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Free Online Group Healing: Breaking Our Addiction to the Next Moment

Hello 🙂

How are you? 

In many ways, it is our addiction to the next moment which keeps the whole egoic structure going. The ‘I’, the ‘me’, the source of separation and suffering, depends upon time. Contrary to our reflex and to popular belief, we do not need this ‘I’ in order to function optimally. 

Whatever is happening, we feel sure that it could be improved upon – or that a catastrophe is about to happen – and so we dream of the next big thing, the future, the soulmate, or of escaping disaster, of being saved etc. Therefore we will not allow ourselves to stop. 

But it is in stopping, deeply and truly, that we are able to break these fantasies. As it all breaks down, we finally get in touch with the Divinity within. This is the stillness, Love, peace, harmony, and more, which we are seeking. In fact, everything we thought we were going to find in what is beyond the now, is already here. The contrast is quite incredible, between where we thought we would find all this and where we do find it. Divinity is revealed to us by resting gently as awareness: simply by doing that and nothing more than that. 

The Free Online Group Healing on this, will be on Wednesday @ 1pm BST. NB: please write to me at the email stated in the ‘Contact’ section, in order to be added to the group email invitations for these sessions.

On a different note, here is a message from Amma’s UK ashram:-

‘We are delighted to share that, as of 2 weeks ago, our Covid-19 fundraising campaign for India raised just over £10,500 (from 106 donors). Thank you to everyone who donated, spread the word and shared the link. As the need is high, we will keep the campaign running for a couple more weeks – pls do share this update with anyone you know who has contributed or would still like to. (Select “Covid-19 India Crisis” from the optional drop-down menu) 

Wishing you all a beautiful day with Ammas Infinite Grace.’

Love,

xDaisy

Ps As a little boy in Amritapuri (Amma’s ashram) said to Amma during a public Q&A a few days ago, “When we turn towards the sun, there is no shadow. There is only light. But when we turn away from the sun, there is a shadow. Likewise with God. When we turn towards God and face That always, there will be no shadows.”

Radiating Awakeness

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I am well and feeling very grateful indeed to be able to take (and even repeat) so many Vortex Healing classes at the moment. People have asked me why I do this and why I go to see Amma so much each year. Well the bigger reason why became apparent in a class discussion recently. Contemplate if you will, the impact that being awake out here ‘in the world’ is having. Have you ever thought about it? All of us living ordinary lives and daring to be conscious humans with a real sincerity for Truth, is actually its own transformative force. This force is indeed making a difference in the world. With this in mind the term ‘embodiment’ reveals itself to mean, living  from awakeness.

 

The most important thing

Anthony Gorman pointed out during EarthWorks III class, that perhaps the only truly valuable thing is time. Not money and not all the rest of the things we assign value to. But time. Every moment we spend directing ourselves towards Divinity, we are no longer wasting time. As Amma says, even one moment spent in meditation is not a waste of time.

Surrender

We, or those around us (particularly in spiritual circles), are frequently trying to surrender. But trying to surrender actually creates a rather nasty inner drama, full of conflict and struggle, self-judgment and the whole shebang – which may in turn block surrender.

True surrender does exist though, and does happen, yet it happens naturally. Perhaps it could be said that surrender happens when the time is right. It could be termed Divine Takeover. Sometimes what happens to facilitate this, is the Divine (in a manner of speaking) ‘sees’ that you aren’t willing to give up a particular thing in your life – so it simply takes it away from you. That movement is utterly different from the aforementioned struggle to surrender. It is rather like an adult taking a sharp object away from a child, which the child was experiencing as a toy.

Acting from Truth

There are many times in our lives when we wonder whether or not we are acting in the best possible way, or we question the truth of a situation. There is help available for this in a simple way.

When facing the situation, align inside (perhaps in the heart or spine) with whatever you see as the source of everything. This may be an avatar, the energy of a teaching, a lineage, a deep sensing of Truth, or something else like that. Then rather than asking, ‘What do I do?’, instead ask, ‘What needs to be done?’.

And wait…

Eventually a movement, or a word, or some other kind of guidance will arise. The idea is to move from a place of what needs to be done as a whole, rather than from what ‘I’ need or want.

Relationships

We often think that we are seeking, or are in, a relationship to find Love. But upon closer scrutiny, what we may find we are really looking for there is connection. This is an important distinction. But also, even that ‘looking’ for connection is really coming from feeling isolated. The consequence is that we tend to create co-dependant relationships, far more times than not.

