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🕉 In This Very Moment 🕉

Hello 🙂 

“Will it be possible to see our image in a mirror completely covered with dust? Wipe away the dust particles and clean the mirror, then look and definitely you will see. Our true face is God. Clean away the impurities of the mind through spiritual practices and it will be revealed to you.” ~ Amma 

Please note : I am offering sessions as usual on the weekdays I am at home during the period of Europe Tour.

Here’s a little pre-Tour story for you 🙂 I went to a drum’n’bass rave recently, and my friend was late, so I went to the bar to order a drink. As soon as I turned around, I saw someone I knew 🙂 Michael is a guy I have known within almost all my communities for many years. We immediately found ourselves talking about Amma. He revealed that he had actually met Amma on Her first ever trip to London, in the late 1980s, with only about 50 other people there! Wow… He didn’t actually know Amma was doing a Tour of Europe now, but had been keeping some dates aside in his calendar from 20th – 22nd Nov, without knowing why. He was amazed to find out that those are the exact dates Amma will be here and now he is coming! She gathers us from all places into Her lap.  

The next Free Online Group Healing is Friday 28th November @ 1pm London time. If you feel drawn to do so, please let your friends / fam / etc. know by sharing this link with them. Please book your place if you can remain on Zoom for the duration (1hr) in a quiet space free from distractions. Thank you🙏 

I can honestly say that being with Amma in Switzerland was the most incredible Europe Tour stop so far in my life, aside from when I actually met Amma for the first time. Here are two stories which may be able to convey a little of that magic :-  

I got to Winterthur the night before the start of Tour and settled into my hotel briefly, before receiving messages and calls from friends telling me to come to the program hall. I was thinking about going anyway to offer seva for set-up, but didn’t realise Amma was in fact attending! When I arrived at the entrance to the hall, the carpet had been laid out for Amma. Hardly any of us were there – probably 30 people. We began chanting “Om Amriteswaryai Namaha” in unison. Suddenly, Amma’s car appeared and Amma got out. When I beheld Amma’s face for the first time, I literally raised my hands to my own face in shock : it was like getting a Love-shock. It felt as if I had never seen Amma before. I began to go into ecstasy… As we sat for meditation inside the dining hall, Amma was in a playful mood and so young – like a child. She was making jokes and beaming at us all. The whole vibe was utterly magical… At this point, the place began to fill up with volunteer Tour Staff, plus a few more of us who had heard the call. During the MA-OM part of the White Flowers Meditation, everything just fell away… Me and everything else was gone. In place of it, there arose Peace, as if for the first time. For a long time, I had no thoughts – they just stopped – and no anything else either. When this spontaneously happens (which is usually in Amma’s physical presence), I realise that absolutely nothing I take as real is actually real. I can see everything with a true perspective. What arises from that is profound Love for everyone… All the people I was arguing with in my head, I loved all of them, I just loved all of them. All the dramas in my life (in my mind really) vanished. Cessation. And the feeling of being absolutely focused in the present moment, yet without efforting or forcing, was so deeply fulfilling and completing… There was only Now. Genuine, sweet, open, present. I knew, without mental knowing yet from within, that there is nothing outside of this. There is nothing real outside of such purity. I am crying writing about this. 

For online private sessions, book here (NB : ‘Schedule’ button must be pressed after payment, or the booking is not accepted and money returned):-

Please do not contact me regarding scheduling, rearranging or cancelling. Instead, please utilise the email you receive from Calendly for this. It can end up in your junk mail, so please check. (NB: lateness, no-showing, cancelling or rescheduling less than 24 hrs in advance of the session time will result in you being charged in full.) 

