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Sep 18

Free Online Group Healing : tomorrow 19th Sept 

🕉 Om Amriteswaryai Namah 🕉  “The Guru is beyond the body; he is beyond being human. He is the embodiment of pure consciousness. In reality, he is formless and nameless. There is no person there. Only nothingness. How can the formless, nameless Guru snatch anything from you? How can he control you? He simply is, and you benefit from his presence. If you really want to use the Guru, then surrender to your own Self. Your Self is the same as the Guru’s Self” ~ Amma

The next Free Online Group Healing is tomorrow 19th Sept @ 1pm London time. If you feel drawn to do so, please let your friends / fam / etc. know by sharing this link with them (NB: these Groups are fortnightly). Please book your place if you can remain on Zoom for the duration (1hr) in a quiet space free from distractions. Thank you 🙏 

I have had the great fortune to be in several group fields recently and to embody and also learn a huge amount. This was from Adyashanti giving his finale event, the EarthWorks V in-person class with Anthony Gorman and an Embodiment class taught by Ric Weinman. Right now there is an extraordinary sense of Grace, Love and gratitude, in addition to a clear feeling of embodiment. Yet integrating all of this leaves me rather speechless to explain it – lol! Perhaps that’s the point 😉 

This appeared in the sky above us over Hyde Park, during a pivotal moment in conversation with friends on the evening the EarthWorks V class finished :-  

There are a few things from that very recent Embodiment class, however, which I would like to share. There were 157 of us present. It was beautiful to hear Ric reading from Adyashanti’s book ‘Falling Into Grace’, part of which contained fascinating notes on the end of suffering. The gist of this bit I feel is crucial to groc. It is essentially that, waking up to the true nature of our being but also waking up to a whole roomful of illusions we carry, is probably going to be the only way to end the suffering we feel. Awakening can be quite disturbing really, because “who wants to find out that everything they felt was real was nothing but a pocketful of dreams..? Who wants to find out that everything they hold onto and cling to is the very reason they suffer..?” 

Adyashanti went on to explain our addiction to approval, power and control, none of which brings an end to suffering – and, in fact, is the actual cause of it. So the truth is that most of us don’t actually want to wake up at all; we don’t want to end our suffering – rather, we want to manage it. We would like to have a little bit less of it, so that we can just go on with our lives as they are – unchanged, the way we want to live them. Hearing Adya’s words reminded me a bit of something Jesus is supposed to have said, written in the Gospel of Thomas : “Seek, and you shall find. But when you find, you will be disturbed. And when you are disturbed, you will marvel. And then you will reign. And after you have reigned, you will rest.” Taken in the correct manner and not by the ego, this statement can be very freeing. The deepest addiction we have is to suffering itself – and this is something we really don’t want to see. “The very thing we want to be without is the thing we’re addicted to.” If we look at this sincerely, it can be revealed that we have no idea how to live without suffering. We don’t know how to interact, what to do with our time and energy or how to be, if we aren’t suffering. 

Here is the link you need for Amma’s Europe Tour :- 

Amma’s Europe Tour 2025

For online private sessions, book here (NB : ‘Schedule’ button must be pressed after payment, or the booking is not accepted and money returned):-

Please do not contact me regarding scheduling, rearranging or cancelling. Instead, please utilise the email you receive from Calendly for this. It can end up in your junk mail, so please check. (NB: lateness, no-showing, cancelling or rescheduling less than 24 hrs in advance of the session time will result in you being charged in full.) 

Love,

xDaisy 

Jul 16

Back in London now :-) 

Hello 🙂 

The next Free Online Group Healing is Friday 25th July @ 1pm London time. If you feel drawn to do so, please let your friends / fam / etc. know by sharing this link with them. Please note that these Groups are now back to being fortnightly. 

Please book your place if you can remain on Zoom for the duration (1hr) in a quiet space free from distractions. Thank you 🙏 

I have returned from India early, so I am available for individual sessions. There were three main reasons I went to Amritapuri this time and, once they were all complete, it was as if Amma ‘let me go’ : I can only describe it like this. 

Please note that there is now a new schedule : individual sessions are available Mon to Fri, 10am – 6 30pm UK time. 

