“Sometimes I go about pitying myself – and all the while I am being carried across the sky by beautiful clouds” ~ Native American saying
The next Free Online Group Healing is this Friday 5th Sept @ 1pm London time. If you feel drawn to do so, please let your friends / fam / etc. know by sharing this link with them (NB: these Groups are fortnightly). Please book your place if you can remain on Zoom for the duration (1hr) in a quiet space free from distractions.Thank you 🙏
I learned a lot from an Adyashanti satsang I was listening to on the tube this week. I will try to convey some of that learning here. The recording was made in 2002, which was the year I first met Adyashanti (now retired), when he transformed my perspective on awakening completely. When we allow ourselves to experience this moment exactly as it is, the barrier between what’s happening in the outside world and inside our skin becomes very transparent. Experiencing sounds – the humdrum of life in the street, the cars – and the sounds inside us become of the same quality. A feeling in our body isn’t really different than the sound of a vehicle – not ours and not other than ours. An understanding which is not in words, but is the direct experience of what is, reveals itself as a great gift of not looking for an alternate experience. Something mysterious knows…something mysterious experiences this moment. Yet we can’t say what it is. Because as soon as we try to – it’s not that. It’s closer, more immediate. As soon as we think about it, it’s not the thoughts – it’s before a thought. It’s closer. We begin to experience directly that we don’t exist, and yet know that we do – but we don’t, but we do… Knowing beyond understanding, yet not able to define in any way. Knowing by this mysterious unknown experiencer. We are not us after all; maybe we are this, that is awake, before all seeking. This mysterious awakeneness… But to sacrifice this for something else – for anything else… Can we not sacrifice this that’s awake, in the chair where we happen to be sitting? Not sacrifice this for the promise of a better moment. A better event, a better experience. This is the Fire of Truth. This that is awake now in us – as us – shows up the utter irrelevance of every other argument, whatever that may be. This fire is unseen and unknown. We all have a choice of, what do I give my life to? Maybe this choice has never been conscious before, but now it is. What is important to us..? Don’t lose ourself – are we going somewhere? Or are we staying here? Just notice… Whatever we do is ok 🙂 🙂 🙂 Just notice where we’re choosing to go. This is it – this is the fire. It does not leave dramatics in its wake – it leaves something unspeakable in its wake. Something more satisfying than joy, something more satisfying than peace. Beyond excitement. When we sell this that is awake out, if we sell it out – be aware and awake to what we’re selling it out to. Make the sure the bargain is what we want it to be. Or perhaps we may, by some Grace, realise that nothing inside of us wants to sell this that is awake out anymore. Not even for our security, our existence or the good opinion of others. A life free from negotiation and bargaining. As Tony Parsons used to ask us, “Are you in business with life?” This is what the fire of this Truth removes from us : our negotiation and our bargaining with what is. That violence of attitude is finally absent. To really receive this gift fully, it’s got to be given to everybody, everywhere. We’ve got to notice that this that is awake doesn’t want anyone to change or improve – at all. That’s the ash of the fire. “A minute a go I wanted you to change, but now I don’t. You’re fine.” Nobody conformed to our pattern and yet happiness more than anything before is now here. This that is awake is the same in everybody and everything. The rest is a beautiful diversity.
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‘I Am That’ pg. 296 – “Q : You make all these extraordinary statements about yourself. What makes you say those things? What do you mean by saying that you are beyond space and time?
M : You ask and the answer comes. I watch myself – I watch the answer and see no contradiction. It is clear to me that I am telling you the truth. It is all very simple. Only you must trust me that I mean what I say, that I am quite serious. As I told you already, my Guru showed me my true nature – and the true nature of the world. Having realised that I am one with, and yet beyond the world, I became free from all desire and fear. I did not reason out that I should be free – I found myself free – unexpectedly, without the least effort. This freedom from desire and fear has remained with me since then. Another thing I noticed was that I do not need to make an effort; the deed follows the thought, without delay and friction. I have also found that thoughts become self-fulfilling; things would fall in place smoothly and rightly. The main change was in the mind; it became motionless and silent, responding quickly, but not perpetuating the response. Spontaneity became real. And above all, infinite affection, love, dark and quiet, radiating in all directions, embracing all, making all interesting and beautiful, significant and auspicious.
Q : We are told that various Yogic powers arise spontaneously in a man who has realised his own true being. What is your experience in these matters?
M : Man’s fivefold body (physical etc.) has potential powers beyond our wildest dreams. Not only is the entire universe reflected in man, but also the power to control the universe is waiting to be used by him. The wise man is not anxious to use such powers, except when the situation calls for them. He finds the abilities and skills of the human personality quite adequate for the business of daily living. Some of the powers can be developed by specialised training, but the man who flaunts such powers is still in bondage. The wise man counts nothing as his own. When at some time and place some miracle is attributed to some person, he will not establish any causal link between events and people, nor will he allow any conclusions to be drawn. All happened as it happened because it had to happen; everything happens as it does, because the universe is as it is.” (for interested parties, that was the passage I read out at the beginning of the last Group Healing)
The next Free Online Group Healing is this Fri 28th Feb @ 1pm London time. If you feel drawn to do so, please let your friends / fam / etc. know by sharing this link with them.
Please book your place if you can remain on Zoom for the duration (1hr) in a quiet space free from distractions.Thank you 🙏
Amma will be holding a program in London this year 🙂 🙂 🙂 It will be some time from April onwards, but as yet no one knows the dates.
A friend who had been living with Amma for 3 months recently, shared something important with me. Amma said that the last two weeks of March this year will be very bad indeed for travel. Apparently there will be some kind of affliction in general in humanity at that time, which will impact travelling.
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I want to highlight a very moving session which happened recently. A new person who has taken Jewel class in Vortex Healing came to see me. I must say, her present-life backstory was genuinely heartbreaking and horrifying… I will not convey details, but suffice to say it was the most extreme history I have ever heard (which includes my years working as a Therapist in deprived areas of London). Here’s the thing though, when I bridged into her system expecting the worst, what I felt was the opposite. There was all this Light which seemed to be emanating from her… I began to feel I was being bathed in Angelic Light. After the session, I wrote to Ric Weinman with a photo, saying I thought it possible that this person might be an Incarnated Angel.
When I lay down that night, I couldn’t stop thinking about the whole thing. I decided to tune into some Incarnated Angels I know (I am only aware of 2 actually) and then back to this client. I felt that there was something the same, yet something different. I then had a premonition of Ric explaining to me that this person has a Guardian Angel in her field. When I opened my inbox the following day, that is exactly what he said. I have never experienced a Guardian Angel before (as far as I remember anyway), so this is beyond exciting! (NB : people do sometimes believe they have one – you may have already heard somebody say this. Plus, it’s a term in common verbiage. Yet a real Guardian Angel is very rare.) The most significant thing about this particular unfoldment – I suppose what moved me the most – is the sense of how deeply help was needed and that it came to this person. I am infinitely moved by this……….it really leaves me in awe of the Divine.
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My Mum and I had fun visiting the AdWomen exhibition at the Museum of Brands in London last week 🙂 As many of you know, my mother Barbara Nokes is one of the most celebrated and awarded Advertising creatives globally, rising to fame during the Golden Age of Advertising in the 80s and 90s. Although by no means her only work, she wrote the concept and screenplay for (and also cast Nick Kamen in) the now legendary Levi’s ‘Launderette’ commercial, in 1985. I felt proud to see her splattered all over this exhibition and to see how much the other women who also shaped culture at that time were inspired by her 🙂 Here is a little souvenir, although the exhibition’s screening of ‘Madwomen’ was our favourite bit. That documentary is probably still available on Channel 4 in some capacity if you would like to watch, plus this exhibition is still on in Ladbroke Grove :-
I have recently completed the repeat of Manifesting Intention class, which means I have a new energetic tool to use with you called Divine Magic 🙂 🙂 🙂 I will be using this for extra transformation during individual sessions. It can be used on anything – it is very versatile. Its particular strength lies in transforming the deeper intelligence of the system.
As is so often the case though, the sparkle in these Vortex Healing classes happens spontaneously 🙂 It is often greatly helped by the Group Field of the class itself. Check out this session which happened in that field :-
I was on the tube on the way to a client and happened to turn my head at one point. I saw the words ‘Lancaster Gate’ on the platform outside. They captured my gaze… I was smashed out of the engrossed mood and message stream I was in. I had flashbacks of shifts and breakthroughs in that grand room at The Columbia over many years. Not too long after this, I caught sight of some other words on a platform which read, “it’s time to believe in magic again.”
I was very pleased to see the client I was treating when I arrived 🙂 ‘X’ has also taken Foundational class. She has a wild and exciting life, working at a bar / hotel / restaurant frequented by creatives and she sings, acts, directs films and gives healings. Amongst other things, ‘X’ wanted to receive a session to get her deposit back from her previous landlady, who looked to be withholding it unfairly. At the start of the session, I noticed an unusual amount of oneness and Grace… I won’t give you a blow-by-blow account, but there was a moment when I felt I needed to work on the ex-landlady, ‘Y’. I asked for her permission and Merlin’s and received a Yes. It was really fascinating – and I think the only time I have ever seen this – but she had a broken Divine Line in her crown chakra. I could see that, as a result, she didn’t feel the Divine, and was also profoundly out of body. It looked as though she had been born with that Divine Line broken. In mending it, I became aware of a higher purpose to the session and communicated my sense of things to ‘X’. On hearing this, she began to cry and could sense exactly why she had lived in that crazy previous housing situation. She got more in touch with her role as a Healer. Although I didn’t have these words at the time, I think both of us could feel the presence of Divine Will. There was immediately a sense of surrender and ‘bigger picture’ in the room and it was very fulfilling…
After the session ended, ‘X’ looked at her phone and there was a message from ‘Y’ regarding returning the deposit 🙂 The time the message had been sent was exactly when I was fixing the broken Divine Line! Plus, as I write these words to you now, fireworks (which were not here at all beforehand and are not in season right now) are suddenly going off outside – not joking!
Later on, ‘X’ sent me this message : “The tears that poured out of my face didn’t even feel like mine at first. I think this may be the closest in all my healing history I’ve ever felt to the divine!”
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One fantastic transmission which deepened for me in this MI repeat is Bio-Dynamic Flow. This can only be channelled in-person. It works on all levels, including the emotional, to restore flow – to bring the system back into flow. Bio-Dynamic Flow transmission does not create flows and tides in the body – rather, it amplifies the ones already present. If you don’t like being touched, it can even be channelled from up to 7 feet away.
The next Free Online Group Healing is Friday 21st Feb @ 1pm London time. If you feel drawn to do so, please let your friends / fam / etc. know by sharing this link with them.
