Hello 🙂
How are you?
I am great 🙂 I’m writing to share the next instalment of the incredible class I just did in Virginia Beach with Ric Weinman, The Magical Jewel, following on from the shift I wrote about in my second to last newsletter. I suppose I find it somehow important to attempt to convey the power and lived experiences / aftermaths of this awakening embodiment evolution and these Vortex Healing classes.
Also, the next Free Online Group Healing is tomorrow 1st May @ 1pm London time. If you feel drawn to do so, please let your friends / fam / etc. know by sharing this link with them.
Please book your place if you can remain on Zoom for the duration (1hr) in a quiet space free from distractions. Thank you 🙏
To continue :-
Class ended for the day after that unbelievable breakthrough I had had and the plan was to go to a friend’s Birthday party at a restaurant later on and pick up groceries beforehand. My friends and I got into the truck of a person who is extremely dear to me and who had offered to drive us to the supermarket. Even before I got to the truck and sat in the passenger seat, I began to have sensations in my body which built and built. As I touched the dashboard of the car, I could feel orgasmic waves passing through everything… I mean, it was ecstatic for me just to touch the car in this way. Yet these waves of heaven were in everything / as everything, so it wasn’t personal and it wasn’t sexual as much as it was sensual; it felt like Divine Union everywhere all at once. My breathing deepened and transformed in a similar way to when the breakthrough was occurring, difficult to convey in words, but it was something like gasping while simultaneously breathing very very deeply. I became sensitive to the cold and any cold air on my skin was painful, yet my body was hot and especially my heart centre – which one of my friends was holding and commenting on. My whole body was waving, somehow like water, like the ocean, yet also shaking and I had nerve pain all over. I took two paracetamol and some CBD oil (without THC) because the pains were very intense, especially in my left shoulder, neck and head. I had to sit up very straight all the time in the car, which was kind of awkward, because there was Shakti was pouring out of me like continuous rivers, especially up and down my spine. My body seemed no longer to be in my conscious control, so I tried to let go more and more of trying to ‘catch’ it. None of this, nor anything else at all, was experienced in any way as a problem or as wrong. But my friends were worried about me because of how weirdly my being was behaving – lol! I could see how worried they were and I tried to reassure them often. My mind was blank, yet words were coming out of my mouth when in communication. I felt no conflicted emotions nor thought any thoughts in that vein either. Everything was experienced as perfect imperfection and as One thing happening, and on a deeper level (so-to-speak) very definitely as Divinity itself. Life was being felt without separation or individuation.
We arrived at the supermarket and went in. Immediately, I needed to grab hold of the arm of the extremely dear person because I experienced the place as overwhelming on all levels. I wanted to whisper to him and hide from everyone, especially strangers, because there was a sense of 100% exposure. I grabbed his arm and squeezed it tightly, so much so that I was concerned I may hurt him yet unable to loosen my grip because I then found I couldn’t walk – lol! I could only shuffle. A friend saw me and said I looked like a pensioner – LOL! It was so funny… Thankfully, the dear person was patient and protective and we made our way round some of the aisles at a snail’s pace. The experience was that my feet were so rooted that they were going through the ground into the earth and the Shakti shocks and rivers continued on and on through my spine and were exploding out of my body from every angle without ceasing. All the while, my breathing was still very weird like before. I still had pain but that was lost in the absolute wonder I felt….. I couldn’t believe how amazing a supermarket is… I just kept gazing at everything and everyone in wonder. I think I felt in awe that it all existed at all. And that so much was happening all at once – it was so ecstatic and orgasmic and thrilling! Even a few steps taken by ‘my own’ body was exciting for me 🙂 My mind was still blank and still words came out of my mouth sometimes, from somewhere, but I knew not from where. I wanted to whisper secretly to this dear person, so that no one could hear or see, because I felt so see-through in every way. I felt all of my inner world was exposed right out there in front of the whole of everything. I hid behind the dear person when anyone would come along. I saw objects in the supermarket, but couldn’t relate them to anything. There was no sense of need or hunger because I was not experiencing any sense of separation. I saw a loaf of bread and was fascinated by it : what was this? Why was it here? Isn’t it amazing..?? It was like being able to see the bread in the shiny plastic packaging, but without any overlayed ideas pushed onto it. I knew somehow that it was bread, yet bread no longer had any separate meaning or story.
Well, we weren’t getting very far in that state – Lol! So the dear one suggested that we go outside into the car park where there were trees and grass. As soon as I got out of the building, my system began to open outwards and it felt like consciousness was hugely expanding and being ‘allowed’ to free itself, unbounded. My body let go and the shaking, the breathing decreased a tiny bit and I could walk a little bit faster. I sat underneath a tree, which ‘helped’ further, although not as much as I had thought it would : I still had to sit bolt upright, rather than leaning against the tree, in order to allow the continuous Shakti to flow and release. I found it comforting to feel the grass underneath my crossed legs and root chakra and to hold onto the calf (leg) of the extremely dear person. Words of gratitude began to leave my lips towards him and we talked about some private things like love. I wanted to stay there forever…
I felt terrible, though, that I was unable to help my friends with our grocery shopping for the hotel room and fridge. I felt torn between responsibility, which was fiercely arising, and my body’s natural behaviour which was beyond my ability to alter. So I surrendered as best I could. Somehow, I knew that if I could speak my experiences into a voice recorder, that would help my system to calm (perhaps because it would gain expression). So I did that. After this, my friends returned and we all piled into the truck to go to the Birthday party. On the way to the restaurant, I wanted to wave at everyone through the window of the car because I couldn’t believe they were there. It fascinated me that people existed : I knew there was no separation at all, yet here were people walking and talking around in their lives and I couldn’t get over how amazing that was. I marvelled at it and felt like crying with joy. When I retracted my hand through the window of the car, I couldn’t understand how it was still there. How can you put a hand through, into a different place, and then draw it back? How come it didn’t stay in that ‘other’ space? I somehow expected any object / thing to just disappear and I had no issue with that. I told my friends that my hand was still there because I thought they might find it as surprising as I did. Lol! It was all very funny and filmic. The dear person and one of my friends in the truck had both taken a lot of acid in the past and said that this is what acid is like, which was very interesting to learn. Suffice to say, I didn’t make it to the party – lol! My friends went and the dear person and I ate some hearty protein, which grounded me a lot and after about three more hours, my physical and energetic expressions somewhat ‘balanced’. A funny thing is though, ever since the original shift I went through and to this day, I can no longer tolerate wearing perfume or using room spray, whereas before I loved them. Plus, my appetite has become erratic and lessened, even with some occasional nausea. I think I’ll leave it there, in case this becomes lengthy or boring. Stay tuned for more such fun, if this was fun for you 🙂
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If you would like to train in Vortex Healing, the next Foundational Class with Anthony Gorman is starting very soon : 8th May 🙂 Please book asap, since there might be only a few places left. I couldn’t recommend this class more highly to you 🙂
https://www.anthonygorman.org
Love,
xDaisy
Daisy Nokes 