The good news is, both Love and connection are already here 🙂 They are existing right now, as what you are – or in what you are (depending on the specific way you experience your true nature). When you see this, really truly see it…..wow….it changes everything…..

Imagine for a moment, no more seeking for connection. And then imagine no more seeking, full stop. Can you imagine that? What would it be like to not try to get anything out of relationship? I mean genuinely, naturally – rather than because a spiritual teaching told you to. What would that feel like?

Denial

Never underestimate the power of denial – lol! We all know someone who is in it. Of course, that person could never be us – lol! The position is easy to see from the outside. But how does denial work?

Denial creates a blindspot in a person’s consciousness. So much so that someone in denial can even state outright that they are not doing or feeling what they are in fact doing or feeling. A good example of this is a spiritual teacher who is abusing their students.

At some point the denial position was a choice, of sorts. Usually it would have been a survival choice. There is nothing inherently wrong with that. But harm comes from the consequences of that choice. It may have originally been made a very long time ago (becoming a patterned way of being further down the line, whenever a similar trigger arose). The question for the person in denial is, what am I going to choose now?

Furthermore, if it is Divine Intention for a person to come out of denial (and that certainly is an ‘if’), then it will probably take a sizeable event happening in their life to blow the whole thing up. If it is not in Divine Intention, then perhaps the denial will move in a future lifetime.

Bliss

Mmmmmm…Bliss……. We all love it. But what are we really experiencing?

Ric Weinman was explaining that from his point of view, there are two very different kinds of bliss. The most common kind is actually an egoic state. It is when the ego merges with the energy of bliss, expands and becomes thin – but very much still existing. You can see this a lot around awake teachers – within the sangha. This type of bliss can easily become an addiction. If the addiction continues, ‘bliss’ could actually become a trap which hinders the very thing it is supposed to be creating – i.e., awakening (or embodiment of awakening).

The other kind of bliss, the ‘real thing’ if you like, is hard to put into words. Bliss in this sense, is simply here. Bliss can just be here… Without fanfare. It is not a state. It is more akin to an ongoing expression of Divinity, subtle and beautiful. The only other way I can really describe it is to say that you will know it when you feel it. Some people are in touch with this all the time, although I would say that is rare.

Are you woke?

How awake we are really depends on how attached we are to the Light (Awareness-Being-Light-Love) versus the life ‘things’ (food, TV, sex, and other life attachments and dramas). The weird thing is that, given the choice – even though the Light is freedom and real fulfilment – the vast majority of people still choose the latter, including those who directly experience the difference. This is worth contemplating.

Much later on in the awakening embodiment evolution, there is a sort-of second phase. It is when one becomes unattached to one’s attachments. Then one is free to be the Light itself AND the humanness itself, at the same time.

 

2020 : may it be the year of 2020 internal vision for all of us 🙂

Love,

xDaisy

Ps A reminder that rescheduling or cancellation needs to be done 24 hrs before the start time of your session, otherwise the session will be charged in full.

Where does happiness lie?

Hello 🙂

How are you?

It is possible to have been on a spiritual path or an awakening path for many years, yet still hold on to secret drives, particularly regarding happiness. Even though all of this can easily be spiritualised of course 😉 So, where does happiness really lie? I would love to receive your feelings and ideas about this, so please do write to me if you feel to.

I suppose the way this question got answered for me, wasn’t so much by asking the question and then analysing: it came in a different way. It was more a case of something which was there before, falling away – and noticing what was gone. One day, I went to Amma’s ashram in London to do seva. Before beginning the seva, there was a satsang (literally meaning, meeting in truth). I don’t know why on that day I had such a profound realisation, since I do many of those satsang practices every day, and have done for years. As I was chanting Archana (the 1000 Names of the Divine Mother), I was staring at Amma’s picture on the altar in front of us all. Suddenly something hit me like a flash : the source of happiness lies within me. It was quite a shock, and yet so evident and in a way, obvious, even though this whole thing was very subtle. Then a cascade of insights followed, such as the fact that happiness is never going to be found in a man, or in a partnership, in having a child, or in anything external. And also, I realised that the words ‘happiness is a choice’ (as Amma has said many times) are actually true. I realised that I am not “going to find it” in a relationship, I am not “going to find it” ‘one day’. Happiness is here, now! Happiness is already here, before I begin looking for it. On the level of thought, it was like, “Wow! Happiness is nowhere outside me.”

