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Aug 17

Into Great Silence

Hello,

I once watched a film with the same title as this email. Have you seen it? It is about a monastery and is silent all the way through, with only environmental noises etc. happening here and there – a wonderful achievement in the film world I think. I love the name and it perhaps describes what I am about to enter into at Adyashanti’s first silent retreat in England. I know some of you will also be there 🙂 🙂 🙂

I can feel waves of silence almost like rushes through my system and there was a deep profundity during my meditation this morning. I feel so incredibly privileged to have this opportunity and be willing and able to take it.

So, it is goodbye from me for now. As you know, I will be going to be with Amma in India afterwards, where I will have some email access. I return on the 20th September. I will miss you,

With Love,

Daisy

Jul 6

Re-Networking with Vortex Healing

Hello,

What a stunning sunset tonight… Through it I can see Alexandra Palace from my kitchen and it reminds me of Amma. It has prompted me to remind you of the dates for her visit to London this year, which are 27th – 29th October (the last night will be all night for Devi Bhava).

I have been experiencing fantastic results from the new Re-Networking Vortex Healing technique. This is used when other Vortex work has been done on an issue and then the Divine is able to come in and dissolve the remainder of the ‘network’ of what is left for that issue. For myself, working on a fear patterning in my left side has been so liberating. One effect from it is that I can now see when thoughts I am having are simply fear and I can let them go effortlessly. I also feel so much more relaxed and in my body and many other issues (‘higher up’ in my system as it were) have begun to let go spontaneously as a result. Again, I am able to experience them for what they are, as opposed to getting stuck in them. It really is remarkable stuff, so do come for a session if any of this appeals to you.

I will be going away this summer, first on silent retreat with Adyashanti in Surrey and afterwards to be with Amma in Amritapuri. It is not for a while and I am definitely available for healings now, but I wanted to let you know in advance: I will be away from the 17th August to the 20th September.

Some of you have friend-requested me on Facebook. I am flattered. In no way do I wish to reject you, but I have to decline this. You may remember what happened a few months ago and the precautions I informed you that I am taking as a result. However, there is the option to add me on LinkedIn and Twitter, because I only use them for healing. I hope this does not cause offence to anyone, because that is absolutely not my intention.

Wishing you a gorgeous sunset and a light beginning to your week,

Best wishes,

Daisy

Jun 29

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Following Intuition

Hello,

I have been contemplating what it is to follow intuition this week. What makes it difficult for many of us, from an awakening perspective, is that there are so many attachments and aversions which get in the way. You sense something – like a “Go this way” – and then ignore it in favour of what you wanted to do, or what you thought you should do. Then that turns out to collapse in some way, because it was out of alignment with you as you really are. Does this sound familiar?

So, what can be done about this seeming catch 22? Really only one thing. And you probably already know what that is, from the very place I am pointing to. It is a question of coming back to reality, of listening to yourself, to that deep and silent voice which only ever has one thing to say. Very simple and, at the same time, not necessarily easy. Meditation, chanting, being with Amma, Adyashanti, self inquiry, walking in nature etc. are all helpful in reconnecting with what life is actually saying inside you. But even before that, often you know what your intuition is saying, even if you don’t want to know.

It is currently Mercury Retrograde until the 1st of July. This may explain a lot, as it did to me when I was kindly informed of it by one of you earlier today. In case you don’t know, this astrological movement affects communication and transport.

I hope you are getting time to enjoy the glorious sunshine we are having periodically at the moment,

Best wishes,

Daisy

Jun 1

Br. Shubamrita in Hornsey, London

Hello,

How are you? I just attended Br. Shubamrita’s (one of Amma’s senior disciples) satsang, bhajans, meditation and chanting etc. here in London and realised I didn’t tell any of you it was on. Sorry about that! You can always sign up for the Amma E-News here, which tells you about all the events that are happening:-

http://www.amma.org.uk/contact-us.htm

The program was glorious, as you would expect 🙂 Amma’s presence was palpable. I feel so lucky, it was incredible to be part of it. I highly recommend any Amma events you can attend. I wanted to share with you some Amma stories we were told.

The one which made everyone roar with laughter was when an expert in Vastu (which apparently is the Indian equivalent of Feng Shui) came to Amma saying, “One of the gates at the back of the ashram is all wrong. If you don’t change it, all the money that comes in here will go straight out again”. Amma smiled at him, replying, “Then I will never change that gate”.

The other story I loved was of Amma giving darshan for 20 hours straight in Malaysia. After this time, Br. Shubamrita asked her to stop because the queue was not going down – more and more people were coming. But Amma paid no attention. Later, Swamiji approached Amma pleading with her to stop. Amma looked at him and said, “The first thing I do when I sit down to give darshan is to have a conversation with the clock (so that we don’t interfere with one another). I say to him, ‘You do your work, I’ll do mine'”. Wow!!!

Ok, that’s all from me for now. I hope this email finds you unfolding into Mystery with no hands on the wheel 🙂

Daisy

May 29

Earthshift, Marlies and more

Hello,

How are you? Thank you to those of you who participated in the Bank Holiday Deal on Monday. It was a pleasure to work with you, just after the Earthshift when my system was particularly attuned to giving healing. I enjoyed the shift very much; it was actually very intense for me, which I didn’t expect. I feel like I am still recovering from the huge amount of energy which pumped its way through all of us in service to Gaia and the physical Earth. The highlight for me was feeling the most direct contact with Gaia I have ever felt. A friend put it beautifully when she described this effect of Gaia coming ‘into the room’ as a kind of “elegance” and deep femininity.

