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Devotion

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I am here in London, adjusting to the changes that my life brings, in this case the return from ashram life to city life. I don’t know if anyone remembers that seminal track by Goldie – ’Inner City Life’? That more-or-less encapsulates how it feels.

When sitting down to write about a living master, one faces a dilemma: the sense that the living presence of such a being, and the ‘experience’ (for want of a better word) of that, can never be confined to words or descriptions. It’s very hard to say anything about Amma. She both is and is not, she manifests as both form and formless in a continuous cascade. Perhaps the way in which my friends and I feel her in the most tangible way, is as Supreme Love: a Love that goes completely beyond anything imaginable, and which cuts through every vestige of the human ego, revealing the ultimate secret of this universe. If anyone is asking why I spend so much time with my spiritual teacher, this is why.

I wish I could give some kind of account of my stay with Amma in Amritapuri, but that really would just be words. You see, it’s a living thing with her. You don’t go about your day and then sit down and write your diary, and feel all good about what you’ve understood, and then go to sleep again. It’s not like that. The path with Amma is the path of action, of expression, of interaction and of an outpouring of a selflessness you had no idea was inside you, waiting to come out. This Love moves, this Silence transforms without leaving itself. This true way throws the human being into complete Mystery, not only once, but constantly. And miracles rain down upon everyone in that ashram like the monsoons. I’m aware that I sound like I’ve drunk the Kool-Aid – lol!

Those of you who have visited the ashram will know that one of the ways people deepen in their closeness with Amma and her teachings, is through sharing stories about her. I heard many extraordinary accounts while I was there this time. One never knows whether such stories are true, mythological or a version of a truth. To me, that is not ultimately the most important thing: for me, it is this unknown space…this Mystery, that such stories deepen me into which matters the most. One night, we met a new friend. As we got to know him over the course of our stay on the ashram (in saying ‘we’ and ‘our’, I am referring to Steve and I – yes, we are back together 🙂 🙂 :-)), this friend began to tell us the story of how he met Amma. The story begins before he was born. His father heard about Amma and took my friend’s sister to meet Her in Manchester in 1989. When they went for Darshan the father said to his daughter, “You are in the presence of God, you can ask anything you like.” The daughter told Amma that she wanted a little brother. Amma looked to the father and asked if he and his wife wanted another child. The father replied Yes, but that they could not, because his wife had gone through the menopause. Amma said Ok, and smiled at the daughter. A couple of months later, the mother began her periods again. Soon after this, she was pregnant. My friend was born in due course. Not long after the birth, Amma was due to visit England again. The father stayed at home with his new son (my friend), while the mother – who had never met Amma yet – and her daughter went to the program. As the mother fell into Amma’s arms for Darshan, Amma said to this woman – who she was meeting for the first time and had no information about – “Are you happy now that you have a son?” The mother burst into tears and surrendered. Hearing this story flooded me with energy rushes and goosebumps. I would never want to, or try to, prove whether it is true or not. I don’t know that. All I can say is that the sense of resonance throughout my entire being upon hearing it was overwhelming, and that the feeling of reality, realness, hitting-the-mark – whatever you want to call it – opened up within me in a profound way.

This actually leads me into something else I wanted to share with you. People often ask me about intuition, and feel that I have some expertise in this area. I don’t know about that, but I did discover something more about the whole thing when I was with Amma in the ashram. I hope that including this diary entry might assist you in your own journey with with your sense of intuition / instinct.

12/9/18

The answer came in Darshan today. There was no need to tune-in, check, ‘ask Amma inside’, or anything like that. When I was relaxed and open – simple, and in my being, one could say – I felt during Amma’s long embrace that [X]. It didn’t come mentally. It didn’t come through any kind of asking. It didn’t come in a big bang. It came through the feeling body. This relative truth came as a sort-of feeling, a kind-of sense, which ran like a river through my heart. So, yes, as [Y] reminded me that time: trust the truth that comes naturally, like a gift.”

That’s all for now. If you would like to book a session or talk about anything, please call, message or text me.

Much Love,

xDaisy

Amma: Compassion Visionary

Hello 🙂

How are you? I am very well indeed 🙂 I was hoping to write to you earlier, but it seems now is the time. First of all, just to let you know that I am back in London and working – so please do message or call my phone to book a session. Plus, I have the venue back. So it’s Wednesdays at Barbican. Some of you will appreciate this, as you either cannot have sessions in your home, or prefer not to. House calls, though, and distant sessions remain available.

Being with Amma on her west coast US Tour was phenomenal… If you have not yet had the chance to meet this fascinating visionary of Compassion, please do take the opportunity. Amma tours for around eight months of each year and the rest of the time is in her ashram in Kerala (India). So, if you are ever going abroad, check in with her websites to see if your paths cross. The dates for the London program at the moment look to be the 11th – 12th November at Sandown Race Course in Surrey (with the Devi Bhava all-nighter being on the 12th). Please do check nearer the time for the update on this, as it can change.

Amma is not just another teacher, another guru. We are talking about, without mincing words, the most exact embodiment of Divinity on the planet alive today. The benefits of spending time in Her physical presence simply cannot be quantified. Just a few examples of this are: experiencing the true nature of Unconditional Love, broadening learning on how to give and why it is so important, and awakening and embodiment. Not to mention engaging in the far-reaching humanitarian aid work Amma is doing, through Her global charity ‘Embracing the World’, and all its volunteers. Bear in mind that neither Amma, nor the Swamis or Swamini, nor any of her senior devotees, nor any of us are paid for the work we do. This is why her charity remains uniquely effective in delivering to its millions of recipients in India and all over the world.

Check out her charity:-

www.embracingtheworld.org

Her US Tour (still happening):-

www.amma.org

And her Indian site:-

www.amritapuri.org

Above, you will find all the information you need on meeting Amma and on her charitable activities. If you do not, please don’t hesitate to ask me.

I want to give you a little personal account of just a couple of the amazing things I experienced with Amma this time. The first is a diary entry from my working week in between having just taken the Vortex Healing® Manifesting Intention course and my time with Amma:-

25/5/18

I was in my bedroom contemplating this continuous drive towards God which I feel so pressingly within. All of a sudden, an alarm began to ring very loudly. I had never heard this particular alarm before and didn’t know where it was coming from. I searched the room. Finally, hidden behind furniture, I found this old dusty digital clock; clearly, it had been left untouched for months, maybe even years. Within the displayed time was 108. As I gazed at this in amazement, the numbers turned to 109, and the alarm clock stopped ringing.

As many of you know, 108 is a particularly auspicious number in Indian spirituality and we chant the 108 Names of the Divine Mother as part of Amma’s recommended sadhana (spiritual practices). A week and a half afterwards, it felt like this bolt-from-the-blue came to fruition while I was on Tour with Amma. I was in Seattle and had been up all night on Devi Bhava, being with Amma and doing seva (selfless service) with my friends. Here is an excerpt from what I wrote:-

4/6/18

After Darshan, I was given a seat right in front of Amma. I fell Silent, totally peaceful, content and happy. Eventually I was moved, but I lingered at the back of the stage. I was left untouched standing there for more than an hour – during which time I was totally transfixed by Amma. Watching Her, I deepened more and more into Silence.

Then, the man who plays the guitar beautifully began to play a solo during Swami Dayamrita’s bhajan set. It was so wonderful, it began to carry me… Suddenly, I was overcome and I began to cry. I felt everything and nothing, I felt union. The sense of union (for want of a better word – a word that doesn’t exist) was so deep…in a felt way, in a way that was choiceless and without an exit gate or any room for doubt. I felt relief and completion in a way that was total. I called out in my heart to Amma, “Thank you, thank you, thank you Amma. I can hardly believe that this is my life. Help me to Surrender – I want to Surender all of my life, everything, to You.” I was crying for a long time; every time I would look at Amma, it would start again. It had hit me – really, really hit me – what She is doing here. I felt overwhelmed at seeing the Reality of Her. That she chose this life she is living – that She has come to us to uplift us, in the most profound sense – the whole world, the whole of humanity. It’s hard to get it across in words, what I felt and perceived. I kept crying and silently calling out to Amma in my heart, “Thank you, thank you Amma – thank you Amma, thank you Amma.” The gratitude I felt was completely overwhelming. In between my tears and praying, I would simply watch Her giving Darshan, feeling this one-pointed longing / bridging into Divinity itself – like I was being fast-tracked to God. When my mind would occasionally start up again, Amma would turn and look at me, and my mind was stopped, and I would be returned into the Silence. It was as if She was showing me the utter beyond-ness of Divinity through this whole thing.

