense of oneness – like rushes down my legs and down through my crown. Perhaps this is where the absolute and the humanness meet?

To give the ‘story’ part of this, I would have to share something which I know the person involved would not want me to share. It is not one of you, but it feels wrong to detail this. Sorry to be vague.

On a different note, you will be pleased to hear that I received this from Ric recently:-

“This morning there was an upgrade to the U-AP and a major upgrade to the Protocol. My sense is that you will be able, when working through the Protocol for issues, to move at least twice as much in the same time frame, and deeper. Happy New Year!” (Ric Weinman)

The difference is palpable, so do get in contact if you would like to experience it. That’s all for now, as I can’t write more from this silence at the moment. I look forward to hearing from you though 🙂

Love,

Daisy

To surrender to the Divine is to not know

Hello,

I hope you are all well in the run-up to Christmas. Christmas is often a difficult time for people, as well as a time of joy, and I wanted to acknowledge that because I don’t think it gets much press (for obvious reasons). I am available over this period for support. The only days I will not be available are 24th Dec – 26th Dec and the 31st Dec – 1st Jan.

On writing this newsletter, I have just finished my practices: the 1000 Names followed by the IAM Technique (please ask for more details if you wish). The sense of stillness, peace and unconditional Love is immense… I cannot recommend these highly enough. The discipline of any practice, though, done with openness of heart and regularity, brings you back to You. In the wintertime particularly, there exists this opportunity to flow into ourselves, deep within, to the Source, to the Light within darkness – the great deep midnight Light of awakeness.

I saw the most wonderful film last week, which you can find on Netflix. It is called ‘Awake’ and it documents the life of Paramahamsa Yogananda. The whole film is an amazing journey, and there was one part specifically which made a deep impression on me. It was when Yogananda was giving a speech in New York in the 1920s (around 15mins into the film) and he spoke about the centre of us being the spine; if you go in there, he said, “…you meet the Maker”. On hearing him speak these words, I spontaneously burst into tears and was pulled deep into my spine and into what he was speaking of, through the vehicle of emotional pain. I cried and cried and felt all this conditioning rush up my spine and out through my crown, while my sense-awareness naturally remained within the spine / gut area, expanding all the while, like a dissolution as Oneness. That was my experience of this great piece of filmmaking. If you watch it, I would love to hear about it.

I have been particularly struck by the sessions we have been doing together of late, and would like to share some of what you have said about them. After a session which cleared the issue of sorrow in one go, the receiver reported that she experienced the issue as being completely gone: she said that when she looked inside to find that place which had been there before, “there was nothing there – it was empty”. This is the joy of Vortex Healing®. It is amazing that it is able to get to issues deeply enough as to actually revive this natural experience. This doesn’t often happen in one session, but in this case it did.

In another session, I learned so much from my client. After talking awhile post-treatment, she said these simple yet profound words: “To surrender to the Divine is to not know”. It struck me right to my heart. Not only was it true for her, but it also pertained to current challenges in my own life. I felt these words coming from her real Self – not from something she had heard or rehearsed, but from that genuine place when innocence lives and thrives.

I have also had a few experiences where something takes over during a healing and I am no longer facilitating the healing at all – Divinity is simply pouring through as the natural expression of Life itself, faced with what needs to be transformed. That is something of deep personal significance to me, so I wanted to share it.

I also want to thank you for the deep compliments you have paid me in these past weeks. I won’t share what was said here, because it feels wrong, but you know who you are – thank you 🙂 I am not good at receiving these, but that doesn’t mean I don’t, and it is so very important for me to hear the good stuff, as well as the constructive criticisms you may have.

As always, these are just a few of the stories that have happened, and every single healing session is beautiful and deeply important.

Wishing you Love, Truth, whole-beingness,

Daisy