A reminder of timing and prices, as some people have not received these:-

All sessions are 1 & 1/4 hrs

In-person (in your home) = £100

Barbican venue (most Wednesdays) = £90

Distance healing (via WhatsApp, Skype etc.) = £75

I’d also like to inform you of some dates I will be away: I have very recently decided to visit Amma in Toronto, 12th – 22nd July. I will take that time off for sadhana (spiritual practices), self-care and seva (selfless service). Therefore please plan your sessions accordingly, and message me if you would like to book.

I hope this email finds you well and enjoying the warmth 🙂

Love,

xDaisy

London this week: today, Friday and Saturday

Hello,

How are you? A short note to say that for London sessions, today and Sat are now full this week. But there are a couple of spaces left on Friday. Distance sessions are always available of course, via Skype.

I also wanted to share this video with you. I never tire of Amma’s Swami Dayamrita. In particular it is his integrity, authenticity and humility which really touch me. They are rare qualities in people I have found. Let me know your feelings on this interview. Mine are very passionate!

SOULJOURNS – SWAMI DAYAMRITA, AMMA’S SENIOR DISCIPLE

SOULJOURNS – SWAMI DAYAMRITA, AMMA’S SENIOR DISCIPLE

Welcome to Souljourns and to the amazing story of a former atheist, a well educated man who came to know of Amma…

Much Love,

xDaisy

Self No Other

Hello,

How are you? I have had to wittle this group down due to technicalities with Yahoo, so I hope no one I’ve knocked off feels left out. I am thinking of you all with a warm and surrendered heart and wondering where life is taking you… Please do write with your stories – they are always welcome 🙂

Thank you to those of you who responded to my last email; I feel your warmth and compassion. I know some of you have been concerned and wondering how I am, so I thought I’d fill you in a little and update you on this process, hopefully in a way that speaks to you and your process too. What I am going through in its deepest essence at the moment is heartbreak. I’m sure many of you have been through this too. So unexpected and so very deep, yet at least I know I have loved fully. I have heard some people say to me that they have never been in love before, even people who are quite a lot older than I am, and (perhaps) that is saddest of all.

The process has been that through fully embracing this heartbreak, as much as I am able in my fragile humanness, there is a continuing kind of breakdown breakthrough and entering into Divinity. I want to credit here my sadhana practice, Amma, Adyashanti and Vortex Healing and the engagement in these. There was also a sudden breakthrough during a group healing I was lucky enough to be part of – many thanks Chetana and Will Thornton. I was amazed at the turnaround and transformation after receiving this healing – almost like night and day – and the subsequent sense of completely withdrawing into the Self. Here is what I wrote about it in an email afterwards:-

“I just want to share that something has completely left me since this healing. Now I feel as if there is only the Self itself, and that’s all. It’s like nothingness, but not that empty feeling of emotional vacuum at all. It’s devoid of noise, there is only Silence. Grounded in Self now.”

In my diary I reflected further:-

“So this is it. It was always here. Right here… No wonder no one could give it to me. What this is could never be bought nor sold. ‘The peace which surpasses all understanding’, now I know You. Now I know You… You are this – are me. It’s not outside, it never was outside.”

When I arose the following morning, I knew I had to move home to Brighton. It’s funny because I have just remembered in writing this, that Eckhart Tolle once said one day he simply knew he had to move to North America. Moving as Self, it’s not a question of working things out. It’s letting go without end.

I will be coming to London every week to see you for sessions, so please don’t worry about that. I expect I will move around the beginning of April. Please do not hesitate to email or call me if you have any questions about this.

With Love in my heart,

xDaisy

Why Amma?

Hello,

How are you Londoners and people of the world? 🙂 I hope if you are in London that you are enjoying this heat wave we are lucky enough to be having 🙂

I want to address a question today which people often ask me, or ask me without words. Why Amma? Why do I do this? Why go and pay a handsome fee to work without pay, under conditions which some would consider harsh?

The answer is simple: it’s love. I look at Amma, and I love her. The depth of that love makes me want to support her work, serve Embracing the World (her global charity), and beyond that, to serve life in its entirety. For me, it’s passion; it’s not a ‘being good’ thing. It’s not even spiritual. Imagine being in love…now times it by 500…that’s nowhere near it. This is bhakti (devotion) in real terms.

Everyone has their own particular relationship with Amma, and certainly Amma devotees are all there for different reasons. Some of my friends, clients and family feel put off by the culty appearance of it all, by some of the devotees (who can be far from loving) and by the pretentious ‘holier than thou’ dynamics. Those of you who know me even a little bit, know I am definitely not the poster girl for holiness 🙂 No; it’s a love thing. Pure and simple.

