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Aug 24

Oceans

Hello,

I wanted to remind you that I am back in action now and that I will be offering distance sessions via Skype or phone on Monday Bank Holiday, half price: £45. This deal includes pre-booked sessions.

The retreat was sensational… Really something unexpectedly mind-blowing. What I want to say about Adyashanti is that he is possibly the only teacher or guide I know who refuses to take authority away from anyone, even in a subtle way. I have found this to be consistently true over the 14 years that I have known him. The effect of that, is actually immense. Greater than I could have imagined before doing this silent meditation retreat. I will write more as I go. For now, I would like to share with you a poem I wrote in the middle of the retreat (hence the title of this post). However, due to formatting issues here, I am unable to do so. Therefore please contact me on daisynokes22@yahoo.com to receive it.

See you soon,

Love,

Daisy

Aug 13

Silent Meditation Retreat with Adyashanti

Hello,

I must say I am thrilled to have the opportunity to deepen into this great, deep silence……….who knows what will happen in this great adventure into the unknown? The inner dive, swan dive, into mystery. I will be unavailable in communication – on a silent meditation retreat – from tomorrow until the 22nd Aug, when I will be back in action.

I want to share a few more learnings from the Ammathon (as a friend rightly called it!), which I hope will benefit you. During the program in Toronto, Amma said something which really struck me. She said, “Vasanas have no power of their own. It is we who give them power.” I realised in that moment, how powerless negativity really is. Her statement also cut through, in me, the tendency to become so familiar with something, that I begin to misuse it. What I mean is that I have talked about my ‘vasanas’ (latent negative tendencies) or issues or behaviour so many times, I can forget that it is I myself who permits them to have the power they have and who actually gives that power to them. I thought this could strike a chord for many of you as well. I would add that it is our tendency to identify with such internal arisings, which is the mechanism by which we give them the most power.

The most core life story I had, the one which had most coloured my experience of reality in this lifetime, came up during the last couple of days with Amma. We save the best for last, don’t we? For me, that was the love story – the agony and the ecstasy of romantic love, and underlying that, the nagging feeling that the right relationship would fulfil me and close any remaining ‘gap’. This probably sounds familiar to some of you, perhaps to many of you. I know – it’s a hard one to admit! I am not going to share the private details of that, sorry 😉 But please bear with me anyway. There is something more important than that part of the story. It began on the treadmill, of all places, not somewhere I frequently find myself. But going to the gym occasionally, during the tour, helped me get time by myself (which is almost completely impossible on staff) and helped me move energetics that were stuck. Suddenly on this treadmill, the desire to be free of that core story hit me, like never before. I simply HAD to be free of it; I could carry it all no more. So with this fire, I made a silent cry – a prayer – within, to Amma. With that, I let go, knowing that it could go either way: perhaps I would get free of this pattern, perhaps I would not – it was in the hands of Divinity now.

Shortly after this, Amma did a Q&A with the retreat group outside, in the unseasonably hot evening sun. There were only about 500 of us there. Right from the beginning, I felt a large amount of fear and anxiety coursing through my system, to the point where I could barely sit still. I didn’t know why I was feeling this way, it was like a body thing. I decided to focus more intensely on the question that was happening, and on Amma’s answer. As I looked at Amma, she made a certain movement as she talked with her hands, and with that I was gone. I felt as if I was merging into Amma from where I was – it was part-visual, part-kinesthetic (akin to the way I sense, during a session). As this happened, any remaining sense of separation fell away and I began to cry. In this oneness and tears and the whole un-conveyable experience, I suddenly knew that all my desire, lack and longing for this person – and all women and men who I had ever felt that towards – was really the longing for God. I simply knew it. Not as a concept and not as a philosophy, and not as an excuse. I actually saw it. I saw it in such a way, that it felt like I could never actually un-see it. I also sensed intuitively that all my other desires were also the longing for God. I felt freed at last…….truly, truly free.

(NB God in my perception is also Truth, wholeness, unity, oneness etc.) The next thoughts were, “Why have I been running after men and women all this time?” and “How could I have missed this reality all these years?” Then the strangest thing happened: I experienced depression for the first time in my life. As I sat, purposefully alone, eating dinner, I felt depressed. But there was absolutely no resistance to it. The sense of oneness was so broad and pervasive, that there was absolutely no problem with feeling depressed. In fact, I was pleased to be having the experience, because before that I never understood what depression was. I knew what pain was, deep gruelling emotional pain, but I didn’t know depression until that moment. I then experienced suicidal ideation! But again, there was no problem with this either, because there was zero resistance to it. And it existed in a context of oneness, of Love. After about an hour, both of these so-called negative experiences passed of their own accord, without me doing anything at all about them.

In hindsight, I believe they occurred because my ego had just lost its trump card, which was the core love story drama. With that gone, it seems like it had to play the depression and suicide cards to try to regain ‘control’ of my bodymind. But that didn’t work: these feelings and thoughts simply passed through, as I said. So then I was just there: story-less and One, feeling a sense of ordinariness and freedom. Nothing special, yet complete liberation.

I make my newsletters personal because I don’t believe I can help unless I talk from my own direct experience. I hope that by reading this something may have resonated or sparked for you.

See you soon, after the retreat,

Love,

xDaisy

Jul 25

Why Amma?

Hello,

How are you Londoners and people of the world? 🙂 I hope if you are in London that you are enjoying this heat wave we are lucky enough to be having 🙂

I want to address a question today which people often ask me, or ask me without words. Why Amma? Why do I do this? Why go and pay a handsome fee to work without pay, under conditions which some would consider harsh?

The answer is simple: it’s love. I look at Amma, and I love her. The depth of that love makes me want to support her work, serve Embracing the World (her global charity), and beyond that, to serve life in its entirety. For me, it’s passion; it’s not a ‘being good’ thing. It’s not even spiritual. Imagine being in love…now times it by 500…that’s nowhere near it. This is bhakti (devotion) in real terms.

Everyone has their own particular relationship with Amma, and certainly Amma devotees are all there for different reasons. Some of my friends, clients and family feel put off by the culty appearance of it all, by some of the devotees (who can be far from loving) and by the pretentious ‘holier than thou’ dynamics. Those of you who know me even a little bit, know I am definitely not the poster girl for holiness 🙂 No; it’s a love thing. Pure and simple.

So, what were the physical realities of being on volunteer tour staff, you may wonder. In my particular seva, we were working around 14 hours per day (every day) and longer on a Devi Bhava (the all-nighter). We got roughly 5 hours sleep per night, on the floor, sharing a room and bathroom with between 6 and 40 women. Then, after the long Devi Bhava, we would get on a coach and travel to the next city. Some of those journeys were over 22 hours long. When we arrived, we would sometimes get only a few hours sleep before set-up and work began. We delivered programs in 10 cities, over a 6-week period.

In between all this, I would squeeze my way onto the stage to spend time with Amma. Occasionally, Amma would call the staff to receive Darshan. I would like to share with you my diary entry about this:-

” 6/6/16

I don’t know how possible it is to put this into words…

Impossible.

*  *  *  *  *  *  *

But let me try.

Amma called us for Darshan in Seattle on Devi Bhava. As I entered the stage in the queue, I decided to make a prayer within. I said something like, ‘Amma, please assist me in focussing on the goal of this life: on realising God. Please help me to remain focussed even during this tour.’

As I laid my eyes upon her, hugging the person in front, tears welled up. I felt this love for her that was beyond anything I had ever experienced, and yet ordinarily human at the same time. I simply rejoiced within, at the sight of her. She moved my head around quite a bit before finally placing it on her heart, while she answered the questions of some devotees to her right. It always amazes me how one never feels left out in this scenario: Amma’s attention is deeply with each one of us simultaneously, which is testament to the sheer depth of oneness she is living. She then kissed my cheek and embraced me, chanting in my ear with a kind of vehemence in her voice, “My daughter! My daughter! My daughter!”, over and over again. I fell into total oneness…….. At the same time, the human being felt her as my teacher and as my mother – somewhere where those two are one and the same. And the experience of trust was overwhelming. As Amma finished the hug and handed me prasad, we drew back from one another and she looked deeply into my eyes. I cannot adequately express in words what I felt pass between us in that exchange: it was simply beyond the beyond. I then felt deep gratitude and expressed it somehow from oneness. Amma’s expression altered to one of such profound compassion….…something just too immense to convey. She embraced me again and then placed a chocolate in my mouth. That was the moment at which my searching gently stopped. My life’s search ceased in that moment. It was, perhaps, what many teachers have described as the end of seeking. Immediately after this I experienced true happiness: powerful, pure, authentic, unconditional happiness. I felt restored, redeemed – completely. There was total and utter wholeness. I’m not talking conceptually here, but actually. The real thing.

As I walked away, I collapsed on the stage in tears beside Amma. I was crying, and then I was sobbing; there was no way to do anything at all, and I couldn’t stop. But I was actually sobbing with happiness. My heart broke open under a force: that of revelation, unconditional happiness, union…Truth. Simultaneously, I experienced a spontaneous healing of my past, which came from nowhere. Dad’s death, the break-ups, the childhood trauma, the fear, isolation, despair, loss, loneliness, lack and doubt – all of these were consumed by something I cannot describe. I cried and cried, wiping my make-up from my face with my sleeve, only to cry uncontrollably again.

When the crying eventually stopped, I sat for a while. When I left the stage, I felt empty in the true sense of the word. Emptied of separation, of that heavy anxious burden. And the very subtle sense that something is missing, was gone. I could rest…finally, I could rest…… The feeling of resting and oneness were beautiful……profound. Paradoxically, there was an abundant feeling of vitality at the same time. But it was vitality without ownership. I realised that rest and vitality are the same thing. Eventually I went about the day, without saying a word about it to anyone.”

I hope you enjoy your day and that I get to see you soon 🙂

Love,

xDaisy

May 29

The End of the Film

Hello 🙂

How are you? I hope you are enjoying the Bank Holiday, and not working like my poor flatmate! I have decided to take tomorrow off in order to take proper care of myself before my move and big trip with Amma. My apologies to those of you who were waiting for this opportunity. There will be others once I get back (16th July). Obviously if you are in crisis, or even semi-crisis, do call me. I will be available until Friday, and then contactable sporadically by email while away.

I want to share with you a couple of interesting sessions which happened during the past week. I had the opportunity to work with someone who had not experienced healing before, which was an honour and a joy. She was naturally sensitive to Vortex and I felt the session went very deep, which was confirmed by what she said when she eventually came round. She said she was amazed to be able to “feel something so palpably that is simply energy”. This is something I forget nowadays because I am used to it: how incredible it is that simply channelling Vortex Healing can create this type of tangible effect on a person. She wrote to me the next day: “Thank you for such a magical experience. I felt so held and safe. Like I was truly blessed.”