I am also still resonating with the profound silence which Marlies evoked in us during her trips to Brighton and London. I was fortunate enough to receive a one-on-one session from her, in which the core position I came in with in this life was given space to breathe and release and the silence in and behind it came all the way through. To say that that session was life-changing would not be an understatement. Do any of you have anything to share from your time with Marlies?

I want to talk a little today about the process of engaging in Vortex Healing sessions with me. In my experience, what tends to unfold is like this: you come in with something and we get to the bottom of what the issue is, and then do a session for that. If you already have your awareness deeply in that issue and are meeting it (which is unusual), then you experience something like this afterwards:-

“I just want to say thank you from the bottom of my heart to you, Merlin and Ric.

Clearing the ‘spot of non-existence’ has most definitely been the most profound shift for me in my healing journey…….It was like a shadow in my bones and it was a constant effort on a daily basis to not let it engulf me. It weighed me down and yet I didn’t know what it was…….

Even now it brings tears to my eyes when I realise that I will never feel that dark void again. I never dreamed I would be free of it. I can’t tell you how grateful I am. I feel like now I can really get present to this thing called Life, breath it in and experience it.

Thank you Thank you Thank you.”

Isn’t that beautiful? I can’t tell you what that does to me to hear a person like that…

However, we are not all that dedicated to Truth and may not have done as much inner work as that person has. If awareness hasn’t yet penetrated the core of the issue at hand (through whatever means), then what is most likely going to happen is that in the session we will release the foundations of it and then it will tend to manifest in your life, in some way. This means it appears as if the issue is coming true (remembering that appearances are always deceptive). Although it is tempting to blame life/God/etc. at that point, you are really only experiencing the result of whatever avoidance of this issue was going on beforehand, plus the next layer of it in your system. After this process has passed through, then you will tend to experience freedom within and from that issue. Think of it as like throwing a frisbee: if you do not follow through with your arm, then the frisbee will not land well and the game is no fun.

Vortex is not for the faint-hearted. But, as a friend in his 60s who is an expert in NLP, shamanic healing etc. (as well as a Vortex Healer) recently observed, it is the most effective energy healing he has ever come across.

I look forward to seeing you soon,

Best wishes,

Daisy

May 15

Marlies Cocheret in London Tomorrow

Hello,

It has been a while since I last wrote to you, during which time I have been in a personal process and diving deep into silence and meditation. I have been thinking of you, many of you have popped into my meditations and I hope you are well.

I mentioned this a while ago, but realised I hadn’t reminded you – Marlies is coming to London tomorrow and Saturday. I spent last weekend on retreat with her in Brighton and found her work once again to be profoundly embodying and transformational. What I found most helpful was the invitation to rest as silence, with no technique and no conditions.

If you are free tomorrow evening and/or during the day on Saturday, I highly recommend this opportunity to be with an awake teacher who is from Adyashanti. I will be there tomorrow. Here are the details:-

http://www.marliescocheret.com/Flyer/2014-UK-flyer.jpg

Best wishes,

Daisy

Apr 28

Bank Holiday Deal

Hello,

Yes, roll-up, it’s deal time again 🙂 Next Monday the 5th May, sessions will be half price – that’s ÂŁ40. The perfect way to have some ‘you’ time on Bank Holiday.

If you are wondering what to work on in your next session, one lovely movement happens through clearing the fascia and biochemical pathways of the nervous system. This takes a lot of tension out of you, much of which is built up in the nervous system due to fear and pain conditioning deeper down. This can also be done for the heart, diaphragm and pericardium (the fluid filled sac that surrounds the heart and the proximal ends of the aorta, vena cava, and the pulmonary artery). Again a lot of tension, particularly resulting from pain and grief, gets stored here.

There is something new which can be done using Merlin’s Global Healing Grid. Whereas in the past, I could only put one situation or issue etc. in the grid to be worked on in the background (at 50% effectiveness as continuously intending it), I can now put up to 4 different things in there at once and it will still be as effective for each.

Something interesting which Ric talked about during the BodyMind class, was about avatars (i.e., like Amma). He feels that they are not really beings but appear as beings, using a pseudo-Inner-Veil as a kind of fake ID to get into the human realm, where they then appear as human. Most of what he said resonates with me. Do you have any thoughts on this? I’d love to hear your impressions.

Lastly, I know that many of you have experienced sessions as being particularly powerful recently, so I thought you might be interested to hear what Ric says about why this may be:-

“Another perk of the BodyMind class is that it creates a significant increase in bridging for channeling…In general, the extra bridging from the class makes ALL the transmissions for Merlin’s Grace go 15-20% deeper or faster, whether clearing, transforming or energizing…For instance, for doing a Genetic Modification at a distance, those without the class can get about 80% effectiveness of in-person work. Those with the class can, at a distance, now get the equivalent of what would have been 100% before…Again, an awake body just creates a deeper bridge; there is just no way around that, and yet it is something I didn’t anticipate when I first put the class on the schedule.”

