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Nov 18

The Sweetest Thing

Hello 🙂
Apologies for the lateness
of this email. I hope you are
enjoying your weekend and
getting some rest and play time.
People often want to know
what moves me and makes
me cry. So I thought I’d share
the following experience with
you, also in the hope that you
will share your own experiences.
I sat down to meditate this week,
having not done so for a couple
of weeks. I read the following piece
from Adyashanti on meditation,
which I have read many times before,
but which this time suddenly
opened the floodgates…
“As you rest into stillness more
profoundly, awareness becomes
free of the mind’s compulsive
control, contractions and identifications.
Awareness naturally returns to its
non-state of absolute unmanifest potential,
the silent abyss beyond all knowing”
Adyashanti (2011)
It is hard to put into words
what I felt while reading this
but suffice to say,
after that last line, I felt a swell
of emotion and then sat in tears
of some time. I felt so grateful
and also a deep uncluttered
resonance with what he is saying,
mixed with devotion for truth.
On another note, do bear in
mind that Mercury is retrograde
and has been since the beginning of
the week, affecting travel, computers
and communication of all kinds.
This should be over by the end of
the month – so hang on in there!
Let me know of any experiences
you are having with this,
if you want to share.
Love to you,
xDaisy

 

Nov 9

Bhakti schmakti – what’s the point in devotion?

Hello 🙂
You may have asked yourself,
what is the point in devotion,
what even is it and what do I
get from it?
I’ve noticed that some people
look down on devotion and seva
as if they are some kind of second
rate ‘path’ to awakening.
Allow me to try to answer the
devotion question
 through the following example.
I have been particularly inspired
today by a client who just came
to see me. He stood at my front
door in a completely transformed
posture and glowed with an energy
and love I had not yet seen in him.
Guess what he’d been up to?
 Yes, he had just been to see
Amma in Barcelona. That was
quite a surrender for him, but the
benefit he got is immeasurable.
He looks and feels energised
and loving towards himself
and towards life as a whole.
He has also lost a large part
/possibly all of his core veil.
This is somebody who had been
chronically tired and full of
conditioning for months.
What it is that Amma does so
marvellously I feel, is to release our
inner devotion. Once I felt
unconditional love from her during
my first darshan, that devotion
awoke and it was no longer
a case of THINKING about
awakening and helping people
– it was actually alive and kicking.
I would like to share with you
the particular chant my client has been
listening too and which has released
such profound devotion in him:-
And here is Amma way back in 1988
in America, during her second world
 tour. Check her eyes, in the last frame 🙂
On that note, I am going to be and
serve with Amma over Christmas,
from the 17th Dec to the 9th Jan.
So do come and see me before
then if you can, or feel free to book
distance treatments before I go.
Thank you for your wonderful
stories – keep them coming 🙂
Love,
xDaisy

 

Nov 2

Laughter at the Heart of It All

Hello 🙂
It feels so good to be
writing to you again. I hope
this review finds you in a
true space and adapting ok
to the suddenly cold weather.
As always, I have many Amma
stories from her recent visit to
London, but I will share only
one with you. Please do send
your own stories in if you feel to.
One morning, I got to sit very close
to Amma while she was giving
darshan. I could overhear the
questions which people were
asking and the translations from
Malayalam by the Swami.
The thing I noticed most was
Amma’s laughter…it is so
beautiful to hear her laugh
and to talk as if literally drunk
on bliss. It was as if she was
intoxicated by the state which
seems to simply be reality for
her, a way of being.
The questions which really seemed
to interest her were the ones
which were not only of benefit
to the person asking, but to
the whole – to everyone.
That in itself was quite a teaching.
She would spend time on them,
laughing and joking and
also listening deeply and fully.
Then one couple went up and told Amma
a joke, which I didn’t hear, but
she laughed quite a bit and said:-
Everybody wants a relationship
these days because they want
someone they can boss around.
In fact, relationships have
even been substituted for pets,
since they are even easier!
I thought it was hilarious!
(but maybe you had to be there…?)
What that said to me is that
Amma is not the goody-goody saint,
she’s about that divine laughter
that’s at the heart of existence
and about being real.
Here is another story which
one of you has sent me:-
A friend told me that she was so messed
up once that she couldn’t get her shit together
to see Amma. But even though she missed
seeing/hugging her, realising that
made a huge impact on her life…
She quit drinking, the loser boyfriend
and changed her life dramatically!!!
I love that 🙂
I would also like to share that
we made a staggering ÂŁ13, 500
for Amma’s charities in the
massage area!
It has given me so much
joy to know that what we
do really does make a
difference to people’s lives.
I want to finish with a quote
from Adyashanti that a friend
gave me for my Birthday:-
“Actually, all paths lead away
from the truth…..how’s that?
All paths. There’s no such thing
as a path to the truth. The truth’s
already here – where are you going?”
Enjoy!
Love,
xDaisy