I was also fortunate enough to do a session on a client who reminded me of me some years ago, which was a sweetness on a personal level 🙂 One of the things that was similar between us, was that she was crying and almost hyper-ventilating with a fear release during most of the session, yet she had the courage and the trust to keep going in anyway. That was me when I got into Vortex – every time I experienced the energy, I would react like this. I was able to see a good amount of detail about what the issue was for this person, and the childhood experiences that had concreted it. Afterwards, I was actually shocked by what she said and the way she said it. She exclaimed, “I was in so much pain! I’ve been in a serious car accident before and I wasn’t in as much pain as that.” Thankfully she had already intuited that this was a good thing in terms of her healing process. Bear in mind I was not using any bodywork, or therapy, in this session: my client’s response was purely due to the density of the underlying root conditioning breaking out from her.

It is sometimes hard for people to believe it could be true that even physical pain is not really rooted in the physical body. Perhaps it is simply too threatening for some to entertain the idea that the wild torrents of the inner landscape with which we are all in touch (to some degree or another), the subtle bodies and the unknown itself, could be the true origin of the suffering we experience on any and every level. But what would such a person conclude if they were actually watching the above session unfold..? It is an interesting question.

I had the pleasure of talking with two friends about awakening yesterday, one at lunchtime and one at nighttime. Lucky me! In the first conversation, my friend and I were talking about what it meant to us to ‘want awakening’ before it happened. For both of us, it wasn’t something that we knew really; it was something much more subtle than that. And yet this subtle unknown curious sense burned and resonated within each of us. And somehow, we both found ourselves waking up young and before almost everyone around us. We shared that awakening is not a game – there’s no game there, no map or gain – there’s no point to it basically. Even the word awakening is misleading in a way. We went on to say that, as human beings, we all do what we love: we are into what we are into, and that’s simply that. In reality, nothing ‘gets you there’ – gets you interested or engaged or involved or awake, if you are not already into it. It’s not a progressive thing – like a hobby, or a career, or a soulmate connection, or climbing the spiritual ladder. It’s nothing like that. It’s so simple…so simple, and so unfrilly.

In the other conversation, I was speaking to a friend and saying that once you have this insight, life is kind of over – and at such a young age. Lol! And yet, some part of the ego can still hold on all over again and think there is something still to get or gain. I said to him, “It’s like if I gave you a DVD and then told you what happens at the end. If you were sensible, you would put the DVD down and walk out of the room. There’s nothing in it for you now you know the ending. But I bet you would watch the film anyway, just for the drama leading up to it?” He laughed in agreement and added, “Yes. It’s like after you really experience what’s real, you know that all desires are really the desire for that. So they seem transparent – fake almost – and it’s pointless to try to fulfil them in a way. Because now you know the ending. Plus that end is here and now – it’s here already.”

I’ll leave you with that. If I don’t get the chance to say it again before I go, then thank you for being such wonderful clients 🙂 I will see you very soon – in July,

Love,

xDaisy

May 12

Pilgrimage to Paradise

Hello sunshine lovers, energy enthusiasts and helpers of mankind,

My title refers to an old trance tune on Sourmash records, which was helpful in bringing me towards spirit in my teenage years. In a deeper way, I am referring to what I am about to do in June: I am very excited – and honoured – to have been given a staff position on Amma’s US tour! I will be volunteering in the clothing boutique. It’s funny because I was thinking of ways I might get into the feminine and embody that more, and then I got given this position 🙂 Feel free to ask me any questions you may have about what I will be doing or what the tour involves.

Are any of you going to be there, or thinking of going to a couple of stops? Here are the stops in full:-

Seattle, WA

June 4-5 Public Program

San Ramon, CA

June 7-9 Public Program

June 10-12 Retreat

June 12 Evening Public Program

Los Angeles, CA

June 14-16 Public Program

Santa Fe, NM

June 18-19 Public Program

June 20-22 Retreat

June 22 Evening Public Program

Dallas, TX

June 24-25 Public Program

Chicago, IL

June 27-29 Public Program

New York, NY

July 1-3 Public Program

Boston, MA

July 5-6 Public Program

Washington, DC

July 8-9 Public Program

Toronto, ON

July 11 Public Program

July 12-14 Retreat

July 14 Evening Public Program

I will be away from the 3rd June to the 16th July without internet or phone access, so please do get all your sessions in before then.

I have been re-doing the Art of Meditation with Adyashanti this week and wanted to share some of the wisdom with you. Adya discusses the fact that awakening is not just an initial moment in which the I falls away, but it is also an ongoing unfolding. And for that part, meditation is crucial. In this sense, he disagrees with non-dual teachings – and I think rightly so – which tend to discourage practice (albeit covertly). Even if it is not said outright, the implication in many non-dual teachings is that practice is not all that important. Yet I simply haven’t met anyone who is deeply embodied as their true nature who has not engaged deeply in ongoing practices. So from my point of view, I wholeheartedly agree with Adyashanti on this important and often perplexing point. Please do offer your experiences with this, as I would be interested in them.

Bye for now, and do call or contact me before the 3rd June,

Love,

xDaisy

Mar 11

This Love

Hello 🙂

This is a new day,

This is a brand new day!

Your crimson tide washes over my heart,

This Love,

This Love…

I wish I could more accurately translate to you the sense of doing the 1000 Names this morning. It leaves a perfume, a scent, of such depth and bliss…and ultimately pure non-separation, oneness. If you are not doing a regular practice, I highly recommend starting today. Even if you only do a 15 minute meditation in the morning or at night, you will find that over time you begin to see clearly again, the way you used to as a child. To see things AS THEY ARE. What a huge privilege…! In fact, Amma has said:-

I didn’t come to teach anyone anything. I came to remind you of a song you once knew, but have since forgotten  ~ Amma

It’s quite a statement coming from an avatar, the one kind of being who actually can truly teach, directly, and with acute accuracy. So we can see then, that this enlightenment game is really not about teachers or teachings. It’s about something else entirely… I would dearly love to hear your thoughts on what it is about, so please write to me about this 🙂 Also, please do join me on Facebook. Search for Daisy Nokes. I know I went through a privacy period, but that is over now.

How did you fair over Shivaratri on Monday, followed by the solar eclipse and Picses supermoon on Tues and Wed? Yes, that much did happen! The Shiva day, from my point of view, is about stillness manifesting into creation (sometimes in a variety of ways 😉 and the solar eclipse creates a deep purging of old pain, so that new projects can blossom. The supermoon in Picses represents the unconscious of humanity, the collective unconscious, what is being denied, coming out and releasing. I would love to hear any stories you have about Mon, Tues and Wed 🙂

If you feel you would like to join in with weekly coming-togethers of like hearted souls, just to remind you that I am going to Villa Devi in London every week to sing and chant and be with Amma devotees. It is a deeply transformative and amazing way to deepen your practices or path and to gain the sense of community. Let me know if you would like to be put on their mailing list.

Some of the results I have been getting through working with the U-AP level of Vortex Healing are remarkable. A client rang me to say that she “couldn’t feel anything” and she was concerned that she was emotionally disconnected. But when I looked into her system I could see that the work we had done together was so transformative that she had lost an entire ‘place’ or position in consciousness from which she had been living her life up until now. That is the power of this healing art combined with the way I work with Amma. I always wanted something which could actually remove issues, not just make the prison more comfortable, but actually deconstruct the prison piece by piece. Thank goodness I found Amma and Vortex Healing and that I am able to share that deconstruction with you, in you. This is the deepest gift I have ever been given.

I also facilitated a session this week in which I worked on the core position underlying back pain that my client had had for over 8 years, and with which she had been working in a variety of very helpful ways. Yet somehow the pain remained. Immeditately after the session she was able to flex her lower back again and the pain was barely noticeable! She also remarked that her voice had changed. This is something wonderful which can happen after a session, as if the person is speaking from a different place and without something ‘in the way’, that something being the issue worked on.

There was also a beautiful moment when I was doing some awakening coaching with a client and I asked her (because she was feeling a lack of clarity) what clarity meant to her. She replied simply, “Knowing my Truth and moving towards it”. I knew immediately that it was a pivotal moment for this person, because once you speak so authentically out loud the Divine hears (and you yourself hear) that and the transformation of life truly begins anew.

Ok that’s all for now. A bit of a long one – thank you for bearing with me 🙂 I feel very over-excited!

Love to you, beautiful blessed being,

Daisy

Jan 12

Longing for the Divine

Hello,

How are you? I hope this correspondence finds you well. I want to share with you a poem I wrote some time ago about longing for the Divine. Listening to Adyashanti on the bus just now reminded me of it.

Oh what of this mystery?

I turn in the night,

Towards Love, towards You.

Here without motion,

Bathed in such Light.

You, who I can never have

And who never leaves.

Trails of longing remain,

Like vines

Cut off at the root.

Can I speak to You

Without opposition,

Without two?

Your gentle ears listen

Without existing.

A secret Life

Comes in the night.

I have begun attending satsang every week at Villa Devi in Brockley, South London, on Thursday nights. This is bringing oneness more deeply into my living life and I wanted to invite any of you who would be interested in coming. We sing bhajans, chant the Guru Stotra (like the 1000 Names) and perform other kinds of prayers to Amma. Contact me if you would like the details.

If you have not yet done so but would like to, you can sign up to have Mother Meera’s darshan here in London in February:-

http://mothermeera.org.uk/

Also, if you have not yet signed up but would like to, there is a waiting list for Adyashanti’s retreat this August. I recommend getting onto it asap if you want the chance of a lifetime to be on retreat in silence and with a truly gifted awakened guide:-

https://www.adyashanti.org/index.php?file=retreatsdetails&eventid=1221

Last but not least I would like to share something Amma once said:-

“I haven’t come to teach anyone anything. I have come to remind you of a song you once knew, but have since forgotten” – Amma

She utters such nectar with every breath…I thank the day I met this person. The only person I can call teacher and mean it.

I hope you are enjoying your week,

Love,

Daisy

Dec 14

1 Comment

To surrender to the Divine is to not know

Hello,

I hope you are all well in the run-up to Christmas. Christmas is often a difficult time for people, as well as a time of joy, and I wanted to acknowledge that because I don’t think it gets much press (for obvious reasons). I am available over this period for support. The only days I will not be available are 24th Dec – 26th Dec and the 31st Dec – 1st Jan.

