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Oct 4

Free Online Group Healing : tomorrow 5/10/22

Hello 🙂

If you would like to attend the next Free Online Group Healing, it is tomorrow 5th October @ 1pm BST. NB: please attend only if you can remain on Zoom for the duration (1hr). Here is the link you need for booking :-

Please note that you need to pre-book. You can also book as many Groups as you like in advance. 

“When the body becomes still, the mind follows” ~ Suzuki Roshi

I learned this during a Sunday community meditation practice with Mukti. For those of you who don’t know her, she is Adyashanti’s wife, both a teacher in her own right and the leader of Open Gate Sangha since Adya’s sabbatical. It was one of those moments when the words just went right through me……..and landed inside. I recognised something which had been taught to me so many times before, but which I was not then ready to actually hear. Can any of you meditators relate to this..? I think I will just leave it at that (instead of adding more words or ideas) in order to leave space for contemplation of that statement by the renowned Zen master. If you would like to attend the meditation sessions, please email me for details. 

Here is an interview with the Dalai Lama, in which he weaves a lovely talk based on his appreciation of the Quantum physicist David Bohm. I love the way in which he points his finger when he speaks. That, combined with a wisdom he just radiates, reminds me of my late great uncle, Brendan O’Toole, who died very recently in his late 90s. Brendan would use his hands in the same manner during our wonderings together, which were often based around Christ in ordinary life. Brendan was one of only a tiny handful of people in my family who were on a conscious awakening path, and our connection was very tender and meaningful to me. I hope you enjoy the interview 🙂

I also thought to let you know that I have moved home. Mostly, it was intuition. In addition, there was a kind of (new) dark energy coming into my bedroom from neighbours on one side of the house, which was impacting my body, dreams and sleep every night. I am now at my Mum’s house and I plan to move to east London in the New Year. From there, I will be able to meet up with most of my friends and other family members more easily.

For Private Sessions here is the link. You will receive an email (or text if you request this when booking) with which you can rearrange or cancel up to 24hrs before the start time :- 

Please do not contact me regarding scheduling, rearranging or cancelling : instead, utilise the email you receive from Calendly for this purpose. It could end up in your spam, so please check.

NB: lateness, no-showing or cancelling / rearranging less than 24 hrs in advance of the session time, will result in you being charged in full.

There is a remaining opportunity to take the Foundational training in Vortex Healing very soon, but you will need to book this asap. Here are a few details from Anthony Gorman :-

Foundational Training: 27-31st October

https://anthonygorman.org/Foundational.html

…region 4, and anyone in region X can also join as a first-timer: https://www.vortexhealing.org/Policy-BookingVirtualWorkshops.pdf

…a few spots for repeaters…….if you feel drawn to join, you can book directly on https://www.anthonygorman.org/AdvancedTrainings.html

‘Yantra Fridays’ with Anthony are back on 🙂 These are free and they are seva (selfless service) for the earth and humanity. Anyone who has completed the Foundational training (or above) can participate. Please contact me if you would like to do this and do not have the details to join. 

Did you know that you can see Amma live online every day? What a wonder…we are so blessed and graced to have the chance to be with a living Divine incarnation – a pure and direct embodiment of Divinity in human form – so regularly and easily 🙂 🙂 🙂 It is the first time in the history of the world that this is the case. Ever since the original pandemic lock-down, Amma has been providing this spiritual lifeline to all those who have met Her in-person or who have done seva for Embracing The World. If you are already watching – fab (and hopefully this is also a reminder) – but if you qualify and don’t yet have access, please write to me and I will explain how. Amma is currently back in the ashram in India (Amritapuri) and you are free to visit 🙂 

Love,

xDaisy

Aug 19

Free Online Group Healing : Wed 24th Aug

Hello 🙂

If you would like to attend the next Free Online Group Healing, it is this Wed 24h August @ 1pm BST. NB: please attend only if you can remain on Zoom for the duration (1hr). Here is the link you need for booking :-

Please note that you need to pre-book. You can also book as many Groups as you like in advance. 

Please feel free to invite people to the Groups via this booking link. If they would like to receive this newsletter, a message to me via WhatsApp, Telegram or regular text containing their email address is good.

For Private Sessions with me, here is the link. You will receive an email (or text if you request this when booking) with which you can rearrange or cancel up to 24hrs before the start time, if you wish :- 

I request that you do not contact me about rearranging, cancelling or scheduling: please utilise the email from Calendly for this. It may end up in your spam / junk box, so please check.

NB: lateness, no-showing, cancelling / rearranging less than 24 hrs in advance of the session time will result in you being charged in full.

I had a sweet request from one of you during the last session, to include the passage I read from Adyashanti’s book ‘Sacred Inquiry’. Here it is for your enjoyment 🙂

“What allows this ultimate letting go, this unreserved surrender? Of course there can be no formula, no way to let go. I am sitting here in my living room, late at night, writing this response to you. You are here with me as I am there with you, and I can feel that in the deepest place within you is the complete willingness to let go completely; it has already let from before the beginning of time. Yet here you are wondering what can bring about this letting go. Such is the final paradox. 

You cannot do it because it has already been done, but you must still find this letting go within yourself, allow it to bloom and flower completely. 

What a divine paradox, to find a letting go that has let go from before the beginning of time. We do not do the letting go as much as we embrace it, give everything without reserve to it. It is a matter of love, is it not? And it is the courage to die for what we love, to give everything without holding back, without reserve, without expecting anything in return, not even a better life or a better experience. 

Our deepest desire is for truth or God, is it not? And not just for how God can be experienced by self, but how God is experienced by God – something neither the ego nor self can ever know. The infinity of the infinite will always be experienced as annihilation to self when self comes to its own boundary and imagines what is beyond it. 

Love truth, love the infinite, love God, with all your heart. Do not love your experiences of truth, but rather love truth as it is within itself. Take leave of yourself; flow out from yourself completely in all things. We all must die into life out of love, and thus embrace life lived beyond all self. We must become what we already are and let go into what has never held on.

How do you breathe? You just breathe. How do you embrace this letting go? You just embrace it. It’s like breathing out, continually. It’s an emptying out of all uneccessary ‘selfing’.” (Pg 118 – 119)

Love,

xDaisy

Aug 4

Free Online Group Healing : Wed 10th Aug

Hello 🙂

If you would like to attend the next Free Online Group Healing, it is happening this Wednesday 10th August @ 1pm BST. NB: please attend only if you can remain on Zoom for the duration (1hr). Here is the link you need for booking :-

Please note that you need to pre-book. You can also book as many Groups as you like in advance. 

Please feel free to invite people to the Groups via this booking link. If they would like to receive this newsletter, a message to me via WhatsApp, Telegram or regular text containing their email address is good.

For Private Sessions with me, here is the link. You will receive an email (or text if you request this when booking) with which you can rearrange or cancel up to 24hrs before the start time, if you wish :- 

I request that you do not contact me about rearranging, cancelling or scheduling: please utilise the email from Calendly for this. It may end up in your spam / junk box, so please check.

NB: lateness, no-showing, cancelling / rearranging less than 24 hrs in advance of the session time will result in you being charged in full.

Love,

xDaisy

May 17

Free Online Group Healing : Tomorrow

Hello 🙂

Often when I am preparing for the Group, I will read something which spontaneously makes me burst into tears. Perhaps the Divine arranges it this way so I don’t cry the whole way through the Group – lol! Because they are certainly worthy of that: the courage and the tenderness and love which run like threads through all these Groups are stunning. Plus, being as an emotional a being as I am (yet also so very guarded at the same time) often gives me the sensation that I could burst like this at any moment. Or perhaps it is the purity of life which does this to me. The purity and the joy and the pain and the suffering – all of it. Don’t you feel that being alive is the most amazing adventure? We never know what is coming next or how anything will be or look. It’s like life is continuously arising to greet itself, without any preconceived notions or pattern. I find that happy chaos very nourishing. Sometimes it is expressed well in free jazz. 

Anyway, one such thing which brought on those tears was reading this observation by Rupert Spira :-

“The greatest discovery in life is to discover that our essential nature does not share the limits nor the destiny of the body and mind” 

If you would like to attend the next Free Online Group Healing, it is happening tomorrow Wed 18th May @ 1pm GMT. NB: please attend only if you can remain on Zoom for the duration (1hr). Here is the link you need for booking :-

Please note that you need to pre-book. You can also book as many Groups as you like in advance. 

For Private Sessions with me, you will receive an email (or text if you requested this when booking) with which you can rearrange or cancel your session, if you wish. That email may wind up in your spam / junk box, so please check. Here is the link to book Private Sessions:-

Please never contact me about rearranging, cancelling or scheduling : instead, simply utilise the email sent to you by Calendly for this very purpose.

And please also note that lateness, no-showing, cancelling or rearranging less than 24 hrs in advance of the session time will result in you being charged in full for that session. Thank you 🙂 

As a closing note today, I would like to share this short video of Adyashanti in conversation with Loch Kelly :-

Love,

xDaisy

Apr 19

Free Online Group Healing : Tomorrow, plus new Amma film :-) 

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I am feeling fab after my holiday in Greece 🙂 🙂 🙂 I am excited to see you all and facilitate this next Group 🙂 It is tomorrow 20th April, so if you would like to attend @ 1pm GMT, here is the link you need for booking :-

Please note that you need to pre-book. You can also book as many Groups as you like in advance. 

For Private Sessions with me, you will receive an email (or text if you requested this when booking) with which you can rearrange or cancel your session, if you wish. That email may wind up in your spam / junk box, so please check. Here is the link to book Private Sessions:-

Please never contact me about rearranging, cancelling or scheduling : instead, simply utilise the email sent to you by Calendly for this very purpose.

And please also note that lateness, no-showing, cancelling or rearranging less than 24 hrs in advance of the session time will result in you being charged in full for that session. Thank you 🙂 

There is a new Amma film coming soon, from a female Italian director 🙂 Here is the trailer:-

If you would like to support Ukraine, you can donate here:-

https://www.paypal.com/donate/?hosted_button_id=86GSDHXVKGYU6

On holiday, I began to delve deeper into Adyashanti’s book ‘Sacred Inquiry’. I would like to recommend it as reading for you and I invite you to engage with it without any preconceived notions about awakening, even those gathered from Vortex Healing classes or sessions.