So, what were the physical realities of being on volunteer tour staff, you may wonder. In my particular seva, we were working around 14 hours per day (every day) and longer on a Devi Bhava (the all-nighter). We got roughly 5 hours sleep per night, on the floor, sharing a room and bathroom with between 6 and 40 women. Then, after the long Devi Bhava, we would get on a coach and travel to the next city. Some of those journeys were over 22 hours long. When we arrived, we would sometimes get only a few hours sleep before set-up and work began. We delivered programs in 10 cities, over a 6-week period.

In between all this, I would squeeze my way onto the stage to spend time with Amma. Occasionally, Amma would call the staff to receive Darshan. I would like to share with you my diary entry about this:-

6/6/16

I don’t know how possible it is to put this into words…

Impossible.

*  *  *  *  *  *  *

But let me try.

Amma called us for Darshan in Seattle on Devi Bhava. As I entered the stage in the queue, I decided to make a prayer within. I said something like, ‘Amma, please assist me in focussing on the goal of this life: on realising God. Please help me to remain focussed even during this tour.’

As I laid my eyes upon her, hugging the person in front, tears welled up. I felt this love for her that was beyond anything I had ever experienced, and yet ordinarily human at the same time. I simply rejoiced within, at the sight of her. She moved my head around quite a bit before finally placing it on her heart, while she answered the questions of some devotees to her right. It always amazes me how one never feels left out in this scenario: Amma’s attention is deeply with each one of us simultaneously, which is testament to the sheer depth of oneness she is living. She then kissed my cheek and embraced me, chanting in my ear with a kind of vehemence in her voice, “My daughter! My daughter! My daughter!”, over and over again. I fell into total oneness…….. At the same time, the human being felt her as my teacher and as my mother – somewhere where those two are one and the same. And the experience of trust was overwhelming. As Amma finished the hug and handed me prasad, we drew back from one another and she looked deeply into my eyes. I cannot adequately express in words what I felt pass between us in that exchange: it was simply beyond the beyond. I then felt deep gratitude and expressed it somehow from oneness. Amma’s expression altered to one of such profound compassion….…something just too immense to convey. She embraced me again and then placed a chocolate in my mouth. That was the moment at which my searching gently stopped. My life’s search ceased in that moment. It was, perhaps, what many teachers have described as the end of seeking. Immediately after this I experienced true happiness: powerful, pure, authentic, unconditional happiness. I felt restored, redeemed – completely. There was total and utter wholeness. I’m not talking conceptually here, but actually. The real thing.

As I walked away, I collapsed on the stage in tears beside Amma. I was crying, and then I was sobbing; there was no way to do anything at all, and I couldn’t stop. But I was actually sobbing with happiness. My heart broke open under a force: that of revelation, unconditional happiness, union…Truth. Simultaneously, I experienced a spontaneous healing of my past, which came from nowhere. Dad’s death, the break-ups, the childhood trauma, the fear, isolation, despair, loss, loneliness, lack and doubt – all of these were consumed by something I cannot describe. I cried and cried, wiping my make-up from my face with my sleeve, only to cry uncontrollably again.

When the crying eventually stopped, I sat for a while. When I left the stage, I felt empty in the true sense of the word. Emptied of separation, of that heavy anxious burden. And the very subtle sense that something is missing, was gone. I could rest…finally, I could rest…… The feeling of resting and oneness were beautiful……profound. Paradoxically, there was an abundant feeling of vitality at the same time. But it was vitality without ownership. I realised that rest and vitality are the same thing. Eventually I went about the day, without saying a word about it to anyone.”

I hope you enjoy your day and that I get to see you soon 🙂

Love,

xDaisy

To surrender to the Divine is to not know

Hello,

I hope you are all well in the run-up to Christmas. Christmas is often a difficult time for people, as well as a time of joy, and I wanted to acknowledge that because I don’t think it gets much press (for obvious reasons). I am available over this period for support. The only days I will not be available are 24th Dec – 26th Dec and the 31st Dec – 1st Jan.

On writing this newsletter, I have just finished my practices: the 1000 Names followed by the IAM Technique (please ask for more details if you wish). The sense of stillness, peace and unconditional Love is immense… I cannot recommend these highly enough. The discipline of any practice, though, done with openness of heart and regularity, brings you back to You. In the wintertime particularly, there exists this opportunity to flow into ourselves, deep within, to the Source, to the Light within darkness – the great deep midnight Light of awakeness.