Enjoy yourself and see you soon,

Best wishes,

Daisy

Apr 7

Drunk on Vortex

Hello,

So this healing journey post-class gets more and more interesting: on Friday, I had a client who took 20 mins to recover after the healing we did (involving the new Navel AP work) and when I walked her to the door, I could hardly walk! Since I have quit drinking for 6 weeks, I am very pleased to be drunk on Vortex 🙂

It’s also wonderful to be closer friends with Merlin. I am having quite a few experiences now where he takes over a healing session, particularly towards the end. Not only does the receiver feel waves of Divine energy when this happens, but it also connects me to a deep sense of trust and being held. Amazing… I am feeling Amma within in a real way too, which feels like something I have wanted for so long and like it is a kind of embodiment.

Another interesting thing I have noticed since Awakening the BodyMind and the Core Beliefs, is that I can now sometimes hear my thoughts speaking to each other. Like characters in my head communicating, which feels closer to what is really happening. I feel less caught in them and identified as them. Pretty cool, particularly since this followed a healing crisis involving my core issues. That leads me to believe that crises are entirely good things.

Here is some feedback from one of you this week: “That really was a dramatic and inspiring healing… Throughout the session, it felt like there was some physical healing going on, and that was awe inspiring… I had the thought to ‘give myself over’ to non-existence, (only because I was confident it was not possible), then there was a big change, which was enjoyable, but I became anxious I would stay in that state if you stopped. I then surrendered to accepting even that was ok, if it happened and it became powerful and blissful, but also peaceful and not scary, at the same time. Energy flowed in lines down my right leg and I could tell that that was being made stronger, totally unexpectedly, which was inspiring and emotional… Thanks again, I am so blown away by your healing lately, and the physical changes seem to be gradually getting better and better”.

The new kidney essence and Jing energies are going down very well with you all it seems and there is more that can be done in this regard, to energise you. Here is what Ric has to say: “First we use Merlin’s Grace to ‘expand the Pre-natal Jing reservoir network, so as to be able to hold more of it’. And this works. If you first fill up the Pre-natal Jing and then expand its network, you’ll see you can channel in some more. Same with Kidney Essence. Each of these steps (doing the Pre-natal Jing and Kidney Essence separately) only takes a few minutes. All of you should take the little amount of time needed to do this, because it can make a significant long-term difference. – NB Jing is the ‘parent’ of chi”.

“And that’s all the news” (anyone remember ‘The Day Today’? 🙂

Love,

xDaisy

Feb 17

True Talking 2

Hello,

First of all I would like to apologise to those of you who received the last review several times – it was a Yahoo fault. I think it may have been influenced by the Mercury Retrograde we are experiencing (5th – 28th of this month). For those of you who don’t know what that is, in a nutshell it is a planetary movement affecting communication, technology and transport, often with chaotic results! Does this ring any bells? 🙂

On the subject of movements, there was a mini lineage shift within Vortex Healing on the afternoon of Thurs 6th Feb. For me, this was huge and really flushed out a lot of core conditioning, though I had no idea why at the time (as Ric Weinman only informed us of the shift afterwards). If you have taken Vortex Healing classes (in particular Merlin’s Grace) you may well have felt the effects. I’m not sure the word ‘mini’ quite captures it! In terms of what this means now, Ric writes: “The nature of the shift will mainly impact the Merlin’s Grace wizards, as it will facilitate deeper levels of bridging that only you have. In particular when doing distance work.”

Last week I spoke about a very inspiring conversation regarding awakening, which I had with one of you. That theme seemed to continue into the next week, this time with the thread running right through the human-ness, like a kind of embodiment. I had a conversation with one of you which was the most difficult and the most important of my career. The person raised a personal issue with me, regarding how I had been during the last session. I suppose this was my worst-nightmare-scenario of what could happen with a client, and it happened. The way I engaged with it was to be much more honest than I thought possible, returning to the felt sense of Truth as my anchor. And from what I witnessed, this person attempted to do the same. Through that willingness to rely solely on what is real and authentic, tears began to flow for both of us and in an absolute meeting, the situation began to unfold and resolve itself. What an amazing experience…and one that really is hard to put into words.

During a session with somebody else last week, again it was in the talking part that so much healing work happened. I must stress that this is a question of the willingness to be authentic, on the part of both parties. At the end of this ‘true talking’, the person said to me, “It is really important to be able to have this kind of sharing of what is going on with me. Truth is coming through you it feels like, when we talk.” This is similar to what I mentioned someone having said to me the previous week. I am reminded of what Adyashanti calls ‘prajna’, a Zen term meaning ‘heart wisdom’, when the willingness to rest as the unknown allows the known to be spoken. I am not talking about any kind of mental “I know”, or about ideas or theories; I mean something far deeper than that. Does this resonate?

A happy story from one of you, who has had big problems with digestion and leaky gut, plus candida. He has experienced a big improvement in these areas, having tried everything under the sun first. He feels that the sessions with me, combined with taking Vortex Healing classes, have been the deciding factor in this physical transformation. I would add that it is his dedication to healing himself which has been the fuel for all of that. It is also interesting to note that I was not only working on the physical level – in fact, the main focus of our sessions was to clear the core emotional position he entered this life with. This gives further credence to the notion underpinning Vortex Healing, which is that it is the core sense of separation and the karmic, genetic and emotional expressions of that (the ‘conditioning’) which is the root cause of physical problems in the body.

And finally: I got a beautiful text from one of you which really brought a smile to my heart: “I’ve been great after our sessions. Fear has definitely been removed from so many different situations. It is sometimes so completely gone that I forget that just a few months ago the same situation would have been terrifying for me to deal with. Thank you so much”.