See you tomorrow I hope 🙂

Love and care,

xDaisy

Aug 23

Free Online Group Healing: this Wednesday 25/8/21

Hello 🙂

The next Free Online Group Healing is this Wednesday 25/8/21 @ 1pm BST. NB: please attend only if you can remain on Zoom for the duration (1hr) :-

Please use the Contact page to contact me about this event. Thank you 🙂

See you there I hope 🙂 

Love,

xDaisy

Jun 1

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Tomorrow: Free Online Group Healing

Hello 🙂

The next Free Online Group Healing is tomorrow 2nd June @ 1pm BST. NB: please attend only if you can remain on Zoom for the duration (1hr).

Please write to the address on the ‘Contact’ page if you would like to be added to the email invites for these Groups. Thank you 🙂

I wanted to let you know that Adyashanti is facilitating guided meditations fortnightly on Sundays. Please see this link for details : https://adyashanti.opengatesangha.org/programs/online/sunday-community-practice.html

And Marlies Cocheret is facilitating a meditation session on Wednesday evenings weekly. Check it out: https://www.marliescocheret.com/guided-meditations-online

I cannot recommend these teachers highly enough and to say that they have changed my life would truly be an understatement. Please explore 🙂

See you tomorrow hopefully,

Love,

xDaisy

Apr 20

Free Online Group Healing: What Do You Value Most?

Hello 🙂

The next Free Online Group Healing is tomorrow @ 1pm BST. Thank you to those of you who have already booked. NB: please book only if you can DEFINITELY attend the session, and if you can remain on Zoom for the duration (1hr):-

https://www.wuji-web.uk/daisy

Please note another free event : every Friday @ 6pm BST, open to all Vortex students who have completed Foundational class – Yantra Fridays, with Anthony Gorman. Login details are posted regularly on the VortexHealers Group or the EarthWorks Group pages on Facebook.

I think it can be easy, when we are on an awakening path for a long time (or even if we are just beginning), to lose sight of what it is that truly took us there. Another way of saying this is that it is surprisingly easy, especially when getting into lots of complexity regarding technique or spiritual community, to forget what it is that one truly values most. 

Yet without this rudder guiding our boat, we can end up in muddy or sometimes even dangerous waters. Dangerous – usually – in the sense of life consequences or of spiritualised ego. This week we are going to explore what we value most – not conceptually, but really. I will use guided meditation and Vortex Healing to assist you in your inquiry, although fundamentally such inquiry is guided from within. Just giving a little space for that…….can often be so helpful in the flourishing of your inner longing, fire and values. 

My inspiration for addressing this subject came out of the connected closeness I have with one of my best friends and from Adyashanti’s seminal work ‘The Way of Liberation: a practical guide to spiritual enlightenment’ – a book I highly recommend if you feel drawn. 

I am feeling the Love and sending it to you. You are more precious than you could ever imagine and far less of an individual than you could ever imagine too 🙂 

Love,

xDaisy

Mar 15

EarthShift 2021

Hello 🙂 

How are you?

I am buzzing and smiling today, from having taken the EarthShift class (which finished yesterday night) plus the day before that repeating Sensing 1. Some of you were there too 🙂 🙂 🙂 I don’t know how coherent this email will be – lol! But it’s worth a try, since I feel moved to write to you. 

The EarthShift itself was certainly the biggest we have ever facilitated as a lineage. The magnitude of that world event is simply impossible to convey in words. But what I can say is that the intention behind it was to alter a point of choice for humanity as a whole, in a radical way. There was a Choice Point 200,000 years ago, where humanity went down a darker path into conflict and violence. It’s obvious anywhere you look in history how that has played out. Why was this choice made, you may ask? More about choices later in this email. Back in the March 2019 EarthShift, we dissolved that ancient Choice Point. In this EarthShift, we manifested a New Choice Point for humanity, to take us into a path more aligned with Truth, Freedom and Divinity – as a whole human species. 

When you step outside today, please take a moment to feel the atmosphere in nature or in a person you are talking to. The EarthShift has left everything much lighter…….and whatever transformation has occurred is permanent, even though the feeling of that may not be permanent because it seems to go to the background of our awareness over time (and even though the effects of this transformation are entirely unpredictable). I’m not sure I can express much else about this event right now, as I am in the digestion phase. What I am eager to share with you are a few notes I made from classes. This is one of the most precious things about taking Vortex Healing classes – the discussions. We all learn so much from the teachers and from one another, and I want to share some of it with you. I have also added a sprinkling of my own wisdom, gathered during the course of my path. 

Sensing: people often wonder, “Why can’t I sense?” Actually everyone can sense, as it is an in-built human capacity. What blocks sensing is usually trauma, fear or anxiety, because of the way they create a shut-down against experience, which then gets stuck inside and carried forward. We need to stop ignoring, and feel what is there. As we process more and more, sensing usually follows. 

Strangely enough, people sometimes ‘lose’ their sensing ability when they take a Vortex Healing class in sensing. This is because they had been sensing from an out-of-body space, which they had originally landed in due to trauma etc. In these cases, what usually happens is that sensing goes away and then returns later on, when it is more aligned with Truth and Divinity. 

From a Vortex Healing perspective, there is nothing but Divine Choice. There was never any decision which was not made by Divinity itself, and there is no separate individual person with the power or the control to do so. Let’s take an apparent individual person, for example: there is all this conditioning going on constantly inside them… At any given moment, the Divine either allows that conditioning to play out, or it tweaks it a little. Occasionally it tweaks it a lot. This whole ‘play’ is going on all the time, not only when we notice it. This is so amazing to me… 

However, it’s not that ‘nothing matters’ or we don’t need to assume responsibility; it is more akin to a comment Adyashanti once made on this subject, which was that we have none of the power, but all of the responsibility. This responsibility is perhaps best taken in doing the inner work we know we need to do, or being around a genuine awake teacher, or simply daring to unchain ourselves in a difficult situation and do what the Divine is guiding us to do, rather than what we impulsively feel like doing. As we grow and mature in terms of awakeness, there is more ‘room’ (so-to-speak) for the Divine to come through untethered. All of this is not entirely accurate to say, but it’s the best I can do. 

The secret fantasy about sensing Truth is something like, “If I sense the truth of this situation / decision, then it will lead me to not suffer / into a path of less pain.” The reality about sensing Truth is that when we actually sense it – and follow what we sense – it will lead us into whatever we need to experience for our path. Be that suffering or not suffering (or any variation in between). The bigger picture is that, in a manner of speaking, Divinity is trying to get us to a particular place in our path. It doesn’t actually mind what it needs to do to get us there, or what that looks or feels like; it is not so concerned about that, because its true concern is so much vaster.

The idea that everything is a reflection of what is inside us is actually not a particularly useful one. More useful may be to see where we are reacting. These are the relationships or situations in which our remaining conditioning is being revealed – and that is very useful, because then we can directly experience what our issue is and work through it. Just by being aware of where we are reacting, we already have one foot out – into Freedom. This begins the journey of dissolving the conditioning, which certainly requires self-effort and the right tools for the job. 

The next Free Online Group Healing is next week. Please contact me via messaging for individual sessions, or if easier just Google ‘Wuji Web’ and book me on the system there. Remember that I have a package of 3 sessions at a discount. 

Enjoy yourself, and know that you are part of a lighter human race now 🙂

Love to you,

xDaisy

Feb 21

Short Reminder of Important Transformations in my Healing Practice

Hello 🙂

I am writing about some important transformations in my healing practice. This is a reminder for those who missed the last group email. 

What is staying the same :-

The Group Healings remain free 🙂

Prices are equal for Private Sessions and Space Clearings

In-person sessions are still not allowed

What is changing :-

Sessions are available 7 days per week. Yes, this means I am working weekends 🙂 

Session hours each day are: 10am until 6pm (NB, these are thefirst and the last start times) 

Sessions are 1 hour

Sessions are £85

There is a new Package Deal, saving you money. This is a package of 3 sessions for £240

Please message or call using WhatsApp, text, FB Messenger or Telegram with any questions you may have. Everything is effective immediately (not including sessions booked before the last group email). 

I hope you are having a wonderful peace-filled weekend 🙂  

Love,

xDaisy

Jul 31

“A bad day for your ego, is a good day for your soul” ~ Amma

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I am well and noticing a flow of Grace into my life recently. Feeling blessed 🙂 I really enjoyed going to see Amma’s close devotee, Brahmachari Shubamrita, when he gave his talk ‘Finding Our True Home’ here in London on Sunday. It was wonderful to be with someone through whom I feel Amma moves so deeply, and to be with my community. It was fantastic that some of you could make it! I was delighted to see you there! Please email me with any further thoughts you have about your experiences at this beautiful event.

What I feel was really conveyed by Br. Shubamrita, is that there is no real home outside our True Self. That, in itself, is radical – if you really take a moment to absorb it. The Brahmachari (a type of monk who has taken vows) went on to tell us a little story about this. Back in the 80s, when the crowds around Amma were very very small, he asked her to come and visit him in his home. At first she seemed not to hear him, so he left it. Then, once he had another opportunity, he again invited Amma to his home. This time Amma laughed and said, “My son, I am always in your home, but you are never there. You are always wandering somewhere else.”

Shubamrita highlighted the crucial importance of regular spiritual practice (sadhana) in bringing us back into the Self, into the space of Silence inside, which is also the only place that true happiness is found. And another, perhaps even more important way of ‘staying at home’ he said, is to spend time with masters like Amma in person; in other words, to be with a being who is permanently rooted in the Self, until we ourselves can really say that we are. I agree that, without the direct physical presence of a Self-Realised Master, the likelihood of true abidance as the Self is vaguely possible, at best.

The highlight of the visit by Amma’s close devotee, from my perspective, was the music. Bhajan bliss 🙂 🙂 🙂 It has been said that music tries to express what language cannot. I think a bhajan – when sung by someone whose heart is truly with God – takes this statement to its ultimate conclusion. The only thing I can relate it to, if you have not experienced this particular thing, is making love. Are we not also trying in this, to express that for each other which language fails to? Furthermore, that is really what the Bhakti path (the path of devotion) is, in a far more profound sense. Perhaps along similar lines, it could be said that Bhakti actually succeeds in expressing what making love comes close to. There is this completion with Bhakti that is utterly total……like a circle being drawn, coming together again, with God as the artist.