I would like to end with a quote directly from Amma. I hope you enjoy it. I recommend reading it out loud to yourself for full effect:-

“Compassion does not see the faults of others. It does not see the weaknesses of people. It makes no distinction between good and bad people. Compassion cannot draw a line between two countries, two faiths or two religions. Compassion has no ego; thus there is no fear, lust or passion. Compassion simply forgives and forgets. Compassion is like a passage. Everything passes through it. Nothing can stay there. Compassion is love expressed in all its fullness.”

❤️ Amma (Sri Mata Amritanandamayi Devi)

Love,

xDaisy

Outside of Mind

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I would like to share a poem I wrote this morning after sadhana, and inspired ever more by this deep practice (of the 1000 Names and the IAM technique from Amma).

What a violent thing

To bring mind in here!

To this sacred place,

This holy Silence.

 

Outside of mind

Lies all things,

And all non-things.

Your cascading lights

Cannot fool me anymore,

For I have found something

Here, exquisite.

 

In these long halls

Of Silence upon Silence,

I meet the innermost –

The maker –

The original Spark.

 

Yet She is so Silent…

So nothing,

And so everything.

 

No song-and-dance fanfare.

Simply Silence gazing,

Just gazing.

She sees it all –

Sips it all in,

And rests.

 

It is some miracle that this poem came out from me, considering that I am still in that heartbreak which I wrote to you about in February. Really it has been going on since January. The blood and the guts of this particular heartbreak are hellish. But I am ever grateful to my friends for their support, and similarly to Amma, Adyashanti, Vortex Healing and my healers. What to do? We are all in the same boat going down the stream, playing out our karma. Yet, paradoxically, this is happening right in the middle of an all-encompassing awakening embodiment evolution.

My friend Alexandra Stone was kind enough to interview me for her website, please have a look:-

http://www.alexandrastone.studio/blog/

And finally, I want to thank those of you who have been giving me such rich and powerful feedback on the sessions. When you are self-employed, the only way you really know you are doing a good job is when clients or teachers tell you so. My heartfelt thanks for bringing smiles and tears of joy to me 🙂

I have a couple of spaces left in London Sat & Sun. Also, let me know if Wed – Fri might suit you (as that is possibly when I will next be in London). In the meantime, please contact me for distance healing.

Much Love and gratitude,

xDaisy

London this week: Wed and Fri

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I am very happy here in Lewes. Yes, I have moved for the 4th time (temporarily) in 6 weeks. It’s such an adventure! Not that that was my intention, and of course there have been times of intense challenge. Yet now I feel the wonder and the grace of it all, and the felt sense of Divine Will in it is profound, really profound.

The slight issue I have at the moment is time – I am running out of it before I go to America. Already, most session times are booked this week. I may be able to squeeze in a couple more on Wednesday at Leila’s or on Friday making home visits. Other than that, distance healing is available, though again, this is limited due to current demand. However, I am only away for 3 weeks. As a reminder, that is from 30th May – 21st June.

I would like to share the following passage from Adyashanti’s book ‘Resurrecting Jesus: Embodying the Spirit of a Revolutionary Mystic’, which brought me to tears of inner implosion right there in the launderette.

“This is all about an internal journey, about your capacity to recognise divinity whenever and wherever you encounter it. It requires a certain sort of humility that allows you to peer beyond the world of appearances and touch upon that spark of the timeless radiance. Whether you understand it or can do anything with it doesn’t matter in the slightest; all that matters is your capacity to recognise that spark when you see it and to open yourself in humility to its redeeming Grace. This is the magic of Jesus’ life. This is the miracle that surpasses all the other miracles – the ability that Jesus has to mirror back divinity for those who are in his presence. This miracle is far superior to being able to walk on water or turn water into wine. It is the miracle of redemption, which awakens people to their own true nature.”  ~ Adyashanti

Love,

xDaisy

Contemplation in the Sun

Hello 🙂

How are you?

First of all, I want to let you know that I will be in London on Wednesday this week in the Barbican. I need the rest of the week to sort out my housing situation in Brighton, which needs turning around within literally 7 days. Skype sessions are available though, of course.

I had one of those moments today, where I was between work (equine assisted therapy and a little job I do for a friend in London) and I stepped out into the sun in the garden where I was. I was immediately struck by the ordinary beauty of things. Simply the other buildings, the music from a party somewhere in the background, and the sky. Finally I could stop for a while, and I did. My mind began to chatter and then to fade, melting into my heart as often it does. It felt so good to feel, to be barefoot on the ground and to be able to loaf for an hour, with nothing to do! I felt so free… Silence pervaded completely. Eventually a thought came: What if I spent the rest of my life just being free? Something opened wider within, in this contemplation. I mean, what if any of us simply chose inner freedom, true peace, right now – and for every ‘now’ forever? I am well aware that this makes no sense in a way! But can you feel into what I’m saying? In other words, what if you, reading this right now, never ever left whatever realisation you have had about the true nature of what you are?

The next thought that came was, What would that take? I saw that it would require a willingness to relinquish all future plans. I also saw I would need to never leave what I know and to never believe or follow through on another thought / piece of negativity. It was humbling…to say the least.

Anyway, I wanted to share this exploration with you now, in hindsight, to see if you resonate with it or have perhaps had a similar kind of insight too? 🙂 Please do write with your comments on this.

Love,

xDaisy

London this week: today, Friday and Saturday

Hello,

How are you? A short note to say that for London sessions, today and Sat are now full this week. But there are a couple of spaces left on Friday. Distance sessions are always available of course, via Skype.

I also wanted to share this video with you. I never tire of Amma’s Swami Dayamrita. In particular it is his integrity, authenticity and humility which really touch me. They are rare qualities in people I have found. Let me know your feelings on this interview. Mine are very passionate!

SOULJOURNS – SWAMI DAYAMRITA, AMMA’S SENIOR DISCIPLE

SOULJOURNS – SWAMI DAYAMRITA, AMMA’S SENIOR DISCIPLE

Welcome to Souljourns and to the amazing story of a former atheist, a well educated man who came to know of Amma…

Much Love,

xDaisy

Self No Other

Hello,

How are you? I have had to wittle this group down due to technicalities with Yahoo, so I hope no one I’ve knocked off feels left out. I am thinking of you all with a warm and surrendered heart and wondering where life is taking you… Please do write with your stories – they are always welcome 🙂

Thank you to those of you who responded to my last email; I feel your warmth and compassion. I know some of you have been concerned and wondering how I am, so I thought I’d fill you in a little and update you on this process, hopefully in a way that speaks to you and your process too. What I am going through in its deepest essence at the moment is heartbreak. I’m sure many of you have been through this too. So unexpected and so very deep, yet at least I know I have loved fully. I have heard some people say to me that they have never been in love before, even people who are quite a lot older than I am, and (perhaps) that is saddest of all.

The process has been that through fully embracing this heartbreak, as much as I am able in my fragile humanness, there is a continuing kind of breakdown breakthrough and entering into Divinity. I want to credit here my sadhana practice, Amma, Adyashanti and Vortex Healing and the engagement in these. There was also a sudden breakthrough during a group healing I was lucky enough to be part of – many thanks Chetana and Will Thornton. I was amazed at the turnaround and transformation after receiving this healing – almost like night and day – and the subsequent sense of completely withdrawing into the Self. Here is what I wrote about it in an email afterwards:-

“I just want to share that something has completely left me since this healing. Now I feel as if there is only the Self itself, and that’s all. It’s like nothingness, but not that empty feeling of emotional vacuum at all. It’s devoid of noise, there is only Silence. Grounded in Self now.”