On writing this newsletter, I have just finished my practices: the 1000 Names followed by the IAM Technique (please ask for more details if you wish). The sense of stillness, peace and unconditional Love is immense… I cannot recommend these highly enough. The discipline of any practice, though, done with openness of heart and regularity, brings you back to You. In the wintertime particularly, there exists this opportunity to flow into ourselves, deep within, to the Source, to the Light within darkness – the great deep midnight Light of awakeness.

I saw the most wonderful film last week, which you can find on Netflix. It is called ‘Awake’ and it documents the life of Paramahamsa Yogananda. The whole film is an amazing journey, and there was one part specifically which made a deep impression on me. It was when Yogananda was giving a speech in New York in the 1920s (around 15mins into the film) and he spoke about the centre of us being the spine; if you go in there, he said, “…you meet the Maker”. On hearing him speak these words, I spontaneously burst into tears and was pulled deep into my spine and into what he was speaking of, through the vehicle of emotional pain. I cried and cried and felt all this conditioning rush up my spine and out through my crown, while my sense-awareness naturally remained within the spine / gut area, expanding all the while, like a dissolution as Oneness. That was my experience of this great piece of filmmaking. If you watch it, I would love to hear about it.

I have been particularly struck by the sessions we have been doing together of late, and would like to share some of what you have said about them. After a session which cleared the issue of sorrow in one go, the receiver reported that she experienced the issue as being completely gone: she said that when she looked inside to find that place which had been there before, “there was nothing there – it was empty”. This is the joy of Vortex Healing®. It is amazing that it is able to get to issues deeply enough as to actually revive this natural experience. This doesn’t often happen in one session, but in this case it did.

In another session, I learned so much from my client. After talking awhile post-treatment, she said these simple yet profound words: “To surrender to the Divine is to not know”. It struck me right to my heart. Not only was it true for her, but it also pertained to current challenges in my own life. I felt these words coming from her real Self – not from something she had heard or rehearsed, but from that genuine place when innocence lives and thrives.

I have also had a few experiences where something takes over during a healing and I am no longer facilitating the healing at all – Divinity is simply pouring through as the natural expression of Life itself, faced with what needs to be transformed. That is something of deep personal significance to me, so I wanted to share it.

I also want to thank you for the deep compliments you have paid me in these past weeks. I won’t share what was said here, because it feels wrong, but you know who you are – thank you 🙂 I am not good at receiving these, but that doesn’t mean I don’t, and it is so very important for me to hear the good stuff, as well as the constructive criticisms you may have.

As always, these are just a few of the stories that have happened, and every single healing session is beautiful and deeply important.

Wishing you Love, Truth, whole-beingness,

Daisy

Nov 19

Shadows and Light (I think Joni Mitchell had it there)

Hello,

“Every picture has it shadows

And it has some source of light,

Blindness, blindness, and sight…”

                 

                                                 Joni Mitchell

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ty_7d-qwYxs

So, Paris……. What a shock. I never usually watch the news, but when I did on Saturday morning I could only cry and curl up in pain about it all. In the end I had to take action, so I decided to do a healing on the situation, which I mentioned on the Vortex FB group. I felt happy seeing so many fellow healers join in and respond, rather than react, to what had happened. The attacks made me reflect on how much I love this city, London; it’s freedoms, tastes, smells, colours and sexualities, music, dirt and aliveness everywhere. I am in love with the city in which I was born, and to think of it being hit with such a wave of violence as Paris was, is horrifying. What I also want to acknowledge is how much it has brought to the surface fears and pain in me and in everyone I have treated or interacted with this week. If you want to express anything about it, please feel free to write to me or call.

I hope those of you who visited Amma in London enjoyed yourselves 🙂 I know I did. I feel so very fortunate to have been touched in this way by her, in a way that is complete and whole. I especially liked part of her speech, in which she said, “It is what we give, not what we receive, which determines the value of our life”. Why is it that she can say the simplest of things, but it can cut all the way through, like the Truth itself?

I have a healing story to share with you. I treated a man who was in another country a long way away. He is the father of a client, fairly resistant to healing and from a generation where perhaps the idea of healing is less palatable. He had had cataract surgery recently and reached out for help when he was unable to see without double vision at long distances. The next day, less than 24 hours after the session, I received this text from my client quoting her father: “I am 🙂 My vision is now clearer up to 7 or 8 feet compared with yesterday”. I consider this quite something when you think that this was achieved in just one session using the U-AP, and on someone at a distance who was asleep at the time (plus essentially a non-believer).

A little update: the availability of the wonderful new venue I am working from in EC1, is Tues 6pm – 9pm and Wed 10am – 5pm. So please do book for in-person healing.

Finally, some Vortex trivia for you. During the Earthshift class, I asked Ric how many Vortex students there are worldwide. He said about 5000. Our little pot is growing 😉

Ok, goodbye for now. I hope you enjoy your weekend,

Love,

Daisy

Nov 5

The Call of the Heart

Hello,

Happy Guy Fawkes Day 🙂 I’m sure many of you are more focussed on Amma’s upcoming visit to London, beginning on Tuesday. For those of you who are wavering about whether to be with her or not, I want to tell you a story.

A friend and fellow devotee from Poland was staying with me and was booked onto the Eurostar to be with Amma the following day. I had no plans to be with Amma in Paris. That evening, we decided to buy ice cream from the shop and, outside, my friend turned and looked at me. It was much like any other moment, except that I felt Amma pour through her and into my heart. Then she said, “I can feel Her already”, and I replied, “Yes, so can I…”. As I crossed the threshold of the shop, I realised somehow that I was going to Paris the next day with her. It was 10 30pm; it seemed impossible. But when we got in, the picture of Amma on my altar seemed to flash with light. I sat with it all for a while, wondering “What is life asking of me regarding Paris?” (a tip gathered from Adyashanti). Immediately, I had a vision of myself in the hall at the Paris programme. The more I sat, the clearer the direction to go in became. I went online (it was now 11 30pm) and managed to find a very reasonable last minute deal. I rearranged my life, and we left at 5am the next morning.

It really is like this sometimes… Literally the calling of the heart from the Divine; direct, and beyond doubt. Here is an excerpt from my diary about what happened when I got there:

“I sat down on the stage and tried to see Amma. Swamiji and some media people were obscuring the view, but I was enjoying their cheerful exchange. Then, I saw Her from behind. Suddenly I felt a rush through my entire body and then all there was was stillness. My mind stopped. I closed my eyes and a vastness opened…there was no separation that I could feel at all. This stunning openness……. Eventually, thoughts returned. But there were so few and they felt as if they were disembodied voices, mouths talking to one another lower down in my body. I felt no identification with them. It was amazing though, to see how they build their web – thought by thought by thought, until we feel consumed. Then, I listened to one of them and I was drawn into a long and convincing story about my future: I “knew”…”It all makes sense”, I thought. I even experienced a kind of visual clarity while this was happening. But then my eyes met a sign on the stage which said, in French, “Please leave space here”. There was an internal laugh, and the whole of that story began to drop, unravel and become see-through. The deep silence of Being returned, though in a sense tainted with this grand tale that the bodymind had spun. I relaxed, smiling at the child sitting next to me, and fell into meditation again, impassioned by Amma’s beautiful form.”

I hope this sheds some light on your own process perhaps, or on why it is worth it to keep going as deeply into Truth as you can. I have observed that often after a great opening, the deepest conditioning can come up like that – masquerading as Truth, in a way. It takes a great deal of surrender to see through that kind of story, rather than following it.

I will be doing the Vortex Healing Earthshift this weekend, so I hope to see some of you there 🙂

And last but not least, thanks to one of you I now have a venue for in-person healing. This will most likely be available on Wednesdays in EC1, which I will confirm in due course.

Much Love to you,

Daisy

Nov 1

Amma: London, 10th & 11th Nov only (Devi Bhava 11th)

Hello 🙂

Yes, Amma will be with us shortly 🙂 It is a shorter program than usual, with only 2 days (the Devi Bhava being on that last day). Please call or text me if you have not yet met Amma and want to know more. Here are the practical details:-

http://www.amma.org.uk/ammas-tour.htm

As some of you know, I recently went to be with Amma in Paris (at the very last minute!) and then in Germany at the new M.A. Centre there. I returned late on the 25th Oct, but had caught the flu, which left me in bed or on the sofa for the best part of last week. This is why I have not written to you until now.

I suppose what I want to say about all my experiences up to now that could be helpful, is that all the fantasies I had about spiritual awakening are untrue. Being what I am and letting go into that is not some kind of get-out clause in my life (as much as I would like it to be), or a pinnacle of self-improvement. You may have heard this before, sure. But when you actually realise this experientially…it melts you. Melts you, and then you still have to pay the bills 😉 What I am saying is that if you really want the Truth, and that’s a big ‘if’, then don’t stuff everything there that you don’t want to deal with in your life, even though that is incredibly tempting. This is my experience anyway. If this touches anything in you and you would like to discuss it, please do call me. Otherwise, I hope to see you at Amma’s in London or in a session soon.

Much Love,

Daisy

Oct 8

Now For Something Completely Different

Hello,

First of all, apologies for the radio silence. I have been unable until now to speak about what I have experienced while away answering the calling of my heart, particularly regarding the Vortex class I just went on. I have been through a complete life-change-shift with the loss of the Original Veil and everything else from that class.

I am blown away by the power of the new Vortex Healing tool, the U-AP (Universal Assemblage Point)…wow… I have been doing around 2 hours of self-healing per day and feel as if something has totally dropped away in my system. I have never felt that an issue can be cleared in such a thorough way, where afterwards you actually feel transformed with a sense of tangible permanence. The only other ‘things’ that have had such an effect on me have been awakenings. Some of you may have heard about the U-AP already. Here is what Vortex Healing teacher Anthony Gorman says about it:-

“I had my first U-AP healing from Keren [his wife] this morning and I am as amazed now, as I was when I got it myself. It really is a paradigm shift in healing. Not something that should be compared to anything else, even to Merlin’s Grace, in terms of percentages deeper etc. This is experientially like Divinity simply unfolding itself. And as an embodiment of That, it is not just about release, the release almost now takes second place to what is really awakening and embodiment. “

I cannot wait to share this with you! Do call with any questions at all you may have about the U-AP, as it is a big leap from Merlin’s Grace: 07931 536 700 (same number as before). The best part is, an issue can be cleared in most cases in about 2 sessions. And I don’t mean cleared in a way that you have ever felt before, but to a completely new depth and breadth. If Merlin decides to work on 2 intertwined threads at once, then it can take longer. But either way, you save money and time because it is faster than was possible before. I am so thrilled about this tool! It is a total shift, and I hope you will find it to be as well.

