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Land of Love

Hello 🙂 

How are you?

The next Free Online Group Healing is tomorrow 15th November @ 1pm London time. If you feel drawn to do so, please let your friends / fam / etc. know by sharing this link with them. 

Please book your place if you can remain on Zoom for the duration (1hr) in a quiet space free from distractions. Thank you 🙏

If you were there to participate (or simply receive it in the world), did you enjoy the EarthShift last weekend..? There were around 450 of us attending to actually facilitate the shift and we were working on a spot deep in the genetic group psyche for survival power. This was released in every human being on the planet. Although the impacts may not be what we dream of most, there will be a kind-of background effect over time to loosen the grip of that flavour of fearful power from the human race. Something interesting which was discussed in the group at one point which I wanted to share with you, is that Ric believes there are currently 13 avatars on the planet 🙂 🙂 🙂 As I wrote that, goosebumps consumed me…….. Many of these are apparently babies and children and some of those don’t even know that they are avatars. Not every one of them would have a role like Amma’s role – in fact none might. But nevertheless, the impact of having such beings on the planet is phenomenal…….. If you even think for a moment about the effect Christ had / has on this world, then Neem Karoli Baba and now Amma, it’s easy to see that this is very very good news! 

I actually felt a huge transformation from the first day of the EarthShift myself, so much so that I wrote to Ric about it :-

“I had a delightful day doing the EarthShift with Claudia 🙂 🙂 🙂 I feel the impact still of having had the angel in my spine, the oneness and soft blissfulness it engendered within my being, and the impact of the entire systemic shift of the class. When I was on the tube on the way home, an old Adyashanti satsang came onto my headphones randomly. It took me deeper still…and I began to experience clarity, like a crystal clear awake presence within. This seeing, knowing as not-knowing (innocent openness in a way) and contentment due to an uncontrived stopping and due to a very deep peacefulness with what is. 

Right now I recognise that I didn’t get what I want [in my life] but I got something much better. I could describe it as freedom, but it’s more than that – and also less than that at the same time. I don’t have a word or any words for this………”

Within just a few hours, completely without me realising it, began the aftermath of that deepening. I started to come down with a gut illness (which is very unusual for me) and by Sunday night, I was extremely ill and that has continued until today. As Adyashanti once said, “everyone wants awakening, not everyone wants the fall-out. Because there’s a fall-out to awakening, and the fall-out can sometimes be quite messy.” Three of my friends also reported having gotten different illnesses at the same time, another friend’s mother had a heart-attack and the renowned, talented yogin (and grandson of the original Ashtanga) Sharath Jois died aged only 53 – of a heart-attack – the day after.

As I was in my sick bed, I happened to glance at the EarthWorks V Group I am part of. To my utter astonishment, especially as it has nothing to do with the healing we are doing in that group, I bore witness to reading there some of the most hateful concepts about trans people that I have ever seen… My heart immediately went to my caring, talented and successful trans friends Jake and Leia and I imagined their eyes seeing such vitriolic words. Through tears, I responded in the Group to explain why the statements being made were false and to suggest creating a boundary for such incidents. I explained how unsafe it could potentially make anyone who is othered feel (which includes me by the way). There was a back and forth, with a few supportive voices saying at least something. I think it is different when it’s your own loved ones being attacked. Otherwise, how easy is it to ignore, since you don’t actually have any trans friends anyway..? Suddenly, the original person not only made more transphobic assertions, but now dragged Amma into them as well, presenting Amma as transphobic. For clarity, Amma publicly invited a large group of Indian trans women to receive awards and grants from Her charity on stage in Amritapuri when I was there this past winter. Although by this point in the thread there had been many triggering attitudes and statements, reading these baseless lies about Amma truly was the final straw. That kind of violence, cascading into a tender community space intended to heal the earth and people on it, left me too emotional (and I was already too ill) to come from a clear space any longer. I decided to leave the group. 

Obviously, there is no way to know whether all of the events above are connected or not, or whether the EarthShift transformed things in this kind of way. But I’m attempting, like perhaps a painter might, to illustrate some possibilities in terms of the Divine’s version of integration, embodiment and what is needed to go deeper into Truth. After hours and days of meeting my feelings (which the illness thankfully forced me into, since I could barely do anything at all) and of sitting in and releasing the deep core issue which had been playing out all along, I began (slowly) to enter into something which could perhaps be described as renunciation. It is a path I have never walked on before. At first I was transported back in time to a conversation with my second girlfriend, after we had broken up and she had gone to live in Amritapuri. Having become a Renunciate (dedicating her life solely to Amma), she asked, what is renunciation? Amma answered that true renunciation is to renounce the mind. Let that sink in for a minute.

I think that anyone can probably renounce ‘things’; like sex or meat or alcohol or money. Not easy, but certain, and possible. But who do we really know that has renounced the mind..? 