In my diary I reflected further:-

“So this is it. It was always here. Right here… No wonder no one could give it to me. What this is could never be bought nor sold. ‘The peace which surpasses all understanding’, now I know You. Now I know You… You are this – are me. It’s not outside, it never was outside.”

When I arose the following morning, I knew I had to move home to Brighton. It’s funny because I have just remembered in writing this, that Eckhart Tolle once said one day he simply knew he had to move to North America. Moving as Self, it’s not a question of working things out. It’s letting go without end.

I will be coming to London every week to see you for sessions, so please don’t worry about that. I expect I will move around the beginning of April. Please do not hesitate to email or call me if you have any questions about this.

With Love in my heart,

xDaisy

Silent Meditation Retreat with Adyashanti

Hello,

I must say I am thrilled to have the opportunity to deepen into this great, deep silence……….who knows what will happen in this great adventure into the unknown? The inner dive, swan dive, into mystery. I will be unavailable in communication – on a silent meditation retreat – from tomorrow until the 22nd Aug, when I will be back in action.

I want to share a few more learnings from the Ammathon (as a friend rightly called it!), which I hope will benefit you. During the program in Toronto, Amma said something which really struck me. She said, “Vasanas have no power of their own. It is we who give them power.” I realised in that moment, how powerless negativity really is. Her statement also cut through, in me, the tendency to become so familiar with something, that I begin to misuse it. What I mean is that I have talked about my ‘vasanas’ (latent negative tendencies) or issues or behaviour so many times, I can forget that it is I myself who permits them to have the power they have and who actually gives that power to them. I thought this could strike a chord for many of you as well. I would add that it is our tendency to identify with such internal arisings, which is the mechanism by which we give them the most power.

The most core life story I had, the one which had most coloured my experience of reality in this lifetime, came up during the last couple of days with Amma. We save the best for last, don’t we? For me, that was the love story – the agony and the ecstasy of romantic love, and underlying that, the nagging feeling that the right relationship would fulfil me and close any remaining ‘gap’. This probably sounds familiar to some of you, perhaps to many of you. I know – it’s a hard one to admit! I am not going to share the private details of that, sorry 😉 But please bear with me anyway. There is something more important than that part of the story. It began on the treadmill, of all places, not somewhere I frequently find myself. But going to the gym occasionally, during the tour, helped me get time by myself (which is almost completely impossible on staff) and helped me move energetics that were stuck. Suddenly on this treadmill, the desire to be free of that core story hit me, like never before. I simply HAD to be free of it; I could carry it all no more. So with this fire, I made a silent cry – a prayer – within, to Amma. With that, I let go, knowing that it could go either way: perhaps I would get free of this pattern, perhaps I would not – it was in the hands of Divinity now.

Shortly after this, Amma did a Q&A with the retreat group outside, in the unseasonably hot evening sun. There were only about 500 of us there. Right from the beginning, I felt a large amount of fear and anxiety coursing through my system, to the point where I could barely sit still. I didn’t know why I was feeling this way, it was like a body thing. I decided to focus more intensely on the question that was happening, and on Amma’s answer. As I looked at Amma, she made a certain movement as she talked with her hands, and with that I was gone. I felt as if I was merging into Amma from where I was – it was part-visual, part-kinesthetic (akin to the way I sense, during a session). As this happened, any remaining sense of separation fell away and I began to cry. In this oneness and tears and the whole un-conveyable experience, I suddenly knew that all my desire, lack and longing for this person – and all women and men who I had ever felt that towards – was really the longing for God. I simply knew it. Not as a concept and not as a philosophy, and not as an excuse. I actually saw it. I saw it in such a way, that it felt like I could never actually un-see it. I also sensed intuitively that all my other desires were also the longing for God. I felt freed at last…….truly, truly free.

(NB God in my perception is also Truth, wholeness, unity, oneness etc.) The next thoughts were, “Why have I been running after men and women all this time?” and “How could I have missed this reality all these years?” Then the strangest thing happened: I experienced depression for the first time in my life. As I sat, purposefully alone, eating dinner, I felt depressed. But there was absolutely no resistance to it. The sense of oneness was so broad and pervasive, that there was absolutely no problem with feeling depressed. In fact, I was pleased to be having the experience, because before that I never understood what depression was. I knew what pain was, deep gruelling emotional pain, but I didn’t know depression until that moment. I then experienced suicidal ideation! But again, there was no problem with this either, because there was zero resistance to it. And it existed in a context of oneness, of Love. After about an hour, both of these so-called negative experiences passed of their own accord, without me doing anything at all about them.

In hindsight, I believe they occurred because my ego had just lost its trump card, which was the core love story drama. With that gone, it seems like it had to play the depression and suicide cards to try to regain ‘control’ of my bodymind. But that didn’t work: these feelings and thoughts simply passed through, as I said. So then I was just there: story-less and One, feeling a sense of ordinariness and freedom. Nothing special, yet complete liberation.

I make my newsletters personal because I don’t believe I can help unless I talk from my own direct experience. I hope that by reading this something may have resonated or sparked for you.

See you soon, after the retreat,

Love,

xDaisy

Out of the Blue

Hello,

First off I want to tell you about an upcoming training in the IAM, Amma’s meditation technique, which came to her in a vision while she was taking a nighttime stroll around the ashram many years ago. I highly recommend it to anyone looking for a way to connect with Divinity, a fantastic meditation technique or simply a way to unwind, calm thinking down or relax the nervous system. Whatever intention you bring to it, will gradually manifest in your life. It is being held in Brighton / Lewes on the 17th / 18th September. The cost to cover room hire etc. is £35; please contact me if you are interested.

My next recommendation is the Foundational Vortex Healing course being held here in London, 19th – 23rd September with Anthony Gorman. It is hard to begin to explain what Vortex Healing has brought into my life so far because it is so broad and deep. I was thinking recently about why I practice Vortex Healing more than the other helping modalities I am trained in. I came to the simple conclusion that, in my personal and professional experience, it is more effective at deepening you into the core of what you are and releasing the roots of what you aren’t, than any other modality of help I have trained in or experienced first hand.

Now back to the Amma tour this summer 🙂 It was interesting to hear Amma explain in an aside during one of her talks in L.A., that the external aspect of Kali – the fierce appearance – is designed to bring out the dormant doubt in the devotee. I immediately thought of those of you who have felt that Amma has glared at you or ignored you etc. over the years. If she is indeed an embodiment of Kali (which I personally believe), then this might help you make sense of what she is doing there. From my perspective, no action Amma makes is unconscious, and Yes – she can bestow focus on many many people at once. Anyone who has experienced the ‘staring Darshan’ at the end of Devi Bhava will know about this. When she is ‘Kali with us’, perhaps Amma is indeed purposefully bringing out the poison of doubt in the process of life and Divinity. If this kind of insecurity exists within in a suppressed state – for example, as cynicism – it gives rise to all kinds of distortions and disorders in the experience of living, not to mention in the body. On a similar note, it is not uncommon for people to not want to be with Amma if they have strong issues with their own mother. It is easy to put your birth mother’s face over Amma’s face, subtly and subconsciously projecting onto her. If you had painful childhood experiences, you may then fear that she will hurt you in some way, get angry with you, punish you for something you did or ignore you etc. If this sounds like you, you may even find that when you approach her for Darshan, that you have negative thoughts towards Amma. All of that is part of the process of you healing from things which are sometimes unimaginably deep in your system. It will not hurt Amma in any way. In fact, she has been known to ask us to project anger and negativity onto her using the Amma dolls, in order to release in a harmless way. It is possible to see at some point, that the thoughts you have towards Amma are really thoughts you harbour towards yourself.

