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Sep 18

Free Online Group Healing : tomorrow 19th Sept 

🕉 Om Amriteswaryai Namah 🕉  “The Guru is beyond the body; he is beyond being human. He is the embodiment of pure consciousness. In reality, he is formless and nameless. There is no person there. Only nothingness. How can the formless, nameless Guru snatch anything from you? How can he control you? He simply is, and you benefit from his presence. If you really want to use the Guru, then surrender to your own Self. Your Self is the same as the Guru’s Self” ~ Amma

The next Free Online Group Healing is tomorrow 19th Sept @ 1pm London time. If you feel drawn to do so, please let your friends / fam / etc. know by sharing this link with them (NB: these Groups are fortnightly). Please book your place if you can remain on Zoom for the duration (1hr) in a quiet space free from distractions. Thank you 🙏 

I have had the great fortune to be in several group fields recently and to embody and also learn a huge amount. This was from Adyashanti giving his finale event, the EarthWorks V in-person class with Anthony Gorman and an Embodiment class taught by Ric Weinman. Right now there is an extraordinary sense of Grace, Love and gratitude, in addition to a clear feeling of embodiment. Yet integrating all of this leaves me rather speechless to explain it – lol! Perhaps that’s the point 😉 

This appeared in the sky above us over Hyde Park, during a pivotal moment in conversation with friends on the evening the EarthWorks V class finished :-  

There are a few things from that very recent Embodiment class, however, which I would like to share. There were 157 of us present. It was beautiful to hear Ric reading from Adyashanti’s book ‘Falling Into Grace’, part of which contained fascinating notes on the end of suffering. The gist of this bit I feel is crucial to groc. It is essentially that, waking up to the true nature of our being but also waking up to a whole roomful of illusions we carry, is probably going to be the only way to end the suffering we feel. Awakening can be quite disturbing really, because “who wants to find out that everything they felt was real was nothing but a pocketful of dreams..? Who wants to find out that everything they hold onto and cling to is the very reason they suffer..?” 

Adyashanti went on to explain our addiction to approval, power and control, none of which brings an end to suffering – and, in fact, is the actual cause of it. So the truth is that most of us don’t actually want to wake up at all; we don’t want to end our suffering – rather, we want to manage it. We would like to have a little bit less of it, so that we can just go on with our lives as they are – unchanged, the way we want to live them. Hearing Adya’s words reminded me a bit of something Jesus is supposed to have said, written in the Gospel of Thomas : “Seek, and you shall find. But when you find, you will be disturbed. And when you are disturbed, you will marvel. And then you will reign. And after you have reigned, you will rest.” Taken in the correct manner and not by the ego, this statement can be very freeing. The deepest addiction we have is to suffering itself – and this is something we really don’t want to see. “The very thing we want to be without is the thing we’re addicted to.” If we look at this sincerely, it can be revealed that we have no idea how to live without suffering. We don’t know how to interact, what to do with our time and energy or how to be, if we aren’t suffering. 

Here is the link you need for Amma’s Europe Tour :- 

Amma’s Europe Tour 2025

For online private sessions, book here (NB : ‘Schedule’ button must be pressed after payment, or the booking is not accepted and money returned):-

Please do not contact me regarding scheduling, rearranging or cancelling. Instead, please utilise the email you receive from Calendly for this. It can end up in your junk mail, so please check. (NB: lateness, no-showing, cancelling or rescheduling less than 24 hrs in advance of the session time will result in you being charged in full.) 

Love,

xDaisy 

Sep 25

I Am Free We Are All Free 

Hello 🙂 

How are you? 

I am well here in Portugal 🙂 The next Free Online Group Healing is this Friday 27th September – also Amma’s Birthday! – @ 1pm Lisbon / London time. If you feel drawn to do so, please let your friends / fam / etc. know by sharing this link with them. 

Please book your place if you can remain on Zoom for the duration (1hr) in a quiet space free from distractions. Thank you 🙏

Online private sessions continue as usual from here in Portugal :-

Please do not contact me regarding scheduling, rearranging or cancelling : instead, utilise the email you receive from Calendly for this purpose. It could end up in your spam, so please check.