Events coming up which you might be interested in:-

Tony Parsons will be giving a talk on the 3rd August in London

https://www.theopensecret.com/meetings

A reminder about this very rare opportunity to be in satsang with Adyashanti in London (16th August)

https://www.alternatives.org.uk/event/satsang-adyashanti

A daylong retreat with his wife, Mukti, 18th August

https://www.muktisource.org/programs/in-person/intensives-detail/london-silent-retreat-day-1488

Anthony Gorman is running a Vortex Healing® Foundational training in London, 2nd – 6th October (please book in advance to avoid disappointment)

https://www.vortexhealing.org/Schedule2019.pdf

I would like to highlight my cancellation policy: it is fine to cancel or rearrange a session 24 hrs or more in advance. If it is after that though, then the session will be charged in full.

I leave you with the title of this newsletter, taken from a different story told to us by Br. Shubamrita: “A bad day for your ego, is a good day for your soul” ~ Amma.

Love,

xDaisy

Jun 11

Is it personal?

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I am well. I have recently been thinking and talking about the turn that happens during embodiment of awakening. I am talking about the turn from the personal to the impersonal. From taking everything personally (and therefore seriously) to a way of being that is totally impersonal, no matter what the circumstance is. It’s not a turn that is made, yet it is a turn which happens. A person in this no longer experiences themselves at the centre of their life and therefore, naturally, things are no longer taken personally. But even more than that, there is this movement into the impersonal, which seems to have endless depth, life, laughter and compassion. Life goes from ‘trying to get what the me wants (and thinking that that is very important)’ to a simple following through of the Truth and Love at the heart of the original awakening. But you can’t fake this! It can only happen of its own accord, like the way in which a flower opens. Then life lives through the humanness, so to speak, without any regard for whether that humanness likes what is coming through, or it doesn’t like it. After all, there is so much more at stake than that, because ultimately this entire ‘thing’ is kind-of like unstrategised service for the whole – for everything and everyone – yet not from anyone. Truly self-less service, which is nothing more than an outpouring of formless awakeness into forms. Far from being cold, this impersonal movement is full of Love and tenderness, without any special person it is directed to (or from, for that matter) and without any specific direction. What gets revealed is Uncaused Love, uncaused joy, uncaused everything…

Are any of you coming to see Adyashanti on the evening of the 16th August for his rare satsang in London…? Tickets may still be available through Alternatives. Even if they aren’t, if I were you I would turn up and try to get in. Adya is simply priceless….. Who else is there to see, really? – I often ask myself. In my opinion, no popular teacher is more embodied in their awakening and at the same time has the kind of bridging power he has. For example, in answering questions, he can bridge into the questioner in a way that creates real movement in terms of Truth. This ‘action’ requires Love, compassion, skill and training – but most of all, the ability to remain rooted in Truth in a very deep way indeed. Adya’s wife Mukti is giving a retreat (daylong) in London on the Sunday, and there are definitely still tickets available for that : www.adyashanti.org . I wasn’t taken with her work the first time I saw her, but a good friend recently changed my mind about her and I experienced a real turnaround (I ‘grocked’ her, as Adya would say :-), so I am booked onto that.

For those of you who know and love Amma (Sri Mata Amritanandamayi Devi), the new MA Centre UK (in Bromley) needs willing help from loving hands. If you love doing seva and would like to get involved – even casually, or as a one-off – please contact me or Vakees / Yamunah at vakeesyam@fastmail.fm. I will be there on Sunday.

It occurred to me on the bus last week, that if you remove the L from Loneliness you get Oneliness. That made me smile 🙂 It really is like this. Real life is like this, because Loneliness is the ultimate sensation of separation from your Divinity, and Oneliness is that Divinity.

I’ll leave you on that note for now. Wishing to see you soon 🙂

Love,

xDaisy

May 13

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Divinity Intended

Hello 🙂

How are you? I am very well and settling into my new home in South East London. Yes, I have moved 🙂 I had no idea what a real home with the most appropriate energies around you could do for a person… It really is amazing how different I feel about everything and how much freer I feel on a human level.

I would like to share with you this piece of writing I did about 3 years ago, which I uncovered during the move. I wrote it on a retreat, held by my friends Chetana and Will. I hope that perhaps it carries you somewhere:-

Divinity Intended

I cannot speak…for talking this out is nothing at all anymore. This Silence bears witness to all of that and is also all of that. No need for words anymore. My silent spoken friend, awareness, finally stayed after his tea was drunk.

I saw what is true for me and accepted the somehow burden of it. This being done, You came in again. Then, the deeper revelation – the surrender……. No holding back this time. You showed me all, You revealed Yourself in the night, in the day, in the detail – all at once. That timeless moment – Now. All my burdens are laid down in You. All my heavy weighty blindness and my deafness to Your song is gone. Now I see it all. The game that I played – You knew my every move. You were always bathing it in that Light, yet only now can I see this.

What needs to happen, needs to happen. Yes, this is true. But what I failed to understand was the pitch perfect way this is all going. The sheerness of a thousand songs called out in Your name. It must be as it is and as it will be. You are the One, I am That. I found You again, and in the finding, I am no longer me. No longer isolated from You, my beautiful Muse, my all, my everything. I didn’t know that this way is the way. This precise way which you are unfolding… Divinity Intended. Not outside anymore, not happening to a me. Divinity Intended. A button unbuttoned and a comb combed. The jeans and the hair of Existence.

What has to happen…it’s unfolding, opening – at Its pace alone. Only Your rhythm exists. You lovemaker… It’s all happening now, and now, and now. There is no other; no other at all. This is Your game, and I feel no distance from You anymore. Somehow, I have not transferred this, not managed to translate this – the incredible depth of what is here.

Upcoming events you may be interested in:-

Monthly Satsangs are now held at the MA Centre UK (Amma’s ashram in Bromley) 🙂 Please email vakeesyam@fastmail.fm 

Marlies Cocheret is offering a websang meditation group (by donation) each Wednesday, at 6pm (UK time): https://www.marliescocheret.com/

Tony Parsons is having his next Open Discussion in Hampstead on the 1st June:-

http://www.theopensecret.com/talks.html#london

My wonderful housemates are offering a concert at Alternatives (in Piccadilly) on the 3rd June. Please contact me re: tickets. They are actually upstairs singing as I write this 🙂 🙂 🙂 Here they are in action:-

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m88nld_V5aA

Rupert Spira is next appearing in London on the 7th June in Marylebone:-

https://non-duality.rupertspira.com/meet

And finally, if you would like to go on retreat with Adyashanti in England this August, you can still get on the waiting list (which many people end up getting onto retreat from, in my experience) : https://www.adyashanti.org/programs/in-person/retreats-detail/england-5-night-retreat-1449

 

I would like to remind you that sessions are now 1 & 1/4 hrs and are priced as so:-

Call-out (in your home) = £100

Barbican venue = £90

Distance healing = £75

Please make a note of these changes if you have not already done so. Please also note that the quickest and easiest way to get hold of me is via a message of some kind, or a phonecall.

Love to you and bye for now,

xDaisy

Feb 15

Fierce Grace

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I will get straight to the point today. I’m afraid I have some shocking and sad news which I want to share with you as a matter of transparency and authenticity. Within the last few weeks, Steve has ended our engagement and our relationship. I think we are both still in shock about this. The change is drastic, especially on a human life earth level. Knowing him as well as I do, I know that he would not have done this without good reasons, even though these reasons are only partially clear at the moment.

In facing and working through the extreme emotions and thoughts I am having, I am moving gradually into acceptance. Slowly, I am developing trust in what is happening. And when my intuition visits, it seems to be saying Yes to the ending of my partnership with Steve. I am left in astonishment at how unpredictable the dynamic aspect of Truth is.

As self-care, I have decided to take my upcoming time at the ashram in India with Amma (7th March – 8th April) to focus on healing myself. Before and after this period I am still working, so please don’t be shy about asking for sessions.

Love and best wishes to you,

xDaisy

Nov 26

Journey Into The Heart

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I am well and enjoying the build-up to my trip to be with Amma in India tomorrow 🙂 I will have to make this newsletter very brief and a little speedy I’m afraid.

I will be away from tomorrow 27th Nov – 22nd Dec. Please note that I will have limited digital access while on the ashram, but you can try me on WhatsApp, Messenger and email.

I would love to hear any stories about your experiences of Amma’s recent visit to Surrey if you would like to share them. I had an absolutely wicked time! Just loved it! And through our seva (selfless service) in the massage area, our team made £7000 for Amma’s charity ‘Embracing The World’ 🙂 In case you didn’t know (since it is a unique attribute, as far as I know) Amma’s entire organisation is run without anyone being paid. No money which comes in goes to any person within the organisation. All work is carried out voluntarily and for free, with people donating their valuable attention, effort and time to make all the incredible things which Embracing The World achieves possible. This means that everything generated can go directly to assist people living in poverty, orphaned, hit by natural disasters, homeless, in need of life-saving surgery – the list goes on and on. Particularly impressive is Amma’s work to empower women in India by giving them grants to start their own businesses, after learning that poverty is best alleviated through women generating income.

www.embracingtheworld.org

Some exciting events coming up:-

Bromley ashram will be opening some time in the New Year. We are all working hard to make this possible 🙂 When it is up and running there will be satsangs, talks and all kinds of activities going on there. It feels very special for Amma to have a centre in the UK at last, after decades of trying to find a place 🙂

I advise booking now for Adyashanti in London for a very rare satsang on the 16th Aug next year. See ‘Alternatives’ or ‘EventBrite’ sites. Adya is also doing retreats in both Holland and Woldingham (Surrey) just before this, and you can enter the waiting list for these here: www.adyashanti.org

There is a Foundational training in Vortex Healing® in London in February – see www.vortexhealing.com

Ok, I better finish packing! See you after the 22nd Dec, and enjoy yourselves 🙂

Lots of Love,

xDaisy

Aug 22

“The silent abyss beyond all knowing” ~ Adyashanti

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I am in the midst of a potent time in my life, between the retreat I have just completed with Adyashanti and the time I am about to spend with Amma. I feel such wonderment and gratitude about this. They are the only words I can find in this moment to express how I am feeling. I don’t know why my life is this way – so filled with Divine opportunities – and why it is not another way. I can only bow down before the Grace that brought this all here.