On a different note, Amma is really urging us all to plant trees if possible, adding the chilling words that, “when we cut down trees, remember we are building our own coffin.” She is also encouraging anyone who has outside space to plant a small vegetable garden and try to eat the produce from that. This means we will not go hungry when food runs short in the future and we will also avoid consuming the pesticides etc. on supermarket vegetables. Not to mention that we save money and get in touch with the earth at the same time 🙂

Now for a little story 🙂 I had a profound experience of Divine Intention during this tour with Amma. Having something like that really changes your life, because before that the idea that the Divine can reach into your life and move it in a certain direction is often just that – an idea, perhaps a hope, or a dream. Here is what happened to me. Out-of-the-blue, during Devi Bhava in Toronto (the final stop on the tour), my boss told my friend and I to go and sit with Amma on the stage. We were understandably astonished, because this lady is known for wanting people to work very hard. We jumped at the chance and made our way onto the stage. We stood beside the ‘bouncer’, an entertaining yet stern man who always wears a suit, and manages the part of the stage nearest to Amma on all the US tour programs. Again out-of-the-blue, he invited us to sit together directly next to Amma. Let me explain that this never happens! It was really out of character for him. We felt so lucky, and beamed at one another 🙂 As I watched her up-close, each movement Amma made as she gave Darshan would bridge me deeper into presence… Then, she suddenly turned and looked at both of us directly, smiling. It was amazing… That look will never leave me. It was a look of the purest knowing… It was so rich, so full… Both my friend and I reported the same things: it felt like Amma was communicating that she herself had brought us into this tour on staff, and that this exchange with her was a kind of ‘graduation’. We both felt this deep sense of Amma acknowledging all the seva we had done, and of the inner work we had done and also we felt this incredible depth of solidarity between us. We felt as if Amma had given each one to the other to help us complete the tour. Somehow I knew, intuitively, that I had just had a real life experience of Divine Intention. And in the wake of that, doubt vanished. I wish I could put this all into words better. But maybe it isn’t possible to do that. The mystery manifesting into creation, manifesting in all kinds of ways, every moment… You can see why the wise men (and women) say, better to sit as silence.

I hope you enjoyed this email and that you are getting plenty of sun 🙂

Love,

Daisy

Why Amma?

Hello,

How are you Londoners and people of the world? 🙂 I hope if you are in London that you are enjoying this heat wave we are lucky enough to be having 🙂

I want to address a question today which people often ask me, or ask me without words. Why Amma? Why do I do this? Why go and pay a handsome fee to work without pay, under conditions which some would consider harsh?

The answer is simple: it’s love. I look at Amma, and I love her. The depth of that love makes me want to support her work, serve Embracing the World (her global charity), and beyond that, to serve life in its entirety. For me, it’s passion; it’s not a ‘being good’ thing. It’s not even spiritual. Imagine being in love…now times it by 500…that’s nowhere near it. This is bhakti (devotion) in real terms.

Everyone has their own particular relationship with Amma, and certainly Amma devotees are all there for different reasons. Some of my friends, clients and family feel put off by the culty appearance of it all, by some of the devotees (who can be far from loving) and by the pretentious ‘holier than thou’ dynamics. Those of you who know me even a little bit, know I am definitely not the poster girl for holiness 🙂 No; it’s a love thing. Pure and simple.

So, what were the physical realities of being on volunteer tour staff, you may wonder. In my particular seva, we were working around 14 hours per day (every day) and longer on a Devi Bhava (the all-nighter). We got roughly 5 hours sleep per night, on the floor, sharing a room and bathroom with between 6 and 40 women. Then, after the long Devi Bhava, we would get on a coach and travel to the next city. Some of those journeys were over 22 hours long. When we arrived, we would sometimes get only a few hours sleep before set-up and work began. We delivered programs in 10 cities, over a 6-week period.

In between all this, I would squeeze my way onto the stage to spend time with Amma. Occasionally, Amma would call the staff to receive Darshan. I would like to share with you my diary entry about this:-

6/6/16

I don’t know how possible it is to put this into words…

Impossible.

*  *  *  *  *  *  *

But let me try.

Amma called us for Darshan in Seattle on Devi Bhava. As I entered the stage in the queue, I decided to make a prayer within. I said something like, ‘Amma, please assist me in focussing on the goal of this life: on realising God. Please help me to remain focussed even during this tour.’

As I laid my eyes upon her, hugging the person in front, tears welled up. I felt this love for her that was beyond anything I had ever experienced, and yet ordinarily human at the same time. I simply rejoiced within, at the sight of her. She moved my head around quite a bit before finally placing it on her heart, while she answered the questions of some devotees to her right. It always amazes me how one never feels left out in this scenario: Amma’s attention is deeply with each one of us simultaneously, which is testament to the sheer depth of oneness she is living. She then kissed my cheek and embraced me, chanting in my ear with a kind of vehemence in her voice, “My daughter! My daughter! My daughter!”, over and over again. I fell into total oneness…….. At the same time, the human being felt her as my teacher and as my mother – somewhere where those two are one and the same. And the experience of trust was overwhelming. As Amma finished the hug and handed me prasad, we drew back from one another and she looked deeply into my eyes. I cannot adequately express in words what I felt pass between us in that exchange: it was simply beyond the beyond. I then felt deep gratitude and expressed it somehow from oneness. Amma’s expression altered to one of such profound compassion….…something just too immense to convey. She embraced me again and then placed a chocolate in my mouth. That was the moment at which my searching gently stopped. My life’s search ceased in that moment. It was, perhaps, what many teachers have described as the end of seeking. Immediately after this I experienced true happiness: powerful, pure, authentic, unconditional happiness. I felt restored, redeemed – completely. There was total and utter wholeness. I’m not talking conceptually here, but actually. The real thing.

As I walked away, I collapsed on the stage in tears beside Amma. I was crying, and then I was sobbing; there was no way to do anything at all, and I couldn’t stop. But I was actually sobbing with happiness. My heart broke open under a force: that of revelation, unconditional happiness, union…Truth. Simultaneously, I experienced a spontaneous healing of my past, which came from nowhere. Dad’s death, the break-ups, the childhood trauma, the fear, isolation, despair, loss, loneliness, lack and doubt – all of these were consumed by something I cannot describe. I cried and cried, wiping my make-up from my face with my sleeve, only to cry uncontrollably again.

When the crying eventually stopped, I sat for a while. When I left the stage, I felt empty in the true sense of the word. Emptied of separation, of that heavy anxious burden. And the very subtle sense that something is missing, was gone. I could rest…finally, I could rest…… The feeling of resting and oneness were beautiful……profound. Paradoxically, there was an abundant feeling of vitality at the same time. But it was vitality without ownership. I realised that rest and vitality are the same thing. Eventually I went about the day, without saying a word about it to anyone.”

I hope you enjoy your day and that I get to see you soon 🙂

Love,

xDaisy

This Love

Hello 🙂

This is a new day,

This is a brand new day!

Your crimson tide washes over my heart,

This Love,

This Love…

I wish I could more accurately translate to you the sense of doing the 1000 Names this morning. It leaves a perfume, a scent, of such depth and bliss…and ultimately pure non-separation, oneness. If you are not doing a regular practice, I highly recommend starting today. Even if you only do a 15 minute meditation in the morning or at night, you will find that over time you begin to see clearly again, the way you used to as a child. To see things AS THEY ARE. What a huge privilege…! In fact, Amma has said:-

I didn’t come to teach anyone anything. I came to remind you of a song you once knew, but have since forgotten  ~ Amma

It’s quite a statement coming from an avatar, the one kind of being who actually can truly teach, directly, and with acute accuracy. So we can see then, that this enlightenment game is really not about teachers or teachings. It’s about something else entirely… I would dearly love to hear your thoughts on what it is about, so please write to me about this 🙂 Also, please do join me on Facebook. Search for Daisy Nokes. I know I went through a privacy period, but that is over now.