For online private sessions, book here (NB : ‘Schedule’ button must be pressed after payment, or the booking is not accepted and money returned):-

Please do not contact me regarding scheduling, rearranging or cancelling. Instead, please utilise the email you receive from Calendly for this. It can end up in your junk mail, so please check.

NB: lateness, no-showing, cancelling or rescheduling less than 24 hrs in advance of the session time will result in you being charged in full.

I would like to tell a little story about my time at the ashram in India with Amma. When my friends and I were reunited in Amritapuri, we received Grace upon Grace continuously for about a week and a half. It was like being in heaven… This is how it can be with Amma sometimes; just beyond…….. During this ecstatic period, each of us could be found at different times literally crying with tears of joy and gratitude, because of the things that kept happening to us. One such time, we were asked by another friend to participate in the seva of passing the Prasad plates during Amma’s Tuesday lunch offering. In order to receive this free food, Indians have been known to travel – by foot – for miles on end to reach the ashram. Obviously this action can be caused by hunger and poverty, but also – and this is one of the things I most love about India – by the cherishing of Divinity. The atmosphere in the entire country is permeated with that; no sooner than you step off the plane, you can begin to sense it. 

So there we were in the Big Hall in Amritapuri, watching hundreds of devotees eagerly lining up to receive a plate of food blessed by Amma. People queue two or three abreast and walk up a ramp to where Amma is seated, handing out plate by plate as they nervously take it from Her. If a devotee is very elderly or disabled, after Amma touches the plate it gets passed down to a line of sevites, who ensure its safe passage into the hands of that devotee, who by then is being helped to walk. Upon entering this seva, I broke down in tears. I felt overwhelmed by the sense of unconditional Love in the air, in my life and by the Grace flowing everywhere. And I just felt so grateful to be there, experiencing this, and towards Amma…I couldn’t hold back my tears. Eventually, I was given the position in the line of sevites whereby I could see the whole of Amma directly. As everything was happening, it was as if She opened a window into Reality for me. As I was passing the plates along, I felt everything slow down, to the point of timelessness : time seemed to evaporate and actions seemed to be as if in slow-motion. Then I felt a kind of motion like the fabric of Reality got consumed / sucked in / absorbed into Mystery. Amma began to reveal to me that She was in control of everyone in the scene. I perceived Her as Divinity moving every single person and manifesting every other movement taking place as well, right from the way people walked, to if the food plate dropped on the floor, to if it didn’t – every tiny detail was included in that Totality. Everything appeared as both moving and still at once. It seemed comical to me when I gazed at people, that they were acting as though they were individuals. Because I could see with clarity that this was not the case. It was like Amma was the centre, so-to-speak, directing Creation; with absolutely no separation between these apparent two. All was being directed by Her Will. 

Love,

xDaisy 

May 14

Deepening in Divinity 

Hello 🙂 

The next Free Online Group Healing is this Friday 16th May @ 1pm London time. If you feel drawn to do so, please let your friends / fam / etc. know by sharing this link with them. 

Please book your place if you can remain on Zoom for the duration (1hr) in a quiet space free from distractions. Thank you 🙏 

I would like to share something from the Q&A discussion during the last Group Healing. I loved this so much when one of you said it, that I requested it in written form afterwards. “The quote (as I remember from a few years back) was spoken by Yong Oh, a teacher at the Durango Dharma Center: “I’ve learned to love all of my karma, the good and the bad.” The phrasing may be simple, but living from that truth is hard!” 

As many of you know, I attended the recent in-person Deepening in Divinity class in Wakefield, MA. I am honestly still speechless about it… The only comment I can make, is that it has transformed my system and my life on every level I am aware of (and probably also those I am not aware of). The gratitude I feel for the Grace we all received from Merlin remains raw, tender, precious… Whenever I sit down and contemplate it, tears come to my eyes.

During the class, we were also gifted one night with the presence of a talented kirtan artist who used to play with Krishna Das, called Shubal. He recounted a Darshan he had once had with Amma. During it, he asked Her, “What can I do about my addictions?” Amma responded by explaining that his addictions were like a comb for a bald head. She went on to say, “The medicine for your illness lies in the space between your thoughts.”

