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Jul 16

Back in London now :-) 

Hello 🙂 

The next Free Online Group Healing is Friday 25th July @ 1pm London time. If you feel drawn to do so, please let your friends / fam / etc. know by sharing this link with them. Please note that these Groups are now back to being fortnightly. 

Please book your place if you can remain on Zoom for the duration (1hr) in a quiet space free from distractions. Thank you 🙏 

I have returned from India early, so I am available for individual sessions. There were three main reasons I went to Amritapuri this time and, once they were all complete, it was as if Amma ‘let me go’ : I can only describe it like this. 

Please note that there is now a new schedule : individual sessions are available Mon to Fri, 10am – 6 30pm UK time. 

For online private sessions, book here (NB : ‘Schedule’ button must be pressed after payment, or the booking is not accepted and money returned):-

Please do not contact me regarding scheduling, rearranging or cancelling. Instead, please utilise the email you receive from Calendly for this. It can end up in your junk mail, so please check.

NB: lateness, no-showing, cancelling or rescheduling less than 24 hrs in advance of the session time will result in you being charged in full.

I would like to tell a little story about my time at the ashram in India with Amma. When my friends and I were reunited in Amritapuri, we received Grace upon Grace continuously for about a week and a half. It was like being in heaven… This is how it can be with Amma sometimes; just beyond…….. During this ecstatic period, each of us could be found at different times literally crying with tears of joy and gratitude, because of the things that kept happening to us. One such time, we were asked by another friend to participate in the seva of passing the Prasad plates during Amma’s Tuesday lunch offering. In order to receive this free food, Indians have been known to travel – by foot – for miles on end to reach the ashram. Obviously this action can be caused by hunger and poverty, but also – and this is one of the things I most love about India – by the cherishing of Divinity. The atmosphere in the entire country is permeated with that; no sooner than you step off the plane, you can begin to sense it. 

So there we were in the Big Hall in Amritapuri, watching hundreds of devotees eagerly lining up to receive a plate of food blessed by Amma. People queue two or three abreast and walk up a ramp to where Amma is seated, handing out plate by plate as they nervously take it from Her. If a devotee is very elderly or disabled, after Amma touches the plate it gets passed down to a line of sevites, who ensure its safe passage into the hands of that devotee, who by then is being helped to walk. Upon entering this seva, I broke down in tears. I felt overwhelmed by the sense of unconditional Love in the air, in my life and by the Grace flowing everywhere. And I just felt so grateful to be there, experiencing this, and towards Amma…I couldn’t hold back my tears. Eventually, I was given the position in the line of sevites whereby I could see the whole of Amma directly. As everything was happening, it was as if She opened a window into Reality for me. As I was passing the plates along, I felt everything slow down, to the point of timelessness : time seemed to evaporate and actions seemed to be as if in slow-motion. Then I felt a kind of motion like the fabric of Reality got consumed / sucked in / absorbed into Mystery. Amma began to reveal to me that She was in control of everyone in the scene. I perceived Her as Divinity moving every single person and manifesting every other movement taking place as well, right from the way people walked, to if the food plate dropped on the floor, to if it didn’t – every tiny detail was included in that Totality. Everything appeared as both moving and still at once. It seemed comical to me when I gazed at people, that they were acting as though they were individuals. Because I could see with clarity that this was not the case. It was like Amma was the centre, so-to-speak, directing Creation; with absolutely no separation between these apparent two. All was being directed by Her Will. 

Love,

xDaisy 

Aug 28

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Paramatman Dayz

Hello 🙂 

I thought I would try to share with you all, some of the Light from this evening with Mother Meera here in London 🙂 Is it coming through..? I hope so 🙂 Many of you will have been to see this Saint before I think. My experience this time was that Mother Meera was able to open a space in which my mind kept stopping. It was quite amazing… As she stared into each of our eyes (this time at some distance, because the format has changed), everything I was so sure about beforehand simply vanished. 