I will write more soon,

Love to you,

Daisy

Aug 15

Distance Healing

Hello 🙂

I am off on my journeys tomorrow, beginning with the silent meditation retreat with Adyashanti.

After that, I am available for distance healing from the ashram with Amma and then from Virginia Beach for the Vortex Healing training, ‘Original Veil’. In all cases this will be by (limited) email arrangement and communication, due to circumstance rather than choice.

The time difference in Amma’s ashram is that I will be 4 & 1/2 hrs ahead of London. That is from the 28th Aug – 14th Sept (allowing for adjustment days). In Virginia Beach, I will be 5 hrs behind London. That is from 20th Sept – 3rd Oct. In the ashram my time is more flexible, in Virginia Beach I will be available after 6pm (or early mornings) local time.

Please do book as soon as possible, because email is limited while I am away. But if you can’t, then email me whenever you can. I am in service to you.

May the force be with you 🙂

Love,

Daisy

Jul 30

Awakening

Hello 🙂

How are you? I hope you are enjoying the opening that the summer can bring. I want to write about something I don’t find easy to write about, but that I often get asked about. I hope you find it useful.

People often ask me about my experience of awakening. Firstly, I want to say that this is a wide term used for a variety of quite different things. From my point of view, I am talking about the ‘I’ in the heart completely dissolving and never coming back, and the subsequent living of life without separation. I am not talking about the full embodiment of that, nor am I describing ascension, the end of suffering or a spiritual vision, experience or insight, or about theories or philosophies of any kind. Many of those are lovely and I am as partial to them as the next person. Awakening, though, is sudden and unlike anything else. It comes in through the back door, as it were…when we are totally unprepared.

In Vortex Healing terminology, we call this the falling away of the Core Veil. In me, that happened in 2005 during a Vortex Healing class called ‘Heart, Freedom, Presence’. I have written about this on my website in the bio page. The interesting thing is that I am observing more and more that people are coming to me with a deep longing for awakening and I seem to be able to (as other practitioners of my level in Vortex are able to) work on that with them using the Grid tool, which you may have experienced me using with you in healing sessions. Last week, this happened in a session with a client who has recently completed the Omega level training in Vortex. The healing began and I was guided to work on her Core Veil using the Grid. Within seconds, I saw a piece of it move, completely falling away. This has happened before in sessions, but it never ceases to thrill and amaze me… I felt so privileged to be there and to be able, via Grace, to help facilitate this. Needless to say, the client felt the shift.

To relate all this to my own felt reality now, I can say that the oneness realised that day in 2005 is always here, but there are times at which it feels ‘brighter’ (for want of a better word) or ‘duller’ than at other times. When suffering has been great, I have lost all sense of oneness and yet it remains and that is realised in a profoundly deep way. As an example of the ‘brightening’, last Saturday, upon returning from facilitating equine assisted therapy in Surrey, I met a woman on the train who turned out to be a Catholic nun (she was in normal clothing). We shared our passion for Divinity in our diverse ways and how it shines at the heart of both of our lives. When this lady got off the train, she held my hand saying, “Daisy you have strengthened me”. For some reason, when I sat down again, I closed my eyes. I was taken into an extraordinarily deep sense of oneness…it was very beautiful indeed. I recognised the absolute permanence of this – that it is always here, but I do not always notice fully. I sat like this for the whole journey and could have done so for a lot longer, but had to get off the train. Some of the side effects were a deep and profound sense of peace and an in-loveness with everything, including the pavement and particularly the hand rail in the tube station! I felt compelled to stop and stroke the rail for some time. It was so full, of life and beauty and ecstasy… The brightening continued and then faded eventually. I realised that this was simply by believing thoughts. That’s really all it takes – just to believe one thought, and the whole conscious experience of awakeness / oneness can disappear, just as suddenly as it appeared before. It was Adyashanti who I first heard describe this part.

I have not heard anything about Adyashanti coming to London during his England trip this August, but his wife Mukti will give satsang. Here is the link:-

http://www.adyashanti.org/index.php?file=mukti_events&eventid=1222

Also, here is Ric’s (Vortex founder) book, which is like a beginners guide to Vortex Healing, but as a Vortex person of 14 years I am absolutely loving it! Really, really worthwhile:-

http://www.amazon.co.uk/VortexHealing%C2%AE-Divine-Energy-Healing-Awakening/dp/1504330234/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1438259089&sr=1-1&keywords=vortex+healing

Finally, I am still here in London and available for healings.

During my time away, I will be available for distance healing. Again, the dates I will be away are: 16th Aug – 6th Oct.

Love and care,

Daisy

Jul 11

Amma’s Vision, Amma’s Action

Hello 🙂

I wanted to share with you a keynote address Amma, and researchers from her Amrita University, were invited to give the United Nations on the subject of sustainable development (NYC, 8th July 2015):-

http://webtv.un.org/search/part-1-amrita-university-event-an-international-conference-on-technology-for-sustainable-development/4346066038001?term=technology%20and%20sustainable%20development

http://webtv.un.org/search/part-2-amrita-university-event-an-international-conference-on-technology-for-sustainable-development/4346071033001?term=technology%20and%20sustainable%20development

The first video features Amma’s address at around minute 26.

The thing which touched me most from the broadcasts was this: a group of PhD researchers from Amma’s Amrita University acquired research funding from the European Commission to research landslides. This was the first of such funding to be provided to a project like this in India by Europe. Amma asked the researchers, “What is your plan?”. They replied that they would do laboratory simulations and then publish a paper (as is normal in this kind of research). Amma then asked, “Please wire the money back to the Commission”. They were aghast, insisting, “Why Amma? This is a prestigious project!”. Amma replied that their project could directly save lives, and that they should go to a landslide-prone area and deploy their system immediately; otherwise it was her wish that they wire the money back. This kind of global thinking, rooted in the greatest true compassion I have ever known, is typical of Amma. Needless to say, the researchers honoured her wisdom and saved many lives in the process.

Amma will be with us in Alexandra Palace from 10th – 11th Nov 2015 (Devi Bhava on the 11th – all night). This is a shorter program than usual. Please ask me if you would like any further information about Amma, or her London visit later this year.

I hope this email finds you well,

Much Love,

Daisy

May 21

50% off: Spring Bank Holiday Monday 25th May

Hello,

I want to tell you about my upcoming Bank Holiday Deal 🙂

50% off Spring Bank Holiday Monday 25th May = £40 per session

This applies also to pre-booked sessions.

I will also have more availability after the 15th June, when my degree finally ends 🙂 I hope you are well,

Best wishes,

Daisy

Mar 13

50% off: Easter Monday 6th April

Hello,

I want to tell you about my upcoming Bank Holiday Deal 🙂

50% off Easter Monday 6th April = £40 per session

This applies also to pre-booked sessions.

Unusually, I am also available for sessions at normal prices the preceding Monday (30th March), as it is part of my Easter break from university,

Best wishes,

Daisy

Mar 8

Simply let everything be as it is…and there Freedom is

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I have been working with Adyashanti’s book ‘The Way of Liberation’, looking more deeply into what it is that I really value in life. I decided to do one of his guided meditations to help, and in the wake of it a text exchange unfolded between my first girlfriend (who I met in secondary school) and I. She happens to be coming into awakening organically, not through spirituality. Perhaps it has been through suffering, or through her training in psychotherapy. Ultimately, there is no way of knowing. At any rate, she began speaking with me about her experiences about 2 years ago and I identified them immediately as the ‘I’ falling away in some way. I want to share some excerpts from our texts today with you and receive feedback about your own experiences, if you feel like sharing them.

Me: It was really good to see you on Friday…….I just want to reiterate something: I believe there is a way out of this for you. But I don’t think it is through psychotherapy. I’m being blunt because I want you to be helped. If you want Marlies and Claudia’s details, let me know, as that may be a good place to start……

R: …..I just feel very unsettled and desperately want some peace. It’s like I can’t live without deeply thinking about things at the moment and you get to the point where nothing means anything……

Me: Ultimately that no-thing is very true. You are touching upon the ultimate nature of yourself and of life I think. But it may be that your mind is suddenly interpreting that as something which is not true. Does that make sense?

R: Sure it does but then my head goes to whats the point of even getting out of bed then, meeting people, working… To know that but to keep going is what I’m struggling with. I would like to live mindlessly for a bit!

Me: It’s natural to feel like that. Me and all my friends who are interested in this have been through it. Essentially the will you were used to living from is gone, or at least a significant part is gone. Before you settle into your true origin point (which happens organically in its own time) and live from that, there is usually a period where the old ‘place’ is gone and you don’t know what is now motivating you. But there IS something living you. You just can’t taste it so strongly yet. Let everything go that wants to go. Holding on doesn’t work, I can certainly report that. So, may as well surrender 🙂 Just because nothing else functions now but that. Soon you will be lived by what you are, rather than trying to live for what you’re not. True freedom 🙂 xx

Also, I took part in a web satsang from Marlies Cocheret on Sat, which I highly recommend. And don’t worry – it is by donation 🙂 You can sign up at any time through this link for her newsletter: http://marliescocheret.us2.list-manage.com/subscribe?u=ac1ec34ebc0ed84c9abdb0045&id=48523f145f

And Mother Meera will be here in May 🙂 Details: http://mothermeera.org.uk/. Do let me know if you are unsure as to what she is/does.

I hope you are well,

Best wishes 🙂 🙂 🙂

Daisy

Feb 22

“Healing is about receiving Grace”

Hello,

Yesterday I attended a very deepening day with Anthony (Vortex Healing teacher) in an embodiment class. The title of this email is the way he described the purpose of healing, which resonated for me. The class was phenomenal……..really, it never ceases to amaze me what Vortex Healing is doing and the depth to which it can take a class full of students in only 1 day. I reconnected with a very deep sense of stillness, of what I am. In a way, I could end this email with those words! But, for entertainment, I ask you to indulge me a little further.

I suppose what I want to say about the class is that it helped me to see my real interest in life more clearly and to understand that everything I am currently doing work-wise is an expression of that, even though on one level counselling and Vortex Healing sometimes appear to contradict one another. I realised that it is only a lack of confidence that makes me see separation where deep down I don’t experience any, and gets me thinking I should be doing things the way other people do. In a new way I recognised the particular thread that runs through my life and how this is being nurtured. I am talking about my capacity to feel Truth and the fire burning in my heart for the Divine.