For online private sessions, book here (NB : ‘Schedule’ button must be pressed after payment, or the booking is not accepted and money returned):-

Please do not contact me regarding scheduling, rearranging or cancelling. Instead, please utilise the email you receive from Calendly for this. It can end up in your junk mail, so please check.

NB: lateness, no-showing, cancelling or rescheduling less than 24 hrs in advance of the session time will result in you being charged in full.

I am very happy to announce that the film ‘The Necklace’ made by one of you, was selected for the SXSW LONDON Festival 🙂 This short film, in ‘The Laws of Desire’ category, will show on Monday 2nd June @ ‘Rich Mix’ cinema 6:15pm, and on Wednesday 4th June 9:15pm @ ‘The Curzon Hoxton’ cinema. Here are links to explore :-

https://www.sxswlondon.com/session/shorts-laws-of-desire-f910fbf5

https://www.sxswlondon.com/session/shorts-laws-of-desire-2b39db7d

I will leave you with this today. Divinity is not a perspective. It’s way beyond that. It is so much deeper and fuller… It’s that which is holding all perspectives, all positions, all experiences – everything. It’s That. 

Love,

xDaisy 

Sep 25

I Am Free We Are All Free 

Hello 🙂 

How are you? 

I am well here in Portugal 🙂 The next Free Online Group Healing is this Friday 27th September – also Amma’s Birthday! – @ 1pm Lisbon / London time. If you feel drawn to do so, please let your friends / fam / etc. know by sharing this link with them. 

Please book your place if you can remain on Zoom for the duration (1hr) in a quiet space free from distractions. Thank you 🙏

Online private sessions continue as usual from here in Portugal :-

Please do not contact me regarding scheduling, rearranging or cancelling : instead, utilise the email you receive from Calendly for this purpose. It could end up in your spam, so please check.

NB: lateness, no-showing or cancelling / rearranging less than 24 hrs in advance of the session time, will result in you being charged in full.

I want to say how much I enjoy acknowledging the creative achievements of my clients 🙂 I consider them immensely brave and risk-taking and I see how daunting it is to enter this world as an artist. I think that’s perhaps having grown up amidst the peaks and troughs of my parents’ careers in the golden age of advertising. To continue in the vein of my last newsletter, I wanted to send you this link to Laxmi Hariharan’s new book [NB: her pen name is different] :- 

https://amzn.eu/d/geGA6Y2

By request from the last Group Healing, I am sharing the awakening which happened this year during The Magical Jewel class :- 

There was a meditation in which Ric Weinman asked the class to “use the world as the mantra”. All-of-a-sudden, for some unknown reason, I recognised immediately what was being pointed to. It was as if whatever Ric was instructing, I was able to sense both what he was talking about and where he was saying it from. So when the aforementioned words were spoken, I burst into tears and my breathing completely changed in seeing this : the world itself IS Divinity. 

Everything began to ‘become’ this beauty…and I couldn’t contain it. My body could not contain the revelation of that because of the depth it reached. Simultaneously, there was a sense of ‘this is the missing piece of the puzzle. This is what I always longed to admit to myself and to surrender to.’ I began more and more to perceive this true beauty and it broke my heart completely… Then the crying and the breathing really exploded even more and my body was breaking apart and melting away into That. I could see that every single thing was as-if being birthed by Divinity as its own Self. There was no longer any subject / object though : it was as if the world was the Divine in a complete and total way. The gratitude to perceive it all and the inherent joy of the world was totally overwhelming……… The beauty was so exquisite that I couldn’t contain in my body what I was feeling and so everything broke, again and again… The insights which were coming in were impossible to record mentally, but it was like a flow throughout the being. When I would pray to Amma, it was like She was melted into the world. 

