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Aug 30

The Fire of Truth 

Hello 🙂 

“Sometimes I go about pitying myself – and all the while I am being carried across the sky by beautiful clouds” ~ Native American saying 

The next Free Online Group Healing is this Friday 5th Sept @ 1pm London time. If you feel drawn to do so, please let your friends / fam / etc. know by sharing this link with them (NB: these Groups are fortnightly). Please book your place if you can remain on Zoom for the duration (1hr) in a quiet space free from distractions. Thank you 🙏 

I learned a lot from an Adyashanti satsang I was listening to on the tube this week. I will try to convey some of that learning here. The recording was made in 2002, which was the year I first met Adyashanti (now retired), when he transformed my perspective on awakening completely. When we allow ourselves to experience this moment exactly as it is, the barrier between what’s happening in the outside world and inside our skin becomes very transparent. Experiencing sounds – the humdrum of life in the street, the cars – and the sounds inside us become of the same quality. A feeling in our body isn’t really different than the sound of a vehicle – not ours and not other than ours. An understanding which is not in words, but is the direct experience of what is, reveals itself as a great gift of not looking for an alternate experience. Something mysterious knows…something mysterious experiences this moment. Yet we can’t say what it is. Because as soon as we try to – it’s not that. It’s closer, more immediate. As soon as we think about it, it’s not the thoughts – it’s before a thought. It’s closer. We begin to experience directly that we don’t exist, and yet know that we do – but we don’t, but we do… Knowing beyond understanding, yet not able to define in any way. Knowing by this mysterious unknown experiencer. We are not us after all; maybe we are this, that is awake, before all seeking. This mysterious awakeneness… But to sacrifice this for something else – for anything else… Can we not sacrifice this that’s awake, in the chair where we happen to be sitting? Not sacrifice this for the promise of a better moment. A better event, a better experience. This is the Fire of Truth. This that is awake now in us – as us – shows up the utter irrelevance of every other argument, whatever that may be. This fire is unseen and unknown. We all have a choice of, what do I give my life to? Maybe this choice has never been conscious before, but now it is. What is important to us..? Don’t lose ourself – are we going somewhere? Or are we staying here? Just notice… Whatever we do is ok 🙂 🙂 🙂 Just notice where we’re choosing to go. This is it – this is the fire. It does not leave dramatics in its wake – it leaves something unspeakable in its wake. Something more satisfying than joy, something more satisfying than peace. Beyond excitement. When we sell this that is awake out, if we sell it out – be aware and awake to what we’re selling it out to. Make the sure the bargain is what we want it to be. Or perhaps we may, by some Grace, realise that nothing inside of us wants to sell this that is awake out anymore. Not even for our security, our existence or the good opinion of others. A life free from negotiation and bargaining. As Tony Parsons used to ask us, “Are you in business with life?” This is what the fire of this Truth removes from us : our negotiation and our bargaining with what is. That violence of attitude is finally absent. To really receive this gift fully, it’s got to be given to everybody, everywhere. We’ve got to notice that this that is awake doesn’t want anyone to change or improve – at all. That’s the ash of the fire. “A minute a go I wanted you to change, but now I don’t. You’re fine.” Nobody conformed to our pattern and yet happiness more than anything before is now here. This that is awake is the same in everybody and everything. The rest is a beautiful diversity. 

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Love,

xDaisy 

Sep 9

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Real bliss is within 

Hello 🙂 

“Just as the flower falls away when the fruit takes shape, worldly desires will disappear when detachment ripens. No desire can bind such a person afterwards, whether he lives at home or in the forest. One who has established God-realisation as his goal will not attach any importance to anything else. He has already understood that nothing physical is permanent and that real bliss is within” ~ Amma

Another way of touching on this area, is to perceive – fully, without holding back – that what we want and what we need are rarely related. I’m sorry to break it – if it is news – to you, but it’s true. And yet, in every single moment we are getting exactly what we need. 

The Free Online Group Healings are now weekly. I hope you are as pleased about this as I am 🙂 Other than dates I cannot do, I have begun scheduling these weekly instead of fortnightly. The link below will allow you to book them. The next Free Online Group Healing is Friday 20th September @ 1pm London time. If you feel drawn to do so, please let your friends / fam / etc. know by sharing this link with them. 

