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Aug 30

The Fire of Truth 

Hello 🙂 

“Sometimes I go about pitying myself – and all the while I am being carried across the sky by beautiful clouds” ~ Native American saying 

The next Free Online Group Healing is this Friday 5th Sept @ 1pm London time. If you feel drawn to do so, please let your friends / fam / etc. know by sharing this link with them (NB: these Groups are fortnightly). Please book your place if you can remain on Zoom for the duration (1hr) in a quiet space free from distractions. Thank you 🙏 

I learned a lot from an Adyashanti satsang I was listening to on the tube this week. I will try to convey some of that learning here. The recording was made in 2002, which was the year I first met Adyashanti (now retired), when he transformed my perspective on awakening completely. When we allow ourselves to experience this moment exactly as it is, the barrier between what’s happening in the outside world and inside our skin becomes very transparent. Experiencing sounds – the humdrum of life in the street, the cars – and the sounds inside us become of the same quality. A feeling in our body isn’t really different than the sound of a vehicle – not ours and not other than ours. An understanding which is not in words, but is the direct experience of what is, reveals itself as a great gift of not looking for an alternate experience. Something mysterious knows…something mysterious experiences this moment. Yet we can’t say what it is. Because as soon as we try to – it’s not that. It’s closer, more immediate. As soon as we think about it, it’s not the thoughts – it’s before a thought. It’s closer. We begin to experience directly that we don’t exist, and yet know that we do – but we don’t, but we do… Knowing beyond understanding, yet not able to define in any way. Knowing by this mysterious unknown experiencer. We are not us after all; maybe we are this, that is awake, before all seeking. This mysterious awakeneness… But to sacrifice this for something else – for anything else… Can we not sacrifice this that’s awake, in the chair where we happen to be sitting? Not sacrifice this for the promise of a better moment. A better event, a better experience. This is the Fire of Truth. This that is awake now in us – as us – shows up the utter irrelevance of every other argument, whatever that may be. This fire is unseen and unknown. We all have a choice of, what do I give my life to? Maybe this choice has never been conscious before, but now it is. What is important to us..? Don’t lose ourself – are we going somewhere? Or are we staying here? Just notice… Whatever we do is ok 🙂 🙂 🙂 Just notice where we’re choosing to go. This is it – this is the fire. It does not leave dramatics in its wake – it leaves something unspeakable in its wake. Something more satisfying than joy, something more satisfying than peace. Beyond excitement. When we sell this that is awake out, if we sell it out – be aware and awake to what we’re selling it out to. Make the sure the bargain is what we want it to be. Or perhaps we may, by some Grace, realise that nothing inside of us wants to sell this that is awake out anymore. Not even for our security, our existence or the good opinion of others. A life free from negotiation and bargaining. As Tony Parsons used to ask us, “Are you in business with life?” This is what the fire of this Truth removes from us : our negotiation and our bargaining with what is. That violence of attitude is finally absent. To really receive this gift fully, it’s got to be given to everybody, everywhere. We’ve got to notice that this that is awake doesn’t want anyone to change or improve – at all. That’s the ash of the fire. “A minute a go I wanted you to change, but now I don’t. You’re fine.” Nobody conformed to our pattern and yet happiness more than anything before is now here. This that is awake is the same in everybody and everything. The rest is a beautiful diversity. 

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Please do not contact me regarding scheduling, rearranging or cancelling. Instead, please utilise the email you receive from Calendly for this. It can end up in your junk mail, so please check. (NB: lateness, no-showing, cancelling or rescheduling less than 24 hrs in advance of the session time will result in you being charged in full.) 

Love,

xDaisy 

Aug 20

Grow Up and Let Go and Fall 

Hello 🙂 

The next Free Online Group Healing is this Friday 22nd August @ 1pm London time. If you feel drawn to do so, please let your friends / fam / etc. know by sharing this link with them (NB: these Groups are fortnightly). Please book your place if you can remain on Zoom for the duration (1hr) in a quiet space free from distractions. Thank you 🙏 

There is a Foundational Class in Vortex Healing coming up very soon 🙂  

If you missed my interview on national radio (NBC) in America last week, the recording can be streamed or downloaded wherever you are, on the following channels (plus Audible or Podbean) :-

And here is the link for YouTube :- 

For online private sessions, book here (NB : ‘Schedule’ button must be pressed after payment, or the booking is not accepted and money returned):-

Please do not contact me regarding scheduling, rearranging or cancelling. Instead, please utilise the email you receive from Calendly for this. It can end up in your junk mail, so please check. (NB: lateness, no-showing, cancelling or rescheduling less than 24 hrs in advance of the session time will result in you being charged in full.) 