I was shocked by two things : first of all, how could I have missed this? And secondly, how could I think that anything which had happened was bad or wrong? Then I started to feel this remorse about the things I had said about people or done or thought and I began to say sorry via inner prayer profusely. But when I said sorry, there was this benevolence and Love which met the apologies and were pouring over those “wrongdoings” like a kind of fluid of Love – yet beyond Love. Perhaps it was similar to what Adyashanti calls Redemptive Love. There was this profound sense of redemption of everything I had “done wrong” – and for everyone else too. I couldn’t believe I had ever thought someone had wronged me. That whole sense was completely gone……..and I saw that there was absolutely no truth in it. How foolish I had been not to see that no-one could ever do that and I could never do that. Everything was ‘forgiven’ so-to-speak, and then it was noticed that there was actually an inherent sense of forgiveness in the world itself. The world was forgiving everyone that was doing these things, including even me. And this was the overriding revelation : that the world itself is Divinity. There was no ‘Divine coming into creation’, there were no two different things happening, even though the Divine was birthing the world. At another time, this would have seemed like a paradox, yet there was no sense of paradox. All I could do, was to bow down in front of this beauty… Although there was no subject / object or anything like that, there was a bowing down in true reverence for what was being seen. 

There was an in-loveness with life, yet with everything being the same thing there wasn’t any neediness, attachment or drama. There were also no exceptions being made to this Loving : it was a total and utter thing. It didn’t make exceptions for this person or that person. I was praying, “Let me not forget this. Let me live from this, instead of going back to the old way of acting out and getting into dramas.” I was almost begging, “Let me not forget what I’ve seen. Let me live this now.” Simultaneously, strangely enough, there was such a stillness and a resting and a Silence. It was a recognition of what life actually is and how much I love it. It took me out of this ‘trying to get something from life’ and ending up eventually in despair, which was replaced with, ‘of course I love life!’ There was a distinct returning. It was a return to this absolute love of the world, this total Love…for no reason and with no agenda. From That, naturally arose tender celebration. 

Love,

xDaisy

Aug 4

Wild Grace 

Hello 🙂 

How are you? 🙂 

I feel amazing……..there is honestly nothing like US Tour with Amma, nothing…… The tailor-made intimate process She takes each of us through, especially if we do most / all of the Tour, is simply exquisite….. I will illustrate with a tiny tale as you read on. I am writing to you briefly today however, as I have been up all night for Devi Bhava with Amma and am on 3 hours sleep whilst on a slidey train ride 😉 

If you still want to join the Tour, there is time to come 🙂 🙂 🙂 Here are the details for New York and Chicago :-

https://us.amma.org/meeting-amma/ammas-north-america-tour

The next Free Online Group Healing is Friday 16th August @ 1pm London time. Plus there are two more directly after that – on the 23rd & 30th August. If you feel drawn to do so, please let your friends / fam / etc. know by sharing this link with them. 

Please book your place if you can remain on Zoom for the duration (1hr) in a quiet space free from distractions. Thank you 🙏

I will be in London offering in-person sessions from 13th August onwards until a date TBC. I will come to you if you live within tube Zones 1 or 2. Please contact me via WhatsApp or Telegram to arrange (price = £100, payable before the beginning of the session via cash, bank transfer or PayPal). NB: lateness, no-showing or cancelling / rearranging less than 24 hrs in advance of the session time, will result in you being charged in full. 

Alternatively, here is the link to book online private sessions :-

Please do not contact me regarding scheduling, rearranging or cancelling : instead, utilise the email you receive from Calendly for this purpose. It could end up in your spam, so please check.

NB: lateness, no-showing or cancelling / rearranging less than 24 hrs in advance of the session time, will result in you being charged in full.

I would like to tell you the story of what happened to me today, to try to convey some of the Wild Grace which permeates these Tours with Amma. 

I had just left my friend and the hotel we were staying in and wanted to find coffee, having stayed up with Amma all night for Devi Bhava here in Boston. I went to a random cafe nearby and, as I approached the counter, I could feel Amma (from within) nudging me to strike up a conversation with the people in front of me in line. I resisted, yet the feeling persisted. Finally, I started talking to them and discovered that they were actually Amma devotees who had just been to the program. We had a brief but warm and joyful conversation and afterwards I sat down in a different part of the cafe. I wanted to have breakfast alone because I was beginning to get concerned that I hadn’t booked anything for this leg of the journey. Basically, I was winging it – lol! I had no accommodation for tonight and no transport either. 

No sooner than I had finished eating, when an Indian family from London (who I had not yet noticed at the next table) began talking to me. They were grateful because I had helped them during the program to gain permission to give Prasad to Amma (one of those closely guarded seva activities in which we get close to Amma). In our short, yet also somehow timeless conversation, they ended up giving me vital information about Q&As with Amma – without even knowing that this matter was at the forefront of my mind. 