NB: lateness, no-showing or cancelling / rearranging less than 24 hrs in advance of the session time, will result in you being charged in full.

I want to say how much I enjoy acknowledging the creative achievements of my clients 🙂 I consider them immensely brave and risk-taking and I see how daunting it is to enter this world as an artist. I think that’s perhaps having grown up amidst the peaks and troughs of my parents’ careers in the golden age of advertising. To continue in the vein of my last newsletter, I wanted to send you this link to Laxmi Hariharan’s new book [NB: her pen name is different] :- 

https://amzn.eu/d/geGA6Y2

By request from the last Group Healing, I am sharing the awakening which happened this year during The Magical Jewel class :- 

There was a meditation in which Ric Weinman asked the class to “use the world as the mantra”. All-of-a-sudden, for some unknown reason, I recognised immediately what was being pointed to. It was as if whatever Ric was instructing, I was able to sense both what he was talking about and where he was saying it from. So when the aforementioned words were spoken, I burst into tears and my breathing completely changed in seeing this : the world itself IS Divinity. 

Everything began to ‘become’ this beauty…and I couldn’t contain it. My body could not contain the revelation of that because of the depth it reached. Simultaneously, there was a sense of ‘this is the missing piece of the puzzle. This is what I always longed to admit to myself and to surrender to.’ I began more and more to perceive this true beauty and it broke my heart completely… Then the crying and the breathing really exploded even more and my body was breaking apart and melting away into That. I could see that every single thing was as-if being birthed by Divinity as its own Self. There was no longer any subject / object though : it was as if the world was the Divine in a complete and total way. The gratitude to perceive it all and the inherent joy of the world was totally overwhelming……… The beauty was so exquisite that I couldn’t contain in my body what I was feeling and so everything broke, again and again… The insights which were coming in were impossible to record mentally, but it was like a flow throughout the being. When I would pray to Amma, it was like She was melted into the world. 

I was shocked by two things : first of all, how could I have missed this? And secondly, how could I think that anything which had happened was bad or wrong? Then I started to feel this remorse about the things I had said about people or done or thought and I began to say sorry via inner prayer profusely. But when I said sorry, there was this benevolence and Love which met the apologies and were pouring over those “wrongdoings” like a kind of fluid of Love – yet beyond Love. Perhaps it was similar to what Adyashanti calls Redemptive Love. There was this profound sense of redemption of everything I had “done wrong” – and for everyone else too. I couldn’t believe I had ever thought someone had wronged me. That whole sense was completely gone……..and I saw that there was absolutely no truth in it. How foolish I had been not to see that no-one could ever do that and I could never do that. Everything was ‘forgiven’ so-to-speak, and then it was noticed that there was actually an inherent sense of forgiveness in the world itself. The world was forgiving everyone that was doing these things, including even me. And this was the overriding revelation : that the world itself is Divinity. There was no ‘Divine coming into creation’, there were no two different things happening, even though the Divine was birthing the world. At another time, this would have seemed like a paradox, yet there was no sense of paradox. All I could do, was to bow down in front of this beauty… Although there was no subject / object or anything like that, there was a bowing down in true reverence for what was being seen. 

There was an in-loveness with life, yet with everything being the same thing there wasn’t any neediness, attachment or drama. There were also no exceptions being made to this Loving : it was a total and utter thing. It didn’t make exceptions for this person or that person. I was praying, “Let me not forget this. Let me live from this, instead of going back to the old way of acting out and getting into dramas.” I was almost begging, “Let me not forget what I’ve seen. Let me live this now.” Simultaneously, strangely enough, there was such a stillness and a resting and a Silence. It was a recognition of what life actually is and how much I love it. It took me out of this ‘trying to get something from life’ and ending up eventually in despair, which was replaced with, ‘of course I love life!’ There was a distinct returning. It was a return to this absolute love of the world, this total Love…for no reason and with no agenda. From That, naturally arose tender celebration. 