Please book your place if you can remain on Zoom for the duration (1hr) in a quiet space free from distractions.Thank you 🙏
Here is another session, which also happened in a Group Field (this time for a mini class Ric facilitated on 8/2/25) : this is about a child client, ‘Z’, who is someone I have written about previously. To refresh you, this is what I noted originally (feel free to skip this paragraph if you remember): I could feel a certain power of Divinity within ‘Z’, in particular in her womb and solar plexus. It was surprising to discover such power in a child who is only 8 years old. I immediately recognised her as a Healer, not ‘growing into’, but already. It was almost as if an adult teacher had been squashed into a child’s body. I could see that she is part of a witch lineage and the next thing I knew, that lineage came into the session. One of the Head Witches entered to give her a gift, which looked like a fairly large jewel or gemstone. To my astonishment, this Head Witch then began to give me a healing, which activated my third eye and began drawing conditioning up and out of me! I had tears in my eyes from being so moved, both by receiving the healing and by the sheer beauty of it all. The Witch began speaking to me : I can’t explain it any other way than to say I could hear her and understand her language. She told me she had already met Ric Weinman and was aware of our Merlin Lineage. She seemed to be saying that the two lineages are connected in some significant way. The child’s mother (who was there as her legal guardian) couldn’t hold back at that point. She explained that ‘Z’ had recently started writing sentences in school, one of which was, “I am a witch.” Thankfully, she attends a Steiner School, so they are more likely to receive (or even honour) that. ’T’ (the mother) then told her that she is an advanced being, which I wholeheartedly agree with. The child asked, “What does advanced mean..?” and, upon learning what it meant, corrected her mother by saying, “No, that’s not right. There is no better or worse.” She went on to explain – as if she were talking about the most garden-variety thing in the world – “I’m Free.”
In the second session : the healing was only about 15 minutes and after beginning, I became aware that ‘Z’ was giving me a healing. I had a vision of a horse-shoe shaped table, around which there were many Witches seated. It felt as if a Witch lineage was doing the healing on me through ‘Z’. During channelling integration for her, I asked ‘Z’ if she was aware that she had been giving me a healing. With innocence and with clarity, she replied simply, “Yes.” She explained that she gets a feeling in her hands, like a tingly feeling. She went on to describe it as energy in her hands and said that when it gets “uncomfortable” she puts her hands on her body. But it became overwhelming, so she wanted to put them on my body and put the energy there, she said. I told her what I saw, with the Witches around the table etc., but she said “No” she didn’t see that. She saw one Witch, like a black shape in front of her. She added that she gets this experience a lot. If it ever becomes too uncomfortable, she showed me how she clasps one hand around the other. I wrote to Ric about it all and he agreed that ‘Z’ is an extraordinary being. He also went on to say that she has no Core Veil 🙂
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Even though I have taken Manifesting Intention class 4 or 5 times now, the significance of this one completely blew me away… I can’t say that any was better than any other, because there were such unique openings in each and they have all been crucial to my work, my path and my life. Although impossible to capture the experience and livingness of this class in words, here are some things I learned :-
Perhaps the most remarkable event on a class level, happened to a student there who had previously had multiple strokes, leaving the left side of her face and part of her body paralysed. After doing a few simple class exercises, utilising the transmissions known as Tissue Pulsing + Tissue Unglue + Aliveness in alternate combinations, she regained sensation in her left face!
The mind : the mind is just a tool and seeing it as such may help break your identification with it. It’s a very useful tool and there’s nothing wrong with it. There’s nothing wrong with a hammer, but what if you were to think, “I am a hammer.” Another problem is with the ‘observer.’ People sometimes shift their identification to being the observer of the mind. But that is not the same as freedom at all; they are still tightly bound in fact. It’s stuck and it’s also not a very warm place. The person is not simply observing, they have become an observer. In a place where you’re simply observing, you are in flow – and all this awareness of what is happening is going in, and going out. In this flow, you’re going to have a natural heart response to whatever’s happening. Whereas if you’re identified as the observer, then you’re going to separate yourself from everything and that separation becomes a cold place. I have heard it said that this is arguably the greatest weakness of Vipassana. There was once a Vipassana teacher who went to see the awakened teacher Papaji. After seeing Papaji, he remarked that he had been teaching Vipassana for 13 years but doing it all wrong : he felt he had been creating this ‘mirror’, but that Papaji just broke the mirror 🙂
Of course, it’s never us that does such things – only people we know, lol! 😉
What is Divine Intention..? Well, it lies in Mystery. So it’s not the way the ego would intend. But it’s like there’s some kind of magical intention there…
Braces and orthodontics : please do not give these to your children, teenagers or young adults! Sorry for the rant and for if you have heard about this before. Braces block what is trying to happen in the body, particularly in the head. The impact they have is to cut off many crucial cranio-sacral pathways, cranial bone movements and cranial rhythms, which flow throughout the body (in particular the cranial mid-line over the top front teeth). All these should be opening and closing with the breath, in a harmony created by nature. The head itself, for example, is not a fixed thing : it is always in subtle motion, it’s moving. When this is forced to stop, the body starts to ‘fight itself’ : everything begins resisting that block and this creates a tremendous amount of tension in the head, jaw and neck etc. This eventually culminates downwards, until even the lower body cannot ground anymore. Ric says that, when he had a hands-on healing practice for many years, he could tell just by touching a person’s head if they had had braces or not. If they had, the head felt like a bowling ball with no natural movement or ‘breathing-like’ expansions and contractions. Later on, it is very hard to get all of the tension out of the head and jaw etc., but you could try a Percussor (which is an electronic massage instrument) held lightly underneath the chin (with the mouth gently closed), being sure to use a wide flat pad piece on the head of the Percussor. Ric believes that will get around 65% of the tension out. NB : if you feel your child etc. really needs braces, it is possible to find orthodontists who will fit Visalign but without making a single piece across the top front teeth, so that the head can still move naturally enough.
Karma Day :these are days at the end of major classes where Merlin releases for us however much of the Karma of Events as possible. Karma of Events is essentially the worst kind of bad karma : it is either an action you did in a previous lifetime, which comes back as an event in this lifetime (like a car accident, as an example). Or it is an action which returns to you like that as glue holding your major core issues in place. So far, the only way we have found to release this type of Karma is through a class like MI.
The Acupuncture system is the manifested system of the body, whereas the Jin Shin system is the manifesting system.
Menopause : if you are going through this and would like help, a Genetic Modification is the best first step.
After class, something very important Ric explained was that, “Too much sitting loads the spleen pathways. The spleen energy is the ‘engine’ for the lymph system. If that ‘engine’ goes into slow gear, the lymph becomes stagnant, and then congested. This also sets the stage for Candida.”
Aliveness : people are loving this new transmission 🙂 It works a bit like energising. It is channeled 2/3 from my spine and 1/3 from my heart. It brings back to life dead / lifeless areas of the system.
NB : the reason one can feel more tried after receiving this / receiving any energising type transmission or even a massage, is because all of these support the nervous system, adrenals, kidneys etc. The support relaxes all those systems and they come out of a state of struggle or over-stimulation : it’s like we often walk around cranked up in ‘battle-mode’. So, feeling more tired after treatment is normal. This kind of tired though, is a sign of growing health.
Another thing you might like – and please do ask me for – is having all your joints and tissues saturated with compressed pre-natal Jing 🙂
I was very sad to hear of the death of David Lynch a few days ago. He was an incredibly important influence on my family, friends and I. I actually consider him to be a creative genius and the greatest director of all time. By 1991, his work had taken London by storm…it was a massive thing. Responding to a question about the success of his series ‘Twin Peaks’, David told Patti Smith, “Do what you believe in.”
Kyle MacLachlan, who starred as Agent Dale Cooper in that series, wrote in tribute : “He was not interested in answers because he understood that questions are the drive that make us who we are.” Beautiful in standalone, as an observation about the way of things, his remark also reminded me that I had once heard Adyashanti saying, “I haven’t come to answer your questions but to question your answers.” Of course, I am not making any of the three the same, but it is true that Lynch was an avid meditator. Tomorrow, which would have been his 79th Birthday, his four children have called for a 10 minute worldwide meditation in honour of their father. It is at 8pm London time. You can read more about it here (thank you Shannon Chamberlain for this) :-
Steven Spielberg has described Lynch as “a singular visionary dreamer who directed films that felt handmade.” When I found out he had died, I had a similar reaction to that of when my father died, in that I felt no resistance at all but rather a sense of aligned Truth, whilst also experiencing love and loss (though to very differing degrees in each case). The strange thing is, a day or so before Lynch’s death I decided to make the following list :-
Top 6 TV series of all time :-
Twin Peaks
I May Destroy You
Peaky Blinders
Succession
Girls
Chewing Gum
Again uncannily, the evening before my father Roger Nokes died (which was completely sudden and unexpected), my brother and I were with him compiling lists of the best films of all time! We were having such a laugh together with it… Maybe realising it was a type of futile madness to rate creativity like this, and yet somehow compelled, perhaps out of sheer passion for the work we had all been exposed to over many decades and different eras in history.
The next Free Online Group Healing is this Friday 24th Jan @ 1pm London time. If you feel drawn to do so, please let your friends / fam / etc. know by sharing this link with them.
Please book your place if you can remain on Zoom for the duration (1hr) in a quiet space free from distractions.Thank you 🙏
There is an upcoming Foundational class in Vortex Healing with Anthony Gorman (18th – 22nd Feb). Please book here :-
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The next Free Online Group Healing is tomorrow Fri 17th Jan @ 1pm London time. If you feel drawn to do so, please let your friends / fam / etc. know by sharing this link with them.
Please book your place if you can remain on Zoom for the duration (1hr) in a quiet space free from distractions.Thank you 🙏
A friend told me a very beautiful story this week, which I would like to share with you. There was once a Tibetan monk who became imprisoned by the Chinese government during the taking of Tibet. He was in prison for 15 years and was tortured frequently. When he came out, friends asked him how it was. He replied describing the prison as a very dangerous place. The friends nodded, saying they had imagined it would be, and asking him to continue. The monk said, “There were two moments when I almost lost compassion.”
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There is an upcoming Foundational class in Vortex Healing with Anthony Gorman (18th – 22nd Feb). Please book here :-
The next Free Online Group Healing is this Friday the 13th Dec @ 1pm London time. So, before you watch a horror film, do this – lol! If you feel drawn to do so, please let your friends / fam / etc. know by sharing this link with them.
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And all other sessions are now available 7 days per week, 11 30am – 9 30 pm London time 🙂
I thought you might be interested in hearing a little about life since that peak awakening surrender which happened in The Magical Jewel class in April this year.
It’s like everything is being moved through : each experience, each encounter, each moment is illuminated by a kind of passing-through-ness. There is almost a feeling of being the wind passing through. And with it a sense of big sky…….although even that is saying too much. Perhaps it is true to say there is a subtle continuum, a continuous ‘through-ness.’ Although not in a rush of any kind and not ‘getting somewhere’.