The next story reveals the sheer intensity that we can sometimes go through on Tour, plus the unimaginably perfect timing and Divine intentionality of all of it. On the first day of the program, I was talking with one of you in the main hall as you cried about your situation of single motherhood. It was heartbreaking. And yet you were so strong that it was palpable. Next, another of you approached me and we had a conversation. All-of-a-sudden in the middle of it, someone was hugging me from the other side. Before I knew, I saw it was the number one person I was extremely anxious and vulnerable about, plus had had 0% contact with for many long months. I had no idea he would be there. Despite all of this, we could not stop hugging once we embraced. In that holding, he said to me, “It’s so good to see you, oh my god.” Those words and the rare warmth between us are both things I had entirely lost hope of ever feeling again. I had had to let this person go so completely, not once but again and again and again. The felt sense of this hug was so wonderful…yet ordinary, relieving and everything else all-at-once. His action was brave, kind and gentlemanly. I was also very pleased that the friend I was talking to beforehand was there, because this seemed to facilitate such an unexpected reconnection. My entire body was softly shaking. At that exact moment, another of you called on the phone. I knew it was about something extremely serious, so I answered. I was there for the shock of grief for you, honestly just hoping I was doing a good enough job still shaking. After the call, I got into the darshan line, since earlier I had been handed a token by a friend-of-a-friend (such Grace!!), and decided to take another friend’s picture for photo-darshan (due to the incredibly rough time she is having at the moment). In the queue, I could only try to process everything as best I could! I was guided from somewhere, “Just keep doing your mantra.” As I entered the stage and beheld Amma, the sheer joy of seeing Her face suddenly brought me to my knees in tears. I could only bow down in reverence to such awe-inspiring beauty. When it was my turn, Amma blessed each person in the photo very carefully with sandalwood paste. She then pulled me in for the hug, chanting in my ear very intensely. Suddenly, towards the end of the darshan, Amma changed the words She was chanting. I knew immediately and from a previous experience, that it was a blessing of some kind for the bond between that aforementioned gentleman and I. When She had finished, Amma drew back and in stillness we stared into one another’s eyes, for what seemed like an eternity. Amma was smiling so broadly, beaming in fact. Then She said, looking directly into my eyes, “Ok.” It wasn’t a question, it was a statement. I felt like She was telling me, “You’re totally fine.” She seemed to communicate just through one word and one look, that I can in fact handle the chaotic challenges I think I can’t. Honestly, that reminder changed everything. 

On top of all of this, that particular date, exact place and the fact I was with Amma was incredibly significant. In identical circumstances six years earlier, Amma and I had had a Q&A during darshan which was the most significant I have ever had with Her in my life. The timing and synchronicity were spell-binding…it felt as though everything had come full-circle and healed. How transformed I am from the person I was back then… Following my darshan, I sat on stage with Amma for about 2 hours, again with the inner guidance to keep doing my mantra. I believe Amma was still working on the friend in the photo and on me as well. The stage with Amma always feels to me like the centre of the universe. The whole of life is there. 

Love,

xDaisy 

Amma’s Home 

Hello 🙂 

The next Free Online Group Healing is this Friday 13th June @ 1pm London time. If you feel drawn to do so, please let your friends / fam / etc. know by sharing this link with them. Please note that I will be in Amritapuri by then, so connectivity could be interrupted. However, the healing and benefits will not be interrupted (details about my visit are below). 

Please book your place if you can remain on Zoom for the duration (1hr) in a quiet space free from distractions. Thank you 🙏 

Some of you may have been wondering why you cannot find a session on my Calendly schedule anytime soon. It is because I have been in Cornwall with my family and am about to embark on a journey to Amritapuri. I’m really sorry that I haven’t let you know sooner.There are times when Amma calls us to Her suddenly and this is one of those times. I really wanted to explain, but simply haven’t had the chance to sit down properly and write until now. It was originally my plan to go to the ashram further down the line (like mid-July / August, not close to the Cornwall holiday), yet the Divine had other plans. I offer you my apologies for the abruptness of this announcement. 

I will be away 12th June – 17th July. I will not be offering individual sessions while in the ashram. However, the Free Online Groups Healings will continue – and from Amma’s direct physical presence 🙂 

There is a magical bodyworker available in London at my local yoga space, Samya Studios (in Islington) : Diana De Leon. Not only is her / their massage the greatest, but it is their compassionate, warm attitude and genuine comprehension of the human condition, which make every treatment so deep :- 

https://samyastudios.com/schedule

🕉 Om Amriteswaryai Namah 🕉 

“The current situation the world is facing is not under our control. But there is one thing we can always keep in check – our mental attitude. Let us be strong and optimistic. To do this, we should focus on the Eternal. We should hold tightly to the feet of Paramatma. This steadfast faith and focus on the Paramatma can lift us beyond all kinds of limitations.” 

*****(((Amma)))***** 

Love,

xDaisy 

May all beings benefit from your sincerity 

Hello 🙂 

The next Free Online Group Healing is this Friday 18th April@ 1pm London time. If you feel drawn to do so, please let your friends / fam / etc. know by sharing this link with them. 