One moment I was in a mind-set, in the literal sense, and the next there was nothing there – only Light. The Vortex teachers say that Mother Meera is able to bring down from above and channel into us all Paramatman Light, which is the highest form of energy apparently. As her eyes turned, it was as if my being would respond accordingly : when her eyes were ‘away’ I experienced Silence and mind-chatter would come and go, sometimes intensely, sometimes not. But when her gaze turned, even a little in my direction, all of that would simply stop. It was as if it had never existed. There was only what could be described as the Beyond… 

Was it Bliss? Or fulfilment-emptiness-still-point-Silence-Grace? Naming it didn’t occur in those moments. Perhaps what she was doing was also a beautiful demonstration by the Divine of how we are all the time being moved by Divinity. It is almost like someone has a remote control and switches it on and off : now the mind is on, now it is off. Of course I do not believe at all that there is a separated special being up there beyond the clouds, controlling me or anyone else. What I mean is that I felt like Divinity was cheekily saying, “Look what I can do!”, and played a game like a child – just for fun, just for the pure joy of it 🙂 And in that pure innocence, It happened to break my mind. 

As I say, it was like one moment everything seemed real, but the next all of that vanished – just disappeared! As this continued, yet ever fresh and natural, a situation about which I had felt quite some degree of certainty, arose in my thoughts. But instantly it became almost…silly – lol! And this is a very serious situation I’m referring to! In that Light, in that density of Silence, which seemed to fill the room and go beyond the walls too and was penetrating absolutely everything, although the serious situation existed – it was resting now. Resting inside a context. It was being held. But not held by someone or something. It was being held but not by anyone or anything. The mind was very very spacious – it still is in fact, even after London public transport and the streets of Tower Hamlets 😉 The sense of expansiveness is amazing……… 

In that expanse of the indescribable, the serious situation discovered its own nature. There was simultaneously a deep sense of impersonality to it, yet not at all in a cold way and not in a detached way. Intimacy was still present and freed from any feeling of entanglement / merging / stickiness. 

Now sitting here writing to you, I feel like a blank sheet of paper. Unspoilt by the mind, untainted by the stain of harsh emotion. I feel I am nothing and I also feel at the same time that I am everything. My heart is beating, my lungs are breathing…there is no noisiness inside or outside. There is no trying or not trying. There is a kind of profound Stillness, yet it is subtle. 

The next Free Online Group Healing is this Friday 30th August @ 1pm London time. If you feel drawn to do so, please let your friends / fam / etc. know by sharing this link with them. 

Please book your place if you can remain on Zoom for the duration (1hr) in a quiet space free from distractions. Thank you 🙏

Another quick reminder just in case – sorry if this is annoying – from the last newsletter, that my fees have changed and are as follows :-

Online private session = £95

In-person session = £115

Online Group Healing = still free 

I am currently in London offering in-person sessions and will come to you if you live within tube Zones 1 or 2. Please contact me via regular text, WhatsApp or Telegram to arrange this (please pay before the beginning of the session via bank transfer, cash or PayPal). NB: lateness, no-showing or cancelling / rearranging less than 24 hrs in advance of the session time, will result in you being charged in full. 

Alternatively, here is the link to book online private sessions :-

Please do not contact me regarding scheduling, rearranging or cancelling : instead, utilise the email you receive from Calendly for this purpose. It could end up in your spam, so please check.

NB: lateness, no-showing or cancelling / rearranging less than 24 hrs in advance of the session time, will result in you being charged in full.

Love,

xDaisy

Mar 12

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Breaking Into Bhakti

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I am very well indeed and am now writing to you from London 🙂 

At the end of my stay in Amritapuri, which was filled with peace and happiness this time, I found myself sitting on the floor of the main hall for bhajans. My flight was to leave later on that night, so (in a way) I was saying goodbye to Amma. 

I’m going to try to convey what it feels like to be with this Living Master and perhaps a tiny bit of what She is doing with our paths to God-realisation. It is difficult to do so, partly because you have to have really stayed with Amma for a good amount of time to grok this, and partly because it is so tricky to communicate in words what is totally beyond words. Nevertheless, I feel to try. 