The way I feel from being on the 7 day silent meditation retreat with Adyashanti is that I have now put all my eggs in one basket – that of Silence. There is this abiding trust now in the wisdom of Silence itself. On the level of experience (as it could be called), the Silence has become the foreground. It is hard to give an explanation of what this means for anyone who is struggling to understand (which may be no one of course). But here is an excerpt from my diary on retreat, of a particular day when this started to open fully:-

“Something really beautiful began to happen during the Silent Sittings today. I could, and still can, see all the way through my thoughts. I experience that absolutely everything arising there is conditioning. Previously, I had been assigning Truth to many many things…… Now I see that none of this is Truth. The contraction deep in my belly when something comes up is not Truth – it is conditioning. It’s the same with the things people say to me, and what arises in me in reactivity – conditioning. None of this is Truth. I am finally free.

I don’t say this as a grand statement about enlightenment. I mean simply that I am free from the grip of my mind and my deep emotional conditioning, inasmuch as I see it for what it is. It is no longer fooling me. I see through it all in a clear way. I am free.

In a sense it could be said that in the meditations, I perceived what arose in the Silence and the Silence itself as distinct from one another. And perhaps this is why Silence is often likened to the unknown. Because it is that – Silence is unknown and unknowing everything.”

I have decided to take my upcoming time in India off work for self-care and to volunteer for Amma’s charity ‘Embracing the World’, in their efforts to care for those affected by the flooding in Kerala.

This means I will be unavailable from the 30th August to the 26th September.

I will have limited digital contact, so you are welcome to try me. But please be aware that I cannot give sessions during that time.

Wishing you love and freedom from the heart of Silence,

xDaisy

Aug 10

Manifesting Intention Review

Hello 🙂

How are you? This email is a little late in coming to you, but I have finally had the chance to gather my thoughts from the last Vortex Healing training – Manifesting Intention – which I completed at the end of May.

Before I get started on that, I want to remind you that I am fortunate enough to be attending a silent meditation retreat with Adyashanti from tomorrow until the 18th August. This means absolutely no digital contact during that time.

Another reminder, as not everyone realises yet, I have the venue in Barbican back on Wednesdays, for those of you who cannot (or prefer not to) be treated at home. Distance sessions continue as normal. I have decided to keep my price the same, rather than raising, having looked into it with the support of Amma and Merlin (the Divine Being at the heart of Vortex Healing).

So, what do we mean by ‘Manifesting Intention’? Firstly, it’s important to explain that this has nothing to do with the plethora of techniques about getting what you want. This has to do with alignment and rooting inside Divinity, and then meeting that as it manifests through creation. One way of thinking about it is that it’s the Divine getting what it wants: you being the Divine at the deepest level of what you are, but certainly not on the level of ego or I or mine / me. Manifesting Intention is not about manifesting ‘my will’. As a healer, the difference between this and everything else we have in Vortex Healing is that I am going directly to Divine Intention at the point that it arises in creation, and channelling from there. We now use the term ‘re-manifesting’ instead of ‘transforming’ or ‘clearing’, because to heal what is being healed we are actually helping to re-manifest the Divinity from inside what is off. Now, of course, the manifesting of Divine Intention is happening all the time through all of creation. The transmission I have from this class helps you to align more deeply with that. In this way, it’s a healing and an awakening and an embodiment aid all at the same time. Pretty mind-blowing!

In class, we talked a lot about kidney energy. You will have noticed that I focus a lot there in almost every session, and now I have a way of channelling compressed Jing and Chi energies into the kidneys using MI (Manifesting Intention). I learned more about why this part of the body – and its resonance throughout the rest of the body – is so important. The Chi of the kidneys governs hormones – that’s a huge chunk of your body’s systems – and the kidney energy holds the toned-ness and strength of the whole body.

We also discussed gut health. These days there is a lot of talk about micro-biome and it was interesting to get Ric Weinman’s (teacher of the class and holder of the Vortex Healing lineage) opinion about this. He made the point that it’s not just about what we are eating, even though that is important. He believes that the health of the gut is a reflection of the health of the entire system. It reveals where a person is mentally, emotionally, karmically, genetically etc. Also, certain kinds of probiotics can actually be unhelpful (for example some can even exacerbate candida), so it is a good idea to tune in with your body before buying a probiotic. I tend to do this with all supplements anyway – and yes, you can even do this through the screen when shopping on Amazon 🙂 Simply feel from your body – perhaps with eyes closed to make it easier to see / sense – and experience whether your body wants that particular product or not.

With skin problems, Ric advised examining the liver. Essentially, when the liver is not functioning well, then the body is forced to detox it’s shit through the skin. He said that the toxicity comes from karmic (past life), genetic, emotional and food / environmental / physical factors and lifestyle stress combined.

And we have made a breakthrough in clearing chronic viruses such as Herpes and Epstein-Barr with Manifesting Intention. It is now possible to knock out most of these, even the very tricky Herpes!

See you after the retreat 🙂

Love,

xDaisy

Jul 28

Stillness and Service

Hello,

How are you?

I am well. I wanted to let you know of two upcoming events which I am attending, to give you the chance to plan sessions if you want to:-

I will be on a silent meditation retreat with Adyashanti in England from the 11th – 18th August, and I am going to serve on Amma’s ashram in India from the 30th August – 26th September.

Much Love to you,

xDaisy

May 24

Manifesting Intention

Hello 🙂

How are you? I am very well indeed, and writing to you from the airport lounge as I begin my epic journey of many parts back to London, from the Vortex Healing course in Virginia Beach which just ended.

I land late on the 24th, and am offering sessions from 25th to 31st May (before Amma for 2 weeks). Please WhatsApp, text or call to book for this period or for when I am back (19th June onwards).

The feeling of bliss and happiness is profound…really profound. If any of you are on the Vortex trajectory and thinking about stepping off, I strongly encourage you to persevere with courses. Awakening to Divinity (last one) and Manifesting Intention (this one) are hard to describe they are so good!! Just Wow……and very few words. I feel so grateful to the Divine, to Amma, to my Vortex family and to Ric, for facilitating this course. The sense of awakeness is ever deeper and deeper. That’s the most amazing thing. And this sense of happiness and bliss arising from within, regardless of situations, amazes me… Everything is so soft…

I could just hug and kiss everyone! Probably not advisable though, in an airport lounge.

I am so looking forward to sharing this new energy of Manifesting Intention with you 🙂 🙂 🙂  Must go for now, but simply wanted to connect with you all and share this…this – whatever this is, in some way. I will write some coherent stuff soon. There’s a lot of new and interesting information with this course.

Much Love,

xDaisy

Oct 4

Grace

Hello 🙂

How are you? I am very well. This past week, as I was walking across Victoria station and thanking the universe for orchestrating my journey from East Sussex perfectly, I uttered audibly, “It’s Grace.” Then it hit me – but everything is. Even after awakening there can be this tendency to think of Grace as coming from ‘outside’. As the realisation dawned on me, I saw that it’s not like that at all. There is no outside. Everything is Grace. The intensification of oneness that followed stopped me in my tracks (sorry London commuters!). The truth is, Grace isn’t ‘given to us’ when we’re good, because Grace is the very substance of everything. It’s what we are and what everything is, pre-existing whether we think we are good or bad in any moment.

I will be in London giving sessions Thursday (tomorrow) – Saturday, for the last time before America. Please call or text to book. Otherwise please feel free to book a distance session at any other time. As a reminder, I will be away in America for further training in Vortex Healing from the 11th – 23rd October (that’s next week). NB I will have very limited digital access at that time.

If, like me, you want to see Amma in Europe at a few places and haven’t booked or arranged things yet, do so soon because places are getting booked up and prices are rising. I am only just getting onto it now.

The Adyashanti retreat in Surrey next August is now open for registration. It’s 7 nights – a special treat nowadays 🙂 I highly recommend this silent meditation retreat, which I feel is second only to being with Amma in person. Here is the link (do it now if you want to, because they always get overbooked):-

https://www.adyashanti.org/index.php?file=retreatsdetails1&eventid=1366

I leave you with this from Marlies Myoku Cocheret, whose recent email moved me deeply:-

“Please take a moment to realize that everything can drop at any moment. This body, this mind, this or that feeling or sensation – not in your time, but Her time. Where do you want to put your attention when the moment comes…..which is every moment?!”

~ Marlies Myoku Cocheret

Love,

xDaisy

Sep 20

As Deep As Peace

Hello 🙂

You are as deep as peace. Yes, you. I feel I want to share this truth, following the online meditation group I just did with Marlies Myoku Cocheret. If you would like to participate in this opportunity for Silence, check the calendar section of her website. The groups are by donation each Wednesday, at 6pm UK time.

http://www.marliescocheret.com

Something else I learned this week from this wonderful offering is that there is no difference in the Beingness here with eyes open or eyes closed. This may sound obvious, and I ‘knew’ it before, but I actually experienced and perceived it today. That is the difference between truth and fiction. It’s an incredible thing that this Being that we all are, this one thing, is here all the time and never goes anywhere. We run to many places searching for safety, but that is only a relative safety, meanwhile true safety does exist in one place. The discovery of this true safety is the end of fear, so much so that fear can still arise – is allowed to be what it is – within this deep vastness of the One, which could also be called Beingness or truth. And no one has to do anything to get to this recognition. I personally really enjoy meditation and all kinds of spiritual practices, yet no one factually needs to do that to see what they are, right now, in this moment. All that is required is seeing reality as it is, without allowing the Self to be fettered by objects ‘outside’ or ‘inside’ (objects meaning everything you can think of).

I would also like to share how much I am enjoying Rupert Spira, whom I went to see at Alternatives on Monday. Apologies for not telling you sooner, I didn’t remember that I was going until the day. Here is his website for more details (for example, an upcoming retreat on the 3rd December):-

http://www.non-duality.rupertspira.com

This coming week, I will be in London Monday – Wednesday inclusive (i.e., 25th – 27th September). Please call or text to book. At other times distance sessions are available.