Before the shift in April, every single ‘thing’ felt in some way efforted and slightly different to every other thing. I could maybe still have labelled things ‘good’, ‘bad’, ‘in-between’ etc. : they could have been assigned a degree or spectrum of value. Now, that has almost totally gone. Everything is, in a manner of speaking, kind-of the same to me now… There is a clearer Oneness. It’s not that things have lost their delicious unique-ness though, or that there’s only blandness. It’s more as if the felt sense of difference / divisiveness / separateness is vanishing and what is revealed is a vastness. Also, the form now seems much more accustomed to its natural state – a kind of space of availability. One cool side-effect of that seems to be having energy at any time, regardless of the hour of day or night etc.
What previously could have been called the most terrible experience or the most amazing experience and so on, are now animated by a gentle no-thing-every-thing-ness. I feel like permission has been ‘granted’ somehow for each thing to be what or as it is. This freeness engenders the experience of things being both the same – in a way that is very hard to convey – and also identical in value. But not as a concept or an attitude one has adopted though. And not what is commonly meant by ‘acceptance’ or ‘forgiveness’ etc. – nothing like that. What I am speaking of is at no distance whatsoever. It’s intimate. It is intimacy. Not dissociated, removed or detached. Here.
Everything is allowed since it is no longer being judged as ‘x, y or z’, nor is it being experienced as truly individuated. Even though there are frequently huge emotions or huge mental thought story-books, they are not experienced as they were beforehand – as threatening in some way. What would have been separate, different or oppositional experiences / things / etc., are now softly unique-ish, but that’s all. Yes they’re doing their own thing, so-to-speak, but it’s like a firework display of Divinity.
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I am well and have some exciting news today 🙂 I have had a client for a few years now, Kitty Shukman, who is a streetwear and shoe designer. There was an instant connection between us from the start, which is always lovely, and also with her mother, author Jessica Pryce-Jones, who comes for sessions with me as well. Over time, we each bonded and became friends as well as healer / clients and the sessions continued. Kitty was recently bestowed with the prestigious honour of being selected as one of only a handful of young designers to present their own brands at London Fashion Week. Having established herself with several enigmatic streetwear brands and fashion houses, the opportunity to present what she had created independently was priceless for Kitty. She asked me to support her with the show, both to prepare her for such an undertaking and to do space clearing and personal healing at the show itself, being there to hold space for her and her crew.
I remembered at that point, our journey together with Amma at the Los Angeles program this summer. I managed to get us onto the stage with Amma when Kitty entered the hall. We were seated at the back of the stage, yet Amma found Kitty’s eyes several times and gave her a deep gaze. For some reason, probably Grace, we were kept on the stage for more than an hour, which is unusual nowadays especially for a first-timer. When it came to Darshan, Amma spent a great deal of time with Kitty, playing like a child with the healing chocolate characters she has created, along with her amazing tarot cards and shoe designs – part of the collection for her brand ‘Again’, aka ‘Positive Energy Flows Again’. Amma then reached over and handed her an apple. That was when I really knew…something is going to come of this.
Skip on a couple of months, and back here in London I was doing an in-person session for Kitty. One of the things I did was to create a Divine Door for ‘Positive Energy Flows Again’ (an EW4 MRLN Mendra Divine Door), placing it in one of the shoe prototypes and more widely into the consciousness of the whole brand. Merlin prompted me to ask Kitty to get specific about her intention with her career, which she did. I won’t share what she said, but suffice to say it was both sincere and selfless, so much so it brought tears to my eyes. Again, at that moment, I knew…something is going to come of this.
The day came for the show last Friday and it was so exciting! I felt intimidated going in, to be honest, but thankfully I realised quickly that I had indeed managed to rummage out good clothes for the occasion – lol! I had a clear intention for being there, which also helped a lot : to be a healing presence for Kitty, the crew and models, for Kitty’s artistic vision, for the work itself and to channel on the set. Things were already underway when I arrived at midday and Kitty’s sound designer and I discussed how to create the right atmosphere for the show. He was very open to Amma, so Kitty asked him to play the 1000 Names loudly on set while I cleared the whole space. That was one of my favourite moments – pure magic : there I was, with Amma’s Swami chanting over the speakers, entering into this fascinating and unknown world and doing what I most love to do. The show itself was centred around a shoe – the infinity shoe :-
Suffice to say, when showtime hit and it came time to welcome the 400 guests from the fashion world, everything was spectacular! And Kitty said she felt that I had fixed a major lighting issue, by creating a Divine Door and then sitting with the situation in the Global Healing Grid. It’s hard to remember everything else now, because it was such an intense and thrilling day, but the feelings are something that I think will stay with me forever.
Here are a couple of snippets :-
The following day, I was on the tube and received a Telegram message from an Amma friend. She wondered if I knew a designer who had mentioned Vortex Healing and Amma in her interview for Vogue magazine? My mouth fell open… I opened the link she had sent me and stared, with absolute astonishment… There, right before my very eyes, were the words ‘Vortex Healing’ written at the top of an entire article in Vogue. Not only that, but Amma’s full name – Mata Amritanandamayi – was also in the article, plus the ‘energy healer’ referred to was me. I marvelled at what Divinity had created… I was in awe…
I got off the tube at my stop and, in a usual rush, ran to get the escalator and continue my journey to the next client. But as I crossed over that way, I broke down in tears. I was crying, right in the middle of the tube station – I simply couldn’t stop those tears. I was, quite literally, overjoyed. If there was any story behind the joy inside my tears, it was about what this could mean for Amma’s dream for humanity, for Kitty, for Vortex Healing and for me. Then in my heart I silently prayed, thanking Amma and Merlin over and over again. Things have been very challenging on a human life level for me recently, yet this miracle from God just wiped all that away. The drama came to an end. As I cried, all I could feel was Divinity. I was reconnected. And in that reconnection, it was like I was looking through a window, which I realised was a window into Reality. I perceived that Reality never changes. I could also feel that I am always and only looked after, always and only loved, always and only in Divinity. And so are you. It was a revelation…a total sensing, an insight which included everyone and everything.
The next Free Online Group Healing is this Friday 20th September @ 1pm London time. If you feel drawn to do so, please let your friends / fam / etc. know by sharing this link with them.
Please book your place if you can remain on Zoom for the duration (1hr) in a quiet space free from distractions.Thank you 🙏
I am travelling to Portugal tomorrow, this time to the south of the country first. I am scoping out that area as a possibility for living. I also want to get a feel for Portugal again, now that I have experienced so much transformation with Amma and The Magical Jewel class.
Here is the link to book online private sessions, which continue as usual from Portugal :-
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NB: lateness, no-showing or cancelling / rearranging less than 24 hrs in advance of the session time, will result in you being charged in full.
I would like to finish by recounting a brief tale. This was told to us all in a satsang during Tour, by a Brahmacharini in yellow whom I greatly respect. She said a man had come for Amma’s Darshan and asked Amma for advice on his sadhana (spiritual practices). Amma’s answer was very beautiful, with a touching yet profound simplicity which only She seems able to convey :-
“Any action which doesn’t harm the world is sadhana” ~ Amma
“Just as the flower falls away when the fruit takes shape, worldly desires will disappear when detachment ripens. No desire can bind such a person afterwards, whether he lives at home or in the forest. One who has established God-realisation as his goal will not attach any importance to anything else. He has already understood that nothing physical is permanent and that real bliss is within” ~ Amma
Another way of touching on this area, is to perceive – fully, without holding back – that what we want and what we need are rarely related. I’m sorry to break it – if it is news – to you, but it’s true. And yet, in every single moment we are getting exactly what we need.
The Free Online Group Healings are now weekly. I hope you are as pleased about this as I am 🙂 Other than dates I cannot do, I have begun scheduling these weekly instead of fortnightly. The link below will allow you to book them. The next Free Online Group Healing is Friday 20th September @ 1pm London time. If you feel drawn to do so, please let your friends / fam / etc. know by sharing this link with them.
Please book your place if you can remain on Zoom for the duration (1hr) in a quiet space free from distractions.Thank you 🙏
I thought I would share some of my notes from Amma’s U.S. Tour with you now. During Oakland program, Amma explained to us in a speech that we must never try to compare ourselves with others. Instead, always see from the perspective of the True Self.
During the Washington D.C. program, there was a public Q&A and a young woman (probably 20 or thereabouts) asked a beautiful question concerning what to do when, although we do not express anger or resentful feelings to a person directly, when we walk away from the conversation with them, these are still going on in our mind. Amma said, if we introspect, we will find that the anger we feel towards someone really arises from expectations or from being judgemental. She continued, saying that sadness also gets expressed as anger or as revenge. We do not understand the mental state of the other person. The world is like a mental asylum, with each of us being either crazy or on the verge of being crazy.
Although a snake may be frozen in ice, if it is left in the sun the ice will melt and the snake will all-of-a-sudden rise up and could bite us. Only by going through the circumstances of life, will we understand what our own latent tendencies are.
If we get into conflict with someone, immediately we should move away from the situation and contemplate – go within. In order to become aware of the gap between our thoughts and actions, we need patience. Amma said that each situation is our Guru, our Teacher. Seeing any person as a mirror for ourself, we will learn a lot.
Anger is a double-edged sword, with which we get hurt first. Or it could be likened to a hot iron ball : when we throw it at someone, we get hurt first.
However, if an animal like a deer is eating our vegetable patch, it is no good saying, “My dear, dear, dear deer, please stop eating the vegetables.” Instead, we need to take a stick, wave it at the deer and shoo it away with words.
The world is like an examination hall. We need to go through many circumstances in life in order to learn all the lessons. Amma said that we may fail when facing a situation, but never give up.
‘Awareness’ was the only word which Amma used repeatedly in English throughout this Q&A (the rest being in Malayalam as usual), which I found interesting. Amma continued : whatever action we perform, the first 10% is not within our control. But the following 90% is within our control. If through having the proper awareness, we can make the initial action as positive as it can be, then the rest will follow accordingly. In order to develop such awareness, we need to do spiritual practices like meditation or Archana (the 1000 Names) regularly.
Amma finished by saying to the woman directly, “Whatever your conscience tells you to do, you should do that.”
I am currently in London offering in-person sessions until the 16th September and will come to you if you live within tube Zones 1 or 2. Please contact me via regular text, WhatsApp or Telegram to arrange this and please pay before the session via bank transfer, cash or PayPal. NB: lateness, no-showing or cancelling / rearranging less than 24 hrs in advance of the session time, will result in you being charged in full.
Alternatively, here is the link to book online private sessions for whenever you like :-
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NB: lateness, no-showing or cancelling / rearranging less than 24 hrs in advance of the session time, will result in you being charged in full.
The next Free Online Group Healing is on April Fool’s Day (lol!) 1st April @ 1pm (London time) 🙂 Please book your place here if you can remain on Zoom for the duration (1hr), in a quiet space free from distractions.
If you feel drawn, please let your friends / fam / etc. know about the Group by sharing this link with them. Thank you 🙏
There are two more sessions as well, which you can book via this link.