How did you fair over Shivaratri on Monday, followed by the solar eclipse and Picses supermoon on Tues and Wed? Yes, that much did happen! The Shiva day, from my point of view, is about stillness manifesting into creation (sometimes in a variety of ways 😉 and the solar eclipse creates a deep purging of old pain, so that new projects can blossom. The supermoon in Picses represents the unconscious of humanity, the collective unconscious, what is being denied, coming out and releasing. I would love to hear any stories you have about Mon, Tues and Wed 🙂

If you feel you would like to join in with weekly coming-togethers of like hearted souls, just to remind you that I am going to Villa Devi in London every week to sing and chant and be with Amma devotees. It is a deeply transformative and amazing way to deepen your practices or path and to gain the sense of community. Let me know if you would like to be put on their mailing list.

Some of the results I have been getting through working with the U-AP level of Vortex Healing are remarkable. A client rang me to say that she “couldn’t feel anything” and she was concerned that she was emotionally disconnected. But when I looked into her system I could see that the work we had done together was so transformative that she had lost an entire ‘place’ or position in consciousness from which she had been living her life up until now. That is the power of this healing art combined with the way I work with Amma. I always wanted something which could actually remove issues, not just make the prison more comfortable, but actually deconstruct the prison piece by piece. Thank goodness I found Amma and Vortex Healing and that I am able to share that deconstruction with you, in you. This is the deepest gift I have ever been given.

I also facilitated a session this week in which I worked on the core position underlying back pain that my client had had for over 8 years, and with which she had been working in a variety of very helpful ways. Yet somehow the pain remained. Immeditately after the session she was able to flex her lower back again and the pain was barely noticeable! She also remarked that her voice had changed. This is something wonderful which can happen after a session, as if the person is speaking from a different place and without something ‘in the way’, that something being the issue worked on.

There was also a beautiful moment when I was doing some awakening coaching with a client and I asked her (because she was feeling a lack of clarity) what clarity meant to her. She replied simply, “Knowing my Truth and moving towards it”. I knew immediately that it was a pivotal moment for this person, because once you speak so authentically out loud the Divine hears (and you yourself hear) that and the transformation of life truly begins anew.

Ok that’s all for now. A bit of a long one – thank you for bearing with me 🙂 I feel very over-excited!

Love to you, beautiful blessed being,

Daisy

The Significance of Following Your Intuition

Hello,

Happy New Year 🙂

I want to talk about something while I am in this ‘place’ as it were. Do you know how it is when you follow your intuition, including speaking that, even though it takes so much courage and it goes against your conditioned reflexes?

When I do this, as I did today, it is as if there is an atmosphere which fills the whole room or space…and the truth leaves a wake, waves which carry on. Yet everything is totally still, silent in its essence, and real. It is as if I am touching the depth of life itself, right here in my bedroom. Nothing and everything exists within this, and there is no ‘outside’ or ‘inside’. Simultaneously, my body quivers with the felt sense of oneness – like rushes down my legs and down through my crown. Perhaps this is where the absolute and the humanness meet?

To give the ‘story’ part of this, I would have to share something which I know the person involved would not want me to share. It is not one of you, but it feels wrong to detail this. Sorry to be vague.

On a different note, you will be pleased to hear that I received this from Ric recently:-

“This morning there was an upgrade to the U-AP and a major upgrade to the Protocol. My sense is that you will be able, when working through the Protocol for issues, to move at least twice as much in the same time frame, and deeper. Happy New Year!” (Ric Weinman)

The difference is palpable, so do get in contact if you would like to experience it. That’s all for now, as I can’t write more from this silence at the moment. I look forward to hearing from you though 🙂

Love,

Daisy

To surrender to the Divine is to not know

Hello,

I hope you are all well in the run-up to Christmas. Christmas is often a difficult time for people, as well as a time of joy, and I wanted to acknowledge that because I don’t think it gets much press (for obvious reasons). I am available over this period for support. The only days I will not be available are 24th Dec – 26th Dec and the 31st Dec – 1st Jan.

On writing this newsletter, I have just finished my practices: the 1000 Names followed by the IAM Technique (please ask for more details if you wish). The sense of stillness, peace and unconditional Love is immense… I cannot recommend these highly enough. The discipline of any practice, though, done with openness of heart and regularity, brings you back to You. In the wintertime particularly, there exists this opportunity to flow into ourselves, deep within, to the Source, to the Light within darkness – the great deep midnight Light of awakeness.

I saw the most wonderful film last week, which you can find on Netflix. It is called ‘Awake’ and it documents the life of Paramahamsa Yogananda. The whole film is an amazing journey, and there was one part specifically which made a deep impression on me. It was when Yogananda was giving a speech in New York in the 1920s (around 15mins into the film) and he spoke about the centre of us being the spine; if you go in there, he said, “…you meet the Maker”. On hearing him speak these words, I spontaneously burst into tears and was pulled deep into my spine and into what he was speaking of, through the vehicle of emotional pain. I cried and cried and felt all this conditioning rush up my spine and out through my crown, while my sense-awareness naturally remained within the spine / gut area, expanding all the while, like a dissolution as Oneness. That was my experience of this great piece of filmmaking. If you watch it, I would love to hear about it.

I have been particularly struck by the sessions we have been doing together of late, and would like to share some of what you have said about them. After a session which cleared the issue of sorrow in one go, the receiver reported that she experienced the issue as being completely gone: she said that when she looked inside to find that place which had been there before, “there was nothing there – it was empty”. This is the joy of Vortex Healing®. It is amazing that it is able to get to issues deeply enough as to actually revive this natural experience. This doesn’t often happen in one session, but in this case it did.

In another session, I learned so much from my client. After talking awhile post-treatment, she said these simple yet profound words: “To surrender to the Divine is to not know”. It struck me right to my heart. Not only was it true for her, but it also pertained to current challenges in my own life. I felt these words coming from her real Self – not from something she had heard or rehearsed, but from that genuine place when innocence lives and thrives.

I have also had a few experiences where something takes over during a healing and I am no longer facilitating the healing at all – Divinity is simply pouring through as the natural expression of Life itself, faced with what needs to be transformed. That is something of deep personal significance to me, so I wanted to share it.

I also want to thank you for the deep compliments you have paid me in these past weeks. I won’t share what was said here, because it feels wrong, but you know who you are – thank you 🙂 I am not good at receiving these, but that doesn’t mean I don’t, and it is so very important for me to hear the good stuff, as well as the constructive criticisms you may have.

As always, these are just a few of the stories that have happened, and every single healing session is beautiful and deeply important.

Wishing you Love, Truth, whole-beingness,

Daisy

Awakening

Hello 🙂

How are you? I hope you are enjoying the opening that the summer can bring. I want to write about something I don’t find easy to write about, but that I often get asked about. I hope you find it useful.

People often ask me about my experience of awakening. Firstly, I want to say that this is a wide term used for a variety of quite different things. From my point of view, I am talking about the ‘I’ in the heart completely dissolving and never coming back, and the subsequent living of life without separation. I am not talking about the full embodiment of that, nor am I describing ascension, the end of suffering or a spiritual vision, experience or insight, or about theories or philosophies of any kind. Many of those are lovely and I am as partial to them as the next person. Awakening, though, is sudden and unlike anything else. It comes in through the back door, as it were…when we are totally unprepared.

In Vortex Healing terminology, we call this the falling away of the Core Veil. In me, that happened in 2005 during a Vortex Healing class called ‘Heart, Freedom, Presence’. I have written about this on my website in the bio page. The interesting thing is that I am observing more and more that people are coming to me with a deep longing for awakening and I seem to be able to (as other practitioners of my level in Vortex are able to) work on that with them using the Grid tool, which you may have experienced me using with you in healing sessions. Last week, this happened in a session with a client who has recently completed the Omega level training in Vortex. The healing began and I was guided to work on her Core Veil using the Grid. Within seconds, I saw a piece of it move, completely falling away. This has happened before in sessions, but it never ceases to thrill and amaze me… I felt so privileged to be there and to be able, via Grace, to help facilitate this. Needless to say, the client felt the shift.