Love,

xDaisy

Sep 9

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Real bliss is within 

Hello 🙂 

“Just as the flower falls away when the fruit takes shape, worldly desires will disappear when detachment ripens. No desire can bind such a person afterwards, whether he lives at home or in the forest. One who has established God-realisation as his goal will not attach any importance to anything else. He has already understood that nothing physical is permanent and that real bliss is within” ~ Amma

Another way of touching on this area, is to perceive – fully, without holding back – that what we want and what we need are rarely related. I’m sorry to break it – if it is news – to you, but it’s true. And yet, in every single moment we are getting exactly what we need. 

The Free Online Group Healings are now weekly. I hope you are as pleased about this as I am 🙂 Other than dates I cannot do, I have begun scheduling these weekly instead of fortnightly. The link below will allow you to book them. The next Free Online Group Healing is Friday 20th September @ 1pm London time. If you feel drawn to do so, please let your friends / fam / etc. know by sharing this link with them. 

Please book your place if you can remain on Zoom for the duration (1hr) in a quiet space free from distractions. Thank you 🙏

I thought I would share some of my notes from Amma’s U.S. Tour with you now. During Oakland program, Amma explained to us in a speech that we must never try to compare ourselves with others. Instead, always see from the perspective of the True Self. 

During the Washington D.C. program, there was a public Q&A and a young woman (probably 20 or thereabouts) asked a beautiful question concerning what to do when, although we do not express anger  or resentful feelings to a person directly, when we walk away from the conversation with them, these are still going on in our mind. Amma said, if we introspect, we will find that the anger we feel towards someone really arises from expectations or from being judgemental. She continued, saying that sadness also gets expressed as anger or as revenge. We do not understand the mental state of the other person. The world is like a mental asylum, with each of us being either crazy or on the verge of being crazy. 

Although a snake may be frozen in ice, if it is left in the sun the ice will melt and the snake will all-of-a-sudden rise up and could bite us. Only by going through the circumstances of life, will we understand what our own latent tendencies are.

If we get into conflict with someone, immediately we should move away from the situation and contemplate – go within. In order to become aware of the gap between our thoughts and actions, we need patience. Amma said that each situation is our Guru, our Teacher. Seeing any person as a mirror for ourself, we will learn a lot. 

Anger is a double-edged sword, with which we get hurt first. Or it could be likened to a hot iron ball : when we throw it at someone, we get hurt first. 

However, if an animal like a deer is eating our vegetable patch, it is no good saying, “My dear, dear, dear deer, please stop eating the vegetables.” Instead, we need to take a stick, wave it at the deer and shoo it away with words. 

The world is like an examination hall. We need to go through many circumstances in life in order to learn all the lessons. Amma said that we may fail when facing a situation, but never give up. 

‘Awareness’ was the only word which Amma used repeatedly in English throughout this Q&A (the rest being in Malayalam as usual), which I found interesting. Amma continued : whatever action we perform, the first 10% is not within our control. But the following 90% is within our control. If through having the proper awareness, we can make the initial action as positive as it can be, then the rest will follow accordingly. In order to develop such awareness, we need to do spiritual practices like meditation or Archana (the 1000 Names) regularly. 

Amma finished by saying to the woman directly, “Whatever your conscience tells you to do, you should do that.” 

I am currently in London offering in-person sessions until the 16th September and will come to you if you live within tube Zones 1 or 2. Please contact me via regular text, WhatsApp or Telegram to arrange this and please pay before the session via bank transfer, cash or PayPal. NB: lateness, no-showing or cancelling / rearranging less than 24 hrs in advance of the session time, will result in you being charged in full. 

Alternatively, here is the link to book online private sessions for whenever you like :-

Please do not contact me regarding scheduling, rearranging or cancelling : instead, utilise the email you receive from Calendly for this purpose. It could end up in your spam, so please check.

NB: lateness, no-showing or cancelling / rearranging less than 24 hrs in advance of the session time, will result in you being charged in full.