I will return to London on the 18th April, having completed the class ‘The Magical Jewel’ (the most advanced level of Vortex Healing) in Virginia Beach, USA. Again, I will be offering in-person, private online and online group sessions at that time.
I was recently watching a rare live satsang by Adyashanti, who was talking directly from awakened intelligence. I would like to share my take on some of what he conveyed that day. The idea that we need to get rid of our egos is only an idea which arises from ego. The Truth has a totally different way, a completely other orientation, and then there is what could be described as a third way. This is when our egos find their proper relationship to our deeper nature, when they come into service to it. The potential of that is that the ego is simply a support to true nature. You see, there’s no war – no going into battle with your mind (which never worked anyway) – and no going against anything. Not even any choosing. It’s as if a type of marriage or coming together occurs : a marriage of what once appeared as opposites. This is the integration, embodiment and surrender which colours true human evolution.
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During Maha Shivarartri in Amritapuri recently, Amma surprised us all by playing an interview she had been asked to give by UNESCO for International Women’s Day! Both days happened to fall on the same date this year, like a marriage of masculine and feminine I felt 🙂 Although the interview we were shown during the celebration was the full length one and this has been greatly reduced, I wanted to include it here. Enjoy 🙂
I am very well indeed and am now writing to you from London 🙂
At the end of my stay in Amritapuri, which was filled with peace and happiness this time, I found myself sitting on the floor of the main hall for bhajans. My flight was to leave later on that night, so (in a way) I was saying goodbye to Amma.
I’m going to try to convey what it feels like to be with this Living Master and perhaps a tiny bit of what She is doing with our paths to God-realisation. It is difficult to do so, partly because you have to have really stayed with Amma for a good amount of time to grok this, and partly because it is so tricky to communicate in words what is totally beyond words. Nevertheless, I feel to try.
There was a particular bhajan which Amma sang that night which seemed to crack me open completely. I often feel that She takes us from a sort-of habitual mundane emotional state to the uppermost heights of what the passion for Divinity is capable of; and it can happen in a split second when She sings. All She needs is a tiny crack – a hair’s breadth of space – in which to reveal the Great Mystery in all its glory. As I was sitting there singing with everyone, this happened to a whole new degree. Amma leaves the very best til last 😉
As my heart burst with longing, I started sobbing uncontrollably and there was a surrender which felt almost physical and beyond physicality at the same time, as if my heart opened from the front to the back (spine) and outwards, beyond…….. What I was feeling was a blend of the most immense gratitude, with joy – pure joy – and devotional Love (Bhakti). As my system underwent Amma’s ‘surgery’, I felt the return to Innocence, unconditional Love and the perception (as if for the first time) of what She is doing with us all. I could see in that moment, that Amma is the salvation for the whole of humanity. Ric Weinman once told me that She “has the long-haul job of transforming the heart of humanity” and Adyashanti once created a series about what he describes as ‘Redemptive Love’. It was as if those two insights came alive at once, yet in a brand new way, and then went beyond even that…
There was this absolutely overwhelming – literally overwhelming – gratitude. It was for all of the above and also for the beyondness of what was being revealed, and yet simultaneously it was uncaused. There was zero sense of specialness, yet a complete sense of being present and available for the transformation happening through this body and heart and through the bodies and hearts of all those around me on that sacred ground. Perhaps it could be said that the small self / me / I suddenly broke open and was consumed by / merged into Divinity / became what it truly had always been. The crying was so intense that I couldn’t contain it in any way. I was floored byTrue Love, fiery devotion (which was also recognised as being choiceless) and the sense of being in the right place at the right time : of pre-destiny. That was mixed with the utter gratefulness for what Amma has done for us all, and how different things could have been if She hadn’t come to Earth during this era. This seeing engendered in me such confidence…….trust, surrender, and faith in the highest. It was breathtaking.
In the taxi on the way to Trivandrum airport afterwards, I noticed that there was complete Peace, “the peace which surpasses all understanding” as Adyashanti puts it. Thoughts would still arise and pass, but ‘witnessing’ – in the most engaged way – would simply perceive them, without interfering. It was a simple seeing, no more no less. I realised that you don’t actually need detachment when Bhakti has taken over. Love ‘becomes’ (so-to-speak) the only thing which makes sense. And the stunning thing is, it doesn’t even need to make sense.
To discover more about the incredible global impacts of what Amma is doing, check out :-
“Those who know the Self are always compassionate. They wish to see society thrive in peace and harmony.
Love is the very foundation, beauty and fulfilment of life. If we dive deep enough into ourselves, we will find that the one thread of universal love ties all beings together.
As this awareness dawns within us, peace alone will reign.” ~ Amma
Here is the link to book online private sessions and please note that the usual schedule is now back on :-
Please do not contact me regarding scheduling, rearranging or cancelling : instead, utilise the email you receive from Calendly for this purpose. It could end up in your spam, so please check.
NB: lateness, no-showing or cancelling / rearranging less than 24 hrs in advance of the session time, will result in you being charged in full.
Yes, I am now back in London 🙂 I will be here for about 5 weeks.
The next Free Online Group Healing is this Friday 1st December @ 1pm (London time) 🙂 Please book your place here, if you can remain on Zoom for the duration (1hr) in a quiet space free from distractions :-
You can book online private sessions via the usual link :-
Please do not contact me regarding scheduling, rearranging or cancelling : instead, utilise the email you receive from Calendly for this purpose. It could end up in your spam, so please check.
NB: lateness, no-showing or cancelling / rearranging less than 24 hrs in advance of the session time, will result in you being charged in full.
I thought you might like to read these inspiring words from Amma :-
🕉 Om Amriteswaryai Namah 🕉
“Life is like a garden. Quite naturally, leaves wither and flowers fade. Only if we clear the decay of the past then and there can we really enjoy the beauty of the new leaves and flowers. Likewise, we must clear the murkiness of the past bad experiences from our minds. Life is remembrance in forgetfulness. Forgive what ought to be forgiven; forget what ought to be forgotten. Let us embrace life with renewed vigour. We should be able to face every moment of life with renewed expectation, like a freshly blossomed flower.”
I’m thinking so fondly of you all and hoping things are well, kind and aligned. I would like to share some musings I had recently, during one of those perfect moments. That moment right in the middle of life, when you can finally relax……exhale…and everything is right. Everything is just so, just the way it is and bliss fills you from the inside out, covering your body in goosebumps, emptying your mind, until there is nothing left but Love :-
“I feel all of life just coming to me on a breeze……. I look around and all I see are these free beings everywhere…everybody…all these free beings. And everything just relaxing into oneness again, Divinity manifesting through the bodies around me……the flow of beauty, of creation…”
Please note that nothing changes with online private sessions from here in Portugal. You can book via the usual link :-
Good news = I have been sitting again with re-starting the Groups and I feel a Yes 🙂 🙂 🙂 I will put all the details in the upcoming newsletter, so pleased stay tuned.
And finally, no pressure at all, but I thought you might want to know about this (from the UK Amma team) :-
“In the wake of the recent catastrophic fires, many devotees are sending relief items to Maui. Others have asked us how they can participate in this effort. Please join the MA Centers in making financial support available. Donate here (choose Maui Relief from dropdown)
I have some significant news to share with you today, which might come as quite a surprise. Last week, I made the decision to move here to Portugal. It was a case of simply recognising what was already happening and then tuning into what I sensed intuitively, meditating in a Silent eucalyptus forest in the foothills of the mountains. The greatest thing I feel to communicate now, is that I want you to know I already miss you and that this move is very challenging for me. I am going on pure intuition here.
I imagine that this may bring up a lot for some of you and I want to acknowledge that. Please feel free to reach out here, or via WhatsApp / Telegram to share your feelings with me. However, remember that during the periods when I am in London, I will offer in-person sessions again (as well as online). I will travel to you if you live in central London : please stay tuned for more details and info about this. It looks likely that I will be in London from the 11th October for a few weeks, but this does depend on the residency process in Portugal and what stage it is at.
Please note that nothing changes with online sessions and you can book via the usual link here :-
I have been sitting again with re-starting the Groups. I still don’t feel a clear Yes, but I will let you know when I do. Apologies to those who have specifically been waiting for these.
There is a Foundational class in Vortex Healing® with Anthony from 18th to 22nd September. If you would like to take this magical class for the first time, or repeat it, please book here :-
I am currently watching this video from Eckhart Tolle and Ram Dass. I feel so inspired by it that I wish to send it to you right away :-
If you would like to attend the next Free Online Group Healing, it is happening on Wednesday 27th July @ 1pm BST. NB: please attend only if you can remain on Zoom for the duration (1hr). Here is the link you need for booking :-
Please note that you need to pre-book. You can also book as many Groups as you like in advance.
Please feel free to invite people to the Groups or to receive this newsletter: a message to me via WhatsApp, Telegram or regular text would be best to arrange this (as so with anything else, since email-replying is not my strong point).
For Private Sessions with me,here is the link. You will receive an email (or text if you request this when booking) with which you can rearrange or cancel your session up to 24hrs before the start time, if you wish :-
I request that you never contact me about rearranging, cancelling or scheduling : instead, simply utilise the email sent to you by Calendly for this very purpose. It may end up in your spam / junk box, so please check.
Please also note that lateness, no-showing, cancelling / rearranging less than 24 hrs in advance of the session time will result in you being charged in full for that session. Thank you 🙂
I am going to be offering workshops at Secret Garden Party this weekend and am leaving on Thursday. Please note that, as a result of this, I will not be contactable from 21st – 25th July. I hope, next time, I will be given more notice so I can invite you all 🙂 It would be so lovely to have you there!
I also want to announce that there will be a course offered in Amma’s IAM Meditation in early September. Once we have organised this at Amma’s London ashram, I will let you know.
If you would like to attend the next Free Online Group Healing, it is happening thisWed 4th May @ 1pm GMT. NB: please attend only if you can remain on Zoom for the duration (1hr). Here is the link you need for booking :-
Please note that you need to pre-book. You can also book as many Groups as you like in advance.
For Private Sessions with me, you will receive an email (or text if you requested this when booking) with which you can rearrange or cancel your session, if you wish. That email may wind up in your spam / junk box, so please check. Here is the link to book Private Sessions:-
Please never contact me about rearranging, cancelling or scheduling : instead, simply utilise the email sent to you by Calendly for this very purpose.
And please also note that lateness, no-showing, cancelling or rearranging less than 24 hrs in advance of the session time will result in you being charged in full for that session. Thank you 🙂
There happens to be a Kartika Puja happening at the ashram (Amritapuri) right now, so if you have time, click this link 🙂 :-
The next Free Online Group Healing is this Wed 3rd Nov @ 1pm GMT.
NB: the clocks have gone back in the UK. And please attend only if you can remain on Zoom for the duration (1hr). Here is the link you need for booking :-
Please note: you need to pre-book. You can book as many Groups as you like in advance.
