Posts tagged ‘darshan’

🕉 In This Very Moment 🕉

Hello 🙂 

“Will it be possible to see our image in a mirror completely covered with dust? Wipe away the dust particles and clean the mirror, then look and definitely you will see. Our true face is God. Clean away the impurities of the mind through spiritual practices and it will be revealed to you.” ~ Amma 

Please note : I am offering sessions as usual on the weekdays I am at home during the period of Europe Tour.

Here’s a little pre-Tour story for you 🙂 I went to a drum’n’bass rave recently, and my friend was late, so I went to the bar to order a drink. As soon as I turned around, I saw someone I knew 🙂 Michael is a guy I have known within almost all my communities for many years. We immediately found ourselves talking about Amma. He revealed that he had actually met Amma on Her first ever trip to London, in the late 1980s, with only about 50 other people there! Wow… He didn’t actually know Amma was doing a Tour of Europe now, but had been keeping some dates aside in his calendar from 20th – 22nd Nov, without knowing why. He was amazed to find out that those are the exact dates Amma will be here and now he is coming! She gathers us from all places into Her lap.  

The next Free Online Group Healing is Friday 28th November @ 1pm London time. If you feel drawn to do so, please let your friends / fam / etc. know by sharing this link with them. Please book your place if you can remain on Zoom for the duration (1hr) in a quiet space free from distractions. Thank you🙏 

I can honestly say that being with Amma in Switzerland was the most incredible Europe Tour stop so far in my life, aside from when I actually met Amma for the first time. Here are two stories which may be able to convey a little of that magic :-  

I got to Winterthur the night before the start of Tour and settled into my hotel briefly, before receiving messages and calls from friends telling me to come to the program hall. I was thinking about going anyway to offer seva for set-up, but didn’t realise Amma was in fact attending! When I arrived at the entrance to the hall, the carpet had been laid out for Amma. Hardly any of us were there – probably 30 people. We began chanting “Om Amriteswaryai Namaha” in unison. Suddenly, Amma’s car appeared and Amma got out. When I beheld Amma’s face for the first time, I literally raised my hands to my own face in shock : it was like getting a Love-shock. It felt as if I had never seen Amma before. I began to go into ecstasy… As we sat for meditation inside the dining hall, Amma was in a playful mood and so young – like a child. She was making jokes and beaming at us all. The whole vibe was utterly magical… At this point, the place began to fill up with volunteer Tour Staff, plus a few more of us who had heard the call. During the MA-OM part of the White Flowers Meditation, everything just fell away… Me and everything else was gone. In place of it, there arose Peace, as if for the first time. For a long time, I had no thoughts – they just stopped – and no anything else either. When this spontaneously happens (which is usually in Amma’s physical presence), I realise that absolutely nothing I take as real is actually real. I can see everything with a true perspective. What arises from that is profound Love for everyone… All the people I was arguing with in my head, I loved all of them, I just loved all of them. All the dramas in my life (in my mind really) vanished. Cessation. And the feeling of being absolutely focused in the present moment, yet without efforting or forcing, was so deeply fulfilling and completing… There was only Now. Genuine, sweet, open, present. I knew, without mental knowing yet from within, that there is nothing outside of this. There is nothing real outside of such purity. I am crying writing about this. 

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The next story reveals the sheer intensity that we can sometimes go through on Tour, plus the unimaginably perfect timing and Divine intentionality of all of it. On the first day of the program, I was talking with one of you in the main hall as you cried about your situation of single motherhood. It was heartbreaking. And yet you were so strong that it was palpable. Next, another of you approached me and we had a conversation. All-of-a-sudden in the middle of it, someone was hugging me from the other side. Before I knew, I saw it was the number one person I was extremely anxious and vulnerable about, plus had had 0% contact with for many long months. I had no idea he would be there. Despite all of this, we could not stop hugging once we embraced. In that holding, he said to me, “It’s so good to see you, oh my god.” Those words and the rare warmth between us are both things I had entirely lost hope of ever feeling again. I had had to let this person go so completely, not once but again and again and again. The felt sense of this hug was so wonderful…yet ordinary, relieving and everything else all-at-once. His action was brave, kind and gentlemanly. I was also very pleased that the friend I was talking to beforehand was there, because this seemed to facilitate such an unexpected reconnection. My entire body was softly shaking. At that exact moment, another of you called on the phone. I knew it was about something extremely serious, so I answered. I was there for the shock of grief for you, honestly just hoping I was doing a good enough job still shaking. After the call, I got into the darshan line, since earlier I had been handed a token by a friend-of-a-friend (such Grace!!), and decided to take another friend’s picture for photo-darshan (due to the incredibly rough time she is having at the moment). In the queue, I could only try to process everything as best I could! I was guided from somewhere, “Just keep doing your mantra.” As I entered the stage and beheld Amma, the sheer joy of seeing Her face suddenly brought me to my knees in tears. I could only bow down in reverence to such awe-inspiring beauty. When it was my turn, Amma blessed each person in the photo very carefully with sandalwood paste. She then pulled me in for the hug, chanting in my ear very intensely. Suddenly, towards the end of the darshan, Amma changed the words She was chanting. I knew immediately and from a previous experience, that it was a blessing of some kind for the bond between that aforementioned gentleman and I. When She had finished, Amma drew back and in stillness we stared into one another’s eyes, for what seemed like an eternity. Amma was smiling so broadly, beaming in fact. Then She said, looking directly into my eyes, “Ok.” It wasn’t a question, it was a statement. I felt like She was telling me, “You’re totally fine.” She seemed to communicate just through one word and one look, that I can in fact handle the chaotic challenges I think I can’t. Honestly, that reminder changed everything. 

On top of all of this, that particular date, exact place and the fact I was with Amma was incredibly significant. In identical circumstances six years earlier, Amma and I had had a Q&A during darshan which was the most significant I have ever had with Her in my life. The timing and synchronicity were spell-binding…it felt as though everything had come full-circle and healed. How transformed I am from the person I was back then… Following my darshan, I sat on stage with Amma for about 2 hours, again with the inner guidance to keep doing my mantra. I believe Amma was still working on the friend in the photo and on me as well. The stage with Amma always feels to me like the centre of the universe. The whole of life is there. 

Love,

xDaisy