Posts tagged ‘quietness’

Mar 2

Self No Other

Hello,

How are you? I have had to wittle this group down due to technicalities with Yahoo, so I hope no one I’ve knocked off feels left out. I am thinking of you all with a warm and surrendered heart and wondering where life is taking you… Please do write with your stories – they are always welcome 🙂

Thank you to those of you who responded to my last email; I feel your warmth and compassion. I know some of you have been concerned and wondering how I am, so I thought I’d fill you in a little and update you on this process, hopefully in a way that speaks to you and your process too. What I am going through in its deepest essence at the moment is heartbreak. I’m sure many of you have been through this too. So unexpected and so very deep, yet at least I know I have loved fully. I have heard some people say to me that they have never been in love before, even people who are quite a lot older than I am, and (perhaps) that is saddest of all.

The process has been that through fully embracing this heartbreak, as much as I am able in my fragile humanness, there is a continuing kind of breakdown breakthrough and entering into Divinity. I want to credit here my sadhana practice, Amma, Adyashanti and Vortex Healing and the engagement in these. There was also a sudden breakthrough during a group healing I was lucky enough to be part of – many thanks Chetana and Will Thornton. I was amazed at the turnaround and transformation after receiving this healing – almost like night and day – and the subsequent sense of completely withdrawing into the Self. Here is what I wrote about it in an email afterwards:-

“I just want to share that something has completely left me since this healing. Now I feel as if there is only the Self itself, and that’s all. It’s like nothingness, but not that empty feeling of emotional vacuum at all. It’s devoid of noise, there is only Silence. Grounded in Self now.”

In my diary I reflected further:-

“So this is it. It was always here. Right here… No wonder no one could give it to me. What this is could never be bought nor sold. ‘The peace which surpasses all understanding’, now I know You. Now I know You… You are this – are me. It’s not outside, it never was outside.”

When I arose the following morning, I knew I had to move home to Brighton. It’s funny because I have just remembered in writing this, that Eckhart Tolle once said one day he simply knew he had to move to North America. Moving as Self, it’s not a question of working things out. It’s letting go without end.

I will be coming to London every week to see you for sessions, so please don’t worry about that. I expect I will move around the beginning of April. Please do not hesitate to email or call me if you have any questions about this.

With Love in my heart,

xDaisy

Feb 24

The Invitation Of Suffering

Hello,

Happy Shivaratri! Today Shiva’s energy pours into creation, like the sword of Truth cutting through vines of illusion, the perfect day to let go of all remaining attachments the ‘me’ is clinging to. With the addition of the full lunar eclipse coming on Sunday, you may be feeling like doing nothing rather than planning / manifesting. If so, I would really encourage you to trust this instinct, drawing awareness inside into the heart of Life. This is a fantastic time to engage in that inner dive, via sadhana, chanting, bhajans, relaxation, quietness, or whatever you feel truly drawn to.

Before I engage in the subject of my email today, I would like to announce two pieces of good news. Firstly, my close friend who I described in earlier emails is now cancer-free! Upon discovering this information from doctors, she said, “This is a miracle”. Considering that her father died suddenly in the middle of her cancer treatment, and that initially the cancer was seen as potentially fatal, I am inclined to agree with this statement. The other news is that my friend Daniel has been made into a Vortex Healing teacher. I can’t think of anybody I would rather be in this position 🙂

Now, aside from these wonderful things, I have been in the midst of deep personal suffering since the beginning of the year, the likes of which I have rarely experienced in this lifetime. The process is a mixture of internal and external, becoming so excruciating that I was basically left with three directions in which to go with it: 1) into the victim, 2) into improving my life in an attempt to fight back against things or 3) into Truth and a total embrace of what is. Once the first two were seen through, I was left with no choice but to take the third option. The way this all looked in real terms by the way, was a bloody mess. Yet I came to realise gradually that the suffering, which I had always managed to bypass in some way in the past without seeing that that was what I was doing, wasn’t going anywhere – if anything it was getting worse. That was the moment at which I was finally, genuinely, willing to lose to Life. It was at once a recognition of which of ‘us’ (though ironically there was no experience of separation) was stronger – that Life itself was simply much more immense than any remaining sense of me, and also a feeling of being crushed into oblivion by my own conditioning, or by God – honestly, I don’t even know which it was – but whatever it was, it worked. What I mean by ‘it worked’ is that suffering itself became the invitation into freedom, Truth, God, Love. I took it, and I continuously now accept that invitation on a moment to moment to moment basis. The felt sense is like a huge weight has been lifted off my body and there is a simple and profound texture of oneness pervading everything in experience. I have had many ‘drops’ into this before, but this time there is a sense of permanence (if I can use that word), of a not-coming-and-going, but a resting of oneness in / as this form.

So to save you time and struggle, I suggest this as a practice for you too. Begin to notice the nature of your suffering now: is it really something which shouldn’t be there? Can you receive it fully right now?

Listen to your gut instinct. From there you will sense your true Yes and your true No, both to these questions and more importantly to the situations, people and choices in your life.

Love,

xDaisy

Dec 9

Videos

Hello 🙂

How are you? Friends have been sending me videos to watch on YouTube recently and I thought I would share them with you too. So moving to watch, and relax and be connected 🙂

Here is one with Ric Weinman giving a talk in Watkins spiritual bookshop in London:-

Vortex Healing and Merlin by Ric Weinman

This is amazing, and I won’t spoil it for you!:-

Inside the Superhuman World of the Iceman

Inside the Superhuman World of the Iceman

Wim Hof first caught the attention of scientists when he proved he was able to use meditation to stay submerged …

Here is one of my absolute favourite guides, smashing through taboos and pointing to freedom through the physical:-

Awakened lovemaking – Marlies Cocheret

Awakened lovemaking – Marlies Cocheret

With love, directness, and humor, Marlies invites our spirituality down from the clouds right into this human bo…

And here are Adyashanti and Francis Bennett discussing the book I am currently reading, ‘Resurrecting Jesus’. Our local vicar wants a copy of the book, having spoken with me, and I am going to give it to him. That was a good moment 🙂

Adyashanti & Francis Bennett on “Resurrecting Jesus” – Buddha at the Gas Pump Interview

Adyashanti & Francis Bennett on “Resurrecting Jesus” – Buddha…

Also see http://batgap.com/adyashanti-francis-bennett-resurrecting-jesus/ Adyashanti, author of The Way of Liber…

So, enjoy 🙂

Love,

Daisy

Sep 24

Underneath All Currents

Hello 🙂

How are you? I feel relieved that Equinox was on Wednesday (they say ‘living in a world of plenty’) and that Mercury retrograde ended on Thursday. Seeing Bjork live at the Royal Albert Hall in conjunction with these events was pure magic 🙂 I also noticed how incredibly deep the satsang went on Thursday evening at Villa Devi, which other people in the group also reported. As a reminder, we chant (amongst other things) the 108 Names the 1000 Names of the Divine Mother (Archana), sing bhajans and meditate – inspired by Amma.

I have been into Bjork’s musical genius since the age of 13, and have now seen her live 5 times over a period of 21 years. Yes – I used to be obsessed! I had a moment before I walked into the auditorium this time, which I wanted to share with you. I was in the loo putting on my lipgloss. Suddenly I felt this Silence deepen and come in through my body from the left, like a liquid. As I looked at myself in the mirror, I realised something which in words would be, “I know who I am now”. I could feel the qualitative difference from when I used to come and see Bjork – now the tangible quality of Beingness, you could say, was here and was seen as what I actually am. The freedom felt immense; the freedom of not-knowing yet knowing, I guess you could call it Realising – I am This, this Silence. And I want to specify, it isn’t knowing who I am the way people usually say that – “She knows who she is” – about someone with charisma or power, for example. Not that. And it isn’t knowing as such, in the way we normally mean that. It is genuinely perceiving my own nature and the nature of all things and beings. Without filtration, without ‘winning’, without ‘losing’, without anything… There is such relief when you know that; a deep alleviation of that nagging separate feeling that dogs you before, which I see in so many people’s eyes. The point of sharing this, apart from simply sharing, is to use myself as an example of the fact that it is true that Silence is our nature and that one can certainly discover that in a genuine way, if one is interested in doing so.

I have been enjoying the sessions with you so much recently… They have taken on a different quality, an other-worldliness, as my sensing unfolds itself into your systems and as Grace makes its mysterious appearance often. I feel honoured that you would share all of your process with me – the laughter, the tears, the cosmic side, the dark side and all the sides of you. Thank you.

To finish I would like to share with you my favourite Bjork song. I have chosen a link without a video, to enhance the listening aspect, in the hope that the song will drop deeper into your ears. When I first discovered this song, I was about 14 and I fell in love with it. I experienced all kinds of deep emotions inside my room listening to it and often crying. Nowadays I perceive it as being a piece about Stillness. Whatever it is doesn’t really matter, it is a work of art in the truest sense: full, empty, meaningful and meaning-free.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=17yWeynOfOI

Love,

xDaisy

Sep 2

Homecoming

Hello 🙂

How are you? I hope you are engaging in your deepest intention, and that you are well. This weather in London, though greyer today, is a continuous joy to be in…

I want to write a little more about the effects of the silent meditation retreat with Adyashanti. As he says, a spiritual experience is only valuable inasmuch as it has a lasting effect on one’s everyday life. We’ll see about that in time… For now I can say that, since the retreat, something has changed. The Silence is here, in a new way. What also feels different is that my ‘questing’ energy, my chasing after Divinity, has come to an end. That energy was in me for nearly 20 years this year. I think I believed it was necessary to have that in order to find the Divine, but I now question whether that is true. It could be that my ‘questing’ actually masked Divinity from me. Either way, in the end I got far more, and also far less really, than I bargained for. Needless to say, my relationship with Amma, Vortex Healing and Adyashanti have transformed a great deal. That is ongoing and I can’t say much about it at the moment that would make sense. The funny thing is though, even my Mum has remarked on the change in me several times since this retreat. One time she said, “You know who you are now”. That raised a smile 🙂

What I can talk about is how my work with you has changed. My sessions now feel like I am resting and creating from Silence. Then I look to my sensing abilities and begin to see how the healing energy is naturally moving. It’s like painting with Light. One of you commented that, “You are like a conduit now. You don’t even need to channel.”