Someone said something very beautiful this week, about the awakening path. Having woken up on her own, between sessions, she commented : “You have to just grow up and let go and fall.” 

Love,

xDaisy 

Jul 16

Back in London now :-) 

Hello 🙂 

The next Free Online Group Healing is Friday 25th July @ 1pm London time. If you feel drawn to do so, please let your friends / fam / etc. know by sharing this link with them. Please note that these Groups are now back to being fortnightly. 

Please book your place if you can remain on Zoom for the duration (1hr) in a quiet space free from distractions. Thank you 🙏 

I have returned from India early, so I am available for individual sessions. There were three main reasons I went to Amritapuri this time and, once they were all complete, it was as if Amma ‘let me go’ : I can only describe it like this. 

Please note that there is now a new schedule : individual sessions are available Mon to Fri, 10am – 6 30pm UK time. 

For online private sessions, book here (NB : ‘Schedule’ button must be pressed after payment, or the booking is not accepted and money returned):-

Please do not contact me regarding scheduling, rearranging or cancelling. Instead, please utilise the email you receive from Calendly for this. It can end up in your junk mail, so please check.

NB: lateness, no-showing, cancelling or rescheduling less than 24 hrs in advance of the session time will result in you being charged in full.

I would like to tell a little story about my time at the ashram in India with Amma. When my friends and I were reunited in Amritapuri, we received Grace upon Grace continuously for about a week and a half. It was like being in heaven… This is how it can be with Amma sometimes; just beyond…….. During this ecstatic period, each of us could be found at different times literally crying with tears of joy and gratitude, because of the things that kept happening to us. One such time, we were asked by another friend to participate in the seva of passing the Prasad plates during Amma’s Tuesday lunch offering. In order to receive this free food, Indians have been known to travel – by foot – for miles on end to reach the ashram. Obviously this action can be caused by hunger and poverty, but also – and this is one of the things I most love about India – by the cherishing of Divinity. The atmosphere in the entire country is permeated with that; no sooner than you step off the plane, you can begin to sense it. 

So there we were in the Big Hall in Amritapuri, watching hundreds of devotees eagerly lining up to receive a plate of food blessed by Amma. People queue two or three abreast and walk up a ramp to where Amma is seated, handing out plate by plate as they nervously take it from Her. If a devotee is very elderly or disabled, after Amma touches the plate it gets passed down to a line of sevites, who ensure its safe passage into the hands of that devotee, who by then is being helped to walk. Upon entering this seva, I broke down in tears. I felt overwhelmed by the sense of unconditional Love in the air, in my life and by the Grace flowing everywhere. And I just felt so grateful to be there, experiencing this, and towards Amma…I couldn’t hold back my tears. Eventually, I was given the position in the line of sevites whereby I could see the whole of Amma directly. As everything was happening, it was as if She opened a window into Reality for me. As I was passing the plates along, I felt everything slow down, to the point of timelessness : time seemed to evaporate and actions seemed to be as if in slow-motion. Then I felt a kind of motion like the fabric of Reality got consumed / sucked in / absorbed into Mystery. Amma began to reveal to me that She was in control of everyone in the scene. I perceived Her as Divinity moving every single person and manifesting every other movement taking place as well, right from the way people walked, to if the food plate dropped on the floor, to if it didn’t – every tiny detail was included in that Totality. Everything appeared as both moving and still at once. It seemed comical to me when I gazed at people, that they were acting as though they were individuals. Because I could see with clarity that this was not the case. It was like Amma was the centre, so-to-speak, directing Creation; with absolutely no separation between these apparent two. All was being directed by Her Will. 

Love,

xDaisy 

Mar 12

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Breaking Into Bhakti

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I am very well indeed and am now writing to you from London 🙂 

At the end of my stay in Amritapuri, which was filled with peace and happiness this time, I found myself sitting on the floor of the main hall for bhajans. My flight was to leave later on that night, so (in a way) I was saying goodbye to Amma. 

I’m going to try to convey what it feels like to be with this Living Master and perhaps a tiny bit of what She is doing with our paths to God-realisation. It is difficult to do so, partly because you have to have really stayed with Amma for a good amount of time to grok this, and partly because it is so tricky to communicate in words what is totally beyond words. Nevertheless, I feel to try. 