In the ensuing Silence of Being, this particular kind of renunciation became so important to me……in a way that it hadn’t done before. I’m not even pretending that I can do it, or that I will get there. I’m just saying that it’s so significant to me………. Amma has said that we need to long for God-realisation more than a drowning man gasping for air. I hope I have written some words to show that the weirdest things along the way can be used by the Divine to set light to a kind of out-of-options inner drive. Time will tell whether or not anything is left in the pathway which cannot be burned up like so much camphor in the Arati lamp. 

I am here in London until at least May next year without any travelling at all. I am offering in-person sessions and will come to you if you live within tube Zones 1 or 2. Please contact me via regular text, WhatsApp or Telegram to arrange this.

Please pay before the session via bank transfer, cash or PayPal – thank you. NB: lateness, no-showing, cancelling or rescheduling less than 24 hrs in advance of the session time will result in you being charged in full. 

Online private sessions continue as usual :-

Please do not contact me regarding scheduling, rearranging or cancelling. Instead, please utilise the email you receive from Calendly for this. It can end up in your spam, so please check.

NB: lateness, no-showing, cancelling or rescheduling less than 24 hrs in advance of the session time will result in you being charged in full.

I have something wonderful to share with you and I highly recommend listening to the entire thing; it’s that good all the way through. My additional hope is that you can do so when you have time to really hear and not just listen. Do you know the difference..? Between hearing and listening. That difference is everything. Awake teacher Anthony de Mello presented this in America in the 1970s :-

Love,

xDaisy 

Free Online Group Healing : Tomorrow

Hello 🙂

Often when I am preparing for the Group, I will read something which spontaneously makes me burst into tears. Perhaps the Divine arranges it this way so I don’t cry the whole way through the Group – lol! Because they are certainly worthy of that: the courage and the tenderness and love which run like threads through all these Groups are stunning. Plus, being as an emotional a being as I am (yet also so very guarded at the same time) often gives me the sensation that I could burst like this at any moment. Or perhaps it is the purity of life which does this to me. The purity and the joy and the pain and the suffering – all of it. Don’t you feel that being alive is the most amazing adventure? We never know what is coming next or how anything will be or look. It’s like life is continuously arising to greet itself, without any preconceived notions or pattern. I find that happy chaos very nourishing. Sometimes it is expressed well in free jazz. 

Anyway, one such thing which brought on those tears was reading this observation by Rupert Spira :-

“The greatest discovery in life is to discover that our essential nature does not share the limits nor the destiny of the body and mind” 

If you would like to attend the next Free Online Group Healing, it is happening tomorrow Wed 18th May @ 1pm GMT. NB: please attend only if you can remain on Zoom for the duration (1hr). Here is the link you need for booking :-

Please note that you need to pre-book. You can also book as many Groups as you like in advance. 

For Private Sessions with me, you will receive an email (or text if you requested this when booking) with which you can rearrange or cancel your session, if you wish. That email may wind up in your spam / junk box, so please check. Here is the link to book Private Sessions:-

Please never contact me about rearranging, cancelling or scheduling : instead, simply utilise the email sent to you by Calendly for this very purpose.

And please also note that lateness, no-showing, cancelling or rearranging less than 24 hrs in advance of the session time will result in you being charged in full for that session. Thank you 🙂 

As a closing note today, I would like to share this short video of Adyashanti in conversation with Loch Kelly :-

Love,

xDaisy

Track + Passage

Hello 🙂 

This is for those who attended the Group just now. I hesitate to provide a YouTube link to the Dire Straits track, because I would rather you hear it on either vinyl, tape or CD. 

If you really have to though, there is the aforementioned option 😉 Here are the lyrics:-

Brothers In Arms

These mist covered mountains

Are a home now for me

But my home is the lowlands

And always will be

Some day you’ll return to

Your valleys and your farms

And you’ll no longer burn 

To be brothers in arms

Through these fields of destruction

Baptisms of fire

I’ve watched all your suffering

As the battles raged higher

And though they did hurt me so bad

In the fear and alarm

You did not desert me

My brothers in arms

There’s so many different worlds

So many different suns

And we have just one world

But we live in different ones

Now the sun’s gone to hell

And the moon’s riding high

Let me bid you farewell

Every man has to die

But it’s written in the starlight

And every line on your palm

We’re fools to make war

On our brothers in arms

The passage was from Adyashanti’s book ‘The End of Your World’ page 41 – 43.

See you again in a fortnight I hope,

Love,

xDaisy

Free Online Group Healing: Breaking Our Addiction to the Next Moment

Hello 🙂

How are you? 

In many ways, it is our addiction to the next moment which keeps the whole egoic structure going. The ‘I’, the ‘me’, the source of separation and suffering, depends upon time. Contrary to our reflex and to popular belief, we do not need this ‘I’ in order to function optimally. 

Whatever is happening, we feel sure that it could be improved upon – or that a catastrophe is about to happen – and so we dream of the next big thing, the future, the soulmate, or of escaping disaster, of being saved etc. Therefore we will not allow ourselves to stop. 