Adyashanti will not come back to Europe next year due to his health problems, but I highly recommend his retreats in America if you feel drawn:-

http://www.adyashanti.org/index.php?file=retreatsschedule

I would like to close with an excerpt from my diary on the retreat, which now feels almost predictive of the aforementioned stopping:-

“I found a snake by the side of the road today. It was dead. I told it I was sorry it had died, especially since it was so young – a baby, I think. It was charcoal grey on the underbelly and brown and radiant on top. It shone somehow, with brown, like one of those sandstone rings you can get. I wonder what kind of snake it is? I don’t remember seeing a snake in England before. The first three I saw were rattlesnakes, in Arizona, when I was eleven. The only other one I’ve seen was on the Ashram. That one was so beautiful: it was moving in that classic snake dance and it was bright green. Sort-of cascading along a sandy path. Come to think of it, they were all deeply significant times when I saw those snakes… I wonder what is happening here and what wonders are in store after this retreat? 🙂 This snake was so small and thin and beautiful. And it had a tiny, soft face. I saw the beauty in death.”

I look forward to seeing you soon,

Love,

xDaisy

Aug 24

Oceans

Hello,

I wanted to remind you that I am back in action now and that I will be offering distance sessions via Skype or phone on Monday Bank Holiday, half price: £45. This deal includes pre-booked sessions.

The retreat was sensational… Really something unexpectedly mind-blowing. What I want to say about Adyashanti is that he is possibly the only teacher or guide I know who refuses to take authority away from anyone, even in a subtle way. I have found this to be consistently true over the 14 years that I have known him. The effect of that, is actually immense. Greater than I could have imagined before doing this silent meditation retreat. I will write more as I go. For now, I would like to share with you a poem I wrote in the middle of the retreat (hence the title of this post). However, due to formatting issues here, I am unable to do so. Therefore please contact me on daisynokes22@yahoo.com to receive it.

See you soon,

Love,

Daisy

Aug 13

Silent Meditation Retreat with Adyashanti

Hello,

I must say I am thrilled to have the opportunity to deepen into this great, deep silence……….who knows what will happen in this great adventure into the unknown? The inner dive, swan dive, into mystery. I will be unavailable in communication – on a silent meditation retreat – from tomorrow until the 22nd Aug, when I will be back in action.

I want to share a few more learnings from the Ammathon (as a friend rightly called it!), which I hope will benefit you. During the program in Toronto, Amma said something which really struck me. She said, “Vasanas have no power of their own. It is we who give them power.” I realised in that moment, how powerless negativity really is. Her statement also cut through, in me, the tendency to become so familiar with something, that I begin to misuse it. What I mean is that I have talked about my ‘vasanas’ (latent negative tendencies) or issues or behaviour so many times, I can forget that it is I myself who permits them to have the power they have and who actually gives that power to them. I thought this could strike a chord for many of you as well. I would add that it is our tendency to identify with such internal arisings, which is the mechanism by which we give them the most power.

The most core life story I had, the one which had most coloured my experience of reality in this lifetime, came up during the last couple of days with Amma. We save the best for last, don’t we? For me, that was the love story – the agony and the ecstasy of romantic love, and underlying that, the nagging feeling that the right relationship would fulfil me and close any remaining ‘gap’. This probably sounds familiar to some of you, perhaps to many of you. I know – it’s a hard one to admit! I am not going to share the private details of that, sorry 😉 But please bear with me anyway. There is something more important than that part of the story. It began on the treadmill, of all places, not somewhere I frequently find myself. But going to the gym occasionally, during the tour, helped me get time by myself (which is almost completely impossible on staff) and helped me move energetics that were stuck. Suddenly on this treadmill, the desire to be free of that core story hit me, like never before. I simply HAD to be free of it; I could carry it all no more. So with this fire, I made a silent cry – a prayer – within, to Amma. With that, I let go, knowing that it could go either way: perhaps I would get free of this pattern, perhaps I would not – it was in the hands of Divinity now.

Shortly after this, Amma did a Q&A with the retreat group outside, in the unseasonably hot evening sun. There were only about 500 of us there. Right from the beginning, I felt a large amount of fear and anxiety coursing through my system, to the point where I could barely sit still. I didn’t know why I was feeling this way, it was like a body thing. I decided to focus more intensely on the question that was happening, and on Amma’s answer. As I looked at Amma, she made a certain movement as she talked with her hands, and with that I was gone. I felt as if I was merging into Amma from where I was – it was part-visual, part-kinesthetic (akin to the way I sense, during a session). As this happened, any remaining sense of separation fell away and I began to cry. In this oneness and tears and the whole un-conveyable experience, I suddenly knew that all my desire, lack and longing for this person – and all women and men who I had ever felt that towards – was really the longing for God. I simply knew it. Not as a concept and not as a philosophy, and not as an excuse. I actually saw it. I saw it in such a way, that it felt like I could never actually un-see it. I also sensed intuitively that all my other desires were also the longing for God. I felt freed at last…….truly, truly free.

(NB God in my perception is also Truth, wholeness, unity, oneness etc.) The next thoughts were, “Why have I been running after men and women all this time?” and “How could I have missed this reality all these years?” Then the strangest thing happened: I experienced depression for the first time in my life. As I sat, purposefully alone, eating dinner, I felt depressed. But there was absolutely no resistance to it. The sense of oneness was so broad and pervasive, that there was absolutely no problem with feeling depressed. In fact, I was pleased to be having the experience, because before that I never understood what depression was. I knew what pain was, deep gruelling emotional pain, but I didn’t know depression until that moment. I then experienced suicidal ideation! But again, there was no problem with this either, because there was zero resistance to it. And it existed in a context of oneness, of Love. After about an hour, both of these so-called negative experiences passed of their own accord, without me doing anything at all about them.

In hindsight, I believe they occurred because my ego had just lost its trump card, which was the core love story drama. With that gone, it seems like it had to play the depression and suicide cards to try to regain ‘control’ of my bodymind. But that didn’t work: these feelings and thoughts simply passed through, as I said. So then I was just there: story-less and One, feeling a sense of ordinariness and freedom. Nothing special, yet complete liberation.

I make my newsletters personal because I don’t believe I can help unless I talk from my own direct experience. I hope that by reading this something may have resonated or sparked for you.

See you soon, after the retreat,

Love,

xDaisy

Jul 25

Why Amma?

Hello,

How are you Londoners and people of the world? 🙂 I hope if you are in London that you are enjoying this heat wave we are lucky enough to be having 🙂

I want to address a question today which people often ask me, or ask me without words. Why Amma? Why do I do this? Why go and pay a handsome fee to work without pay, under conditions which some would consider harsh?

The answer is simple: it’s love. I look at Amma, and I love her. The depth of that love makes me want to support her work, serve Embracing the World (her global charity), and beyond that, to serve life in its entirety. For me, it’s passion; it’s not a ‘being good’ thing. It’s not even spiritual. Imagine being in love…now times it by 500…that’s nowhere near it. This is bhakti (devotion) in real terms.

Everyone has their own particular relationship with Amma, and certainly Amma devotees are all there for different reasons. Some of my friends, clients and family feel put off by the culty appearance of it all, by some of the devotees (who can be far from loving) and by the pretentious ‘holier than thou’ dynamics. Those of you who know me even a little bit, know I am definitely not the poster girl for holiness 🙂 No; it’s a love thing. Pure and simple.

So, what were the physical realities of being on volunteer tour staff, you may wonder. In my particular seva, we were working around 14 hours per day (every day) and longer on a Devi Bhava (the all-nighter). We got roughly 5 hours sleep per night, on the floor, sharing a room and bathroom with between 6 and 40 women. Then, after the long Devi Bhava, we would get on a coach and travel to the next city. Some of those journeys were over 22 hours long. When we arrived, we would sometimes get only a few hours sleep before set-up and work began. We delivered programs in 10 cities, over a 6-week period.

In between all this, I would squeeze my way onto the stage to spend time with Amma. Occasionally, Amma would call the staff to receive Darshan. I would like to share with you my diary entry about this:-

” 6/6/16

I don’t know how possible it is to put this into words…

Impossible.

* * * * * * *

But let me try.

Amma called us for Darshan in Seattle on Devi Bhava. As I entered the stage in the queue, I decided to make a prayer within. I said something like, ‘Amma, please assist me in focussing on the goal of this life: on realising God. Please help me to remain focussed even during this tour.’

As I laid my eyes upon her, hugging the person in front, tears welled up. I felt this love for her that was beyond anything I had ever experienced, and yet ordinarily human at the same time. I simply rejoiced within, at the sight of her. She moved my head around quite a bit before finally placing it on her heart, while she answered the questions of some devotees to her right. It always amazes me how one never feels left out in this scenario: Amma’s attention is deeply with each one of us simultaneously, which is testament to the sheer depth of oneness she is living. She then kissed my cheek and embraced me, chanting in my ear with a kind of vehemence in her voice, “My daughter! My daughter! My daughter!”, over and over again. I fell into total oneness…….. At the same time, the human being felt her as my teacher and as my mother – somewhere where those two are one and the same. And the experience of trust was overwhelming. As Amma finished the hug and handed me prasad, we drew back from one another and she looked deeply into my eyes. I cannot adequately express in words what I felt pass between us in that exchange: it was simply beyond the beyond. I then felt deep gratitude and expressed it somehow from oneness. Amma’s expression altered to one of such profound compassion….…something just too immense to convey. She embraced me again and then placed a chocolate in my mouth. That was the moment at which my searching gently stopped. My life’s search ceased in that moment. It was, perhaps, what many teachers have described as the end of seeking. Immediately after this I experienced true happiness: powerful, pure, authentic, unconditional happiness. I felt restored, redeemed – completely. There was total and utter wholeness. I’m not talking conceptually here, but actually. The real thing.

As I walked away, I collapsed on the stage in tears beside Amma. I was crying, and then I was sobbing; there was no way to do anything at all, and I couldn’t stop. But I was actually sobbing with happiness. My heart broke open under a force: that of revelation, unconditional happiness, union…Truth. Simultaneously, I experienced a spontaneous healing of my past, which came from nowhere. Dad’s death, the break-ups, the childhood trauma, the fear, isolation, despair, loss, loneliness, lack and doubt – all of these were consumed by something I cannot describe. I cried and cried, wiping my make-up from my face with my sleeve, only to cry uncontrollably again.

When the crying eventually stopped, I sat for a while. When I left the stage, I felt empty in the true sense of the word. Emptied of separation, of that heavy anxious burden. And the very subtle sense that something is missing, was gone. I could rest…finally, I could rest…… The feeling of resting and oneness were beautiful……profound. Paradoxically, there was an abundant feeling of vitality at the same time. But it was vitality without ownership. I realised that rest and vitality are the same thing. Eventually I went about the day, without saying a word about it to anyone.”

I hope you enjoy your day and that I get to see you soon 🙂

Love,

xDaisy

May 29

The End of the Film

Hello 🙂

How are you? I hope you are enjoying the Bank Holiday, and not working like my poor flatmate! I have decided to take tomorrow off in order to take proper care of myself before my move and big trip with Amma. My apologies to those of you who were waiting for this opportunity. There will be others once I get back (16th July). Obviously if you are in crisis, or even semi-crisis, do call me. I will be available until Friday, and then contactable sporadically by email while away.