The next moment, the lady from the earlier conversation (at the counter) approached me and asked if I wanted a ride as she was about to leave for Boston airport. I checked the route and area and realised I could easily access the city from there, so I gratefully accepted her offer – thinking that I would get a hotel for the night in Boston itself. I prayed with gratitude to Amma, already amazed by the assistance I was being offered by complete strangers and feeling the rising Grace behind it all. In the car, this lady (Aishwarya / Landry) told me a story about a family she had met on Europe Tour in Barcelona in 2018. Later on in the car journey, I mentioned Vortex Healing and – to my amazement – it turned out that the family from her story was Daniel Wald, Amanda and Mala (friends / Vortex Healing teacher)! Aishwarya and I were so blown away that we were almost screaming with delight and her teenage daughter Uma had to tell us to pipe down – lol! We had a beautiful, warm and wonderful conversation for the rest of the journey 🙂 filled with sharing and stories. When I got out of the car, I thought I may as well search for a hotel there, since sometimes they are less expensive near an airport. Literally just as I opened my phone to do so, I received a message out-of-the-blue from a devotee friend whom I had seen earlier on the Tour. For some reason, even though we rarely contact each other, she messaged specifically to offer me a place to stay! 🙂 I was mesmerised, especially by the timing….… And so it has unfolded and I am now on the train to her place in beautiful Rhode Island, to swim in the Atlantic and unwind, before the New York leg of Amma’s Tour.

I am looking forward to seeing you soon 🙂 

Love,

xDaisy

Mar 12

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Breaking Into Bhakti

Hello 🙂

How are you?

I am very well indeed and am now writing to you from London 🙂 

At the end of my stay in Amritapuri, which was filled with peace and happiness this time, I found myself sitting on the floor of the main hall for bhajans. My flight was to leave later on that night, so (in a way) I was saying goodbye to Amma. 

I’m going to try to convey what it feels like to be with this Living Master and perhaps a tiny bit of what She is doing with our paths to God-realisation. It is difficult to do so, partly because you have to have really stayed with Amma for a good amount of time to grok this, and partly because it is so tricky to communicate in words what is totally beyond words. Nevertheless, I feel to try. 

There was a particular bhajan which Amma sang that night which seemed to crack me open completely. I often feel that She takes us from a sort-of habitual mundane emotional state to the uppermost heights of what the passion for Divinity is capable of; and it can happen in a split second when She sings. All She needs is a tiny crack – a hair’s breadth of space – in which to reveal the Great Mystery in all its glory. As I was sitting there singing with everyone, this happened to a whole new degree. Amma leaves the very best til last 😉 

As my heart burst with longing, I started sobbing uncontrollably and there was a surrender which felt almost physical and beyond physicality at the same time, as if my heart opened from the front to the back (spine) and outwards, beyond…….. What I was feeling was a blend of the most immense gratitude, with joy – pure joy – and devotional Love (Bhakti). As my system underwent Amma’s ‘surgery’, I felt the return to Innocence, unconditional Love and the perception (as if for the first time) of what She is doing with us all. I could see in that moment, that Amma is the salvation for the whole of humanity. Ric Weinman once told me that She “has the long-haul job of transforming the heart of humanity” and Adyashanti once created a series about what he describes as ‘Redemptive Love’. It was as if those two insights came alive at once, yet in a brand new way, and then went beyond even that… 

There was this absolutely overwhelming – literally overwhelming – gratitude. It was for all of the above and also for the beyondness of what was being revealed, and yet simultaneously it was uncaused. There was zero sense of specialness, yet a complete sense of being present and available for the transformation happening through this body and heart and through the bodies and hearts of all those around me on that sacred ground. Perhaps it could be said that the small self / me / I suddenly broke open and was consumed by / merged into Divinity / became what it truly had always been. The crying was so intense that I couldn’t contain it in any way. I was floored byTrue Love, fiery devotion (which was also recognised as being choiceless) and the sense of being in the right place at the right time : of pre-destiny. That was mixed with the utter gratefulness for what Amma has done for us all, and how different things could have been if She hadn’t come to Earth during this era. This seeing engendered in me such confidence…….trust, surrender, and faith in the highest. It was breathtaking.