There was a particular bhajan which Amma sang that night which seemed to crack me open completely. I often feel that She takes us from a sort-of habitual mundane emotional state to the uppermost heights of what the passion for Divinity is capable of; and it can happen in a split second when She sings. All She needs is a tiny crack – a hair’s breadth of space – in which to reveal the Great Mystery in all its glory. As I was sitting there singing with everyone, this happened to a whole new degree. Amma leaves the very best til last 😉 

As my heart burst with longing, I started sobbing uncontrollably and there was a surrender which felt almost physical and beyond physicality at the same time, as if my heart opened from the front to the back (spine) and outwards, beyond…….. What I was feeling was a blend of the most immense gratitude, with joy – pure joy – and devotional Love (Bhakti). As my system underwent Amma’s ‘surgery’, I felt the return to Innocence, unconditional Love and the perception (as if for the first time) of what She is doing with us all. I could see in that moment, that Amma is the salvation for the whole of humanity. Ric Weinman once told me that She “has the long-haul job of transforming the heart of humanity” and Adyashanti once created a series about what he describes as ‘Redemptive Love’. It was as if those two insights came alive at once, yet in a brand new way, and then went beyond even that… 

There was this absolutely overwhelming – literally overwhelming – gratitude. It was for all of the above and also for the beyondness of what was being revealed, and yet simultaneously it was uncaused. There was zero sense of specialness, yet a complete sense of being present and available for the transformation happening through this body and heart and through the bodies and hearts of all those around me on that sacred ground. Perhaps it could be said that the small self / me / I suddenly broke open and was consumed by / merged into Divinity / became what it truly had always been. The crying was so intense that I couldn’t contain it in any way. I was floored byTrue Love, fiery devotion (which was also recognised as being choiceless) and the sense of being in the right place at the right time : of pre-destiny. That was mixed with the utter gratefulness for what Amma has done for us all, and how different things could have been if She hadn’t come to Earth during this era. This seeing engendered in me such confidence…….trust, surrender, and faith in the highest. It was breathtaking.

In the taxi on the way to Trivandrum airport afterwards, I noticed that there was complete Peace, “the peace which surpasses all understanding” as Adyashanti puts it. Thoughts would still arise and pass, but ‘witnessing’ – in the most engaged way – would simply perceive them, without interfering. It was a simple seeing, no more no less. I realised that you don’t actually need detachment when Bhakti has taken over. Love ‘becomes’ (so-to-speak) the only thing which makes sense. And the stunning thing is, it doesn’t even need to make sense. 

To discover more about the incredible global impacts of what Amma is doing, check out :-

Humanitarian

“Those who know the Self are always compassionate. They wish to see society thrive in peace and harmony. 

Love is the very foundation, beauty and fulfilment of life. If we dive deep enough into ourselves, we will find that the one thread of universal love ties all beings together.

As this awareness dawns within us, peace alone will reign.” ~ Amma

Here is the link to book online private sessions and please note that the usual schedule is now back on :-

Please do not contact me regarding scheduling, rearranging or cancelling : instead, utilise the email you receive from Calendly for this purpose. It could end up in your spam, so please check.

NB: lateness, no-showing or cancelling / rearranging less than 24 hrs in advance of the session time, will result in you being charged in full.

Looking forward to seeing you again 🙂 🙂 🙂 

Love,

xDaisy

Dec 12

Free Online Group Healing this Wednesday

Hello 🙂

The next Free Online Group Healing is this Wed 15th Dec @ 1pm GMT. NB: please attend only if you can remain on Zoom for the duration (1hr). Here is the link you need for booking :-

Please note that you need to pre-book. You will not be able to book on the day itself and no link is available to join like that. You can also book as many Groups as you like in advance. 

For Private Sessions, you will receive an email (or text if you requested this when booking) with which you can rearrange or cancel your session, if you wish. That email may wind up in your spam / junk box, so please check. Please do not contact me regarding rearranging or cancelling. 

Here is the link to book Private Sessions:-

I would like to share this episode of Max Buchmann’s podcast. You may know Max from the Group Healings or from interviewing me as part of this series. As I feel it is crucial that men are supported by other men in the dawning vision of embodied masculinity, the following episode is perhaps my favourite :-

Great news! From now on, all EarthShifts are free! 🙂 🙂 🙂 These incredible opportunities to give love, support and transformation to the earth + humanity are also now open to any Vortex Healing student or practitioner at any level 🙂 We suggest a donation to Amma’s charity ‘Embracing the World’. Please search ‘Vortex Healing’ for details.