For Private Sessions, you will receive an email (or text if you requested this when booking) with which you can rearrange or cancel your session if you wish. That email may wind up in your junk box – so please check.
Here is the link to book Private Sessions:-
Looking forward to seeing you in the Group if you can make it 🙂
The next Free Online Group Healing is tomorrow @ 1pm BST. NB: please write to me at the address on the Contact page for the invitation to this Free Group. Thank you 🙂
I would like to share this from Amma:-
“If you deny people after seeing their faults, their faults will remain the same. Only through love can you bring people to the path of knowledge and devotion through their wrong paths” ~ Amma
Looking forward to seeing you tomorrow if you can make it 🙂 🙂 🙂
The subject of this week’s Group is Loneliness, and the reason I chose it is because this is something we all feel deep down inside. During the past week, I was with a friend and I began to weep and weep and weep – and it all just came pouring out. I didn’t actually know what I was feeling, only that I was feeling. But she knew, and explained that I was experiencing loneliness. Then through such an open-hearted original discussion with her, complete with more tears and snot :-), I began to see that despite its inherently isolating nature, loneliness is felt by everybody everywhere. For those with families, partners or living with close friends, they are locked in together sometimes 24/7 (in London at any rate) and may begin to feel that what they had projected into these relationships, isn’t actually there. (It isn’t meant to be there, but that is another discussion of its own, which we won’t go into right now). And so the loneliness arises from where it always was inside. For others like me, who are living a solo life, there is the more obvious form of loneliness. It is not something that is in any way dependent upon our circumstances, contrary to egoic perception. In reality, it is the primary feeling which follows on from any sense, big or small, of separation from Divinity – from our true nature. Perhaps you have also had your lockdown loneliness meltdown, or perhaps it is still to come. Either way, I believe you will get something important from this Group, where we will explore this deep and intimate facet of the human condition together. I will be including guided meditation, chanting (briefly) and transformative energy work, plus there will be a chance to feel connected to community and to share at the end if you wish to do so.
This Free Online Group Healing is this Wednesday at 1pm GMT. Please book your place here, if you can attend for the duration of the hour on Zoom:-
I’m sorry for this repeat, since almost all of you have got this message by now, but for the few who have not, I must emphasise: it is crucial to pay beforehand for all private sessions. Thank you.
I look forward to seeing you in the Group if you can attend, or otherwise in private sessions 🙂
I am well and revelling in this sunshine 🙂 Now is the time for the next group, which will be on Wednesday at 1pm. Please note this progression: these will then be fortnightly from Wed onwards (same time and day) and remain free.Book via the following link, which is offered by Shaun and Kim, with whom I am collaborating in the fantastic collective Wuji Web 🙂 🙂 🙂
Please note another important change to the groups: anyone not present on Zoom for the duration of the session will not be included in the healing.
Many of you have communicated having meltdowns recently. These are normal, but have also been catalysed by the continuation of lockdown. This is why I would like to assist you in moving from meltdown to melt-through. In many ways, this depends upon the Shakti available within us at a given moment in time. If there is enough Shakti (Divine energy) readily available in our system, every situation is met with non-reaction and simply melts through. It passes through without resistance, even if a truthful action is carried out. If there is not enough available Shakti, a reaction asserts itself – pushing back against Reality – in some type of conditioned reflex, like a battle which can only ever be lost. This group healing will be focused on increasing the Shakti within you and clearing the blocks to that.
The group session will include me channelling particular Mantras to awaken false identifications, and associated areas of conditioning, group prayer and connection, guided channelled healing, a chance to share your feelings with the group if you feel called to do so, and most importantly of all – a deepening in Silence / Being-Light-Love-awakeness, which could reveal these to be your own true nature.
Amma (the ‘hugging Saint’) has said that when we come together as a group in prayer or meditation, the Light increases. She gives the analogy that it is very difficult to read under the light of a very low wattage bulb. But when several such bulbs are connected together in a series, one can easily read a book under that light.
If you would like to gift one of my individual sessions to someone, there is now an easy way to do this:-
Also, a gentle reminder that it is now essential to pay for individual sessions in advance or on the day of the session itself.
Finally, both rearrangement and cancellation of a session must be done 24 hours in advance of the session time, otherwise full payment of that session is required.
I am offering a Free Online Group Healing this Thursday 23rd April at 1pm GMT. We will be focussing on Inner Reconnection: on contacting and relaxing into that inner sanctuary that can weather any storm without moving and without resisting. When we come into ourselves as we truly are, all anxiety, stress and strain subsides and we recognise the Love and beauty inside. In this way our eyes are opened to the beauty all around us, in each other, in nature and in all of life. This is the return to innocence that the heart both longs for and is simultaneously, yet is oftentimes hidden from feeling or view. I welcome you to de-frag, deepen and cast away any doubt in the prevalence of Loving awake presence.
The session will be 1 hour and will include the highest level of Vortex Healing, guided meditation, mantra chanting and the opportunity to be with other like-hearted souls, connecting together.
Quite a few people who were part of the last group session did not appear on Zoom; in that moment I decided to still send them the healing. But this could potentially create a scattered-ness which is difficult for me and for the group, so please be aware of this. I am not telling you off by the way – not my style! However, please only reply this time if you can actively attend – thank you. If you would like to receive and can do so on Zoom for the duration, please message or email me and I will send the link and password for this group healing session.
I have just been sent this by a friend in Amritapuri (Amma’s ashram in India). If you have 20 minutes, I believe it harnesses the power to change your life. At the very least, it will touch your attitude and your heart.
I am well and happy 🙂 This strange period in history is giving me the chance to fully embrace my mantra from Amma, the 1000 Names of the Divine Mother (Archana), Amma’s White Flowers Meditation and all the Vortex Healing work I am doing in groups and individually. Perhaps the highlight of all of this is the EarthWorks IV Divine Door group which Anthony Gorman is hosting daily online. We are working together as a community to dissolve the knock-on effects of coronavirus, including healing specifically for the nurses, doctors, care support workers and hospital cleaners on the front line.
In case you haven’t seen it yet, here is Amma’s beauty-filled message:-
I have decided to offer Free Online Group Healings regularly 🙂 The next one is on Tuesday 7th April at 10am. Please note that my groups are offered by Zoom only. Message or email me if you are sure you want to participate in this one, and I will send you the link.
Apologies to those who didn’t get into the last group. I have now worked out how to take more people per session 🙂 And apologies to those who were expecting the next group and this email sooner. I have been inundated with requests for healing, therefore the next group became possible only now.
A reminder that I have a powerful tool to assist your immune system, simply called Immune Boost. I channel it as part of a short immune protocol taught to us by Anthony Gorman in the last class. And the Vortex Healing infection protocol is effective against COVID-19, so please bear this in mind if you need help.
I am now offering distance healing only (at the same price as before):-
1 hr 15 mins = £75
My final words about the current world situation are that there is a Divine path here. Humankind is being led into a very deep evolution and that is not hindered by the corona crisis – or by anything else, for that matter. We may be asking, what can we do? One small thing we can all do – and that we do do naturally – is to open our hearts to each other. Every time one person does this, it affects everything in creation in ripples that venture out into the deep, of their own accord. The world is served not by our arguments but by our compassion, love and courage.
Love,
xDaisy
Ps From Mother Meera : “To bless your days with joy is my reason for being on Earth. Aspire for the inevitable happiness and all Grace will be given to you.”
Thank you for your rapid responses to this offer 🙂 The group is full so I will close it now. If you did not manage to get onto this one, here is something which you may find helpful during this period:-
I am well and happy 🙂 I am excited to offer you a Free Online Group Healing on Tuesday 24th March, 10am UK time.Please RSVP if you definitely want to receive this. I will then go about organising it using the Zoom app. The focus will be on alleviating stress.
I will write more fully when the writing flow is abundant. In the meantime, please note that I can offer you (as a normal session) an Immune Boost using a brand new Vortex Healing tool designed for this purpose. I can also use the Infection Protocol which is effective against COVID-19, so please let me know if you need this. I estimate that will take between 1 and 5 sessions, depending on the severity of the case (and the strength or weakness of the underlying immune system).
I am well and feeling very grateful indeed to be able to take (and even repeat) so many Vortex Healing classes at the moment. People have asked me why I do this and why I go to see Amma so much each year. Well the bigger reason why became apparent in a class discussion recently. Contemplate if you will, the impact that being awake out here ‘in the world’ is having. Have you ever thought about it? All of us living ordinary lives and daring to be conscious humans with a real sincerity for Truth, is actually its own transformative force. This force is indeed making a difference in the world. With this in mind the term ‘embodiment’ reveals itself to mean, livingfrom awakeness.
The most important thing
Anthony Gorman pointed out during EarthWorks III class, that perhaps the only truly valuable thing is time. Not money and not all the rest of the things we assign value to. But time. Every moment we spend directing ourselves towards Divinity, we are no longer wasting time. As Amma says, even one moment spent in meditation is not a waste of time.
Surrender
We, or those around us (particularly in spiritual circles), are frequently trying to surrender. But trying to surrender actually creates a rather nasty inner drama, full of conflict and struggle, self-judgment and the whole shebang – which may in turn block surrender.
True surrender does exist though, and does happen, yet it happens naturally. Perhaps it could be said that surrender happens when the time is right. It could be termed Divine Takeover. Sometimes what happens to facilitate this, is the Divine (in a manner of speaking) ‘sees’ that you aren’t willing to give up a particular thing in your life – so it simply takes it away from you. That movement is utterly different from the aforementioned struggle to surrender. It is rather like an adult taking a sharp object away from a child, which the child was experiencing as a toy.
Acting from Truth
There are many times in our lives when we wonder whether or not we are acting in the best possible way, or we question the truth of a situation. There is help available for this in a simple way.
When facing the situation, align inside (perhaps in the heart or spine) with whatever you see as the source of everything. This may be an avatar, the energy of a teaching, a lineage, a deep sensing of Truth, or something else like that. Then rather than asking, ‘What do I do?’, instead ask, ‘What needs to be done?’.
And wait…
Eventually a movement, or a word, or some other kind of guidance will arise. The idea is to move from a place of what needs to be done as a whole, rather than from what ‘I’ need or want.
Relationships
We often think that we are seeking, or are in, a relationship to find Love. But upon closer scrutiny, what we may find we are really looking for there is connection. This is an important distinction. But also, even that ‘looking’ for connection is really coming from feeling isolated. The consequence is that we tend to create co-dependant relationships, far more times than not.
The good news is, both Love and connection are already here 🙂 They are existing right now, as what you are – or in what you are (depending on the specific way you experience your true nature). When you see this, really truly see it…..wow….it changes everything…..
Imagine for a moment, no more seeking for connection. And then imagine no more seeking, full stop. Can you imagine that? What would it be like to not try to get anything out of relationship? I mean genuinely, naturally – rather than because a spiritual teaching told you to. What would that feel like?
Denial
Never underestimate the power of denial – lol! We all know someone who is in it. Of course, that person could never be us – lol! The position is easy to see from the outside. But how does denial work?