I want to talk briefly about why I have been unavailable of late and to acknowledge that that may have been difficult for some of you and that you may also have been concerned about me. Between Boxing Day and Valentine’s Day, I didn’t have a single day off and before that I was also under pressure. I was dealing with a lot of difficult life dramas and I don’t say that lightly. They included needing to separate completely from my Mum, moving home twice, being stalked by a mentally ill client (Police involvement), a bad chest infection and writing the most challenging 3 essays of my life at the last minute. However, it has been a time of deep embodiment, embodying the stillness I found myself as after my ‘summer of love’ (Adya, Amma and Vortex), which then moved into dynamic stillness through these challenges. I am also now involved in some exciting work in Kent giving group therapy to footballers from the FA who are in recovery from substance misuse, using horses. Giving sessions to you has been a major highlight too, plus I got onto the Adyashanti retreat in August and am currently doing his online course ‘The Way of Liberating Insight’.

Now I am taking more time to rest and to do my practices. Therefore I am more available for sessions than I was (NB these are currently via Skype or I can come to you). Finally, I wanted to remind you about the upcoming Basic Vortex course on the 6th March – it is not too late to get on or repeat and I would highly recommend either. You can click here for more details: http://vortexhealing.org/Schedule2015-SortedByDate.pdf

Let me know how you are if you get the time,

Best wishes,

Daisy

Aug 17

Into Great Silence

Hello,

I once watched a film with the same title as this email. Have you seen it? It is about a monastery and is silent all the way through, with only environmental noises etc. happening here and there – a wonderful achievement in the film world I think. I love the name and it perhaps describes what I am about to enter into at Adyashanti’s first silent retreat in England. I know some of you will also be there 🙂 🙂 🙂

I can feel waves of silence almost like rushes through my system and there was a deep profundity during my meditation this morning. I feel so incredibly privileged to have this opportunity and be willing and able to take it.

So, it is goodbye from me for now. As you know, I will be going to be with Amma in India afterwards, where I will have some email access. I return on the 20th September. I will miss you,

With Love,

Daisy

Jul 27

The Joy of Sunday

Hello,

I am really beginning to enjoy Sunday. Do you know what I mean? It feels to me that there is a relaxation in the group consciousness on Sundays, which contributes to the desire to stop and rest, to be with myself, or rather to be Self. I wonder if you get this too?

I have been thoroughly enjoying also my sessions with you. I will mention one of them, but I want to point out in general that if I don’t mention yours it may be because there is such a deep silence after it, that there is nothing to say. Sometimes everything that needed to happen in the session happened.

Something which did strike me during a session this week, was that the person could actually feel the sensation of me clearing her twisted/knotted vital web lines. I did not say that I was doing this, rather she brought it up afterwards, explaining her experience and I realised what she was talking about. She was also able to track her ego during the dialogue we had, and all the cards it was playing, but to stay with herself – with truth. That is a real skill and it was a joy to witness. You may notice in this kind of work, or in life in general really, that the ego will play one card, then when that doesn’t work, the next and so on until it gets your attention away from allowing everything to be as it is. For example, let’s say you clash with someone: the first thought/feeling might be anger and you may react to that. But if you don’t, then maybe the next one will be feeling hurt. If that still doesn’t work, the ego will invariably throw fear into the mix, because it knows how much it can control you with it. Fear (or control) is often the last stop-out for illusion as it desperately attempts to dominate what it has never been able to. I would love to hear your experiences of this, so do share them if you would like to.

Just to remind you that I am here and am going away from the 17th Aug – 20th Sept. I look forward to hearing what is going on for you before that,

Bye for now,

Best wishes,

Daisy

Jul 6

Re-Networking with Vortex Healing

Hello,

What a stunning sunset tonight… Through it I can see Alexandra Palace from my kitchen and it reminds me of Amma. It has prompted me to remind you of the dates for her visit to London this year, which are 27th – 29th October (the last night will be all night for Devi Bhava).

I have been experiencing fantastic results from the new Re-Networking Vortex Healing technique. This is used when other Vortex work has been done on an issue and then the Divine is able to come in and dissolve the remainder of the ‘network’ of what is left for that issue. For myself, working on a fear patterning in my left side has been so liberating. One effect from it is that I can now see when thoughts I am having are simply fear and I can let them go effortlessly. I also feel so much more relaxed and in my body and many other issues (‘higher up’ in my system as it were) have begun to let go spontaneously as a result. Again, I am able to experience them for what they are, as opposed to getting stuck in them. It really is remarkable stuff, so do come for a session if any of this appeals to you.

I will be going away this summer, first on silent retreat with Adyashanti in Surrey and afterwards to be with Amma in Amritapuri. It is not for a while and I am definitely available for healings now, but I wanted to let you know in advance: I will be away from the 17th August to the 20th September.

Some of you have friend-requested me on Facebook. I am flattered. In no way do I wish to reject you, but I have to decline this. You may remember what happened a few months ago and the precautions I informed you that I am taking as a result. However, there is the option to add me on LinkedIn and Twitter, because I only use them for healing. I hope this does not cause offence to anyone, because that is absolutely not my intention.

Wishing you a gorgeous sunset and a light beginning to your week,

Best wishes,

Daisy

Jun 1

Br. Shubamrita in Hornsey, London

Hello,

How are you? I just attended Br. Shubamrita’s (one of Amma’s senior disciples) satsang, bhajans, meditation and chanting etc. here in London and realised I didn’t tell any of you it was on. Sorry about that! You can always sign up for the Amma E-News here, which tells you about all the events that are happening:-

http://www.amma.org.uk/contact-us.htm

The program was glorious, as you would expect 🙂 Amma’s presence was palpable. I feel so lucky, it was incredible to be part of it. I highly recommend any Amma events you can attend. I wanted to share with you some Amma stories we were told.

The one which made everyone roar with laughter was when an expert in Vastu (which apparently is the Indian equivalent of Feng Shui) came to Amma saying, “One of the gates at the back of the ashram is all wrong. If you don’t change it, all the money that comes in here will go straight out again”. Amma smiled at him, replying, “Then I will never change that gate”.

The other story I loved was of Amma giving darshan for 20 hours straight in Malaysia. After this time, Br. Shubamrita asked her to stop because the queue was not going down – more and more people were coming. But Amma paid no attention. Later, Swamiji approached Amma pleading with her to stop. Amma looked at him and said, “The first thing I do when I sit down to give darshan is to have a conversation with the clock (so that we don’t interfere with one another). I say to him, ‘You do your work, I’ll do mine'”. Wow!!!

Ok, that’s all from me for now. I hope this email finds you unfolding into Mystery with no hands on the wheel 🙂

Daisy

May 29

Earthshift, Marlies and more

Hello,

How are you? Thank you to those of you who participated in the Bank Holiday Deal on Monday. It was a pleasure to work with you, just after the Earthshift when my system was particularly attuned to giving healing. I enjoyed the shift very much; it was actually very intense for me, which I didn’t expect. I feel like I am still recovering from the huge amount of energy which pumped its way through all of us in service to Gaia and the physical Earth. The highlight for me was feeling the most direct contact with Gaia I have ever felt. A friend put it beautifully when she described this effect of Gaia coming ‘into the room’ as a kind of “elegance” and deep femininity.

I am also still resonating with the profound silence which Marlies evoked in us during her trips to Brighton and London. I was fortunate enough to receive a one-on-one session from her, in which the core position I came in with in this life was given space to breathe and release and the silence in and behind it came all the way through. To say that that session was life-changing would not be an understatement. Do any of you have anything to share from your time with Marlies?

I want to talk a little today about the process of engaging in Vortex Healing sessions with me. In my experience, what tends to unfold is like this: you come in with something and we get to the bottom of what the issue is, and then do a session for that. If you already have your awareness deeply in that issue and are meeting it (which is unusual), then you experience something like this afterwards:-

“I just want to say thank you from the bottom of my heart to you, Merlin and Ric.

Clearing the ‘spot of non-existence’ has most definitely been the most profound shift for me in my healing journey…….It was like a shadow in my bones and it was a constant effort on a daily basis to not let it engulf me. It weighed me down and yet I didn’t know what it was…….

Even now it brings tears to my eyes when I realise that I will never feel that dark void again. I never dreamed I would be free of it. I can’t tell you how grateful I am. I feel like now I can really get present to this thing called Life, breath it in and experience it.

Thank you Thank you Thank you.”

Isn’t that beautiful? I can’t tell you what that does to me to hear a person like that…

However, we are not all that dedicated to Truth and may not have done as much inner work as that person has. If awareness hasn’t yet penetrated the core of the issue at hand (through whatever means), then what is most likely going to happen is that in the session we will release the foundations of it and then it will tend to manifest in your life, in some way. This means it appears as if the issue is coming true (remembering that appearances are always deceptive). Although it is tempting to blame life/God/etc. at that point, you are really only experiencing the result of whatever avoidance of this issue was going on beforehand, plus the next layer of it in your system. After this process has passed through, then you will tend to experience freedom within and from that issue. Think of it as like throwing a frisbee: if you do not follow through with your arm, then the frisbee will not land well and the game is no fun.

Vortex is not for the faint-hearted. But, as a friend in his 60s who is an expert in NLP, shamanic healing etc. (as well as a Vortex Healer) recently observed, it is the most effective energy healing he has ever come across.

I look forward to seeing you soon,

Best wishes,

Daisy

May 15

Marlies Cocheret in London Tomorrow

Hello,

It has been a while since I last wrote to you, during which time I have been in a personal process and diving deep into silence and meditation. I have been thinking of you, many of you have popped into my meditations and I hope you are well.

I mentioned this a while ago, but realised I hadn’t reminded you – Marlies is coming to London tomorrow and Saturday. I spent last weekend on retreat with her in Brighton and found her work once again to be profoundly embodying and transformational. What I found most helpful was the invitation to rest as silence, with no technique and no conditions.

If you are free tomorrow evening and/or during the day on Saturday, I highly recommend this opportunity to be with an awake teacher who is from Adyashanti. I will be there tomorrow. Here are the details:-

http://www.marliescocheret.com/Flyer/2014-UK-flyer.jpg

Best wishes,

Daisy

Apr 28

Bank Holiday Deal

Hello,

Yes, roll-up, it’s deal time again 🙂 Next Monday the 5th May, sessions will be half price – that’s £40. The perfect way to have some ‘you’ time on Bank Holiday.