Oct 20

Hello from Amma’s in Paris

Hello 🙂
Apologies for the lateness of this
newsletter. I am in Paris
with Amma at the moment.
We are just outside the city,
in a pretty and peaceful suburb
called Cergy.
I will return tomorrow
(Sunday) and look forward to
seeing many of you at Amma’s
program in London, where you can
find me in the massage area.
If you have never met Amma,
here is a little introduction from
the funny and engaging
Louis Theroux:-
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yf_vGArzIbE
I want to share a few experiences
I have had since being here.
For me, it is often during bhajans
(devotional singing) that the most
powerful in-body insights are
received.
At one point, Amma cried out so
intensely to God during one
such bhajan, that I felt a
ball of energy come hurtling
into my heart and I fell into bliss.
In that state, I realised that
giving and receiving are the
same thing – there is literally
no difference between them.
Later during Amma’s set,
 I began to feel grief and
sadness arising. I realised
that this was not actually
coming from me and as I looked
for the root I sensed it
coming in from Sarah and
into my heart.
If I sat as beingness, open,
the grief got transformed through
my heart and body. If I went
into mind/thinking, the process
stopped. Amma was showing
me very clearly how to work
with people in a
more effective way.
And simultaneously
this spelled out for me the deeper
significance of awakening.
That it really isn’t about me,
rather it is meant to serve the whole
of life and alleviate suffering.
These are all things that one can
‘know’ and they may sound
very basic, but it is quite
another thing to actually feel,
experience and realise them.
You may be pleased to hear
that apparently Amma is
beginning to discourage people
from wearing white. I think she
doesn’t want the organisation to
be seen as some kind of cult.
See you soon and
please send me your stories,
Love and Love and Love,
xDaisy

Oct 12

Can you BE with it?

Hello 🙂
How are you?
This week I have learnt a
lot about simply being with
what is. As some of you know,
I have begun a BA in Person-Centred
Counselling, which I am fitting around
healings. While sharing in a group, a woman
on the course began to cry heartfelt tears.
I noticed that I was immediately
wanting to know the ‘right thing’ to say
and do to help. While expressing this later on
in the group, the tutor asked the woman
“Did you need anything while that
was happening?” and she said,
“No. It was just so good to be free
to express that and have you
all here with me”. In that moment
I realised, I really don’t have to
rescue anyone. That was very
profound… I hadn’t realised that
I had that pattern so strongly.
Now I am able to let go,
and already I am seeing the
true help that that is offering you.
I would love to hear about
your own experiences around
this if you have any.
The other deep learning came
from doing a healing session.
In this session, a deep darkness
came up for the receiver,
which she acknowledged and
described to me. As I tuned
into it, I instinctively wanted
to just be there with it and
hold the space.
No channelling
came, simply being beingness itself.
And then something hit me that
a friend had told me 6 months ago.
This was the ‘shadow’ he had talked
about. He had said that he needed
to be with his shadow like a friend and
give it lots of space, because he
had been suppressing it.
That knowledge became felt in
a split second and I was able
to do just that.
We can bandy-around
concepts like ‘the shadow’, but when it
really becomes real, it is something
that is…of the body in a sense –
much more than words.
So, if you are suppressing
and pushing away this part
(we ALL have it)
of you, try simply being with
it and giving it room – it may be
the first time it has ever received
this kind of love and acceptance.
A couple of reminders…
you have until the 30th October
to register for the Adyashanti
retreat lottery (for the Netherlands
next June). Here is the link if
you are interested:-
https://www.adyashanti.org/index.php?file=retreatsdetails1&eventid=882
And don’t forget that Amma is coming
23rd – 25th October. I will be giving
massage, so you can find me there.
Here are the details:-
http://amma.org.uk/ammas-tour.htm
Do let me know how you are
and what is going on for you.
Have a lovely weekend,
Love,
xDaisy