I saw the most wonderful film last week, which you can find on Netflix. It is called ‘Awake’ and it documents the life of Paramahamsa Yogananda. The whole film is an amazing journey, and there was one part specifically which made a deep impression on me. It was when Yogananda was giving a speech in New York in the 1920s (around 15mins into the film) and he spoke about the centre of us being the spine; if you go in there, he said, “…you meet the Maker”. On hearing him speak these words, I spontaneously burst into tears and was pulled deep into my spine and into what he was speaking of, through the vehicle of emotional pain. I cried and cried and felt all this conditioning rush up my spine and out through my crown, while my sense-awareness naturally remained within the spine / gut area, expanding all the while, like a dissolution as Oneness. That was my experience of this great piece of filmmaking. If you watch it, I would love to hear about it.

I have been particularly struck by the sessions we have been doing together of late, and would like to share some of what you have said about them. After a session which cleared the issue of sorrow in one go, the receiver reported that she experienced the issue as being completely gone: she said that when she looked inside to find that place which had been there before, “there was nothing there – it was empty”. This is the joy of Vortex Healing®. It is amazing that it is able to get to issues deeply enough as to actually revive this natural experience. This doesn’t often happen in one session, but in this case it did.

In another session, I learned so much from my client. After talking awhile post-treatment, she said these simple yet profound words: “To surrender to the Divine is to not know”. It struck me right to my heart. Not only was it true for her, but it also pertained to current challenges in my own life. I felt these words coming from her real Self – not from something she had heard or rehearsed, but from that genuine place when innocence lives and thrives.

I have also had a few experiences where something takes over during a healing and I am no longer facilitating the healing at all – Divinity is simply pouring through as the natural expression of Life itself, faced with what needs to be transformed. That is something of deep personal significance to me, so I wanted to share it.

I also want to thank you for the deep compliments you have paid me in these past weeks. I won’t share what was said here, because it feels wrong, but you know who you are – thank you 🙂 I am not good at receiving these, but that doesn’t mean I don’t, and it is so very important for me to hear the good stuff, as well as the constructive criticisms you may have.

As always, these are just a few of the stories that have happened, and every single healing session is beautiful and deeply important.

Wishing you Love, Truth, whole-beingness,

Daisy

New Year Sale on All Treatments!

Hello,

I hope you enjoyed Christmas.

Yes, it’s true – on Monday the 30th December, all treatments are HALF PRICE.

Essentially that means only £40! Do contact me if you would like to take advantage of this fantastic offer,

Love,

xDaisy

I Surrender

Hello 🙂

 Oh I feel so blessed to have had Amma here in London! I saw a few of you there and that made me very happy 🙂 Please do write to me with your experiences of her, as I would dearly love to hear what went on for you.

 Were any of you there during the speeches about Amma at the beginning of the first evening? I felt they were outstanding, the best I have ever heard. Among them was a speech from Manish Pandey, writer of acclaimed British film ‘Senna’. In it he quoted Amma devotee and musician David Sylvian from his song “I Surrender” (written about Amma) from his 1999 album ‘Dead Bees on a Cake’. I burst into tears on hearing this. It is the most accurate description in words of my first darshan with Amma many years ago and the way that I still feel in her immeasurable presence now:-

 I’ve travelled all this way for your embrace

Enraptured by the recognition on your face

 Hold me now while my old life dies tonight and I surrender

My mother cries beneath the open skies and I surrender

 An ancient evening just before the fall

The light in your eyes, the meaning of it all

 Birds fly and fill the summer skies and I surrender

 She throws the burning books into the sea

“Come find the meaning of the word inside of me”

 It’s alright the stars are all aligned and I surrender

My mother cries beneath the moonlit skies and I surrender

 My body turns to ashes in her hands

The disappearing world of footprints in the sand

 Tell me now that this love will never die and I’ll surrender

My mother cries beneath the open skies and I surrender

 David Sylvian

 It still makes me cry sharing it with you now. I have more to write but don’t want to overwhelm you, so will do it in bits. For now I leave you with the good news that I will be here for the Christmas holidays, since I have just been with Amma in Berlin and will visit her again briefly in Milan (8th – 11th Nov). So, I will be offering healing during a time when I am usually awayand I am sure when you need it most. I look forward to speaking with you soon,

 Love,

xDaisy

Amma Fever!

Hello 🙂

Yes – Amma will be with us in a week! 21st – 23rd Oct in Alexandra Palace. If you can and feel inclined, I highly recommend spending as much time there as possible because the energy will sink in much deeper if you do.