Please do call if you want a session, or simply want to share your experiences,

Love,

xDaisy

Feb 5

True Talking

Hello,

I had a very inspiring talk with one of you on the phone this week, regarding the confusion which follows awakening (in this case in the context of being post-Core Veil). It is as if spontaneous truth arose in the conversation and the person felt that there was a transmission coming through. I don’t know about that! But it was nice to be told – “it is so good to have people like you around to talk to about awakening and post-awakening”. Because I have lived this, it is easy to connect with what you are experiencing, so please do call if you have any questions about this fascinating subject.

I was watching a film last week called ‘The Perks of Being a Wallflower’. Guess what the ending line of the film was? : “…in this moment, we are infinite”. It goes to show that even when you are chilling, there is no escape from oneness!

I have been playing with some new pathway work this week when going to sleep. It is a way of optimising the biochemical pathways. It is particularly good for clearing allergies (although I was using it to regulate my adrenals, which tend to be overactive due to fear patterning in my kidneys). For an allergy, this could take a couple of sessions (including 10 mins to catch up the brain and then the cellular consciousness and localised consciousness of the form – LCF). Worth a go, especially for food allergies.

I have had a week full to the brim of life-learning. I must say I am feeling incredibly enriched by my degree in Person-Centred Counselling and everything it is moving in me. I suppose what I have learned most this week is to let go of the idea that things have to be good all the time. And that when I willingly move into what is in each moment and in each day, without trying to change it, it transforms in its own time, according to the needs of something much bigger than me. And also, to trust my instinct (heart) rather than taking a position of any kind, particularly during conflicts. I don’t think I can remember a time of greater transformation in my whole life. It is exciting! I would love to know how your experience is and what you are learning, so do write if you have time. Enjoy,

Love,

xDaisy

Nov 20

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Amma’s Recent Visit to London

Hello,

How are you? I know that many of you have taken the recent Vortex Healing classes here in London, or have been with Amma, or Mooji. I would love to hear your stories, so please do write if you have time.

I have an Amma story to share from one of you who met Amma for the first time in London:-

“I remember you saying the experience can be bit like your issues being brought up like iron filings drawn to a magnet and that is a bit like the way it was on the first day. As soon as Amma came in the room I could feel a palpable current of love. I spent most of the day just sitting in the hall taking it all in, until it was my turn for Darshan. I was quite nervous for some reason and felt kinda awkward and conflicted to be honest and the hug seemed to happen quite fast, but I went to sit down behind Amma in a bit of a daze. But then while sitting I started to feel incredibly emotional for a reason I can’t explain, it was intense to the extent that I felt that I was on the verge of completely breaking down crying, everyone else around me seemed completely calm and I was on the verge of completely losing it! It was almost like I was torn in two. It took me a while to recover and take it all in.

I decided to go back a second day during the morning again and was fortunate that it wasn’t so busy that I could have a second Darshan at the end, this time it wasn’t so much about stuff coming up and there wasn’t the intense emotions coming up, but this time as I sat in the seats on the stage my legs turned to jelly, the hug seemed to last a lot longer this time and as I sat down I could feel a lot of releases in my body like warmth coming to my head and rushes of energy which was very pleasant and not at all overwhelming this time.

I am very grateful to you for telling me about Amma and encouraging me to go because it was a very powerful experience for me. I have had a taste now of her power and how she inspires so many people and why so many people are dedicated to her.”

I feel the need to share something with you because it is the reason why some of you may have felt me ‘off the radar’ for a month. Sarah and I have broken up. It happened exactly 1 month ago today (the day before Amma arrived in London). After such a deep, loving and truthful relationship, plus 6 and a half years together and two engagements, it’s a lot to lose. So I am going through a very painful time. Please do not stay away though. I am finding that the state I am in is actually deepening sessions with you, and working is helping me too.

This is what I meant in my last email about the significance of Amma chanting “My Love” (rather than “My Daughter”) in my ear during darshan in Berlin, after London. I don’t mean that I go to Amma for the major decisions in my life, that is not something I tend towards. But I knew when she said that that she was pulling me closer, into Love in its purest form, the true Lover – Divinity itself.

I immersed myself in seva in London as usual, and that helped. We earned ÂŁ10,221 for Amma’s humanitarian charities this year – in the massage area in London alone! Yes, seriously. At the end of the second evening in London, to everyone’s amazement Amma got up from darshan (at around 4am) and began to dance! Sarah and I were on the stage and our mouths just fell open. We watched in amazement as Amma performed a traditional Keralan dance for everyone around her. Bear in mind, I had only ever seen Amma dance once before this, during the 12 years I have been with her. It was very powerful. She then repeated this wonderful ritual in Berlin and Milan, and I believe in most of the stops on the European tour. Lucky us!

At the end of Devi Bhava in London, Amma showered us with flower petals while Swamiji blasted an absolutely amazing bhajan. If you have not had this experience, I highly recommend it. It was a profound one for me. I got hit by 3 bunches of petals and as they hit me I felt all the tiredness in my muscles from doing massage seva leave my body: just by throwing flower petals, Amma performed a healing. Really everything she does is imbibed with energy and meaning: if you watch her over time I believe you will witness this.

Love,

xDaisy

Nov 13

Amma in Berlin

Hello,

I have now done 3 stops on the Europe tour (incl. London), because I can’t go to Amritapuri this year. The stop before Milan for me was Berlin. I must say, what a fabulous city! I never thought I would hear myself say this, but London is no longer the place with the best music in the world – Berlin has overtaken us. Everywhere we went we heard such excellent house music, really tech-y stuff, and also fantastic dub step etc. Impressive.