There was a particular bhajan which Amma sang that night which seemed to crack me open completely. I often feel that She takes us from a sort-of habitual mundane emotional state to the uppermost heights of what the passion for Divinity is capable of; and it can happen in a split second when She sings. All She needs is a tiny crack – a hair’s breadth of space – in which to reveal the Great Mystery in all its glory. As I was sitting there singing with everyone, this happened to a whole new degree. Amma leaves the very best til last 😉 

As my heart burst with longing, I started sobbing uncontrollably and there was a surrender which felt almost physical and beyond physicality at the same time, as if my heart opened from the front to the back (spine) and outwards, beyond…….. What I was feeling was a blend of the most immense gratitude, with joy – pure joy – and devotional Love (Bhakti). As my system underwent Amma’s ‘surgery’, I felt the return to Innocence, unconditional Love and the perception (as if for the first time) of what She is doing with us all. I could see in that moment, that Amma is the salvation for the whole of humanity. Ric Weinman once told me that She “has the long-haul job of transforming the heart of humanity” and Adyashanti once created a series about what he describes as ‘Redemptive Love’. It was as if those two insights came alive at once, yet in a brand new way, and then went beyond even that… 

There was this absolutely overwhelming – literally overwhelming – gratitude. It was for all of the above and also for the beyondness of what was being revealed, and yet simultaneously it was uncaused. There was zero sense of specialness, yet a complete sense of being present and available for the transformation happening through this body and heart and through the bodies and hearts of all those around me on that sacred ground. Perhaps it could be said that the small self / me / I suddenly broke open and was consumed by / merged into Divinity / became what it truly had always been. The crying was so intense that I couldn’t contain it in any way. I was floored byTrue Love, fiery devotion (which was also recognised as being choiceless) and the sense of being in the right place at the right time : of pre-destiny. That was mixed with the utter gratefulness for what Amma has done for us all, and how different things could have been if She hadn’t come to Earth during this era. This seeing engendered in me such confidence…….trust, surrender, and faith in the highest. It was breathtaking.

In the taxi on the way to Trivandrum airport afterwards, I noticed that there was complete Peace, “the peace which surpasses all understanding” as Adyashanti puts it. Thoughts would still arise and pass, but ‘witnessing’ – in the most engaged way – would simply perceive them, without interfering. It was a simple seeing, no more no less. I realised that you don’t actually need detachment when Bhakti has taken over. Love ‘becomes’ (so-to-speak) the only thing which makes sense. And the stunning thing is, it doesn’t even need to make sense. 

To discover more about the incredible global impacts of what Amma is doing, check out :-

Humanitarian

“Those who know the Self are always compassionate. They wish to see society thrive in peace and harmony. 

Love is the very foundation, beauty and fulfilment of life. If we dive deep enough into ourselves, we will find that the one thread of universal love ties all beings together.

As this awareness dawns within us, peace alone will reign.” ~ Amma

Here is the link to book online private sessions and please note that the usual schedule is now back on :-

Please do not contact me regarding scheduling, rearranging or cancelling : instead, utilise the email you receive from Calendly for this purpose. It could end up in your spam, so please check.

NB: lateness, no-showing or cancelling / rearranging less than 24 hrs in advance of the session time, will result in you being charged in full.

Looking forward to seeing you again 🙂 🙂 🙂 

Love,

xDaisy

Apr 19

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Free Online Group Healing: Inner Reconnection

Hello 🙂

I am offering a Free Online Group Healing this Thursday 23rd April at 1pm GMT. We will be focussing on Inner Reconnection: on contacting and relaxing into that inner sanctuary that can weather any storm without moving and without resisting. When we come into ourselves as we truly are, all anxiety, stress and strain subsides and we recognise the Love and beauty inside. In this way our eyes are opened to the beauty all around us, in each other, in nature and in all of life. This is the return to innocence that the heart both longs for and is simultaneously, yet is oftentimes hidden from feeling or view. I welcome you to de-frag, deepen and cast away any doubt in the prevalence of Loving awake presence.

The session will be 1 hour and will include the highest level of Vortex Healing, guided meditation, mantra chanting and the opportunity to be with other like-hearted souls, connecting together.

Quite a few people who were part of the last group session did not appear on Zoom; in that moment I decided to still send them the healing. But this could potentially create a scattered-ness which is difficult for me and for the group, so please be aware of this. I am not telling you off by the way – not my style! However, please only reply this time if you can actively attend – thank you. If you would like to receive and can do so on Zoom for the duration, please message or email me and I will send the link and password for this group healing session.

Love,

xDaisy