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Hello 🙂 

How are you?

The next Free Online Group Healing is tomorrow 15th November @ 1pm London time. If you feel drawn to do so, please let your friends / fam / etc. know by sharing this link with them. 

Please book your place if you can remain on Zoom for the duration (1hr) in a quiet space free from distractions. Thank you 🙏

If you were there to participate (or simply receive it in the world), did you enjoy the EarthShift last weekend..? There were around 450 of us attending to actually facilitate the shift and we were working on a spot deep in the genetic group psyche for survival power. This was released in every human being on the planet. Although the impacts may not be what we dream of most, there will be a kind-of background effect over time to loosen the grip of that flavour of fearful power from the human race. Something interesting which was discussed in the group at one point which I wanted to share with you, is that Ric believes there are currently 13 avatars on the planet 🙂 🙂 🙂 As I wrote that, goosebumps consumed me…….. Many of these are apparently babies and children and some of those don’t even know that they are avatars. Not every one of them would have a role like Amma’s role – in fact none might. But nevertheless, the impact of having such beings on the planet is phenomenal…….. If you even think for a moment about the effect Christ had / has on this world, then Neem Karoli Baba and now Amma, it’s easy to see that this is very very good news! 

I actually felt a huge transformation from the first day of the EarthShift myself, so much so that I wrote to Ric about it :-

“I had a delightful day doing the EarthShift with Claudia 🙂 🙂 🙂 I feel the impact still of having had the angel in my spine, the oneness and soft blissfulness it engendered within my being, and the impact of the entire systemic shift of the class. When I was on the tube on the way home, an old Adyashanti satsang came onto my headphones randomly. It took me deeper still…and I began to experience clarity, like a crystal clear awake presence within. This seeing, knowing as not-knowing (innocent openness in a way) and contentment due to an uncontrived stopping and due to a very deep peacefulness with what is. 

Right now I recognise that I didn’t get what I want [in my life] but I got something much better. I could describe it as freedom, but it’s more than that – and also less than that at the same time. I don’t have a word or any words for this………”

Within just a few hours, completely without me realising it, began the aftermath of that deepening. I started to come down with a gut illness (which is very unusual for me) and by Sunday night, I was extremely ill and that has continued until today. As Adyashanti once said, “everyone wants awakening, not everyone wants the fall-out. Because there’s a fall-out to awakening, and the fall-out can sometimes be quite messy.” Three of my friends also reported having gotten different illnesses at the same time, another friend’s mother had a heart-attack and the renowned, talented yogin (and grandson of the original Ashtanga) Sharath Jois died aged only 53 – of a heart-attack – the day after.

As I was in my sick bed, I happened to glance at the EarthWorks V Group I am part of. To my utter astonishment, especially as it has nothing to do with the healing we are doing in that group, I bore witness to reading there some of the most hateful concepts about trans people that I have ever seen… My heart immediately went to my caring, talented and successful trans friends Jake and Leia and I imagined their eyes seeing such vitriolic words. Through tears, I responded in the Group to explain why the statements being made were false and to suggest creating a boundary for such incidents. I explained how unsafe it could potentially make anyone who is othered feel (which includes me by the way). There was a back and forth, with a few supportive voices saying at least something. I think it is different when it’s your own loved ones being attacked. Otherwise, how easy is it to ignore, since you don’t actually have any trans friends anyway..? Suddenly, the original person not only made more transphobic assertions, but now dragged Amma into them as well, presenting Amma as transphobic. For clarity, Amma publicly invited a large group of Indian trans women to receive awards and grants from Her charity on stage in Amritapuri when I was there this past winter. Although by this point in the thread there had been many triggering attitudes and statements, reading these baseless lies about Amma truly was the final straw. That kind of violence, cascading into a tender community space intended to heal the earth and people on it, left me too emotional (and I was already too ill) to come from a clear space any longer. I decided to leave the group. 

Obviously, there is no way to know whether all of the events above are connected or not, or whether the EarthShift transformed things in this kind of way. But I’m attempting, like perhaps a painter might, to illustrate some possibilities in terms of the Divine’s version of integration, embodiment and what is needed to go deeper into Truth. After hours and days of meeting my feelings (which the illness thankfully forced me into, since I could barely do anything at all) and of sitting in and releasing the deep core issue which had been playing out all along, I began (slowly) to enter into something which could perhaps be described as renunciation. It is a path I have never walked on before. At first I was transported back in time to a conversation with my second girlfriend, after we had broken up and she had gone to live in Amritapuri. Having become a Renunciate (dedicating her life solely to Amma), she asked, what is renunciation? Amma answered that true renunciation is to renounce the mind. Let that sink in for a minute.

I think that anyone can probably renounce ‘things’; like sex or meat or alcohol or money. Not easy, but certain, and possible. But who do we really know that has renounced the mind..? 

In the ensuing Silence of Being, this particular kind of renunciation became so important to me……in a way that it hadn’t done before. I’m not even pretending that I can do it, or that I will get there. I’m just saying that it’s so significant to me………. Amma has said that we need to long for God-realisation more than a drowning man gasping for air. I hope I have written some words to show that the weirdest things along the way can be used by the Divine to set light to a kind of out-of-options inner drive. Time will tell whether or not anything is left in the pathway which cannot be burned up like so much camphor in the Arati lamp. 

I am here in London until at least May next year without any travelling at all. I am offering in-person sessions and will come to you if you live within tube Zones 1 or 2. Please contact me via regular text, WhatsApp or Telegram to arrange this.

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NB: lateness, no-showing, cancelling or rescheduling less than 24 hrs in advance of the session time will result in you being charged in full.

I have something wonderful to share with you and I highly recommend listening to the entire thing; it’s that good all the way through. My additional hope is that you can do so when you have time to really hear and not just listen. Do you know the difference..? Between hearing and listening. That difference is everything. Awake teacher Anthony de Mello presented this in America in the 1970s :-

Love,

xDaisy