Please book your place if you can remain on Zoom for the duration (1hr) in a quiet space free from distractions. Thank you 🙏 

I received very beautiful messages from a number of you regarding the last Group Healing – thank you – and wanted to share this one : “Dearest Daisy, I’m writing to thank you for the beautiful and deep healing you held space for this past Friday. By the afternoon, I couldn’t function and had to nap. The next day, I was clear and energized. A pattern that was taxing and tiring my system was released. I awoke on Saturday feeling grounded, calm, empowered, confident. And there was so much Peace! Sincere thanks for all you give and have given to our community and to me personally. With Love ❤️”

I have space where I am living in London to treat you in-person. Also, if you live within tube Zones 1 or 2, I can come to you if you prefer that. Please contact me via regular text, WhatsApp, Telegram or email to arrange this.

Please pay before the session via bank transfer, cash or PayPal – thank you. NB: lateness, no-showing, cancelling or rescheduling less than 24 hrs in advance of the session time will result in you being charged in full. 

For online private sessions, book here (NB : ‘Schedule’ button must be pressed after payment, or the booking is not accepted and money returned):-

Please do not contact me regarding scheduling, rearranging or cancelling. Instead, please utilise the email you receive from Calendly for this. It can end up in your junk mail, so please check.

NB: lateness, no-showing, cancelling or rescheduling less than 24 hrs in advance of the session time will result in you being charged in full.

I would like to acknowledge the life and death of my father, Roger Nokes, as the 14th anniversary is tomorrow. It is a vulnerable moment for me, because of our unique closeness, and one which I find tougher being single. Here is a photo of Dad holding me with love :-

I re-watched ‘Amma’s Way’ and it had such a profound impact on me that I thought I would re-encourage you to see it. It is available to rent / buy on YouTube, Amazon Prime and Apple TV. Here is the trailer :- 

Love,

xDaisy 

Paramatman Dayz

Hello 🙂 

I thought I would try to share with you all, some of the Light from this evening with Mother Meera here in London 🙂 Is it coming through..? I hope so 🙂 Many of you will have been to see this Saint before I think. My experience this time was that Mother Meera was able to open a space in which my mind kept stopping. It was quite amazing… As she stared into each of our eyes (this time at some distance, because the format has changed), everything I was so sure about beforehand simply vanished. 

One moment I was in a mind-set, in the literal sense, and the next there was nothing there – only Light. The Vortex teachers say that Mother Meera is able to bring down from above and channel into us all Paramatman Light, which is the highest form of energy apparently. As her eyes turned, it was as if my being would respond accordingly : when her eyes were ‘away’ I experienced Silence and mind-chatter would come and go, sometimes intensely, sometimes not. But when her gaze turned, even a little in my direction, all of that would simply stop. It was as if it had never existed. There was only what could be described as the Beyond… 

Was it Bliss? Or fulfilment-emptiness-still-point-Silence-Grace? Naming it didn’t occur in those moments. Perhaps what she was doing was also a beautiful demonstration by the Divine of how we are all the time being moved by Divinity. It is almost like someone has a remote control and switches it on and off : now the mind is on, now it is off. Of course I do not believe at all that there is a separated special being up there beyond the clouds, controlling me or anyone else. What I mean is that I felt like Divinity was cheekily saying, “Look what I can do!”, and played a game like a child – just for fun, just for the pure joy of it 🙂 And in that pure innocence, It happened to break my mind. 

As I say, it was like one moment everything seemed real, but the next all of that vanished – just disappeared! As this continued, yet ever fresh and natural, a situation about which I had felt quite some degree of certainty, arose in my thoughts. But instantly it became almost…silly – lol! And this is a very serious situation I’m referring to! In that Light, in that density of Silence, which seemed to fill the room and go beyond the walls too and was penetrating absolutely everything, although the serious situation existed – it was resting now. Resting inside a context. It was being held. But not held by someone or something. It was being held but not by anyone or anything. The mind was very very spacious – it still is in fact, even after London public transport and the streets of Tower Hamlets 😉 The sense of expansiveness is amazing……… 

In that expanse of the indescribable, the serious situation discovered its own nature. There was simultaneously a deep sense of impersonality to it, yet not at all in a cold way and not in a detached way. Intimacy was still present and freed from any feeling of entanglement / merging / stickiness. 