I want to share with you a couple of interesting sessions which happened during the past week. I had the opportunity to work with someone who had not experienced healing before, which was an honour and a joy. She was naturally sensitive to Vortex and I felt the session went very deep, which was confirmed by what she said when she eventually came round. She said she was amazed to be able to “feel something so palpably that is simply energy”. This is something I forget nowadays because I am used to it: how incredible it is that simply channelling Vortex Healing can create this type of tangible effect on a person. She wrote to me the next day: “Thank you for such a magical experience. I felt so held and safe. Like I was truly blessed.”

I was also fortunate enough to do a session on a client who reminded me of me some years ago, which was a sweetness on a personal level 🙂 One of the things that was similar between us, was that she was crying and almost hyper-ventilating with a fear release during most of the session, yet she had the courage and the trust to keep going in anyway. That was me when I got into Vortex – every time I experienced the energy, I would react like this. I was able to see a good amount of detail about what the issue was for this person, and the childhood experiences that had concreted it. Afterwards, I was actually shocked by what she said and the way she said it. She exclaimed, “I was in so much pain! I’ve been in a serious car accident before and I wasn’t in as much pain as that.” Thankfully she had already intuited that this was a good thing in terms of her healing process. Bear in mind I was not using any bodywork, or therapy, in this session: my client’s response was purely due to the density of the underlying root conditioning breaking out from her.

It is sometimes hard for people to believe it could be true that even physical pain is not really rooted in the physical body. Perhaps it is simply too threatening for some to entertain the idea that the wild torrents of the inner landscape with which we are all in touch (to some degree or another), the subtle bodies and the unknown itself, could be the true origin of the suffering we experience on any and every level. But what would such a person conclude if they were actually watching the above session unfold..? It is an interesting question.

I had the pleasure of talking with two friends about awakening yesterday, one at lunchtime and one at nighttime. Lucky me! In the first conversation, my friend and I were talking about what it meant to us to ‘want awakening’ before it happened. For both of us, it wasn’t something that we knew really; it was something much more subtle than that. And yet this subtle unknown curious sense burned and resonated within each of us. And somehow, we both found ourselves waking up young and before almost everyone around us. We shared that awakening is not a game – there’s no game there, no map or gain – there’s no point to it basically. Even the word awakening is misleading in a way. We went on to say that, as human beings, we all do what we love: we are into what we are into, and that’s simply that. In reality, nothing ‘gets you there’ – gets you interested or engaged or involved or awake, if you are not already into it. It’s not a progressive thing – like a hobby, or a career, or a soulmate connection, or climbing the spiritual ladder. It’s nothing like that. It’s so simple…so simple, and so unfrilly.

In the other conversation, I was speaking to a friend and saying that once you have this insight, life is kind of over – and at such a young age. Lol! And yet, some part of the ego can still hold on all over again and think there is something still to get or gain. I said to him, “It’s like if I gave you a DVD and then told you what happens at the end. If you were sensible, you would put the DVD down and walk out of the room. There’s nothing in it for you now you know the ending. But I bet you would watch the film anyway, just for the drama leading up to it?” He laughed in agreement and added, “Yes. It’s like after you really experience what’s real, you know that all desires are really the desire for that. So they seem transparent – fake almost – and it’s pointless to try to fulfil them in a way. Because now you know the ending. Plus that end is here and now – it’s here already.”

I’ll leave you with that. If I don’t get the chance to say it again before I go, then thank you for being such wonderful clients 🙂 I will see you very soon – in July,

Love,

xDaisy

May 12

Pilgrimage to Paradise

Hello sunshine lovers, energy enthusiasts and helpers of mankind,

My title refers to an old trance tune on Sourmash records, which was helpful in bringing me towards spirit in my teenage years. In a deeper way, I am referring to what I am about to do in June: I am very excited – and honoured – to have been given a staff position on Amma’s US tour! I will be volunteering in the clothing boutique. It’s funny because I was thinking of ways I might get into the feminine and embody that more, and then I got given this position 🙂 Feel free to ask me any questions you may have about what I will be doing or what the tour involves.

Are any of you going to be there, or thinking of going to a couple of stops? Here are the stops in full:-

Seattle, WA

June 4-5 Public Program

San Ramon, CA

June 7-9 Public Program

June 10-12 Retreat

June 12 Evening Public Program

Los Angeles, CA

June 14-16 Public Program

Santa Fe, NM

June 18-19 Public Program

June 20-22 Retreat

June 22 Evening Public Program

Dallas, TX

June 24-25 Public Program

Chicago, IL

June 27-29 Public Program

New York, NY

July 1-3 Public Program

Boston, MA

July 5-6 Public Program

Washington, DC

July 8-9 Public Program

Toronto, ON

July 11 Public Program

July 12-14 Retreat

July 14 Evening Public Program

I will be away from the 3rd June to the 16th July without internet or phone access, so please do get all your sessions in before then.

I have been re-doing the Art of Meditation with Adyashanti this week and wanted to share some of the wisdom with you. Adya discusses the fact that awakening is not just an initial moment in which the I falls away, but it is also an ongoing unfolding. And for that part, meditation is crucial. In this sense, he disagrees with non-dual teachings – and I think rightly so – which tend to discourage practice (albeit covertly). Even if it is not said outright, the implication in many non-dual teachings is that practice is not all that important. Yet I simply haven’t met anyone who is deeply embodied as their true nature who has not engaged deeply in ongoing practices. So from my point of view, I wholeheartedly agree with Adyashanti on this important and often perplexing point. Please do offer your experiences with this, as I would be interested in them.

Bye for now, and do call or contact me before the 3rd June,

Love,

xDaisy

Mar 11

This Love

Hello 🙂

This is a new day,

This is a brand new day!

Your crimson tide washes over my heart,

This Love,

This Love…

I wish I could more accurately translate to you the sense of doing the 1000 Names this morning. It leaves a perfume, a scent, of such depth and bliss…and ultimately pure non-separation, oneness. If you are not doing a regular practice, I highly recommend starting today. Even if you only do a 15 minute meditation in the morning or at night, you will find that over time you begin to see clearly again, the way you used to as a child. To see things AS THEY ARE. What a huge privilege…! In fact, Amma has said:-

I didn’t come to teach anyone anything. I came to remind you of a song you once knew, but have since forgotten ~ Amma

It’s quite a statement coming from an avatar, the one kind of being who actually can truly teach, directly, and with acute accuracy. So we can see then, that this enlightenment game is really not about teachers or teachings. It’s about something else entirely… I would dearly love to hear your thoughts on what it is about, so please write to me about this 🙂 Also, please do join me on Facebook. Search for Daisy Nokes. I know I went through a privacy period, but that is over now.

How did you fair over Shivaratri on Monday, followed by the solar eclipse and Picses supermoon on Tues and Wed? Yes, that much did happen! The Shiva day, from my point of view, is about stillness manifesting into creation (sometimes in a variety of ways 😉 and the solar eclipse creates a deep purging of old pain, so that new projects can blossom. The supermoon in Picses represents the unconscious of humanity, the collective unconscious, what is being denied, coming out and releasing. I would love to hear any stories you have about Mon, Tues and Wed 🙂

If you feel you would like to join in with weekly coming-togethers of like hearted souls, just to remind you that I am going to Villa Devi in London every week to sing and chant and be with Amma devotees. It is a deeply transformative and amazing way to deepen your practices or path and to gain the sense of community. Let me know if you would like to be put on their mailing list.

Some of the results I have been getting through working with the U-AP level of Vortex Healing are remarkable. A client rang me to say that she “couldn’t feel anything” and she was concerned that she was emotionally disconnected. But when I looked into her system I could see that the work we had done together was so transformative that she had lost an entire ‘place’ or position in consciousness from which she had been living her life up until now. That is the power of this healing art combined with the way I work with Amma. I always wanted something which could actually remove issues, not just make the prison more comfortable, but actually deconstruct the prison piece by piece. Thank goodness I found Amma and Vortex Healing and that I am able to share that deconstruction with you, in you. This is the deepest gift I have ever been given.

I also facilitated a session this week in which I worked on the core position underlying back pain that my client had had for over 8 years, and with which she had been working in a variety of very helpful ways. Yet somehow the pain remained. Immeditately after the session she was able to flex her lower back again and the pain was barely noticeable! She also remarked that her voice had changed. This is something wonderful which can happen after a session, as if the person is speaking from a different place and without something ‘in the way’, that something being the issue worked on.

There was also a beautiful moment when I was doing some awakening coaching with a client and I asked her (because she was feeling a lack of clarity) what clarity meant to her. She replied simply, “Knowing my Truth and moving towards it”. I knew immediately that it was a pivotal moment for this person, because once you speak so authentically out loud the Divine hears (and you yourself hear) that and the transformation of life truly begins anew.

Ok that’s all for now. A bit of a long one – thank you for bearing with me 🙂 I feel very over-excited!

Love to you, beautiful blessed being,

Daisy

Mar 2

Group Vortex Healing

Hello,

How are you this rather cold day? On Sunday I was given the opportunity to facilitate a group healing on Leila Sadeghee’s Yoga Immersion here in London. It went very well indeed and I was thrilled about it! Leila commented that it felt to her like receiving an individual session, which is encouraging considering that there were around 20 people receiving the work. A lot of information came through also for people individually afterwards when they approached me with questions and comments about their experiences. All in all, it was wonderful and something I would like to continue with in the future. It was the first time since Dad died 5 years ago that I have facilitated a group and it feels good to be back in the groove of that. I would like to know if you would be interested in receiving group healing, either at a distance or in person at the venue in London EC1?