In the taxi on the way to Trivandrum airport afterwards, I noticed that there was complete Peace, “the peace which surpasses all understanding” as Adyashanti puts it. Thoughts would still arise and pass, but ‘witnessing’ – in the most engaged way – would simply perceive them, without interfering. It was a simple seeing, no more no less. I realised that you don’t actually need detachment when Bhakti has taken over. Love ‘becomes’ (so-to-speak) the only thing which makes sense. And the stunning thing is, it doesn’t even need to make sense. 

To discover more about the incredible global impacts of what Amma is doing, check out :-

Humanitarian

“Those who know the Self are always compassionate. They wish to see society thrive in peace and harmony. 

Love is the very foundation, beauty and fulfilment of life. If we dive deep enough into ourselves, we will find that the one thread of universal love ties all beings together.

As this awareness dawns within us, peace alone will reign.” ~ Amma

Here is the link to book online private sessions and please note that the usual schedule is now back on :-

Please do not contact me regarding scheduling, rearranging or cancelling : instead, utilise the email you receive from Calendly for this purpose. It could end up in your spam, so please check.

NB: lateness, no-showing or cancelling / rearranging less than 24 hrs in advance of the session time, will result in you being charged in full.

Looking forward to seeing you again 🙂 🙂 🙂 

Love,

xDaisy

Jan 20

A Rain of Grace

Hello 🙂

How are you? 

It has been an incredibly busy time during December 2023 and January 2024. Happily so, with many many blessings and much Grace, but yet so very busy indeed. I want to apologise for not finding the time to do the Group on the 12th Jan, for not being so available lately and for not getting back to all of your emails and messages. 

I also want to thank you, for all your inner work in 2023, which made my job as a healer such a delight. I love what I do and I love working with you 🙂 I feel so fortunate to be working with such interesting, intelligent, loving and sincere beings. May we all get what we need and our life’s goal. 

Having arrived in India on the 16th of this month, I have had quite a ride already with travel and illness (India digestive stuff). But it has all been so right….. You know when you just realise the profound ‘rightness’ of the experiences you are having..? I don’t know if that’s really the correct word for the context, but I think you probably get the gist.

I am currently in Goa and will be travelling to Cochin in Kerala on the 24th and then on to the ashram (Amritapuri) on the 26th. As much as I would like to work from my room here in Goa, the connectivity just isn’t reliable enough. I am hoping that once I reach the ashram, I will be given a room which makes online private sessions possible. I miss you all and miss giving the sessions I so love. Although it has to be said that I will have very limited access to reliable connectivity, you can try me on WhatsApp or Telegram if you need something – especially if you are experiencing a healing emergency / crisis. 

There is something important I want to share with you all. I had a deep and mystical experience of Truth just now, whilst watching one of my favourite films of all time. These words then came through, perhaps partially channelled, perhaps partially from my interpretation of what I realised in that moment :- 

Please always know that a Rain of Grace is falling upon you. Divinity is always always always here, perfectly available and present. Listening within is the way. Doing so, any person can find the sole force of this entire universe and fall into That endlessly, or even only for a few seconds. Yet such ‘seconds’ will possibly change the rest of that person’s life, forever. 

Trust your feelings, and from there trust what is the basis of those feelings (and of all things), and from there, dive even deeper still. Surrender now, and you will never regret doing so. Be here now, and you will never regret doing so. Give yourself peace now, and you will never regret doing so. Always know that you are loved beyond imagining, by the Formless itself – in fact by Divinity in and out of form. 

I sometimes think that Unconditional Love is the only thing worth calling reality. 

It’s unlikely that I will be able to offer the Free Online Group Healings until my return to London in mid-March. However, once I am back in London I will be offering these, plus in-person sessions again as before 🙂 

For now though, you can book online private sessions via the usual link beginning in mid-March :-

Please do not contact me regarding scheduling, rearranging or cancelling : instead, utilise the email you receive from Calendly for this purpose. It could end up in your spam, so please check.

NB: lateness, no-showing or cancelling / rearranging less than 24 hrs in advance of the session time, will result in you being charged in full.

Please stay tuned to these posts for info on when I can resume giving online private sessions from here in India. I hope to see you soon 🙂 

Love and care,

xDaisy