Anyway, most of the time I spent blissfully with Amma. The German people were lovely and everything had been done so nicely – almost to the point of perfection. There was no cheering and clapping after each bhajan etc. (like in Italy) but people were quiet and respectful and that was appreciated in the chaos that is an Amma tour 🙂

One evening, Amma was soon to finish darshan (due to the curfew in the hall) and as usual I was sitting on the stage watching her and going in and out of meditation. Suddenly she looked at us all and began talking in Malayalam. Br. Shubamrita translated: “Amma says she is sorry that the darshans have to go so fast. It was not like this years ago. Amma says that in the olden days nobody had a watch but everybody had time; these days everybody has a watch but nobody has time”. Many people started to cry upon hearing this. That Amma would apologise for not giving even more than she already does was moving. And what a lesson in such a simple way from a true master: it seems that everything Amma ever says has a tapestry of meanings woven into it.

On the Devi Bhava I somehow managed to get to the front of the queue with a timecard from the previous day. It was my Birthday, so I felt very privileged. Then I was seated RIGHT IN FRONT of Amma’s chair! I honestly couldn’t believe it. When she walked in, the power was so huge that I stepped backwards and nearly fell over my chair. It was like being “hemmed in” by Truth, as Adyashanti says. But I noted how strange it is that I say I want Truth, but when it comes I step backwards away from it.

I was also one of the first people to receive Amma’s darshan. I didn’t say it was my Birthday (which apparently you can do and you get a lovely Birthday darshan) because I was praying intensely in the darshan line. The helpers asked me my language and I said “English”. My prayer was, “Amma help me step towards you. I don’t want to step away from Truth anymore. There is so much fear within me but I really want the Truth. Please bring me closer to you”. When I was in front of Amma, Geeta (Amma’s darshan assistant) said to me, “You don’t speak any other languages?”. I was surprised because she knows me; I replied, “No” and she said, “Only Polish”. Before I had time to correct her, Amma had taken me! Amma hugged me and then looked at me and hugged me again. In my ear she chanted in German “Meine Liebe”. Then she motioned to the left of her chair and said “Come around”. I was so overcome I had to ask her, “Come around?” and she motioned again. I felt so blessed… What a Birthday darshan! I couldn’t walk properly when I stood up. When I could, I sat there with her absorbing the darshan for an hour or so.

But I didn’t know what the German words meant which she had said to me. So I asked my German friend. She said, it means “My Love”. I was floored… For 12 years, Amma has said to me, “My daughter”. For a moment, my blood ran cold. I knew that amongst other meanings, this had a deeper significance regarding my relationship with Sarah. I will explain all in the next review.

I want to acknowledge those who recently took the Core Veil Vortex Healing class. Whooppeee! I hope you had some deep experiences – do let me know what yours were. And I wanted to remind you that I will be here over the Christmas holidays, which is often an important time for healing,

Love,
xDaisy

Oct 29

I Surrender

Hello 🙂

 Oh I feel so blessed to have had Amma here in London! I saw a few of you there and that made me very happy 🙂 Please do write to me with your experiences of her, as I would dearly love to hear what went on for you.

 Were any of you there during the speeches about Amma at the beginning of the first evening? I felt they were outstanding, the best I have ever heard. Among them was a speech from Manish Pandey, writer of acclaimed British film ‘Senna’. In it he quoted Amma devotee and musician David Sylvian from his song “I Surrender” (written about Amma) from his 1999 album ‘Dead Bees on a Cake’. I burst into tears on hearing this. It is the most accurate description in words of my first darshan with Amma many years ago and the way that I still feel in her immeasurable presence now:-

 I’ve travelled all this way for your embrace

Enraptured by the recognition on your face

 Hold me now while my old life dies tonight and I surrender

My mother cries beneath the open skies and I surrender

 An ancient evening just before the fall

The light in your eyes, the meaning of it all

 Birds fly and fill the summer skies and I surrender

 She throws the burning books into the sea

“Come find the meaning of the word inside of me”

 It’s alright the stars are all aligned and I surrender

My mother cries beneath the moonlit skies and I surrender

 My body turns to ashes in her hands

The disappearing world of footprints in the sand

 Tell me now that this love will never die and I’ll surrender

My mother cries beneath the open skies and I surrender

 David Sylvian

 It still makes me cry sharing it with you now. I have more to write but don’t want to overwhelm you, so will do it in bits. For now I leave you with the good news that I will be here for the Christmas holidays, since I have just been with Amma in Berlin and will visit her again briefly in Milan (8th – 11th Nov). So, I will be offering healing during a time when I am usually awayand I am sure when you need it most. I look forward to speaking with you soon,

 Love,

xDaisy

Oct 13

Amma Fever!

Hello 🙂

Yes – Amma will be with us in a week! 21st – 23rd Oct in Alexandra Palace. If you can and feel inclined, I highly recommend spending as much time there as possible because the energy will sink in much deeper if you do.

This week, it has come to me that meeting my stuff in life is even more important than I had thought. I felt overwhelmed today when out with friends and was going to go home, but instead I left them for a bit and stood under a tree in Angel, Islington. I stopped. Then I closed my eyes and went inside, with the intention to meet what was coming up. To my surprise, I met my inner child who was whining and crying pitifully. I stayed with her, remaining still and intimate. After a short time, I was able to rejoin my friends and have a lovely evening with them. Do try this on for size – you may be surprised at how life-changing it is.

