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Free Online Group Healing : tomorrow + EarthShift + Awakening to Divinity (pt. 3)

Hello 🙂

If you would like to attend the next Free Online Group Healing, it is tomorrow Wed 16th Nov @ 1pm GMT. NB: please attend only if you can remain on Zoom for the duration (1hr). Here is the link you need for booking :-

Please note that you need to pre-book. You can also book as many Groups as you like in advance. 

For Private Sessions here is the link. You will receive an email (or text if you request this when booking) with which you can rearrange or cancel up to 24hrs before the start time :- 

Please do not contact me regarding scheduling, rearranging or cancelling : instead, utilise the email you receive from Calendly for this purpose. It could end up in your spam, so please check.

NB: lateness, no-showing or cancelling / rearranging less than 24 hrs in advance of the session time, will result in you being charged in full.

As some of you know, this past weekend we gathered as a community in Vortex (around 583 of us) to facilitate the latest EarthShift 🙂 🙂 🙂 First, I’d like to offer a few experiences in this EarthShift, before explaining the technicalities of what we did. This one was much more intense and deep than the last one in April, and others I have spoken with also share this sense. The essence and presence of the Angels with us, to facilitate things, was particularly palpable this time too. At one point, I simply broke down in tears because of the sheer sense of Divinity which they bring to us here on earth. As one Angel entered my spine, I felt this Love…..hope……and the strong sense that everything will be ok – even more than that, that everything IS already ok, well and safe. It’s that point at which one sees very clearly this truth, Reality.

I like it when ‘bystanders’ make a passing comment about what is happening in the EarthShift. You just stand there and feel – YES! What I mean by this is that, in the middle of the EarthShift on Saturday night, I went out to a club to see my friend DJ, as he had put me on the guest-list. The atmosphere there was amazing…so light, free and chilled. Quite something when you consider it is a club in central London full of high-powered creatives in the commercial industries. A man I met said to me at one point, “I don’t know what it is, but everyone is so relaxed tonight.” I thought to myself, “I do!!” – LOL 🙂 🙂 🙂 I think verbally I probably said, “Yes”, or something like that. Yet I was struck with the profound sensation that he was picking up on what we had done (and were still doing) in the EarthShift. I also noticed a marked difference in my client sessions the day after we completed the Shift: an incredible Silence kept spontaneously arising within the sessions (especially with those who were actually in the class) and everything I cleared in the person went at such a rate! I would say at least twice as quickly as usual 🙂 

Here is what Ric Weinman wrote about this event beforehand: “I bumped up against something dark, and I tracked it to what seemed like some kind of consciousness program designed to resist the light. Further investigation showed me that a powerful interdimensional being (between the 7th & 8th dimension), had placed this consciousness program in all humans, and as a species we have carried this for some 80,000 years. More specifically, the program amplifies our identification with separateness, amplifies our sense of neediness and fear, and amplifies our negativity in general. All in all, it acts as a resistance to heart and to light.  

     These programs are not carried incarnationally; they need to be placed in babies after they are born. I have already wrapped this being in wizard thread so as to block its ability to continue to do this. But the programs already placed in all living humans are still active. The first day of the Earthshift will be focused on releasing those programs in all of humanity.  

     In tracking all this, I discovered that there were about 25 other, similar, interdimensional beings that in various different ways were supporting human negativity. With wizard thread, I have already neutralized their ability to continue to do so.  But one of them has also placed some kind of program into all human psyches. This program has more to do with creating distrust, which feeds isolation and conflict. The second day of the Earthshift will be focused on releasing this program. In addition, we will also create a protection field around humanity to prevent further implants of these kinds of programs from these kinds of beings.”

To continue with the final installment of the recent Awakening to Divinity class: there are 3 major phases to this aspect of awakening, sub-phases within those and then more sub-phases within those. Therefore, it is important to note that the total embodiment of Awakening to Divinity is probably a life’s work. This also gives a nod to the sheer depth of Ramana Maharshi’s evolution. In the embodiment process, what happens is that Divinity comes into awareness more and more and more…It takes over awareness gradually. 

Another interesting thing on the subject of Neediness (which is at the core of all human suffering), is that it doesn’t work to suppress or avoid it. In fact, the avoidance of Neediness often leads into addiction. Not only the obvious ones either, but even things like sports, “keeping busy” all the time, etc., because we just don’t want to feel that. The way through it, is to face it, get your awareness into it and clear it. 

The whole of creation is Divinity. It’s like Divinity writes this whole story, and then plays all the parts – using Method Acting. A terrible thing happening inside – or even in life – is Divinity pretending not to be Divinity. Versus the Divinity in the heart, which is Divinity not pretending, but simply being Itself. 

In Vortex Healing awakening classes, when we meditate / receive transmissions, it’s not that we are ‘trying to become One’. We already are One. The meditations are more like sign-posts saying, “This way.”

For those of you yet to visit Italy, I thought I would include this little entry from my diary in Sardinia, where I was taking this Awakening to Divinity class:-

“Italians always speak with their hands, as well as with their voice. You can tell what everyone means, even with a very basic grasp of the language. But it’s that warmth……that endless, effulgent feelingness which seems only to be waiting for a chance to burst forth. I’m not talking about in big things; it’s the small ways of humanness which make life here so pleasant, calming and inviting.”