To relate all this to my own felt reality now, I can say that the oneness realised that day in 2005 is always here, but there are times at which it feels ‘brighter’ (for want of a better word) or ‘duller’ than at other times. When suffering has been great, I have lost all sense of oneness and yet it remains and that is realised in a profoundly deep way. As an example of the ‘brightening’, last Saturday, upon returning from facilitating equine assisted therapy in Surrey, I met a woman on the train who turned out to be a Catholic nun (she was in normal clothing). We shared our passion for Divinity in our diverse ways and how it shines at the heart of both of our lives. When this lady got off the train, she held my hand saying, “Daisy you have strengthened me”. For some reason, when I sat down again, I closed my eyes. I was taken into an extraordinarily deep sense of oneness…it was very beautiful indeed. I recognised the absolute permanence of this – that it is always here, but I do not always notice fully. I sat like this for the whole journey and could have done so for a lot longer, but had to get off the train. Some of the side effects were a deep and profound sense of peace and an in-loveness with everything, including the pavement and particularly the hand rail in the tube station! I felt compelled to stop and stroke the rail for some time. It was so full, of life and beauty and ecstasy… The brightening continued and then faded eventually. I realised that this was simply by believing thoughts. That’s really all it takes – just to believe one thought, and the whole conscious experience of awakeness / oneness can disappear, just as suddenly as it appeared before. It was Adyashanti who I first heard describe this part.

I have not heard anything about Adyashanti coming to London during his England trip this August, but his wife Mukti will give satsang. Here is the link:-

http://www.adyashanti.org/index.php?file=mukti_events&eventid=1222

Also, here is Ric’s (Vortex founder) book, which is like a beginners guide to Vortex Healing, but as a Vortex person of 14 years I am absolutely loving it! Really, really worthwhile:-

http://www.amazon.co.uk/VortexHealing%C2%AE-Divine-Energy-Healing-Awakening/dp/1504330234/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1438259089&sr=1-1&keywords=vortex+healing

Finally, I am still here in London and available for healings.

During my time away, I will be available for distance healing. Again, the dates I will be away are: 16th Aug – 6th Oct.

Love and care,

Daisy

Dreams and Practicalities

Hello 🙂

How are you? I was wondering if you have been having particularly intense dreams of late? I have, as have my friends. I was staying with a friend in a tent and she dreamt that she was going through some hell realms and terrible places where there were experiments being done on humans, even while they were still alive! Then Amma came into the dream and showed her that, yes, she would find Her [ie, God realisation] through even that place, but that it would be so much easier if she would surrender to Her.

Now for the practicalities.

There are still places on the waiting list for Adyashanti’s retreat in August in Surrey. I HIGHLY recommend this. In addition, almost everyone I know who has been on the waiting list in previous years has got onto the retreat. Here is the link:  http://www.adyashanti.org/index.php?file=retreatsschedule

I have found a beautiful space to do healing from, but it won’t be available until October. I am currently offering to come to your home to do sessions, if you live in London (and not on the outskirts). So, for now, I will be able to offer you in-person healings in this manner. Skype sessions remain as normal if you live outside London, or if you prefer them, as some of you do.

I have decided to take 7 weeks off over the summer to answer the deepest calling within me. I will be away from the 16th Aug – 6th Oct. I will first be with Adyashanti (see above), then Amma in India and then Vortex Healing in America, for the class ‘Original Veil’. It is after this class that the sessions I do will take a huge leap in power and depth, because of what we will receive via transmission in class. The best news is, I will be offering distance healing during most of my time away. Sessions will be conducted via email (using the Global Healing Grid), as Skype will not be available due to very limited and public internet access.

Please do call me if any of this is unclear, or if you have any questions, or even simply want to share 🙂

Best wishes and warm heartfulness,

Daisy

Day off this Bank Holiday Monday

Hello,

How are you? I wanted to say I have been thinking of you although I haven’t written for a long time. I am wondering how you are – how you are with the stillness and what is happening inside you?

I have just done several hours of meditation following a long sleep, both of which I have not made time for recently due to stress. It feels so good to return…

Perhaps I will say a little about what I feel meditation is, as sometimes it seems to be a rather misunderstood term. My experience of meditation is that I come home as what I really truly am in a given moment, or in many apparent moments which seem to be strung together. When I sit to meditate, I often use a guided meditation from Adyashanti (for example, from ‘The Way of Liberating Insight’ online course I am doing), or I may chant the Names to Amma, or I may just sit down, close my eyes and be still. Whatever the practice, to me meditation is what I am – simply that. Meditation is what I am. In a sense, I could say it is the act of being what I am (although that isn’t quite it). And what can happen within meditation is the slicing through, the piercing, of a deep conditioned pattern in a way that completely and radically dissolves that pattern. It may return, wounded, and yet it never can completely return once that kind of insight has taken place. Please do ask me to elaborate on this if you are interested.

What is your experience of meditation? I would love to hear your experiences.

This Monday I am taking the day off. I will not therefore be able to offer the usual Half Price Deal. I suppose I don’t feel it would be ethical to work when I am in the business of facilitating healing and I can feel that my bodymind needs to heal. I am thinking of you and wishing you Love and Truth in whatever you are involved in,

Take care,

Love,

Daisy

The Mystery of Our Patterns

Hello,

I want to write to you today about something I discovered in my own process last night. I was on a real comedown from all the amazing pursuits of the summer and all my stuff was coming up. So I decided to be with it and surrender, as best I could.

Eventually, I began to look into what was happening inside. I realised I had made an assumption about what the pattern was which was coming up and was concerned because I had done so much work on that already. When I felt into everything and talked to Amma and Merlin, I found it wasn’t the pattern I had presumed it was. I think that one had been greatly cleared by all the protocol work I had done on it with Merlin’s Grace and probably by all the time I spent in silence, with Adya, Amma and the Breaking with the Past class (by the way, if you are unfamiliar with these terms – please do ask). It was something else – in fact, there were two patterns and they had been uncovered by the original one moving.

So…if you are wondering, “Why do I still feel crappy when I have had ‘x’ number of sessions of Vortex Healing or done ‘x’ number of classes?”, the answer may be that a pattern which was ‘hiding’ has been brought to the surface by all that work you have done, and it can now be moved.

If this rings any bells, please give me one 🙂

Best wishes,

Daisy

Risking Being Alive

Hello,

I was just reflecting on how fear is often at the root of whatever issue is coming up for us as human beings. The sense of fear-based survival rings like a bell, or more accurately a scream, throughout our consciousness. Yet it is often so suppressed that we don’t hear it and are out of touch with the way it is controlling our lives. My inner work on this has been greatly inspired by Ric, my therapist and by you and your journey.

It would not be an understatement to say that the biggest leaps I have ever made in terms of awakening and embodiment, have happened when (or after) I have been risking everything – absolutely everything, regardless of the outcome. Before that, I was saying I wanted truth but I wasn’t actually going for it. Can you relate to this? If so, I would love to hear your story. I want to add here, that the way risking would look for one person would be different to another. And it has nothing to do with sky-diving or anything like that. It is about breaking with your particular personal attachment. And not so that you can have it again after you’ve given it up. I know it isn’t easy. Not at all, and self-love becomes more important than ever here. Plus a look at the alternative is motivating I find.

On a different note, do you have hay fever? If so, help is at hand. It involves working on the immune system and Re-networking it, which is the latest thing in Vortex Healing. Re-networking means breaking down the entire network of something all at once and it came from Ric realising that, as well as stuff being held in particular places in the human system, it is also held as a network. That network can be dissolved in order to meet and transform the issue as a whole (in this case the whole allergy). However, please bear in mind that allergy work is tricky because the conditioning of allergies runs very deeply indeed, so this will work quicker for some people than others.