Love,

xDaisy

Mar 12

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Breaking Into Bhakti

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I am very well indeed and am now writing to you from London 🙂 

At the end of my stay in Amritapuri, which was filled with peace and happiness this time, I found myself sitting on the floor of the main hall for bhajans. My flight was to leave later on that night, so (in a way) I was saying goodbye to Amma. 

I’m going to try to convey what it feels like to be with this Living Master and perhaps a tiny bit of what She is doing with our paths to God-realisation. It is difficult to do so, partly because you have to have really stayed with Amma for a good amount of time to grok this, and partly because it is so tricky to communicate in words what is totally beyond words. Nevertheless, I feel to try. 

There was a particular bhajan which Amma sang that night which seemed to crack me open completely. I often feel that She takes us from a sort-of habitual mundane emotional state to the uppermost heights of what the passion for Divinity is capable of; and it can happen in a split second when She sings. All She needs is a tiny crack – a hair’s breadth of space – in which to reveal the Great Mystery in all its glory. As I was sitting there singing with everyone, this happened to a whole new degree. Amma leaves the very best til last 😉 

As my heart burst with longing, I started sobbing uncontrollably and there was a surrender which felt almost physical and beyond physicality at the same time, as if my heart opened from the front to the back (spine) and outwards, beyond…….. What I was feeling was a blend of the most immense gratitude, with joy – pure joy – and devotional Love (Bhakti). As my system underwent Amma’s ‘surgery’, I felt the return to Innocence, unconditional Love and the perception (as if for the first time) of what She is doing with us all. I could see in that moment, that Amma is the salvation for the whole of humanity. Ric Weinman once told me that She “has the long-haul job of transforming the heart of humanity” and Adyashanti once created a series about what he describes as ‘Redemptive Love’. It was as if those two insights came alive at once, yet in a brand new way, and then went beyond even that… 

There was this absolutely overwhelming – literally overwhelming – gratitude. It was for all of the above and also for the beyondness of what was being revealed, and yet simultaneously it was uncaused. There was zero sense of specialness, yet a complete sense of being present and available for the transformation happening through this body and heart and through the bodies and hearts of all those around me on that sacred ground. Perhaps it could be said that the small self / me / I suddenly broke open and was consumed by / merged into Divinity / became what it truly had always been. The crying was so intense that I couldn’t contain it in any way. I was floored byTrue Love, fiery devotion (which was also recognised as being choiceless) and the sense of being in the right place at the right time : of pre-destiny. That was mixed with the utter gratefulness for what Amma has done for us all, and how different things could have been if She hadn’t come to Earth during this era. This seeing engendered in me such confidence…….trust, surrender, and faith in the highest. It was breathtaking.

In the taxi on the way to Trivandrum airport afterwards, I noticed that there was complete Peace, “the peace which surpasses all understanding” as Adyashanti puts it. Thoughts would still arise and pass, but ‘witnessing’ – in the most engaged way – would simply perceive them, without interfering. It was a simple seeing, no more no less. I realised that you don’t actually need detachment when Bhakti has taken over. Love ‘becomes’ (so-to-speak) the only thing which makes sense. And the stunning thing is, it doesn’t even need to make sense. 

To discover more about the incredible global impacts of what Amma is doing, check out :-

Humanitarian

“Those who know the Self are always compassionate. They wish to see society thrive in peace and harmony. 

Love is the very foundation, beauty and fulfilment of life. If we dive deep enough into ourselves, we will find that the one thread of universal love ties all beings together.

As this awareness dawns within us, peace alone will reign.” ~ Amma

Here is the link to book online private sessions and please note that the usual schedule is now back on :-

Please do not contact me regarding scheduling, rearranging or cancelling : instead, utilise the email you receive from Calendly for this purpose. It could end up in your spam, so please check.

NB: lateness, no-showing or cancelling / rearranging less than 24 hrs in advance of the session time, will result in you being charged in full.

Looking forward to seeing you again 🙂 🙂 🙂 

Love,

xDaisy