I would like to share the learning from recent classes I have repeated in Vortex Healing. It never ceases to amaze me that every time I repeat a class, it goes deeper and contributes to a sense of ongoing freedom of what I am, deepening in Divinity, in Silence and in Mystery. With awakening, we are far more available for life: to live life on its own terms. This allows more opportunity for having heart in any situation, no matter what the situation is, and less conditioned reflexes and programs. 

Many people wish to sense better: to see within, or to see something in the outside world in a clearer and deeper way. This would traditionally be known as being ‘psychic’, yet that word has too much baggage to use today I feel. The interesting thing about this, is that whatever we see is controlled by where we are looking from. Furthermore, if we can find a ‘place’ we are looking from, then that can’t be Truth – it has to be some place of separation. 

In a similar way, whatever we encounter in the outside world is dependant upon where we are coming from. For example, if we are ordering food in a restaurant, the waiter is going to have a pre-existing range of responses within him. The one which comes out, though it ‘belongs to’ him so-to-speak, is going to be the one which best ‘fits’ us at that time.

Love is not an emotion. We may process it through our emotional system and even try to turn it into an emotion. But really love is a direct expression of Divinity. It comes from much deeper…….and certainly, deeper than any emotion. 

I hope you enjoyed this and are enjoying life and growth 🙂 I’m looking forward to seeing you in the Group on Wednesday if you can make it,

Love,

xDaisy

Nov 14

EarthShift, Podcast, Free Will and Free Online Group Healing

Hello 🙂

Yes, as many of you will be aware, we are in the middle of an EarthShift 🙂 I don’t want to get into too much complexity about what we are doing, since I think it runs the risk of feeling a little distancing. In a nutshell though, every so often a huge group of Vortex Healing practitioners gets together to work on the earth and human species. The group is led by Ric Weinman and Anthony Gorman. This particular EarthShift is about creating two new points of choice from Divinity, within creation, which actually allow all human beings to move into more of a friendliness with one another. What we are moving out of is a type of intense negativity. As a species, we went into that like a trajectory, many thousands of years back in time and it has been influencing life on Earth ever since. 

If you would prefer to book thenext Free Online Group Healing without reading on, then itis this Wed 17th Nov @ 1pm GMT. NB: please attend only if you can remain on Zoom for the duration (1hr). Here is the link you need for booking :-

Please note that you need to pre-book. You can also book as many Groups as you like in advance. 

For Private Sessions, you will receive an email (or text if you requested this when booking) with which you can rearrange or cancel your session if you wish. That email may wind up in your junk box – so please check. 

Here is the link to book Private Sessions:-

I am very happy to say that I was interviewed for a podcast during the summer. The series has been created by Max Buchmann, who you may know from the Group Healings. I have received very humbling and moving feedback about our conversation and I feel it is time to share it with all of you. Please also feel free to explore the other episodes in this series since, like I have, you may learn a great deal from them :-

On a different subject, many of you ask me about free will or free choice. It is indeed a fascinating topic 🙂 and I would like to share more. These insights are from discussions with my friends and experiences on my own path and those of the teachers and practitioners of Vortex Healing. 

The essential thing is that all choice is Divine choice. Contrary to popular belief, the intellect has little involvement in making choices. Every choice – big or small – arises from Mystery. It then moves through the body and system of the individual, giving it the appearance of coming from that individual. The only such thing as free choice or free will is that which comes out of what is already free (ie, Divinity). At any point when a choice is being made, life can actually go in either direction: Divinity can choose to follow egoic consciousness, or it can choose to follow freedom. Also worth noting, is that the power to do any of this is coming from the only source of any power: Divinity. Surprisingly enough, the ego doesn’t have any power. It has no power ‘of its own’. 

A question may then arise, something like, “But why would Divinity choose to follow egoic consciousness?” You may have noticed that, in fact, Divinity mostly does choose the forays of egoic consciousness. I think that this is for the pure play of it all. Remember, Divinity does not have likes nor dislikes. So it’s not in that separation game whatsoever – it’s not condemning anything, it’s not exalting anything, it’s not believing one person to be better than another etc. etc. By moving into egoic consciousness, I think Divinity is exploring 🙂 It’s exploring the experience of separation 🙂  Divinity is absolutely fascinated by the play of that and by the myriad ways in which that expresses. And it seems to me that Divinity is doing this…until it isn’t any more 🙂 

Love,

xDaisy