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Hello 🙂 

How are you?

The next Free Online Group Healing is tomorrow 15th November @ 1pm London time. If you feel drawn to do so, please let your friends / fam / etc. know by sharing this link with them. 

Please book your place if you can remain on Zoom for the duration (1hr) in a quiet space free from distractions. Thank you 🙏

If you were there to participate (or simply receive it in the world), did you enjoy the EarthShift last weekend..? There were around 450 of us attending to actually facilitate the shift and we were working on a spot deep in the genetic group psyche for survival power. This was released in every human being on the planet. Although the impacts may not be what we dream of most, there will be a kind-of background effect over time to loosen the grip of that flavour of fearful power from the human race. Something interesting which was discussed in the group at one point which I wanted to share with you, is that Ric believes there are currently 13 avatars on the planet 🙂 🙂 🙂 As I wrote that, goosebumps consumed me…….. Many of these are apparently babies and children and some of those don’t even know that they are avatars. Not every one of them would have a role like Amma’s role – in fact none might. But nevertheless, the impact of having such beings on the planet is phenomenal…….. If you even think for a moment about the effect Christ had / has on this world, then Neem Karoli Baba and now Amma, it’s easy to see that this is very very good news! 

I actually felt a huge transformation from the first day of the EarthShift myself, so much so that I wrote to Ric about it :-

“I had a delightful day doing the EarthShift with Claudia 🙂 🙂 🙂 I feel the impact still of having had the angel in my spine, the oneness and soft blissfulness it engendered within my being, and the impact of the entire systemic shift of the class. When I was on the tube on the way home, an old Adyashanti satsang came onto my headphones randomly. It took me deeper still…and I began to experience clarity, like a crystal clear awake presence within. This seeing, knowing as not-knowing (innocent openness in a way) and contentment due to an uncontrived stopping and due to a very deep peacefulness with what is. 

Right now I recognise that I didn’t get what I want [in my life] but I got something much better. I could describe it as freedom, but it’s more than that – and also less than that at the same time. I don’t have a word or any words for this………”

Within just a few hours, completely without me realising it, began the aftermath of that deepening. I started to come down with a gut illness (which is very unusual for me) and by Sunday night, I was extremely ill and that has continued until today. As Adyashanti once said, “everyone wants awakening, not everyone wants the fall-out. Because there’s a fall-out to awakening, and the fall-out can sometimes be quite messy.” Three of my friends also reported having gotten different illnesses at the same time, another friend’s mother had a heart-attack and the renowned, talented yogin (and grandson of the original Ashtanga) Sharath Jois died aged only 53 – of a heart-attack – the day after.

As I was in my sick bed, I happened to glance at the EarthWorks V Group I am part of. To my utter astonishment, especially as it has nothing to do with the healing we are doing in that group, I bore witness to reading there some of the most hateful concepts about trans people that I have ever seen… My heart immediately went to my caring, talented and successful trans friends Jake and Leia and I imagined their eyes seeing such vitriolic words. Through tears, I responded in the Group to explain why the statements being made were false and to suggest creating a boundary for such incidents. I explained how unsafe it could potentially make anyone who is othered feel (which includes me by the way). There was a back and forth, with a few supportive voices saying at least something. I think it is different when it’s your own loved ones being attacked. Otherwise, how easy is it to ignore, since you don’t actually have any trans friends anyway..? Suddenly, the original person not only made more transphobic assertions, but now dragged Amma into them as well, presenting Amma as transphobic. For clarity, Amma publicly invited a large group of Indian trans women to receive awards and grants from Her charity on stage in Amritapuri when I was there this past winter. Although by this point in the thread there had been many triggering attitudes and statements, reading these baseless lies about Amma truly was the final straw. That kind of violence, cascading into a tender community space intended to heal the earth and people on it, left me too emotional (and I was already too ill) to come from a clear space any longer. I decided to leave the group. 

Obviously, there is no way to know whether all of the events above are connected or not, or whether the EarthShift transformed things in this kind of way. But I’m attempting, like perhaps a painter might, to illustrate some possibilities in terms of the Divine’s version of integration, embodiment and what is needed to go deeper into Truth. After hours and days of meeting my feelings (which the illness thankfully forced me into, since I could barely do anything at all) and of sitting in and releasing the deep core issue which had been playing out all along, I began (slowly) to enter into something which could perhaps be described as renunciation. It is a path I have never walked on before. At first I was transported back in time to a conversation with my second girlfriend, after we had broken up and she had gone to live in Amritapuri. Having become a Renunciate (dedicating her life solely to Amma), she asked, what is renunciation? Amma answered that true renunciation is to renounce the mind. Let that sink in for a minute.

I think that anyone can probably renounce ‘things’; like sex or meat or alcohol or money. Not easy, but certain, and possible. But who do we really know that has renounced the mind..? 