If you are wondering what to work on in your next session, one lovely movement happens through clearing the fascia and biochemical pathways of the nervous system. This takes a lot of tension out of you, much of which is built up in the nervous system due to fear and pain conditioning deeper down. This can also be done for the heart, diaphragm and pericardium (the fluid filled sac that surrounds the heart and the proximal ends of the aorta, vena cava, and the pulmonary artery). Again a lot of tension, particularly resulting from pain and grief, gets stored here.

There is something new which can be done using Merlin’s Global Healing Grid. Whereas in the past, I could only put one situation or issue etc. in the grid to be worked on in the background (at 50% effectiveness as continuously intending it), I can now put up to 4 different things in there at once and it will still be as effective for each.

Something interesting which Ric talked about during the BodyMind class, was about avatars (i.e., like Amma). He feels that they are not really beings but appear as beings, using a pseudo-Inner-Veil as a kind of fake ID to get into the human realm, where they then appear as human. Most of what he said resonates with me. Do you have any thoughts on this? I’d love to hear your impressions.

Lastly, I know that many of you have experienced sessions as being particularly powerful recently, so I thought you might be interested to hear what Ric says about why this may be:-

“Another perk of the BodyMind class is that it creates a significant increase in bridging for channeling…In general, the extra bridging from the class makes ALL the transmissions for Merlin’s Grace go 15-20% deeper or faster, whether clearing, transforming or energizing…For instance, for doing a Genetic Modification at a distance, those without the class can get about 80% effectiveness of in-person work. Those with the class can, at a distance, now get the equivalent of what would have been 100% before…Again, an awake body just creates a deeper bridge; there is just no way around that, and yet it is something I didn’t anticipate when I first put the class on the schedule.”

Enjoy yourself and see you soon,

Best wishes,

Daisy

Apr 15

Oneness

Hello,

I am excited to share with you that through processing what I talked about in my last email, my healing sessions have changed. I noticed that in the session I just gave, there was a new kind of  natural bridging as oneness. The client felt this too and said, “It was amazing”. I want to credit Amma, the wonderful healers who have helped me through, my therapist and my friends. I have learned a lot from you.

One thing I did for myself during this time (and I believe would be of huge help to many of you) is disentangling myself from the karmic field of my parents. This is done first for Mum and then for Dad. As children, we merge our karmic field with theirs, causing us to carry a lot of stuff which isn’t really ours. Releasing this creates a deep silence in your energy field and whole system. For me, it was as if lots of voices suddenly stopped talking around me.

There is also a new way to clear conflict in relationships: by using Merlin’s Grace to ‘clear anything that is negatively impacting the relationships, on all dimensions of the astral’. It only takes 5-8 minutes or so.

Hot news on the Vortex scene is the ‘spot of non-existence’. Here is what Ric has to say about these: “these can look like black holes on the outside but a black hole is where the emotional pain has contracted all the vital weblines there into a tight, dense spot that has no movement or light within it. But imagine that pain going even deeper, so that it wants to cease to exist, and that desire literally sucks the life out of the vital weblines. My guess is that about 1 in 17 people has one of these. And if you have one and it has been treated as if it were a black hole, then it is still there. And it is easy enough to find out: channel ReplW [get me to do this for you] for your spot of non-existence and see if anything starts to happen and stays happening.” It would take about one session to clear this. My friends and clients who have had this removed are raving about it.

As regards this Bank Holiday, I will not be able to offer my usual half-price day because I will be spending time with my family to mark my Dad’s death three years ago. However, fear not, because there are two Bank Holidays coming up very soon, the first of which is on the 5th May (I will write with details nearer the time).

Looking forward to seeing you for awakening and healing fun!

Best wishes,

Daisy

Mar 31

Amazing AP

Hello,

I just wanted to share some of the feedback I have got far from work I have done releasing reality streams from the Navel AP (mainly for physical stuff). As Ric has hinted (and now I can confirm) – this is the most profound tool we have ever had in Vortex for the physical body.

One of you felt a 90% improvement in terms of pain reduction and ability to move after 1 session, having been laid up in bed for a week with a back problem (sciatic nerve). He also said he would have had to miss work for several days had he not received this healing session.

Another person had a chronic physical issue involving energy not flowing properly and therefore causing nerve problems. He reported feeling a subtle yet clear improvement in this chronic condition (which he has had for 12 years). He described this new Vortex work as “really inspiring”, adding that it had clearly had an effect on his body in a way he would not have even hoped for.

On this note, although I usually get permission to share these stories and always do so anonymously, I wanted to ask if anyone minds these being shared with the group?

Much Love to you,

xDaisy

Mar 25

The Disappearance of I

Hello,

I am still bubbling over with enthusiasm from the Awakening the BodyMind class! There is this new joy I feel in giving healing now…

I wanted to share some more of what we learnt in class, more ‘off the grid’ stuff if you know what I mean? It is often the group discussions in class which provide the most interesting material for growth.

Did you know that each country has it’s own group consciousness / realm? Ric gave the example of Germany, which he describes as having a fear of chaos, which then creates a neurotic attempt to control. In England he hinted that the group consciousness may have to do with alcohol. The good news is, these can be released with MG. So, if your country of origin (or even the one you are in, if you have been here for many years) is bothering you with its pesky issue, help is at hand.

You may be struggling to explain to people what awakening is. Here is one way to address this with a person, suggested by Ric: “Take your experience now and then imagine what it would be like if there was no I in it”. It is probably better to use the word ‘I’ rather than ‘ego’, because of the stigma and baggage that word carries (i.e., ‘egotistical’, ‘ego maniac’ etc., which is something different). If that falls on deaf ears, try asking them to feel the I in the centre of their head (or heart – though this will be harder for most people). Explain that in awakening that I disappears.

The Navel AP, which I mentioned as being very good with physical issues, can also be cleared to help you release your birth experience. Most of us had fairly traumatic births, so let me know if this resonates for you.

Ok, I had better go to university now! I look forward to hearing from you and to sharing more of the adventure with you,

Love,

xDaisy

Mar 14

Truth V Conditioning

Hello,

How are you? I know that some of you have just finished Inner Veil in London and also Core Veil, at the same venue (different room obviously). I am so excited for you and the bridging as oneness that this may have created. Please do write and tell me all about it – I am all ears! It is such a huge surrender and such a huge grace to be involved in taking Vortex Healing classes, so (without wanting to sound patronising) – well done.

I was talking with one of you last week and I was reminded of something I hadn’t thought about for a long time. When my ex-partner took her Vortex Basic class, she asked an interesting question to Anthony (the teacher): “How do I know when I am coming from conditioning and when I am coming from Truth? What’s the difference?”. Anthony replied simply that conditioning always has a story.

I hope this is a help to some of you, or maybe even all of you. I have found it very helpful myself. Not so much as a technique or something to ‘meditate on’ (when people say that, they are often doing anything but meditating), but as something much more direct and subtle than that. You know when you are trying to make a decision and your mind keeps coming up with lots of ‘reasons’ why you have to take a certain path? That’s conditioning. The more reasons and stories and elaborations there are, you can be sure that you are probably acting from mind, from fear, from conditioning. The truthful way (which comes from you as you are) is often the one which is quiet and totally non-demanding. Yet you can’t shake it off.

I received a lovely voicemail from one of you as feedback for a session we had done a couple of days before. Interestingly, although we were working on the physical body, he reported that, “the session was very transformative on a mental level” and that he had felt a lot of surrender and a sense of God during it. Another of you had a very deep response to a session we did to release grief. This person has also taken the Core Veil class (a little while ago). At the end of the session, in which she had had many tears, she said, “I can feel my clarity again now – I can feel the awake space”. She also texted a few days later to say, “thanks for helping me become more aware of the issues I have been holding, for some peace and clarity and deep healing and knowing that is here”.

The texts have really been flowing recently! The last one I want to mention for now is the following, which I received the day after a healing I gave this week: “Hi Daisy, I just wanted to thank you for the Vortex on Tues. It really helped me connect with my knowing that Vortex is a very valuable path for me and I need not use what goes on in my exterior world as a barometer for ‘progress’. I can sense what it feels like now not to be carrying all that isolation in my system”. Isn’t that beautiful? It is at moments like this when I think, “I have the best job in the world”. I want to say a huge thank you to all of you for choosing to work with me.

Remember that I will be going to Brighton today, for the class ‘Awakening the BodyMind and the Core Beliefs’. I will return next Friday 21st March.

Love to you all and sunshine too,

xDaisy

Feb 5

True Talking

Hello,

I had a very inspiring talk with one of you on the phone this week, regarding the confusion which follows awakening (in this case in the context of being post-Core Veil). It is as if spontaneous truth arose in the conversation and the person felt that there was a transmission coming through. I don’t know about that! But it was nice to be told – “it is so good to have people like you around to talk to about awakening and post-awakening”. Because I have lived this, it is easy to connect with what you are experiencing, so please do call if you have any questions about this fascinating subject.

I was watching a film last week called ‘The Perks of Being a Wallflower’. Guess what the ending line of the film was? : “…in this moment, we are infinite”. It goes to show that even when you are chilling, there is no escape from oneness!

I have been playing with some new pathway work this week when going to sleep. It is a way of optimising the biochemical pathways. It is particularly good for clearing allergies (although I was using it to regulate my adrenals, which tend to be overactive due to fear patterning in my kidneys). For an allergy, this could take a couple of sessions (including 10 mins to catch up the brain and then the cellular consciousness and localised consciousness of the form – LCF). Worth a go, especially for food allergies.

I have had a week full to the brim of life-learning. I must say I am feeling incredibly enriched by my degree in Person-Centred Counselling and everything it is moving in me. I suppose what I have learned most this week is to let go of the idea that things have to be good all the time. And that when I willingly move into what is in each moment and in each day, without trying to change it, it transforms in its own time, according to the needs of something much bigger than me. And also, to trust my instinct (heart) rather than taking a position of any kind, particularly during conflicts. I don’t think I can remember a time of greater transformation in my whole life. It is exciting! I would love to know how your experience is and what you are learning, so do write if you have time. Enjoy,

Love,

xDaisy

Jan 24

Appreciating You

Hello,

How are you today? I just had a phone call with a person who really made me appreciate all of you so much and I wanted to share that. This person wanted my help in healing, but it became obvious to us both that the synergy of us was not going to work. It is rare that I have this experience and also rare that I meet a strong spiritualised ego. It reconnected me with your (and my own) true dedication to truth at all and any cost. So thank you, for being you.