Now sitting here writing to you, I feel like a blank sheet of paper. Unspoilt by the mind, untainted by the stain of harsh emotion. I feel I am nothing and I also feel at the same time that I am everything. My heart is beating, my lungs are breathing…there is no noisiness inside or outside. There is no trying or not trying. There is a kind of profound Stillness, yet it is subtle. 

The next Free Online Group Healing is this Friday 30th August @ 1pm London time. If you feel drawn to do so, please let your friends / fam / etc. know by sharing this link with them. 

Please book your place if you can remain on Zoom for the duration (1hr) in a quiet space free from distractions. Thank you 🙏

Another quick reminder just in case – sorry if this is annoying – from the last newsletter, that my fees have changed and are as follows :-

Online private session = £95

In-person session = £115

Online Group Healing = still free 

I am currently in London offering in-person sessions and will come to you if you live within tube Zones 1 or 2. Please contact me via regular text, WhatsApp or Telegram to arrange this (please pay before the beginning of the session via bank transfer, cash or PayPal). NB: lateness, no-showing or cancelling / rearranging less than 24 hrs in advance of the session time, will result in you being charged in full. 

Alternatively, here is the link to book online private sessions :-

Please do not contact me regarding scheduling, rearranging or cancelling : instead, utilise the email you receive from Calendly for this purpose. It could end up in your spam, so please check.

NB: lateness, no-showing or cancelling / rearranging less than 24 hrs in advance of the session time, will result in you being charged in full.

Love,

xDaisy

Free Online Group Healing : this Wed 30th Nov

Hello 🙂

If you would like to attend the next Free Online Group Healing, it is this Wed 30th Nov @ 1pm GMT. NB: please attend only if you can remain on Zoom for the duration (1hr). Here is the link you need for booking :-

Please note that you need to pre-book. You can also book as many Groups as you like in advance. 

For Private Sessions here is the link. You will receive an email (or text if you request this when booking) with which you can rearrange or cancel up to 24hrs before the start time :- 

Please do not contact me regarding scheduling, rearranging or cancelling : instead, utilise the email you receive from Calendly for this purpose. It could end up in your spam, so please check.

NB: lateness, no-showing or cancelling / rearranging less than 24 hrs in advance of the session time, will result in you being charged in full.

I will be reunited – finally – with my Guru in person after 3 long years 🙂 I am going to India from the 29th Dec – 9th Feb. Please note, I will not be giving sessions or Groups during that period. Most of all though, I want to welcome you to meet / re-encounter Amma if you would like to. I would be happy to see you in Amritapuri 🙂 🙂 🙂 

I would like to draw your attention to a podcast series from a member of this community, Max Buchmann. Check out ‘Heart of a King’ on Apple podcasts (and etc.). In particular, I recommend episode 15 although all of them are excellent. I feel the need for men’s inner work as a strong calling from our world today and I love Max’s approach and the light he brings. I was messaging with him recently because I was thinking about the true masculine and true feminine. Max came up with a succinct description which really encapsulated it :-

True masculine = I am loving, grounded presence

True feminine = life (without the feminine there would be no life and she makes everything truly come alive), openness, expression, connection, flow

By the way, it dawned on me recently to explain something important. I used to think that we weren’t allowed to be friends with our clients – as in the world of psychotherapy, for example. But I wrote to Ric at some point and he said this is not the case. I apologise if I gave anyone the aforementioned impression; it was because I didn’t know. I was once told by a gifted psychic and healer (Chetana Thornton) that it is part of my dharma to create community. So I have been pondering ways to expand upon the Group Healings. Perhaps creating get-togethers in person for anyone who would like that. At the moment, my housing situation won’t support it, but when I get back from India it will be more plausible. It is so enriching to come together as sangha and be in the company of like-hearted souls 🙂 🙂 🙂 

I hope this email finds you well and enjoying your weekend 🙂

Love,

xDaisy 

Free Online Group Healing Tomorrow

Hello 🙂

How are you my lovelies? I hope this email finds you well and diving deep into your path in this delicious living presence. 

The next Free Online Group Healing is tomorrow 20th October @ 1pm BST. NB: please attend only if you can remain on Zoom for the duration (1hr). Here is the link you need for booking :-

Please note: you need to pre-book, so as not to get locked out on the day.

For Private Sessions, you will receive an email (or text if you requested this when booking) with which you can rearrange your session if you wish. THAT EMAIL MAY GO TO YOUR JUNK – so please check. Here is the link to book Private Sessions:-

Yesterday, I completed my third repeat of the Vortex Healing class Deepening in Divinity. Wow……. There are really no words at this point. And suffice to say I am also recovering from a Divine battering – lol! But I would like to share what I learned from a few of the class discussions. 