I want to share a personal healing miracle which happened last week. As some of you know, my mother and I have a challenging relationship and have had for as long as I can remember. This culminated in an argument one night recently, revolving around her disapproval of my life and my awakening path, including her speaking against Amma, which was the biggest trigger for me. The next day, I attended an Amma satsang and dedicated the sadhanas there to healing this fraught relationship. I did this again during an additional satsang that week. I also wrote a loving email to Mum, apologising for what I had said in the argument. Although Mum did not apologise or engage, something in her email response made my sensing ears prick up. She said she had had a ‘car prang’ that week, nothing serious but she was a little shaken by it. In November last year, I had a clear premonition that she would die in a head on collision with another car. I had had glimpses of this a couple of times before, but had put it down to fear in my own system. However, the premonition in November was so clear that I decided to do healing on it and I also told Mum. She did not react well, she was angry, but I felt it was the right thing to do to warn her so that her awareness might be present should the situation arise. On hearing of the recent car prang, I had the feeling that perhaps it was the dissolution of her karma by the Divine, which I have heard that Amma is capable of doing. I asked my healer this and, as we discussed it, it became clear to both of us that that was indeed the case. Of course we could both be wrong, only time will tell, but if this is true then it is a healing miracle… If this is true, then it puts a whole new light on the deeper reason for the falling out Mum and I had, and on the sheer power of the satsangs, and of Divine intervention. I personally feel blown away by this experience…

Something else which came to me this week and I wanted to share with you is that, if you want awakening in this lifetime you have to really want it, naturally, and you need to truly engage with your life and your path (dharma). None of this hiding out in non-dual getaways will do it – it doesn’t work. I tried it for years, and I see a lot of people trying to do it that way, but what happens is you get stuck and believe you are ‘there’, even if that means ‘nowhere’ (which, if you look at the ego, is actually still trying to get somewhere). Many of the so-called teachers of non-duality etc. in London and around the world are not where they think they are in terms of awakening and embodiment (I am not talking about Tony Parsons here). It is not very difficult to see this if you sense directly into their consciousness. Another way is to look at how they avoid life or their conditioning, or at how they treat others and behave. Often such ‘teachers’ are not really embodying the Truth that they have glimpsed or awoken to. That means that as a student / participant they can’t really help you. Looking at someone like Adyashanti for example, it is clear and evident that the embodiment there is very real and very deep. That is rare, in reality.

Just to remind you that, as I explained in my last newsletter, I have received guidance from the Divine on my price per session, which is now £90 for 1 & 1/2 hours.

Wishing you well,

Love,

Daisy

Feb 24

Mother Meera in London + other news

Hello 🙂

Is anyone seeing Mother Meera in London at the moment? I went last night and am still feelings the effects 🙂 One can feel when she is about to enter the hall because a deep silence falls through the consciousness of the room. As I sat with friends there in great silence, the meditation was totally natural…and this is the opportunity presented with this Master. I was not trying to do anything or control anything. I was simply sitting. One realises in this way, what true Stillness is. Because the mind can be talking, or not, one can be feeling, or not, and still awareness is fully present and remaining…simple and complete within itself. Then one knows “I am that”, without words, or ego, or anything at all. During the darshan, I noticed that I did not feel any separation from Mother Meera as I approached her and no sense that she was ‘above’ etc. (a big fixation in my conditioning). When I looked into her eyes there was still some remaining ego consciousness, and as I relaxed that fell away and there was only freedom…

It is easier once one has done the various Veil classes in Vortex Healing or woken up on one’s own / via another tradition or modality. But even if one has had only glimpses of freedom, any glimpse is the entirety. Either way, one sees at a certain point in spiritual maturity, that there is no need to leave that awareness for any reason. I don’t mean cling onto it, I just mean there is no need to go back into business with life after that: ‘I’ Vs the world etc. Because one knows that there is really no self, no I, that is separate from life itself.

Something very interesting which Ric (Vortex founder) wrote to us about, is that issues often come in pairs: for example, the ‘victim’ will also have the ‘victimiser’. One may well only be identified with one of these, but the other ‘silent partner’ will hold the primary position in place. So it is a good idea to work on both. I don’t want to overload you though! Each and every session is a deep deep dip into the freedom that you are, and a radical dissolving of what you are not.

I have received new guidance from the Divine on my price per session: this is now £90 for 1 & 1/2 hours.

As I was sitting in Costa waiting for friends before Mother Meera yesterday, it occurred to me that there is another and equal intuitive way of being to the process I described last week. Sometimes, ‘tuning in’ – especially when it is really checking (which comes from fear) – is not the best way. Intuition is natural, arising without the me getting involved. Upon perceiving this, I began to wonder what intuition was naturally speaking to me, regarding a particular situation in my life without tuning in – simply the natural, nature way…? What I found was, I got the same response as when I did it the other way. Sometimes, it is that one of these ways is better for one person and the other for the next person, and sometimes each way will be helpful for the same person but at different times. The thing about it is, you need to be clear enough in terms of having had some glimpse at least of freedom (awakeness), so that you are not coming entirely from the me sense, the ego, when attempting to follow your intuition. Practise is the best way and simply the living of life. I don’t usually recommend going to psychics because many of them are less clear than you are in their sensing of your situation, and it also tends to create dependency rather than freedom and empowerment. If you really trust a person’s intuition then it may be wise to follow what they recommend, but that trust needs to be really genuine, which could happen if you can naturally sense the integrity and awareness in that person’s system.

That’s all for now. I hope things are deepening for you,

Love,

Daisy

Jan 21

The Vortex Healing Way of Sensing / Psychic Perception

Hello 🙂

This weekend and last week I was lucky enough to have the opportunity to re-take the Vortex Healing classes Sensing and Advanced Sensing, with Anthony Gorman. I want to share with you some of what I discovered, in order to illustrate what you may be able to experience through taking classes in this amazing healing art, and also to share some of my journey since I am the person in service to your unfoldment when you have sessions with me.

Here is what I wrote in my notes on day 1 of Advanced Sensing:-

It’s only ever a question of awareness…….. There is no need to leave Truth, ever, full stop. In that sense, it is a choice. Do I want to be what I am, do I want to be as reality is – what reality is? Or do I want to be in illusion, trying to make things better (or worse), trying to get better, become something else, something different, something new? Is there something different, something new, other than this awake alive free fall that remains, despite all our attempts to distort and prevent it (because of our conditioning)?

It gives credence to Anthony’s reminder to us that this new and updated class is really assisting a very deep embodiment of whatever level of awakening has happened in each student. Also, and importantly, the Vortex Healing way of sensing is to sense from and as Awareness itself. This makes it different from most other kinds of healing modalities and sensing methods etc., which are often in reality accessing collected memory, on many different levels. In one way, that common technique is fine because one sees the story of a situation. But in another way, it could be seen as feeding the ego because it is not sensing the Truth of the situation, which would actually create more growth for the receiver.

Put in another way, Vortex Healing sensing is not about improving our ability to have experiences and see more ‘things’ – angels etc. It’s about awakeness waking up to itself in this moment, and from that the truth of the situation has space to arise.

Our looking for Sensing/Divinity/Love etc. makes us blind, because we’re coming from a perspective that is distorted by lack etc. – by deep conditioning. This new way is really about sensing without looking for anything. Sensing is on a need-to-know basis. We don’t sense what we don’t need to know. That’s why we often can’t see/get things we ‘want’, because that want point of view is coming from lack, or some other conditioning. We sense what we need to sense in that moment. As frustrating and sometimes terrifying as that is for the ego, that’s how it is.

To assist your own sensing ability, take what happened to me during lunch on the one-day Sensing class. This is an example of how simple all this really is and how helpful it can be:-

I was sitting in a busy restaurant with friends, trying to decide what to eat from the menu. My mind was telling me to have one dish and my body another. Usually, my story was that I should go with my body. But this time something else happened. When the waiter came, I ordered a different dish entirely, having no idea where this came from. In fact, I thought it was a dish I wouldn’t like, yet something – which wasn’t me – wanted to have it. So I went with that. The dish turned out to be so nourishing for my body and much better than anything the apparent me could have chosen. I also enjoyed it way more than I could have imagined. It was a laksa soup by the way, with chicken and coconut 😉

In this way, when you go with the Truth in any moment, because you have got to a point where you can feel that, the results are so much more deeply satisfying than anything your imagination could conjure up to tempt you with.

Are you aware that there is an Adyashanti online course starting very soon? It is called ‘The Art of Meditation’ and I am taking it, as are some of you I hear. I highly recommend these courses, even if (and perhaps especially if) you have never met Adya in person. Here is the link:-

http://www.adyashanti.org/index.php?file=specialeventsdetails6

Goodbye for now,

Love,

Daisy

Jan 12

Longing for the Divine

Hello,

How are you? I hope this correspondence finds you well. I want to share with you a poem I wrote some time ago about longing for the Divine. Listening to Adyashanti on the bus just now reminded me of it.

Oh what of this mystery?

I turn in the night,

Towards Love, towards You.

Here without motion,

Bathed in such Light.

You, who I can never have

And who never leaves.

Trails of longing remain,

Like vines

Cut off at the root.

Can I speak to You

Without opposition,

Without two?

Your gentle ears listen

Without existing.

A secret Life

Comes in the night.

I have begun attending satsang every week at Villa Devi in Brockley, South London, on Thursday nights. This is bringing oneness more deeply into my living life and I wanted to invite any of you who would be interested in coming. We sing bhajans, chant the Guru Stotra (like the 1000 Names) and perform other kinds of prayers to Amma. Contact me if you would like the details.

If you have not yet done so but would like to, you can sign up to have Mother Meera’s darshan here in London in February:-

http://mothermeera.org.uk/

Also, if you have not yet signed up but would like to, there is a waiting list for Adyashanti’s retreat this August. I recommend getting onto it asap if you want the chance of a lifetime to be on retreat in silence and with a truly gifted awakened guide:-

https://www.adyashanti.org/index.php?file=retreatsdetails&eventid=1221

Last but not least I would like to share something Amma once said:-

“I haven’t come to teach anyone anything. I have come to remind you of a song you once knew, but have since forgotten” – Amma

She utters such nectar with every breath…I thank the day I met this person. The only person I can call teacher and mean it.

I hope you are enjoying your week,

Love,

Daisy

Jan 5

The Significance of Following Your Intuition

Hello,

Happy New Year 🙂

I want to talk about something while I am in this ‘place’ as it were. Do you know how it is when you follow your intuition, including speaking that, even though it takes so much courage and it goes against your conditioned reflexes?

When I do this, as I did today, it is as if there is an atmosphere which fills the whole room or space…and the truth leaves a wake, waves which carry on. Yet everything is totally still, silent in its essence, and real. It is as if I am touching the depth of life itself, right here in my bedroom. Nothing and everything exists within this, and there is no ‘outside’ or ‘inside’. Simultaneously, my body quivers with the felt sense of oneness – like rushes down my legs and down through my crown. Perhaps this is where the absolute and the humanness meet?

To give the ‘story’ part of this, I would have to share something which I know the person involved would not want me to share. It is not one of you, but it feels wrong to detail this. Sorry to be vague.

On a different note, you will be pleased to hear that I received this from Ric recently:-

“This morning there was an upgrade to the U-AP and a major upgrade to the Protocol. My sense is that you will be able, when working through the Protocol for issues, to move at least twice as much in the same time frame, and deeper. Happy New Year!” (Ric Weinman)

The difference is palpable, so do get in contact if you would like to experience it. That’s all for now, as I can’t write more from this silence at the moment. I look forward to hearing from you though 🙂

Love,

Daisy

Dec 14

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To surrender to the Divine is to not know

Hello,

I hope you are all well in the run-up to Christmas. Christmas is often a difficult time for people, as well as a time of joy, and I wanted to acknowledge that because I don’t think it gets much press (for obvious reasons). I am available over this period for support. The only days I will not be available are 24th Dec – 26th Dec and the 31st Dec – 1st Jan.