In the ensuing Silence of Being, this particular kind of renunciation became so important to me……in a way that it hadn’t done before. I’m not even pretending that I can do it, or that I will get there. I’m just saying that it’s so significant to me………. Amma has said that we need to long for God-realisation more than a drowning man gasping for air. I hope I have written some words to show that the weirdest things along the way can be used by the Divine to set light to a kind of out-of-options inner drive. Time will tell whether or not anything is left in the pathway which cannot be burned up like so much camphor in the Arati lamp. 

I am here in London until at least May next year without any travelling at all. I am offering in-person sessions and will come to you if you live within tube Zones 1 or 2. Please contact me via regular text, WhatsApp or Telegram to arrange this.

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I have something wonderful to share with you and I highly recommend listening to the entire thing; it’s that good all the way through. My additional hope is that you can do so when you have time to really hear and not just listen. Do you know the difference..? Between hearing and listening. That difference is everything. Awake teacher Anthony de Mello presented this in America in the 1970s :-

Love,

xDaisy 

Breaking Into Bhakti

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I am very well indeed and am now writing to you from London 🙂 

At the end of my stay in Amritapuri, which was filled with peace and happiness this time, I found myself sitting on the floor of the main hall for bhajans. My flight was to leave later on that night, so (in a way) I was saying goodbye to Amma. 

I’m going to try to convey what it feels like to be with this Living Master and perhaps a tiny bit of what She is doing with our paths to God-realisation. It is difficult to do so, partly because you have to have really stayed with Amma for a good amount of time to grok this, and partly because it is so tricky to communicate in words what is totally beyond words. Nevertheless, I feel to try. 

There was a particular bhajan which Amma sang that night which seemed to crack me open completely. I often feel that She takes us from a sort-of habitual mundane emotional state to the uppermost heights of what the passion for Divinity is capable of; and it can happen in a split second when She sings. All She needs is a tiny crack – a hair’s breadth of space – in which to reveal the Great Mystery in all its glory. As I was sitting there singing with everyone, this happened to a whole new degree. Amma leaves the very best til last 😉 

As my heart burst with longing, I started sobbing uncontrollably and there was a surrender which felt almost physical and beyond physicality at the same time, as if my heart opened from the front to the back (spine) and outwards, beyond…….. What I was feeling was a blend of the most immense gratitude, with joy – pure joy – and devotional Love (Bhakti). As my system underwent Amma’s ‘surgery’, I felt the return to Innocence, unconditional Love and the perception (as if for the first time) of what She is doing with us all. I could see in that moment, that Amma is the salvation for the whole of humanity. Ric Weinman once told me that She “has the long-haul job of transforming the heart of humanity” and Adyashanti once created a series about what he describes as ‘Redemptive Love’. It was as if those two insights came alive at once, yet in a brand new way, and then went beyond even that… 

There was this absolutely overwhelming – literally overwhelming – gratitude. It was for all of the above and also for the beyondness of what was being revealed, and yet simultaneously it was uncaused. There was zero sense of specialness, yet a complete sense of being present and available for the transformation happening through this body and heart and through the bodies and hearts of all those around me on that sacred ground. Perhaps it could be said that the small self / me / I suddenly broke open and was consumed by / merged into Divinity / became what it truly had always been. The crying was so intense that I couldn’t contain it in any way. I was floored byTrue Love, fiery devotion (which was also recognised as being choiceless) and the sense of being in the right place at the right time : of pre-destiny. That was mixed with the utter gratefulness for what Amma has done for us all, and how different things could have been if She hadn’t come to Earth during this era. This seeing engendered in me such confidence…….trust, surrender, and faith in the highest. It was breathtaking.

In the taxi on the way to Trivandrum airport afterwards, I noticed that there was complete Peace, “the peace which surpasses all understanding” as Adyashanti puts it. Thoughts would still arise and pass, but ‘witnessing’ – in the most engaged way – would simply perceive them, without interfering. It was a simple seeing, no more no less. I realised that you don’t actually need detachment when Bhakti has taken over. Love ‘becomes’ (so-to-speak) the only thing which makes sense. And the stunning thing is, it doesn’t even need to make sense. 

To discover more about the incredible global impacts of what Amma is doing, check out :-

“Those who know the Self are always compassionate. They wish to see society thrive in peace and harmony. 

Love is the very foundation, beauty and fulfilment of life. If we dive deep enough into ourselves, we will find that the one thread of universal love ties all beings together.

As this awareness dawns within us, peace alone will reign.” ~ Amma

Here is the link to book online private sessions and please note that the usual schedule is now back on :-

Please do not contact me regarding scheduling, rearranging or cancelling : instead, utilise the email you receive from Calendly for this purpose. It could end up in your spam, so please check.

NB: lateness, no-showing or cancelling / rearranging less than 24 hrs in advance of the session time, will result in you being charged in full.

Looking forward to seeing you again 🙂 🙂 🙂 

Love,

xDaisy