A reminder of Amma’s visit on the 17th – 18th November (Devi Bhava – 18th night). Please note that AMMA IS NOT IN LONDON this year. She is in Esher, Surrey, at Sandown Race Course. You will do well to book accommodation, as the venue is not very easily accessible from London. See the following site for details:-

http://www.amma.org.uk

Enjoy your week,

Love,

xDaisy

Sep 12

Sessions in London: Saturday – Tuesday

Hello 🙂

How are you? I am well, and enjoying country life here in East Sussex. Children are playing in the background, out in the sun, and I feel such peace in my heart. I really don’t have much to report or offer in words today, but wanted to let you know that I will be in London Saturday – Tuesday. The sessions I have left are on Monday and Tuesday, at a home in Camberwell where I am house-sitting. Distance sessions are available at any other time.

Please note that I will be continuing training in Vortex Healing® in America from the 11th – 23rd October, at which time I will not be offering sessions and will have limited digital access of any kind.

I leave you with this, which a friend just sent me from Adyashanti:-

You do not need to be perfect to be whole, you do not need to be worthy to be complete…

You are not here to be perfect. No one is perfect. You are here to love, and to love well.  ~ Adyashanti

Love,

xDaisy

Aug 8

Wed – Fri: Sessions in London

Hello 🙂

 

I will make this quick, since internet problems are persistent and ongoing (hence the seemingly last minute nature of this communication.) Citydwellers cannot imagine! 😉

 

Would you like a session? If so, I will be in London Wed – Fri, or there is the option of distance sessions on other days. Please call or text, due to internet fiasco: 07931 536 700.

 

My friend showed me this just now, and I thought how perfect it is to pass on to you:-

 

“Make no mistake about it – enlightenment is a destructive process. It has nothing to do with becoming better or being happier. Enlightenment is the crumbling away of untruth. It’s seeing through the facade of pretence. It’s the complete eradication of everything we imagined to be true.”

 

  ~ Adyashanti, from ‘The End of Your World’

 

Looking forward to seeing you soon,

Love,

xDaisy

Aug 2

Outside of Mind

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I would like to share a poem I wrote this morning after sadhana, and inspired ever more by this deep practice (of the 1000 Names and the IAM technique from Amma).

What a violent thing

To bring mind in here!

To this sacred place,

This holy Silence.

 

Outside of mind

Lies all things,

And all non-things.

Your cascading lights

Cannot fool me anymore,

For I have found something

Here, exquisite.

 

In these long halls

Of Silence upon Silence,

I meet the innermost –

The maker –

The original Spark.

 

Yet She is so Silent…

So nothing,

And so everything.

 

No song-and-dance fanfare.

Simply Silence gazing,

Just gazing.

She sees it all –

Sips it all in,

And rests.

 

It is some miracle that this poem came out from me, considering that I am still in that heartbreak which I wrote to you about in February. Really it has been going on since January. The blood and the guts of this particular heartbreak are hellish. But I am ever grateful to my friends for their support, and similarly to Amma, Adyashanti, Vortex Healing and my healers. What to do? We are all in the same boat going down the stream, playing out our karma. Yet, paradoxically, this is happening right in the middle of an all-encompassing awakening embodiment evolution.

My friend Alexandra Stone was kind enough to interview me for her website, please have a look:-

http://www.alexandrastone.studio/blog/

And finally, I want to thank those of you who have been giving me such rich and powerful feedback on the sessions. When you are self-employed, the only way you really know you are doing a good job is when clients or teachers tell you so. My heartfelt thanks for bringing smiles and tears of joy to me 🙂

I have a couple of spaces left in London Sat & Sun. Also, let me know if Wed – Fri might suit you (as that is possibly when I will next be in London). In the meantime, please contact me for distance healing.

Much Love and gratitude,

xDaisy

Jul 25

London Sessions: Fri – Mon inclusive

Hello 🙂

How are you? I am well; missing you all actually, and hoping that you are getting on well. I will be in London offering sessions from Fri – Mon inclusive, so please call or text if you would like one. Internet, and even my T Mobile network (essentially all virtual communication methods) are still poor here in Rodmell village. BT are slowly fixing the problem. Hence why I cannot write as much to you as I would like, nor answer you as promptly as I would prefer. However, when it comes to distance sessions, everything works. Make of that what you will 🙂

I want to share the most beautiful passage from Adyashanti. We read it out loud in our Adyashanti group and it drew tears. I really haven’t ever met another person who can communicate through words what it is truly like to wake up and embody that awakening, in such an open, accurate and rich way. I suggest reading this very slowly:-

       “This inner revolution is the awakening of an intelligence not born of the mind but of an inner silence of mind, which alone has the ability to uproot all of the old structures of one’s consciousness. Unless these structures are uprooted, there will be no creative thought, action, or response. Unless there is an inner revolution, nothing new and fresh can flower. Only the old, the repetitious, the conditioned, will flower in the absence of this revolution. But our potential lies beyond the known, beyond the structures of the past, beyond anything that humanity has established. Our potential is something that can flower only when we are no longer caught within the influence and limitations of the known. Beyond the realm of the mind, beyond the limitations of humanity’s conditioned consciousness, lies that which can be called the sacred. And it is from the sacred that a new and fluid consciousness is born that wipes away the old and brings to life the flowering of a living and undivided expression of being. Such an expression is neither personal nor impersonal, neither spiritual nor worldly, but rather the flow and flowering of existence beyond all notions of self.

         So let us understand that Reality transcends all of our notions about Reality. Reality is neither Christian, Hindu, Jewish, Advaita Vedanta, nor Buddhist. It is neither dualistic nor non-dualistic, neither spiritual nor nonspiritual. We should come to know that there is more Reality and sacredness in a blade of grass than in all of our thoughts and ideas about Reality. When we perceive from an undivided consciousness, we will find the sacred in every expression of life. We will find it in our teacup, in the fall breeze, in the brushing of our teeth, in each and every moment of living and dying. Therefore we must leave the entire collection of conditioned thought behind and let ourselves be led by the inner thread of silence and intuitive awareness, beyond where all paths end, to that place of sacredness where we go innocently or not at all, not once but continually.

         One must be willing to stand alone – in the unknown, with no reference to the known or the past or any of one’s conditioning. One must stand where no one has stood before in complete nakedness, innocence, and humility. One must stand in that dark light, in that groundless embrace, unwavering and true to the Reality beyond all self, not just for a moment but forever without end; for then that which is sacred, undivided, and whole is born within consciousness and begins to express itself. That expression is the salvation of the whole. It is the activity of an inward revolution brought down into time and space.”

~ Adyashanti, The Way of Liberation, pg 37

I will leave you to digest that. I would love your comments, if you have some.

Much Love,

xDaisy

Jun 28

Sessions In London: Saturday – Tuesday

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I had plans to write you an email of light and delight about my Amma trip, but after every spectacular Amma trip (as you may well know) there is a spectacular Amma comedown. Like everyone does, I thought I’d gotten away with it 😉 But it hit me upon waking this morning. One week isn’t bad though, it has to be said.

For the foreseeable future, I will be in London 3 / 4 days in a row per week (the journey is 3 hours door-to-door from Rodmell). If you reply to this email to let me know which day and time is ideal for you in general, then I will try my best to accommodate. I will next be in London from Sat – Tues. I would also like to encourage you to try distance sessions if you haven’t yet. Aside from there being something uniquely profound about this style of healing, it is also because I cannot come to London every day. Unsurprisingly, I am tired at this point, having lived in 5 different homes over the past 3 months, completed half of Amma’s Tour and continued to process a particularly painful personal life situation. Therefore, being able to be here in the depths of nature as much as possible is helping all of this immensely.

Mother Meera is in London during the coming week, so if you would like to meet / visit her, here is the link. I may be attending on Tues morning:-

http://mothermeera.org.uk/index.shtml

Here is what Wiki says about her, in case it’s your first time. I love her, yet I always like to peruse the non-hyped version:-

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mother_Meera

That’s all for now. Do keep me posted on you (best by message / call at the moment). Love,

xDaisy

May 22

London this week: Wed and Fri

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I am very happy here in Lewes. Yes, I have moved for the 4th time (temporarily) in 6 weeks. It’s such an adventure! Not that that was my intention, and of course there have been times of intense challenge. Yet now I feel the wonder and the grace of it all, and the felt sense of Divine Will in it is profound, really profound.

The slight issue I have at the moment is time – I am running out of it before I go to America. Already, most session times are booked this week. I may be able to squeeze in a couple more on Wednesday at Leila’s or on Friday making home visits. Other than that, distance healing is available, though again, this is limited due to current demand. However, I am only away for 3 weeks. As a reminder, that is from 30th May – 21st June.

I would like to share the following passage from Adyashanti’s book ‘Resurrecting Jesus: Embodying the Spirit of a Revolutionary Mystic’, which brought me to tears of inner implosion right there in the launderette.

“This is all about an internal journey, about your capacity to recognise divinity whenever and wherever you encounter it. It requires a certain sort of humility that allows you to peer beyond the world of appearances and touch upon that spark of the timeless radiance. Whether you understand it or can do anything with it doesn’t matter in the slightest; all that matters is your capacity to recognise that spark when you see it and to open yourself in humility to its redeeming Grace. This is the magic of Jesus’ life. This is the miracle that surpasses all the other miracles – the ability that Jesus has to mirror back divinity for those who are in his presence. This miracle is far superior to being able to walk on water or turn water into wine. It is the miracle of redemption, which awakens people to their own true nature.”  ~ Adyashanti

Love,

xDaisy

Apr 22

Contemplation in the Sun

Hello 🙂

How are you?

First of all, I want to let you know that I will be in London on Wednesday this week in the Barbican. I need the rest of the week to sort out my housing situation in Brighton, which needs turning around within literally 7 days. Skype sessions are available though, of course.

I had one of those moments today, where I was between work (equine assisted therapy and a little job I do for a friend in London) and I stepped out into the sun in the garden where I was. I was immediately struck by the ordinary beauty of things. Simply the other buildings, the music from a party somewhere in the background, and the sky. Finally I could stop for a while, and I did. My mind began to chatter and then to fade, melting into my heart as often it does. It felt so good to feel, to be barefoot on the ground and to be able to loaf for an hour, with nothing to do! I felt so free… Silence pervaded completely. Eventually a thought came: What if I spent the rest of my life just being free? Something opened wider within, in this contemplation. I mean, what if any of us simply chose inner freedom, true peace, right now – and for every ‘now’ forever? I am well aware that this makes no sense in a way! But can you feel into what I’m saying? In other words, what if you, reading this right now, never ever left whatever realisation you have had about the true nature of what you are?