On writing this newsletter, I have just finished my practices: the 1000 Names followed by the IAM Technique (please ask for more details if you wish). The sense of stillness, peace and unconditional Love is immense… I cannot recommend these highly enough. The discipline of any practice, though, done with openness of heart and regularity, brings you back to You. In the wintertime particularly, there exists this opportunity to flow into ourselves, deep within, to the Source, to the Light within darkness – the great deep midnight Light of awakeness.

I saw the most wonderful film last week, which you can find on Netflix. It is called ‘Awake’ and it documents the life of Paramahamsa Yogananda. The whole film is an amazing journey, and there was one part specifically which made a deep impression on me. It was when Yogananda was giving a speech in New York in the 1920s (around 15mins into the film) and he spoke about the centre of us being the spine; if you go in there, he said, “…you meet the Maker”. On hearing him speak these words, I spontaneously burst into tears and was pulled deep into my spine and into what he was speaking of, through the vehicle of emotional pain. I cried and cried and felt all this conditioning rush up my spine and out through my crown, while my sense-awareness naturally remained within the spine / gut area, expanding all the while, like a dissolution as Oneness. That was my experience of this great piece of filmmaking. If you watch it, I would love to hear about it.

I have been particularly struck by the sessions we have been doing together of late, and would like to share some of what you have said about them. After a session which cleared the issue of sorrow in one go, the receiver reported that she experienced the issue as being completely gone: she said that when she looked inside to find that place which had been there before, “there was nothing there – it was empty”. This is the joy of Vortex Healing®. It is amazing that it is able to get to issues deeply enough as to actually revive this natural experience. This doesn’t often happen in one session, but in this case it did.

In another session, I learned so much from my client. After talking awhile post-treatment, she said these simple yet profound words: “To surrender to the Divine is to not know”. It struck me right to my heart. Not only was it true for her, but it also pertained to current challenges in my own life. I felt these words coming from her real Self – not from something she had heard or rehearsed, but from that genuine place when innocence lives and thrives.

I have also had a few experiences where something takes over during a healing and I am no longer facilitating the healing at all – Divinity is simply pouring through as the natural expression of Life itself, faced with what needs to be transformed. That is something of deep personal significance to me, so I wanted to share it.

I also want to thank you for the deep compliments you have paid me in these past weeks. I won’t share what was said here, because it feels wrong, but you know who you are – thank you 🙂 I am not good at receiving these, but that doesn’t mean I don’t, and it is so very important for me to hear the good stuff, as well as the constructive criticisms you may have.

As always, these are just a few of the stories that have happened, and every single healing session is beautiful and deeply important.

Wishing you Love, Truth, whole-beingness,

Daisy

Dec 10

To consciousness – ahoy!

Hello 🙂

First of all I want to tell you about the IAM course on Saturday, London N8. This is Amma’s meditation technique, which she invented whilst walking around the ashram at 3am with no-one around. She went down to the beach and the steps came to her in a vision. I highly recommend training in this, because of the way in which it connects you to the Divine. It feels as if the Divine is pouring through your body. I found it particularly useful when I worked in Advertising, because I would feel kind-of protected all day in the office, after doing it in the morning. I will be there, brushing up my skills:-

http://amma.org.uk/iam.htm

There is a party of my friends going to Calais to give aid to refugees there. The dawning of this intention is something I was present for at a recent Amma satsang in Hove, and it was very beautiful indeed. I get goose bumps just remembering it… The selflessness of people never ceases to move and hearten me. You can contribute to the buying of blankets, boots, tents etc. for the homeless migrants by donating via PayPal using this email: calaiswintersupplies@gmail.com. Super easy and feels so good 🙂 Or if you would like to join them on the trip, please contact me by phone. They leave on the 14th Dec for a couple of days.

Regarding sessions with the U-AP, what I have learned is that using this new energy and consciousness does so much more than even the excellent ‘Protocol’. It’s the way it allows the receiver to fall into the arms of the Divine which makes it so unique. Here is what one of you emailed after session 2:-

“I had come to accept that working through trauma with clients as a psychotherapist, simply entailed the personal processing of other people’s unconscious within my own body as just par for the course, an inevitability of ‘depth’ work. I now see that this does not necessarily need to be so dense. That there is a way of positioning in relation to the Divine where this process can be lighter… After your healing yesterday I honestly am astounded at the effect. I had almost stopped believing that energy healing can be this powerful… It is to consciousness now that I feel so awake and alive… The work you have done on me in 2 sessions has awestruck me…the healing has blown my mind and inspired in me the awakening of connection and the primal energetic love and passion of existence.”

I learned from a friend this week and wanted to share with you, that when you are in difficulty – first, give it to God. This first and most important step is often missed in our rush to try to control the situation. Along similar lines, it occurred to me during a session this week, that when you pray, the prayer gets answered in the sense that God hears what it is that you are REALLY asking for. This is not to say that it isn’t important what you pray for, and more importantly the attitude with which you pray, simply that what we really need is often being distorted by the ego.

And lastly, but not leastly, the film ‘Un + Une’ by Claude Lelouche, which was by his own admission in the Paris program really a way to make a film about Amma, was released in France yesterday 🙂 If anyone hears of it being shown here in London, please do let me know. Here is a link for more info:-

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Un_plus_une

Love,

Daisy

Nov 19

Shadows and Light (I think Joni Mitchell had it there)

Hello,

“Every picture has it shadows

And it has some source of light,

Blindness, blindness, and sight…”

Joni Mitchell

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ty_7d-qwYxs

So, Paris……. What a shock. I never usually watch the news, but when I did on Saturday morning I could only cry and curl up in pain about it all. In the end I had to take action, so I decided to do a healing on the situation, which I mentioned on the Vortex FB group. I felt happy seeing so many fellow healers join in and respond, rather than react, to what had happened. The attacks made me reflect on how much I love this city, London; it’s freedoms, tastes, smells, colours and sexualities, music, dirt and aliveness everywhere. I am in love with the city in which I was born, and to think of it being hit with such a wave of violence as Paris was, is horrifying. What I also want to acknowledge is how much it has brought to the surface fears and pain in me and in everyone I have treated or interacted with this week. If you want to express anything about it, please feel free to write to me or call.

I hope those of you who visited Amma in London enjoyed yourselves 🙂 I know I did. I feel so very fortunate to have been touched in this way by her, in a way that is complete and whole. I especially liked part of her speech, in which she said, “It is what we give, not what we receive, which determines the value of our life”. Why is it that she can say the simplest of things, but it can cut all the way through, like the Truth itself?

I have a healing story to share with you. I treated a man who was in another country a long way away. He is the father of a client, fairly resistant to healing and from a generation where perhaps the idea of healing is less palatable. He had had cataract surgery recently and reached out for help when he was unable to see without double vision at long distances. The next day, less than 24 hours after the session, I received this text from my client quoting her father: “I am 🙂 My vision is now clearer up to 7 or 8 feet compared with yesterday”. I consider this quite something when you think that this was achieved in just one session using the U-AP, and on someone at a distance who was asleep at the time (plus essentially a non-believer).

A little update: the availability of the wonderful new venue I am working from in EC1, is Tues 6pm – 9pm and Wed 10am – 5pm. So please do book for in-person healing.

Finally, some Vortex trivia for you. During the Earthshift class, I asked Ric how many Vortex students there are worldwide. He said about 5000. Our little pot is growing 😉

Ok, goodbye for now. I hope you enjoy your weekend,

Love,

Daisy

Nov 5

The Call of the Heart

Hello,

Happy Guy Fawkes Day 🙂 I’m sure many of you are more focussed on Amma’s upcoming visit to London, beginning on Tuesday. For those of you who are wavering about whether to be with her or not, I want to tell you a story.

A friend and fellow devotee from Poland was staying with me and was booked onto the Eurostar to be with Amma the following day. I had no plans to be with Amma in Paris. That evening, we decided to buy ice cream from the shop and, outside, my friend turned and looked at me. It was much like any other moment, except that I felt Amma pour through her and into my heart. Then she said, “I can feel Her already”, and I replied, “Yes, so can I…”. As I crossed the threshold of the shop, I realised somehow that I was going to Paris the next day with her. It was 10 30pm; it seemed impossible. But when we got in, the picture of Amma on my altar seemed to flash with light. I sat with it all for a while, wondering “What is life asking of me regarding Paris?” (a tip gathered from Adyashanti). Immediately, I had a vision of myself in the hall at the Paris programme. The more I sat, the clearer the direction to go in became. I went online (it was now 11 30pm) and managed to find a very reasonable last minute deal. I rearranged my life, and we left at 5am the next morning.

It really is like this sometimes… Literally the calling of the heart from the Divine; direct, and beyond doubt. Here is an excerpt from my diary about what happened when I got there:

“I sat down on the stage and tried to see Amma. Swamiji and some media people were obscuring the view, but I was enjoying their cheerful exchange. Then, I saw Her from behind. Suddenly I felt a rush through my entire body and then all there was was stillness. My mind stopped. I closed my eyes and a vastness opened…there was no separation that I could feel at all. This stunning openness……. Eventually, thoughts returned. But there were so few and they felt as if they were disembodied voices, mouths talking to one another lower down in my body. I felt no identification with them. It was amazing though, to see how they build their web – thought by thought by thought, until we feel consumed. Then, I listened to one of them and I was drawn into a long and convincing story about my future: I “knew”…”It all makes sense”, I thought. I even experienced a kind of visual clarity while this was happening. But then my eyes met a sign on the stage which said, in French, “Please leave space here”. There was an internal laugh, and the whole of that story began to drop, unravel and become see-through. The deep silence of Being returned, though in a sense tainted with this grand tale that the bodymind had spun. I relaxed, smiling at the child sitting next to me, and fell into meditation again, impassioned by Amma’s beautiful form.”

I hope this sheds some light on your own process perhaps, or on why it is worth it to keep going as deeply into Truth as you can. I have observed that often after a great opening, the deepest conditioning can come up like that – masquerading as Truth, in a way. It takes a great deal of surrender to see through that kind of story, rather than following it.

I will be doing the Vortex Healing Earthshift this weekend, so I hope to see some of you there 🙂

And last but not least, thanks to one of you I now have a venue for in-person healing. This will most likely be available on Wednesdays in EC1, which I will confirm in due course.