I also wanted to let you know about some great new work with Merlin’s Grace, which helps to strengthen your energy system and increase health and wellbeing in your body. It is also great for clearing headaches, for example. It involves ‘optimising the energy pathways’ throughout your whole system (or in a specific area). Please note that you can do this yourself if you have trained in Vortex Healing to a reasonable level. This can also be done for the biochemical pathways and fascia pathways. It’s a real feel-good treatment to blow the winter cobwebs away.

I have joined a group Zen Meditation at the recommendation of my friend Neil and cannot recommend it highly enough. It feels like the deepest rest in the world… The technique is simple and it requires only a bit of co-operation with rules (posture, bowing etc. – not complicated). And of course, your passionate desire for truth! But I don’t have to tell you that. Here is the link:-

http://www.zeninlondon.org/caledonian-road-north-dojo/

I am off to Glastonbury now and will return on Sunday night. Enjoy your weekend and see you soon.

Love,

xDaisy

Jan 3

Happy New Year

Hello,

Happy New Year to all of you. I hope you had some wonderful celebrations on NYE and have recovered fresh for 2014. However, if that seems like a faraway dream, you know where I am. This can sometimes be a difficult time of year for some people. Even if it is just for a short chat, I am here.

Thank you to those who participated in the recent new year sale. I am feeling very inspired by you all at the moment. Seeing how you are opening into the willingness to die into the unknown and wake up from the dream of separation is a joy to behold. Really, it is an honour to be part of that. Sometimes I feel like I have the best job in the world.

More and more I am seeing how the talking part of the session is much more than just talking. There is so much going on in that beginning part of a session, and in another way so little – because there is only awareness. I think you know what I mean 😉 The channelling part of the healing sometimes feels like the follow-through, rather than the be-all-and-end-all I used to think of it as.

There is something new which can be done for places (like an organ) where emotional energy has become compressed and toxic, causing physical problems. In fact, if you have a physical issue, this is often what is happening. I use Merlin’s Grace to ‘clear the energetic body interface to the [insert organ etc.]’. It takes about 1 & 1/2 hours and can be done in person, but not at a distance (sorry internationalites!). This is a really good release for the kidneys, which carry so much fear/survival energy and also control the energy of the body overall and it’s temperature (according to Chinese medicine and other modalities). Let me know if this appeals to you.

All that’s left to say is that I feel a lot of love for you all and for this journey into Self which we are all making. As you know, I have had my challenges this year, not least the break-up with Sarah 2 & 1/2 months ago. So I am feeling a lot and experiencing the roller coaster of life at the moment. Yet in spite of this, I still feel awake and aware. Well, most of the time anyway! Ric pointed out to me that it is really a matter of what one pays attention. I hope that is a help to you also. Take care and see you soon,

Love,

xDaisy

Dec 12

The Core Emotional Position You Entered This Life With

Hello,

I have been having fun helping you to release the core emotional position you entered this life with, using the Merlin’s Grace transmission and healing protocol. Let’s call that emotional position, ‘Z’. The nature of Z would have put you in a particular family situation to match it, and you would have created new dramas with your parents, with Z as the background for those dramas. Later, other life dramas would be created, all with Z as their foundation. But here is the key: each of those new life dramas will have its own stream of history connected with particular people. Most likely you define your issues as what you see in your life, which is likely to be with spouses, boyfriends & girlfriends, and especially with parents. You don’t tend to point to Z because it has become camouflaged within all these other issues. 

I am half-way through releasing this in myself and in many of you. It goes to show that what you think is your problem in this life is often a cover for the real ‘problem’. As you experience healing in this issue, you tend to get a deeper insight into that core position that never wanted to budge, but now is. Not only can that give a huge release and relief but it also joins up the dots of your life in ways you wouldn’t have imagined possible before.

I learned an interesting fact through my drug & alcohol training for my volunteer placements at outreach projects (a part of my degree in Person-Centred Counselling). 80% of thoughts are negative in nature. That might explain a lot! But the reason for this goes back to hunter-gatherer days, when this mechanism of negative thinking meant that the men and women of that era kept on improving on the ways they were completing practical tasks, spurred on my such thoughts. Nowadays, this kind of thinking of has become toxic for many people for a variety of reasons, but it is comforting to know that there was actually a piece of good design in there originally.

A reminder that I will be here and available over the Christmas period. The days I will not be working are Christmas Day and Boxing Day, and then New Year’s Day. You may wish to give a session as a present: I can send you a voucher for this if so, please just email me.

And to clarify, since some of you have been surprised about this and got mixed up (understandably), yes – Sarah and I have split up. It has been almost two months now and it is only really beginning to hit me. The pain is very deep and it is a whole life change for me. However, as I said before, please do not stay away because of this. Working with you is helping me and strangely enough, the sessions I am able to facilitate now are oftentimes deeper than they were before.

I look forward to our next session together,

Love,

xDaisy

Dec 2

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What You Can Receive from Vortex Healing Now

Hello,

I realised I haven’t written for a while about all the new ways in which Vortex Healing can help you at Merlin’s Grace level. Here are some of the techniques that I am now able to employ in our sessions together:-

Simply by channelling Merlin’s Grace energy alone on an issue you have will clear the issue from all the energetic bodies, through to the 8th Dimension; clear the issue from the Localised Consciousness of the Form (the ‘expression’ of awareness which is your human form) – through to the 8th Dimension; clear your chakras automatically; clear the geography of consciousness (imprints of your issues in the larger field of consciousness); clear the heart identity consciousness (literally the heart of the matter); clear issue beliefs & belief packages (that are ready to go); and catch up your inner ‘story’ – that is, the story you keep telling yourself about who you are.

Pretty good? As always though, I want to stress that I can help you meet your issue in a session and channel to clear a big bulk of it, but it is whether or not you are willing to meet that issue within your life which truly determines the end of that issue.

There is the work with the AP (Assemblage Point) & Reality Streams: this is our deepest way of utilizing Merlin’s Grace for issues. When used on someone with no Core Veil, it automatically breaks down all the identities that were associated with that issue, leaving very little in the rest of the system to catch up. And with someone with a Core Veil, it still releases the issue to the deepest possible extent currently possible.

Reality Rifting: Rifting enables you to access your other possible selves and their corresponding realities, and to some extent, bring one that is more desired into manifestation, replacing the one that is presently manifested. It is an incredibly powerful healing technique that works on both emotional and physical levels, accessed through Merlin’s Grace.

Merlin’s Grace can also strengthen a weak energy system and channel in a Special Grounding Frequency to bring you back down to earth (lol – I know, perhaps the Vortex Healing lingo could do with some of that too!). 

It can be used to clear Mum or Dad’s conditioning from your system, incorporating the release of the Parental World View Identity (as it sounds).

Since the recent Vortex Healing Earthshift, lineage shift, working with the Assemblage Point and  spending quality time with Amma, I have noticed that the sessions I facilitate have gone much deeper than before. Here is what some of you have experienced recently:-

Client 1: The session was to clear rejection. The client had such a deep release during the last part of the reality stream releasing from the Assemblage Point, that his body was shaking and he was crying within, his body even convulsed. This is a major thing for him and has only happened twice in about 5 years! I felt such deep stillness as both of us, that I was unable to channel at all for a few minutes and simply rested as oneness.

Client 2: “…I’m feeling much lighter today and my sinuses have stopped hurting since the healing! Thank you so much :-)…” (NB, I did not even work specifically on her sinus problem – the session was to release core guilt)

Client 3: by the end of the session, this client spoke about his experience of the healing (releasing deep anxiety in the body) and of Amma. He began to cry and shake uncontrollably. This continued for 20 minutes. I sat with him and remained as still as possible, whilst being totally intimate. It was an indescribable honour to be present with this movement of freedom arising as this person and breaking down conditioning on its way through.

Client 4 : During the session, I could smell Amma (her rose perfume) strongly and at many points throughout it. Very interesting, as there was none in the room.

Client 5 : At the end of the session, this client stared into my eyes and his mask was gone. He cried and kept on staring and everything which came up for him I could see dissolving into oneness. Very deep stuff had moved completely out of his system and he was able to finally rest. He said, “I can just be myself. I don’t have to try to be somebody”.

Client 6: An issue came out underlying the neediness / victim issue in this client: such deep pain and sorrow. It was heart-breaking. So we did the session based on the felt sense of this. And she smelled Amma – literally as if Amma was right beside her, throughout the session.

Client 7 : We hadn’t had a session together for some time, so I called this client. During the conversation, she said to me, “I can’t tell you what just speaking to you for a minute does”. Sometimes oneness will use my body-mind to meet a person where they are and I feel that that is the ‘you’ she was talking about.

Client 8 : By text from a client – “Hello darling, u can take this with a pinch of salt, and I was doing a process with Durga yesterday 🙂 u came up and she told me you are here to awaken other high level light workers, and in these instances the divine gives you extra oomph haha!!”.  I do take this with a large handful of salt 🙂 and I also believe it is the Divine and not me to whom this text refers, but I included it because of the thoughtfulness and care of this individual and the way that that warmed my heart.

There are so many more, and each session is its own sweetness and beauty. I hope no-one feels left out. Do contact me if you would like a healing,

Love,

xDaisy

Nov 20

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Amma’s Recent Visit to London

Hello,

How are you? I know that many of you have taken the recent Vortex Healing classes here in London, or have been with Amma, or Mooji. I would love to hear your stories, so please do write if you have time.

I have an Amma story to share from one of you who met Amma for the first time in London:-

“I remember you saying the experience can be bit like your issues being brought up like iron filings drawn to a magnet and that is a bit like the way it was on the first day. As soon as Amma came in the room I could feel a palpable current of love. I spent most of the day just sitting in the hall taking it all in, until it was my turn for Darshan. I was quite nervous for some reason and felt kinda awkward and conflicted to be honest and the hug seemed to happen quite fast, but I went to sit down behind Amma in a bit of a daze. But then while sitting I started to feel incredibly emotional for a reason I can’t explain, it was intense to the extent that I felt that I was on the verge of completely breaking down crying, everyone else around me seemed completely calm and I was on the verge of completely losing it! It was almost like I was torn in two. It took me a while to recover and take it all in.

I decided to go back a second day during the morning again and was fortunate that it wasn’t so busy that I could have a second Darshan at the end, this time it wasn’t so much about stuff coming up and there wasn’t the intense emotions coming up, but this time as I sat in the seats on the stage my legs turned to jelly, the hug seemed to last a lot longer this time and as I sat down I could feel a lot of releases in my body like warmth coming to my head and rushes of energy which was very pleasant and not at all overwhelming this time.