When I went to Amma’s Birthday recently with Br. Shubamrita here in London, he gave a speech in which were some delightful tales from Amma-land, which I would like to share with you. When asked, “Amma, who are you?”, Amma replied, “I am sleep-disturber. I am somebody who disturbs the sleep of others”.

Upon learning of Amma’s tireless schedule of round-the-clock darshans (not to mention managing her many charities), a journalist asked Amma, “But Amma, when do you really sleep?”. Amma answered, “I will sleep when all of my children have awakened”. By the way, that does include you. I felt like crying when I heard this… Only a being who is absolutely and totally free could say such a thing and mean it.

Lastly, Brahmachari explained that oftentimes people will try to book a holiday for Amma, like a cruise or a beach holiday in the Bahamas, or something. Amma simply points out that if you had a child who was ill and somebody offered you a free holiday, would you go? She said she feels the suffering of each one of us so intensely when we come for darshan, that she could not possibly abandon us for a holiday.

Here is the website of Jason Becker, who I mentioned in the last review. In ‘part 2’ he talks about some of his darshans with Amma:-

http://jasonbeckerguitar.com/jasons_words.html

I am looking forward to seeing you soon and especially at Amma’s, where I will be giving massage in the massage and yoga area at the back. Please do visit – there are many talented therapists there.

Love,

xDaisy

Oct 9

The Power of Good Habits

Hello,

I want to express today how important it can be to do regular spiritual practice. Apart from anything, it is very easy to go into deep connected oneness or bliss while doing so! Without practical application, spirituality really means very little at all.

As many of you know, my personal favourite is the 1000 Names (also known as Archana), which is a chanting practice from Amma. I also love Adyashanti’s ‘True Meditation’, which you can read about in his book ‘The Way of Liberation’ (I have free e-books upon request). But whatever you are truly drawn to is what is best for you. I find that by engaging in a practice every day, there is an ongoing and deepening sense of stabilisation in my true Self. Practices both help us to access and to abide as oneness itself. Don’t underestimate the power of good habits! As Amma points out, “even 1 moment spent in meditation is not a waste of time”. You really don’t need bags of free time to do this.

I watched a very inspiring documentary last week, called ‘Jason Becker: Not Dead Yet‘. You can find it on Netflix and presumably other sites too. My friend recommended it, not knowing that I in fact knew this man. I was AMAZED when he came up on screen! I met him while with Amma in San Ramon in 2002 and used to enjoy sitting near him and watching his incredible darshans with Amma. But I had no idea at the time who he is. His is a story filled with inspiration and surrender, as well as fierce humanity.

A quick reminder of Amma’s dates in London, so that you can book time off work if you wish to see her: 21st – 23rd Oct (all night on the 23rd) in Ally Pally. And finally, I hope you will enjoy this quote on the nature of negative thinking, from writer Mark Twain, as much as I did:-

“I’ve gone through many terrible things in my life, most of which never happened”

Love,

xDaisy

Sep 11

Adyashanti Retreat, Br. Shubamrita visit and more…

Hello,

 How are you? I am well, looking forward to Amma’s visit in 6 weeks (21st – 23rd Oct) – YEY!! On that subject, a full-power Amma devotee, Br. Shubamrita, will be visiting for Amma’s Birthday (27th Sept, her 60th), on 29th Sept in Hornsey N8:-

 http://www.amma.org.uk/swami-tour.htm

 Apologies for the confusion about registering for Adyashanti next August in England. It is today that pre-registration opens:-

 https://www.adyashanti.org/index.php?file=retreatsdetails1&eventid=984

 I promise you it is worth it and it will fill up extremely quickly, as it is the only one happening in Europe. I have found that the long-lasting effects of a retreat with Adyashanti are impressive and in terms of awakening he is the clearest teacher I have met (after Amma), along with Marlies Cocheret.

 I had a wonderful time at Mother Meera in London a few weeks back. I know a couple of you went. Did anyone else go and what was your experience? More about that next time and I would love to include your stories anonymously if you want to share them.

 Please do remember to use the bottom bell when you come for sessions, since the top one is currently faulty. And if you would like a quick (or even reasonable!) response to any bookings, concerns or comments PLEASE text or call rather than emailing. I hope you are well,

 Love,

xDaisy

Aug 15

Back on 19th August

Hello from Finland 🙂

It is beautiful here… We have been swimming in a huge natural lake after having a sauna, eating healthy food, playing charades and generally having a wonderful time in the purest nature I have ever seen. We are staying with friends from Amma and Vortex – Chetana and Mikko, which means we have people to go on about Amma with and to do the 1000 Names with – which feels like the biggest blessing of all. I will be back on the 19th August, if I can tear myself away 🙂 🙂 I miss you, and giving healing actually though 🙂

Something I have noticed over the past week, in working through my own issues, is that the one you think is your core issue often isn’t – that issue may well be concealing another one. It is easier for someone else looking into your system to see that, but when you are working on yourself with energy this is something bear in mind.

There is some more that can be cleared for the Assemblage Point, which Ric has written to us about. The Assemblage Point exists on something he is calling the ‘luminous egg’, which you can think of as your entire system and field of energy. This egg has bands around it which, in part, hold conditioning – more on the genetic and physical levels. These bands can be cleared, with apparently profound results: for example, the intention of ‘clearing the band (of the luminous egg) that holds allergy conditioning’, or ‘clearing the allergy band’, will make a big difference to allergies.