Denial creates a blindspot in a person’s consciousness. So much so that someone in denial can even state outright that they are not doing or feeling what they are in fact doing or feeling. A good example of this is a spiritual teacher who is abusing their students.
At some point the denial position was a choice, of sorts. Usually it would have been a survival choice. There is nothing inherently wrong with that. But harm comes from the consequences of that choice. It may have originally been made a very long time ago (becoming a patterned way of being further down the line, whenever a similar trigger arose). The question for the person in denial is, what am I going to choose now?
Furthermore, if it is Divine Intention for a person to come out of denial (and that certainly is an ‘if’), then it will probably take a sizeable event happening in their life to blow the whole thing up. If it is not in Divine Intention, then perhaps the denial will move in a future lifetime.
Bliss
Mmmmmm…Bliss……. We all love it. But what are we really experiencing?
Ric Weinman was explaining that from his point of view, there are two very different kinds of bliss. The most common kind is actually an egoic state. It is when the ego merges with the energy of bliss, expands and becomes thin – but very much still existing. You can see this a lot around awake teachers – within the sangha. This type of bliss can easily become an addiction. If the addiction continues, ‘bliss’ could actually become a trap which hinders the very thing it is supposed to be creating – i.e., awakening (or embodiment of awakening).
The other kind of bliss, the ‘real thing’ if you like, is hard to put into words. Bliss in this sense, is simply here. Bliss can just be here… Without fanfare. It is not a state. It is more akin to an ongoing expression of Divinity, subtle and beautiful. The only other way I can really describe it is to say that you will know it when you feel it. Some people are in touch with this all the time, although I would say that is rare.
Are you woke?
How awake we are really depends on how attached we are to the Light (Awareness-Being-Light-Love) versus the life ‘things’ (food, TV, sex, and other life attachments and dramas). The weird thing is that, given the choice – even though the Light is freedom and real fulfilment – the vast majority of people still choose the latter, including those who directly experience the difference. This is worth contemplating.
Much later on in the awakening embodiment evolution, there is a sort-of second phase. It is when one becomes unattached to one’s attachments. Then one is free to be the Light itself AND the humanness itself, at the same time.
2020 : may it be the year of 2020 internal vision for all of us 🙂
Love,
xDaisy
Ps A reminder that rescheduling or cancellation needs to be done 24 hrs before the start time of your session, otherwise the session will be charged in full.
I am very well 🙂 It is Shivaratri tomorrow! Yey!! If you would like to celebrate at Bromley ashram, here are the details (please note that I cannot attend due to Vortex Healing training, but there will be many other friendly faces to greet you there):-
9-10pm Break (please bring something light to share for the prasad)
10-12 midnight Archana & Shiva Abhishekam*
* You may take part directly in the Abhishekam yourself with a donation of £10; bring a little milk, yoghurt, honey, Vilwa leaves or flowers, and prasad fruits. Please register on arrival.
MA Centre UK, 211 Fair Acres, Bromley, Kent BR2 9YG
As many of you know (consciously or subconsciously ;-), there was an Earthshift last weekend. This is a Vortex class in which we get together collectively to positively impact global issues. Ric Weinman (Vortex founder) discovered that there are 4 sources of darkness behind the human species (not other species) and then there is a deep root which feed these 4. Rather than being anything to do with what people call ‘evil’, rather the 4 sources of darkness feel like the essence of separation. Every egoic behaviour you see in the world is supported by separation consciousness, and an important part of that is arising from these sources of darkness behind humanity. Examples of this in human behaviour are things like people wanting power in a megalomaniac way, or a person feeling hurt and then going about hurting others, etc. You may have asked yourself, why do people do these kinds of things? Basically because they are not resting in the Beingness within themselves.
It is not possible to simply break down all 4 sources (and certainly not the original root) at once, because they are simply too massive. So instead we created a huge filter around the ‘newest’ source of darkness. It was a huge effort as a group, involving the creation of many Divine Doors, structures, energetic crystals and other devices, which were then glued together and sent to filter the source of darkness out from human consciousness. The angelic realm gave us a lot of support for this 🙂 So now the whole of humanity is operating without being overwhelmed by the influence of at least one of these massive sources of darkness 🙂 We will continue this work in future Earthshifts.
I am in London, so let me know if you would like a session. Please message me via WhatsApp, phone or Messenger. Sending you Love 🙂 🙂 🙂
I am well and feeling buzzed after completing the first ever EarthWorks IV training with Vortex Healing teacher Anthony Gorman, here in London 🙂 There were around 70 of us in class, and so we had plenty of support for the embodiment process we were in personally (so-to-speak) and for doing some deep healing on the earth and humanity.
I am so excited! 🙂
Something cool which you may want to do – if you are a Vortex Healing student yourself – is to make use of the EarthWorks IV Rifting Divine Door outside The Columbia Hotel (where you do most of your classes in London). It is on the ‘traffic island’ opposite the entrance to the hotel, between the benches where there is an artistic circle created on the pavement. If you tune in with Merlin, stand in the middle and wait….be patient….. You will feel yourself being moved, perhaps even several times in different directions. Keep going, and at the same time be patient and rest in your heart. Eventually, when you feel invited to, move forward in the direction you feel drawn to, and leave the circle. You will have undergone a complete Rift of your life! In other words, the timeline and direction of your life has been transformed, to be more deeply aligned with Truth and Divinity.
I can now make Divine Doors at a distance, so please ask for this if you would like it. These work much better for a place or situation than an object, when at a distance. All Doors take around 25 mins to create. Please also note that the transmissions from EarthWorks IV automatically upgraded every Divine Door I have made before, including any for you or your life etc. 🙂
Whether at a distance or in-person, all kinds of EarthWorks IV Divine Doors can be made for you (including Merlin Divine Doors, Rifting Divine Doors, Healing Stream Divine Doors etc – please see last email for more examples), with the probable exception of one type of Door, which we have be warned against using on anyone personally, except ourselves. This is an EarthWorks IV MRLN Divine Door. Essentially, it could be too extreme in terms of transformation to use at will like that. The exception to this is that I can make one for a situation only.
A very cool addition to Divine Doors is the Merlin Magical Renewal Divine Door, which creates a kind of healing reset, or new beginning. One way of using this amazing Door is for you to write (to life itself) a short letter about your issue etc. I then create a Merlin Magical Renewal Divine Door into that letter. The Door will work on the situation indefinitely from there 🙂
As a group, we made EarthWorks IV MRLN Divine Doors into the following world issues:-
Hate Crime
Humanity’s treatment of other species / animals in our food chain
Slavery of all types [and the aspect I chose personally was race-based slavery, including historical African slavery]
The Avalonian Realm (a realm of incredible nature beings, which were very abused by humans)
The earth magic in Avebury, plus it’s upcoming awakening on the Summer Solstice this year
The Columbia Hotel (the class venue) and the people in it
Several trees in Hyde Park
On his own, Anthony created an EarthWorks IV MRLN Divine Door into the viral pneumonia spreading from China.
Please email me with any questions about the work we did – or about anything else (I know this is a brief synopsis).
I hope you have enjoyed hearing about the latest in Vortex Healing 🙂 Much love to you and see you soon 🙂
I am in the middle of Vortex Healing classes EarthWorks III and IV with Anthony Gorman here in London, and I want to share the magic, light, love and wisdom from this group energy field and learning discussions with you 🙂
Something quite extraordinary happened, which is that we made a Weather Funnel as a group for Australia, and the next day – it began pouring with rain there! Make of that what you will. For me, it cannot be coincidence. The Funnel is a Divine device designed to effect positive transformation in weather systems.
One of the main advantages of these EarthWorks classes is that I can now make all kinds of new upgraded Divine Doors and put them into spaces, objects or body systems etc. – even at a distance. So please do ask for this. A Divine Door is a magical device which permanently brings concentrated Divine Light into whatever it is made in. It takes quite a lot of huffing and puffing to make (because the shakti moves this way).
As a class, we made a :-
Merlin Blessing Divine Door into Tehran, in Iran
Divine Healing Stream Door (which then turned into a Rifting Divine Door) into a focal point of politics in Russia
Quantum Gate Divine Door into Fox News (actually Anthony did this by himself a while ago, but I thought you’d be pleased to hear)
Funnel Divine Door for peaceful existence, for the fall of the Persian Empire (i.e., for the ‘scar’ that this past event left behind)
Merlin Divine Door for the astrological pathway [similar to a body pathway] between the Sun and the Earth
Astrological Divine Door for Gaia
Healing Stream Divine Door into pornography
6 x Stopping Spots for the projections people make onto the English Royal Family
Stopping Spot for animal-based food production (in the whole world)
Rifting Divine Doors into the following stadiums: Wembley Arena, Wembley Stadium, The O2, Tottenham Hotspur (Tottenham), Arsenal (Emirates), Chelsea (Stamford Bridge), Fulham (Craven Cottage), Twickenham, West Ham United (London Stadium)
A Christ Consciousness Crystal to surround the Houses of Lords & Commons [an enormous circle and energetic crystal of healing with Christ energy, around the ruling powers in England]
Divine Clearing Network for the Russia / Europe 2nd World War trauma
Divine Clearing Network for the Japan 2nd World War trauma
Feel free to email me if you would like a more detailed explanation of what these are. I didn’t want to go into a wordy explanation here, for those who are not needing this. Essentially, it’s that as a group we have much more power to effect healing transformation in spaces or situations all over the world, by creating permanent Divine openings to facilitate healing. So that’s what we did, and it’s what these particular classes are really all about.
Something interesting which we discussed in class was capitalism. It really made me feel validated in my everlong scepticism about this modality. We were agreeing that, even though there may not be a viable alternative right now, capitalism only works if you are willing to really abuse nature and this planet. Maximising profit alone is a dysfunctional way to carry on, which has been proven through masses of experience. This led me to thinking about the Divine Feminine, perhaps because Amma has said that awakening the feminine / Divine Mother energy everywhere is the only hope for the world to survive and thrive. I didn’t truly know what the feminine was (on the level of mind) until I sat down to contemplate it. To me, the feminine is connectivity, receptivity, devotion, love, nurture, effulgence and trust.
I hope this newsletter finds you well and enjoying your day, or your process, or deepening ever more into this Truth at the heart of us all.
Happy New Year to you 🙂 🙂 🙂 May 2020 bring you real Love, Truth and effulgence on every level.
How are you?
I am well now, but I must be honest in saying that it’s been a wild rollercoaster processing everything in Steve and I’s ending. That is why I haven’t written for a while. What we learn in the break-up of a deep long-term relationship is often just as valuable as what we learn in the relationship itself.