That’s all folks 🙂

Best wishes,

Daisy

Br. Shubamrita in Hornsey, London

Hello,

How are you? I just attended Br. Shubamrita’s (one of Amma’s senior disciples) satsang, bhajans, meditation and chanting etc. here in London and realised I didn’t tell any of you it was on. Sorry about that! You can always sign up for the Amma E-News here, which tells you about all the events that are happening:-

http://www.amma.org.uk/contact-us.htm

The program was glorious, as you would expect 🙂 Amma’s presence was palpable. I feel so lucky, it was incredible to be part of it. I highly recommend any Amma events you can attend. I wanted to share with you some Amma stories we were told.

The one which made everyone roar with laughter was when an expert in Vastu (which apparently is the Indian equivalent of Feng Shui) came to Amma saying, “One of the gates at the back of the ashram is all wrong. If you don’t change it, all the money that comes in here will go straight out again”. Amma smiled at him, replying, “Then I will never change that gate”.

The other story I loved was of Amma giving darshan for 20 hours straight in Malaysia. After this time, Br. Shubamrita asked her to stop because the queue was not going down – more and more people were coming. But Amma paid no attention. Later, Swamiji approached Amma pleading with her to stop. Amma looked at him and said, “The first thing I do when I sit down to give darshan is to have a conversation with the clock (so that we don’t interfere with one another). I say to him, ‘You do your work, I’ll do mine'”. Wow!!!

Ok, that’s all from me for now. I hope this email finds you unfolding into Mystery with no hands on the wheel 🙂

Daisy

Oneness

Hello,

I am excited to share with you that through processing what I talked about in my last email, my healing sessions have changed. I noticed that in the session I just gave, there was a new kind of  natural bridging as oneness. The client felt this too and said, “It was amazing”. I want to credit Amma, the wonderful healers who have helped me through, my therapist and my friends. I have learned a lot from you.

One thing I did for myself during this time (and I believe would be of huge help to many of you) is disentangling myself from the karmic field of my parents. This is done first for Mum and then for Dad. As children, we merge our karmic field with theirs, causing us to carry a lot of stuff which isn’t really ours. Releasing this creates a deep silence in your energy field and whole system. For me, it was as if lots of voices suddenly stopped talking around me.

There is also a new way to clear conflict in relationships: by using Merlin’s Grace to ‘clear anything that is negatively impacting the relationships, on all dimensions of the astral’. It only takes 5-8 minutes or so.

Hot news on the Vortex scene is the ‘spot of non-existence’. Here is what Ric has to say about these: “these can look like black holes on the outside but a black hole is where the emotional pain has contracted all the vital weblines there into a tight, dense spot that has no movement or light within it. But imagine that pain going even deeper, so that it wants to cease to exist, and that desire literally sucks the life out of the vital weblines. My guess is that about 1 in 17 people has one of these. And if you have one and it has been treated as if it were a black hole, then it is still there. And it is easy enough to find out: channel ReplW [get me to do this for you] for your spot of non-existence and see if anything starts to happen and stays happening.” It would take about one session to clear this. My friends and clients who have had this removed are raving about it.

As regards this Bank Holiday, I will not be able to offer my usual half-price day because I will be spending time with my family to mark my Dad’s death three years ago. However, fear not, because there are two Bank Holidays coming up very soon, the first of which is on the 5th May (I will write with details nearer the time).

Looking forward to seeing you for awakening and healing fun!

Best wishes,

Daisy

Amazing AP

Hello,

I just wanted to share some of the feedback I have got far from work I have done releasing reality streams from the Navel AP (mainly for physical stuff). As Ric has hinted (and now I can confirm) – this is the most profound tool we have ever had in Vortex for the physical body.

One of you felt a 90% improvement in terms of pain reduction and ability to move after 1 session, having been laid up in bed for a week with a back problem (sciatic nerve). He also said he would have had to miss work for several days had he not received this healing session.

Another person had a chronic physical issue involving energy not flowing properly and therefore causing nerve problems. He reported feeling a subtle yet clear improvement in this chronic condition (which he has had for 12 years). He described this new Vortex work as “really inspiring”, adding that it had clearly had an effect on his body in a way he would not have even hoped for.

On this note, although I usually get permission to share these stories and always do so anonymously, I wanted to ask if anyone minds these being shared with the group?

Much Love to you,

xDaisy

True Talking 2

Hello,

First of all I would like to apologise to those of you who received the last review several times – it was a Yahoo fault. I think it may have been influenced by the Mercury Retrograde we are experiencing (5th – 28th of this month). For those of you who don’t know what that is, in a nutshell it is a planetary movement affecting communication, technology and transport, often with chaotic results! Does this ring any bells? 🙂

On the subject of movements, there was a mini lineage shift within Vortex Healing on the afternoon of Thurs 6th Feb. For me, this was huge and really flushed out a lot of core conditioning, though I had no idea why at the time (as Ric Weinman only informed us of the shift afterwards). If you have taken Vortex Healing classes (in particular Merlin’s Grace) you may well have felt the effects. I’m not sure the word ‘mini’ quite captures it! In terms of what this means now, Ric writes: “The nature of the shift will mainly impact the Merlin’s Grace wizards, as it will facilitate deeper levels of bridging that only you have. In particular when doing distance work.”

Last week I spoke about a very inspiring conversation regarding awakening, which I had with one of you. That theme seemed to continue into the next week, this time with the thread running right through the human-ness, like a kind of embodiment. I had a conversation with one of you which was the most difficult and the most important of my career. The person raised a personal issue with me, regarding how I had been during the last session. I suppose this was my worst-nightmare-scenario of what could happen with a client, and it happened. The way I engaged with it was to be much more honest than I thought possible, returning to the felt sense of Truth as my anchor. And from what I witnessed, this person attempted to do the same. Through that willingness to rely solely on what is real and authentic, tears began to flow for both of us and in an absolute meeting, the situation began to unfold and resolve itself. What an amazing experience…and one that really is hard to put into words.

During a session with somebody else last week, again it was in the talking part that so much healing work happened. I must stress that this is a question of the willingness to be authentic, on the part of both parties. At the end of this ‘true talking’, the person said to me, “It is really important to be able to have this kind of sharing of what is going on with me. Truth is coming through you it feels like, when we talk.” This is similar to what I mentioned someone having said to me the previous week. I am reminded of what Adyashanti calls ‘prajna’, a Zen term meaning ‘heart wisdom’, when the willingness to rest as the unknown allows the known to be spoken. I am not talking about any kind of mental “I know”, or about ideas or theories; I mean something far deeper than that. Does this resonate?

A happy story from one of you, who has had big problems with digestion and leaky gut, plus candida. He has experienced a big improvement in these areas, having tried everything under the sun first. He feels that the sessions with me, combined with taking Vortex Healing classes, have been the deciding factor in this physical transformation. I would add that it is his dedication to healing himself which has been the fuel for all of that. It is also interesting to note that I was not only working on the physical level – in fact, the main focus of our sessions was to clear the core emotional position he entered this life with. This gives further credence to the notion underpinning Vortex Healing, which is that it is the core sense of separation and the karmic, genetic and emotional expressions of that (the ‘conditioning’) which is the root cause of physical problems in the body.

And finally: I got a beautiful text from one of you which really brought a smile to my heart: “I’ve been great after our sessions. Fear has definitely been removed from so many different situations. It is sometimes so completely gone that I forget that just a few months ago the same situation would have been terrifying for me to deal with. Thank you so much”.

Please do call if you want a session, or simply want to share your experiences,

Love,

xDaisy

New Year Sale on All Treatments!

Hello,

I hope you enjoyed Christmas.

Yes, it’s true – on Monday the 30th December, all treatments are HALF PRICE.

Essentially that means only £40! Do contact me if you would like to take advantage of this fantastic offer,

Love,

xDaisy

I Surrender

Hello 🙂

 Oh I feel so blessed to have had Amma here in London! I saw a few of you there and that made me very happy 🙂 Please do write to me with your experiences of her, as I would dearly love to hear what went on for you.