But it is in stopping, deeply and truly, that we are able to break these fantasies. As it all breaks down, we finally get in touch with the Divinity within. This is the stillness, Love, peace, harmony, and more, which we are seeking. In fact, everything we thought we were going to find in what is beyond the now, is already here. The contrast is quite incredible, between where we thought we would find all this and where we do find it. Divinity is revealed to us by resting gently as awareness: simply by doing that and nothing more than that. 

The Free Online Group Healing on this, will be on Wednesday @ 1pm BST. NB: please write to me at the email stated in the ‘Contact’ section, in order to be added to the group email invitations for these sessions.

On a different note, here is a message from Amma’s UK ashram:-

‘We are delighted to share that, as of 2 weeks ago, our Covid-19 fundraising campaign for India raised just over £10,500 (from 106 donors). Thank you to everyone who donated, spread the word and shared the link. As the need is high, we will keep the campaign running for a couple more weeks – pls do share this update with anyone you know who has contributed or would still like to. (Select “Covid-19 India Crisis” from the optional drop-down menu) 

Wishing you all a beautiful day with Ammas Infinite Grace.’

Love,

xDaisy

Ps As a little boy in Amritapuri (Amma’s ashram) said to Amma during a public Q&A a few days ago, “When we turn towards the sun, there is no shadow. There is only light. But when we turn away from the sun, there is a shadow. Likewise with God. When we turn towards God and face That always, there will be no shadows.”

Free Online Group Healing: Breaking Our Addiction to the Next Moment

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I am very well, enjoying life and taking some incredible Vortex Healing classes at the moment 🙂 First things first: the next Free Online Group Healing is tomorrow @ 1pm GMT. Thank you to those of you who have already booked. NB: please book only if you can DEFINITELY attend the session, and if you can remain on Zoom for the duration (1hr):-

https://www.wuji-web.uk/daisy

In many ways, it is our addiction to the next moment which keeps the whole egoic structure going. The ‘I’, the ‘me’, the source of separation and suffering, depends upon time. Contrary to our reflex and to popular belief, we do not need this ‘I’ in order to function optimally. 

Whatever is happening, we feel sure that it could be improved upon – or that a catastrophe is about to happen – and so we dream of the next big thing, the future, the soulmate, or of escaping disaster, of being saved etc. etc. etc. So we will not allow ourselves to stop. 

Yet it is in stopping, deeply and really, that we are able to break these fantasies. As it all breaks, we finally get in touch with the Divinity within. This is the stillness, peace, harmony and more – everything we thought we were going to find in what we dreamed is beyond the now. The contrast is quite incredible between where we thought we would find all of this, and where we really find it. Divinity is revealed to us by resting gently as awareness: simply by doing that, and nothing more than that. In my opinion and experience, this is what happiness actually is. And there is no end to the depth of it. This will be the focus of the Group tomorrow. I plan to facilitate a guided meditation, first to feel the addiction to the next moment and then to rest as awareness. You could think of awareness as the stillness in the middle of all that constant thinking or constant movement. 

Love,

xDaisy

The Significance of Letting Go

Hello 🙂
 
Yesterday it was Amma’s
Birthday 🙂 Very soon she
will be with us in London! 
If you can stay for the whole
visit, it is truly worthwhile:-
 
http://www.amma.org.uk/ammas-tour.htm
 
I want to share with you a
little of my own healing journey.
On Saturday, Sarah and I were
staying with a friend and all
of a sudden I got a fever.
 I had had a cut on one of my 
toes for a while . Slowly, I 
realised I had got blood poisoning.
 
We were in the middle of
nowhere and couldn’t 
get painkillers for the fever
as it was the middle of the night.

 

So the night began. I was shaking,
with chattering teeth, and
my left lymph node (groin) was very
swollen and red hot. My toe
was throbbing and I had flu-like
aching in all my joints. I
was freezing, but really I was
running a very high fever.
 
I felt I wasn’t at the A&E stage, so 
I began to channel on myself.
For a while it worked,
but I was unable to maintain
concentration. Sarah also
gave me healing, but even more
importantly peace and love.
 
I was in so much suffering
with it all that in the end
I called out to Amma in my heart,
saying “Amma, please take
it away, please help me”.
 
Only when I had surrendered
and stopped resisting my symptoms, 
did I receive the response:
“Just let go”. It was accompanied by
the feeling that she would
take care of the whole thing. 
 
That trust which defies logic
emerged from stillness.
I fell asleep eventually and 
by morning I was almost
completely cured. 
 
Bear in mind that, in the case of
blood poisoning, it is usual to 
have to take strong antibiotics,
sometimes intravenously.
 
Of course, I do not mean 
to imply that you should 
not go to hospital or the doctor
if you are ill, and I am certainly
not anti-western-medicine at all.

 

But what I have learnt is the
significance of letting go……
This experience has illustrated for
me just how much of the work
I do with you is more being
done through me by Amma,
than it is anything to do with ‘me’.
 
I feel so blessed
to have met this saint and
to have been able to contact
the Divine in my lifetime. 
I hope you find inspiration in this
and that I see you soon,
Love,
xDaisy