As some of you know, I attended the Vortex Healing classes ‘Sensing III’ and ‘Sensing IV’ with Anthony Gorman in Holland, in late November. I found the classes so powerful in terms of how they changed my life and how embodied I was by the end, that I actually felt all other paths except for Amma and Vortex Healing fall away. It is hard to express the depth of gratitude I feel……and the expertise that I feel Anthony has, in addition to the sheer healing power of this lineage… The experience of catalysed evolution in terms of my path from taking Vortex Healing classes is phenomenal…
Anthony summed up the classes as a deepening in Magic. I agree! The classes are also designed to deepen and improve our sensing (psychic feeling / seeing) as practitioners. I look forward to continuing to share the benefits of these trainings in my sessions with you. I feel so grateful and happy that I can work with you: thank you for showing up to your lives and making this work a part of doing that.
There is a sacred Puja happening on the 5th Jan at the MA Centre in Bromley (Amma’s UK ashram). Please contact me for details if you would like to attend. The cost is £80 which all goes to Amma’s global humanitarian aid charity ‘Embracing The World’.
May I highlight again my cancellation policy? If you need to cancel or rearrange, please do so 24 hours or more before your session time. Otherwise the session will be charged in full. Also to remind you that I am no longer on Facebook (since mid-October), so please don’t feel offended if I don’t respond to your posts there, or if you can’t find me there etc. I am still on the FB Messenger app.
How are you? I have quite a lot to tell you today. Firstly, who came to Amma? And how was it, if you did? One of you summed up her first experience with Amma in such a beautiful way that I want to share it. She said, “I’m just completely blown away by her. It’s the highest level of love. How lucky are we to be in her presence.” And that’s it.
I found this part of Amma’s speech particularly inspiring. Amma said that anger is the only thing that can truly defeat us; whereas patience is true victory. She pointed out that there are numerous things each day which can cause us to get angry. But when we do, we actually empower that situation or person to control our mind. Amma compared projecting anger at someone with grabbing a burning ember and throwing it at them: we get burned first, before burning the other person.
As you may have guessed from the title of this newsletter, Steve Vieau and I’s awakened relationship has come to its final end. It happened on the 15th October, hence my recent silence and withdrawal. I don’t feel that it is necessarily appropriate to share details about how the break-up happened. But I will say that it was deeply shocking, almost like experiencing trauma or PTSD. After that, it was excruciatingly painful and devastating for me, because he is the love of my life. The pain was beyond words, unbearable loss – almost as if I was losing Amma – which plunged me into literally the deepest darkness of my life. Thank goodness I was then miraculously with Amma in person. After what She transmitted to me, I am now beginning to experience the ending of Steve and I’s relationship as a healthy and powerful hit to my ego: a way for the Divine to completely destroy what is untrue inside, and create transformation. The whole thing is gradually becoming sobering, humbling and liberating. Which is why I chose the title I did for this newsletter today. Thank you to all those who rode the rollercoaster of the past two years with us, supporting us in our journey together. I also want to express how much solace and love I am finding in the Divine, in my friends and in all of you: my work is even more precious to me at this time.
There is an opportunity to learn Amma’s incredible IAM Technique on the 23rd and also to be with Br. Shubamrita (Amma’s senior disciple) on the 30th. Please contact me for further details about these events at MA Centre UK (Amma’s Bromley ashram).
A note to please correspond with me via WhatsApp, Messenger, phonecall or text for a swift response – i.e., not email. For hopefully obvious reasons, I have deactivated my Facebook account, so please don’t think that I have blocked or de-friended you if we were connected on there. FB Messenger still works fine.
I am rejoicing in learning today 🙂 I learned so much from listening to Anthony Gorman on the Vortex Healing classes I took with him recently, here in London. One thing was a completely new way of looking at bridging (not sensing, but rather the connection from me to you which allows Divine energy to penetrate deeply into your system). The aspect of bridging that I knew most about, is a manner of connecting with you as oneness. And then it’s as if I create rivers through which the Divine energies pour and move themselves into you. But Anthony explained another side of bridging, which I had thought about less. He said that what makes us better bridges (and more “qualified” – to use his word – as healers to address issues in you), is actually what we have survived and worked through ourselves. I find this profound… I always had a slight inkling that my own life experiences were designed in some mysterious way for the service of others, but I hadn’t heard this spoken out loud before.
To follow on from what I wrote about the EarthWorks classes I attended recently, I wanted to mention that I can make a Divine Guidance Door into an object for you, as part of a session. This helps you with your own sensing and seeing from Truth. It takes about 15mins – like a regular Divine Door.You can sit with the object, or ask questions if that is more natural to you. For example, I made one for myself in a small rose quartz crystal. Other possibilities include an Angelic Divine Door. Believe it or not, I have one of those in my trainers! Nature Divine Doors are also available.
Here is the link for Amma’s Europe Tour. She will be in Surrey on the 1st and 2nd Nov. It’s free, it’s a party – what’s not to like? 🙂 Please let me know via message or call if you need any information about the event of the year 🙂 It’s also really cool to see her in another city if you can: you get more space and time to just be with Amma, when it isn’t your home city.
I will be at Marlies Cocheret in London on Fri 4th Oct and Sat 5th Oct, so please join me if you can (flyer attached). Booking is important for this.
On the 6th Oct, there is the Official Opening Day of the MA Centre UK (Amma’s ashram), which is in Bromley. It’s free, but advisable to book your place:-
Please note (as some people are not aware) that I need 24hrs notice to change or cancel a session, otherwise the session will be charged at the normal rate.
I am well and feeling rejuvenated after my trip to see Amma in Canada. I have to say that this was one of the most incredible times I have ever had with Amma, or in my life – well, they always seem to go together 🙂 I feel so much Grace and fortune have come to me, and so blessed to have been part of what was going on there. I am now back giving sessions in London, so please do message or call me.
Before I went on my trip, a friend was telling me the way he thinks of Amma. He said, “To me, she is the Master of Being Human”. I love that!!! I have often said that it is Amma who has taught me the most over the years about how to be a better human being. But this expression from my friend says this and even more. I generally think of Amma as Divine (which is fair enough, because I perceive her as the exact embodiment of Divinity in human form, very rare) yet this description stunned me. It also contains the flavour of Amma’s own humility. Swami Dayamrita once captured a similar-ish kind of sentiment when he said in a documentary about his time with Amma, “I don’t care if she is God or she is Devil – she is my Mother.” He went on to say that the biggest miracle he has ever seen Amma perform is her Darshan. Day after day and hour after hour. He said that it isn’t even the great human feat of being able to do this that moves him most; it’s that she would want to do it.
I would like to pass on to you some of the teachings and expressions I gathered from my time at the Toronto program. Something Amma said which touched me very deeply was this: don’t ever hesitate to give love, because love is the only thing that you can always give. 🙂 🙂 🙂 – You know those times when you’re not sure..? When you feel like withholding love from someone..? And then there’s that moment when you go one way or the other..? That’s the space getting addressed here I feel. So beautiful… Amma also said that this human life is meant to be born in love, to be lived in love and to end in love.
I think my favourite thing of all that Amma said this time follows here. During the retreat, we were getting ready for the Q&A session, in which anyone can ask a public question to Amma. Amma announced that it was time, adding that 2 + 2 can never equal 5: the Truth has been given already, she said. So we can ask about our personal problems, what we see, what we hear, what we sense etc. She left it at that. There was still a Q&A session, but how transformed we all were in it!
During her Devi Bhava speech, Amma expressed that we should not allow praise to get to our heads or criticism to get to our hearts. She also reminded us that growing old is not the same as growing up: growing old happens without any effort and is the journey towards death, but growing up happens when we mature spiritually, and is the journey towards immortality. She pointed out that even the next breath is not in our hands. We need to recognise this truth, she said, and spend the time we have left in this life realising God within (which she defined as, that within us which cannot be changed). In connection to this, Amma has often said that far from being a luxury, God realisation is our birthright.
I hope you enjoyed these Amma inspirations 🙂 If you would like more, Br. Shubamrita is coming to London on Sunday to give a talk. I will be there. Here are the details (this talk is free):-
It is possible to have been on a spiritual path or an awakening path for many years, yet still hold on to secret drives, particularly regarding happiness. Even though all of this can easily be spiritualised of course 😉 So, where does happiness really lie? I would love to receive your feelings and ideas about this, so please do write to me if you feel to.
I suppose the way this question got answered for me, wasn’t so much by asking the question and then analysing: it came in a different way. It was more a case of something which was there before, falling away – and noticing what was gone. One day, I went to Amma’s ashram in London to do seva. Before beginning the seva, there was a satsang (literally meaning, meeting in truth). I don’t know why on that day I had such a profound realisation, since I do many of those satsang practices every day, and have done for years. As I was chanting Archana (the 1000 Names of the Divine Mother), I was staring at Amma’s picture on the altar in front of us all. Suddenly something hit me like a flash : the source of happiness lies within me. It was quite a shock, and yet so evident and in a way, obvious, even though this whole thing was very subtle. Then a cascade of insights followed, such as the fact that happiness is never going to be found in a man, or in a partnership, in having a child, or in anything external. And also, I realised that the words ‘happiness is a choice’ (as Amma has said many times) are actually true. I realised that I am not “going to find it” in a relationship, I am not “going to find it” ‘one day’. Happiness is here, now! Happiness is already here, before I begin looking for it. On the level of thought, it was like, “Wow! Happiness is nowhere outside me.”
A reminder of timing and prices, as some people have not received these:-
All sessions are 1 & 1/4 hrs
In-person (in your home) = £100
Barbican venue (most Wednesdays) = £90
Distance healing (via WhatsApp, Skype etc.) = £75
I’d also like to inform you of some dates I will be away: I have very recently decided to visit Amma in Toronto, 12th – 22nd July. I will take that time off for sadhana (spiritual practices), self-care and seva (selfless service). Therefore please plan your sessions accordingly, and message me if you would like to book.
I hope this email finds you well and enjoying the warmth 🙂
I am well. I have recently been contemplating the power of regular rooted spiritual practice. I suppose for me I could say that this is the most important part of my day. That is kind-of a hard thing to say, because for me now the whole of life is equally important, in all its apparent parts. Nevertheless, there is something about getting up in the morning and doing an intentional practice that really moves me. What is your experience with this? I would love to hear your feelings and experiences.
In my experience so far, at all ‘stages’ along the awakening embodiment evolution daily sadhana (spiritual practice) is deeply important, precious and so delightful! I often want to sing about it after doing it! Luckily this is welcome in my household, since my housemates are on a level 🙂 What I feel about sadhana is that it has an immense multitude of simultaneous benefits. It both provides a structure for the day and frees one from all ‘imposed’ structures. It brings joy to the heart and radiates joy out to others. It ignites the innate (and often suppressed) longing for Divinity, whilst satisfying it at the same time. It transforms sexual energy. Most of all, sadhana is an expression of rootedness in Divinity (which is within every being). And it aligns one with the Divine, so to speak, in ever deeper and more mysterious ways.