Please book your place if you can remain on Zoom for the duration (1hr) in a quiet space free from distractions. Thank you 🙏

I thought I would share some of my notes from Amma’s U.S. Tour with you now. During Oakland program, Amma explained to us in a speech that we must never try to compare ourselves with others. Instead, always see from the perspective of the True Self. 

During the Washington D.C. program, there was a public Q&A and a young woman (probably 20 or thereabouts) asked a beautiful question concerning what to do when, although we do not express anger  or resentful feelings to a person directly, when we walk away from the conversation with them, these are still going on in our mind. Amma said, if we introspect, we will find that the anger we feel towards someone really arises from expectations or from being judgemental. She continued, saying that sadness also gets expressed as anger or as revenge. We do not understand the mental state of the other person. The world is like a mental asylum, with each of us being either crazy or on the verge of being crazy. 

Although a snake may be frozen in ice, if it is left in the sun the ice will melt and the snake will all-of-a-sudden rise up and could bite us. Only by going through the circumstances of life, will we understand what our own latent tendencies are.

If we get into conflict with someone, immediately we should move away from the situation and contemplate – go within. In order to become aware of the gap between our thoughts and actions, we need patience. Amma said that each situation is our Guru, our Teacher. Seeing any person as a mirror for ourself, we will learn a lot. 

Anger is a double-edged sword, with which we get hurt first. Or it could be likened to a hot iron ball : when we throw it at someone, we get hurt first. 

However, if an animal like a deer is eating our vegetable patch, it is no good saying, “My dear, dear, dear deer, please stop eating the vegetables.” Instead, we need to take a stick, wave it at the deer and shoo it away with words. 

The world is like an examination hall. We need to go through many circumstances in life in order to learn all the lessons. Amma said that we may fail when facing a situation, but never give up. 

‘Awareness’ was the only word which Amma used repeatedly in English throughout this Q&A (the rest being in Malayalam as usual), which I found interesting. Amma continued : whatever action we perform, the first 10% is not within our control. But the following 90% is within our control. If through having the proper awareness, we can make the initial action as positive as it can be, then the rest will follow accordingly. In order to develop such awareness, we need to do spiritual practices like meditation or Archana (the 1000 Names) regularly. 

Amma finished by saying to the woman directly, “Whatever your conscience tells you to do, you should do that.” 

I am currently in London offering in-person sessions until the 16th September and will come to you if you live within tube Zones 1 or 2. Please contact me via regular text, WhatsApp or Telegram to arrange this and please pay before the session via bank transfer, cash or PayPal. NB: lateness, no-showing or cancelling / rearranging less than 24 hrs in advance of the session time, will result in you being charged in full. 

Alternatively, here is the link to book online private sessions for whenever you like :-

Please do not contact me regarding scheduling, rearranging or cancelling : instead, utilise the email you receive from Calendly for this purpose. It could end up in your spam, so please check.

NB: lateness, no-showing or cancelling / rearranging less than 24 hrs in advance of the session time, will result in you being charged in full.

Love,

xDaisy

Apr 19

Session schedule available :-) 

Hello 🙂

How are you? 

I am great and yes – I am back in London 🙂  

In simple terms, being with Amma in-person for three and a half months (the longest single stretch I have ever spent with Her) was a huge reset. I have so much to say about that…… One thing I realised within being reset is, any question I have, Amma will answer at the right time.  

On to practical matters: firstly, my sincere apologies for all the tech and connectivity problems in India. You did so well to tolerate – thank you for your patience.

The schedule for Private Sessions has now opened up again. Here is the link to book. Please keep checking availability, as spaces can shift around, so what you wanted becomes available again :-

Please do not contact me regarding scheduling, rearranging or cancelling : instead, utilise the email you receive from Calendly for this purpose. It could end up in your spam, so please check.

NB: lateness, no-showing or cancelling / rearranging less than 24 hrs in advance of the session time, will result in you being charged in full.

I am currently waiting to hear back from a venue I have in mind for in-person sessions. Regarding Groups, please bear with me as I have only just integrated my return from Amma’s form / living in Amritapuri.

I will begin telling the stories of my adventures with Amma in the next newsletter. For now, I leave you with these searing words from a bhajan I love to sing with Her :-

“Chidananda rupah

Sivoham! Sivoham!”

I am pure awareness-bliss

I am Shiva! I am Shiva!

And :-

“When we surrender to a True Master, we surrender to the entire Creation” ~ Amma

Love,

xDaisy