Much Love to you,

Daisy

Nov 1

Amma: London, 10th & 11th Nov only (Devi Bhava 11th)

Hello 🙂

Yes, Amma will be with us shortly 🙂 It is a shorter program than usual, with only 2 days (the Devi Bhava being on that last day). Please call or text me if you have not yet met Amma and want to know more. Here are the practical details:-

http://www.amma.org.uk/ammas-tour.htm

As some of you know, I recently went to be with Amma in Paris (at the very last minute!) and then in Germany at the new M.A. Centre there. I returned late on the 25th Oct, but had caught the flu, which left me in bed or on the sofa for the best part of last week. This is why I have not written to you until now.

I suppose what I want to say about all my experiences up to now that could be helpful, is that all the fantasies I had about spiritual awakening are untrue. Being what I am and letting go into that is not some kind of get-out clause in my life (as much as I would like it to be), or a pinnacle of self-improvement. You may have heard this before, sure. But when you actually realise this experientially…it melts you. Melts you, and then you still have to pay the bills 😉 What I am saying is that if you really want the Truth, and that’s a big ‘if’, then don’t stuff everything there that you don’t want to deal with in your life, even though that is incredibly tempting. This is my experience anyway. If this touches anything in you and you would like to discuss it, please do call me. Otherwise, I hope to see you at Amma’s in London or in a session soon.

Much Love,

Daisy

Aug 15

Distance Healing

Hello 🙂

I am off on my journeys tomorrow, beginning with the silent meditation retreat with Adyashanti.

After that, I am available for distance healing from the ashram with Amma and then from Virginia Beach for the Vortex Healing training, ‘Original Veil’. In all cases this will be by (limited) email arrangement and communication, due to circumstance rather than choice.

The time difference in Amma’s ashram is that I will be 4 & 1/2 hrs ahead of London. That is from the 28th Aug – 14th Sept (allowing for adjustment days). In Virginia Beach, I will be 5 hrs behind London. That is from 20th Sept – 3rd Oct. In the ashram my time is more flexible, in Virginia Beach I will be available after 6pm (or early mornings) local time.

Please do book as soon as possible, because email is limited while I am away. But if you can’t, then email me whenever you can. I am in service to you.

May the force be with you 🙂

Love,

Daisy

Jul 30

Awakening

Hello 🙂

How are you? I hope you are enjoying the opening that the summer can bring. I want to write about something I don’t find easy to write about, but that I often get asked about. I hope you find it useful.

People often ask me about my experience of awakening. Firstly, I want to say that this is a wide term used for a variety of quite different things. From my point of view, I am talking about the ‘I’ in the heart completely dissolving and never coming back, and the subsequent living of life without separation. I am not talking about the full embodiment of that, nor am I describing ascension, the end of suffering or a spiritual vision, experience or insight, or about theories or philosophies of any kind. Many of those are lovely and I am as partial to them as the next person. Awakening, though, is sudden and unlike anything else. It comes in through the back door, as it were…when we are totally unprepared.

In Vortex Healing terminology, we call this the falling away of the Core Veil. In me, that happened in 2005 during a Vortex Healing class called ‘Heart, Freedom, Presence’. I have written about this on my website in the bio page. The interesting thing is that I am observing more and more that people are coming to me with a deep longing for awakening and I seem to be able to (as other practitioners of my level in Vortex are able to) work on that with them using the Grid tool, which you may have experienced me using with you in healing sessions. Last week, this happened in a session with a client who has recently completed the Omega level training in Vortex. The healing began and I was guided to work on her Core Veil using the Grid. Within seconds, I saw a piece of it move, completely falling away. This has happened before in sessions, but it never ceases to thrill and amaze me… I felt so privileged to be there and to be able, via Grace, to help facilitate this. Needless to say, the client felt the shift.

To relate all this to my own felt reality now, I can say that the oneness realised that day in 2005 is always here, but there are times at which it feels ‘brighter’ (for want of a better word) or ‘duller’ than at other times. When suffering has been great, I have lost all sense of oneness and yet it remains and that is realised in a profoundly deep way. As an example of the ‘brightening’, last Saturday, upon returning from facilitating equine assisted therapy in Surrey, I met a woman on the train who turned out to be a Catholic nun (she was in normal clothing). We shared our passion for Divinity in our diverse ways and how it shines at the heart of both of our lives. When this lady got off the train, she held my hand saying, “Daisy you have strengthened me”. For some reason, when I sat down again, I closed my eyes. I was taken into an extraordinarily deep sense of oneness…it was very beautiful indeed. I recognised the absolute permanence of this – that it is always here, but I do not always notice fully. I sat like this for the whole journey and could have done so for a lot longer, but had to get off the train. Some of the side effects were a deep and profound sense of peace and an in-loveness with everything, including the pavement and particularly the hand rail in the tube station! I felt compelled to stop and stroke the rail for some time. It was so full, of life and beauty and ecstasy… The brightening continued and then faded eventually. I realised that this was simply by believing thoughts. That’s really all it takes – just to believe one thought, and the whole conscious experience of awakeness / oneness can disappear, just as suddenly as it appeared before. It was Adyashanti who I first heard describe this part.

I have not heard anything about Adyashanti coming to London during his England trip this August, but his wife Mukti will give satsang. Here is the link:-

http://www.adyashanti.org/index.php?file=mukti_events&eventid=1222

Also, here is Ric’s (Vortex founder) book, which is like a beginners guide to Vortex Healing, but as a Vortex person of 14 years I am absolutely loving it! Really, really worthwhile:-

http://www.amazon.co.uk/VortexHealing%C2%AE-Divine-Energy-Healing-Awakening/dp/1504330234/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1438259089&sr=1-1&keywords=vortex+healing

Finally, I am still here in London and available for healings.

During my time away, I will be available for distance healing. Again, the dates I will be away are: 16th Aug – 6th Oct.

Love and care,

Daisy

Jul 11

Amma’s Vision, Amma’s Action

Hello 🙂

I wanted to share with you a keynote address Amma, and researchers from her Amrita University, were invited to give the United Nations on the subject of sustainable development (NYC, 8th July 2015):-

http://webtv.un.org/search/part-1-amrita-university-event-an-international-conference-on-technology-for-sustainable-development/4346066038001?term=technology%20and%20sustainable%20development

http://webtv.un.org/search/part-2-amrita-university-event-an-international-conference-on-technology-for-sustainable-development/4346071033001?term=technology%20and%20sustainable%20development

The first video features Amma’s address at around minute 26.

The thing which touched me most from the broadcasts was this: a group of PhD researchers from Amma’s Amrita University acquired research funding from the European Commission to research landslides. This was the first of such funding to be provided to a project like this in India by Europe. Amma asked the researchers, “What is your plan?”. They replied that they would do laboratory simulations and then publish a paper (as is normal in this kind of research). Amma then asked, “Please wire the money back to the Commission”. They were aghast, insisting, “Why Amma? This is a prestigious project!”. Amma replied that their project could directly save lives, and that they should go to a landslide-prone area and deploy their system immediately; otherwise it was her wish that they wire the money back. This kind of global thinking, rooted in the greatest true compassion I have ever known, is typical of Amma. Needless to say, the researchers honoured her wisdom and saved many lives in the process.

Amma will be with us in Alexandra Palace from 10th – 11th Nov 2015 (Devi Bhava on the 11th – all night). This is a shorter program than usual. Please ask me if you would like any further information about Amma, or her London visit later this year.

I hope this email finds you well,

Much Love,

Daisy

Jun 16

Time and Attention

Hello 🙂

You now have my increased time and attention, you will be pleased to hear. I have spent the past 3 years taken over by the BA(Hons) in Counselling, but now…it is over! I got a 2:1! Very pleased 🙂

My other work remains – the Equine Assisted Therapy, the voluntary clinical placement in Hackney and the voluntary clinical placement in Tower Hamlets – but the end of the degree means I have something like 20 hours per week now available, that was previously consumed (on every level) by it.

So please do contact me if you would like healing work. I will also be looking for a suitable venue in the Camden area, so that I can do face-to-face sessions once more.

Looking forward, there are rumours that Adyashanti will do an evening in London come August 🙂 This is in addition to the silent retreat he is facilitating in Surrey from the 16th – 20th.

Also, on the 20th of this month there is a Vortex Healing class here in London, for anyone able to take – or repeat – the Omega level.

I hope you are all enjoying, or have enjoyed, some of this beautiful sunshine 🙂

Best wishes to you,

Daisy

May 21

50% off: Spring Bank Holiday Monday 25th May

Hello,

I want to tell you about my upcoming Bank Holiday Deal 🙂

50% off Spring Bank Holiday Monday 25th May = £40 per session

This applies also to pre-booked sessions.

I will also have more availability after the 15th June, when my degree finally ends 🙂 I hope you are well,

Best wishes,

Daisy

Apr 30

Day off this Bank Holiday Monday

Hello,

How are you? I wanted to say I have been thinking of you although I haven’t written for a long time. I am wondering how you are – how you are with the stillness and what is happening inside you?

I have just done several hours of meditation following a long sleep, both of which I have not made time for recently due to stress. It feels so good to return…

Perhaps I will say a little about what I feel meditation is, as sometimes it seems to be a rather misunderstood term. My experience of meditation is that I come home as what I really truly am in a given moment, or in many apparent moments which seem to be strung together. When I sit to meditate, I often use a guided meditation from Adyashanti (for example, from ‘The Way of Liberating Insight’ online course I am doing), or I may chant the Names to Amma, or I may just sit down, close my eyes and be still. Whatever the practice, to me meditation is what I am – simply that. Meditation is what I am. In a sense, I could say it is the act of being what I am (although that isn’t quite it). And what can happen within meditation is the slicing through, the piercing, of a deep conditioned pattern in a way that completely and radically dissolves that pattern. It may return, wounded, and yet it never can completely return once that kind of insight has taken place. Please do ask me to elaborate on this if you are interested.

What is your experience of meditation? I would love to hear your experiences.

This Monday I am taking the day off. I will not therefore be able to offer the usual Half Price Deal. I suppose I don’t feel it would be ethical to work when I am in the business of facilitating healing and I can feel that my bodymind needs to heal. I am thinking of you and wishing you Love and Truth in whatever you are involved in,

Take care,

Love,

Daisy

Aug 17

Into Great Silence

Hello,

I once watched a film with the same title as this email. Have you seen it? It is about a monastery and is silent all the way through, with only environmental noises etc. happening here and there – a wonderful achievement in the film world I think. I love the name and it perhaps describes what I am about to enter into at Adyashanti’s first silent retreat in England. I know some of you will also be there 🙂 🙂 🙂

I can feel waves of silence almost like rushes through my system and there was a deep profundity during my meditation this morning. I feel so incredibly privileged to have this opportunity and be willing and able to take it.