If we grow up with parents who we don’t trust, things can go either way as an adult. On the one hand, some people will extend that not trusting to the Divine as well. This is maybe the most common way for things to go. But other people with this same childhood experience, will only trust the Divine and nothing else. Both of these are problematic in their own ways. 

To give a little more colour to what I mean by this, I would like to relay another absolutely beautiful discussion, between Ric Weinman and a student in the class. The student was sharing how deeply grateful she feels for her husband, since he has been able to give her what her Dad didn’t – namely that he is reliable, supportive and not abandoning of her. Ric said that this is really good karma, because the tendency from conditioning would have been to repeat the cycle. It was what he went on to say, though, which also struck me. He said that there tends to be this idea in awakening paths / circles that one should only get love from the Divine alone. This can set up a big problem – a wall – and the person actually blocks love (the love which flows out and in naturally – into and out of everything and everyone). I have definitely seen this happen within the communities I am part of. I always felt confused by this kind of avoidant and defensive way of being, too often justified with a spiritual quote or two. It is not my way nor how I feel, so it was certainly affirming to hear this wisdom from a spiritual guide whom I greatly respect. I often feel that Ric Weinman has a way of putting into words things which I deeply feel but would struggle to clearly articulate. 

On the other hand (just in case any of you are getting too comfortable ;-), what can also happen is lots of attachment and aversion in relationships. And this is where the person is playing out neediness, co-dependency and loneliness etc., which will tend to create clinging or toxicity or mistakenly searching for love as only ‘coming from’ relationships. 

I also felt inspired to share with you these beautiful words from Amma :-

“Patience is a great asset. Patience is the antibiotic that destroys the germs of bad feelings like anger. Patience helps us to have a proper perspective of the thoughts that we entertain. If a person commits a mistake, we should not abhor the person but the mistake. Even if we have to punish a person, deep within ourselves we should have love towards him” ~ Amma

Looking forward to seeing you in the Group if you can make it 🙂

Love,

xDaisy

Free Online Group Healing: Inner Reconnection

Hello 🙂

I am offering a Free Online Group Healing this Thursday 23rd April at 1pm GMT. We will be focussing on Inner Reconnection: on contacting and relaxing into that inner sanctuary that can weather any storm without moving and without resisting. When we come into ourselves as we truly are, all anxiety, stress and strain subsides and we recognise the Love and beauty inside. In this way our eyes are opened to the beauty all around us, in each other, in nature and in all of life. This is the return to innocence that the heart both longs for and is simultaneously, yet is oftentimes hidden from feeling or view. I welcome you to de-frag, deepen and cast away any doubt in the prevalence of Loving awake presence.

The session will be 1 hour and will include the highest level of Vortex Healing, guided meditation, mantra chanting and the opportunity to be with other like-hearted souls, connecting together.

Quite a few people who were part of the last group session did not appear on Zoom; in that moment I decided to still send them the healing. But this could potentially create a scattered-ness which is difficult for me and for the group, so please be aware of this. I am not telling you off by the way – not my style! However, please only reply this time if you can actively attend – thank you. If you would like to receive and can do so on Zoom for the duration, please message or email me and I will send the link and password for this group healing session.

Love,

xDaisy

Exciting dates for your diary!

Hello,

A quick review today, as I have been asked to run a stall for Amma at the Mind Body Spirit fair in Colchester. There are some exciting spiritual dates for your diary, which I wanted to make you aware of.  Marlies Cocheret is coming to London. She is a teacher from Adyashanti and I have thoroughly enjoyed time with her. She is coming in April and here is the link:-

http://www.marliescocheret.com/calendar-events.html

There is also an event with Mooji coming up in London, in March. This will sell out quickly, so do check this link asap:-

http://www.mooji.org/schedule.html

For those of you who have done some Vortex classes, I would like to remind you about meditating with the energy. I use Presence as a meditation often and find it gorgeous…It’s like falling and falling and falling deeper into..well..presence (for want of a better word!). You can use any Vortex energy as a meditation. Simply just sit for a few moments, and then channel an energy with the intention to meditate in it. It’s great for when you only have 10 minutes or so free.

I hope this email finds you well, and diving into yourSelf more and more each day…

Lots of Love,

xDaisy