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Mar 12

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Breaking Into Bhakti

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I am very well indeed and am now writing to you from London 🙂 

At the end of my stay in Amritapuri, which was filled with peace and happiness this time, I found myself sitting on the floor of the main hall for bhajans. My flight was to leave later on that night, so (in a way) I was saying goodbye to Amma. 

I’m going to try to convey what it feels like to be with this Living Master and perhaps a tiny bit of what She is doing with our paths to God-realisation. It is difficult to do so, partly because you have to have really stayed with Amma for a good amount of time to grok this, and partly because it is so tricky to communicate in words what is totally beyond words. Nevertheless, I feel to try. 

There was a particular bhajan which Amma sang that night which seemed to crack me open completely. I often feel that She takes us from a sort-of habitual mundane emotional state to the uppermost heights of what the passion for Divinity is capable of; and it can happen in a split second when She sings. All She needs is a tiny crack – a hair’s breadth of space – in which to reveal the Great Mystery in all its glory. As I was sitting there singing with everyone, this happened to a whole new degree. Amma leaves the very best til last 😉 

As my heart burst with longing, I started sobbing uncontrollably and there was a surrender which felt almost physical and beyond physicality at the same time, as if my heart opened from the front to the back (spine) and outwards, beyond…….. What I was feeling was a blend of the most immense gratitude, with joy – pure joy – and devotional Love (Bhakti). As my system underwent Amma’s ‘surgery’, I felt the return to Innocence, unconditional Love and the perception (as if for the first time) of what She is doing with us all. I could see in that moment, that Amma is the salvation for the whole of humanity. Ric Weinman once told me that She “has the long-haul job of transforming the heart of humanity” and Adyashanti once created a series about what he describes as ‘Redemptive Love’. It was as if those two insights came alive at once, yet in a brand new way, and then went beyond even that… 

There was this absolutely overwhelming – literally overwhelming – gratitude. It was for all of the above and also for the beyondness of what was being revealed, and yet simultaneously it was uncaused. There was zero sense of specialness, yet a complete sense of being present and available for the transformation happening through this body and heart and through the bodies and hearts of all those around me on that sacred ground. Perhaps it could be said that the small self / me / I suddenly broke open and was consumed by / merged into Divinity / became what it truly had always been. The crying was so intense that I couldn’t contain it in any way. I was floored byTrue Love, fiery devotion (which was also recognised as being choiceless) and the sense of being in the right place at the right time : of pre-destiny. That was mixed with the utter gratefulness for what Amma has done for us all, and how different things could have been if She hadn’t come to Earth during this era. This seeing engendered in me such confidence…….trust, surrender, and faith in the highest. It was breathtaking.

In the taxi on the way to Trivandrum airport afterwards, I noticed that there was complete Peace, “the peace which surpasses all understanding” as Adyashanti puts it. Thoughts would still arise and pass, but ‘witnessing’ – in the most engaged way – would simply perceive them, without interfering. It was a simple seeing, no more no less. I realised that you don’t actually need detachment when Bhakti has taken over. Love ‘becomes’ (so-to-speak) the only thing which makes sense. And the stunning thing is, it doesn’t even need to make sense. 

To discover more about the incredible global impacts of what Amma is doing, check out :-

Humanitarian

“Those who know the Self are always compassionate. They wish to see society thrive in peace and harmony. 

Love is the very foundation, beauty and fulfilment of life. If we dive deep enough into ourselves, we will find that the one thread of universal love ties all beings together.

As this awareness dawns within us, peace alone will reign.” ~ Amma

Here is the link to book online private sessions and please note that the usual schedule is now back on :-

Please do not contact me regarding scheduling, rearranging or cancelling : instead, utilise the email you receive from Calendly for this purpose. It could end up in your spam, so please check.

NB: lateness, no-showing or cancelling / rearranging less than 24 hrs in advance of the session time, will result in you being charged in full.

Looking forward to seeing you again 🙂 🙂 🙂 

Love,

xDaisy

Feb 4

Update :-) :-) :-) 

Hello once again from Amma’s ashram 🙂

How are you? 

I am sorry it has taken this long to get back to you: I have been completely locked out of my Yahoo email account, due to a tricky tech problem. However, due to the power of Grace, the 1000 Names and a very willing Sevite here in the ashram, the seemingly impossible was made possible 🙂 

I am returning to London on the 12th April, hoping then to be able to give in-person sessions. This is a dream of mine 🙂 Another is an in-person retreat in Portugal in October with Chetana Thornton 🙂 So I will keep you updated and send invites as that unfolds. 