The next thought that came was, What would that take? I saw that it would require a willingness to relinquish all future plans. I also saw I would need to never leave what I know and to never believe or follow through on another thought / piece of negativity. It was humbling…to say the least.

Anyway, I wanted to share this exploration with you now, in hindsight, to see if you resonate with it or have perhaps had a similar kind of insight too? 🙂 Please do write with your comments on this.

Love,

xDaisy

Apr 8

Sessions in London: Wednesday and Thursday this week

Hello,

How are you?

I am remembering my Dad even more than usual today, since it would have been his Birthday. It’s such sweet memory and bittersweet sadness… He and I had so much fun together all the time. He was almost always in the kitchen cooking something delicious and inventive when he was not at work, and I would stand and talk endlessly to him. He would do impressions of Mick Jagger, whom he adored, and we would laugh or go deep – whatever came. It was this easy natural flow between us. I feel so grateful to have had him as a Dad. One in a million. Dad, I salute you 😉

This week, I will be in London giving sessions on Wednesday and Thursday. Next week will be Wednesday and Saturday. Or there is the option of distance healing via Skype. Please book as soon as you can as I want to make sure I see you 🙂

I don’t have much more to say right now because I am finding my feet in Brighton. I am kind of a little stunned still. Lots to sort out at this stage, like finding a new home by the 29th April, but it feels good to engage. And I love it here… One of my flatmates and I are doing the 1000 Names together often, which is such a godsend, and something I have wanted for the longest time – to share sadhana 🙂

I hope you are well, see you soon,

Love,

xDaisy

Mar 19

Vibrational Reality

Hello,

The vibrational quality of reality has come into my life strongly this past week. I am talking about the sense that what we are – expressed as both formless and form – ripples outwards and touches everything. Paradoxically, this ‘vibrational reality’ is both everything and also emerges from everything – like a birth – simultaneously. And it’s not just when we are praying, meditating or having nice thoughts 😉 When we truly get this, deeply feel it, it is kind of shocking. Here it all is, broadcasting out, all the time. I would like to know, what is your sense of this?

I was at the bus stop in Camden late on Friday night, returning home from visiting my 4 year old friend and her mother and another friend. You can imagine the scene: chaotic, teaming with life, gritty, intense. I was engaged in the Adyashanti Fierce Love course I am currently doing, which involved a guided meta meditation (on my iPod). I found this meditation very difficult: to breathe in the sorrow of the world and breathe out loving kindness. Was it too exposing to do it right there, in the middle of a kind of bizarre babylon, I wondered to myself? I decided to do it anyway. Immediately, a man approached me asking for a cigarette. I replied that I was meditating. But I saw my spiritualised ego instantly: there I was, doing meta, and I basically told someone to fuck off in a very ‘nice’ way. Off went the man, and I felt sad. I let it go and continued the meditation. Within moments he was back. Suddenly, he started stroking my arm and holding it. Ordinarily I would have physically pushed him off, but something deeper stopped me. He asked, “Can you help me?” and I said “Yes” without hesitation or thought. Looking directly into his eyes now and taking out my earphones, I began to help him find a street he was looking for. Then he said, “Can I take you with me?”. There was so much longing in his eyes and deeper underneath that, his essence was shining out. “We can cuddle and watch Disney movies”, he continued. I refused and he said, “Can I kiss you?”. Again I refused and pointed him to the street he was trying to reach. He asked to kiss me again and again I said No. It may sound naive to some, but I knew what he really wanted to kiss. I knew what he really wanted to take with him. That’s an example of the movement of vibrational reality, which is a non-personal yet intimate movement. That’s the gift we are really able to give anyone, in any moment of our lives.

The way I felt during this event reminded me of a picture given to me by a client this week. He was using it to illustrate the way he felt during the recent Foundational Vortex Healing training, in which his Amma mantra was running automatically throughout.

~ Alex Grey, ‘Spiritual Energy System’ (1981)

A little reminder that I will be moving to Brighton on the 2nd April and commuting to London to give sessions each week. More on that as it unfolds. To conclude today, I thought I would share this beautiful poem which a friend sent to me having heard Adyashanti read it on the recent silent meditation retreat at Mount Madonna (California):-

There’s a thread you follow.

It goes among things that change,

But it doesn’t change.

People wonder about what you are pursuing,

You have to explain about the thread,

But it is hard for others to see.

While you hold it, you can’t get lost.

Tragedies happen, people get hurt or die,

And you suffer and get old.

Nothing you do can stop time’s unfolding.

You don’t ever let go of the thread.

~ William Stafford

Wishing you all well,

Love,

xDaisy

Mar 2

Self No Other

Hello,

How are you? I have had to wittle this group down due to technicalities with Yahoo, so I hope no one I’ve knocked off feels left out. I am thinking of you all with a warm and surrendered heart and wondering where life is taking you… Please do write with your stories – they are always welcome 🙂

Thank you to those of you who responded to my last email; I feel your warmth and compassion. I know some of you have been concerned and wondering how I am, so I thought I’d fill you in a little and update you on this process, hopefully in a way that speaks to you and your process too. What I am going through in its deepest essence at the moment is heartbreak. I’m sure many of you have been through this too. So unexpected and so very deep, yet at least I know I have loved fully. I have heard some people say to me that they have never been in love before, even people who are quite a lot older than I am, and (perhaps) that is saddest of all.

The process has been that through fully embracing this heartbreak, as much as I am able in my fragile humanness, there is a continuing kind of breakdown breakthrough and entering into Divinity. I want to credit here my sadhana practice, Amma, Adyashanti and Vortex Healing and the engagement in these. There was also a sudden breakthrough during a group healing I was lucky enough to be part of – many thanks Chetana and Will Thornton. I was amazed at the turnaround and transformation after receiving this healing – almost like night and day – and the subsequent sense of completely withdrawing into the Self. Here is what I wrote about it in an email afterwards:-

“I just want to share that something has completely left me since this healing. Now I feel as if there is only the Self itself, and that’s all. It’s like nothingness, but not that empty feeling of emotional vacuum at all. It’s devoid of noise, there is only Silence. Grounded in Self now.”

In my diary I reflected further:-

“So this is it. It was always here. Right here… No wonder no one could give it to me. What this is could never be bought nor sold. ‘The peace which surpasses all understanding’, now I know You. Now I know You… You are this – are me. It’s not outside, it never was outside.”

When I arose the following morning, I knew I had to move home to Brighton. It’s funny because I have just remembered in writing this, that Eckhart Tolle once said one day he simply knew he had to move to North America. Moving as Self, it’s not a question of working things out. It’s letting go without end.

I will be coming to London every week to see you for sessions, so please don’t worry about that. I expect I will move around the beginning of April. Please do not hesitate to email or call me if you have any questions about this.

With Love in my heart,

xDaisy

Feb 24

The Invitation Of Suffering

Hello,

Happy Shivaratri! Today Shiva’s energy pours into creation, like the sword of Truth cutting through vines of illusion, the perfect day to let go of all remaining attachments the ‘me’ is clinging to. With the addition of the full lunar eclipse coming on Sunday, you may be feeling like doing nothing rather than planning / manifesting. If so, I would really encourage you to trust this instinct, drawing awareness inside into the heart of Life. This is a fantastic time to engage in that inner dive, via sadhana, chanting, bhajans, relaxation, quietness, or whatever you feel truly drawn to.

Before I engage in the subject of my email today, I would like to announce two pieces of good news. Firstly, my close friend who I described in earlier emails is now cancer-free! Upon discovering this information from doctors, she said, “This is a miracle”. Considering that her father died suddenly in the middle of her cancer treatment, and that initially the cancer was seen as potentially fatal, I am inclined to agree with this statement. The other news is that my friend Daniel has been made into a Vortex Healing teacher. I can’t think of anybody I would rather be in this position 🙂

Now, aside from these wonderful things, I have been in the midst of deep personal suffering since the beginning of the year, the likes of which I have rarely experienced in this lifetime. The process is a mixture of internal and external, becoming so excruciating that I was basically left with three directions in which to go with it: 1) into the victim, 2) into improving my life in an attempt to fight back against things or 3) into Truth and a total embrace of what is. Once the first two were seen through, I was left with no choice but to take the third option. The way this all looked in real terms by the way, was a bloody mess. Yet I came to realise gradually that the suffering, which I had always managed to bypass in some way in the past without seeing that that was what I was doing, wasn’t going anywhere – if anything it was getting worse. That was the moment at which I was finally, genuinely, willing to lose to Life. It was at once a recognition of which of ‘us’ (though ironically there was no experience of separation) was stronger – that Life itself was simply much more immense than any remaining sense of me, and also a feeling of being crushed into oblivion by my own conditioning, or by God – honestly, I don’t even know which it was – but whatever it was, it worked. What I mean by ‘it worked’ is that suffering itself became the invitation into freedom, Truth, God, Love. I took it, and I continuously now accept that invitation on a moment to moment to moment basis. The felt sense is like a huge weight has been lifted off my body and there is a simple and profound texture of oneness pervading everything in experience. I have had many ‘drops’ into this before, but this time there is a sense of permanence (if I can use that word), of a not-coming-and-going, but a resting of oneness in / as this form.

So to save you time and struggle, I suggest this as a practice for you too. Begin to notice the nature of your suffering now: is it really something which shouldn’t be there? Can you receive it fully right now?

Listen to your gut instinct. From there you will sense your true Yes and your true No, both to these questions and more importantly to the situations, people and choices in your life.

Love,

xDaisy

Jan 24

Dharma Love

Hello,

How are you? I am well, feeling fully in the love-stream-flow today.

I have been reflecting recently on what really heals people the most. I have to say it is Love. Sounds obvious, but let me be more specific. When asked what practices we should do when we are not with her, Amma said only one word: “Sangha”. This means community, gathering together in and as what we truly value. In addition to a satsang setting, such as the wonderful Villa Devi offering, this quality of life happens naturally within dharmic friendship. It’s a phrase Adyashanti uses to describe the kind of friendship between two people on an awakening path. Touching this kind of friendship is incredibly transformative… You bounce off one another in your deepest places, encouraging each other to grow and face life with laughter and passion and warmth. Without any effort at all, the world seems to widen and disappear as the oneness you both are when you are together.