The way I approach the question of which kind of practice to do, is simply to do what I am truly drawn to in a natural and organic way. I think this is important because, first of all, we tend to do what we love. Secondly, we are only likely to continue in the rigorous discipline of a daily sadhana if we actually feel inspiredby that practice in the first place. I am not a fan of imposed spiritual practices, or of doing what others do and hoping for the best.
Perhaps it is more about the passion and the open willingness which we bring to the practice, rather than what the practice itself is (within reason). And then that passion and that willingness (which are really the fire of awakeness inside us) eventually lead us to the next appropriate practice for us, or even to no practice at all, or directly into the ocean of Divinity which has always been right on our own doorstep. I would really love to hear of what you do, if you are drawn to a regular sadhana of any kind.
Ultimately, every one of our lives (so-called ‘spiritual’ or otherwise) is shaped by the extent to which we are rooted in reality / love / spirit / truth / divinity / mystery. And that is not confined to anything, or to dependency upon anything. Even upon sadhana. I am simply intending, here, to share my passionate enthusiasm for sadhana, and to illuminate a valuable way of assisting the rootedness in Divinity, which can sometimes seem elusive in daily life.
I am well, and continuing to adore and enjoy my time in my new houseshare in this beautifully green area of London 🙂
I want to let you know that I will be offering sessions this Bank Holiday Monday the 27th May for only £50 (distance healing, 1 hour sessions). Please text, call or message if you would like this 🙂
I read these words from Amma, which a friend had posted on Facebook recently, and they really moved me.
“There are many masters around the world who have attained the ultimate state. If they could do it, you too should be able to do it. Why have doubts? Try. Doubting is learned; you have learned to doubt. You have never learned to believe, to have faith. Doubt is your number one enemy. Faith is your best friend. Have faith and put forth effort. You will see the outcome.” ~ ❤️ Amma (Sri Mata Amritanandamayi Devi)
We have the tendency to think that there are very few masters who have truly realised the Self, and to want to give up easily on this birthright and this path. But, as Amma points out, this is not true; just as it is not true that it is too difficult for us. I think that for women in particular this can be a deep issue, which obscures the inherent awakeness. I really like this quote because of how orienting and opening it is. Read in a certain way, it directs the intent and perhaps the ego itself, even, to the Source.
I hope you enjoyed it and that you enjoy your evening. Looking forward to seeing you soon. Much Love,
How are you? I am very well and settling into my new home in South East London. Yes, I have moved 🙂 I had no idea what a real home with the most appropriate energies around you could do for a person… It really is amazing how different I feel about everything and how much freer I feel on a human level.
I would like to share with you this piece of writing I did about 3 years ago, which I uncovered during the move. I wrote it on a retreat, held by my friends Chetana and Will. I hope that perhaps it carries you somewhere:-
Divinity Intended
I cannot speak…for talking this out is nothing at all anymore. This Silence bears witness to all of that and is also all of that. No need for words anymore. My silent spoken friend, awareness, finally stayed after his tea was drunk.
I saw what is true for me and accepted the somehow burden of it. This being done, You came in again. Then, the deeper revelation – the surrender……. No holding back this time. You showed me all, You revealed Yourself in the night, in the day, in the detail – all at once. That timeless moment – Now. All my burdens are laid down in You. All my heavy weighty blindness and my deafness to Your song is gone. Now I see it all. The game that I played – You knew my every move. You were always bathing it in that Light, yet only now can I see this.
What needs to happen, needs to happen. Yes, this is true. But what I failed to understand was the pitch perfect way this is all going. The sheerness of a thousand songs called out in Your name. It must be as it is and as it will be. You are the One, I am That. I found You again, and in the finding, I am no longer me. No longer isolated from You, my beautiful Muse, my all, my everything. I didn’t know that this way is the way. This precise way which you are unfolding… Divinity Intended. Not outside anymore, not happening to a me. Divinity Intended. A button unbuttoned and a comb combed. The jeans and the hair of Existence.
What has to happen…it’s unfolding, opening – at Its pace alone. Only Your rhythm exists. You lovemaker… It’s all happening now, and now, and now. There is no other; no other at all. This is Your game, and I feel no distance from You anymore. Somehow, I have not transferred this, not managed to translate this – the incredible depth of what is here.
Upcoming events you may be interested in:-
Monthly Satsangs are now held at the MA Centre UK (Amma’s ashram in Bromley) 🙂 Please email vakeesyam@fastmail.fm
Marlies Cocheret is offering a websang meditation group (by donation) each Wednesday, at 6pm (UK time): https://www.marliescocheret.com/
Tony Parsons is having his next Open Discussion in Hampstead on the 1st June:-
My wonderful housemates are offering a concert at Alternatives (in Piccadilly) on the 3rd June. Please contact me re: tickets. They are actually upstairs singing as I write this 🙂 🙂 🙂 Here they are in action:-
I would like to remind you that sessions are now 1 & 1/4 hrs and are priced as so:-
Call-out (in your home) = £100
Barbican venue = £90
Distance healing = £75
Please make a note of these changes if you have not already done so. Please also note that the quickest and easiest way to get hold of me is via a message of some kind, or a phonecall.
I am well and finally getting the chance to sit down and write to you. At the end of my time with Amma in India, I actually went on an unplanned trip to Boston to do some advanced training in Vortex Healing, as some of you have heard.
The first class I took was the ‘Earthshift’. This type of Vortex class is a fantastic opportunity to work on the earth and on humanity’s consciousness as a whole. Ric (the founder of Vortex Healing and teacher of this class) had perceived a particular point of ‘choice’ in human history where the human race had moved into a type of Maliciousness / negativity / evil. He wanted our help as a group to release this karmic choice point (which had actually happened 200,000 years ago), thereby aligning humanity a little more closely with Love and Truth instead. The angelic realm was very involved in this. Amongst other extras, we also focussed our channelling power into humanity’s psyche and the individual karmic burdens which were part of this Maliciousness at the level of humanity as a whole.
The second class was one in which we melted into embodiment of another class I took a few years ago (you may remember, it was called ‘Awakening to Divinity’). This class was about resting in and as Divinity, utilising powerful group meditations and transmissions to assist this. There really isn’t much to say about that as you can imagine – lol! But what I can speak about are the new skills and insights I have to offer you in sessions, which also came from this training.
Ric discovered that the core emotional (karmic + genetic) position of human beings and also other species, is Loneliness. The Core Loneliness we feel deep down exacerbates the false sense of separation from Divinity, and in turn creates hunger for various things : power, status, security, sex, connection, love etc. etc. At the same time, the survival anxiety conditioning we carry fuels that hunger. So this core emotional position is very important to address and can have amazing results, which is why we even worked on Core Loneliness in the class itself.
Whereas before in session, the Divine was transmuting the point of choice (in terms of a particular issue) for you (i.e., the point in childhood where something happened, like a trauma, and you ‘chose’ to align with and continue a particular past-life theme), because of this class several other Choice Points can also now be released – including Genetic and BodyMind Choice Points.
Another amazing tool I have from this class is called Bio-Dynamic Flow. Receiving this work feels a bit like Cranial-Sacral or Jin Shin techniques. A variety of ‘flows’ and ‘tides’ that exist everywhere in creation are activated and directed to melt away places of rigidity and tension in the human body, and system as a whole. This Bio-Dynamic Flow moves in slow waves, akin to there being a ‘very long tide’ in Cranial work, if you like. Please note that this particular tool can only be used in person. The best description I have heard of it so far was from a client, who said, “It’s like relaxing at the level of atoms.”
I am changing the timing and fees of my work. Sessions are now 1 & 1/4 hrs:-
Call-out = £100
Barbican venue = £90
Distance healing = £75
Please make a note of these changes.
There are some upcoming events in London which you might be interested in:-
Mother Meera is giving her ‘staring Darshan’ near Preston Road (almost Wembley but not quite) on the 30th April and 1st May:-
Br. Shubamrita (a senior disciple of Amma) is coming from the ashram in India to give a talk on ‘Overcoming Loneliness’ (no, the synchronicity has not been lost on me – lol!):-
Sat 4th May, 6pm – 9pm,Merton Arts Space, Wimbledon Library, Compton Road, London SW19 7QA
Rupert Spira is giving a talk at the Steiner venue in Marylebone on the 10th May:-
How are you? I have missed you on my epic trip! I am back in London and giving sessions – so please contact me by text, WhatsApp or Messenger to book.
I think the biggest gift Amma gave me this time was to make me believe in love again. Or perhaps to remind me that I never really stopped believing. And she did this in one single Darshan (the hug). When you consider what I have been through recently, with the breakdown of my engagement to Steve, this is quite something. I had spent two months crying, yet as soon as Amma returned to the ashram from her North India Tour, I received a spontaneous unplanned Darshan (without even a token), and everything changed. It was as if the light-switch of my heart got turned on again. How she does what she does I will never know, but I am so deeply grateful that she does it. And thus my personal healing journey began…
I heard a story at the ashram, from a long-time Amma devotee, which I would like to share with you. It is taken from recorded talks by Swami Paramatmananda (Nealu). Many many years ago, when the ashram was a different place and Amma’s organisation was small, it was nearing bedtime and Amma was brushing her teeth with the Swamis. Suddenly she froze in the middle of brushing and fainted on the floor. When she had come round, Swami Paramatmananda asked, “Amma, what happened – why did you pass out?” Amma told him to go and look in a particular hut on the ashram. There he would find a monk sitting in front of his altar and crying to the Divine. Amma said that this monk’s focus was so one-pointed to the Divine, to realise enlightenment, that she had left her body to go directly to him. That was why she had collapsed. Sure enough, the Swami went to the hut and there was the monk in swathes of devotion, crying his heart out in surrender in front of his altar.
To finish (as I have very limited time for anything but giving sessions at the moment) I want to share an inspiring quote which I heard on the plane, as part of a TED talk on emotional maturity:-
“Courage is not the absence of fear. Courage is fear walking.”
I received more replies to my last email than to any other email I have ever written. It is good to discover that authenticity and transparency are so valued in the world. Your responses were wise, insightful and heart-warming, and all that positive energy has done wonders for the healing process I am in. Having said that, this is the process of my lifetime, and I am still so deeply in it that it is too early to share about it just now. As I mentioned in the other email, I will be taking my time with Amma in Amritapuri to heal myself. But please know that I will be giving sessions again from the 10th April onwards.
Events you might like:-
On Saturday 23rd March, there are Bhajans and Satsang (including meditation and chanting) at Amma’s UK ashram in Bromley. Please arrive by 5 30pm: 40A Letchworth Drive, Bromley, BR2 9BE
On Saturday 31st March, there are Bhajans and Satsang (including meditation and chanting) at Amma’s UK ashram in Bromley. Please arrive by 10 30am: same address
On Friday 5th April, Rupert Spira will be giving a talk in Marylebone:-
I will be flying tomorrow. Take good care of yourselves while I am away, and please meditate 🙂 Amma always reminds us that meditation is more precious than gold, and that even a few moments spent in meditation are not a waste of time.
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