This week, it has come to me that meeting my stuff in life is even more important than I had thought. I felt overwhelmed today when out with friends and was going to go home, but instead I left them for a bit and stood under a tree in Angel, Islington. I stopped. Then I closed my eyes and went inside, with the intention to meet what was coming up. To my surprise, I met my inner child who was whining and crying pitifully. I stayed with her, remaining still and intimate. After a short time, I was able to rejoin my friends and have a lovely evening with them. Do try this on for size – you may be surprised at how life-changing it is.

When I went to Amma’s Birthday recently with Br. Shubamrita here in London, he gave a speech in which were some delightful tales from Amma-land, which I would like to share with you. When asked, “Amma, who are you?”, Amma replied, “I am sleep-disturber. I am somebody who disturbs the sleep of others”.

Upon learning of Amma’s tireless schedule of round-the-clock darshans (not to mention managing her many charities), a journalist asked Amma, “But Amma, when do you really sleep?”. Amma answered, “I will sleep when all of my children have awakened”. By the way, that does include you. I felt like crying when I heard this… Only a being who is absolutely and totally free could say such a thing and mean it.

Lastly, Brahmachari explained that oftentimes people will try to book a holiday for Amma, like a cruise or a beach holiday in the Bahamas, or something. Amma simply points out that if you had a child who was ill and somebody offered you a free holiday, would you go? She said she feels the suffering of each one of us so intensely when we come for darshan, that she could not possibly abandon us for a holiday.

Here is the website of Jason Becker, who I mentioned in the last review. In ‘part 2’ he talks about some of his darshans with Amma:-

http://jasonbeckerguitar.com/jasons_words.html

I am looking forward to seeing you soon and especially at Amma’s, where I will be giving massage in the massage and yoga area at the back. Please do visit – there are many talented therapists there.

Love,

xDaisy

The 2 ‘A’s: Adyashanti and Assemblage Points

Hello 🙂

I’m sorry this review is late – I have had a lot on my plate in the last week, including having to resign from one of my counselling placements.

I wanted to report a little on how it has been for me since Adyashanti’s retreat: it is as if there is a softness that is so subtle, yet it creates a lot of availability and transformation. As if the quieter the voice, the more impact it has. It is like continuous dynamic stillness.

Please let me know if this doesn’t make sense – I’m aware that it may well not!

Here is some more about the Assemblage Point from Ric, in case you are interested, or want me to work on yours with Merlin’s Grace energy:-

The Assemblage Point: This is brand new work and a new term for Vortex. It is now the deepest stuff we can do on a healing level. Over the last few weeks I have been emailing info to Merlin’s Grace wizards about this, since they are the only ones that can use it, but I want to make the general community aware of this new work.  The ‘assemblage point’ (AP) is a term that I first heard through the Carlos Castaneda books. According to his teacher, Don Juan, the AP is a point on our energy field that “assembles” our reality.  To Don Juan, that energy field looks like a “luminous egg”, and  the AP sits on it somewhere between the spine and right shoulder blade, about an arm’s length back. According to this view, we are all able to have a similar view of physical reality because our assemblage points are all in the same place, and so assemble the same kind of reality. I realised that the assemblage point was not a metaphor but a real, functional part of our energetic reality–and a very deep and key aspect of it. As something fundamental for assembling our personal reality, it contains a lot of the core blueprinting that determines our personal reality.

How the AP works:  It seems that at conception, as the new lifeform begins to grow, a new AP grows as well. As it does, zillions of what I have called “9th D possibility threads” (and now will call “possibility fields”) are brought together for that person, for that life. The possibility fields are then expressed in creation as streams of personal, local reality. I call these expressions of reality created by the AP “reality streams”. I began to play with releasing the possibility fields that were creating specific reality streams for issues, and the effects were amazing. And I was able to upgrade Merlin’s Grace to do this work. 

       Note that the AP gets at the causes of our experiences but does not directly impact our physical reality. For instance, releasing the possibility field that manifested the reality stream of an accident that broke a leg will not repair the leg. The physical universe is constructed from a deeper level; our AP’s construct our perceptions of that universe, our personal reality, which includes all the issues we project onto reality. (It is like the mind-body duality on a universe level, with the AP’s constructing the mind level.) On the other hand, although releasing the possibility field that manifested as the reality stream of cancer will not in itself clear the cancer, it will go a long way to releasing the emotional and consciousness basis of the cancer, which will help it to turn around.