So I really encourage this. Yes, have healings, yes, do sadhana (spiritual practices), but often overlooked as an intense spiritual practice is – Call your true friend, get together, open your hearts to one another. No healing can truly take place without this kind of love and depth and intimacy.

The other thing which has been on my mind to share with you, is the way in which shifts move in most people, and the sometimes resulting confusion of this. Let’s say you have a shift or an awakening. Really the description doesn’t matter because when something like this happens to you, it is beyond doubt and needs no external affirmation. Perhaps for a while, there is a deep and overriding felt sense of oneness, Truth, Divinity. And then, it may feel like this goes away. This is the point at which it is very easy for cynicism, doubt or confusion to take control. You may even tell yourself that nothing really happened. In actual fact, often what did happen was a permanent shift: what was there before, never actually returned. Yet the sense of this can feel distant.

In my perception and experience, what has normally happened is that the sense of oneness / transformation has become ‘normal’ – it’s integrated into the background, into the body. But it can feel like you’re back to square one and that you’ve ‘lost it’. The tendency, then, is to give up too easily, listening to cynicism, fear or doubt. The thing at this point, is to keep going, with an attitude of open receptivity. The reality of living awakening / Truth / Love / oneness / transformation / healing is that most people are not going to have an awakening / liberation / enlightenment along the lines of Amma, Ramana Maharshi, Adyashanti, Eckhart Tolle or Tony Parsons. Even though these beings are here inspiring us and showing the way in an absolutely crucial sense, I think it is misleading to believe that ‘my path’ will be the same as theirs. And this belief leads to a great deal of misunderstanding.

Your experience is your experience, and no teaching can get you out of it, no teaching can change what you are going to have to go through to satisfy that yearning for awakening / Divinity / transformation inside you. For most people, awakening embodiment evolution is a life-long thing. It’s really like that. It’s not something with a ‘final ending’, and it’s not something which happens in a flash and stays feeling like that forever. It simply doesn’t work like that, except for a tiny minority of people. And that minority is highly unlikely to be you. Awakening is a blood and guts thing and you have to get your hands dirty. So quit spiritually bypassing, throw yourself into the arms of Divinity, of the private Silence within you, of your friends and of your suffering. I say this equally to myself as I do to you!

Finally, here is a piece of writing I did on a Day Retreat with Chetana and Will in the Sussex countryside. I hope you enjoy it:-

Divinity Intended

I cannot speak…for talking this out is nothing at all anymore. This Silence bears witness to all of that and is also all of that. No need for words anymore. My silent spoken friend, awareness, finally stayed after his tea was drunk.

I saw what is true for me and accepted the somehow burden of it. This being done, You came in again. Then, the deeper revelation – the surrender……. No holding back this time. You showed me all, You revealed Yourself in the night, in the day, in the detail – all at once. That timeless moment – Now. All my burdens are laid down in You. All my heavy weighty blindness and my deafness to Your song is gone. Now I see it all. The game that I played – You knew my every move. You were always bathing it in that Light, yet only now can I see this.

What needs to happen, needs to happen. Yes, this is true. But what I failed to understand was the pitch perfect way this is all going. The sheerness of a thousand songs called out in Your name. It must be as it is and as it will be. You are the One, I am That. I found You again, and in the finding, I am no longer me. No longer isolated from You, my beautiful Muse, my all, my everything. I didn’t know that this way is the way. This precise way which you are unfolding… Divinity Intended. Not outside anymore, not happening to a me. Divinity Intended. A button unbuttoned and a comb combed. The jeans and the hair of Existence.

What has to happen…it’s unfolding, opening – at Its pace alone. Only Your rhythm exists. You lovemaker… It’s all happening now, and now, and now. There is no other; no other at all. This is Your game, and I feel no distance from You anymore. Somehow, I have not transferred this, not managed to translate this – the incredible depth of what is here.

Love,

xDaisy

Dec 9

Videos

Hello 🙂

How are you? Friends have been sending me videos to watch on YouTube recently and I thought I would share them with you too. So moving to watch, and relax and be connected 🙂

Here is one with Ric Weinman giving a talk in Watkins spiritual bookshop in London:-

Vortex Healing and Merlin by Ric Weinman

This is amazing, and I won’t spoil it for you!:-

Inside the Superhuman World of the Iceman

Inside the Superhuman World of the Iceman

Wim Hof first caught the attention of scientists when he proved he was able to use meditation to stay submerged …

Here is one of my absolute favourite guides, smashing through taboos and pointing to freedom through the physical:-

Awakened lovemaking – Marlies Cocheret

Awakened lovemaking – Marlies Cocheret

With love, directness, and humor, Marlies invites our spirituality down from the clouds right into this human bo…

And here are Adyashanti and Francis Bennett discussing the book I am currently reading, ‘Resurrecting Jesus’. Our local vicar wants a copy of the book, having spoken with me,  and I am going to give it to him. That was a good moment 🙂

Adyashanti & Francis Bennett on “Resurrecting Jesus” – Buddha at the Gas Pump Interview

Adyashanti & Francis Bennett on “Resurrecting Jesus” – Buddha…

Also see http://batgap.com/adyashanti-francis-bennett-resurrecting-jesus/ Adyashanti, author of The Way of Liber…

So, enjoy 🙂

Love,

Daisy

Sep 24

Underneath All Currents

Hello 🙂

How are you? I feel relieved that Equinox was on Wednesday (they say ‘living in a world of plenty’) and that Mercury retrograde ended on Thursday. Seeing Bjork live at the Royal Albert Hall in conjunction with these events was pure magic 🙂 I also noticed how incredibly deep the satsang went on Thursday evening at Villa Devi, which other people in the group also reported. As a reminder, we chant (amongst other things) the 108 Names the 1000 Names of the Divine Mother (Archana), sing bhajans and meditate – inspired by Amma.

I have been into Bjork’s musical genius since the age of 13, and have now seen her live 5 times over a period of 21 years. Yes – I used to be obsessed! I had a moment before I walked into the auditorium this time, which I wanted to share with you. I was in the loo putting on my lipgloss. Suddenly I felt this Silence deepen and come in through my body from the left, like a liquid. As I looked at myself in the mirror, I realised something which in words would be, “I know who I am now”. I could feel the qualitative difference from when I used to come and see Bjork – now the tangible quality of Beingness, you could say, was here and was seen as what I actually am. The freedom felt immense; the freedom of not-knowing yet knowing, I guess you could call it Realising – I am This, this Silence. And I want to specify, it isn’t knowing who I am the way people usually say that – “She knows who she is” – about someone with charisma or power, for example. Not that. And it isn’t knowing as such, in the way we normally mean that. It is genuinely perceiving my own nature and the nature of all things and beings. Without filtration, without ‘winning’, without ‘losing’, without anything… There is such relief when you know that; a deep alleviation of that nagging separate feeling that dogs you before, which I see in so many people’s eyes. The point of sharing this, apart from simply sharing, is to use myself as an example of the fact that it is true that Silence is our nature and that one can certainly discover that in a genuine way, if one is interested in doing so.

I have been enjoying the sessions with you so much recently… They have taken on a different quality, an other-worldliness, as my sensing unfolds itself into your systems and as Grace makes its mysterious appearance often. I feel honoured that you would share all of your process with me – the laughter, the tears, the cosmic side, the dark side and all the sides of you. Thank you.

To finish I would like to share with you my favourite Bjork song. I have chosen a link without a video, to enhance the listening aspect, in the hope that the song will drop deeper into your ears. When I first discovered this song, I was about 14 and I fell in love with it. I experienced all kinds of deep emotions inside my room listening to it and often crying. Nowadays I perceive it as being a piece about Stillness. Whatever it is doesn’t really matter, it is a work of art in the truest sense: full, empty, meaningful and meaning-free.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=17yWeynOfOI

Love,

xDaisy

Sep 2

Homecoming

Hello 🙂

How are you? I hope you are engaging in your deepest intention, and that you are well. This weather in London, though greyer today, is a continuous joy to be in…

I want to write a little more about the effects of the silent meditation retreat with Adyashanti. As he says, a spiritual experience is only valuable inasmuch as it has a lasting effect on one’s everyday life. We’ll see about that in time… For now I can say that, since the retreat, something has changed. The Silence is here, in a new way. What also feels different is that my ‘questing’ energy, my chasing after Divinity, has come to an end. That energy was in me for nearly 20 years this year. I think I believed it was necessary to have that in order to find the Divine, but I now question whether that is true. It could be that my ‘questing’ actually masked Divinity from me. Either way, in the end I got far more, and also far less really, than I bargained for. Needless to say, my relationship with Amma, Vortex Healing and Adyashanti have transformed a great deal. That is ongoing and I can’t say much about it at the moment that would make sense. The funny thing is though, even my Mum has remarked on the change in me several times since this retreat. One time she said, “You know who you are now”. That raised a smile 🙂

What I can talk about is how my work with you has changed. My sessions now feel like I am resting and creating from Silence. Then I look to my sensing abilities and begin to see how the healing energy is naturally moving. It’s like painting with Light. One of you commented that, “You are like a conduit now. You don’t even need to channel.”

Adyashanti will not come back to Europe next year due to his health problems, but I highly recommend his retreats in America if you feel drawn:-

http://www.adyashanti.org/index.php?file=retreatsschedule

I would like to close with an excerpt from my diary on the retreat, which now feels almost predictive of the aforementioned stopping:-

“I found a snake by the side of the road today. It was dead. I told it I was sorry it had died, especially since it was so young – a baby, I think. It was charcoal grey on the underbelly and brown and radiant on top. It shone somehow, with brown, like one of those sandstone rings you can get. I wonder what kind of snake it is? I don’t remember seeing a snake in England before. The first three I saw were rattlesnakes, in Arizona, when I was eleven. The only other one I’ve seen was on the Ashram. That one was so beautiful: it was moving in that classic snake dance and it was bright green. Sort-of cascading along a sandy path. Come to think of it, they were all deeply significant times when I saw those snakes… I wonder what is happening here and what wonders are in store after this retreat? 🙂 This snake was so small and thin and beautiful. And it had a tiny, soft face. I saw the beauty in death.”

I look forward to seeing you soon,

Love,

xDaisy

Aug 24

Oceans

Hello,

I wanted to remind you that I am back in action now and that I will be offering distance sessions via Skype or phone on Monday Bank Holiday, half price: £45. This deal includes pre-booked sessions.