So, it is goodbye from me for now. As you know, I will be going to be with Amma in India afterwards, where I will have some email access. I return on the 20th September. I will miss you,

With Love,

Daisy

Jul 27

The Joy of Sunday

Hello,

I am really beginning to enjoy Sunday. Do you know what I mean? It feels to me that there is a relaxation in the group consciousness on Sundays, which contributes to the desire to stop and rest, to be with myself, or rather to be Self. I wonder if you get this too?

I have been thoroughly enjoying also my sessions with you. I will mention one of them, but I want to point out in general that if I don’t mention yours it may be because there is such a deep silence after it, that there is nothing to say. Sometimes everything that needed to happen in the session happened.

Something which did strike me during a session this week, was that the person could actually feel the sensation of me clearing her twisted/knotted vital web lines. I did not say that I was doing this, rather she brought it up afterwards, explaining her experience and I realised what she was talking about. She was also able to track her ego during the dialogue we had, and all the cards it was playing, but to stay with herself – with truth. That is a real skill and it was a joy to witness. You may notice in this kind of work, or in life in general really, that the ego will play one card, then when that doesn’t work, the next and so on until it gets your attention away from allowing everything to be as it is. For example, let’s say you clash with someone: the first thought/feeling might be anger and you may react to that. But if you don’t, then maybe the next one will be feeling hurt. If that still doesn’t work, the ego will invariably throw fear into the mix, because it knows how much it can control you with it. Fear (or control) is often the last stop-out for illusion as it desperately attempts to dominate what it has never been able to. I would love to hear your experiences of this, so do share them if you would like to.

Just to remind you that I am here and am going away from the 17th Aug – 20th Sept. I look forward to hearing what is going on for you before that,

Bye for now,

Best wishes,

Daisy

Jul 6

Re-Networking with Vortex Healing

Hello,

What a stunning sunset tonight… Through it I can see Alexandra Palace from my kitchen and it reminds me of Amma. It has prompted me to remind you of the dates for her visit to London this year, which are 27th – 29th October (the last night will be all night for Devi Bhava).

I have been experiencing fantastic results from the new Re-Networking Vortex Healing technique. This is used when other Vortex work has been done on an issue and then the Divine is able to come in and dissolve the remainder of the ‘network’ of what is left for that issue. For myself, working on a fear patterning in my left side has been so liberating. One effect from it is that I can now see when thoughts I am having are simply fear and I can let them go effortlessly. I also feel so much more relaxed and in my body and many other issues (‘higher up’ in my system as it were) have begun to let go spontaneously as a result. Again, I am able to experience them for what they are, as opposed to getting stuck in them. It really is remarkable stuff, so do come for a session if any of this appeals to you.

I will be going away this summer, first on silent retreat with Adyashanti in Surrey and afterwards to be with Amma in Amritapuri. It is not for a while and I am definitely available for healings now, but I wanted to let you know in advance: I will be away from the 17th August to the 20th September.

Some of you have friend-requested me on Facebook. I am flattered. In no way do I wish to reject you, but I have to decline this. You may remember what happened a few months ago and the precautions I informed you that I am taking as a result. However, there is the option to add me on LinkedIn and Twitter, because I only use them for healing. I hope this does not cause offence to anyone, because that is absolutely not my intention.

Wishing you a gorgeous sunset and a light beginning to your week,

Best wishes,

Daisy

Jun 29

Following Intuition

Hello,

I have been contemplating what it is to follow intuition this week. What makes it difficult for many of us, from an awakening perspective, is that there are so many attachments and aversions which get in the way. You sense something – like a “Go this way” – and then ignore it in favour of what you wanted to do, or what you thought you should do. Then that turns out to collapse in some way, because it was out of alignment with you as you really are. Does this sound familiar?

So, what can be done about this seeming catch 22? Really only one thing. And you probably already know what that is, from the very place I am pointing to. It is a question of coming back to reality, of listening to yourself, to that deep and silent voice which only ever has one thing to say. Very simple and, at the same time, not necessarily easy. Meditation, chanting, being with Amma, Adyashanti, self inquiry, walking in nature etc. are all helpful in reconnecting with what life is actually saying inside you. But even before that, often you know what your intuition is saying, even if you don’t want to know.

It is currently Mercury Retrograde until the 1st of July. This may explain a lot, as it did to me when I was kindly informed of it by one of you earlier today. In case you don’t know, this astrological movement affects communication and transport.

I hope you are getting time to enjoy the glorious sunshine we are having periodically at the moment,

Best wishes,

Daisy

Jun 1

Br. Shubamrita in Hornsey, London

Hello,

How are you? I just attended Br. Shubamrita’s (one of Amma’s senior disciples) satsang, bhajans, meditation and chanting etc. here in London and realised I didn’t tell any of you it was on. Sorry about that! You can always sign up for the Amma E-News here, which tells you about all the events that are happening:-

http://www.amma.org.uk/contact-us.htm

The program was glorious, as you would expect 🙂 Amma’s presence was palpable. I feel so lucky, it was incredible to be part of it. I highly recommend any Amma events you can attend. I wanted to share with you some Amma stories we were told.

The one which made everyone roar with laughter was when an expert in Vastu (which apparently is the Indian equivalent of Feng Shui) came to Amma saying, “One of the gates at the back of the ashram is all wrong. If you don’t change it, all the money that comes in here will go straight out again”. Amma smiled at him, replying, “Then I will never change that gate”.

The other story I loved was of Amma giving darshan for 20 hours straight in Malaysia. After this time, Br. Shubamrita asked her to stop because the queue was not going down – more and more people were coming. But Amma paid no attention. Later, Swamiji approached Amma pleading with her to stop. Amma looked at him and said, “The first thing I do when I sit down to give darshan is to have a conversation with the clock (so that we don’t interfere with one another). I say to him, ‘You do your work, I’ll do mine'”. Wow!!!

Ok, that’s all from me for now. I hope this email finds you unfolding into Mystery with no hands on the wheel 🙂

Daisy

May 29

Earthshift, Marlies and more

Hello,

How are you? Thank you to those of you who participated in the Bank Holiday Deal on Monday. It was a pleasure to work with you, just after the Earthshift when my system was particularly attuned to giving healing. I enjoyed the shift very much; it was actually very intense for me, which I didn’t expect. I feel like I am still recovering from the huge amount of energy which pumped its way through all of us in service to Gaia and the physical Earth. The highlight for me was feeling the most direct contact with Gaia I have ever felt. A friend put it beautifully when she described this effect of Gaia coming ‘into the room’ as a kind of “elegance” and deep femininity.

I am also still resonating with the profound silence which Marlies evoked in us during her trips to Brighton and London. I was fortunate enough to receive a one-on-one session from her, in which the core position I came in with in this life was given space to breathe and release and the silence in and behind it came all the way through. To say that that session was life-changing would not be an understatement. Do any of you have anything to share from your time with Marlies?

I want to talk a little today about the process of engaging in Vortex Healing sessions with me. In my experience, what tends to unfold is like this: you come in with something and we get to the bottom of what the issue is, and then do a session for that. If you already have your awareness deeply in that issue and are meeting it (which is unusual), then you experience something like this afterwards:-

“I just want to say thank you from the bottom of my heart to you, Merlin and Ric.

Clearing the ‘spot of non-existence’ has most definitely been the most profound shift for me in my healing journey…….It was like a shadow in my bones and it was a constant effort on a daily basis to not let it engulf me. It weighed me down and yet I didn’t know what it was…….

Even now it brings tears to my eyes when I realise that I will never feel that dark void again. I never dreamed I would be free of it. I can’t tell you how grateful I am. I feel like now I can really get present to this thing called Life, breath it in and experience it.

Thank you Thank you Thank you.”

Isn’t that beautiful? I can’t tell you what that does to me to hear a person like that…

However, we are not all that dedicated to Truth and may not have done as much inner work as that person has. If awareness hasn’t yet penetrated the core of the issue at hand (through whatever means), then what is most likely going to happen is that in the session we will release the foundations of it and then it will tend to manifest in your life, in some way. This means it appears as if the issue is coming true (remembering that appearances are always deceptive). Although it is tempting to blame life/God/etc. at that point, you are really only experiencing the result of whatever avoidance of this issue was going on beforehand, plus the next layer of it in your system. After this process has passed through, then you will tend to experience freedom within and from that issue. Think of it as like throwing a frisbee: if you do not follow through with your arm, then the frisbee will not land well and the game is no fun.

Vortex is not for the faint-hearted. But, as a friend in his 60s who is an expert in NLP, shamanic healing etc. (as well as a Vortex Healer) recently observed, it is the most effective energy healing he has ever come across.

I look forward to seeing you soon,

Best wishes,

Daisy

May 15

Marlies Cocheret in London Tomorrow

Hello,

It has been a while since I last wrote to you, during which time I have been in a personal process and diving deep into silence and meditation. I have been thinking of you, many of you have popped into my meditations and I hope you are well.

I mentioned this a while ago, but realised I hadn’t reminded you – Marlies is coming to London tomorrow and Saturday. I spent last weekend on retreat with her in Brighton and found her work once again to be profoundly embodying and transformational. What I found most helpful was the invitation to rest as silence, with no technique and no conditions.

If you are free tomorrow evening and/or during the day on Saturday, I highly recommend this opportunity to be with an awake teacher who is from Adyashanti. I will be there tomorrow. Here are the details:-

http://www.marliescocheret.com/Flyer/2014-UK-flyer.jpg

Best wishes,

Daisy

Apr 15

Oneness

Hello,

I am excited to share with you that through processing what I talked about in my last email, my healing sessions have changed. I noticed that in the session I just gave, there was a new kind of natural bridging as oneness. The client felt this too and said, “It was amazing”. I want to credit Amma, the wonderful healers who have helped me through, my therapist and my friends. I have learned a lot from you.

One thing I did for myself during this time (and I believe would be of huge help to many of you) is disentangling myself from the karmic field of my parents. This is done first for Mum and then for Dad. As children, we merge our karmic field with theirs, causing us to carry a lot of stuff which isn’t really ours. Releasing this creates a deep silence in your energy field and whole system. For me, it was as if lots of voices suddenly stopped talking around me.

There is also a new way to clear conflict in relationships: by using Merlin’s Grace to ‘clear anything that is negatively impacting the relationships, on all dimensions of the astral’. It only takes 5-8 minutes or so.

Hot news on the Vortex scene is the ‘spot of non-existence’. Here is what Ric has to say about these: “these can look like black holes on the outside but a black hole is where the emotional pain has contracted all the vital weblines there into a tight, dense spot that has no movement or light within it. But imagine that pain going even deeper, so that it wants to cease to exist, and that desire literally sucks the life out of the vital weblines. My guess is that about 1 in 17 people has one of these. And if you have one and it has been treated as if it were a black hole, then it is still there. And it is easy enough to find out: channel ReplW [get me to do this for you] for your spot of non-existence and see if anything starts to happen and stays happening.” It would take about one session to clear this. My friends and clients who have had this removed are raving about it.