 

And finally, here is an exerpt from an email I received from one of you:-

“I wanted to thank you for the last session we had and update you with what has been going on for me. I think there might have been a sort of satellite delay in my processing but as I lay down to bed on the night after our session, it started to dawn on me what actually happened. Maybe it was a taste, but I think there were moments of non-duality or recognition while I was with you. I expect you see all this a lot more clearly than I do, but I hope this makes sense and I am not talking crazy. It seems quite profound to me at the moment and I am still trying to grasp the implications of all of this. I don’t know if it will last but things seem fundamentally a bit different since then in my day to day life.”

See you soon I hope,

Love,

xDaisy

The Power of Sangha

Hello,

This week I have been reminded of the power of sangha: the natural focus in Truth which takes place when you are in the company of friends who are also functioning from beingness.

It’s not that beingness needs this as such, or that it gets created by any particular situation, more that it is simply a joy to remind one another of what it means to live the awakened life by being together.

I also wanted to say that I know I haven’t been ringing as much as I usually do. This is because my degree is at a busy phase. I have started placements and therefore have been travelling a lot and doing mad things like learning about needle exchange as a part of substance misuse training. So I don’t have as much time as I used to at the moment. But I do care and welcome any incoming calls!

Don’t forget your Bank Holiday session those of you who have signed up. I am really looking forward to Monday and hope you are too 🙂

Enjoy your long weekend,

Love,

xDaisy

Mother Meera and Awakening to 0-Self

Hello,

How are you? It feels like a long time since I have written to you as I have been taking the Vortex Healing® class ‘Awakening to 0-Self’ and seeing Mother Meera in London.

Did any of you make it? I saw one or two of you there and would love to hear about your experience.

Mine was the experience of coming into alignment with what I am really here for and then resting in the knowing of that. My first darshan involved my offering a prayer to Mother Meera in my heart and then feeling the answer come straight away when she gazed into my eyes (as is the way of her darshan). The second darshan was more like resting in this knowingness within, seeing the reflection of that in her eyes. We are INCREDIBLY lucky to live in times when we can visit these mahatmas (great souls), who are in the deepest enlightenment and to meet with them in that as far as we are able to go. In the past there was Jesus and Neem Karoli Baba etc., now we have Amma, Mother Meera and Karunamayi. I just feel so amazed that this is possible – that we can simply visit them!

The ‘Awakening to 0-Self’ class was both an experience of deepening into embodiment of Truth and also awakening to a new sense of Truth which I was unaware of. Very profound and moving at times and also feeling that I came home into my body and out of denial of things that were not in alignment with my deepest and truest desire. In awakening we both are freedom itself and ALSO we are free enough to see the aspects of ourselves that are not free.

So, how does this benefit you?, you may be thinking. Ric discussed this in class, which I was very interested to hear. He said that as each of us moves deeper into awakening, so the power which we can bring to healing is greater. What amuses me about this is that once again I am reminded that thereis huge benefit to awakening, but not for me – not for the ego 🙂

I am currently reading a book that is so good, I would say it is the only book I have ever needed to read about enlightenment. I was given it as an e-book, so please let me know if you would like to receive a copy and I will email it to you. It is Adyashanti’s new book – “The Way of Liberation”.

And finally…after a session this week I was told something by one of you that I simply must share since it was so moving and deeply appreciated by me. I was told that I “went beyond the call of duty”. Well, there is certainly enough ego left here to enjoy that one. Thank you 🙂

Love,

xDaisy

Hello from Amma’s in Paris

Hello 🙂
Apologies for the lateness of this
newsletter. I am in Paris
with Amma at the moment.
We are just outside the city,
in a pretty and peaceful suburb
called Cergy.
I will return tomorrow
(Sunday) and look forward to
seeing many of you at Amma’s
program in London, where you can
find me in the massage area.
If you have never met Amma,
here is a little introduction from
the funny and engaging
Louis Theroux:-
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yf_vGArzIbE
I want to share a few experiences
I have had since being here.
For me, it is often during bhajans
(devotional singing) that the most
powerful in-body insights are
received.
At one point, Amma cried out so
intensely to God during one
such bhajan, that I felt a
ball of energy come hurtling
into my heart and I fell into bliss.
In that state, I realised that
giving and receiving are the
same thing – there is literally
no difference between them.
Later during Amma’s set,
 I began to feel grief and
sadness arising. I realised
that this was not actually
coming from me and as I looked
for the root I sensed it
coming in from Sarah and
into my heart.
If I sat as beingness, open,
the grief got transformed through
my heart and body. If I went
into mind/thinking, the process
stopped. Amma was showing
me very clearly how to work
with people in a
more effective way.
And simultaneously
this spelled out for me the deeper
significance of awakening.
That it really isn’t about me,
rather it is meant to serve the whole
of life and alleviate suffering.
These are all things that one can
‘know’ and they may sound
very basic, but it is quite
another thing to actually feel,
experience and realise them.
You may be pleased to hear
that apparently Amma is
beginning to discourage people
from wearing white. I think she
doesn’t want the organisation to
be seen as some kind of cult.
See you soon and
please send me your stories,
Love and Love and Love,
xDaisy