Anything that we struggle with just becomes our struggle. And, in a nutshell, embodying awakeness / Divinity is the only true way through that. Mostly, this is because what we perceive as (and from) awakeness / Divinity, is perceived as what it really is.

For those of you who can get to Quinstel, check out the Grace Room. Wow…….. 

If anyone would like to meet or visit Amma, I am going to India from 29th Dec – 9th Feb 🙂 It would be lovely to see you there in Amritapuri, if you are feeling called 🙂 Please note that I will not be giving any sessions during those 6 weeks, but will be available via WhatsApp and Telegram. Although, the ashram has no Wifi so my availability for messaging will be limited. 

If none of this email resonated for you, let me leave you with this. One way of thinking about Divinity is that it is the face of Mystery…



Free Online Group Healing Tomorrow

Hello 🙂

How are you my lovelies? I hope this email finds you well and diving deep into your path in this delicious living presence. 

The next Free Online Group Healing is tomorrow 20th October @ 1pm BST. NB: please attend only if you can remain on Zoom for the duration (1hr). Here is the link you need for booking :-

Please note: you need to pre-book, so as not to get locked out on the day.

For Private Sessions, you will receive an email (or text if you requested this when booking) with which you can rearrange your session if you wish. THAT EMAIL MAY GO TO YOUR JUNK – so please check. Here is the link to book Private Sessions:-

Yesterday, I completed my third repeat of the Vortex Healing class Deepening in Divinity. Wow……. There are really no words at this point. And suffice to say I am also recovering from a Divine battering – lol! But I would like to share what I learned from a few of the class discussions. 

If we grow up with parents who we don’t trust, things can go either way as an adult. On the one hand, some people will extend that not trusting to the Divine as well. This is maybe the most common way for things to go. But other people with this same childhood experience, will only trust the Divine and nothing else. Both of these are problematic in their own ways. 

To give a little more colour to what I mean by this, I would like to relay another absolutely beautiful discussion, between Ric Weinman and a student in the class. The student was sharing how deeply grateful she feels for her husband, since he has been able to give her what her Dad didn’t – namely that he is reliable, supportive and not abandoning of her. Ric said that this is really good karma, because the tendency from conditioning would have been to repeat the cycle. It was what he went on to say, though, which also struck me. He said that there tends to be this idea in awakening paths / circles that one should only get love from the Divine alone. This can set up a big problem – a wall – and the person actually blocks love (the love which flows out and in naturally – into and out of everything and everyone). I have definitely seen this happen within the communities I am part of. I always felt confused by this kind of avoidant and defensive way of being, too often justified with a spiritual quote or two. It is not my way nor how I feel, so it was certainly affirming to hear this wisdom from a spiritual guide whom I greatly respect. I often feel that Ric Weinman has a way of putting into words things which I deeply feel but would struggle to clearly articulate. 

On the other hand (just in case any of you are getting too comfortable ;-), what can also happen is lots of attachment and aversion in relationships. And this is where the person is playing out neediness, co-dependency and loneliness etc., which will tend to create clinging or toxicity or mistakenly searching for love as only ‘coming from’ relationships. 

I also felt inspired to share with you these beautiful words from Amma :-

“Patience is a great asset. Patience is the antibiotic that destroys the germs of bad feelings like anger. Patience helps us to have a proper perspective of the thoughts that we entertain. If a person commits a mistake, we should not abhor the person but the mistake. Even if we have to punish a person, deep within ourselves we should have love towards him” ~ Amma

Looking forward to seeing you in the Group if you can make it 🙂



Bank Holiday Sale! Don’t miss these offers……..

Hello 🙂
From tomorrow (Friday)
until Monday, all treatments are £50!
This excludes Indian Head Massage,
which is ONLY £20. If you
pay upfront for the 4 for 3 offer,
you only pay £160 TOTAL!
After Monday, prices will go
back to normal, so do take
advantage of this offer.
This week, I have been contemplating
neediness and how it acts as
a repellent.
If you feel like your friends are
evading you, “people aren’t
there for you”, you’re upset
at a public gathering and
wonder why no-one wants
to hear about it, you call
all your friends and no-one
calls you back, your “needs
aren’t being met” etc. etc….
Consider for a minute where
you are coming from. If
you’re coming from a
space of neediness (you
know, that sticky kind
of slighty victimy stuff) –

that is more often than not

why the world isn’t answering.

You are not
wrong or bad or to blame
and we have all felt like
this (why do you think I can
write about it..;-)
But nevertheless,
it is my observation that this
energy of need is like a
natural people-repellent.
The answer is to deal with
that place of need – often
co-dependency, or the
deeper isolation which
triggers that, or insecurity
/shyness – and to get
help in that when appropriate.
Loosely connected to that
is this from Adyshanti, entitled
“What do you REALLY want?”
If you would like to see the
whole video, email me and I
will put it on Dropbox, as with the
meditation before.
Don’t forget the deal,