I would like to give a polite reminder about cancelling or re-scheduling an appointment: please give me at least 24hrs notice, otherwise the cancellation fee is ÂŁ50.

I hope you are enjoying yourself and that I see you soon,

Love,

xDaisy

Jun 21

Retreat Report and more…

Happy Solstice to all 🙂

My friends Chetana and Mikko, along with Anthony Gorman and others, are doing some exciting earth healing dragon magic in Avebury today, which has been building up all week. Emails from Ric or Anthony will follow and I will pass on any news.

The retreat with Adyashanti was even more wonderful than I could have imagined. One of you was there with me, along with Sarah and quite a few Vortex students from Finland, the Netherlands (where the retreat was held) and England. This quote sums it up rather well:-

When I look within and see that I am nothing, that is wisdom.

When I look without and see that I am everything, that is love.

And between these two, my life turns.

Nisargadatta Maharaj

The experience for me was of embodying awakening in such a way that it was almost invisible. It was like grounding as beingness, which didn’t have an ‘end point’. It wasn’t flashy, there were no ‘bangs’ or ‘pops’, and that is the beauty of this style of teaching. Here is an excerpt from my diary:-

Walking in the forest tonight, in the dark, into great silence. The trees seemed to invite me in, draw me into their midnight darkness and depth. Into Truth and nothingness. But what a full nothing…

 

I was amazed at how real everyone was with their questions to Adya during satsang, particularly since there were 350 people listening! The rest of the retreat was held completely in silence. We were told that the two most important things to do were to maintain that silence and to show up on time for each of the 6 or so silent sittings per day. And I found that this container was most useful in deepening into silence and embodying (though I must admit I did do quite a bit of laughing and whispering to Sarah!). The overriding sense I got from the retreat was that resting as silence and stabilising in that primarily, is it.

Adyashanti will be holding a retreat in England in August 2014! He will also visit Copenhagen and possibly the Netherlands again just beforehand. You can register for these events in September by visiting his website.

I had a lovely session with one of you recently who said afterwards, “The heart was just…so open and the body was melting. I felt like I was waking up…”. There is no telling exactly why this happened – I leave that in the Mystery from which it arose – but this person is particularly sensitive to the ‘Surrender-Grace’ aspect of Merlin’s Grace energy. Please request this if you would like to try it and haven’t yet.

I have recently tried receiving healing from a practitioner of Scenar. Let me know if you would like his details. This is a healing machine (hand held) which works by stimulating the electrical energy in the body for healing. While I was receiving it for my neck, I literally felt a muscle PHYSICALLY move back into it’s correct position! Here is a video of Scenar being used on a breakfast television program:-

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z4T3h2KIYng&list=PLVuQvLW3o4VQnH7pkkFIFvHYnC2a5YmAk

Ric is very excited about a new technique in Vortex which works with Assemblage Points. Please contact me if you would like me ‘to release or clear the possibility thread for ‘X issue’ from your assemblage point. And it can be done at a distance 🙂 More on that to follow.

That’s the news for this week. I look forward to seeing you soon,

Love,

xDaisy

May 25

The Power of Sangha

Hello,

This week I have been reminded of the power of sangha: the natural focus in Truth which takes place when you are in the company of friends who are also functioning from beingness.

It’s not that beingness needs this as such, or that it gets created by any particular situation, more that it is simply a joy to remind one another of what it means to live the awakened life by being together.

I also wanted to say that I know I haven’t been ringing as much as I usually do. This is because my degree is at a busy phase. I have started placements and therefore have been travelling a lot and doing mad things like learning about needle exchange as a part of substance misuse training. So I don’t have as much time as I used to at the moment. But I do care and welcome any incoming calls!

Don’t forget your Bank Holiday session those of you who have signed up. I am really looking forward to Monday and hope you are too 🙂

Enjoy your long weekend,

Love,

xDaisy

May 11

2 Comments

Healing as Stillness

Hello,

A huge thank you to all those who made themselves part of the Bank Holiday deal last Monday 🙂

A rare thing happened this week: a healing happened as Stillness itself. Now, you may say “Isn’t that always the case?” Yes, in a way it is in that there is nothing BUT Stillness. But to BE that, consciously, throughout the entire process of a session was quite something. The channelling part of the session involved me placing my hands on the receiver, yet there was absolutely no sense of separation and no channelling of one energy into another person, no two of anything at all. At the end, we simply gazed into each others eyes in silence. There was a feeling of completeness and therefore no sense that I had just done a session for a person, partly because there were no two people, no giver nor receiver, and partly because everything was so totally effortless. You may recall me writing about similar healings around the time of my ear surgery some time ago. All of this happened spontaneously and had no ’cause’ per se.

I had a conversation with a dear friend this week in which we were discussing how Truth is an orientation, or rather we were discussing Truth AS an orientation: a rudder steering, gently guiding each of us into Itself. Like a backwards motion, in a sense, Truth can only return to Itself.

To put this back on the ground level… It is not enough to simply follow a tradition, teaching or leader of spirituality. It is what is ALREADY within each of us, perhaps expressing itself as a movement towards that teaching or group of teachings, which really has significance. It is only that which can actually bring about what is known as awakening. Often, the unconscious awareness of it is experienced as longing.

I would love to hear your feelings on this.