Mother Meera in London

Hello 🙂
Did you manage to make a date
with Mother Meera this week?
If not you may be interested in
hearing my thoughts about it.
What struck me most was just
how transformative it can be
to sit in complete silence
for 3 hours. The sense of
peace from it is still with me
several days later.
As my friend Neil once said
about a silent retreat with
Adyashanti, “You realise
that talking is kind of overrated”.
There was something about
being there with Mother
Meera this time, which made
being silence easy and
straightforward.
Imagine your best ever
meditation, but for 3 hours
accompanied by God staring

into your soul, and you’re

getting there 🙂

The form is to queue up on

your knees, moving toward
her (seated on chair) and
then bow down before her
and lightly lay your hands
on her feet. She then holds
your head lightly in her hands
and when she releases it,
you look up and she stares
into your eyes for a while.
While this was happening,
I clearly experienced and
heard (psychically) the words :-
“I am your own Self”.
It was so wonderful
and so ordinary at the
same time – as if “Oh yes,
of course” “Ah-ha”.
And I felt a huge sense
of gratitude.
I then watched her with other
people for some time before
returning to meditation
(although there was very little,
if any, difference between
meditation and living life
at this point).
I noticed
that with some people
she spent longer and with
others it was very quick.
With some she seemed to
be ‘hit’ by their conditioning and
then swallow it up, and with others
there was very little ‘coming

                                                                                                                                              out’ of them.

When the person
turned around, this made sense
as you could see etched on
their faces the degree to which
they had or hadn’t let go,
and what their life experiences
may have been like.
That’s all the news this week.
Enjoy yourself and see
you again soon,
Much Love,
xDaisy

The Greatest Love of All

Hello 🙂
How are you?
This week I have been
contemplating the high
value we as a society places
on being in relationship.
Don’t get me wrong –
I love relationships as much
as the next girl or guy.
But the fulfilment we are
secretly seeking there
can’t be found in them –
cannot be found in an-other.
When a deeper love is
embraced, which can
most easily be experienced
as silence, the inner guru,
oneness, whatever name
you choose – you
come directly into total
fulfilment right now.
No more waiting for ‘the one’!
The one is what you ARE –
not what you think you are,
not what you feel you are,
and not what you are
searching for.
What you actually ARE, underneath
all the noise and distraction.
THAT is the Love you seek.
I came across this most inspiring
interview on the subject,
which I am so happy to be
able to share with you:-
Just to remind you, I will
shortly be going away to
further my training in
Vortex Healing:
28th May – 8th June
Have a lovely weekend,
Love,
xDaisy

The Only True Power

Hello 🙂
You may have heard that
your true power is within you.
Also that you are One, Self,
awareness etc. etc., but what
does this actually mean?
For centuries, paths towards
spiritual enlightenment
have said you don’t need
to go outside yourself
to know the truth,
yet this can feel abstract.
Even techniques can be
limited, and sometimes
also limiting, in that they
imply you need to
do something in order
to find the truth you seek.
And traditional ideas of
empowerment too often
feel like they are based in ego –
attempting to make the
‘little me’ feel bigger.
In writing about this,
I am aware that
I cannot give you any
answers (or give you
truth) – how could I? 🙂
I can only speak from
experience: the more I unfold
into Oneness, the more I
realise the significance
of spending time in silence,
and vice-versa.
When I shut my eyes and
feel inside for stillness,
without trying to get something
or get rid of anything,
true silence pours like
liquid from itself
quite naturally.
These moments of deep contact
with what is still and real
and complete within, reveal
the only true power there
has ever been. Not power
against, not power for
and not power that is possessed.
This mysterious power
is silent and still.
Don’t undervalue the
power of open-hearted
quietness! You don’t
have to be endlessly task-doing
to be valuable to this world.
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On a practical note, when coming
for sessions, please press and
hold the bell a few times –
even when it lights up, it
sometimes hasn’t rung yet.
Have a lovely weekend,
Love,
xDaisy