 Were any of you there during the speeches about Amma at the beginning of the first evening? I felt they were outstanding, the best I have ever heard. Among them was a speech from Manish Pandey, writer of acclaimed British film ‘Senna’. In it he quoted Amma devotee and musician David Sylvian from his song “I Surrender” (written about Amma) from his 1999 album ‘Dead Bees on a Cake’. I burst into tears on hearing this. It is the most accurate description in words of my first darshan with Amma many years ago and the way that I still feel in her immeasurable presence now:-

 I’ve travelled all this way for your embrace

Enraptured by the recognition on your face

 Hold me now while my old life dies tonight and I surrender

My mother cries beneath the open skies and I surrender

 An ancient evening just before the fall

The light in your eyes, the meaning of it all

 Birds fly and fill the summer skies and I surrender

 She throws the burning books into the sea

“Come find the meaning of the word inside of me”

 It’s alright the stars are all aligned and I surrender

My mother cries beneath the moonlit skies and I surrender

 My body turns to ashes in her hands

The disappearing world of footprints in the sand

 Tell me now that this love will never die and I’ll surrender

My mother cries beneath the open skies and I surrender

 David Sylvian

 It still makes me cry sharing it with you now. I have more to write but don’t want to overwhelm you, so will do it in bits. For now I leave you with the good news that I will be here for the Christmas holidays, since I have just been with Amma in Berlin and will visit her again briefly in Milan (8th – 11th Nov). So, I will be offering healing during a time when I am usually awayand I am sure when you need it most. I look forward to speaking with you soon,

 Love,

xDaisy

Adyashanti Retreat, Br. Shubamrita visit and more…

Hello,

 How are you? I am well, looking forward to Amma’s visit in 6 weeks (21st – 23rd Oct) – YEY!! On that subject, a full-power Amma devotee, Br. Shubamrita, will be visiting for Amma’s Birthday (27th Sept, her 60th), on 29th Sept in Hornsey N8:-

 http://www.amma.org.uk/swami-tour.htm

 Apologies for the confusion about registering for Adyashanti next August in England. It is today that pre-registration opens:-

 https://www.adyashanti.org/index.php?file=retreatsdetails1&eventid=984

 I promise you it is worth it and it will fill up extremely quickly, as it is the only one happening in Europe. I have found that the long-lasting effects of a retreat with Adyashanti are impressive and in terms of awakening he is the clearest teacher I have met (after Amma), along with Marlies Cocheret.

 I had a wonderful time at Mother Meera in London a few weeks back. I know a couple of you went. Did anyone else go and what was your experience? More about that next time and I would love to include your stories anonymously if you want to share them.

 Please do remember to use the bottom bell when you come for sessions, since the top one is currently faulty. And if you would like a quick (or even reasonable!) response to any bookings, concerns or comments PLEASE text or call rather than emailing. I hope you are well,

 Love,

xDaisy

Getting Out Of Context

Hello,

How are you? I am well, really enjoying giving healing at the moment and also enjoying my degree. This week I have had some lovely feedback from sessions, which I’d like to share with you. Sometimes it’s all about the aftermath of a session, as one of you reported:-

“Was in bed by 9 30pm yesterday. Feeling wonderful today – thanks for the session!”

One person was diagnosed with a somewhat ancient ailment called ‘quinsy’. It is like tonsillitis gone awry, and an abscess forms behind the tonsils. The doctor wanted to send her to hospital, but she felt she would be ok. Two hours after the first session, I received this text:-

“Just to let you know that the swelling in the throat has

gone right down! Amazing work. Thank you!” 

The following day, the doctor reported that what she had now was reduced to normal tonsillitis.

I would like to add a wonderful idea which this person gave me. She said that sometimes you have to get out of context…to learn in life. She was referring to making changes in her life to get more involved in the world. It made me contemplate the great good that changing the scenery does, in getting out of the way of what wishes to express through us as the Divine.

Next up on the table this week was my Mum. For reasons of boundaries, I had stopped giving Mum healing, but she had had a visual disturbance and was worried she may have a stroke. So I did a short 45 minute session on her. She felt better straight afterwards and still does. I was very happy 🙂 However, I would like to emphasise that Mum IS seeking medical treatment as well. Everyone should do this who has a medical condition of any kind. I am certainly not a doctor and have great respect for those who are.

And finally, it is worth bearing in mind that when you have an emotional issue, it may not be the core issue. One of you this week came with an issue which turned out to be an off-shoot of another, deeper core issue. This is because we tend to suppress our core issues very deeply and develop sophisticated defences around them. When I work with your ‘stuff’, I try to find out what is underpinning it all. This gives you the best possible help and a deeper taste of the freedom that lies beyond all suffering.

Bye for now,

Love,

xDaisy

Thank You…and Au Revoir

Hello 🙂
Last night I went to see a
teacher called Pamela
Wilson at a gathering
about awakening. It has
left me with such a tender
sense of silence…I am so grateful.
Here is her website
if anyone is interested:-
Although I am excited to be
spending time with Amma
in India, being and doing
what I love most, I must say that in
writing this email I feel
sad and I will miss you all!
Thank you for coming to
me and sharing your heart.
I consider it an honour and a privilege
to be a person whom you permit
to receive you as you are.
I hope you have a wonderful
Christmas and New Year.
See you after the 9th Jan,
Great Love,
xDaisy
ps Sorry it’s late again!

Hello from Amma’s in Paris

Hello 🙂
Apologies for the lateness of this
newsletter. I am in Paris
with Amma at the moment.
We are just outside the city,
in a pretty and peaceful suburb
called Cergy.
I will return tomorrow
(Sunday) and look forward to
seeing many of you at Amma’s
program in London, where you can
find me in the massage area.
If you have never met Amma,
here is a little introduction from
the funny and engaging
Louis Theroux:-
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yf_vGArzIbE
I want to share a few experiences
I have had since being here.
For me, it is often during bhajans
(devotional singing) that the most
powerful in-body insights are
received.
At one point, Amma cried out so
intensely to God during one
such bhajan, that I felt a
ball of energy come hurtling
into my heart and I fell into bliss.
In that state, I realised that
giving and receiving are the
same thing – there is literally
no difference between them.
Later during Amma’s set,
 I began to feel grief and
sadness arising. I realised
that this was not actually
coming from me and as I looked
for the root I sensed it
coming in from Sarah and
into my heart.
If I sat as beingness, open,
the grief got transformed through
my heart and body. If I went
into mind/thinking, the process
stopped. Amma was showing
me very clearly how to work
with people in a
more effective way.
And simultaneously
this spelled out for me the deeper
significance of awakening.
That it really isn’t about me,
rather it is meant to serve the whole
of life and alleviate suffering.
These are all things that one can
‘know’ and they may sound
very basic, but it is quite
another thing to actually feel,
experience and realise them.
You may be pleased to hear
that apparently Amma is
beginning to discourage people
from wearing white. I think she
doesn’t want the organisation to
be seen as some kind of cult.
See you soon and
please send me your stories,
Love and Love and Love,
xDaisy

The Greatest Love of All

Hello 🙂
How are you?
This week I have been
contemplating the high
value we as a society places
on being in relationship.
Don’t get me wrong –
I love relationships as much
as the next girl or guy.
But the fulfilment we are
secretly seeking there
can’t be found in them –
cannot be found in an-other.
When a deeper love is
embraced, which can
most easily be experienced
as silence, the inner guru,
oneness, whatever name
you choose – you
come directly into total
fulfilment right now.
No more waiting for ‘the one’!
The one is what you ARE –
not what you think you are,
not what you feel you are,
and not what you are
searching for.
What you actually ARE, underneath
all the noise and distraction.
THAT is the Love you seek.
I came across this most inspiring
interview on the subject,
which I am so happy to be
able to share with you:-
Just to remind you, I will
shortly be going away to
further my training in
Vortex Healing:
28th May – 8th June
Have a lovely weekend,
Love,
xDaisy