I hope you are enjoying the weekend,

Love,

xDaisy

Apr 28

If You Really Want The Fast Path, Slow Down…

Hello,

This week I have had the pleasure and the privilege of spending time with Marlies Cocheret. Marlies was asked to teach by Adyashanti in 2001 and is also a psychotherapist and sacred sexuality expert.:-

http://www.marliescocheret.com/

At the beginning of the retreat day, she read a poem which she had written about her first and foremost love – Silence. It was so moving, I cried the entire way through and for most of the rest of the day. The poem met me in my deepest desire for God (aka Silence etc.) and I felt absolute Oneness and total humanity at once. The longing for God was overwhelming…like when I meet Amma. It occurred to me that THAT is what bridges the human and awakeness together – longing. So if you feel that, it is not wrong: it is a vehicle which can help deliver you into what it is you are truly seeking.

The title of this email is something Marlies said in answer to a question as to the fastest path to awakening. Slow down… She is all about receiving and “being touched by life – the pleasure and the pain”, as she puts it.

Not that this implies ‘taking’ or grabbing at all; rather a bodily sense of openly receiving what life is bringing you in this moment, and in every moment. It was so amazing to feel the way she works with people and where she is coming from as a being. She has a unique ability to meet each person in their whole Self – human and Divine, as one. I feel so inspired by her that I am attending another workshop this Wednesday, entitled ‘Silence and the Female Body’.

On a different note, here is Ric speaking about awakening in preparation for his appearance with Deepak Chopra and Caroline Myss at a conference in Argentina in May. I found a lovely transmission in it which I thought you might enjoy:-

 http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=wYRD1ksFqcM

Thank you to those of you who have offered yourselves to the Divine through receiving healing this week – it has been beautiful and wonderful and moving, as it always is. Thank you,

Love,

xDaisy

Jan 25

Healing for Us All

Hello,

First of all, here is something to brighten up your week:-

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CHQNx3jKXvU

Yesterday, I did some healing on myself – the first proper one for 2 and a 1/4 years! It feels sooo good… Finally, I made time to heal the healer 🙂 Releasing a core issue using the Merlin’s Grace protocol works wonders, so if you haven’t tried this yet, please do – you know where I am.

I also want to express how much I enjoy working with you, what a pleasure it is to see you unfolding from the grasp of the past and into this now moment, free and unbound.

I hope you enjoyed the snow, that silence…

Love,

xDaisy

Nov 2

Laughter at the Heart of It All

Hello 🙂
It feels so good to be
writing to you again. I hope
this review finds you in a
true space and adapting ok
to the suddenly cold weather.
As always, I have many Amma
stories from her recent visit to
London, but I will share only
one with you. Please do send
your own stories in if you feel to.
One morning, I got to sit very close
to Amma while she was giving
darshan. I could overhear the
questions which people were
asking and the translations from
Malayalam by the Swami.
The thing I noticed most was
Amma’s laughter…it is so
beautiful to hear her laugh
and to talk as if literally drunk
on bliss. It was as if she was
intoxicated by the state which
seems to simply be reality for
her, a way of being.
The questions which really seemed
to interest her were the ones
which were not only of benefit
to the person asking, but to
the whole – to everyone.
That in itself was quite a teaching.
She would spend time on them,
laughing and joking and
also listening deeply and fully.
Then one couple went up and told Amma
a joke, which I didn’t hear, but
she laughed quite a bit and said:-
Everybody wants a relationship
these days because they want
someone they can boss around.
In fact, relationships have
even been substituted for pets,
since they are even easier!
I thought it was hilarious!
(but maybe you had to be there…?)
What that said to me is that
Amma is not the goody-goody saint,
she’s about that divine laughter
that’s at the heart of existence
and about being real.
Here is another story which
one of you has sent me:-
A friend told me that she was so messed
up once that she couldn’t get her shit together
to see Amma. But even though she missed
seeing/hugging her, realising that
made a huge impact on her life…
She quit drinking, the loser boyfriend
and changed her life dramatically!!!
I love that 🙂
I would also like to share that
we made a staggering ÂŁ13, 500
for Amma’s charities in the
massage area!
It has given me so much
joy to know that what we
do really does make a
difference to people’s lives.
I want to finish with a quote
from Adyashanti that a friend
gave me for my Birthday:-
“Actually, all paths lead away
from the truth…..how’s that?
All paths. There’s no such thing
as a path to the truth. The truth’s
already here – where are you going?”
Enjoy!
Love,
xDaisy

May 18

The Greatest Love of All

Hello 🙂
How are you?
This week I have been
contemplating the high
value we as a society places
on being in relationship.
Don’t get me wrong –
I love relationships as much
as the next girl or guy.
But the fulfilment we are
secretly seeking there
can’t be found in them –
cannot be found in an-other.
When a deeper love is
embraced, which can
most easily be experienced
as silence, the inner guru,
oneness, whatever name
you choose – you
come directly into total
fulfilment right now.
No more waiting for ‘the one’!
The one is what you ARE –
not what you think you are,
not what you feel you are,
and not what you are
searching for.
What you actually ARE, underneath
all the noise and distraction.
THAT is the Love you seek.
I came across this most inspiring
interview on the subject,
which I am so happy to be
able to share with you:-
Just to remind you, I will
shortly be going away to
further my training in
Vortex Healing:
28th May – 8th June
Have a lovely weekend,
Love,
xDaisy
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