Sep 28

2 Comments

The Significance of Letting Go

Hello 🙂
 
Yesterday it was Amma’s
Birthday 🙂 Very soon she
will be with us in London! 
If you can stay for the whole
visit, it is truly worthwhile:-
 
http://www.amma.org.uk/ammas-tour.htm
 
I want to share with you a
little of my own healing journey.
On Saturday, Sarah and I were
staying with a friend and all
of a sudden I got a fever.
 I had had a cut on one of my 
toes for a while . Slowly, I 
realised I had got blood poisoning.
 
We were in the middle of
nowhere and couldn’t 
get painkillers for the fever
as it was the middle of the night.

 

So the night began. I was shaking,
with chattering teeth, and
my left lymph node (groin) was very
swollen and red hot. My toe
was throbbing and I had flu-like
aching in all my joints. I
was freezing, but really I was
running a very high fever.
 
I felt I wasn’t at the A&E stage, so 
I began to channel on myself.
For a while it worked,
but I was unable to maintain
concentration. Sarah also
gave me healing, but even more
importantly peace and love.
 
I was in so much suffering
with it all that in the end
I called out to Amma in my heart,
saying “Amma, please take
it away, please help me”.
 
Only when I had surrendered
and stopped resisting my symptoms, 
did I receive the response:
“Just let go”. It was accompanied by
the feeling that she would
take care of the whole thing. 
 
That trust which defies logic
emerged from stillness.
I fell asleep eventually and 
by morning I was almost
completely cured. 
 
Bear in mind that, in the case of
blood poisoning, it is usual to 
have to take strong antibiotics,
sometimes intravenously.
 
Of course, I do not mean 
to imply that you should 
not go to hospital or the doctor
if you are ill, and I am certainly
not anti-western-medicine at all.

 

But what I have learnt is the
significance of letting go……
This experience has illustrated for
me just how much of the work
I do with you is more being
done through me by Amma,
than it is anything to do with ‘me’.
 
I feel so blessed
to have met this saint and
to have been able to contact
the Divine in my lifetime. 
I hope you find inspiration in this
and that I see you soon,
Love,
xDaisy

May 17

The Only True Power

Hello 🙂
You may have heard that
your true power is within you.
Also that you are One, Self,
awareness etc. etc., but what
does this actually mean?
For centuries, paths towards
spiritual enlightenment
have said you don’t need
to go outside yourself
to know the truth,
yet this can feel abstract.
Even techniques can be
limited, and sometimes
also limiting, in that they
imply you need to
do something in order
to find the truth you seek.
And traditional ideas of
empowerment too often
feel like they are based in ego –
attempting to make the
‘little me’ feel bigger.
In writing about this,
I am aware that
I cannot give you any
answers (or give you
truth) – how could I? 🙂
I can only speak from
experience: the more I unfold
into Oneness, the more I
realise the significance
of spending time in silence,
and vice-versa.
When I shut my eyes and
feel inside for stillness,
without trying to get something
or get rid of anything,
true silence pours like
liquid from itself
quite naturally.
These moments of deep contact
with what is still and real
and complete within, reveal
the only true power there
has ever been. Not power
against, not power for
and not power that is possessed.
This mysterious power
is silent and still.
Don’t undervalue the
power of open-hearted
quietness! You don’t
have to be endlessly task-doing
to be valuable to this world.
********
On a practical note, when coming
for sessions, please press and
hold the bell a few times –
even when it lights up, it
sometimes hasn’t rung yet.
Have a lovely weekend,
Love,
xDaisy
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