The retreat was sensational… Really something unexpectedly mind-blowing. What I want to say about Adyashanti is that he is possibly the only teacher or guide I know who refuses to take authority away from anyone, even in a subtle way. I have found this to be consistently true over the 14 years that I have known him. The effect of that, is actually immense. Greater than I could have imagined before doing this silent meditation retreat. I will write more as I go. For now, I would like to share with you a poem I wrote in the middle of the retreat (hence the title of this post). However, due to formatting issues here, I am unable to do so. Therefore please contact me on daisynokes22@yahoo.com to receive it.

See you soon,

Love,

Daisy

Aug 13

Silent Meditation Retreat with Adyashanti

Hello,

I must say I am thrilled to have the opportunity to deepen into this great, deep silence……….who knows what will happen in this great adventure into the unknown? The inner dive, swan dive, into mystery. I will be unavailable in communication – on a silent meditation retreat – from tomorrow until the 22nd Aug, when I will be back in action.

I want to share a few more learnings from the Ammathon (as a friend rightly called it!), which I hope will benefit you. During the program in Toronto, Amma said something which really struck me. She said, “Vasanas have no power of their own. It is we who give them power.” I realised in that moment, how powerless negativity really is. Her statement also cut through, in me, the tendency to become so familiar with something, that I begin to misuse it. What I mean is that I have talked about my ‘vasanas’ (latent negative tendencies) or issues or behaviour so many times, I can forget that it is I myself who permits them to have the power they have and who actually gives that power to them. I thought this could strike a chord for many of you as well. I would add that it is our tendency to identify with such internal arisings, which is the mechanism by which we give them the most power.

The most core life story I had, the one which had most coloured my experience of reality in this lifetime, came up during the last couple of days with Amma. We save the best for last, don’t we? For me, that was the love story – the agony and the ecstasy of romantic love, and underlying that, the nagging feeling that the right relationship would fulfil me and close any remaining ‘gap’. This probably sounds familiar to some of you, perhaps to many of you. I know – it’s a hard one to admit! I am not going to share the private details of that, sorry 😉 But please bear with me anyway. There is something more important than that part of the story. It began on the treadmill, of all places, not somewhere I frequently find myself. But going to the gym occasionally, during the tour, helped me get time by myself (which is almost completely impossible on staff) and helped me move energetics that were stuck. Suddenly on this treadmill, the desire to be free of that core story hit me, like never before. I simply HAD to be free of it; I could carry it all no more. So with this fire, I made a silent cry – a prayer – within, to Amma. With that, I let go, knowing that it could go either way: perhaps I would get free of this pattern, perhaps I would not – it was in the hands of Divinity now.

Shortly after this, Amma did a Q&A with the retreat group outside, in the unseasonably hot evening sun. There were only about 500 of us there. Right from the beginning, I felt a large amount of fear and anxiety coursing through my system, to the point where I could barely sit still. I didn’t know why I was feeling this way, it was like a body thing. I decided to focus more intensely on the question that was happening, and on Amma’s answer. As I looked at Amma, she made a certain movement as she talked with her hands, and with that I was gone. I felt as if I was merging into Amma from where I was – it was part-visual, part-kinesthetic (akin to the way I sense, during a session). As this happened, any remaining sense of separation fell away and I began to cry. In this oneness and tears and the whole un-conveyable experience, I suddenly knew that all my desire, lack and longing for this person – and all women and men who I had ever felt that towards – was really the longing for God. I simply knew it. Not as a concept and not as a philosophy, and not as an excuse. I actually saw it. I saw it in such a way, that it felt like I could never actually un-see it. I also sensed intuitively that all my other desires were also the longing for God. I felt freed at last…….truly, truly free.

(NB God in my perception is also Truth, wholeness, unity, oneness etc.) The next thoughts were, “Why have I been running after men and women all this time?” and “How could I have missed this reality all these years?” Then the strangest thing happened: I experienced depression for the first time in my life. As I sat, purposefully alone, eating dinner, I felt depressed. But there was absolutely no resistance to it. The sense of oneness was so broad and pervasive, that there was absolutely no problem with feeling depressed. In fact, I was pleased to be having the experience, because before that I never understood what depression was. I knew what pain was, deep gruelling emotional pain, but I didn’t know depression until that moment. I then experienced suicidal ideation! But again, there was no problem with this either, because there was zero resistance to it. And it existed in a context of oneness, of Love. After about an hour, both of these so-called negative experiences passed of their own accord, without me doing anything at all about them.

In hindsight, I believe they occurred because my ego had just lost its trump card, which was the core love story drama. With that gone, it seems like it had to play the depression and suicide cards to try to regain ‘control’ of my bodymind. But that didn’t work: these feelings and thoughts simply passed through, as I said. So then I was just there: story-less and One, feeling a sense of ordinariness and freedom. Nothing special, yet complete liberation.

I make my newsletters personal because I don’t believe I can help unless I talk from my own direct experience. I hope that by reading this something may have resonated or sparked for you.

See you soon, after the retreat,

Love,

xDaisy

May 29

The End of the Film

Hello 🙂

How are you? I hope you are enjoying the Bank Holiday, and not working like my poor flatmate! I have decided to take tomorrow off in order to take proper care of myself before my move and big trip with Amma. My apologies to those of you who were waiting for this opportunity. There will be others once I get back (16th July). Obviously if you are in crisis, or even semi-crisis, do call me. I will be available until Friday, and then contactable sporadically by email while away.

I want to share with you a couple of interesting sessions which happened during the past week. I had the opportunity to work with someone who had not experienced healing before, which was an honour and a joy. She was naturally sensitive to Vortex and I felt the session went very deep, which was confirmed by what she said when she eventually came round. She said she was amazed to be able to “feel something so palpably that is simply energy”. This is something I forget nowadays because I am used to it: how incredible it is that simply channelling Vortex Healing can create this type of tangible effect on a person. She wrote to me the next day: “Thank you for such a magical experience. I felt so held and safe. Like I was truly blessed.”

I was also fortunate enough to do a session on a client who reminded me of me some years ago, which was a sweetness on a personal level 🙂 One of the things that was similar between us, was that she was crying and almost hyper-ventilating with a fear release during most of the session, yet she had the courage and the trust to keep going in anyway. That was me when I got into Vortex – every time I experienced the energy, I would react like this. I was able to see a good amount of detail about what the issue was for this person, and the childhood experiences that had concreted it. Afterwards, I was actually shocked by what she said and the way she said it. She exclaimed, “I was in so much pain! I’ve been in a serious car accident before and I wasn’t in as much pain as that.” Thankfully she had already intuited that this was a good thing in terms of her healing process. Bear in mind I was not using any bodywork, or therapy, in this session: my client’s response was purely due to the density of the underlying root conditioning breaking out from her.

It is sometimes hard for people to believe it could be true that even physical pain is not really rooted in the physical body. Perhaps it is simply too threatening for some to entertain the idea that the wild torrents of the inner landscape with which we are all in touch (to some degree or another), the subtle bodies and the unknown itself, could be the true origin of the suffering we experience on any and every level. But what would such a person conclude if they were actually watching the above session unfold..? It is an interesting question.

I had the pleasure of talking with two friends about awakening yesterday, one at lunchtime and one at nighttime. Lucky me! In the first conversation, my friend and I were talking about what it meant to us to ‘want awakening’ before it happened. For both of us, it wasn’t something that we knew really; it was something much more subtle than that. And yet this subtle unknown curious sense burned and resonated within each of us. And somehow, we both found ourselves waking up young and before almost everyone around us. We shared that awakening is not a game – there’s no game there, no map or gain – there’s no point to it basically. Even the word awakening is misleading in a way. We went on to say that, as human beings, we all do what we love: we are into what we are into, and that’s simply that. In reality, nothing ‘gets you there’ – gets you interested or engaged or involved or awake, if you are not already into it. It’s not a progressive thing – like a hobby, or a career, or a soulmate connection, or climbing the spiritual ladder. It’s nothing like that. It’s so simple…so simple, and so unfrilly.

In the other conversation, I was speaking to a friend and saying that once you have this insight, life is kind of over – and at such a young age. Lol! And yet, some part of the ego can still hold on all over again and think there is something still to get or gain. I said to him, “It’s like if I gave you a DVD and then told you what happens at the end. If you were sensible, you would put the DVD down and walk out of the room. There’s nothing in it for you now you know the ending. But I bet you would watch the film anyway, just for the drama leading up to it?” He laughed in agreement and added, “Yes. It’s like after you really experience what’s real, you know that all desires are really the desire for that. So they seem transparent – fake almost – and it’s pointless to try to fulfil them in a way. Because now you know the ending. Plus that end is here and now – it’s here already.”

I’ll leave you with that. If I don’t get the chance to say it again before I go, then thank you for being such wonderful clients 🙂 I will see you very soon – in July,

Love,

xDaisy

May 21

***The Fullness of the Moon***

Hello 🙂

As I reminded people on FB – don’t panic, it’s simply Full Moon today! The energies I could feel in the group consciousness during my IAM meditation this morning were intense: dense and sort-of conflicted. That’s when I remembered the moon. It really does have an effect. Actually, the more you dance your natural dance into what you are, the more sensitive you are to these things. And yet the less they actually pull you in. It’s interesting.

I also wanted to remind you of when I will be away. It’s less than 2 weeks now to my departure! It will fly by though, and I will be back with you before you know it 🙂 I will be on tour with Amma in America from the 3rd June – 16th July.

I was touched this week by a rather beautiful cat, who decided to help me during a healing session with a client. It was towards the end of the healing and I could feel a shift coming within my own solar plexus. Although this is often the manner in which my system senses (sees psychically), I was unsure whether it was my own conditioning or the client’s at that point. But I was guided to begin the catch up phase of the healing. As I placed my hands on the client, she convulsed several times in a release from her solar plexus. That answered my query 🙂 Then the cat jumped up and straight onto her solar plexus. He proceeded to do that ultra-cute thing cats do with their feet – padding them up and down on the client’s stomach, for quite some time. I was mesmerised by the cat’s energy and his care, and by the whole unfolding situation.

I would like to write more, but am wanting my bed after a deep Adyashanti transmission today via video (I am part of an Adya group here in London), followed by a profound healing session I just gave. I am feeling blessed to have this job and this life…

Sweet dreams,

Love,

xDaisy

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