I am very grateful to you for telling me about Amma and encouraging me to go because it was a very powerful experience for me. I have had a taste now of her power and how she inspires so many people and why so many people are dedicated to her.”

I feel the need to share something with you because it is the reason why some of you may have felt me ‘off the radar’ for a month. Sarah and I have broken up. It happened exactly 1 month ago today (the day before Amma arrived in London). After such a deep, loving and truthful relationship, plus 6 and a half years together and two engagements, it’s a lot to lose. So I am going through a very painful time. Please do not stay away though. I am finding that the state I am in is actually deepening sessions with you, and working is helping me too.

This is what I meant in my last email about the significance of Amma chanting “My Love” (rather than “My Daughter”) in my ear during darshan in Berlin, after London. I don’t mean that I go to Amma for the major decisions in my life, that is not something I tend towards. But I knew when she said that that she was pulling me closer, into Love in its purest form, the true Lover – Divinity itself.

I immersed myself in seva in London as usual, and that helped. We earned £10,221 for Amma’s humanitarian charities this year – in the massage area in London alone! Yes, seriously. At the end of the second evening in London, to everyone’s amazement Amma got up from darshan (at around 4am) and began to dance! Sarah and I were on the stage and our mouths just fell open. We watched in amazement as Amma performed a traditional Keralan dance for everyone around her. Bear in mind, I had only ever seen Amma dance once before this, during the 12 years I have been with her. It was very powerful. She then repeated this wonderful ritual in Berlin and Milan, and I believe in most of the stops on the European tour. Lucky us!

At the end of Devi Bhava in London, Amma showered us with flower petals while Swamiji blasted an absolutely amazing bhajan. If you have not had this experience, I highly recommend it. It was a profound one for me. I got hit by 3 bunches of petals and as they hit me I felt all the tiredness in my muscles from doing massage seva leave my body: just by throwing flower petals, Amma performed a healing. Really everything she does is imbibed with energy and meaning: if you watch her over time I believe you will witness this.

Love,

xDaisy

Nov 13

Amma in Berlin

Hello,

I have now done 3 stops on the Europe tour (incl. London), because I can’t go to Amritapuri this year. The stop before Milan for me was Berlin. I must say, what a fabulous city! I never thought I would hear myself say this, but London is no longer the place with the best music in the world – Berlin has overtaken us. Everywhere we went we heard such excellent house music, really tech-y stuff, and also fantastic dub step etc. Impressive.

Anyway, most of the time I spent blissfully with Amma. The German people were lovely and everything had been done so nicely – almost to the point of perfection. There was no cheering and clapping after each bhajan etc. (like in Italy) but people were quiet and respectful and that was appreciated in the chaos that is an Amma tour 🙂

One evening, Amma was soon to finish darshan (due to the curfew in the hall) and as usual I was sitting on the stage watching her and going in and out of meditation. Suddenly she looked at us all and began talking in Malayalam. Br. Shubamrita translated: “Amma says she is sorry that the darshans have to go so fast. It was not like this years ago. Amma says that in the olden days nobody had a watch but everybody had time; these days everybody has a watch but nobody has time”. Many people started to cry upon hearing this. That Amma would apologise for not giving even more than she already does was moving. And what a lesson in such a simple way from a true master: it seems that everything Amma ever says has a tapestry of meanings woven into it.

On the Devi Bhava I somehow managed to get to the front of the queue with a timecard from the previous day. It was my Birthday, so I felt very privileged. Then I was seated RIGHT IN FRONT of Amma’s chair! I honestly couldn’t believe it. When she walked in, the power was so huge that I stepped backwards and nearly fell over my chair. It was like being “hemmed in” by Truth, as Adyashanti says. But I noted how strange it is that I say I want Truth, but when it comes I step backwards away from it.

I was also one of the first people to receive Amma’s darshan. I didn’t say it was my Birthday (which apparently you can do and you get a lovely Birthday darshan) because I was praying intensely in the darshan line. The helpers asked me my language and I said “English”. My prayer was, “Amma help me step towards you. I don’t want to step away from Truth anymore. There is so much fear within me but I really want the Truth. Please bring me closer to you”. When I was in front of Amma, Geeta (Amma’s darshan assistant) said to me, “You don’t speak any other languages?”. I was surprised because she knows me; I replied, “No” and she said, “Only Polish”. Before I had time to correct her, Amma had taken me! Amma hugged me and then looked at me and hugged me again. In my ear she chanted in German “Meine Liebe”. Then she motioned to the left of her chair and said “Come around”. I was so overcome I had to ask her, “Come around?” and she motioned again. I felt so blessed… What a Birthday darshan! I couldn’t walk properly when I stood up. When I could, I sat there with her absorbing the darshan for an hour or so.

But I didn’t know what the German words meant which she had said to me. So I asked my German friend. She said, it means “My Love”. I was floored… For 12 years, Amma has said to me, “My daughter”. For a moment, my blood ran cold. I knew that amongst other meanings, this had a deeper significance regarding my relationship with Sarah. I will explain all in the next review.

I want to acknowledge those who recently took the Core Veil Vortex Healing class. Whooppeee! I hope you had some deep experiences – do let me know what yours were. And I wanted to remind you that I will be here over the Christmas holidays, which is often an important time for healing,

Love,
xDaisy

Oct 29

I Surrender

Hello 🙂

 Oh I feel so blessed to have had Amma here in London! I saw a few of you there and that made me very happy 🙂 Please do write to me with your experiences of her, as I would dearly love to hear what went on for you.

 Were any of you there during the speeches about Amma at the beginning of the first evening? I felt they were outstanding, the best I have ever heard. Among them was a speech from Manish Pandey, writer of acclaimed British film ‘Senna’. In it he quoted Amma devotee and musician David Sylvian from his song “I Surrender” (written about Amma) from his 1999 album ‘Dead Bees on a Cake’. I burst into tears on hearing this. It is the most accurate description in words of my first darshan with Amma many years ago and the way that I still feel in her immeasurable presence now:-

 I’ve travelled all this way for your embrace

Enraptured by the recognition on your face

 Hold me now while my old life dies tonight and I surrender

My mother cries beneath the open skies and I surrender

 An ancient evening just before the fall

The light in your eyes, the meaning of it all

 Birds fly and fill the summer skies and I surrender

 She throws the burning books into the sea

“Come find the meaning of the word inside of me”

 It’s alright the stars are all aligned and I surrender

My mother cries beneath the moonlit skies and I surrender

 My body turns to ashes in her hands

The disappearing world of footprints in the sand

 Tell me now that this love will never die and I’ll surrender

My mother cries beneath the open skies and I surrender

 David Sylvian

 It still makes me cry sharing it with you now. I have more to write but don’t want to overwhelm you, so will do it in bits. For now I leave you with the good news that I will be here for the Christmas holidays, since I have just been with Amma in Berlin and will visit her again briefly in Milan (8th – 11th Nov). So, I will be offering healing during a time when I am usually awayand I am sure when you need it most. I look forward to speaking with you soon,

 Love,

xDaisy

Oct 13

Amma Fever!

Hello 🙂

Yes – Amma will be with us in a week! 21st – 23rd Oct in Alexandra Palace. If you can and feel inclined, I highly recommend spending as much time there as possible because the energy will sink in much deeper if you do.

This week, it has come to me that meeting my stuff in life is even more important than I had thought. I felt overwhelmed today when out with friends and was going to go home, but instead I left them for a bit and stood under a tree in Angel, Islington. I stopped. Then I closed my eyes and went inside, with the intention to meet what was coming up. To my surprise, I met my inner child who was whining and crying pitifully. I stayed with her, remaining still and intimate. After a short time, I was able to rejoin my friends and have a lovely evening with them. Do try this on for size – you may be surprised at how life-changing it is.

When I went to Amma’s Birthday recently with Br. Shubamrita here in London, he gave a speech in which were some delightful tales from Amma-land, which I would like to share with you. When asked, “Amma, who are you?”, Amma replied, “I am sleep-disturber. I am somebody who disturbs the sleep of others”.

Upon learning of Amma’s tireless schedule of round-the-clock darshans (not to mention managing her many charities), a journalist asked Amma, “But Amma, when do you really sleep?”. Amma answered, “I will sleep when all of my children have awakened”. By the way, that does include you. I felt like crying when I heard this… Only a being who is absolutely and totally free could say such a thing and mean it.

Lastly, Brahmachari explained that oftentimes people will try to book a holiday for Amma, like a cruise or a beach holiday in the Bahamas, or something. Amma simply points out that if you had a child who was ill and somebody offered you a free holiday, would you go? She said she feels the suffering of each one of us so intensely when we come for darshan, that she could not possibly abandon us for a holiday.

Here is the website of Jason Becker, who I mentioned in the last review. In ‘part 2’ he talks about some of his darshans with Amma:-

http://jasonbeckerguitar.com/jasons_words.html

I am looking forward to seeing you soon and especially at Amma’s, where I will be giving massage in the massage and yoga area at the back. Please do visit – there are many talented therapists there.

Love,

xDaisy

Oct 9

The Power of Good Habits

Hello,

I want to express today how important it can be to do regular spiritual practice. Apart from anything, it is very easy to go into deep connected oneness or bliss while doing so! Without practical application, spirituality really means very little at all.

As many of you know, my personal favourite is the 1000 Names (also known as Archana), which is a chanting practice from Amma. I also love Adyashanti’s ‘True Meditation’, which you can read about in his book ‘The Way of Liberation’ (I have free e-books upon request). But whatever you are truly drawn to is what is best for you. I find that by engaging in a practice every day, there is an ongoing and deepening sense of stabilisation in my true Self. Practices both help us to access and to abide as oneness itself. Don’t underestimate the power of good habits! As Amma points out, “even 1 moment spent in meditation is not a waste of time”. You really don’t need bags of free time to do this.

I watched a very inspiring documentary last week, called ‘Jason Becker: Not Dead Yet‘. You can find it on Netflix and presumably other sites too. My friend recommended it, not knowing that I in fact knew this man. I was AMAZED when he came up on screen! I met him while with Amma in San Ramon in 2002 and used to enjoy sitting near him and watching his incredible darshans with Amma. But I had no idea at the time who he is. His is a story filled with inspiration and surrender, as well as fierce humanity.

A quick reminder of Amma’s dates in London, so that you can book time off work if you wish to see her: 21st – 23rd Oct (all night on the 23rd) in Ally Pally. And finally, I hope you will enjoy this quote on the nature of negative thinking, from writer Mark Twain, as much as I did:-

“I’ve gone through many terrible things in my life, most of which never happened”

Love,

xDaisy

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