As regards this Bank Holiday, I will not be able to offer my usual half-price day because I will be spending time with my family to mark my Dad’s death three years ago. However, fear not, because there are two Bank Holidays coming up very soon, the first of which is on the 5th May (I will write with details nearer the time).

Looking forward to seeing you for awakening and healing fun!

Best wishes,

Daisy

Apr 7

Drunk on Vortex

Hello,

So this healing journey post-class gets more and more interesting: on Friday, I had a client who took 20 mins to recover after the healing we did (involving the new Navel AP work) and when I walked her to the door, I could hardly walk! Since I have quit drinking for 6 weeks, I am very pleased to be drunk on Vortex 🙂

It’s also wonderful to be closer friends with Merlin. I am having quite a few experiences now where he takes over a healing session, particularly towards the end. Not only does the receiver feel waves of Divine energy when this happens, but it also connects me to a deep sense of trust and being held. Amazing… I am feeling Amma within in a real way too, which feels like something I have wanted for so long and like it is a kind of embodiment.

Another interesting thing I have noticed since Awakening the BodyMind and the Core Beliefs, is that I can now sometimes hear my thoughts speaking to each other. Like characters in my head communicating, which feels closer to what is really happening. I feel less caught in them and identified as them. Pretty cool, particularly since this followed a healing crisis involving my core issues. That leads me to believe that crises are entirely good things.

Here is some feedback from one of you this week: “That really was a dramatic and inspiring healing… Throughout the session, it felt like there was some physical healing going on, and that was awe inspiring… I had the thought to ‘give myself over’ to non-existence, (only because I was confident it was not possible), then there was a big change, which was enjoyable, but I became anxious I would stay in that state if you stopped. I then surrendered to accepting even that was ok, if it happened and it became powerful and blissful, but also peaceful and not scary, at the same time. Energy flowed in lines down my right leg and I could tell that that was being made stronger, totally unexpectedly, which was inspiring and emotional… Thanks again, I am so blown away by your healing lately, and the physical changes seem to be gradually getting better and better”.

The new kidney essence and Jing energies are going down very well with you all it seems and there is more that can be done in this regard, to energise you. Here is what Ric has to say: “First we use Merlin’s Grace to ‘expand the Pre-natal Jing reservoir network, so as to be able to hold more of it’. And this works. If you first fill up the Pre-natal Jing and then expand its network, you’ll see you can channel in some more. Same with Kidney Essence. Each of these steps (doing the Pre-natal Jing and Kidney Essence separately) only takes a few minutes. All of you should take the little amount of time needed to do this, because it can make a significant long-term difference. – NB Jing is the ‘parent’ of chi”.

“And that’s all the news” (anyone remember ‘The Day Today’? 🙂

Love,

xDaisy

Mar 22

Awakening the BodyMind and the Core Beliefs

Hello,

I’m back 🙂 I would love to see you for a session and can recommend it highly since I am in the ‘afterglow’ of class, which usually lasts about 2 weeks. Of course, the awakening movement is permanent (one of the things which makes Vortex Healing a unique healing art).

What a spectacular class… It never ceases to amaze me what can be done by the Divine on a group level. Amongst other things, I feel much closer to Merlin now, whereas before I could only truly relate to the Divine as Amma. I also resolved a lot of personal stuff which has been going on for a few years – in fact, all of it.

So, what’s in this for you?

We received a Divine Power Line in class, which makes our bridging 30% deeper. What that means is that when I am giving healing, I am able to bring more Divine energy into your system and meet what I am working on in you in a deeper and fuller way. Ric also discovered an AP (Assemblage Point) in the navel, which is excellent for releasing conditioning from the physical body (by clearing the reality streams from it, as with the normal AP in the heart area). Our class are the only ones who can currently do this in the lineage. Merlin’s Grace energy (which is the energy I am normally using with you) received an upgrade. This means that I can channel ‘Multi-Release’, which enables me to catch-up several things at once that are now separate steps in the Merlin’s Grace Protocol. And there is an incredible new aspect of MG called ‘kidney essence’, which raises the kidney energy throughout the whole system, giving you more energy on all levels (particularly physical). When we received this in class, people reported feeling younger and more energised in a way they had not felt before. I didn’t need to have caffeine after this, which I felt was pretty miraculous!

I think that is enough information for now; I will write more later. To give you a sense of what the overall point of this class was, essentially it was an embodiment class (and a way of waking up the ‘mind’ of the body). Ric said on this note: “Embodiment is about using stillness as a door, because what you are is going to keep emerging from that”.

I look forward to seeing you soon,

Love,

xDaisy

Mar 14

Truth V Conditioning

Hello,

How are you? I know that some of you have just finished Inner Veil in London and also Core Veil, at the same venue (different room obviously). I am so excited for you and the bridging as oneness that this may have created. Please do write and tell me all about it – I am all ears! It is such a huge surrender and such a huge grace to be involved in taking Vortex Healing classes, so (without wanting to sound patronising) – well done.

I was talking with one of you last week and I was reminded of something I hadn’t thought about for a long time. When my ex-partner took her Vortex Basic class, she asked an interesting question to Anthony (the teacher): “How do I know when I am coming from conditioning and when I am coming from Truth? What’s the difference?”. Anthony replied simply that conditioning always has a story.

I hope this is a help to some of you, or maybe even all of you. I have found it very helpful myself. Not so much as a technique or something to ‘meditate on’ (when people say that, they are often doing anything but meditating), but as something much more direct and subtle than that. You know when you are trying to make a decision and your mind keeps coming up with lots of ‘reasons’ why you have to take a certain path? That’s conditioning. The more reasons and stories and elaborations there are, you can be sure that you are probably acting from mind, from fear, from conditioning. The truthful way (which comes from you as you are) is often the one which is quiet and totally non-demanding. Yet you can’t shake it off.

I received a lovely voicemail from one of you as feedback for a session we had done a couple of days before. Interestingly, although we were working on the physical body, he reported that, “the session was very transformative on a mental level” and that he had felt a lot of surrender and a sense of God during it. Another of you had a very deep response to a session we did to release grief. This person has also taken the Core Veil class (a little while ago). At the end of the session, in which she had had many tears, she said, “I can feel my clarity again now – I can feel the awake space”. She also texted a few days later to say, “thanks for helping me become more aware of the issues I have been holding, for some peace and clarity and deep healing and knowing that is here”.

The texts have really been flowing recently! The last one I want to mention for now is the following, which I received the day after a healing I gave this week: “Hi Daisy, I just wanted to thank you for the Vortex on Tues. It really helped me connect with my knowing that Vortex is a very valuable path for me and I need not use what goes on in my exterior world as a barometer for ‘progress’. I can sense what it feels like now not to be carrying all that isolation in my system”. Isn’t that beautiful? It is at moments like this when I think, “I have the best job in the world”. I want to say a huge thank you to all of you for choosing to work with me.

Remember that I will be going to Brighton today, for the class ‘Awakening the BodyMind and the Core Beliefs’. I will return next Friday 21st March.

Love to you all and sunshine too,

xDaisy

Feb 5

True Talking

Hello,

I had a very inspiring talk with one of you on the phone this week, regarding the confusion which follows awakening (in this case in the context of being post-Core Veil). It is as if spontaneous truth arose in the conversation and the person felt that there was a transmission coming through. I don’t know about that! But it was nice to be told – “it is so good to have people like you around to talk to about awakening and post-awakening”. Because I have lived this, it is easy to connect with what you are experiencing, so please do call if you have any questions about this fascinating subject.

I was watching a film last week called ‘The Perks of Being a Wallflower’. Guess what the ending line of the film was? : “…in this moment, we are infinite”. It goes to show that even when you are chilling, there is no escape from oneness!

I have been playing with some new pathway work this week when going to sleep. It is a way of optimising the biochemical pathways. It is particularly good for clearing allergies (although I was using it to regulate my adrenals, which tend to be overactive due to fear patterning in my kidneys). For an allergy, this could take a couple of sessions (including 10 mins to catch up the brain and then the cellular consciousness and localised consciousness of the form – LCF). Worth a go, especially for food allergies.

I have had a week full to the brim of life-learning. I must say I am feeling incredibly enriched by my degree in Person-Centred Counselling and everything it is moving in me. I suppose what I have learned most this week is to let go of the idea that things have to be good all the time. And that when I willingly move into what is in each moment and in each day, without trying to change it, it transforms in its own time, according to the needs of something much bigger than me. And also, to trust my instinct (heart) rather than taking a position of any kind, particularly during conflicts. I don’t think I can remember a time of greater transformation in my whole life. It is exciting! I would love to know how your experience is and what you are learning, so do write if you have time. Enjoy,

Love,

xDaisy

Jan 20

2014

Hello,

How are you? I wonder how January is going for you and whether you are making plans for the rest of the year? I am looking forward to doing a Vortex awakening class in March and then going on a silent retreat with Adyashanti in August. You can still get on the waiting list for that I believe. But more importantly – are you touching into, in a deep way, what it is that you are in this life for?

On this subject, I have a video to share with you, which I watched with friends on NYE. It’s an old favourite, so forgive me if I am repeating myself:-

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j2wcqjFC13M

A number of you went through the very powerful experience of taking the Core Veil Vortex class last year. Ric (the founder of Vortex healing) describes this as ‘basic awakening’ and I agree with him, from my own experience. However, that is not to say that everything is suddenly ok after that because one is awake. It is the beginning, or can be, of a love affair with the Truth, with reality itself. Here is what one of you had to say about life after this class: “It was like I was living in a masked ball but didn’t know it, until I woke up from it”.

The work with the Assemblage Point is going very well indeed. Here is what I wrote after one session recently:-

At the beginning, after a long talk connecting us and working through some trauma, I closed my eyes and there was only oneness. Then I got moved into her heart and the tightness in there . Then gradually down into her root and the fear element – the pain first, then the fear was revealed. But all of this was happening spontaneously. There was no doer – I wasn’t doing anything. It happened and we both followed. Then after a while of being in her root, I did the AP protocol work.

This client said after this healing (plus another healing with a friend of mine): “So what I noticed is changes in my reactivity: I am more patient. I have more compassion and understanding beyond thinking. It feels good :-)”.

Another of you reported that after I had finished the AP protocol work on the core emotional position he entered this life with, a huge parasite came out of him. So, anything can happen with this work! And I got this lovely email the other day too: “So much has transpired since then. Lots of new positive insights. It’s amazing how these 4 healings have created such a subtle yet profound shift in me.”

Have a good Monday and I’ll see you soon,

Love,

xDaisy

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