From soon-ish (and that’s a big ‘ish’, as everything in India seems to take about half a day to accomplish – lol!) until mid-April, I will make sessions available via Zoom as usual. There will be more limited availability. However, I plan to give a session each day – meaning to include the weekend. This will be very good news for some of you 🙂 I will write again once I have sorted the tech aspects of the changes and etc.: I am looking forward to being with you again 🙂 

I would like to leave you with just a few insights from my time here in Amritapuri – briefly, as I am cooked! A combination of an incredible Darshan with Amma last night, intense seva (selfless service), deep sadhana (spiritual practices) and lack of sleep. I feel it’s a thrillingly relentless schedule of Divinity in Amma’s physical presence. Definitely for those born to be wild 🙂 Actually, Amma apparently once said that while the Guru lives, their organisation is like a jungle; when they die, it’s like an office. I am so happy and fulfilled to be in the jungle!

In her comments after the satsang given on the 29th January, Amma said, “The most effective way to eliminate the ego is to have a roommate with a bigger ego.” LOL! How true… She added, in a more general sense, that only by facing the challenges of life will we be able to transcend the ego. 

An early Amma devotee named Kusuma, witnessed Amma healing a man named Dattan of King Leprosy (I have seen the footage of this, in which Amma actually licks his sores with her tongue). She asked Amma how she could stand it – when every other person was moving away from Dattan..? Amma replied that the real miracle is that she (Kusuma) herself has the same power inside her, but she doesn’t know it.

Love is the answer,

xDaisy

May 30

Free Online Group Healing : this Wednesday :-) 

Hello 🙂

How are you?

Have you noticed there is a vast feeling of space everywhere, at all times and in all situations..? It is a grand Silence, relatable to the feeling of walking into a cathedral or huge art-deco ballroom. It is both ‘inside’ and ‘outside’. It’s as if Eternity is rising to greet the mind with a welcoming happy glance. Often the mind says, No [insert excuses], which is fine and the vast space remains totally undisturbed. There is something beautifully non-negotiable about it…we just cannot bargain with what is. What is, is never part of that game: the game of being “in business with life” as Tony Parsons has so wonderfully described it. That belongs to a completely different landscape, a level upon which the real doesn’t dance its dance. The real can easily disguise itself inside one of the dancers, but it does not itself devote to that kind of manipulation. All forcing, beguiling and making deals ends with the dawning of unconditional Love, which is perhaps the culmination of this vast space. 

It’s a funny thing that the unreal never is or was real, so why do we all pretend for so many painful years that it is? Eventually of course, death comes and immediately exposes the mythology upon which we have laid our fantasies; what we may even have termed “our lives”. Maybe all the while, Divinity is asking, hinting, “Why wait?” The freedom we crave is fully available right now. And only, ever and always now.

Somehow, I am reminded here of something Amma once said :-

“When there is true Love, anything is effortless”

Like almost everything Amma says, the sheer simplicity of it is sort-of finalising: it has a finality to it, daring the ego to stop…..dead………..check-mate.

If you would like to attend the next Free Online Group Healing, it is happening this Wednesday 1st June @ 1pm GMT. NB: please attend only if you can remain on Zoom for the duration (1hr). Here is the link you need for booking :-

Please note that you need to pre-book. You can also book as many Groups as you like in advance. 

For Private Sessions with me, here is the link. You will receive an email (or text if you request this when booking) with which you can rearrange or cancel your session up to 24hrs before the start time, if you wish :- 

I request that you never contact me about rearranging, cancelling or scheduling : instead, simply utilise the email sent to you by Calendly for this very purpose. It may end up in your spam / junk box, so please check.

Please also note that lateness, no-showing, cancelling / rearranging less than 24 hrs in advance of the session time will result in you being charged in full for that session. Thank you 🙂 

Lastly today, you might enjoy this track from Massive Attack. It is one of those songs which everyone in my generation in England would have at least heard (if not, partially grown up on) during their teenage years. Aside from a multiverse of enthused comments I could make about it, I will say that there is something wonderfully wistful about it… And the timbre of the aural landscape gives the chance for expanse, opening, relaxation. Enjoy 🙂 

Love,

xDaisy